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[Meredith] We surgeons
have come up with a stitch

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for just about anything.

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Get a mole removed-- subcutaneous suture.

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Snag your arm on barbed wire--
loose interrupted suture.

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Internal bleed-- silk.

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Slice your scalp open...
well, that's gonna need staples.

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I heard you got into an OR today.

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♪ I'll end up strange
If I don't go crazy first ♪

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I'm jealous. I haven't
held a scalpel in two weeks.

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[Jackson] Yeah, well,
if it's any consolation,

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it was 98 degrees in full PPE.

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Debriding a poor kid's burns
from a wildfire.

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All I do is run codes.

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I get a break when I get to get
a family in to say goodbye,

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and then I just run another code.

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Yeah, well, you're not gonna
like this part, then.

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♪ I shoulda known wouldn't heal me ♪

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I'm not even done yet.

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♪ And I'm finding some peace ♪

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[Meredith] We obsess about making every
stitch precise and strong.

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[siren wailing]

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♪ Life goes on ♪

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You asleep?

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♪ No free will without the choice ♪

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Thanks, Grey.
I was perfectly content in that dream.

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♪ I can't think around the noise ♪

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Where were you?

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[groans] I was in a field

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near where I grew up in Ireland.

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But instead of barley,

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it was just dead bodies.

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-And you want to go back there?
-[cellphone chimes]

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I want to go anywhere
that isn't this bloody place.

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Back to it.

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-Your mask is--
-Falling apart? Yeah.

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I gave my new one for today
to one of the nurses. [chuckles softly]

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♪ Life goes on ♪

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[woman, over PA]
Dr. Mannard to radiology.

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Dr. Mannard to radiology.

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[Maggie] Richard. Hey!

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-Is everything OK?
-Uh, yeah, yeah.

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I'm just going over patients',
um, uh, supply needs...

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-Oh.
-...with, um--

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Ready for you, Dr. Pierce.

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[elevator bell dings]

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With Dr. Fox.

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Uh, I'll just, uh, take the stairs.

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[Catherine] Go easy on that hip.

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You don't want to get hurt
on your first day back.

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Well, thanks.

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But the only pain I'm feeling
right now is square in my ass.

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[huffs]

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[Bailey shudders, groans]

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I swear, if that idiot broke my nose,

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-I swear I'm gonna sue--
-[Bailey] Sir, shut up!

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Uh, DeLuca, here.
Take the other father over to bed 7.

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If it's occupied,
I don't care where he goes,

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as long as he's
15 yards away from that one.

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OK. You got it, Chief.

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-[sighs]
-[Levi] There's tissue swelling,

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she had trouble putting weight on it,

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and I can see some slight bruising.

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It's probably a sprain,
but I ordered an X-ray to be safe.

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[Nico] What happened, exactly?

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I rolled it or someone stomped on it.

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I-I don't-- I don't know.
It happened fast.

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All right, well,
it's most likely just a sprain,

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but, Schmitt, shout when you get an X-ray.
I'll take a look.

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[groans]

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[Levi] Chief, that's exactly what I said.

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But you're not the orthopedic surgeon.

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Come on. Radiology! Let's go.

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[sighs]

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Bailey needs soccer or T-ball.

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Or maybe we could get him
to run wind sprints

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up and down the driveway
just to wear him out.

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You think that would be cruel?

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[sighs]

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What's with everybody
posting "Happy birthday"

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all over your social media?
Your birthday's next week.

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[sighs]

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Wait. No.

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I didn't miss--

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How is next week already over?

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I missed it myself until my mom called.

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[sighs] Our lives are insane.

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OK, but when your mom called,
why didn't you tell me?

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-I didn't want you to feel bad.
-[sighs]

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I feel bad now!

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[sighs]

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I'm hungry.

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[sighs] Babe, I-I'm not upset.

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I promise. I-I ju--

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I lived another year.

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I made a healthy baby
with a woman I am crazy about.

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[sighs] It's all good.

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Oh, God.

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[tape rewinds]

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You are the cutest, Scout.

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Or maybe not Scout.

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Why not Scout?

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I'm not sure yet.

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Oh. Why not Scout?

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I love Scout as a nickname,

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and I love you.

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I got that. I'm good.

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But we should name him.

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I agree with Link.

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-On Scout?
-On naming him.

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What about Tony?

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-Mm...
-You hate it.

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-Tony Soprano.
-[Link] "Tony Baloney."

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"Tony's a phony."

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I'm allowed to not like names, right?

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I'm not weighing in on that.

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Now... he's adorable,
whatever his name is.

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Right.

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Except... not Tony.

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No, not Tony.

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Thank you, sir.
Please wait over there. Next!

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[siren wails in distance]

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-Hey.
-Hey. Sorry to pull you from screening,

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but we're running low
on doctors over here.

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This should be the last kid
from the wildfire.

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Nice change of pace--

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I mean... not nice.

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Obviously, it's-- it's terrible
and infuriating,

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and, you know,
for the first time in my career,

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I haven't seen a stroke
or a heart attack within a week,

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and I know that people
are still having them,

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but they're just afraid
to come in because of COVID,

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which means they're dying at home.

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[sighs] Sorry. Not a lot of opportunity
to vent these days.

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[siren wailing in distance]

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Listen, Teddy, I know we've
barely spoken since, um...

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You don't-- You don't need to say it.

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But I've been thinking, and...

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there are some things we should talk about

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[sighs] maybe after work,

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-if our schedules allow?
-Yes, yes, yeah.

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Let's-- Let's-- Let's talk.

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[siren chirps]

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[sighs]

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[paramedic] 18-year-old male

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found half a mile
from the Black Ball Hill fire.

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Penetrating abdominal trauma
from a broken tree shard.

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Otherwise, alert and oriented times three.

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Let's get him to trauma 2. Let's go.

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Please don't tell my dad.

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[tape rewinds]

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Hey.

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Amelia and Link had their baby.

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Did you see him? Really cute little guy.

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-What happened last night?
-Oh, my mom told you, right?

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I, uh, had a last-minute
emergency surgery.

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I should have texted,

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or a voicemail would have worked, too.

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[chuckles]

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To tell me that our wedding was off?

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What? Not off, just-- just delayed.

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Why would it be off?

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I don't know. I don't know.
I just-- I-I guess I-I--

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I-It just-- I kind of-- I got thrown.

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Yeah. OK. Well, got it.

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Well, no. No. I don't want
to cancel our wedding, Teddy.

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-Do you?
-No. [sighs]

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[cellphone vibrates, chimes]

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[sighs] Trauma's coming in.
See ya.

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[chuckles] Would you like me
to buy you a Porsche, as well?

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Maybe a private jet?

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I know it looks like a lot--

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It doesn't look like a lot. It is a lot!

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It is unreasonable.

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Catherine, it is just what I need

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to keep my patients alive and safe.

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What is unreasonable

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is that too many of them
are Black and Brown,

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and not enough people seem to care.

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-I know that!
-Then why are you yelling at me?

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I'm not yelling at you,

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I'm yelling at the world through you!

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I hate this.

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I hate this!

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I am good at my job,

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and I have yet to meet a problem
that I couldn't fix

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until this!

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Try it, Maggie! It feels good to yell.

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I hate this, too!

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-Yeah!
-I hate this!

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I hate that I've had to cancel
all of my surgeries!

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I hate that people are dying

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because they don't have access
to healthcare!

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I hate that my entire day
is spent on a computer conference!

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Conference, conference!

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And I hate that everyone
is dying no matter what we do!

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Lord, I hate that everyone is dying!

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I hate that I can't fix it!

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I hate that I can't fix this!

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[both screaming]

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[both laughing]

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[groans]

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And I hate that my husband
hasn't come back to me.

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[sighs]

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[groans]

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I hate that, too.

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[sighs]

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[elevator bell dings]

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[Koracick] Hey.
[clears throat] Dr. Webber?

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Uh, I-I heard about
your PPE cleaning hack.

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Smart. [chuckles]

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Well, I'm glad to help.

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I-I-- You know, I've been meaning to ask,

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how are things, uh, with you and Dr. Fox?

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You want to know
if she's back on the market?

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How kind of you to offer. No.

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I-I wondered if I could, uh,
take credit for your idea.

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Buy a little goodwill.

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Yeah, forget it. I'll just, uh--

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I'll just hide from her instead.

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[tape rewinds]

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[Richard] We cannot blame, um,

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environment, toxins, family history.

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How 'bout that last quarter, huh?

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Cells need apologies,

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-and they need to know on an elemental--
-No, no, no. No, no, no.

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The conference confirmed that
they weren't gonna post this.

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-Damn it!
-[groans] They didn't.

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It was someone's cellphone.

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I've gone viral.

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All right. That's fine.
We issue a press release.

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We explain the whole thing.
We explain the symptoms

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and the dangers of cobalt poisoning.

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People need to know the risks.

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My reputation, Jackson--
It's everything I had.

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And it's still intact, all right?

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You have a legendary career. You got sick.

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It's tempting to want to point
to my illness and say,

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"That's why he made so many mistakes."

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But rigorous honesty
is a tenet of my sobriety,

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and if I look at myself in the mirror,

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I know there were things
that were not the cobalt.

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They were just me.

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Look, I told Maggie

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she should operate on her cousin.

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That was a tough call.
In that circumstance,

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I might have made the same decision.

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And I spent time with a woman
who wasn't your mother.

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I knew it was wrong, and I did it anyway,

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all because she... puffed up my ego.

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It wasn't physical. I made sure of that.

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But, still, it--

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it felt like cheating.

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And I have no one to blame but myself.

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[cellphone chimes]

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Ah, my patient.

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Ah, you-- you go.

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[indistinct talking on television]

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School is done, and the kids
are watching a movie.

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All three of them? How'd you swing that?

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I told them it's what you wanted
for your re-birthday.

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[sighs] I missed the real one,
so now it's today. Surprise!

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Amelia, you don't have to...

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Do you realize what I have done?

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When was the last time
every child in this house

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was doing something
that did not involve us?

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And the baby's asleep.

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The baby has a name.

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But... I just forgot it.

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[television continues]

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[baby cooing]

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[Link] Mikey.

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[baby cooing]

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Evan.

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Toby.

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What are you doing?

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Oh, uh, I figured

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if we couldn't pick a name,

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he could pick his own.

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Maybe he'll react
when I say the right one.

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Hmm? And I can't think of a better idea.

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Mark.

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[laughs]

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Gabriel.

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No, no, no, not that one.

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-Gabe Lincoln?
-Oh, God.

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Maybe we should try some girl names.

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We don't know if he'll identify as male.

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Good point.

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Kimberly.

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[monitor beeping]

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This kid's dad attacked another kid's dad,

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somehow Bailey's foot got involved,

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and now they're all in the ER.

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Well, I'm OK with that as long
as no one's dying of the plague.

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DeLuca's wondering if there's
an update for the dad.

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I mean, his blood pressure's
barely holding,

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and his burns are extensive,
so it's a long road.

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Oh, wow.

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These burns have gone through
the muscle, into his chest?

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Wait, you're touching his lung?

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Have cardio meet us in the OR.

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Get a thoracotomy tray ready right away.

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I'm on it.

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[siren wailing in distance]

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[sighs, sniffs]

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-Hey.
-Hey.

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Look, I-I don't know
when I'm gonna get another quiet moment,

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so do you want to talk now?

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Uh, yeah, sure. That's a good idea.

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There hasn't really been
much time to think lately.

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But what little time
there has been, I've been--

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I've been thinking about the future

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and our future.

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Yeah, me, too.

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So I took a look at my medical
directives and my will.

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And if anything happened to me,

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obviously, you'd get Allison,

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uh, but we haven't made a plan for Leo.

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-[clears throat]
-Owen, I want to talk about us.

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And I haven't talked to Amelia
and Link about this...

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I wanna talk about you and me.

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...but if you-- if you can't,
then maybe they'd be willing--

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[cellphone vibrates, chimes]

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-At least then, the kids would--
-[cellphone vibrates, chimes]

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You-- You need to get that?

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Yeah. I-I'm sorry. I, um--

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Um, yeah. The OR needs me now.

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Yeah. OK.

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Owen, look. Leo and Allison,
they're brother and sister.

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I w-- I-I don't want to split them up.

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Of course not. I don't, either.

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And if you're OK with them both--

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[scoffs] I'm not OK
with you dying, Owen.

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Let's talk later, then.

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[Meredith] Hey, hey, Hayes!
I got your page.

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-Please tell me it's a surgery.
-It's surgery.

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Oh, good, 'cause I can't
call time of death

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on one more person.

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And I don't want it
to be someone's grandmother.

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Oh, you'd prefer it was a teenager?

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Well, no, no. That came out wrong.

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I just want to do what I'm best at,

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and cutting people open
is what I'm best at,

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-and what do we have?
-Frankie Morris.

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Eight weeks ago, I helped
give him a transplanted kidney

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for ARPKD.

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It was behaving beautifully

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till a tree branch
penetrated it earlier today.

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Injured the superior pole.

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-Tree branch?
-He was running from a wildfire.

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-What do you think?
-I think I'm saving a kidney!

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-You coming?
-Well, I wouldn't mind,

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considering it's my patient.

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Stay out of my way.

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Uh-huh.

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[Levi] How does this feel?

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T-T-- It feels like
you put on a tourniquet,

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and all my blood flow has stopped. T-- Ah!

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All right. Uh, we got some soft
tissue swelling but no fracture.

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You'll be as good as new
in a few days if you stay off it.

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-Oh.
-Great. Just like I thought.

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[sighs]

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[Richard] Ah.

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Well, what happened here?

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There was a fistfight
between some parents.

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You start it?

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I live in a hotel.

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My sister-in-law takes care of my boys.

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I only get to see my husband

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when he comes here
to clap for me every 12 hours,

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and two grown men just used me
as a wrestling mat.

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-You're not funny.
-[knock on door]

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Dr. Fox is ready for you, Chief.

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-Ugh.
-Ohh.

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Should I tell her to wait?

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And if so, can someone else?
Because I am not her favorite.

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-[Levi] So conference room?
-[sighs]

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No. Cancun.

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See? That was funny.

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Chief Bailey?

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T-- Uh, tell her I'll be there soon.

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Ugh.

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[Jackson] Rigorous honesty, right?

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I am here to be
rigorously honest with you.

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No, not right now, thank you.

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I'm gonna tell you my truth,
and you're gonna listen,

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whether you like it or not,
because you're bed-bound

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and I'm not.

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I know it's really hard
to live with my mom.

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I know she can be withholding

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when she's angry or feels slighted.

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And I remember.
I know she didn't say anything

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when Bailey fired you.

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I have been where you are.

16:30.834 --> 16:32.917
I get it. And, yeah, I'm a little pissed

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about the whole other-woman thing,

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but you know what? A-At my core,

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I kind of-- I kind of even get that, too,

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because I know that Mom
can push people to need to prove

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that she is not the sun, moon,
and stars all rolled into one,

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to prove that you're your own man,

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to prove that, "Hey, sometimes
you're just plain wrong,"

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even if she'll never admit it.

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I also get that she kind of is

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the sun, moon, and stars
all rolled into one,

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especially when she loves you,

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'cause when she loves you,
man, she will move mountains

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to help you.

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She will dedicate herself
totally and completely

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to helping you, to getting you
where you need to go,

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however you need to get there.

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When she loves, it's super hard.

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and all of that love--
it's worth the rest of it.

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I know you love her. I know you do.

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'Cause you're physically better.

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The cobalt's pretty much
out of your system by now.

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You're still not yourself.
You're not even fighting

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for your damn reputation
or your career, Richard,

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'cause your wife isn't here.

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Why is that? 'Cause you sent her away.

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I know with all of my being

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that you need to get over this
stubborn ego, stubborn pride,

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and go call and claim
the woman that you love,

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'cause you're not gonna get over it.

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And you're damn sure
never gonna get over her.

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You know, I'm not too old
to kick your ass.

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[chuckles]

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I always wanted a son.

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Well, you've got one.

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So when she calls you,
just answer the damn phone, OK?

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Hear her out.

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If you don't want to do it
for yourself, do it for me.

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[monitors beeping]

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[Jackson] Can I get another
two units of blood on standby?

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[Teddy and Maggie]
Got your page.

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-[Jackson] Get in here.
-Both of you.

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His burns have gone past the chest wall

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all the way into the thoracic cavity.

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[Maggie] Full-thickness burns
all the way to the lungs?

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Have you ever seen anything like that?

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[Teddy] Yeah, in a bombing in Iraq.

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[Jo] Clamp.

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[Link] This feels like...

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[chuckles]

18:30.417 --> 18:32.917
I had this friend
in the bike shop in Venice.

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Mm-hmm.

18:34.750 --> 18:36.750
And one year, it rained like crazy.

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And he said, uh,

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there had to be this one moment

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when all the windshield wipers
on all the cars in the city

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were aligned and in sync
just for one or two wipes.

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He called it a fleeting moment
of profound harmony.

18:56.792 --> 18:59.667
Mm. This friend smoke a lot of pot?

18:59.750 --> 19:03.500
Mm. Yeah, he had a medical card
and a dealer.

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[baby crying over monitor]

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-[groans]
-I got it.

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You enjoy

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your profound moment of fleeting--

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Happy birthday. [sighs]

19:17.750 --> 19:18.917
-[chuckles
-[sighs]

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[continues crying]

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[sighs]

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This website says some people
pick names from a dream.

19:30.500 --> 19:32.500
What was the last dream you had
before the baby was born?

19:32.583 --> 19:34.542
Um, does it have to be my dream?

19:34.625 --> 19:37.709
Yes, because I don't think
we should call him

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Sex with His Dad.

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I don't think Snake in a Vest
is much better.

19:42.583 --> 19:43.750
Right.

19:43.834 --> 19:45.041
OK. Let's keep going.

19:45.125 --> 19:46.750
Power through it. Think outside the box.

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No wrong answers.
Say some things you love.

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Or we could just take a step back...

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rest our brains,
revisit the subject when we feel more...

19:57.500 --> 19:58.709
like ourselves?

19:59.291 --> 20:02.709
"Like ourselves" as in
"not hormonal and crazy"?

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I mean...

20:05.417 --> 20:06.959
-Yes?
-Go away.

20:07.041 --> 20:08.250
-I-I--
-Get out

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before I shoot breast milk in your eyes.

20:11.959 --> 20:14.041
[suction gurgling, monitor beeping]

20:14.125 --> 20:17.000
[Hayes] No one would be able tell
you've been out of the OR for a while.

20:17.083 --> 20:18.625
I recite surgical steps

20:18.709 --> 20:21.000
when I'm putting on my PPE.

20:21.083 --> 20:23.583
I'm claustrophobic, so it calms me down.

20:24.709 --> 20:25.875
How are your lot taking it?

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-My kids?
-Mm-hmm.

20:27.250 --> 20:28.583
Well, I haven't been home in two weeks,

20:28.667 --> 20:31.959
so I'm not sure they remember who I am.

20:32.041 --> 20:33.542
My lads are crawling the walls.

20:33.625 --> 20:35.792
I just pray to God they don't
do anything this stupid.

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[Meredith]
Gonna tell me when you were this age,

20:37.208 --> 20:39.417
you don't remember being away
from your friends for two days

20:39.500 --> 20:41.083
feeling like an eternity?

20:41.166 --> 20:42.875
Friends, no. Girlfriend, maybe.

20:42.959 --> 20:44.709
I once hoisted myself
over an electric fence

20:44.792 --> 20:45.667
to get to a girlfriend.

20:47.125 --> 20:48.750
What were you doing
behind an electric fence?

20:48.875 --> 20:50.875
Ah, we don't know each other
well enough for that story yet.

20:53.500 --> 20:55.917
All right, Frankie. Moment of truth.

20:56.083 --> 20:57.709
[Meredith]
We'll have to inspect the calyces,

20:57.917 --> 20:59.333
but so far, so good.

21:03.458 --> 21:05.667
Well, what do you know?
Maybe there is another tomorrow.

21:05.750 --> 21:06.750
[chuckles]

21:06.834 --> 21:08.458
[monitors beeping rapidly]

21:08.542 --> 21:09.792
-Damn it.
-Clamp.

21:12.250 --> 21:13.417
Come on, Frankie.

21:13.667 --> 21:14.583
Come on, Frankie.

21:17.333 --> 21:18.834
No, no, no. Ma, Ma,
you got to do the thing

21:18.917 --> 21:20.083
where you pretend that the broccoli

21:20.166 --> 21:22.417
is the brother of the carrots
that he already ate

21:22.500 --> 21:25.250
and that they need to be
reunited in his tummy.

21:25.333 --> 21:29.250
Yeah, like, uh,
"Please, Mr. Leo. Please, please,

21:29.333 --> 21:31.875
let me be reunited
with my sister in your tummy."

21:31.959 --> 21:35.208
OK? OK, good. Yeah, Ma.
I got to go. I love you. Bye.

21:35.291 --> 21:37.291
[Aaron] Excuse me, Doctor.
Uh, my son is Frankie.

21:37.375 --> 21:38.333
Is there any update?

21:39.250 --> 21:40.500
Do they have to take his new kidney out?

21:40.750 --> 21:41.959
Are-- Are we going through this
all over again?

21:42.041 --> 21:43.417
Well, he only just went up to the O.R.,

21:43.500 --> 21:46.625
so it's gonna be a while
before we know, I'm afraid.

21:48.500 --> 21:51.333
You know, when COVID started,
I told Frankie, "Now it's our turn

21:51.417 --> 21:54.250
to protect the doctors
and nurses who helped you,"

21:54.333 --> 21:56.083
and we have been diligent and careful.

21:56.166 --> 21:57.917
We have quarantined, and we have prayed,

21:57.959 --> 22:02.083
and now my own son, my son who is alive

22:02.166 --> 22:05.041
because a good person died
and donated a kidney--

22:05.125 --> 22:09.458
He threw it all away for a party.

22:10.625 --> 22:13.166
[voice breaking] I love my son
more than I love myself,

22:13.250 --> 22:14.750
and I want him to be OK.

22:14.834 --> 22:16.208
[crying] But I am so mad.

22:17.834 --> 22:19.792
I don't know how I'll even
be able to look at him.

22:24.750 --> 22:26.291
[Owen] Schmitt,
check on her post-op H&H

22:26.375 --> 22:28.667
and keep an eye on her urine output, OK?

22:32.917 --> 22:33.875
Owen...

22:34.875 --> 22:36.083
what's going on?

22:37.542 --> 22:39.166
What's wrong? I-- [sighs]

22:40.583 --> 22:41.667
What are you not saying? I know you.

22:41.750 --> 22:44.166
I-I know that there is something wrong.

22:46.667 --> 22:48.834
Do you think maybe
you're projecting, Teddy?

22:48.917 --> 22:51.291
I mean [chuckles] what are you not saying?

22:51.375 --> 22:52.709
What are you not telling me?

22:54.458 --> 22:55.583
I'm right here.

22:57.417 --> 22:59.542
I'm right here, Teddy, and I love you.

23:00.917 --> 23:03.792
And I [sighs] I trust you.

23:05.417 --> 23:07.166
And you're my best friend.

23:07.250 --> 23:08.667
So if there's something...

23:10.250 --> 23:14.291
you need to tell me, now is the time.

23:18.709 --> 23:21.208
No. No, there--
there's nothing. [chuckles]

23:21.917 --> 23:22.750
Nothing.

23:23.375 --> 23:26.208
[inhales deeply]

23:26.291 --> 23:27.542
[sighs]

23:29.959 --> 23:33.667
[Teddy and Koracick moaning]

23:33.750 --> 23:36.000
[Teddy] Oh, God. Oh.

23:36.083 --> 23:37.750
[Koracick]
Let's not wait till 7:00. Let's leave now.

23:37.834 --> 23:40.000
[Teddy] No, I can't. [breathing heavily]

23:40.083 --> 23:41.417
-Schmitt--
-[Teddy] I can't leave with you.

23:41.500 --> 23:44.250
-Oh, my God.
-Schmitt played this for me in the OR.

23:44.333 --> 23:45.917
-I am marrying Owen.
-...on what was supposed to be

23:46.000 --> 23:46.959
our wedding day.

23:47.792 --> 23:48.959
[sighs]

23:50.875 --> 23:52.083
So much for love.

23:54.834 --> 23:56.500
So much for friendship.

23:56.583 --> 23:58.208
So much for-- [sniffles]

23:58.750 --> 24:00.875
So much for trust. [chuckles dryly]

24:02.125 --> 24:03.375
-Owen, I--
-So much for us.

24:03.458 --> 24:04.417
-Owen, wait, wait.
-No.

24:04.500 --> 24:06.083
Oh, my God. Wait. Owen.

24:06.166 --> 24:08.542
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

24:08.625 --> 24:10.583
[crying]

24:10.667 --> 24:12.083
Oh, my God.

24:18.125 --> 24:20.667
No. They said he was out of surgery.

24:21.375 --> 24:23.208
There were some complications.

24:23.291 --> 24:26.291
Uh, y-your son's burns were much
deeper than we saw initially,

24:26.375 --> 24:28.375
so they had to take him back in.

24:29.125 --> 24:29.959
Sorry.

24:32.000 --> 24:33.750
Kayden told me about the party

24:33.834 --> 24:35.166
and asked if he could take the car.

24:36.750 --> 24:39.625
And I had this feeling in my gut
like it's not a good idea.

24:40.834 --> 24:41.792
But I figured,

24:43.041 --> 24:44.667
it's just a few kids.

24:44.750 --> 24:45.959
They'll all wear masks.

24:47.583 --> 24:48.709
No one will find out.

24:49.625 --> 24:51.875
[GoldFord's "Walk With Me" playing]

24:51.959 --> 24:53.583
Why didn't I say no?

24:57.333 --> 25:01.834
♪ Walk with me, I'll walk with you ♪

25:03.750 --> 25:09.542
♪ Down these troubled roads
We've stumbled into ♪

25:10.000 --> 25:12.959
♪ We're all in this thing together ♪

25:13.041 --> 25:15.542
♪ We're gonna make it through ♪

25:15.625 --> 25:20.667
♪ Walk with me, I'll walk with you ♪

25:21.250 --> 25:26.625
♪ Be there for me, I'll be there for you ♪

25:28.125 --> 25:31.083
♪ When we're running out of hope ♪

25:31.166 --> 25:34.083
♪ When we don't know what to do ♪

25:34.166 --> 25:39.625
♪ Like a candle in the darkness
Shining bright and true ♪

25:39.834 --> 25:45.500
♪ Be there for me, I'll be there for you ♪

25:45.875 --> 25:50.542
♪ Walk with me, I'll walk with you ♪

25:50.625 --> 25:51.917
[cellphone vibrates, chimes]

25:52.000 --> 25:54.875
♪ I know the rain of today ♪

25:54.959 --> 25:58.166
♪ Will bring tomorrow's bloom ♪

25:58.250 --> 26:01.000
♪ When we can't see where we're goin' ♪

26:01.083 --> 26:03.500
♪ Or what the world is coming to ♪

26:03.583 --> 26:09.041
♪ Will you walk with me?
Oh, I'll walk with you ♪

26:14.041 --> 26:16.375
♪ Walk with me ♪

26:19.041 --> 26:22.458
♪ And I will walk with you ♪

26:26.000 --> 26:28.834
♪ Walk with me ♪

26:31.083 --> 26:34.125
♪ And I will walk with you ♪

26:34.208 --> 26:36.375
♪ It's gonna be ♪

26:36.458 --> 26:38.041
♪ Oh, it's gonna be ♪

26:38.125 --> 26:41.375
-♪ Walk with me ♪
-♪ Gonna be, gonna be all right ♪

26:41.458 --> 26:42.917
♪ Everything ♪

26:43.083 --> 26:46.250
-♪ And I will walk with you ♪
-♪ Is gonna be all right ♪

26:46.333 --> 26:47.625
-♪ Yeah ♪
-♪ Walk with me ♪

26:47.709 --> 26:50.792
♪ Ooh, it's gonna be ♪

26:50.875 --> 26:54.000
-♪ Walk with me ♪
-♪ Gonna be, gonna be all right ♪

26:54.083 --> 26:55.500
♪ Everything ♪

26:55.583 --> 26:59.500
-♪ And I will walk with you ♪
-♪ Is gonna be all right ♪

26:59.583 --> 27:03.542
♪ Walk with me, and I will walk with you ♪

27:03.625 --> 27:04.583
[Hayes] Aaron?

27:04.667 --> 27:06.583
-Hey, Doc.
-Happy to report

27:06.667 --> 27:08.417
he pulled through surgery
like a champ, OK?

27:08.500 --> 27:10.291
Dr. Grey's settling him into the ICU now.

27:10.417 --> 27:11.542
And w-what about his kidney?

27:11.625 --> 27:13.792
OK. We did have to remove
part of his kidney,

27:13.875 --> 27:15.250
but it's still functioning,

27:15.333 --> 27:16.959
so we'll monitor him closely,
but it's promising.

27:17.041 --> 27:19.625
OK. Thank you so much,
Dr. Hayes. Thank you.

27:19.709 --> 27:21.583
Once the anesthesia wears off,
we'll set you up with a tablet

27:21.667 --> 27:23.083
-so you can chat, OK?
-Thank you!

27:26.166 --> 27:27.000
[DeLuca] Mr. Lee?

27:28.125 --> 27:29.542
These are Kayden's doctors.

27:29.625 --> 27:30.834
[Steve] How is he?

27:31.667 --> 27:33.083
Is Mrs. Lee here?

27:33.166 --> 27:35.458
She's outside. One second.

27:35.542 --> 27:37.458
-Let me get her on the phone.
-[Maggie] No, no, we sh--

27:37.709 --> 27:39.166
[Teddy] Let's-- Let's go and talk to her.

27:39.834 --> 27:40.667
Why?

27:44.709 --> 27:45.542
No.

27:46.875 --> 27:47.875
Oh, God.

27:49.041 --> 27:49.875
No.

27:52.125 --> 27:53.583
Just tell me he's alive.

27:54.375 --> 27:56.125
Just that much, because...

27:56.834 --> 27:58.583
I can't go all the way to my wife

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if I don't even know that.

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[crying] No.

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No!

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He can't be.

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Not my baby boy.

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[sobbing] Oh, not my baby boy.

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[sobbing]

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No! [crying]

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It's OK. Come on.

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I got you.

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I got you.

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[crying]

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So, that's your report--
that the world is on fire?

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[Bailey]
I think it's an accurate summation.

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What, you-- you want me
to give you the long version?

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Well, Koracick's $100,000 order

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was nothing but booties.

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We are losing people. We're losing money.

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But we'll keep showing up until we win.

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-End of report.
-[door opens]

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Look, I get that Richard humiliated you

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when he sent you away after his surgery.

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So what?

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You humiliated him
when you bought his hospital.

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You have both done
incredibly hurtful things.

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But he is someone who can
help you through this nightmare

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and bring you some joy,

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which is something we all need
more of right now.

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And it's only too late
if you decide it's too late!

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There are people dying!

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There are children dying!

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There's a worldwide pandemic!

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But you are still alive.

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And I am sorry that I'm yelling right now,

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but it really does feel good,

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especially when it's the truth!

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[claps hands]
Also an accurate summation.

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Schmitt?

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[Levi] Oh, thank God.
That was really uncomfortable.

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[Bailey chuckles]

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[crying]

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[door opens]

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[clears throat]

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Sorry. I just, um-- [clears throat]

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I just really wanted that kid to live.

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Yeah. We all did.

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Oh, OK, so you're on Owen's side, too.

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I guess that makes everyone.

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You think they should be on your side?

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I think everyone should just
mind their own business.

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Having your life fall apart is hard enough

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without everyone's judgment.

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[sighs]

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Let me guess.
You just followed your heart.

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Well, this is where your heart led you,
and it's no one's fault but your own.

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You had a beautiful life,
a beautiful family,

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and you blew it up with a butt dial?

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Do you have any idea how
humiliating that is for Owen?

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It's not my fault that Alex left you,

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but if you want to take that out
on me, then OK. Fine.

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You never made a mistake?

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You never hurt someone that you love?

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[voice breaking]
You never tried to sabotage

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your own happiness because easy and happy

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are so unfamiliar to you?

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They're so foreign
that you can't even live with it.

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I love Owen, and I broke us,

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and that feeling is unbearable.

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So you can judge me all you want
or you can take a break,

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because I'm doing enough judging
of myself for the both of us.

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Have you said all of that to him?

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I tried, but he doesn't want to listen.

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Try harder.

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[door opens]

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[door shuts]

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I got paged.

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Am, uh, I supposed to guess
what you wanted?

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Hey, Catherine. I-I got your page.

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I guess you, uh...

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[sighs] you heard about the delivery.

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Tom, sometimes a crisis
proves bigger than any one man.

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This one has proved bigger than you.

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You'll stay on as neuro attending,

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but I'm accepting your resignation
as chief of chiefs,

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effective immediately.

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[sighs] Are-- Are you firing me?

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[chuckles]
And you expect me to-- to stay?

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Uh, yeah. N-No, thanks.

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I-I can get a job anywhere I want.

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And, what, broadcast your sexual escapades

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in someone else's OR?

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Tommy, word gets around.

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This is a new world.

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If I were you, I'd take the win.

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[sighs]

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Dr. Webber, I'm hoping that you

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will accept his job as chief of chiefs

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and my apologies for everything
I've done to hurt you.

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I am so sorry.

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♪ Amen ♪

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Well...

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♪ Amen ♪

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...I guess we need to get
our hands on some COVID tests.

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♪ Amen ♪

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Why? A-Are you feeling poorly?

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No, I-I feel fine. Never felt better.

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I just want to make sure it's safe

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to do all the things
I want to do with you.

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♪ Somebody that they all know ♪

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♪ I double-check my phone ♪

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[Catherine chuckles]

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♪ No new messages, no missed calls ♪

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♪ Everybody needs somebody
To hold them too close ♪

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♪ I need a little mercy, mercy ♪

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♪ I need a little mercy, mercy ♪

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[clears throat]

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Andrew.

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What? I'm tagging you out, right?

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You know, I-I pulled off
this incredible surgery,

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and I sort of got a second wind,
so I think I can stay.

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You know, someone once told me
that sleep's important.

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-Mm. I should try it sometime.
-Mm-hmm.

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♪ Devil's not in the details,
He's on the front page ♪

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Is there any specific patient
you want me to check in on?

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-I can do it.
-It should be me.

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OK. You know that friend
who told me about sleep?

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She also told me that
I wouldn't be much use to anyone

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if I didn't take care of myself.

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She's a friend now, huh?

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She saved my life, so...

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she's whatever she wants to be to me.

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♪ I need some mercy, mercy ♪

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-OK. 1702--
-Mm-hmm.

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If she decompensates at all,
please call me.

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I don't care what time it is.

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OK. You have my word.

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Thanks.

34:59.458 --> 35:00.333
♪ Mercy ♪

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-Good luck out there.
-Thanks.

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♪ Mercy, mercy, no murcielago ♪

35:06.083 --> 35:08.041
♪ Just a Nissan low on gas ♪

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♪ Thank God for every time
He saved my ass ♪

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♪ Like back when we was on the Internet ♪

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♪ But we never copped nothin' ♪

35:14.208 --> 35:15.750
[Levi scoffs]
Not sure what you're looking for,

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but we probably don't have it.

35:17.500 --> 35:19.458
♪ Moral of the story
You can't take it with you ♪

35:19.625 --> 35:22.875
♪ Moral of the story
Everybody needs something or somebody ♪

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♪ Everybody needs a lil mercy ♪

35:23.959 --> 35:24.917
What are you doing?

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Look...

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I was a terrible boyfriend,

35:28.709 --> 35:30.917
and I get it if you say no, but...

35:31.959 --> 35:34.792
my thinking is that you just
need some stress relief.

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And while I couldn't provide you

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with the love and the affection
that you deserved...

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♪ Mercy ♪

35:44.041 --> 35:45.458
...I can provide you with that.

35:45.542 --> 35:47.041
♪ I need a little mercy ♪

35:47.125 --> 35:48.083
Stress relief?

35:48.166 --> 35:49.166
♪ Mercy ♪

35:49.291 --> 35:50.667
Stress relief.

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But...

35:51.709 --> 35:54.083
♪ I need a little mercy, mercy ♪

35:54.166 --> 35:55.583
...can we leave my mask on?

35:55.667 --> 35:56.583
♪ I don't wanna talk to God ♪

35:56.667 --> 35:58.083
That's not what I want to take off.

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♪ I just wanna be free ♪

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♪ Mercy ♪

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[packages clatter]

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♪ Mercy ♪

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[laughing] I'm serious.

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The next time you feel overwhelmed,

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just start screaming.

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It really-- It really took a load off.

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[chuckles]

36:24.875 --> 36:26.291
Everything OK?

36:26.375 --> 36:29.041
There's just a tent here
that wasn't here this morning.

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Surprise.

36:33.417 --> 36:35.083
What? What are you
talking about? What are...

36:38.208 --> 36:39.333
Did you do this?

36:39.417 --> 36:40.834
Well, sort of, yeah.

36:40.917 --> 36:43.542
I-I bought it, but your family
did all the labor.

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You work harder than anybody
I know, and you need your rest.

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So I thought this way,

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you could see your family
whenever you wanted

36:50.250 --> 36:52.083
without having to sleep on the floor.

36:54.250 --> 36:55.291
Oh, baby.

36:56.250 --> 36:58.333
[laughing] Oh, my--

36:58.417 --> 36:59.250
Oh, my--

37:00.458 --> 37:02.792
Oh, my God!

37:03.250 --> 37:07.000
This is amazing! Oh! I l--

37:08.125 --> 37:09.375
What was that?

37:09.542 --> 37:10.542
You were about to say it.

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Shut up. I was not.

37:12.834 --> 37:15.542
But if Kingsley is there,
I have something to say to him.

37:15.625 --> 37:19.125
-[laughs]
-And I know you don't like camping, but...

37:19.208 --> 37:24.625
No, no. You know, it turns out
when it's just a-a tent in a backyard...

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camping's kind of sexy.

37:27.250 --> 37:28.542
-Oh, really, now?
-Mm-hmm.

37:28.625 --> 37:29.625
♪ And into my heart ♪

37:29.709 --> 37:32.291
Oh. I got to decon first.

37:32.375 --> 37:35.250
♪ I wanna drive you wild, wild, wild ♪

37:35.333 --> 37:37.792
Wait a minute. You really gonna
strip and not let me watch?

37:38.917 --> 37:39.959
[chuckles]

37:40.041 --> 37:41.834
♪ I wanna love you ♪

37:42.875 --> 37:43.709
OK.

37:43.792 --> 37:46.458
♪ For miles and miles ♪

37:47.500 --> 37:51.208
♪ We can go slow, we don't need to rush ♪

37:51.291 --> 37:55.041
♪ I'll take the wheel
Make you feel every touch ♪

37:55.125 --> 37:59.041
♪ I wanna drive you wild, wild, wild ♪

37:59.125 --> 38:01.834
You got all the kids to bed
while I was building that tent?

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Can you forget all my birthdays?

38:05.667 --> 38:06.959
[chuckles]

38:07.041 --> 38:09.166
I know. It's pathetic.

38:09.250 --> 38:10.333
I couldn't even light the candle

38:10.417 --> 38:12.291
because I can't find anything
in this house that makes fire,

38:12.375 --> 38:14.208
because we hid it all away from Bailey.

38:14.291 --> 38:15.417
♪ We'll get there tonight ♪

38:15.500 --> 38:17.709
I love it. Thank you.

38:18.709 --> 38:20.250
They accidentally sent gluten-free.

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I'm so sorry.

38:21.667 --> 38:22.667
♪ You set me on fire ♪

38:22.750 --> 38:23.792
Mmm!

38:24.000 --> 38:26.375
[sighs] I really am sorry I forgot.

38:27.375 --> 38:28.500
Are you kidding?

38:29.125 --> 38:31.166
There were no major meltdowns...

38:32.166 --> 38:34.417
I got to have sex, and...

38:34.500 --> 38:35.542
...I got a donut.

38:35.625 --> 38:37.291
♪ Wild, wild, wild ♪

38:37.333 --> 38:39.583
The only guy who might be luckier

38:40.291 --> 38:42.625
is Scout Derek Shepherd Lincoln...

38:42.959 --> 38:44.291
♪ I wanna love you for miles and miles ♪

38:44.375 --> 38:46.500
...because he has the best mom
in the whole world.

38:47.834 --> 38:49.792
Now I've got to get a glass
of water, because this is--

38:49.875 --> 38:52.083
-They're terrible.
-It's terrible. Terrible. [clears throat]

38:52.166 --> 38:55.375
[Meredith] As proud as we
surgeons are of our stitches,

38:56.291 --> 38:58.667
they aren't meant to be a permanent fix.

38:59.583 --> 39:01.333
Your body still has to do the real work.

39:09.709 --> 39:10.834
Your mom's watching the kids.

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And the-- the gift shop
was out of flowers.

39:16.709 --> 39:17.750
Teddy, don't do this.

39:17.834 --> 39:19.583
Owen, I love you.

39:19.709 --> 39:20.792
♪ Yeah, wanna love you ♪

39:20.875 --> 39:24.250
I am sorry. I am so sorry.

39:24.333 --> 39:26.375
I will do anything you say to fix this.

39:26.458 --> 39:29.083
I don't want to lose our family.
Owen, please.

39:29.166 --> 39:30.208
Can we just--

39:30.291 --> 39:31.834
Please don't go. Ple-- Owen,

39:31.917 --> 39:34.333
let's just talk about this. Owen.

39:34.417 --> 39:37.333
-[music stops]
-What did I do, Teddy?

39:37.417 --> 39:39.959
What did I do
to make you hate me this much?

39:40.041 --> 39:42.208
When I cheated on Cristina,
it was because I hated her.

39:42.291 --> 39:44.458
-I was enraged, so--
-I don't-- I don't hate you.

39:44.542 --> 39:46.000
That's-- That's not what this was.

39:46.083 --> 39:47.500
Then what?
Because I've spent the last few weeks

39:47.583 --> 39:49.291
trying to comprehend why
you would do that, and I can't.

39:49.375 --> 39:51.000
I don't know. It was a mistake.

39:51.083 --> 39:53.291
It was-- It was a stupid mistake.
That's all.

39:55.417 --> 39:56.542
He asked you to run away with him.

39:56.625 --> 39:57.667
And I said no.

39:57.750 --> 39:59.500
No! No, you didn't!

39:59.583 --> 40:01.625
'Cause I listened to it.
I listened to it almost 100 times.

40:01.709 --> 40:04.542
He asks you to run away,
and you don't say no.

40:04.625 --> 40:06.250
You don't say that you don't want to.

40:06.333 --> 40:08.083
You don't say that you can't
because you love me

40:08.166 --> 40:09.542
or even because you have a family.

40:09.625 --> 40:11.542
You just say, "I'm marrying Owen,"

40:12.291 --> 40:14.417
like it's j-- like it's just
some kind of fate

40:14.500 --> 40:17.542
that you just... accepted.

40:17.625 --> 40:19.041
Look at me.

40:19.125 --> 40:20.041
♪ Once in a while ♪

40:20.125 --> 40:22.625
[Meredith] An army of different cells
comes in to build new tissue.

40:22.709 --> 40:23.875
♪ I see myself ♪

40:23.959 --> 40:25.333
I want to be with you.

40:26.583 --> 40:28.250
[sighs tearfully]

40:28.333 --> 40:31.542
I love our family.

40:31.625 --> 40:33.333
I love you. ♪ By the future or the past ♪

40:35.208 --> 40:39.166
[Meredith] And eventually,
you've produced enough collagen to heal.

40:39.250 --> 40:40.291
-Owen.
-I can't. I'm sorry.

40:40.375 --> 40:41.917
-Teddy...
-Owen, please don't go.

40:42.000 --> 40:43.083
Owen, please.

40:43.166 --> 40:44.250
♪ Once in a while ♪

40:44.333 --> 40:46.083
-Owen, please wait.
-[engine starts]

40:46.166 --> 40:47.417
Please don't-- Owen!

40:47.500 --> 40:48.959
Wait! Wait!

40:51.208 --> 40:52.625
[Meredith] At least that's the plan.

40:54.083 --> 40:56.875
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying

40:57.041 --> 40:59.083
you shouldn't obsess about technique.

40:59.166 --> 41:00.333
Please, obsess.

41:00.417 --> 41:05.000
♪ They disappear ♪

41:05.083 --> 41:06.375
[Hayes] No. No!

41:06.834 --> 41:08.917
Grey! Grey!

41:09.000 --> 41:10.917
Grey, Grey, can you hear me?

41:11.000 --> 41:12.000
Somebody help me!

41:12.083 --> 41:13.417
[Meredith]
Because even one mistake...

41:13.500 --> 41:15.417
Careful. Careful. I got her head.

41:15.500 --> 41:19.000
I need rapid response, oxygen,
and a gurney now! Go! Hurry up!

41:19.083 --> 41:21.917
Can you hear me, Grey?
Grey, come on. Stay with me, Grey.

41:22.000 --> 41:23.583
I'm here, don't worry. It'll be OK.

41:23.667 --> 41:24.834
[Meredith] One slip...

41:24.917 --> 41:29.166
♪ Deep enough to believe ♪

41:29.250 --> 41:32.000
...can cost a lot of blood.

41:32.083 --> 41:33.208
[man echoing] Meredith!

41:33.291 --> 41:35.750
♪ If every breath is sacred ♪

41:35.834 --> 41:37.208
Meredith!

41:39.208 --> 41:40.375
Oh, my God.

41:41.417 --> 41:42.417
Meredith!

41:43.291 --> 41:47.208
♪ Deep enough to feel something ♪

41:48.333 --> 41:53.542
♪ Deep enough to believe ♪

41:53.625 --> 41:58.083
♪ That every breath is sacred ♪

41:58.959 --> 42:03.542
♪ God, I want to breathe ♪

42:04.375 --> 42:05.250
Meredith!

42:05.333 --> 42:07.208
♪ Deep enough to feel something ♪

42:07.291 --> 42:08.542
Derek.

42:09.417 --> 42:14.625
♪ Please show me how to breathe ♪