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[Meredith] Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.

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Stay six feet apart at all times.

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Work from home.

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Only leave the house
for essential services.

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-[thermometer beeps]
-Thank you, Doctor. All good.

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[camera crew] We're ready here.

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In three, two...

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Good morning, Grey-Sloan.

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Richard Webber, here,

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...chief medical officer
for the Catherine Fox Foundation.

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[Meredith]
And at times, we even need you

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to isolate from the people you love.

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This time has been extremely difficult.

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Many members of our staff
have been unable to see their families,

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we've struggled with supplies,

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and we've lost more patients
than we could ever imagine.

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I'm so sorry.

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[Koracick] I gotta say,
it's a definite improvement

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from his last on-screen performance.

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Only two people in the lounge
at a time. Covid protocol.

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-Since when?
-Since now.

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[Richard]
Along with our patients,

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we need to take care of each other.

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That's why I'm pleased to announce

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that Grey-Sloan has been fortunate enough

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to secure enough Covid tests
for the entire staff.

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Today, we will be testing hospital-wide.

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It is not an option.

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Additionally, and effective immediately,

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residents will not be able
to go into rooms

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with Covid-positive patients

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or those patients
whose results are pending.

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[Jo] That's half the hospital's
patient intake!

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-[Levi] Why?!
-[Richard] It is imperative

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that we control the hospital's
transmission rate

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and protect our residents.

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Oh, and speaking of residents,

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please let's give our new class
of interns a warm welcome.

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[applause]

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And they have graciously agreed
to start early

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to help us in our time of need.

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[Meredith]
We have to press pause on everything

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that makes us feel like we belong.

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Sadly, quarantine looks a lot
like surgical internship.

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No joy if you want to survive.

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Sorry, I went to get a few hours of sleep.

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Hey. OK. Present.

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[Mabel] Patient was admitted
for respiratory support

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four days ago,
after a positive Covid test.

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Her O2 is 92% on six liters nasal cannula,

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WBC count is downtrending,

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and her latest creatinine is .89.

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How's she feeling? Any body aches?

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Increased fatigue?

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[Meredith, muffled]
Why don't you ask me yourself?!

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Lungs sound good.

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Hey.

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[Meredith] When are you gonna
let me out of here?

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[Teddy] I'm gonna let you out of here

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when I'm convinced
you won't collapse again.

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[Meredith] Well, that was
four days ago. I feel fine.

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I think you should just release
me with supplemental oxygen

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so I can go quarantine in a hotel.

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Let's give the room
to someone who really needs it.

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According to the tracker,
we're almost at capacity.

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I told them to take away
your log-in privileges

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so that you would rest.

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I have connections. I own the place.

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Well, let me take a look
at your inflammatory markers

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and your D-dimers, and then we'll talk.

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[monitor beeping]

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[Meredith] Who's on my service?!

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It's handled, Mer! We got it!

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And will you stop yelling?

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You need to save your breath.

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[sighs]

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-[flatline]
-[Maggie] Damn it!

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[flatline continues]

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[flatline continues]

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We were not able
to resuscitate Mrs. Lewis...

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Respiratory failure. Time of death 8:12.

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Do you want me to call her daughter?

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No. I've been getting to
know her these past two weeks.

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I should call her.

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I want to call her.

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You OK?

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That's the seventh patient
I've lost this week.

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I'm sorry.

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Me, too.

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-Are you lost?
-[chuckling] No.

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It's quiet on the peds floor,
so I thought I'd come down here

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and see if I could
ease the burden a little bit.

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Turns out, adults aren't as funny as kids.

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Unless you find death funny.

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Sorry, I'm in a really dark mood.

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How's Grey doing?

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Oh, I hear she's bossing
everybody around up there.

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Glad to see some things
are returning to normal.

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Want me to tell her you said hi?

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God, no. Wouldn't want her
to think she's special.

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[telephone rings]

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I would get another CRP, ESR, D-dimer,

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and I'd like to schedule her
for a chest CT

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before we even consider discharging her.

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I'm sorry, "I"?

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We. You. Whomever.

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-What's going on?
-Meredith wants to leave

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to go to a hotel.
Her pulse ox is above 92%,

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her ABG looks good, no fever for 48 hours.

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I'll check her daily labs,

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but she does not want any more tests.

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And this is protocol.

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And she wants us to follow it.

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Meredith breaks protocol
for every patient.

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We can't break it for her?

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Part of being an attending
means no longer asking for permission.

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-[DeLuca] Hey!
-[Maggie] Meredith! Oh, my God.

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-[DeLuca] Mer? Mer! Hey!
-Meredith?

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-Hey!
-Hey, Mer!

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-[Maggie] Meredith?
-Hey, OK, OK.

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-[Maggie] Meredith?
-OK. Let's turn her over. One, two, three.

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-[Maggie] Meredith, come on.
-Stay with me, Mer. Hey.

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OK, come on.

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-Meredith?
-[echoing] Come on. Come on.

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[in distance] Meredith!

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[seagulls crying]

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♪ Take me in ♪

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♪ Like I've never been ♪

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♪ Lead me now to your heart's chagrin ♪

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♪ Take me in ♪

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♪ By the river's bend ♪

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♪ Where I can wash away my sins ♪

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♪ Whoa, won't you take me in ♪

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♪ Walk... ♪

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Meredith!

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♪ ...me down ♪

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♪ To the hollow ground ♪

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♪ There I promise not to lose my crown ♪

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♪ Won't you take me in ♪

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♪ Oh, won't you take me in ♪

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-[Maggie] Mer?
-[DeLuca] Mer?

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-Hey, Mer, you passed out.
-OK, sats are 88.

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Hey, do you know where you are?
Can you hear me?

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I can hear you. And you're loud.

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Well, sorry.

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Come on. Take a deep breath for me.

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Come on.

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[Meredith groans]

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[coughing]

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I just was trying
to take a couple of steps.

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I thought I could make it.

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I want to go to the beach.

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The only place you're going is
radiology for a chest CT, Mer.

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No more tests.

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Meredith, that is where
we are going right now.

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[coughs]

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[exhales]

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[Link] E-Excuse me. ma'am,

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despite what you may read
or hear in the news,

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sunlight does not in fact kill Covid-19.

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Ha. I've been covering Meredith's service.

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I haven't been outside in four days.

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-What are you doing here?
-Hand trauma.

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You left Amelia alone
with four kids for a hand?

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She told me to come in.

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Oh. You're already annoying her.

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What's on your shirt?

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Ooh, that's, uh, syrup?

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I made pancakes this morning.

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Weird. You're a dad.

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-Missed you!
-Yeah.

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[laughs]

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Abdominal pain consult in the ER.

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[snaps fingers] I have faith in you.

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Covid test is still pending.

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I feel like I could just lay down and die.

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Ah. [imitates spitting]

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You really shouldn't say that
during a pandemic.

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God.

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[DeLuca] We should have
gotten scans hours ago.

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-[Teddy] She felt fine hours ago.
-That's the thing with these patients.

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They think that they're
on the other side of this thing,

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-and then they tank.
-[Maggie] DeLuca--

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Instead of waiting around,
we should have started

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interferon alpha 2b, anti-retrovirals,

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antimalarial drugs.

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I got a-a dozen patients
in the ICU already on this protocol.

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And you're seeing positive results?

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With some, but I've also
read a lot of studies

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that show that these meds,
they reduce the sev--

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-[Teddy] What studies?
-Are these peer-reviewed?

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-[Teddy] Have they been published?
-They're credible.

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Nothing is credible. Not yet.

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And I don't feel comfortable

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giving Meredith Grey
some experimental drug

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that's gotten some foot traffic
on a Reddit board.

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Let's just get the scans first.

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We can fight about the plan later.

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[groans]

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Val Ashton?

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Hi. I'm Dr. Wilson.

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OK, so you've had
abdominal pain and vomiting

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-for the last two weeks?
-But it's not Covid.

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I have gone nowhere,
seen no one, touched nothing.

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I couldn't stop talking
to the nurse that took my blood.

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It was the first in-person conversation

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I had had in months.

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I told her about the fight
with my co-worker,

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all about my ex.

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And I think I invited her to lunch.

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[chuckling] Don't worry.
They're used to it. Mnh.

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OK, so your labs came back
already, and...

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congratulations.

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You don't have Covid.

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You're just pregnant.

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-What?
-Pregnant.

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-What?
-Yaay?

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[Jackson] Sorry they even called you in.

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I know you're technically on leave,

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-so if you need to--
-[Link] Happy to help!

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-What do we got?
-Ssssh.

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Bryan, Lucy needs time...

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and she needs patience. Try again.

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Any chance you can come back
in 15 minutes?

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My clients are about
to have a major breakthrough.

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No, sorry.

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Helm?

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Manoj Joshi, closed crush
injury to the right hand

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due to a sandblaster falling on it.

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He presents with pain,
swelling, and numbness.

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X-rays didn't show any fractures.

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But he does have delayed capillary refill.

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My therapy practice
has boomed with the pandemic,

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so I finally could afford
to make some improvements

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to my home office.

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[strained] I guess I should
have let a professional do it.

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[groaning]

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How long is my hand
gonna be out of commission?

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I do a lot of demonstration in my work.

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-As a... therapist?
-[Lucy moans]

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[Bryan]
Do I do it counter-clockwise now, Dr. J?

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-[moaning]
-I think she likes it.

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-[Jackson] Oh!
-[Manoj] Sex therapist.

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[Taryn] Mute, mute, mute.

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[moaning stops]

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-You think it's a joke.
-Absolutely not.

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Physical touch and pleasure

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are two of the most important
forms of communication.

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What I teach is more vital than ever

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in the middle of a global crisis

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that's destroying human connection.

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I need my hand to function.

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Well, we just need a CT
to determine if you need surgery.

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Fine.

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Can I have the room now?

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-Yep.
-[Jackson] Yep.

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-[Lucy moaning]
-All right, Bryan.

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See, Lucy likes that.

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[Owen] Drive-thru testing should be up
and running by tomorrow morning.

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-Thank you for that, Webber.
-Sure.

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I asked Koracick about that for weeks.

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[Bailey] Uh, speaking of inefficiencies,

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I have a whole list of things

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Tom Koracick did that I'd like to change.

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How about putting it in writing, you know?

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E-mail me.

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Uh, since when do you prefer e-mail?

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Ah. Times have changed

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since the last time I was chief, Bailey.

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-You got to keep up.
-Of chiefs. Chief of chiefs.

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-I'm still chief.
-And I'm still yours.

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Well, now that you have his job,
what happens to Tom Koracick?

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Don't worry about him. [grunts]

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I have a plan.

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I am Dr. Thomas Koracick,

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but you can call me Dr. Koracick.

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Maybe you were expecting Dr. Webber,

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but today is a day of many surprises.

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The first of which,
I have drawn a very short straw.

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The second,
you have won the lottery today.

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I'd spend some time regaling you
with my accomplishments,

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but I'm very busy.

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Treat yourself to an Internet search.

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-Which one are you?
-Reza Khan.

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You're on scut.

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Respectfully, I can handle more.

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I'm a vascular surgeon in Pakistan.

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The U.S. is just making me
repeat my training.

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Ah, unfortunate. But you're still on scut.

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Chee? Progress notes.

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Jensen, discharges.

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Ortiz, a new shipment of PPE
and testing supplies arrives today.

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You get to sort them. Riveting.

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Excuse me? Which Ortiz?

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-I'm Sara Ortiz.
-And I'm Alma Ortiz, her mother.

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-We both matched here.
-Ah, how sweet.

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But two interns
with the same name won't fly.

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Who's changing theirs?

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All right, we'll go with nicknames.

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Big O, Little O?

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You decide.

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Name tags for everyone.

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If you need anything at all,

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ask someone else.

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[scoffs]

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[monitor beeping]

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[Meredith] Ground-glass
opacities of the lungs.

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Someone sent me an article

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about triple antiviral therapy
for Covid patients.

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The side effects are kind of tricky,

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but I think I could handle it.

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You're supposed to be resting.

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I specifically asked them
not to give you a tablet.

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[Meredith] Here, I found it.

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Triple antiviral therapy.

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Phase two trial of combination
antiviral therapy

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could speed recovery in Covid patients.

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What do you think?

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I'll ask Altman.

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[Maggie] Are you good?

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I'm sorry.
I don't know what you mean.

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I mean are you good?
Because I've respected the boundaries

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for the last four days.

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I've played the role of family member.

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I have respected your authority
as a physician.

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-Maggie, I've got this.
-Do you?

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Because we both know what happens

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when a patient's lungs
start to look like that.

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They could turn on us at any moment.

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So I need you to swear

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that no matter what is going on
in your personal life,

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you have this.

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[crying] Because I can't be her doctor.

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I have to be her sister.

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I have this.

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I'd like DeLuca to be on her medical team.

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He's seen more Covid cases than any of us.

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OK.

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My husband and I
tried to get pregnant for years.

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Six rounds of IVF.

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And we ended up with no baby, no savings,

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and we hated each other.

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So we split up.

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And then I had a one-night stand
with this weirdo, Newman,

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who was renting our back house
for a couple of weeks.

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I had lost my job, had some wine,

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-then I switched to tequila.
-[Jo laughs]

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Ugh!

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My rock bottom is the father of my baby.

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[Carina] He's not.

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-What?
-I see no baby.

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I'm not pregnant?

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I'm sorry, but no.

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[gasps]

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A positive pregnancy test
with no pregnancy

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can indicate other things.

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I'll order a scan.

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Other things like what?

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Some tumors, uh, can release beta HCG.

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-A tumor?
-We will take it one step at a time.

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[crying]

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[Link] I saw the scans.

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Displaced fracture
of the hook of the hamate?

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[Jackson] Exactly.
You know, the ulnar artery

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looks a little narrow
by the fracture site,

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which I've seen in plenty of patients

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that use a lot of vibrating power tools.

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You don't say.

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Yeah. You gonna be able
to help me with the excision

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-or you got to get back?
-Oh, I'm staying.

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Four kids in lockdown.
This place is like a dream vacation.

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Got to say I think I'm a little jealous.

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I don't get to see my Harriet
as much as I used to

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'cause I take more Covid shifts
than my ex,

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so she's with her stepdad more than me,

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which, you know, he's a good guy,

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but I don't like hearing

15:55.834 --> 15:58.291
that Matthew cuts sandwiches
better than Dada.

15:58.375 --> 15:59.792
Kinda weird having my place so quiet.

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I kinda miss the mess, honestly.

16:01.500 --> 16:03.917
[Taryn] Apparently he's famous
in the Pacific Northwest.

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He saves marriages.

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You're Googling our patient, Helm, really?

16:06.959 --> 16:08.583
Whoa, 37 an hour.

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Thirty-seven... dollars? Like his rate?

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-No.
-Not possible.

16:14.875 --> 16:16.083
Good to have goals.

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[Karen] You're doing it wrong.

16:21.166 --> 16:22.792
No, you're doing it wrong again.

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Hey, are you in charge of him?

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[Koracick] Well, depends.
Has he killed anyone, or--

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I've been waiting for the progress notes

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and summaries for two hours,
and he hasn't even finished one.

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Fix it.

16:32.709 --> 16:36.041
You clearly don't know
how to make friends.

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Scoot.

16:37.583 --> 16:39.750
[telephone ringing in distance]

16:39.834 --> 16:42.000
[indistinct conversations in distance]

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Well, here's your problem,
next to "Discharged."

16:46.917 --> 16:48.750
I-I-I type "Home and awaiting follow-up."

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And I keep getting "Error."

16:50.583 --> 16:51.917
That's because they're not
being discharged to go home.

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They're being discharged to the morgue

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or to the giant Popsicle truck
in the south parking lot,

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which is very sad.

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All these people have died?

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You're doing death summaries
during a global pandemic,

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so... yes.

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All dead.

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Carry on.

17:12.417 --> 17:15.041
[Bailey] Wilson, I need you to
keep covering Grey's service.

17:15.125 --> 17:17.834
I'm hoping to persuade Dr. Webber

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to come back to the OR,

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whenever he finishes adjusting his crown.

17:22.417 --> 17:23.583
Chief of chiefs.

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I could be chief of chiefs.

17:25.375 --> 17:26.625
You'd be really good at that.

17:26.750 --> 17:28.500
Hmm. What do you got?

17:28.583 --> 17:32.834
[Jo] Abdominal pain, vomiting,
positive beta HCG.

17:32.917 --> 17:34.834
She's not pregnant,
but I want to rule out a mass.

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[Levi] Mass! There. In the liver.

17:36.542 --> 17:40.000
That is no mass. That is a fetus.

17:40.083 --> 17:43.750
She is pregnant, but her baby
is attached to her liver?

17:43.834 --> 17:45.250
[gasps] Mine.

17:45.333 --> 17:46.917
Uh, th-this patient doesn't have Covid.

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I'm allowed to be on the case.

17:49.625 --> 17:50.917
[sighs]

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[Bailey] I feel better.

17:58.250 --> 17:59.542
[Amelia] Go wash up, Ellis.

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Shh, Amelia,
you'll increase her heart rate.

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What's happening?

18:04.125 --> 18:06.625
-We were watching you sleep.
-Why?

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Well, we didn't want to wake you.

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How are you feeling?
Like I want to go back to sleep.

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How are my kids?
Did Bailey lose that tooth yet?

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They miss you.

18:14.750 --> 18:17.041
Bailey's tooth is stubbornly still there.

18:17.125 --> 18:19.500
[Maggie]
So, Meredith, I was looking at your chart,

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and I noticed your healthcare directive.

18:23.542 --> 18:25.500
-It says--
-I know what it says.

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OK. Good. Um, so,

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well, we were thinking that maybe

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you might want to reconsider.

18:32.417 --> 18:33.667
[Ellis] Mama?

18:33.750 --> 18:36.333
Is that Mama? Is she OK?

18:36.583 --> 18:38.542
Hold on, Ellis.
I-I will let you talk to her

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in one minute, OK?

18:40.125 --> 18:41.917
-Put her on, Amelia.
-Of course, I--

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But can we talk about w-what
happens if you suddenly--

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I don't want to talk about that.
I want to talk to my kids.

18:47.417 --> 18:49.375
-Mama!
-Hey.

18:49.458 --> 18:51.291
Look at you, so big.

18:51.500 --> 18:54.000
Auntie Amelia is feeding you
all that growing-food, huh?

18:54.083 --> 18:57.750
[Ellis laughs]

18:57.834 --> 19:00.291
I love you so much, Ellie bell.

19:05.417 --> 19:08.291
[waves crashing]

19:32.583 --> 19:33.500
Derek!

19:41.834 --> 19:43.583
Why can't I get anywhere?!

19:43.667 --> 19:45.458
[Derek] You're worried about the kids!

19:45.542 --> 19:46.917
[Meredith] I don't understand!

19:47.000 --> 19:50.208
The sand isn't real, Meredith!

19:51.583 --> 19:53.291
I miss you!

19:54.000 --> 19:55.333
I know.

20:09.250 --> 20:11.000
[siren wailing in distance]

20:11.083 --> 20:13.709
[Teddy] Hey. Things seem to be
running smoothly down here.

20:13.792 --> 20:14.959
[Owen] Webber.

20:15.041 --> 20:16.542
Right.

20:16.625 --> 20:18.500
I talked to the kids this morning.

20:18.583 --> 20:20.792
They seem good. Spoiled.

20:20.875 --> 20:21.750
How's Meredith?

20:22.709 --> 20:24.417
Her numbers aren't where they should be.

20:24.500 --> 20:26.125
I got to drop these off.

20:27.542 --> 20:29.291
-[Owen] Ortiz?
-[Sara] I'm sorry.

20:29.375 --> 20:30.834
For what?

20:30.917 --> 20:33.041
-I don't know.
-Your PPE's on incorrectly.

20:33.125 --> 20:33.959
Your gown is loose in the back,

20:34.041 --> 20:36.083
and you just touched the inside
of it with your gloved hand.

20:36.166 --> 20:37.917
And your face shield is not in place.

20:38.000 --> 20:40.250
Tseng, show her how to correctly
don and doff PPE,

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which someone should have shown
her first thing this morning.

20:42.291 --> 20:43.458
-But I'm next in line, so c--
-Now.

20:50.333 --> 20:52.333
[Val] There's a baby in my liver?

20:52.417 --> 20:54.458
[Jo] You have what's called
an abdominal pregnancy,

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where the fetus develops
outside of the uterus.

20:57.917 --> 20:59.834
You're about 26 weeks.

20:59.917 --> 21:02.208
[Carina] Val, these pregnancies

21:02.291 --> 21:04.000
don't normally survive to term,

21:04.083 --> 21:07.583
but your baby is very much alive.

21:07.667 --> 21:10.208
Your case is extremely rare.

21:11.291 --> 21:15.709
He made me feel like crap for eight years.

21:16.709 --> 21:19.041
Every time IVF didn't work...

21:20.542 --> 21:22.333
[scoffs] he would
look at the doctor and say,

21:22.417 --> 21:24.333
"Well, what can she do
differently next time?"

21:25.333 --> 21:27.583
When clearly it was his fault.

21:27.667 --> 21:29.333
Because I had a one-night stand

21:29.417 --> 21:31.375
with a guy that wears
square computer glasses,

21:31.458 --> 21:33.125
and I'm knocked up.

21:34.542 --> 21:35.417
[Carina] Val.

21:36.166 --> 21:39.083
[monitor beeping]

21:41.792 --> 21:43.500
Do you want this baby?

21:46.125 --> 21:47.834
[inhales tearfully]

21:47.917 --> 21:48.917
[chuckles] [Jo] OK.

21:49.000 --> 21:51.041
OK. Then we need to deliver her today.

21:51.709 --> 21:53.041
The growth of the placenta

21:53.125 --> 21:55.041
could cause the liver to bleed
at any moment,

21:55.125 --> 21:58.458
and we need to operate
to save you both... now.

21:58.542 --> 22:00.041
[chuckling] It's a girl?

22:00.125 --> 22:01.750
Yes, it is.

22:03.667 --> 22:04.500
Luna.

22:05.500 --> 22:06.792
That's her name.

22:07.542 --> 22:10.875
Ever since I was a little girl,
I knew my daughter's name.

22:13.250 --> 22:14.166
Val.

22:16.333 --> 22:17.500
Yeah, OK.

22:18.125 --> 22:19.333
Let's get her out!

22:23.166 --> 22:26.166
[woman, over PA] Dr. Sung to Recovery.

22:26.250 --> 22:27.917
Dr. Sung to Recovery.

22:28.000 --> 22:29.834
[monitor beeping]

22:29.917 --> 22:32.375
[indistinct conversations in distance]

22:34.875 --> 22:37.750
If you think I look bad,
you should see my lungs.

22:37.834 --> 22:38.709
Not funny.

22:39.625 --> 22:41.625
We need to talk about your POA.

22:45.166 --> 22:47.125
My sisters sent you in here.

22:47.208 --> 22:49.583
I know what Alex Karev means to you.

22:49.667 --> 22:52.667
And I know he would have
your best interests at heart.

22:52.750 --> 22:55.166
But he is halfway across the country,

22:55.250 --> 22:56.750
and we can't even travel yet.

22:57.250 --> 23:01.166
Look, God forbid,
this thing gets any worse,

23:01.250 --> 23:05.166
he might have to make decisions
regarding your care.

23:05.250 --> 23:10.542
And you know those decisions
can be rough over the phone.

23:10.625 --> 23:12.625
You need to pick someone local.

23:12.750 --> 23:15.625
Amelia can't even decide
what's for dinner.

23:18.041 --> 23:21.125
Maggie-- She doesn't know when
it's time for someone to die.

23:21.208 --> 23:24.291
She has a hard time letting them go, so...

23:26.000 --> 23:30.583
At least Alex will pull the plug
if I need him to.

23:33.083 --> 23:35.166
[coughs] Let's just talk

23:35.250 --> 23:37.625
about s-something else, please.

23:39.709 --> 23:42.625
I'm about to scrub in
on a hepatic pregnancy

23:42.709 --> 23:47.333
where the fetus is attached to the liver.

23:47.417 --> 23:49.500
No! Alive?

23:51.041 --> 23:53.875
Ugh. I'm so jealous.

23:53.959 --> 23:55.000
[sighs]

24:02.875 --> 24:04.625
[Link] Removing the bone. Rongeur.

24:04.709 --> 24:06.041
[Taryn] Careful around the ulnar nerve.

24:06.125 --> 24:06.959
[Jackson] You want to take over, Helm?

24:07.041 --> 24:10.250
Dr. J's right. People need sex right now.

24:10.333 --> 24:12.041
[chuckles dryly] More than ever.

24:12.959 --> 24:14.667
It's therapeutic.

24:14.750 --> 24:16.125
What if you live in a house

24:16.208 --> 24:18.291
that's like Los Angeles
International Airport

24:18.375 --> 24:19.875
on Thanksgiving Day?

24:19.959 --> 24:22.166
Your flight is delayed,
and there's no place to sit.

24:22.333 --> 24:24.166
The bathrooms are disgusting.

24:24.250 --> 24:27.125
Forget regular sex.
You don't even want to eat.

24:27.208 --> 24:29.166
[Jackson]
Looks like this artery's thrombosed.

24:29.250 --> 24:31.041
-[Link] Can you fix it?
-I've got to harvest a vein

24:31.125 --> 24:32.250
and place a graft.

24:33.291 --> 24:34.667
Take a little bit longer, but, yeah.

24:34.750 --> 24:35.583
I'm in.

24:36.250 --> 24:39.417
I fear the night at Meredith's house
like a medieval villager.

24:39.542 --> 24:40.583
[chuckles]

24:40.667 --> 24:41.709
Vessel loops.

24:42.417 --> 24:43.625
[monitor beeps]

24:43.709 --> 24:45.166
[telephone ringing in distance]

24:46.667 --> 24:48.417
[Koracick] "Mama Ortiz"?

24:50.041 --> 24:51.667
[Mama Ortiz] Better than
the one you suggested.

24:51.750 --> 24:55.166
Uh, fine. Can you tell me
why you're not, uh, in the ER?

24:55.250 --> 24:56.959
Jensen is on Discharges.

24:57.041 --> 25:00.166
Yeah, Jensen quit after two hours,
and so did Stewart.

25:00.625 --> 25:04.625
OK, well, why hasn't Mrs., uh, Cooley
been discharged?

25:04.709 --> 25:06.750
I decided not to discharge her.

25:06.959 --> 25:08.166
Her chart is a mess.

25:08.250 --> 25:11.041
Hand-off communication
has been nonexistent.

25:11.125 --> 25:14.250
She's supposed to be discharged
to Hillridge Nursing Facility?

25:14.333 --> 25:15.583
-You ever heard of it?
-I--

25:15.667 --> 25:19.000
Yeah, 17 new Covid cases, 19 deaths.

25:19.083 --> 25:20.750
OK, the-these are all things
that can be discussed

25:20.834 --> 25:21.875
with her doctor.

25:21.959 --> 25:23.208
Great. I would love that.

25:23.291 --> 25:24.417
Where is Dr. Grey?

25:24.500 --> 25:26.667
[Koracick] Look, Dr. Grey is--

25:26.917 --> 25:28.000
She's off today.

25:28.083 --> 25:29.208
Look, your diligence has been noted,

25:29.291 --> 25:30.959
but these are extraordinary times.

25:31.041 --> 25:32.917
Let's not forget that we're
in the middle of a pandemic.

25:33.208 --> 25:34.166
I haven't forgotten.

25:34.917 --> 25:37.959
Before med school,
I spent 20 years as a social worker.

25:38.041 --> 25:39.542
I was there through H1N1.

25:39.625 --> 25:41.875
And I know that people deserve better.

25:41.959 --> 25:43.542
Especially in a pandemic.

25:43.625 --> 25:45.917
So I'm not discharging her.

25:46.000 --> 25:47.583
Have Dr. Grey call me.

25:49.000 --> 25:51.083
Someone's messing with me, right?

25:51.166 --> 25:53.875
We got a 26-weeker attached
to the liver? Still viable?

25:53.959 --> 25:57.041
Come see for yourself. Liver's exposed.

25:57.125 --> 25:58.125
[Carina] Wow.

25:58.208 --> 25:59.500
Hello there, little one.

26:01.208 --> 26:02.375
OK, let's go through it again.

26:02.458 --> 26:04.792
The placenta has left the liver
extremely friable.

26:05.041 --> 26:07.959
We cut. We get the baby out.
We leave the placenta intact.

26:08.041 --> 26:10.041
-Otherwise, she could bleed out.
-[Bailey] Which she will not.

26:10.250 --> 26:13.333
Everyone in this room needs a little joy.

26:13.417 --> 26:14.583
[suction gurgling]

26:14.667 --> 26:15.959
-Ready?
-Ready.

26:16.083 --> 26:18.458
Weirdest C-section I've ever done.

26:18.542 --> 26:20.500
-Also ready.
-[Bailey] Here we go.

26:20.583 --> 26:22.417
[Carina] Cutting into the amniotic sac.

26:27.542 --> 26:29.125
[Jo] Clamps for the umbilical cord.

26:29.375 --> 26:30.250
[Bailey] Heavy scissors.

26:32.333 --> 26:33.208
Thanks.

26:38.208 --> 26:40.083
[Carina]
I'm not seeing any movement.

26:40.583 --> 26:42.542
[Hayes] Prepare to intubate immediately.

26:48.709 --> 26:50.500
Where is all this blood coming from?

26:50.583 --> 26:52.625
Oh, the right hepatic artery.

26:52.709 --> 26:53.667
More suction.

26:53.750 --> 26:54.875
How's Luna?

26:54.959 --> 26:56.291
[monitor beeping rapidly]

26:56.375 --> 26:58.542
Apgar 2, maybe 3.

26:58.625 --> 27:01.041
[Hayes] Still trying to get the tube in.
Come on.

27:01.125 --> 27:02.625
Come on, come on, come--

27:02.709 --> 27:03.667
I'm in.

27:03.750 --> 27:05.208
Bag her, please.

27:09.083 --> 27:11.000
OK, we need to get her up to
the unit as fast as possible.

27:11.083 --> 27:12.041
Go.

27:18.250 --> 27:20.417
Ready, let's go, let's go,
let's go, come on.

27:20.500 --> 27:21.959
[Bailey] More lap pads, more.

27:22.041 --> 27:23.291
More, more--

27:23.375 --> 27:24.750
We should resect the right lobe.

27:24.875 --> 27:27.625
No, that could lead to liver failure. No.

27:27.709 --> 27:30.250
Then we put her on dialysis
and get her on the transplant list.

27:30.417 --> 27:32.417
That's not as easy
as it used to be. Hold on.

27:32.625 --> 27:34.250
I'm not gonna let her die
before she sees her kid.

27:34.333 --> 27:35.709
Clamp.

27:35.792 --> 27:37.333
Hold on! Hold on!

27:41.792 --> 27:42.792
Bailey?

27:44.041 --> 27:45.709
OK. OK, do it.

27:45.792 --> 27:46.959
Bovie.

28:00.667 --> 28:02.834
[video call ringing]

28:06.417 --> 28:10.083
[tablet beeping]

28:10.166 --> 28:11.834
[Meredith] You look like crap.

28:11.917 --> 28:13.458
Look who's talking.

28:13.542 --> 28:16.709
I got a 26-week-old baby
looks stronger than you.

28:16.792 --> 28:19.542
-Liver baby?
-Mm-hmm.

28:19.625 --> 28:21.625
So, I hear you're looking for a POA.

28:21.709 --> 28:23.250
Are you here to volunteer?

28:23.333 --> 28:25.125
I am cold, calculating,

28:25.208 --> 28:27.291
couldn't care less
about you or your kids, so...

28:28.041 --> 28:30.750
Everyone is family.
I don't want to do that to them.

28:30.834 --> 28:32.333
Then don't. Write down on paper

28:32.417 --> 28:34.041
what you want, every last detail,

28:34.125 --> 28:35.750
and then choose someone who'll defend it.

28:35.834 --> 28:37.709
The people who love you
the most, you know,

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they're going to beg them to do something,
anything to save you.

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So choose someone who'll choose you,

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over and over again.

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Is that what you did for your wife?

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Uh, no-- knew better than that.

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But her sister followed every
last wish that Abi wanted,

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no matter how much we all hated it.

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Go on, get some rest.

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I'm afraid...

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If I fall asleep...

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I'm afraid I might not wake up.

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Everyone's scared of you, Grey.
You know that?

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It's 'cause you're fierce.

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You've got teeth, grit.

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You fight to the bloody death

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about the stupidest little things.

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This virus has got nothing on you.

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[video call ends]

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[Link] We successfully removed
the bone fragment

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and removed a blood clot from your artery.

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[Jackson] And fortunately,
the nerve was intact.

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You're not gonna get
your feeling back immediately,

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but we're confident you will
over the next few months.

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And you still have your hand. The hand.

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We'll get you an occupational therapist,

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go through some exercises
to help you in your recovery.

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[Manoj] I have my own regimen.

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I exercise my hands five hours a week.

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[Jackson] Maybe you could just
take your time

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with whatever your... regular routine is.

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You want to know my secret, don't you?

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-Nah, I think we're good.
-Nah, no thanks.

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[Taryn] Yes. I do, please,
tha-thank you, mm-hmm.

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I ask my clients what they want.

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And I listen.

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[knock on door]

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[Koracick] Your plan worked.

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-Excuse me?
-Well, you had to know

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I'm not the man for this job.

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Those kids are terrified.

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At least the ones
who haven't already quit.

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And the ones who stayed
have no idea what they're doing

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and I have no idea how to show them.

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Or you just don't want to.

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Maybe you're unaware

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because it's always come naturally to you,

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but teaching the way
that you do it, it's a gift.

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It's not a talent we all have.

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Amelia Shepherd said

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that you were the best teacher
she ever had.

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That's why I gave you the job.

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I teach neurosurgeons how to cut.

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I don't teach kids
how to walk through a pandemic.

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I can't give them
what they need right now.

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[John Legend's "Never Break" playing]

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You can.

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[door closes]

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♪ We got a good thing, babe ♪

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♪ Whenever life is hard ♪

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[Amelia] Hi.

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[Link] I basically showered in sanitizer,

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but better safe than sorry, right?

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How was your surgery?

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Well, it was a crush injury to the hand.

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The patient was
some sort of sex therapist.

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Apparently he's very well-known
for helping women

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achieve their goals 37 times.

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♪ And I've never been ♪

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Like, in one sitting?

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It was advertised as one event, yes.

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♪ We will never break ♪

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♪ Built on a foundation ♪

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[sniffling]

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♪ Strong enough to stay ♪

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I'm so sorry.

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♪ We will never break ♪

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No, no, I'm sorry.

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♪ As the water rises
And the mountains shake ♪

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I don't-- I don't think
I know what's wrong.

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Meredith is still in the hospital.

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And the kids are all waiting for me
to tell them

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that everything is going to be fine,

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but I just keep turning around
and wondering who the person is

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who is going to tell you and me that.

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I'm so tired... [sniffles]

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...that I don't even recognize myself.

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I-I don't even know what pants are.

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There's a global medical crisis
going on, and I can't even help.

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And I can't turn my brain off
with a glass of wine like normal people.

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I'm-- I'm, uh-- I'm going to explode.

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♪ Of what love really means ♪

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You want me to take the kids?

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They're asleep.

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♪ It's one plus one equals three ♪

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OK.

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♪ When we talk about forever ♪

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How about you tell me what you want...

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♪ Then forever's what we mean ♪

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...and I will get it for you. Anything.

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♪ So I'm not worried about us
And I've never been ♪

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Thirty-seven times?

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Oh.

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♪ No matter what may come our way ♪

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That's what you want?

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I just need to feel something

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other than overwhelming despair.

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Ah.

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♪ Built on a foundation ♪

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I was at the hospital. I-I--

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♪ Stronger than the pain ♪

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I was planning on keeping my distance

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until I could get tested.

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Well, who says we can't
do this six feet apart?

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♪ And the mountains shake ♪

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♪ Our love will remain ♪

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♪ We will never ♪

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♪ Nah, nah, never ♪

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♪ Nooooo ♪

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[exhales deeply]

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[woman, over PA]
Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

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Dr. Leon, call the blood bank.

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Hey, um...

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Do you have time to let me buy
you a-a bad cup of coffee or...?

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I'm sorry we haven't talked a lot. I--

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The past few months haven't
been easy for me and for--

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Oh, I've been having a-a grand time.

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-Tom, I--
-Teddy, what would be really great

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is if, uh, you weren't here right now.

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Because you broke me again

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and I still love you.

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But I got to get over you because [laughs]

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I've had enough misery for one life.

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[Owen sighs]
Just the man I was looking for.

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Great. What now?

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You tested positive for Covid-19.

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[chuckles] Funny.
Kick a man when he's down.

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Fourteen-day quarantine. Hospital policy.

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Contact tracing team will be in touch.

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[scoffs]

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-I'm-- No, I'm not symptomatic.
-Go home, Tom.

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Don't stop at the store. Just go home.

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Stay home. Try not to [sighs]
infect anyone else.

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Maybe you should put your mask back on.

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Right. Um...

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[siren wails in distance]

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[indistinct conversations]

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[video call ringing]

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[cellphone clicks]

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[cellphone hums]

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[Winston] God, it's good to see your--

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W-What's wrong?

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[voice breaking] I don't know
how much longer I can do this.

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[sobs]

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Fifty-three people.

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That's how many have died on my watch

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since this thing started. Fifty-three.

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And most of them have been
Black women, so that means--

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The same thing's happening here.

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Everywhere.

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I lost a patient this morning.

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Rosalie Lewis.

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She was so funny.

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She, um...

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She thanked me every single time
I came in to check on her,

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and...

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watching her talk
to her daughter on the phone,

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it reminded me of the way that my mom
used to talk to me.

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I never thought the day would come

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when it would feel like a privilege

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to have held my mother's hand
while she died.

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I'm so sorry.

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Rosalie deserved a better death than this.

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She deserved to not be a statistic.

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I know.

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[crying] And I'm scared for my sister.

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I'm-- I'm-- I'm-- I'm trying
so hard not to be scared, but...

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I'm scared.

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[sighs]

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[monitor beeping]

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Hi, Luna.

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Hi.

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Your mommy is asleep right now,

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but she is gonna be so excited
to meet you.

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See?

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-Joy.
-[chuckles] Yeah.

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She developed in a liver
and was born in a pandemic.

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She is a survivor.

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Your work these last few days
hasn't gone unnoticed.

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Thank you.

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Meredith has to be OK, Bailey.

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She has to be OK.

37:23.375 --> 37:27.083
♪ In the rising wind
Where the black waves call ♪

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♪ To the bones of ships
On the ocean floor ♪

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This feels like payback.

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[Meredith] Damn right it is.

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And you're sure
you want me to have your POA

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and not Maggie or Amelia?

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You've known me my whole life.

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You're the only one I can trust

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to pull the plug if my brain is gone.

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I'll do every damn thing I can first.

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I know you will.

37:53.375 --> 37:55.000
♪ And when your prayer's unheard
And you don't believe ♪

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And you-- you don't want
to be put on a vent?

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[coughs]

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There's a shortage.
I don't want to take one

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from somebody who needs it.

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What if that someone's you?

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[coughs]

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♪ There's a darkness up ahead ♪

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It's not. Not yet.

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My kids need me.

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We all need you.

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♪ I will see you ♪

38:17.166 --> 38:19.667
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

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♪ Cross the badlands to rise again ♪

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[door closes]

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They're ready for you.

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♪ I will see you ♪

38:30.458 --> 38:33.000
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

38:34.500 --> 38:39.583
♪ There's a darkness up ahead ♪

38:41.125 --> 38:43.667
♪ I will see you ♪

38:44.458 --> 38:47.750
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

38:47.834 --> 38:49.959
♪ Cross the badlands to rise again ♪

38:50.041 --> 38:52.750
[Meredith] They say following
the rules saves lives.

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[Richard] When you decided
to go to med school,

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you had dreams of a career.

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I know this isn't it.

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It's not mine either.

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I want to be in an OR.

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I want to be cutting.

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I want to hold my patient's hand,
skin to skin.

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I want to meet their loved ones.

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I want to be in the before.

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But the before is gone.

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We're in the now.

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And people are looking to us
to guide them through it.

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And we will.

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I'll teach you the jobs
that need to get done.

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I will make sure that you learn
as much as you can.

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And we'll be OK.

39:38.333 --> 39:40.000
We'll get through this together.

39:44.417 --> 39:45.333
[Meredith] But what happens

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when life suddenly
changes the game entirely?

39:48.041 --> 39:51.166
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

39:51.458 --> 39:55.667
♪ There's a darkness up ahead ♪

39:55.750 --> 39:57.750
[seagulls crying]

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♪ I will see you ♪

40:01.000 --> 40:03.792
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

40:13.166 --> 40:14.583
[Meredith]
What happens when you find yourself

40:14.667 --> 40:16.834
walking on totally new ground?

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You could walk, too, you know!

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-Wouldn't make a difference!
-Why not?!

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Because the sand isn't real, Meredith!

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♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

40:37.834 --> 40:42.834
♪ There's a darkness up ahead ♪

40:44.583 --> 40:46.917
♪ I will see you ♪

40:47.875 --> 40:50.208
♪ Where the shadow ends ♪

40:50.291 --> 40:51.125
[Derek laughing]

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♪ I can see a lighthouse
Through the smoke ♪

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You said it wasn't real!

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♪ Everything is lost, I know ♪

40:56.583 --> 40:57.500
Ugh, I hate you!

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You love me. God knows I love you.

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♪ I can hear the breaking of the dawn ♪

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I'll be right here when you're ready.

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♪ Can you see the broken rays of light ♪

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[Meredith] I wish I knew.

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♪ Caught into the dead of night ♪

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[laughs]

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♪ And I know that I'll see you again ♪

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♪ Where the shadow ends ♪