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♪ These rivers are frozen ♪

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♪ It's hard to say
If it will be all right ♪

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[Meredith] Medical schools
often ask applicants

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for an essay describing a time
they faced adversity...

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♪ ...has broken ♪

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...and how they overcame it.

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♪ Everything that I have built inside ♪

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They want to know how people will cope

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with the challenges
they'll face as a doctor.

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♪ I'm chasing my shadow ♪

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[Thunder crashes]

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♪ Lately he's been
the only friend of mine ♪

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Some students worry they have
nothing to write about.

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♪ And I don't know which way to go ♪

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♪ Lost my mind to the unknown ♪

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They haven't faced difficulty.

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[ventilator hissing, monitor beeping]

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♪ Even if I stay here all night ♪

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♪ I'll keep holding on ♪

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♪ For you ♪

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♪ You ♪

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♪ I'll be waiting ♪

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I didn't have that problem.

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♪ Till we meet again, till we meet again ♪

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Morning, Meredith.

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[thunder rumbling]

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Uh, let's start with regional updates.

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Uh, Hunt?

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Shouldn't we start with
an update on Meredith Grey?

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Yeah. I mean, has her I.S. improved?

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Yeah. Is she on a proning schedule?

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People, people.
I know we're all concerned,

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but Meredith is getting excellent care

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from Altman and DeLuca.

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She's stable and she's resting.

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In the meantime, we have a hospital

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full of patients who need us.

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Hunt?

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Yesterday Seattle reported
345 more cases, 29 deaths.

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Test positivity rate
has increased to 4.7%,

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so we should prepare for more patients.

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COVID ICU?

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Beds are at 68% capacity.

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We'll likely need more
by the end of the month.

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[Teddy] 53 of the 72 ventilators
are currently in use.

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But are there any cases
that warrant discussion?

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[Tom] Hi. Hello.

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-I've got one. Me.
-[Richard] K-Koracick? How did you--

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I-I've got connections.
I'm emeritus chief of chiefs.

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That is not a thing.

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As I'm sure Hunt gleefully told you,

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I tested positive for COVID.

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But I think the test was a dud.

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Breathing's normal, good heart rate,

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singing voice unaffected--

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That does not change the rules.

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A negative COVID test
or a 14-day quarantine.

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-You're not even close.
-Then send me a new test.

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And can you adjust my camera angle?

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As lovely as the ceiling is, I--

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[light laughter]

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[indistinct talking on PA]

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[door opens]

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Did you know that there are
murder hornets now?

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-What?
-Yeah.

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As if the COVID outbreak
right after my husband dumped me

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wasn't bad enough. [chuckles]

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I'm gonna go home, crawl into
bed before my next shift.

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Yeah, I'm done, too. Look,
if you don't want to be alone,

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you can come hang out at my place.

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Um, let me think about
the last time I went to your place

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and... no.

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At least I don't have a resident
living on my couch, okay?

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I got fancy beer
and a negative COVID test.

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I guess also April switched
Harriett's days on me, but...

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Oh, so you're lonely.

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Will you just come over, all right?

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We can watch TV and, I don't
know, order pizza. Or sushi.

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Start over.

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Friendship reboot.

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We're getting both and you're paying.

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-Fine.
-And no Kenny G!

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[door closes]

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-[thunder rumbling]
-[baby coos]

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Hey, buddy.

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Yeah.

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Just me and you.

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[sighs]

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This is called a "C" chord.

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-[guitar playing]
-I'll teach you one day.

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[door opens]

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Why can't I find gauze in a house

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with so many surgeons living in it?

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Uh, who's bleeding this time?

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Bailey lost a tooth.

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The one that's been loose for two weeks?

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That's supposed to happen.

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Well, not when your mom
is in the hospital with COVID.

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Mer's gonna get better.

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[sighs] You don't know that's true.

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You don't know that it's not.

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All right, look, um,

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let's-- let's look at
the bright side of things, okay?

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We get to introduce Bailey
to the Tooth Fairy.

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Kids love the Tooth Fairy.

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I'll, uh... I'll check on him.

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The bright side?

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[monitor beeping]

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Dr. Kuo at the Catherine Fox
Medical Center in Manhattan

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is doing a trial with
monoclonal antibodies for COVID.

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She's got room for two more patients,
but we got to jump on it.

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-I read that study.
-Didn't three patients die?

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Well, there's a strong chance
that they got the drug too late.

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Dr. Webber, her lungs are flooded,

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a-and she's sleeping
almost around the clock.

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Richard, I would never
give this recommendation

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if I didn't think that the good
outweighed the bad.

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[Richard] Thank you all.
I'll think about it.

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Okay.

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Dr. Webber--

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What I said. I'd think about it.

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[Bailey] Mom, I can't come see you.

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Because of the pandemic, remember?

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There's a bad virus and no vaccine yet.

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But I can call you later, though, okay?

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I-- Mnh.

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-How you feeling, Chief?
-[sighs]

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I moved my parents here
from across the country

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into an assisted-living facility
just in time to never see them.

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I meant your ankle.
But sorry to hear that.

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It's fine. Thank you.

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[Soccer mom] Hello? Can someone help me?

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Hi. I'm Dr. Kim.

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Where are you from?

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Orthopedics. And it looks like
you just have a cut here,

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so let's find you another doctor

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who can help take care of this, okay?

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Orthopedics?

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You know that's not what she was asking.

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-I know.
-It doesn't bother you?

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Her assuming you're not from here?

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Happens to all of us at some point, right?

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[siren wailing]

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-[Bailey] What do we have?
-[Paramedic] Dave Oyadomari, 37,

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head lac and right shoulder pain

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after falling off of a step ladder.

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He also complains of abdominal
pain, nausea, and vomiting

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with a 102 fever.

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He was recently treated here
by Dr. Hunt for appendicitis

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then sent home on oral antibiotics.

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[Dave] Yeah. I'll be okay.

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Can-- Can you just give me
some more antibiotics

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and-- and a sling or something?

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You were in so much pain
that you fell off a ladder.

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I had to call an ambulance!

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Meet my wife, Tammi.

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Okay. We'll check him out, Tammi.

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Uh, he's tachycardic
and slightly hypotensive.

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Kim. Here.

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Let's get him to trauma one
and do a COVID test,

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STAT X-rays, labs, and a FAST exam.

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[Nico] Got it.

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[monitor beeping]

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You trying to will her
into joining the trial?

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No.

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I'm hoping she suddenly
gets better and doesn't need it.

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[seagulls crying]

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[Meredith] Excuse me!

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[Meredith] Hello?

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Mer?

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George?

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What are you doing here?

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[knock on door]

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Did you ask the humans
to take you to their leader?

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Because it's no longer me.

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It's Dr. Helm. I'm here
to do your COVID test.

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No, you're here to deliver it.

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I don't allow residents
in my house or up my nose.

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Uh, just put it down. Right here.

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Back up.

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Back, back, back, back, back,
back, back, back, back, back.

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Bup, bup, bup, bup, bup.

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[siren wailing in distance]

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[Taryn] Did you know that I had COVID?

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It was mild, but scary.

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I learned how to make sourdough.

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I couldn't taste it or smell it,
but the texture seemed right.

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I also, uh, binged a docuseries
about house--

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You can stop your "What I did
over COVID vacation" report.

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I have no interest in baking, bingeing,

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or doing anything you did
or will ever do or--

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[sniffles] What?

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Are you plotting something... evil?

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No. I'm stopping the pandemic.

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[test kit thuds]

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[Winston] Chopped chicken salad
with homemade sweet pickles

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on toasted bread.

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That's a Nana Ante special right there.

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Ooh! Jealous!

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I had stale cashews.

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Well, mine's nothing compared
to hers, but it's not bad.

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And I just can't wait for you two to meet.

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I hope to, someday.

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Tonight too soon? It's her birthday.

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And, uh, we're doing a--
a virtual dinner.

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Or if it's too soon, no rush.

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No, no, I just, uh...

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It's Meredith.

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I-I know there's nothing I can do, but...

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[chuckles] Anything I do
that isn't trying to help

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just feels selfish and wrong.

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Joy is in short supply these days.

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Especially our joy.

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It sure as hell is.

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That's why I'm grabbing it when I can.

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You know, it might be a text from you.

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It might be the fancy pencils

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I bought for my crossword puzzles.

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It might be just taking a few minutes

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to sit outside with
my chicken-salad sandwich

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and look at the daffodils.

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I don't mean to tell you how to be.

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Uh... are you mad?

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-No, no.
-Ignore me. Ignore me.

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I'm not mad. I'm not mad.
I'm... a little hurt maybe.

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You got fancy pencils
and you didn't tell me?

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Wait. Are you a pencil nerd, too?

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Oh, I special ordered a vintage
pencil sharpener from Paris.

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-[laughs]
-[cellphone chimes]

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Oh, oh. That's my resident.

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And... joy's over.

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[sighs] Until dinner tonight.

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Until dinner tonight.

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[Dave] My great-grandpa was an accountant,

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but no one would hire him
after he came back from camp.

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So he got a job as a line cook in a diner

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and eventually started Toyo.

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-Where was he interned?
-Tule Lake.

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My great-grandparents were sent to Jerome.

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I'm Gosei on my mom's side.

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Scans up yet?

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-[beep]
-Yep, just came up.

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-[keys clacking]
-Dr. Hunt, I read

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that you initially diagnosed appendicitis,

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but these scans show pelvic free fluid

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and a paracolonic abscess.

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I think he might have
right-sided diverticulitis.

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[sighs] Yep.

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And it looks like it's perforated.

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Plus, his X-rays show a broken collarbone.

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Okay, book an OR,
and I'll meet you up there.

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We need to get him up there right now.

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Really? We-- We as in me?

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Yeah, it's your diagnosis.

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-[exhales sharply]
-Good catch, Tseng.

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[keys clacking]

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Congratulations.

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You just ordered Nathan Ramos
a pregnancy test.

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[Intern Sara] What? How?

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-Hey.
-Hey.

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Hey.

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You already said that.

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[Woman on P.A.] Portable X-ray
to the third floor.

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Portable X-ray to the third floor.

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[Intern Sara] Ooh! He cute. [giggles]

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-No one asked you.
-Okay.

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[Jackson] Wait. No, no, no. Wait.
She kicked you out of bed,

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-so you were, like, what, naked?
-I'm naked. Naked.

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I was naked in bed with
my boyfriend, and she just--

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And it wasn't just one time either.

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I mean, it kind of says
less about him than her.

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Really, though? Does it?

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Yeah. Mer's like a force of nature.

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[both chuckle]

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Yeah. That's right.

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She's a force of nature. She, um...

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She's gonna beat this thing. Right?

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Right.

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Right. Yeah.

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[waves crashing]

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[seagulls crying]

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Derek said the sand isn't real.

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Yeah, no. Neither is the ocean.

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It is nice, though.

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I wouldn't want to leave either.

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The beach?

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Your kids. [chuckles]

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Got great kids.

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They're the best. You didn't meet them.

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I check in sometimes.

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How did you get older?

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Sand isn't real, the ocean isn't real.

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The body... it's not real.

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Maybe it's just more peaceful
for you to imagine me older?

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You sound like a fortune cookie.

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[both laughing]

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[sighs]

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Do I choose?

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Do I get to decide if I go back?

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I don't know. I didn't.

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I would have stayed if I could have.

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It's different for everyone, though.

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[monitor beeping]

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[door opens]

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She's still asleep?

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[Richard] She needs her rest.

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[Bailey] You want to wake her
and ask her about the trial?

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-I tried.
-How hard?

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She needs her rest, Bailey.

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If you think I'm struggling
with the decision,

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how do you think she's gonna do?

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You want to talk pros and cons?

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We don't know anything about the virus,

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so we don't know anything
about the treatment,

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so we don't know any of the pros
or any of the cons.

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Let's just see if the proning helps.

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[door opens]

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[Nana Ante] The boy refused
to wear anything with buttons.

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Collared shirts, slacks, even jeans.

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Look. Buttons confine, okay?

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Now, elastic waistbands give you freedom.

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You better not be wearing
elastic waistbands

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when you take Maggie out.

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I promise you he doesn't.

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-[computer ringing]
-Oh, is this your brother?

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He said he had to work.

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Happy Birthday, Momma!

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[Nana Ante] Thanks, baby.

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We're actually in the middle of dinner.

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Winston, I invited your dad.

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And you have to get along
because it's my birthday.

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[Clifford] So, who is this young lady?

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Um, I'm Maggie Pierce.
I'm a friend of Winston's.

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[Nana Ante] Friend? Ha.

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Maggie's a genius doctor like Winston.

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She used to be his teacher.

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Winston? A genius?

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Oh, stop playin'.

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[chuckling] You know that boy
almost failed sixth grade.

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Such a pain.

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Maybe I wouldn't have missed so much class

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if I wasn't helping Mom while
you gambled away our savings.

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-Winston!
-Sorry, Nana. No disrespect.

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Listen, man, I never pretended
to be a perfect man.

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But I love you, and I love my momma.

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So, please, for her sake,
let's try to be civil.

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Civil, huh?

15:30.583 --> 15:31.583
Okay.

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Happy birthday, Nana. I love you.

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Uh...

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So, is there cake?

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[siren wailing at distance]

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[birds chirping]

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[Jo] Why are you up so early?

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[sighs] Front desk.
I got some breakfast delivered.

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Oh, you know what?

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If I was hungry, I would have
just eaten the cold pizza.

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Who said I got you any?

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Can't believe I fell asleep.

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Never should've started
a movie with two sequels.

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Prequels. They were prequels.

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And I said that, but you called me a wuss.

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[clears throat] Why is your couch

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more comfortable than my bed?

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Well, you're welcome to it
whenever you want.

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[clears throat] Thank you
for the friendship reboot.

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It almost made up for the last
time that I woke up here.

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Tried to rip the Band-Aid off too soon.

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It's behind us. We're good.

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Uh, but you can take the pizza with you.

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I'll grab it for you.

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[Jo] Wait.

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Mnh, mnh, mnh.

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I'm ripping off the Band-Aid.

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It's just a basic algorithm that
simulates the spread of COVID.

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Here's what it would look like
if everyone social-distanced.

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[key clacks]

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[chuckling]

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Here... if everyone wore face masks.

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[key clacks, beeping]

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[chuckles]

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It's just a little stochastic S-I-R model

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that allows for multivariable inputs...

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[growling]

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...w-which I built by converting
a "Zombie Apocalypse" game.

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I love that game! How does yours end?

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I-I don't know yet.

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Same. I never got past level eight, so...

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Yeah, Helm, I appreciate your interest,

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but, uh, no one's gonna know
my test is negative

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if it never leaves my porch, hmm?

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Show's over.

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Bye-ee!

17:32.083 --> 17:34.542
[Meredith] I was devastated when you died.

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You were all cracking up at my funeral.

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Well, we were--

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No. What?

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What? No.

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It-- That made me happy.

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I was devastated.

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And then I was okay.

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And even with Derek...

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eventually you go on.

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And the kids would go on.

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They would, but...

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I think maybe with them it's different.

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My mom didn't go on.

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No?

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Not really, not like she used to.

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Some grief is--

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is heavier than other grief.

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Sometimes it moves through you,

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and sometimes it-- it just gets stuck.

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And you carry it. Like my mom.

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My mom carries it.

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Sometimes I try to shake it out of her.

18:39.834 --> 18:41.166
What?

18:41.959 --> 18:43.333
Like, you know...

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Like you haunt her?

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Well, I mean, if you want
to call it that, I...

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[laughs]

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I just want her to... let it go.

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I want her to know I'm still me

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even though she can't touch me
and she can't see me,

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but I am still me.

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It's not the same.

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No, I know.

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[monitor beeping]

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[indistinct conversations]

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You know, her sats were steady,

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but now they're just getting worse.

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I made some calls,
and there's another spot open

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in Dr. Kuo's trial,
but we have to act fast.

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Is there another spot
because another patient died?

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Have you seen the opacities in her lungs?

19:29.917 --> 19:31.333
Dr. Webber, at this point,

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you can either hope
that she wakes up again

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or you can make the decisions
that she chose you to make!

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I beg your pardon?

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The choice is between doing
nothing and doing something.

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Do something.

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-[Nico] You had to leave him open?
-[Owen] Yes.

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Once we got in, his colon was a mess.

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So we had to bring up an ileostomy

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and place an ABTHERA for the swelling.

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His clavicle's non-displaced.

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Fracture should heal quite nicely.

20:08.291 --> 20:09.875
-How soon?
-Till he can work again?

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Maybe a month.

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Tseng, let's diurese him overnight

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and let's put him on
the stand-by list for the OR

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in case we need to do a washout tomorrow.

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You did well today.

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Can I ask you something?

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Am I literally the only person
that can answer it?

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Kind of.

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Our patient's Asian-American.

20:31.917 --> 20:34.667
So right-side diverticulitis
was a greater possibility.

20:34.750 --> 20:36.959
But Dr. Hunt didn't scan him
when he first came in.

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So, what's your question?

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I think he should know so he
doesn't make this mistake again.

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But I don't know how to
talk to him about it.

20:43.500 --> 20:45.709
You don't know how to
accuse your attending of being a racist?

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Well, that's what That's not what I meant.
he's gonna hear.

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So your advice is... do nothing?

20:53.375 --> 20:55.542
You're a resident. He's an attending.

20:55.625 --> 20:57.667
My advice to you is, if you're
gonna have a conversation

20:57.750 --> 20:59.583
with him, at least know what to expect.

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Hello! Dr. Koracick?

21:17.125 --> 21:18.792
-No test kit?
-They wouldn't give me another one

21:18.875 --> 21:20.208
because you keep testing positive.

21:20.291 --> 21:23.000
But I got to level nine
on "Zombie Apocalypse."

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I didn't stop the virus, but it's a start.

21:25.500 --> 21:26.667
Oh, yeah, I-I stopped that.

21:26.750 --> 21:28.875
You found a cure? Or a vaccine?

21:29.041 --> 21:32.875
Wait. Did you reach herd immunity?

21:33.375 --> 21:34.458
Tell me.

21:35.417 --> 21:36.834
I blew up the world.

21:36.917 --> 21:37.917
You killed everyone?

21:38.000 --> 21:39.625
Oh, we're all gonna die anyway.

21:39.709 --> 21:41.250
Well, yeah, eventually.

21:41.333 --> 21:43.667
Well, if by "eventually" you mean
before the year's out, then, yeah.

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[chuckles]
I figured I'd cut to the chase.

21:53.458 --> 21:56.125
That was not a bridge.

21:56.208 --> 21:59.542
That was-- What's bigger than a bridge?

21:59.875 --> 22:02.000
Mm, whatever that was, I guess.

22:02.500 --> 22:04.792
Okay. But we can't do it again.
[clears throat]

22:04.875 --> 22:06.750
-No?
-No. Definitely not.

22:06.834 --> 22:07.959
Because then-- then we're a thing.

22:08.041 --> 22:09.458
We're definitely not a thing.

22:09.542 --> 22:10.667
Yeah, definitely not a thing.

22:10.750 --> 22:11.959
-Agreed.
-Not a thing.

22:12.041 --> 22:14.166
-It's just-- However...
-Yeah?

22:14.250 --> 22:16.750
...if we were to not get dressed

22:16.834 --> 22:20.125
between the first and the-- goes after...

22:20.208 --> 22:22.417
-Yep. Yeah, mm-hmm.
-You know what I'm saying?

22:22.500 --> 22:25.083
-Then it's all really just one experience.
-It's just one experience.

22:25.166 --> 22:27.500
-So it's not a thing. It's just--
-It's one whole experience.

22:30.542 --> 22:32.959
So... he just bailed?

22:33.542 --> 22:36.375
Yeah. I knew that he
had problems with his dad,

22:36.458 --> 22:38.750
but I did not know they were that bad.

22:38.834 --> 22:40.375
Couldn't even be
in a virtual room with him.

22:40.458 --> 22:42.083
And I haven't heard from him since.

22:42.166 --> 22:44.333
You seem exceedingly calm about that.

22:44.417 --> 22:46.458
You know, I'm-- I'm paying it forward.

22:46.542 --> 22:48.250
Or... backward.

22:48.333 --> 22:50.083
When we first reconnected in L.A.,

22:50.166 --> 22:53.625
I told him that I needed some time,
and he totally heard me.

22:54.083 --> 22:57.458
Plus, our sister's in the hospital
with COVID alone.

22:58.458 --> 23:00.542
It really puts things in perspective.

23:02.917 --> 23:04.625
I hate that we can't be with her.

23:04.709 --> 23:06.291
Me too.

23:07.875 --> 23:10.625
[man whistling]

23:10.709 --> 23:11.875
Is that whistling?

23:12.500 --> 23:13.959
That's Link.

23:14.291 --> 23:17.083
He is a one-man pep rally.

23:17.792 --> 23:19.333
And I hate that, too.

23:22.250 --> 23:24.083
Oh! Dr. Altman.

23:25.083 --> 23:26.208
Bad time?

23:26.291 --> 23:28.667
This virus is like
a-a drunk uncle at a wedding.

23:28.750 --> 23:30.375
Y-You've got no idea what it's gonna do

23:30.458 --> 23:31.500
or when it's gonna turn on you.

23:31.583 --> 23:33.500
I am reading everything on COVID

23:33.583 --> 23:35.458
because every 24 hours
there's something new.

23:35.542 --> 23:37.500
And I have to keep up
because there could be one drug,

23:37.583 --> 23:39.083
one procedure-- it could help.

23:39.166 --> 23:40.750
It could help everyone.
It could help Meredith Grey.

23:40.834 --> 23:42.542
So, yes, it's a-- it's a--
it's a bad time.

23:45.834 --> 23:47.000
What do you need?

23:47.083 --> 23:48.333
Um, I was gonna tell you

23:48.417 --> 23:51.291
that Dr. Koracick
is in a really dark place

23:51.375 --> 23:53.375
and seems like he could use a friend.

23:53.458 --> 23:56.583
But, um, Dr. Grey is kinda
my whole world, so...

23:58.000 --> 23:59.625
Never mind. Proceed.

24:04.083 --> 24:06.375
[Owen] Dave's abdominal swelling
is coming down,

24:06.458 --> 24:09.083
so we should be able to
close him in just a few days.

24:09.166 --> 24:11.125
[Tammi] Oh, that's great news. Thank you.

24:11.208 --> 24:13.208
Yeah. Just doing my job.
How are things there?

24:13.291 --> 24:14.917
Oh, hanging on by a thread.

24:15.000 --> 24:16.583
Dave's the one who keeps
this place running.

24:16.667 --> 24:18.000
Well, we are doing everything we can here

24:18.083 --> 24:19.208
to get him back to you, okay?

24:19.291 --> 24:20.375
Can I see him one more time?

24:20.458 --> 24:21.792
Of course.

24:21.875 --> 24:23.375
Rest up and come home soon, okay?

24:23.458 --> 24:25.542
I wish I could be there. I love you.

24:26.458 --> 24:29.166
-[sighs heavily]
-It's awful that she can't visit.

24:29.250 --> 24:31.166
It's awful this happened
in the first place.

24:32.875 --> 24:34.625
Tseng, you need to step out.

24:36.250 --> 24:38.333
-[sighs]
-Now.

24:45.542 --> 24:47.166
You don't have to be so hard on her.

24:47.250 --> 24:48.583
She's very attached to this patient.

24:48.667 --> 24:50.417
She's upset that a misdiagnosis

24:50.500 --> 24:52.792
cost this patient the next
four weeks of his livelihood.

24:52.875 --> 24:55.291
Me too. Sometimes you have to weigh
the risks and make a decision.

24:55.375 --> 24:57.625
Right-sided diverticulitis
is extremely rare.

24:57.709 --> 25:00.208
But not as rare for Dave.
It's 10 times more likely

25:00.291 --> 25:02.083
in patients of Asian descent
than white patients.

25:02.166 --> 25:05.166
Which you clearly didn't know or
didn't take into consideration.

25:05.250 --> 25:06.291
But either way it's on you,

25:06.375 --> 25:08.667
'cause all this could've been
avoided with a simple scan.

25:09.250 --> 25:11.083
[monitor beeping]

25:23.166 --> 25:24.625
-You're just getting here?
-[car door closes]

25:25.375 --> 25:27.125
Is that a problem?

25:27.208 --> 25:29.417
No. Just didn't see you when I got up.

25:29.500 --> 25:30.959
I figured you came in early.

25:31.750 --> 25:33.500
I was exercising.

25:35.458 --> 25:36.542
Morning.

25:37.792 --> 25:40.208
Oh, my God! You're back together.

25:40.291 --> 25:41.375
-Kind of.
-Ugh!

25:41.458 --> 25:43.000
Taryn said the Netherlands

25:43.083 --> 25:45.792
suggested people find
a designated sex partner

25:45.875 --> 25:47.250
for the pandemic.

25:47.333 --> 25:48.750
You're having sex with Nico

25:48.834 --> 25:50.667
because the Dutch government
recommends it?

25:50.750 --> 25:53.917
Their country ranks very high
on the World Happiness Index.

25:54.000 --> 25:55.667
He lied, dumped you.

25:55.750 --> 25:57.917
-He barely gives you the time of day.
-Okay, stop judging.

25:58.000 --> 25:59.917
It's wartime, but I still have needs.

26:00.333 --> 26:02.750
It's not like I'm just
gonna find someone new.

26:02.834 --> 26:04.792
So you're with your
emotionally unavailable ex?

26:04.875 --> 26:06.000
Wartime!

26:06.083 --> 26:07.709
[sighs]

26:07.792 --> 26:11.583
[Link] Ah, the sun is out,
and Scout's down.

26:12.083 --> 26:16.834
And everyone else is watching
a PBS show about penguins.

26:17.417 --> 26:20.250
Meredith's not improving.
Uh, they can't wake her.

26:20.750 --> 26:22.542
Well, she's getting her rest. It's good.

26:22.625 --> 26:24.792
No, it is not good.
None of this is good, okay?

26:24.875 --> 26:27.208
Do you not see that?
I am terrified for Meredith.

26:27.291 --> 26:30.834
I am sad. I am enraged
that this is happening.

26:30.917 --> 26:33.041
So, please, stop dismissing me

26:33.125 --> 26:36.000
with your bright sides
and your pep talks, okay?

26:36.083 --> 26:38.583
Let me have my fear and my grief

26:38.667 --> 26:39.959
and my anger.

26:40.041 --> 26:44.291
Because if I don't,
if I keep shoving it down,

26:44.375 --> 26:46.917
you will have a very hard time

26:47.000 --> 26:49.083
finding the bright side
to the consequences.

27:06.875 --> 27:08.041
What are you doing?

27:12.583 --> 27:15.000
I'm making some space for us to sit

27:15.792 --> 27:19.834
while you have all your feelings.

27:21.458 --> 27:25.417
[Celeste's "I'm Here" plays]

27:25.500 --> 27:26.667
[monitor beeping]

27:35.375 --> 27:38.875
♪ How do we still remember ♪

27:41.875 --> 27:45.333
♪ My mind and memories young ♪

27:48.125 --> 27:51.667
♪ I want you January to December ♪

27:51.750 --> 27:53.917
[waves crashing]

27:54.000 --> 27:55.542
[George] Do you still dance?

27:55.625 --> 27:57.166
[Meredith] Hmm?

27:57.250 --> 27:58.792
When you're sad or you're stressed,

27:58.875 --> 28:01.709
do you still... dance it out?

28:01.834 --> 28:06.458
No, not so much anymore,
not since Cristina left.

28:07.291 --> 28:09.333
Cristina didn't die.

28:10.166 --> 28:11.375
I know.

28:13.041 --> 28:15.166
That's what I miss about being alive.

28:16.542 --> 28:19.917
Dancing till you drop.

28:20.750 --> 28:22.709
Laughing till you cry.

28:23.709 --> 28:26.166
Food. Textures.

28:26.500 --> 28:29.041
The crunch of cereal
as you eat it from the box.

28:29.125 --> 28:31.083
[laughs]

28:31.166 --> 28:33.667
The feel of clean sheets and a good pillow

28:33.750 --> 28:35.333
at the end of a long day.

28:37.000 --> 28:38.333
[monitor beeping faintly]

28:38.417 --> 28:39.917
♪ These fears ♪

28:40.000 --> 28:43.000
[Richard] I've got the consent
forms for that clinical trial...

28:43.083 --> 28:44.500
...for that clinical trial...

28:44.583 --> 28:48.208
♪ These tears are just tears ♪

28:48.291 --> 28:50.208
And there's one more space, and...

28:51.166 --> 28:52.875
I have to decide, and...

28:53.709 --> 28:56.625
it could be the best
or worst decision of my life.

28:57.834 --> 29:01.291
Your doctors,
your friends, your family.

29:01.375 --> 29:02.375
They're worried about you.

29:03.041 --> 29:04.792
I'm trying to be strong for them,

29:04.875 --> 29:08.083
but I'll admit... I'm struggling.

29:09.458 --> 29:11.375
Seeing you there like this...

29:11.458 --> 29:13.834
and not knowing what to do.

29:13.917 --> 29:16.125
[monitor beeping]

29:16.208 --> 29:18.125
I'm sorry, Richard.

29:19.417 --> 29:22.333
And choices. Ahh.

29:23.125 --> 29:24.458
So many choices.

29:24.542 --> 29:27.500
So many ways to live a life.

29:28.083 --> 29:29.333
Meredith?

29:29.417 --> 29:31.709
Meredith, what is it? I'm here.

29:32.417 --> 29:33.500
I'm right here.

29:33.917 --> 29:38.208
♪ Enough time to know that you're... ♪

29:38.542 --> 29:41.041
If you stay here, it might break him.

29:41.125 --> 29:45.125
♪ Ohh, keeping your eyes on me ♪

29:45.917 --> 29:47.000
I know.

29:47.083 --> 29:49.625
♪ I know you'll be here
When I look 'round ♪

29:51.375 --> 29:54.041
[weakly] I know, George.

29:54.125 --> 29:57.709
♪ These fears ♪

29:57.792 --> 30:00.500
♪ No longer weapons ♪

30:00.792 --> 30:06.166
♪ These tears are just tears ♪

30:07.333 --> 30:09.583
♪ Not longing ♪

30:09.667 --> 30:10.834
Get her in.

30:10.917 --> 30:13.250
♪ For direction ♪

30:13.917 --> 30:19.208
♪ I belong here ♪

30:26.000 --> 30:27.667
[siren wailing in distance]

30:27.750 --> 30:30.333
Oh, God, I hate...

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Me?

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Every single thing except you.

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I live with Jo Wilson now.

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But she, uh...

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has not been sleeping at home.

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I want to invite you over.

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But I guess we have not
been great to each other.

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And I don't know what's really changed.

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Levi.

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There's a worldwide pandemic.

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We literally don't know if we're
gonna live to see tomorrow.

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A lot has changed.

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Yeah, okay, let's go.

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[horns honking]

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[knock on door]

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-Hey.
-Hey.

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Um... [clears throat]

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Our plan went to crap,

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and now we can't pretend
it didn't happen--

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I can't be in a relationship right now.

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-What?
-Sorry.

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Let me start over. That sounded rude.

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When I'm saying is, I-I jumped
right into something with Vic...

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Mm-hmm.

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...you know, after
breaking up with Maggie,

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who I started dating
pretty soon after April.

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So I just probably should take
some time to sort things out.

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I don't want to do anything
to hurt you or our friendship.

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Jackson, my husband left me
the same year that we got married,

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for a second time.

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I am super broken.

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Like "virtual therapy
three times a week" broken.

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And now I have to put myself back together

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in a world that I no longer recognize,

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one that is sad and lonely and depressing.

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So what I need is friendship and sex.

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I am not, like really not,
looking for a relationship.

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Especially with someone like you.

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-Someone like me? Okay.
-Mm-hmm.

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Yeah, you know, Mr., um...
"Can't Be Alone

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But Sometimes Skips Town
To Go On Nature Journeys."

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-No thanks. No.
-Oh, okay.

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But you can be friends with

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and have sex with Mr. Can't Be Alone?

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-Got it.
-Yes.

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The Netherlands has recommended

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that its residents
find a regular sex buddy

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during the pandemic for safety.

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-Sounds wise.
-Doesn't it?

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[laughing] You thought
I wanted to date you?

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Well, how is that-- Why is that so funny?

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Hey. Uh...

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You mind if I, uh...

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Okay, well, sit over there.

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Okay. Hypothetical.

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Asian-American male presents with fever,

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high white blood cell count,
and right lower quadrant pain.

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Oh, is this the restaurant guy?

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I caught him in the ER.

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Bailey, I see a dozen
presentations like that a month.

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All appendicitis.

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But if I'm honest, in that moment,

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I-I didn't give it much thought.

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I just-- He was-- He was any patient.

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Any non-Asian patient.

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I defaulted to a standard of care.

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That's centered around white patients.

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I never want to make that mistake again.

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There is no excuse.

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You know, when you're dealing
with a high patient count,

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you have to make judgment calls, you know?

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You-- You have to ask, what is
the most likely problem, right?

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So there's no excuses,

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other than the excuses
you just listed off?

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[chuckles] That's not what I meant.

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Ha!

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I just want to treat everyone equally.

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Equal doesn't work for everybody, Hunt.

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I-It's about equity--
patients getting what they need,

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whether it fits into a protocol or not.

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Look, I just put my parents
in assisted living,

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and I can't stop worrying
that they won't get enough care

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because... there are
so few Black folks there.

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Meanwhile, my dad's freaked out

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because on his floor the nurses are male.

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In his mind, good nurses
are female, period.

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So we all have biases, Hunt,
including you.

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What matters now is what you do about it.

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You're the chief of trauma.

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If the protocols don't work,

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then read, learn...

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question... and change them.

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[guitar playing blues riff]

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Kids are asleep.

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And... it's your turn to talk.

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I'm good.

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Link, everything sucks right now.
You can talk about it.

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Yeah. Yeah. I could do that.

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If you want me to be...
miserable and resentful.

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Resentful of me?

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For trying to listen?

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No, of making me talk

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when clearly all I want to do
is play my damn guitar.

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[guitar playing]

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You can't keep everything bottled up.

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No, no, you can't, Amelia.

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That's how you process feelings.

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That's how you cope.
And I'm okay with that.

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But... I've been through
"everything sucks."

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Illness and isolation.

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When I had cancer.
When-- When my parents split.

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I was so depressed that I could--

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I could barely get out of bed
for the better part of a year.

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And I was 11.

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Then I met a kid at cancer camp.

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Morrow Willis.

36:23.542 --> 36:25.208
Kid was probably sicker than I was,

36:25.291 --> 36:28.083
but he didn't want to talk
about treatments or symptoms.

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Just sports and "Mario Kart."

36:30.041 --> 36:34.000
So I said to myself, "What if
I just focus on the good stuff?"

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And I tried it.

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And it turns out that's
what works for me.

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That's what I need.

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And if you're okay with that, great,

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but if you need a partner
in misery, I'm not your guy.

36:47.041 --> 36:49.500
[guitar playing]

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Whatcha playing?

36:57.542 --> 36:59.208
Just a little something I made up.

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It's called, uh,
"If the Virus Doesn't End Us,

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Then Climate Change Probably Will Blues."

37:06.000 --> 37:08.583
[guitar playing]

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[computer ringing]

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Hey.

37:20.041 --> 37:22.208
Hey. Wasn't sure you'd answer.

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Please. The woman who all
but ghosted you for a month

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does not get to judge.

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It's just, uh... my dad.

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We don't have to talk about it

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if you're not ready to
or if you don't want to.

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It makes me crazy because he--
he seems like he's all charm,

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but he has got this temper that...

37:42.834 --> 37:46.625
Well, if you're serious about
not talking about it right now,

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that can wait...

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because the things I want
to do with you tonight...

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they can't.

37:53.041 --> 37:56.792
Oh, well, I'm going to need you
to say more about that.

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All right, all right.
Hold on. Let me, uh--

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Let me try to share my screen.

37:59.500 --> 38:02.375
-Oh, my God.
-What?

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Are we gonna watch porn?

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[chuckles] No.

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"Coming to America."

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[gasps]

38:10.417 --> 38:11.458
Mm-hmm.

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Yes! Please! Ahh! [chuckles]

38:14.875 --> 38:16.792
-[thunder rumbling]
-Ugh!

38:16.875 --> 38:17.834
Okay.

38:20.834 --> 38:22.667
Hey, Tom?

38:23.375 --> 38:24.875
Tom, it's me!

38:28.625 --> 38:31.625
I brought you soup
and I know that you're home!

38:31.709 --> 38:35.208
It's that really excellent soup
from that little Polish place.

38:39.333 --> 38:40.875
Tom...

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I know-- I know that I am the last person
that you want to see.

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I just-- I don't know.

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I thought maybe we could talk
through the door.

38:48.291 --> 38:52.917
I just feel like you need some
semblance of human contact.

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I don't blame you for-- for
wanting to keep your distance,

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I mean, pandemic or not.

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I just want you to know
that you're not alone.

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[Kevin Garrett's "Refuse" plays]

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[shivers]

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[Meredith] Experts say
the more resilient we are,

39:23.125 --> 39:25.375
the better we can face life's challenges.

39:25.458 --> 39:26.875
[thunder crashes]

39:26.959 --> 39:29.959
♪ I'm okay alone ♪

39:30.041 --> 39:32.792
[seagulls crying]

39:32.875 --> 39:35.333
♪ It makes my soul stir ♪

39:35.417 --> 39:37.166
I was so mad at you.

39:37.583 --> 39:38.917
What, for leaving you?

39:39.834 --> 39:42.250
For choosing someone over yourself.

39:42.333 --> 39:44.709
I didn't know I was gonna die.

39:45.208 --> 39:46.583
Do you regret it?

39:46.667 --> 39:49.417
♪ Keep my head in the dirt ♪

39:49.500 --> 39:51.041
Does that matter?

39:52.125 --> 39:54.083
You'd have done the same thing.
Isn't that why you're here?

39:54.166 --> 39:56.083
♪ Slow crash ♪

39:56.166 --> 39:57.583
♪ Stumble over nothing on my own path ♪

39:57.667 --> 39:59.208
Yeah. I guess.

39:59.291 --> 40:00.750
So it's your fault.

40:00.834 --> 40:02.750
[both laugh]

40:02.917 --> 40:04.333
How do you figure?

40:04.417 --> 40:06.667
♪ No one ever wanted me to go back ♪

40:06.792 --> 40:08.250
Because you...

40:09.083 --> 40:11.875
went all-in for everybody.

40:11.959 --> 40:15.375
Your friends, your family,
a woman at the bus stop.

40:16.333 --> 40:17.834
You think that didn't somehow affect me?

40:17.917 --> 40:19.792
♪ But I refuse ♪

40:19.875 --> 40:21.834
You changed my life, George.

40:22.792 --> 40:24.959
I didn't say it then, but it's true.

40:25.041 --> 40:28.125
And the single biggest factor
for cultivating resilience?

40:28.208 --> 40:30.792
♪ Far away from home ♪

40:31.166 --> 40:33.250
Positive relationships.

40:33.333 --> 40:36.792
♪ Forgot my address ♪

40:36.875 --> 40:38.750
[monitor beeping]

40:40.959 --> 40:44.917
♪ Mind is still on loan ♪

40:45.000 --> 40:48.417
[Bailey] For what it's worth, I think
you made the right call,

40:48.500 --> 40:50.458
putting her in the trial.

40:51.667 --> 40:53.959
I've known Meredith since she was a child.

40:55.667 --> 40:59.542
I watched her operate
on her dolls in the OR gallery.

41:00.208 --> 41:03.709
I took her for milk and cookies
in the cafeteria.

41:04.959 --> 41:07.959
I helped her get over her fear
of the film review room

41:08.041 --> 41:10.500
because that's where she thought
we kept the skeletons.

41:10.583 --> 41:13.917
♪ I know I am anything but uncouth ♪

41:14.000 --> 41:18.041
And then I watched her
become a surgeon, a wife...

41:19.208 --> 41:22.875
a mother, and a chief.

41:25.041 --> 41:29.792
You know, I knew COVID patients
had to suffer in isolation.

41:29.875 --> 41:34.000
But I never gave any thought
to how helpless

41:34.083 --> 41:36.625
and alone it feels

41:36.709 --> 41:38.875
for the people who care about them.

41:41.834 --> 41:47.375
♪ I ref-u-u-use ♪

41:49.959 --> 41:55.458
♪ Yes, I ref-u-u-use ♪

41:55.959 --> 42:00.500
♪ No, no, no, no, no ♪

42:00.709 --> 42:01.917
[thunder crashes]

42:02.000 --> 42:04.667
♪ Yes, I refuse ♪

42:05.291 --> 42:07.959
[thunder rumbling]

42:08.041 --> 42:12.000
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

42:12.083 --> 42:14.041
[Meredith] So find your people...

42:14.125 --> 42:15.250
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

42:15.333 --> 42:16.458
...and keep them close.

42:16.542 --> 42:21.041
♪ Ooh, ooh, yes, I refuse ♪

42:21.125 --> 42:23.166
Because when you're at your lowest...

42:28.125 --> 42:30.083
...those people get you through.

43:09.709 --> 43:11.625
[indistinct screams]