WEBVTT 00:06.500 --> 00:08.125 [Bailey] My mom used to tell me 00:08.208 --> 00:10.667 never to judge people until you know their story. 00:10.750 --> 00:11.875 Yeah. I can do that. 00:11.959 --> 00:14.625 ♪ Just talk to me now ♪ 00:14.792 --> 00:19.083 ♪ I'll help with those demons you carry ♪ 00:19.166 --> 00:21.750 You might think you understand, 00:21.834 --> 00:23.041 but you don't. 00:23.125 --> 00:25.458 ♪ I don't know if they go ♪ 00:25.542 --> 00:28.166 That's why, as a patient, 00:28.250 --> 00:30.500 it's important to have an advocate. 00:30.583 --> 00:33.458 ♪ But we'll be happy someday, too ♪ 00:33.542 --> 00:35.750 [cellphone rings] 00:35.834 --> 00:37.083 Perfect timing. 00:37.291 --> 00:39.291 I just finished my last tele-health patient. 00:39.375 --> 00:41.000 Oh, I just woke up. 00:41.083 --> 00:42.959 Aw. How'd you sleep? 00:43.041 --> 00:44.792 Would have slept better if you were laying next to me. 00:44.875 --> 00:47.375 [Bailey] Someone to tell your story, to be your voice... 00:47.458 --> 00:49.291 [speaks indistinctly] 00:49.375 --> 00:50.792 ...to say your name. 00:51.709 --> 00:55.166 Especially when you don't have the voice yourself. 00:55.250 --> 00:57.333 ♪ The great divide ♪ 00:57.417 --> 01:00.041 Her oxygen requirements have come down this much? 01:00.125 --> 01:02.041 Ah. Cytokine storm's leveling off, too. 01:02.125 --> 01:04.458 I mean, look at her CRP, ferritin. 01:05.000 --> 01:06.333 That is great. 01:06.417 --> 01:07.917 Oh, I ordered a repeat chest X-ray 01:07.959 --> 01:09.625 to see if the infiltrates are decreasing, too. 01:09.709 --> 01:11.500 You talk to her? She feel any better? 01:11.583 --> 01:13.166 Just long enough to tell her that we got her into 01:13.250 --> 01:15.500 the drug trial. But she's pretty exhausted. 01:15.583 --> 01:17.208 Well, it's probably the side effects. 01:17.291 --> 01:19.875 And she can sleep all day if these numbers keep improving. 01:19.959 --> 01:21.291 Keep me posted. 01:21.375 --> 01:23.208 ♪ That you are not alone ♪ 01:23.291 --> 01:25.375 Jo? Good morning. 01:25.458 --> 01:27.417 It's time to get up. 01:27.500 --> 01:28.959 ♪ Afloat ♪ 01:29.041 --> 01:31.333 ♪ It's a brand-new day ♪ 01:31.417 --> 01:32.709 ♪ The sun is out to play ♪ 01:32.792 --> 01:34.667 God, will you shut up? I'm awake. 01:34.750 --> 01:36.917 Oh, okay. Are you going to work? 01:37.000 --> 01:38.041 Yes. 01:38.709 --> 01:40.750 At the regular time or...? 01:40.834 --> 01:42.917 [sighs] 01:43.000 --> 01:44.208 Everything okay? 01:44.959 --> 01:47.083 Oh, yeah, everything's great. 01:47.667 --> 01:49.709 I barely get to operate anymore, 01:49.792 --> 01:52.583 and when I do, they don't even recover enough to go home. 01:52.667 --> 01:54.041 Oh, and how could I forget 01:54.125 --> 01:57.792 the refrigerator truck full of dead bodies 01:57.875 --> 01:59.959 that I get to pass on the way from the parking lot 02:00.041 --> 02:01.500 to the hospital? 02:02.125 --> 02:03.875 The only reason I'm still in bed 02:03.959 --> 02:06.625 is that I am paralyzed with excitement. 02:09.083 --> 02:11.041 -So you're going? -Why do you care? 02:11.125 --> 02:13.208 My bike has a flat tire, and you're my ride. 02:14.291 --> 02:15.625 [sighs] 02:15.709 --> 02:18.750 [William] She said the salad I made was too small. 02:18.834 --> 02:21.000 So I go back and make her a bigger one. 02:21.083 --> 02:23.125 She says I must hate her because it's too big. 02:23.208 --> 02:24.417 -[Bailey] Mm. -I just can't win. 02:24.500 --> 02:26.291 No, she appreciates you, Dad. 02:26.375 --> 02:28.458 It's not her. It's the dementia. 02:28.542 --> 02:30.959 [William] Knowing that doesn't make it hurt any less. 02:31.083 --> 02:32.250 We're gonna get through this. 02:32.333 --> 02:34.709 We? I only see you on the phone. 02:34.792 --> 02:37.250 And you can't even bother to hold the thing still. 02:37.333 --> 02:38.917 I have a hospital to run. 02:39.000 --> 02:40.667 And I didn't know there'd be a pandemic. 02:40.750 --> 02:42.291 Ben's sister gets to stay with you. 02:42.375 --> 02:43.917 To-- With the boys. 02:44.291 --> 02:46.000 Who I don't see either. 02:46.083 --> 02:48.250 Ben's staying at the station, 02:48.333 --> 02:51.667 and half the time, I'm too tired to make it to my hotel. 02:51.750 --> 02:55.291 I promise Silver Villas is more comfortable than my office. 02:55.583 --> 02:58.625 I just hate this. I hate all of it. 02:58.709 --> 03:00.041 It's not fair. 03:00.125 --> 03:01.834 Well, COVID's not big on fair. 03:01.917 --> 03:03.291 Listen, I have to go. 03:03.375 --> 03:04.667 I love you. 03:06.417 --> 03:08.500 Don't go outside, Dad, okay? It's not safe. 03:08.583 --> 03:11.375 [William] Tell your mom that. She's the one always trying to leave. 03:11.458 --> 03:13.417 -[sighs] -[smooches] I love you, too. 03:13.500 --> 03:14.625 [smooches] 03:15.458 --> 03:17.333 [Woman over P.A.] Dr. Wakeman to Neurology. 03:17.417 --> 03:19.083 Dr. Wakeman to Neurology. 03:19.166 --> 03:20.291 [sighs] 03:21.417 --> 03:22.709 [Richard] Ah. Good morning, Avery. 03:22.792 --> 03:24.000 [Jackson] Not really. 03:24.083 --> 03:25.667 You know how many trachs I've had to do this week 03:25.750 --> 03:27.625 on long-term vent patients 'cause of COVID? 03:27.709 --> 03:29.542 No, but I have a feeling you're gonna tell me. 03:29.625 --> 03:31.000 11, Richard. 03:31.083 --> 03:32.583 Gonna be 12 in about an hour, 03:32.667 --> 03:34.208 and this number's gonna keep on going up, 03:34.291 --> 03:36.375 which is why I need you to help me with this. 03:36.458 --> 03:39.000 [Richard] Oh, when did your mother go to San Francisco? 03:39.083 --> 03:41.041 What? No, no. That's a-- That's a fake video background 03:41.125 --> 03:42.875 for when she talks to Harriet. That's not the point. Look. 03:42.959 --> 03:44.291 You want her to change the background? 03:44.375 --> 03:46.709 I want you to get your wife to wear a damn mask, okay? 03:46.792 --> 03:49.709 She's in a germ-collecting car with her driver with no mask. 03:49.792 --> 03:50.959 She wears masks. 03:51.041 --> 03:52.667 On her chin, okay, 03:52.750 --> 03:55.166 or dangling from her ear like a weird piece of jewelry. 03:55.250 --> 03:58.166 She is living with cancer. She is immunocompromised. 03:58.542 --> 03:59.542 I got to get to surgery. 03:59.625 --> 04:01.375 Just get her to wear the stupid mask correctly, please. 04:02.000 --> 04:03.041 Well, you know what it's like 04:03.125 --> 04:04.375 to get your mother to do something! 04:04.542 --> 04:07.166 Yeah, that's why I'm calling for reinforcements. 04:10.417 --> 04:12.792 [Reza] Val Ashton, status post right hepatectomy 04:12.875 --> 04:14.250 with segments 5 through 8 04:14.333 --> 04:16.417 due to bleeding from hepatic pregnancy. 04:16.500 --> 04:17.583 Her drains were pulled two days ago, 04:17.667 --> 04:19.291 but this morning she's tachy to 120, 04:19.375 --> 04:20.583 her BP has decreased, 04:20.667 --> 04:23.000 and transaminases and bili are both trending upwards. 04:23.083 --> 04:24.959 [Val] She's kind, giving, successful, 04:25.041 --> 04:27.125 enjoys a raunchy romance novel. 04:27.208 --> 04:29.041 Without shame. [chuckles] 04:29.125 --> 04:31.000 I need compliments, too, guys. 04:31.083 --> 04:33.083 [Jo] I'm glad that you're in good spirits, Val, 04:33.166 --> 04:36.667 but, um, your labs are concerning. 04:36.750 --> 04:37.959 I'm ordering a CT. 04:38.041 --> 04:40.583 I carried a baby in my liver. 04:40.667 --> 04:43.959 Can't you make an exception for moms and babies who defy odds? 04:45.083 --> 04:47.041 I-I'm sick of video chats. 04:47.125 --> 04:50.125 Luna's gonna think her mom's a pixelated blob. 04:50.208 --> 04:52.792 [Levi] Technically, that's what you'd look like even in person. 04:52.875 --> 04:54.417 Babies can only see about six inches in front-- 04:54.500 --> 04:56.333 [Jo] Schmitt! Not the point. 04:57.291 --> 04:59.417 Val, I know that it's not what you wanted to hear, 04:59.500 --> 05:03.041 but Luna's on a vent, and moving her is very precarious. 05:03.125 --> 05:05.125 Plus, we-- we need to make sure that you're taken care of 05:05.208 --> 05:06.417 before you meet her. 05:06.500 --> 05:08.750 For Luna's sake and for yours. 05:08.834 --> 05:10.291 Okay? 05:12.041 --> 05:14.250 [siren wailing] 05:14.333 --> 05:15.625 Do we know if he's okay? 05:15.709 --> 05:17.834 Not sure. This is him. 05:17.917 --> 05:19.083 [Koracick] You're not listening-- 05:19.166 --> 05:20.917 I have to be at home. I don't want to miss it-- 05:21.000 --> 05:22.000 Oh, my God. 05:22.083 --> 05:23.625 [Paramedic] Okay, we have a COVID-positive male, 05:23.709 --> 05:25.500 heart rate 123, BP 90 over 60. 05:25.583 --> 05:28.166 Pulse Ox of 92 on 100%, high flow. 05:28.250 --> 05:29.917 He's incoherent and disoriented. 05:30.000 --> 05:32.000 [Taryn] I just saw him two days ago. He was fine. 05:32.083 --> 05:33.458 Is this a stroke? 05:33.542 --> 05:35.166 Could be. Or encephalitis brought on by COVID. 05:35.250 --> 05:36.583 [Koracick] I have tickets to Opening Day, 05:36.667 --> 05:38.000 and David's dying to catch a fly ball. 05:38.083 --> 05:39.458 -[Taryn] Who's David? -His son. 05:39.542 --> 05:41.458 Let's get him to a COVID room now. 05:41.542 --> 05:43.000 Hang on. He's seizing. 05:44.417 --> 05:45.750 Let's get him on his side. 05:45.834 --> 05:47.333 -Ready? One, two, three. -[Koracick gasping] 05:57.875 --> 06:00.041 [Teddy] No signs of head trauma, but, Helm, call up to CT, 06:00.125 --> 06:01.667 let them know we'll be up as soon as possible. 06:01.750 --> 06:03.417 [Owen] We'll do it. Helm, out. 06:03.500 --> 06:04.959 [Taryn] But I've already had COVID -- 06:05.041 --> 06:06.417 Doesn't matter. You're a resident, 06:06.500 --> 06:07.750 and he's positive. Out. Now. 06:08.417 --> 06:10.125 Get off me. Stay back. 06:10.208 --> 06:12.375 Tom. Tom, it's me. It's Teddy. Try to stay calm. 06:12.458 --> 06:14.291 -[Koracick] I-- Don't-- Don't touch me. -[Teddy] Tom? 06:14.375 --> 06:15.667 Take it easy. We're just trying to take care of you. 06:15.750 --> 06:17.458 -Push two of Ativan. -No, I don't-- I don't know you. 06:17.542 --> 06:18.583 -I don't know you! -He's postictal. 06:18.667 --> 06:19.834 Just wait a minute, and the meds will kick in. 06:19.917 --> 06:21.166 No, I don't-- I don't know you. 06:21.667 --> 06:23.417 [grunting softly] 06:23.500 --> 06:24.959 -[sighs] -Teddy, I got this, okay? 06:25.709 --> 06:27.208 Please, call up to CT. 06:30.959 --> 06:32.000 Okay. 06:33.542 --> 06:35.542 [Val[ Hey, Angel. 06:35.625 --> 06:39.083 I'd be there with you, but the mean doctors say no. 06:39.166 --> 06:40.917 Can you say "mean"? 06:41.417 --> 06:44.959 Can you hold the phone close enough for me to smell her head? 06:45.041 --> 06:46.959 [Reza] How about I bring you one of her blankets? 06:47.041 --> 06:49.834 Ah! I will literally marry you. 06:49.917 --> 06:51.500 [Jo] Val. 06:51.583 --> 06:54.667 Crap. That is your bad-news face. 06:54.750 --> 06:57.583 Your CT showed that you have an abscess 06:57.667 --> 07:00.250 that's eroding into an artery in your liver, 07:00.333 --> 07:02.792 causing what's called a pseudoaneurysm. 07:02.875 --> 07:04.000 Okay. 07:04.083 --> 07:05.458 [Levi] It's a weakening of the blood vessel, 07:05.542 --> 07:06.834 which is causing it to leak. 07:06.917 --> 07:08.792 We need to take you to surgery right away to repair it. 07:08.875 --> 07:11.542 I am so sorry that it's not better news. 07:12.500 --> 07:13.834 [cellphone clatters] 07:15.375 --> 07:16.458 Leave. 07:17.250 --> 07:19.041 [monitor beeping] 07:19.458 --> 07:20.917 [door closes] 07:21.709 --> 07:22.959 [Val] Eight years. 07:24.625 --> 07:28.083 I've wanted to be a mom for eight years. 07:29.000 --> 07:31.208 I've known my baby's name. 07:32.250 --> 07:34.834 I've known the color I would paint the nursery. 07:34.917 --> 07:38.000 I've known the made-up lullaby I would sing at night. 07:38.875 --> 07:41.125 And now that I finally have the chance... 07:41.917 --> 07:44.041 being a mom is just some weird TV show 07:44.125 --> 07:46.125 I'm watching on my phone, 07:46.208 --> 07:49.125 and I don't know if it will ever be real. 07:50.083 --> 07:51.583 [crying] 07:51.667 --> 07:55.041 Please make it real. 07:57.625 --> 07:59.208 [Maggie] Have you heard about Koracick? 07:59.291 --> 08:01.583 [Bailey] Yes. He's getting the world's best care, 08:01.667 --> 08:03.333 and I'm trying not to think about it. 08:03.417 --> 08:06.709 So, can you wait that long for the converted rooms? 08:06.792 --> 08:08.417 Is sooner an option? 08:08.500 --> 08:10.250 See, even with the lockdown, we are getting slammed. 08:10.333 --> 08:12.875 We got six cases today from assisted-living facilities, 08:12.959 --> 08:14.583 -three from the same one. -[Woman] I'll go check. 08:14.667 --> 08:17.500 -Oh, which one? -Silver Villas in Ballard. 08:17.583 --> 08:20.000 COVID spreads through those places like wildfire. 08:20.083 --> 08:21.125 Where are you going? 08:21.208 --> 08:23.625 Uh, that's where my parents are. 08:23.709 --> 08:25.458 -A rescue mission? -[Bailey] Yes. 08:25.542 --> 08:27.834 Just stop what you're doing and get to Silver Villas. 08:27.917 --> 08:29.041 To grab your mom and dad? 08:29.125 --> 08:30.458 I've been trying to call the front office, 08:30.542 --> 08:31.667 but they're not answering. 08:31.750 --> 08:32.750 Where do you want me to take them? 08:32.834 --> 08:34.375 Uh, to my hotel. 08:34.458 --> 08:36.208 Y-- Uh, I don't care. Just get them out. 08:36.291 --> 08:38.041 Yeah, I'm on it. I love you. 08:39.291 --> 08:40.458 [click, siren wailing] 08:44.917 --> 08:46.375 -[Jo] Okay, lap pads. -[Reza] Here you go. 08:47.625 --> 08:49.333 [Levi] Khan was an attending in Pakistan. 08:50.125 --> 08:51.458 We could probably be assisting him. 08:51.542 --> 08:52.917 Not gonna happen. 08:53.000 --> 08:55.083 No, I know. I just-- making a point. 08:55.166 --> 08:56.125 Suction. 08:56.208 --> 08:57.625 You were a vascular surgeon, right? 08:57.709 --> 09:00.083 [Reza] Yes, Dr. Schmitt, one of the first to be certified in my country. 09:00.542 --> 09:02.041 Why would you leave? 09:02.125 --> 09:03.208 Okay, Kelly clamp. 09:03.291 --> 09:05.000 Uh, it wasn't exactly a choice. 09:05.083 --> 09:07.083 I love my home, it shaped me. 09:07.166 --> 09:09.000 Still nice not to worry about religious persecution 09:09.083 --> 09:10.667 -or bombings, so... -[Jo] Clamp. 09:10.750 --> 09:12.041 I just started over. 09:12.125 --> 09:14.583 Just? It's a five-year residency. 09:14.667 --> 09:16.333 If I finished this and had to start over-- 09:16.417 --> 09:18.583 Ugh. Pass. Can you imagine? 09:18.667 --> 09:20.500 Can you imagine paying more attention to the field 09:20.583 --> 09:22.083 so the patient doesn't die? 09:22.166 --> 09:24.000 Damn it. Her tissue's so friable 09:24.083 --> 09:25.875 it's just disintegrating into my hands. 09:25.959 --> 09:27.625 -We got to get control of-- -I know what we need to do! 09:27.709 --> 09:30.083 Everyone shift. We're doing a modified pringle maneuver. 09:30.166 --> 09:31.375 Clamp. 09:36.333 --> 09:37.750 [Maggie] Okay, thank you. 09:37.834 --> 09:40.166 Hey. Your phone has been ringing like crazy. 09:40.250 --> 09:41.583 Oh? 09:44.166 --> 09:46.875 -Oh, wow. Okay. -[cellphone chiming] 09:46.959 --> 09:48.542 Uh, okay. Let's just, uh... 09:48.625 --> 09:50.834 -Ben! How did it -- -[Ben] I tried to call you. 09:50.917 --> 09:52.333 I picked up your mom, and she's sick. 09:52.417 --> 09:53.542 Wait, slow down. I ca-- 09:53.625 --> 09:54.834 -We're at the hospital. -Now? 09:54.917 --> 09:56.375 [Ben] Right now. 09:58.125 --> 09:59.166 Mom! 10:00.458 --> 10:02.625 [labored breathing] 10:04.917 --> 10:07.125 Mom? Hey, it's me. 10:07.792 --> 10:09.000 I'm here. 10:14.291 --> 10:16.583 -William? -[Maggie] All right, okay. 10:16.667 --> 10:18.000 [gasping] Where-- Where-- Where's William? 10:18.083 --> 10:19.834 Mom, you're in the hospital. 10:19.917 --> 10:21.250 We're gonna take care of you. 10:21.333 --> 10:22.625 He's gonna be here soon, right? 10:22.709 --> 10:25.166 -Okay. -Yes, yes. He's coming soon. 10:25.250 --> 10:27.083 Just lay back and relax. 10:27.458 --> 10:30.041 I can't wear this. I got to get my clothes. 10:30.125 --> 10:31.208 Where my clothes? 10:31.291 --> 10:33.041 Okay. She seems really agitated. 10:33.125 --> 10:34.917 Are there any meds we can give her to calm her? 10:35.000 --> 10:36.709 -I can order some meds? -[grunts] 10:38.208 --> 10:41.667 ♪ I got sunshine ♪ 10:43.041 --> 10:45.875 ♪ On a cloudy day ♪ 10:47.250 --> 10:51.500 -♪ When it's cold outside ♪ -♪ Cold outside ♪ 10:52.667 --> 10:55.375 -♪ I got the month of May ♪ -♪ I got the month of May ♪ 10:57.750 --> 11:03.000 -♪ I guess you'd say ♪ -♪ I guess you'd say ♪ 11:03.959 --> 11:09.792 -♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪ -♪ What can make me feel... way? ♪ 11:09.959 --> 11:13.166 -♪ My girl ♪ -♪ My girl ♪ 11:13.250 --> 11:14.625 ♪ My girl ♪ 11:14.709 --> 11:17.250 [chuckles] ♪ Talking 'bout ♪ 11:17.333 --> 11:19.959 ♪ My girl ♪ 11:21.250 --> 11:23.667 ♪ My girl ♪ 11:23.750 --> 11:25.667 [monitor beeping] 11:27.500 --> 11:28.792 What do you see, Shepherd? 11:28.875 --> 11:30.667 Uh, I see a lesion on his thalamus, 11:30.750 --> 11:32.709 but it's small, so that's something. 11:32.792 --> 11:34.917 Have you been able to talk to him since the seizure? 11:35.000 --> 11:36.834 He was postictal, and they gave him lorazepam, 11:36.917 --> 11:38.500 so he wasn't really coherent. 11:38.583 --> 11:41.333 Okay. I'm coming in. 11:41.417 --> 11:43.750 [Teddy] Are-- Are you sure? I mean, do you want me to call Dr. Mehta? 11:43.834 --> 11:45.250 It's Tom. I'm coming. 11:45.333 --> 11:46.500 Thank you. 11:47.667 --> 11:50.709 [Link] Uh, Ellis decided she didn't want her mac and cheese 11:50.792 --> 11:53.208 after begging me to make it, so if you're hungry-- 11:54.709 --> 11:56.458 -What's going on? -[sighs] 11:56.542 --> 11:59.208 It looks like Tom is having some neuro-complications from COVID. 11:59.291 --> 12:01.542 -I thought he was asymptomatic. -Yeah, so did I. 12:01.959 --> 12:04.417 I just pumped, so there is milk in the fridge for Scout. 12:04.500 --> 12:06.083 Uh, Bailey and Ellis need a nap. 12:06.166 --> 12:08.291 Make sure you check in with Zola about her homework. 12:08.709 --> 12:11.917 If Scout starts to fuss, just try the yoga ball. 12:12.041 --> 12:13.750 What am I forgetting? 12:13.834 --> 12:15.375 -To breathe. -[sighs] 12:15.458 --> 12:18.750 We'll be fine here, okay? Go. Save your friend. 12:18.834 --> 12:20.500 -[baby fussing] -[sighs] 12:20.583 --> 12:23.417 He was my teacher. And he saved my brain. 12:23.500 --> 12:26.041 And, uh, he was my first sex after Owen, 12:26.125 --> 12:27.834 which shouldn't matter, but it kind of saved me, too, 12:27.917 --> 12:30.417 so I don't want him to die. 12:30.500 --> 12:34.667 And I don't want to leave Scout, and I'm scared of the pandemic. 12:34.750 --> 12:36.458 You had sex with Koracick? 12:36.542 --> 12:37.625 What? 12:41.583 --> 12:44.417 [door opens, closes] 12:45.291 --> 12:48.041 [Jackson] Hey. Oh, um, Mr. Anderson's trach in 4722 12:48.125 --> 12:49.792 -needs to be suctioned, please. -I'm on it. 12:49.875 --> 12:51.709 Hey, got your page. Did you hear anything from Mom? 12:51.792 --> 12:53.709 She's just texting me back hearts and "Love you, baby"s 12:53.792 --> 12:55.125 like that's gonna shut me up. 12:55.208 --> 12:57.333 -No, I haven't had the time. -Richard, this is not something 12:57.417 --> 12:59.208 that can wait till your schedule frees up, right? 12:59.291 --> 13:00.875 It's my mom. She's gonna give me a damn rage stroke. 13:00.959 --> 13:04.458 Bailey's mother was just admitted, COVID-positive. 13:04.542 --> 13:05.750 It's bad. 13:05.834 --> 13:08.166 Look, can you fill in for her at the board meeting today, 13:08.250 --> 13:10.250 take a few of her patients? 13:10.333 --> 13:11.458 We'll all pitch in. 13:12.166 --> 13:14.166 Yeah, of course. Whatever she needs. 13:17.667 --> 13:20.875 [Jo] We took a lot more of her liver than I was hoping to. 13:20.959 --> 13:22.250 Keep an eye on her liver panel. 13:22.333 --> 13:24.000 The next few hours will be crucial. 13:24.083 --> 13:25.083 [Levi] You think she'll need a transplant? 13:25.166 --> 13:26.959 Knowing her luck, probably. 13:27.542 --> 13:30.709 But if she needs it, we can try liver dialysis first. 13:30.792 --> 13:33.834 Khan, finish the op notes. Keep an eye on her. 13:33.917 --> 13:36.750 Dr. Wilson, thank you for allowing me to observe your process. 13:36.834 --> 13:38.458 That was amazing. 13:38.542 --> 13:40.375 She could still need a transplant. 13:40.458 --> 13:42.709 Yes, I understand, but you resected most of her liver, 13:42.792 --> 13:44.083 and she's still alive. 13:44.166 --> 13:45.917 I mean, do you know how rare that is? 13:46.000 --> 13:48.667 That-- That's unheard of in so many parts of the world. 13:48.750 --> 13:51.250 I know. Op notes. I'm going. 13:52.875 --> 13:54.917 [sighs] Was I really amazing, 13:55.000 --> 13:57.583 or is he just some weird happy person? 13:57.667 --> 14:00.959 If you impressed him, I think amazing's a safe bet. 14:03.375 --> 14:04.917 Glad you got to operate again. 14:06.417 --> 14:07.375 [door opens] 14:07.458 --> 14:09.166 [sighs] 14:10.709 --> 14:13.000 [Bailey] Her ferritin is 2087. 14:13.083 --> 14:15.208 600 is severe in COVID. 14:15.291 --> 14:18.500 Her CRP is 87. 14:18.583 --> 14:21.125 Creatinine's 2.3. 14:21.208 --> 14:23.291 W-What about her oxygen requirements? 14:23.375 --> 14:24.709 ♪ Caught swimming in your new sundress ♪ 14:24.792 --> 14:27.083 [sighs] She's at 100% FiO2. 14:27.166 --> 14:28.250 40 liters. 14:29.375 --> 14:31.500 She went into A-fib an hour ago. 14:31.583 --> 14:34.208 We pushed dig, but so far, no response. 14:36.041 --> 14:38.792 Her systolic was in the 80s, but we pushed a fluid bolus 14:38.875 --> 14:40.458 and got it back up into the 90s. 14:41.166 --> 14:45.917 So she's starting to have multi-system organ failure 14:46.000 --> 14:47.875 in addition to her cytokine storm. 14:48.458 --> 14:50.000 I'm sorry, Bailey. 14:52.834 --> 14:54.250 There is still more we can do. 14:54.333 --> 14:57.041 We can take her to the ICU, intubate-- 14:57.125 --> 14:59.458 She didn't want to be on machines. 14:59.542 --> 15:02.667 Or be kept alive with medication. 15:08.583 --> 15:10.875 I got to call my dad. Um... 15:13.417 --> 15:15.041 I'm here if you need me. 15:17.250 --> 15:19.333 H-How-- How do I tell my dad 15:19.417 --> 15:22.834 that... the love of his life... 15:23.875 --> 15:25.917 won't make it through the night? 15:37.125 --> 15:38.458 [telephone rings in distance] 15:41.834 --> 15:44.250 [Amelia] Neuro exam's intact. No deficits. 15:44.333 --> 15:45.792 He asked for his son. 15:45.875 --> 15:49.959 I think the seizure and delirium are secondary to hypoxemia 15:50.041 --> 15:53.291 and inflammation from COVID-- possible early sepsis. 15:53.375 --> 15:56.125 Let's just watch him and, uh... see how he responds to treatment. 15:56.208 --> 15:57.083 Okay. 15:57.208 --> 15:58.792 Oh, hey, Shepherd. Didn't realize you were back. 15:58.875 --> 16:00.375 Welcome to... hell. 16:00.458 --> 16:02.250 Just consulting on Koracick. 16:02.333 --> 16:04.166 Oh, right, 'cause he needs somebody to cover his service. 16:04.250 --> 16:06.250 On him, not-- uh, not for him. 16:06.333 --> 16:08.417 Sats dropped, he's got a fever of 103, 16:08.500 --> 16:10.125 and he seized when they brought him in. 16:10.208 --> 16:13.250 [sighs] Well, I hate everything. 16:13.333 --> 16:16.291 [Woman over P.A.] Dr. Cade to the ICU. Emma Cade to the ICU. 16:16.375 --> 16:17.834 I was wondering if you get used to this, 16:17.917 --> 16:19.583 but I'm guessing that's my answer. 16:20.083 --> 16:21.166 How's the baby? 16:21.500 --> 16:23.667 Uh, yeah, uh, well, he won't let me sleep, 16:23.750 --> 16:26.834 but other than that, um, yeah, I can't wait to get back to him. 16:26.917 --> 16:28.750 Leo and Allison are with Owen's mom. 16:28.834 --> 16:30.417 I'm just-- I miss them like crazy, 16:30.500 --> 16:32.750 but with both parents treating COVID patients, 16:32.834 --> 16:34.667 it just-- it doesn't seem safe. 16:34.750 --> 16:35.792 Uh-huh. 16:36.583 --> 16:39.458 So, um, guess you heard what happened. 16:39.542 --> 16:42.125 Yeah. And I have feelings. 16:42.667 --> 16:44.417 But I've also done 16:44.500 --> 16:46.917 more hurtful and complicated things in my life 16:47.000 --> 16:49.667 than anyone I've met outside an NA meeting, so-- 16:49.750 --> 16:50.875 some of them to Owen. 16:51.625 --> 16:53.083 Owen won't say a word to me 16:53.166 --> 16:54.250 that doesn't have to do with the kids, 16:54.333 --> 16:56.875 and everyone is ignoring me 16:56.959 --> 16:59.959 or treating me like I'm wearing a scarlet letter. 17:00.041 --> 17:01.291 What about Tom? 17:02.250 --> 17:03.667 He's hurt, too. 17:05.000 --> 17:07.709 Well, um, I'll keep checking on him. 17:07.792 --> 17:11.500 And, uh, thank you for getting Mer into the trial. 17:11.583 --> 17:13.709 Oh, yeah, uh, of course. [sighs] 17:15.625 --> 17:17.625 [monitor beeping] 17:18.250 --> 17:20.208 Hi, Grey. 17:20.750 --> 17:21.834 It's me. 17:22.750 --> 17:24.500 I'm gonna say it. 17:25.000 --> 17:26.125 I miss you. 17:32.000 --> 17:33.083 [sighs] 17:35.959 --> 17:39.917 When I was a kid, I had big thoughts. 17:40.625 --> 17:42.166 Big feelings. 17:42.250 --> 17:44.208 And I never knew where to put them. 17:45.375 --> 17:49.792 Physically, they ran through my body like a high-speed train. 17:50.458 --> 17:53.041 And anytime I felt the train coming, 17:53.291 --> 17:55.834 my mom could see it. 17:56.542 --> 17:59.417 So she took me around the corner to the park 17:59.500 --> 18:03.583 with this strange, twisted tree. 18:04.500 --> 18:06.417 Said it was my tree. 18:06.625 --> 18:10.333 And I could scream at it, hit it, hold it-- 18:10.417 --> 18:12.208 and it would make the feelings small enough 18:12.291 --> 18:16.333 that they would fit back inside of my own body again. 18:16.542 --> 18:18.500 So I did. 18:20.166 --> 18:21.625 And it worked. 18:22.250 --> 18:26.166 But now I'm an adult, and tree-hitting is... 18:27.792 --> 18:29.333 [chuckling] frowned upon. 18:29.417 --> 18:31.208 I can be your tree. 18:33.000 --> 18:35.000 My mother has Alzheimer's. 18:37.250 --> 18:39.041 I never told you 18:39.125 --> 18:42.542 because she's older... 18:43.583 --> 18:46.417 and I didn't want to bring up any old pain 18:46.500 --> 18:49.125 for you or Richard. 18:49.250 --> 18:51.875 But it would be a lie 18:51.959 --> 18:55.291 to say that it hasn't been hard. 18:55.834 --> 18:57.208 Or painful. 18:58.417 --> 19:02.208 Even as a doctor who knows about the disease, 19:03.166 --> 19:05.333 I feel like... 19:06.709 --> 19:07.709 I didn't know crap. 19:07.792 --> 19:09.667 ...like I don't know anything. 19:12.041 --> 19:13.667 It's difficult to talk about it 19:13.750 --> 19:15.750 with someone who hasn't been there, 19:15.834 --> 19:17.333 been through it. 19:21.375 --> 19:24.041 No one understands that you are 19:24.125 --> 19:27.458 watching your own mother die... 19:27.542 --> 19:28.917 twice. 19:30.417 --> 19:32.250 I'm so sorry, Bailey. 19:34.000 --> 19:36.083 [crying] I wish you were awake. 19:46.125 --> 19:48.000 [Reza] Val's still not awake. LFTs are up slightly. 19:48.083 --> 19:49.875 [Jo] Okay. Do another panel in a few hours. 19:49.959 --> 19:51.834 Absolutely, Dr. Wilson. 19:51.917 --> 19:55.542 Okay, has your attitude always been this good? 19:55.750 --> 19:58.542 My mom used to say every day above ground is a good day. 19:59.083 --> 20:00.583 Did she get that from "Scarface"? 20:00.667 --> 20:03.709 -She did. Still, it's true. -[elevator bell dings] 20:03.792 --> 20:05.375 -[sighs] -[telephone rings] 20:05.458 --> 20:07.875 [Woman speaks indistinctly over P.A.] 20:07.959 --> 20:10.041 [Nurse Terri] You! You're a doctor, right? 20:10.125 --> 20:12.125 -Yeah. -Great, follow me. 20:12.208 --> 20:13.750 -We're delivering a baby. -Oh, no, no, no, no, no. 20:13.834 --> 20:15.500 -I'm not an OB, I'm a general surgeon. -I don't care. 20:15.583 --> 20:17.375 We have an imminent delivery, and all our OBs are busy. 20:17.458 --> 20:19.083 Hospital rules say we need a doctor. 20:19.166 --> 20:20.750 I haven't delivered a baby-- 20:20.834 --> 20:22.208 You heard the "I don't care" part, right? 20:22.291 --> 20:23.333 We'll talk you through it. 20:23.417 --> 20:25.000 -The Elmores. -Okay. 20:25.083 --> 20:28.000 G3P2 came in fully effaced and dilated at zero station. 20:28.083 --> 20:30.542 Started crowning by the time we got her settled on the bed. 20:30.625 --> 20:33.959 Ms. Elmore? Hi. I know that I'm not who you expected, 20:34.083 --> 20:35.583 -but I am here-- -The head is coming now. 20:35.667 --> 20:37.458 -Hi. -Hi. 20:37.542 --> 20:39.291 Okay. Okay. 20:39.375 --> 20:40.750 [Kathy panting] 20:40.834 --> 20:43.667 All right. Contraction and big push, okay? Big push. 20:43.750 --> 20:45.917 [grunting] 20:46.000 --> 20:47.917 ♪ Told my troubled heart ♪ 20:48.000 --> 20:50.333 Okay. Contraction and push. 20:50.417 --> 20:52.041 [screaming] 20:52.125 --> 20:54.667 The head is out. There-- No cord around the neck. 20:54.750 --> 20:56.500 See? Just like riding a bike. 20:56.583 --> 20:58.083 All right, uh... 20:58.166 --> 21:00.792 [Nurse Terri] Pull head down, then up, to deliver the shoulders. 21:00.875 --> 21:02.667 -Okay, it's coming. -[screaming] 21:02.750 --> 21:04.333 It's coming. 21:04.417 --> 21:07.041 Oh, my God. [laughing] Oh, my God. 21:07.125 --> 21:09.625 Ms. Elmore asked that the baby go directly onto her chest 21:09.709 --> 21:10.709 -while still connected. -[baby crying] 21:10.792 --> 21:12.083 [Jo] Okay, clamp. 21:12.834 --> 21:15.959 Okay. Oh, my gosh. Okay. 21:16.083 --> 21:18.333 ♪ A new light shining down on me ♪ 21:18.417 --> 21:19.625 Okay. 21:19.709 --> 21:21.834 ♪ A new way, a new road ♪ 21:21.917 --> 21:23.875 [Jo] You ready to cut the cord? 21:24.834 --> 21:26.875 Hi. Okay, right here. 21:26.959 --> 21:28.542 Okay, yeah. In between here. 21:28.625 --> 21:29.917 In between, yeah. 21:30.542 --> 21:32.291 Good. Hi, little one! 21:32.375 --> 21:33.792 ♪ Take my hand ♪ 21:33.875 --> 21:35.208 -[laughs] -[baby crying] 21:35.542 --> 21:40.959 ♪ The worst is over ♪ 21:41.583 --> 21:46.792 ♪ Weight is liftin' ♪ 21:46.875 --> 21:52.041 ♪ Off our shoulders ♪ 21:52.125 --> 21:54.709 -♪ I can see ♪ -♪ Oh, I can see ♪ 21:54.792 --> 21:57.834 -♪ I can see ♪ -♪ I can see ♪ 21:57.917 --> 22:00.458 -♪ A new light ♪ -♪ New light ♪ 22:00.542 --> 22:03.750 -♪ Shining down on me ♪ -♪ Down on me ♪ 22:03.834 --> 22:05.917 ♪ A new way, a new road ♪ 22:06.000 --> 22:07.834 Just need you to sign the paperwork, and you can go. 22:08.208 --> 22:09.625 Is it all right if I stay? 22:10.875 --> 22:14.709 ♪ Oh, oh, to a new kind of beautiful ♪ 22:15.250 --> 22:18.000 Okay. Mommy? 22:18.083 --> 22:19.333 Hey, it's me. 22:19.583 --> 22:21.875 Look, Dad's here, too. 22:22.166 --> 22:24.667 Hi, honey. I'm here. 22:24.750 --> 22:27.041 Wait till you see Miranda's hotel. 22:27.125 --> 22:29.041 I mean, there's room service, 22:29.125 --> 22:31.792 and the view is so much better than Silver Villas. 22:31.959 --> 22:34.500 You can actually s-see the water. 22:34.583 --> 22:36.458 [weakly] William? 22:36.542 --> 22:38.500 Is that you, William? 22:38.583 --> 22:41.000 Right here by your side, as always. 22:41.083 --> 22:44.166 I love you. I love you so much. 22:45.041 --> 22:47.125 Sweetheart? [crying] 22:47.208 --> 22:50.834 Uh, she drifts in and out, Dad. 22:51.375 --> 22:54.333 In her state, even breathing's exhausting. 22:54.792 --> 22:56.458 I can't do this. 22:56.959 --> 22:58.291 I know. 22:58.375 --> 23:00.000 It's difficult. 23:00.083 --> 23:01.417 I should be there. 23:01.500 --> 23:03.250 It's too risky, Dad. 23:03.333 --> 23:07.208 She should be in her own bed, not in some sterile box. 23:07.291 --> 23:12.208 She spent 60 years taking care of me, and now... 23:13.166 --> 23:15.875 She hardly ever got a cold before this. 23:16.917 --> 23:19.417 Just call me when she wakes up. 23:20.125 --> 23:22.000 [labored breathing] 23:22.083 --> 23:23.625 Of course, Dad. 23:32.291 --> 23:33.500 Okay. 23:34.333 --> 23:37.083 [gasping indistinctly] 23:41.834 --> 23:44.250 ♪ It's a new kind of beautiful ♪ 23:44.333 --> 23:45.500 Mommy. 23:47.709 --> 23:49.333 If you're ready to go, 23:49.417 --> 23:50.792 it's okay. 23:50.875 --> 23:53.041 We're gonna be okay. 23:53.125 --> 23:56.041 ♪ A new kind of beautiful, oh, oh ♪ 23:56.125 --> 23:58.875 [voice breaking] We love you. 23:58.959 --> 24:01.125 But we don't want you to suffer. 24:01.208 --> 24:02.250 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 24:02.375 --> 24:07.291 I'm not r-ready. 24:07.875 --> 24:10.875 If you're tired, I understand. 24:10.959 --> 24:12.291 ♪ A new light ♪ 24:12.375 --> 24:13.375 I love you. 24:13.458 --> 24:14.333 ♪ Shining down on me ♪ 24:14.417 --> 24:16.333 Ready to die? 24:16.417 --> 24:17.500 ♪ A new way ♪ 24:17.583 --> 24:18.792 No. 24:18.875 --> 24:20.583 ♪ A new road ♪ 24:20.667 --> 24:24.291 I-I want to go home. 24:24.709 --> 24:27.625 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 24:27.709 --> 24:30.208 ♪ To a new kind of beautiful ♪ 24:34.834 --> 24:36.959 [Ben] Hey, you've reached Ben Warren. Please leave a message. 24:37.041 --> 24:39.959 -[beep] -Yeah, I-- Ben? Um, it's my mom. 24:40.041 --> 24:43.333 I think she was just lucid with me, 24:43.417 --> 24:46.166 and she said some things that I don't understand, 24:46.250 --> 24:48.417 and now I-I don't know what do, 24:48.500 --> 24:50.375 and I need someone to tell me what to do. 24:50.458 --> 24:53.667 Just, uh, call me as soon as you can. 24:54.291 --> 24:55.375 Uh, I love you. 24:55.583 --> 24:57.458 [siren wailing in distance] 24:59.959 --> 25:01.250 [Maggie] Hey. 25:01.333 --> 25:03.583 I saw you leave. I wanted to check. 25:04.542 --> 25:06.166 She said she's not ready to go. 25:07.291 --> 25:09.500 For a split second, 25:09.583 --> 25:12.250 my heart was filled up with so much joy. 25:13.208 --> 25:14.959 But now I'm just mad. 25:15.041 --> 25:18.625 Mad because no one told me she was sick, 25:19.542 --> 25:24.542 mad because she probably has no idea what's happening. 25:25.917 --> 25:29.542 You know, if I'm being totally honest, 25:30.041 --> 25:32.709 I don't want her to suffer from this Alzheimer's anymore. 25:32.792 --> 25:35.542 You know, it's a horrific disease, 25:35.625 --> 25:38.792 and I want her to be free. 25:38.875 --> 25:40.834 But I don't want COVID to be the reason. 25:40.917 --> 25:41.917 I d-- I don't want her 25:42.000 --> 25:45.291 to be just another Black woman statistic 25:45.375 --> 25:47.500 in this pandemic count. 25:47.583 --> 25:48.917 Yeah, I hear that. 25:49.750 --> 25:51.208 100%. 25:54.542 --> 25:55.959 None of this is easy. 25:56.125 --> 25:58.709 All of it is confusing and... 25:59.625 --> 26:02.083 [sighs] hard and awful. 26:02.166 --> 26:05.625 But even with Alzheimer's, she's been healthy. 26:06.250 --> 26:09.208 And now I'm watching her struggle 26:09.291 --> 26:13.875 to do the most basic of human reflexes-- breathing. 26:14.792 --> 26:17.125 And if she's saying she's not ready to go... 26:19.458 --> 26:21.291 I don't know what to think. 26:22.291 --> 26:24.250 I felt so sure 26:24.333 --> 26:26.542 that she wouldn't want to live like she's been living, 26:26.625 --> 26:29.792 but maybe I'm wrong, yeah? 26:29.875 --> 26:34.917 Maybe she's happy in the world her mind takes her to. 26:35.000 --> 26:37.500 Now I'm questioning every choice I made. 26:37.583 --> 26:39.083 I mean, s-should I be doing more? 26:39.166 --> 26:42.542 Should I move her to the ICU? Intubate her? 26:42.625 --> 26:44.792 Am I just thinking about how I feel 26:44.875 --> 26:48.083 instead of what's going on with her-- inside of her mind? 26:49.917 --> 26:51.875 -Do you want my opinion? -Please. 26:52.583 --> 26:56.166 I've been the one who does everything, 26:56.333 --> 27:00.792 who fights tooth and nail against death at all costs. 27:02.250 --> 27:04.667 But truthfully, with my mom, 27:05.291 --> 27:07.417 it didn't give me more peace of mind in the end. 27:09.291 --> 27:11.125 It might have done the opposite. 27:12.166 --> 27:17.250 I didn't think so at the time, but it was the easier choice. 27:17.834 --> 27:20.166 To fall back on acting like a surgeon 27:20.250 --> 27:22.208 and searching for all the answers. 27:25.625 --> 27:29.542 Bailey, you've given your mom so much. 27:30.542 --> 27:32.625 She's gotten to raise you 27:32.709 --> 27:35.333 and watch you turn into this incredible surgeon 27:35.417 --> 27:37.667 and chief of a hospital. 27:37.750 --> 27:39.417 She watched you fall in love. 27:39.792 --> 27:41.792 Twice. Twice! 27:42.417 --> 27:45.125 [laughs] And raise a family. 27:48.458 --> 27:52.875 Of course you're never going to feel ready to say goodbye, 27:52.959 --> 27:54.083 but... 27:55.750 --> 27:57.709 she's had an amazing life. 27:58.333 --> 28:03.291 [Bailey] I brought my parents to Seattle kicking and fighting. 28:03.375 --> 28:05.875 I promised them, if they moved here, 28:05.959 --> 28:08.041 it was the right thing to do 28:08.125 --> 28:10.792 so they could be closer to their only daughter. 28:10.875 --> 28:14.291 I told them I knew best. Just listen to me. 28:14.375 --> 28:17.291 And if they hadn't done that, they would still be at home. 28:17.375 --> 28:18.709 Isolated. 28:18.792 --> 28:20.542 And Mom wouldn't be dying. Not yet. 28:20.625 --> 28:22.000 You don't know that. 28:22.083 --> 28:24.375 She was exposed at the place that I set up for them. 28:25.000 --> 28:30.291 The-- The facility let someone move in from New York, 28:30.625 --> 28:32.250 a retired surgeon. 28:32.875 --> 28:35.750 He became symptomatic the day after his arrival. 28:36.125 --> 28:39.750 After they said they had shut down to all outsiders, 28:39.834 --> 28:41.709 including family. 28:41.792 --> 28:43.458 How in the hell could you have known that was going to happen? 28:43.542 --> 28:47.125 How could you have known any of this was going to happen? 28:48.125 --> 28:50.625 Bailey, you cannot feel guilty about this. 28:50.709 --> 28:51.542 [chuckles] 28:56.208 --> 28:58.792 My mom, she left me five voicemails 28:58.875 --> 29:00.542 for my birthday last year. 29:00.625 --> 29:02.250 She kept calling 29:02.667 --> 29:04.333 because she forgot that she had already 29:04.417 --> 29:05.917 wished me happy birthday. 29:06.875 --> 29:08.000 There they are. 29:08.125 --> 29:10.667 [Elena] ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 29:10.750 --> 29:12.041 I never deleted them 29:12.125 --> 29:15.041 because I guess I realized 29:15.125 --> 29:18.041 that it might be the last time she remembered at all. 29:18.125 --> 29:20.875 [phone clicks, singing stops] 29:20.959 --> 29:24.834 She raised me to be a good little girl. 29:24.917 --> 29:28.917 And even when I defied her... 29:29.000 --> 29:32.000 [chuckles] I was never disrespectful. 29:32.208 --> 29:35.750 And I tried to be good at everything. 29:36.375 --> 29:39.750 A good student, a good mother. 29:39.834 --> 29:42.792 Wife, doctor, chief. 29:43.375 --> 29:47.542 And now she just needs me to be a good daughter, 29:47.625 --> 29:49.500 and I'm not sure how to do that, 29:49.583 --> 29:51.667 even though it's what I've been the longest. 29:52.166 --> 29:53.959 You've chosen palliative care. 29:55.500 --> 29:58.417 You're giving her the best care possible 29:58.500 --> 30:01.250 while keeping her as comfortable as possible. 30:02.125 --> 30:03.500 That is good. 30:03.709 --> 30:07.542 And it is kind and respectful 30:07.750 --> 30:08.917 and brave. 30:09.000 --> 30:11.709 ♪ I'm gonna lay down ♪ 30:11.792 --> 30:14.834 I wish I could've given my mom a more dignified death. 30:14.917 --> 30:16.500 ♪ Lay down some roots, This rolling stone ♪ 30:16.583 --> 30:21.250 But I pushed so hard. 30:21.333 --> 30:24.667 ♪ He's gonna lay down ♪ 30:25.500 --> 30:27.250 You know, it's her own damn fault, really. 30:27.917 --> 30:29.375 ♪ For you ♪ 30:29.458 --> 30:32.125 My whole life, she told me to push through. 30:32.208 --> 30:34.166 [chuckles] 30:34.250 --> 30:36.291 Be strong. Fight the good fight. 30:37.208 --> 30:40.083 My mom was kind of the opposite. 30:40.166 --> 30:43.000 Like, overprotective, like, hovering. 30:43.083 --> 30:45.750 There was a reception 30:45.834 --> 30:48.750 sponsored by the Daughters of the Revolution. 30:48.834 --> 30:50.750 They had given me a scholarship. 30:51.083 --> 30:52.500 [snorts] 30:52.583 --> 30:55.458 So my mom said I should take the scholarship 30:55.542 --> 30:57.834 but not go to the reception. 30:57.917 --> 30:59.750 But I didn't want to give them that satisfaction. 30:59.834 --> 31:02.291 No, I wanted them to see 31:02.375 --> 31:04.792 what "Miranda Bailey" looked like, right? 31:04.875 --> 31:08.875 So I went with my dad. 31:08.959 --> 31:10.834 [both laugh] 31:10.917 --> 31:13.917 We had a good laugh 31:14.000 --> 31:18.417 at those very proper ladies. 31:18.500 --> 31:20.250 I think you mean "white" ladies. 31:20.792 --> 31:22.875 -Uh... [laughs] -Yeah. 31:22.959 --> 31:26.291 Watching them try to hide their horror 31:26.375 --> 31:29.875 when they saw who they had given their scholarship to, 31:29.959 --> 31:32.375 -yeah, that was classic. -[chuckles] 31:32.458 --> 31:34.208 Oh, and guidance counselors, oh, my God. 31:34.291 --> 31:36.709 Oh, yeah, yeah, always trying to suggest 31:36.792 --> 31:38.875 a school where we might feel "more comfortable." 31:38.959 --> 31:41.709 "Oh, Wellesley. 31:41.792 --> 31:44.250 That's a fine school, Miranda. 31:44.333 --> 31:48.041 But, um, I think state school is more your speed." 31:48.125 --> 31:49.917 -Mm-hmm. -Like I don't know my speed. 31:50.000 --> 31:52.000 -Please. -Try harder and do better 31:52.083 --> 31:53.625 just to be considered average. 31:53.709 --> 31:55.250 Or to be considered at all. 31:55.750 --> 31:59.125 But how they underestimate our greatness. 31:59.792 --> 32:02.333 -Graduated magna cum laude... -Mm-hmm. 32:02.417 --> 32:05.834 ...with my biology degree, by the way. 32:06.542 --> 32:11.250 And you better bet my mom cut out the graduation announcement 32:11.333 --> 32:14.250 from Wellesley and mailed it to my guidance counselor. 32:14.333 --> 32:17.166 [both laugh] 32:17.250 --> 32:19.250 [sighs deeply] 32:19.333 --> 32:22.166 [both chuckle] 32:22.250 --> 32:24.542 I don't know how I'm gonna do this. 32:26.458 --> 32:28.917 [sighs] 32:38.625 --> 32:41.542 Oh. Uh, I c-- I can come back. 32:41.625 --> 32:44.250 No. No, no, no. Uh, no, I just finished up his EEG. 32:44.333 --> 32:46.083 I wanted to, um, make sure 32:46.166 --> 32:47.750 that the seizure was a one-and-done, 32:47.834 --> 32:51.375 before I head home, take 10 scalding hot showers, 32:51.458 --> 32:53.250 and hug up on everybody. 32:53.333 --> 32:57.166 Um... Maggie says that his numbers are holding. 32:57.250 --> 32:59.000 Good. Thanks. 33:00.667 --> 33:02.125 [door closes] 33:02.208 --> 33:03.750 [monitor beeping] 33:09.959 --> 33:11.625 I don't know if you were ignoring me 33:11.709 --> 33:13.125 when I came by the house 33:13.208 --> 33:15.041 or-- or if you were just too sick to answer, 33:15.125 --> 33:17.291 but I-I'm-- I'm gonna go with too sick 33:17.375 --> 33:20.625 'cause then-- then maybe there's a-a ray of hope for us, 33:20.709 --> 33:23.291 which I could really use right now, 33:23.375 --> 33:24.792 and I know you could. 33:26.750 --> 33:27.917 You know, I'm-- I'm gonna stop asking. 33:28.000 --> 33:29.208 I'm just gonna decide. 33:29.291 --> 33:33.375 I-I'm deciding that we mean enough to each other 33:33.458 --> 33:35.917 that, even though I hurt you and I-I... 33:37.333 --> 33:39.500 I hurt you more than I could ever imagine, 33:39.583 --> 33:41.542 that a repair could be made, that... 33:45.041 --> 33:48.041 maybe you could... remember 33:48.125 --> 33:49.834 some of the things that you don't hate about me 33:49.917 --> 33:52.041 and we-- we could salvage our friendship because... 33:54.875 --> 33:56.750 I don't know how we're going to get through this pandemic, 33:56.834 --> 33:58.667 but I do know-- I do know 33:58.750 --> 34:00.500 that we're not going to get through it alone. 34:00.583 --> 34:03.417 So if you want to have nothing to do with me, 34:03.500 --> 34:04.959 then you are just going to have to get all better 34:05.041 --> 34:06.333 and tell me yourself, 34:06.417 --> 34:08.166 because until I hear you say the words, 34:08.250 --> 34:09.667 you're not gonna get rid of me. 34:14.500 --> 34:16.041 Oh, my God. Tom. Tom? 34:16.583 --> 34:17.875 Tom, can you hear me? 34:18.875 --> 34:20.667 It's me. It's-- It's Teddy. 34:21.458 --> 34:22.709 [Koracick] You were wrong. 34:23.208 --> 34:24.709 Wrong about what? 34:24.792 --> 34:26.166 ♪ The setting free ♪ 34:26.250 --> 34:28.291 When you came to my house. 34:28.375 --> 34:29.792 I was ignoring you. 34:29.875 --> 34:32.333 ♪ The bittersweet but sweet release ♪ 34:32.417 --> 34:36.709 Did you hear everything I-I just said? 34:36.792 --> 34:38.834 ♪ A heavy sky ♪ 34:38.917 --> 34:40.959 [chuckles] I hate you. 34:41.041 --> 34:42.458 ♪ Hangs on the sea ♪ 34:42.542 --> 34:44.291 Well, we both know that's not true. 34:46.333 --> 34:48.166 [laughs, wheezes] 34:48.542 --> 34:50.166 [sighs] Hey. 34:52.542 --> 34:54.542 What would you say to a sponge bath? 34:54.917 --> 34:56.250 [laughs] 34:56.333 --> 34:58.041 Well, but, you know, as friends. 34:58.625 --> 35:00.709 Friendly sponge bath. [chuckles] 35:00.792 --> 35:06.083 ♪ I am lifted, I am lifted ♪ 35:06.166 --> 35:10.959 ♪ I am lifted, I am free ♪ 35:11.041 --> 35:16.625 ♪ I've been holding on, I've been holding on ♪ 35:16.709 --> 35:21.834 ♪ I've been holding on, now I'm lifted ♪ 35:23.583 --> 35:26.125 ♪ We can learn to love ♪ 35:29.000 --> 35:30.375 Hey. 35:30.458 --> 35:31.959 I rounded on all of Bailey's patients. 35:32.041 --> 35:35.000 DeLuca said he'll keep an eye on them for the rest of the night. 35:35.083 --> 35:36.291 Yeah, thank you. 35:36.667 --> 35:38.750 Yeah, I hesitate to ask, but how's her mom doing? 35:39.208 --> 35:41.291 They don't expect her to last the night. 35:41.625 --> 35:45.125 ♪ Everything is beautiful ♪ 35:45.208 --> 35:46.333 That's-- [sighs] 35:46.417 --> 35:48.250 ♪ I am lifted, I am lifted ♪ 35:48.333 --> 35:50.667 You realize half of our COVID patients are Black and brown? 35:50.750 --> 35:51.792 I know. 35:51.875 --> 35:53.834 In a city that's 7% Black? 35:53.917 --> 35:56.250 Like, how does that even compute? 35:56.333 --> 35:58.041 It doesn't. 35:58.125 --> 36:00.709 If I hear one more person blame it on pre-existing conditions 36:00.792 --> 36:03.250 as if the conditions aren't manmade to begin with... 36:03.750 --> 36:06.875 Like we're not pushed into the front line of all of our jobs 36:06.959 --> 36:09.000 and forced to live in overcrowded situations, 36:09.083 --> 36:11.250 surrounded by environmental hazards. 36:11.333 --> 36:12.875 Yeah, people want to make 36:12.959 --> 36:15.041 everything bad that happens your own fault. 36:15.125 --> 36:16.750 Yeah, when systemic racism is the root 36:16.834 --> 36:18.750 of the whole damn thing. Forget the pre-, 36:18.834 --> 36:20.458 it's the existing condition. 36:20.542 --> 36:21.959 Existing while Black. 36:22.834 --> 36:26.542 ♪ I am lifted, I am free ♪ 36:26.625 --> 36:28.208 ♪ I've been holding on ♪ 36:28.291 --> 36:30.291 You know, Richard, we both know my mom is stubborn. 36:30.750 --> 36:32.208 ♪ I've been holding on too long ♪ 36:32.291 --> 36:34.000 And everything she's been through, I feel like 36:34.083 --> 36:36.208 she thinks she's invincible now, and she's not. 36:37.083 --> 36:38.166 ♪ I've been holding on too long ♪ 36:38.250 --> 36:39.792 We can't lose her, Richard. 36:41.375 --> 36:43.375 The world can't lose her, you know? 36:43.458 --> 36:44.917 It's been handled. 36:46.041 --> 36:47.291 Oh, you talked to her? 36:47.583 --> 36:49.125 Oh, good. 36:49.208 --> 36:50.125 What'd you say? 36:50.250 --> 36:53.208 I think it's best kept between us. 36:53.750 --> 36:55.458 Why are you being weird about it? 36:56.583 --> 36:58.041 'Cause it's about sex, isn't it? 36:58.792 --> 37:01.250 -It is. -Thanks. Right. Good night. 37:01.333 --> 37:02.917 [clears throat] 37:06.959 --> 37:10.083 Oh, my God. That smells so good. 37:10.166 --> 37:11.667 We're sharing, right? 37:11.750 --> 37:14.250 Pod together, eat together? Please say yes. 37:14.333 --> 37:15.834 I delivered a baby today. 37:16.875 --> 37:17.917 -Is that a yes? -Yes! 37:18.000 --> 37:19.291 -Oh. -Yes, yes. 37:19.375 --> 37:21.041 Wait, weren't we together all day? 37:21.125 --> 37:23.625 What do you mean you delivered a secret baby? 37:23.709 --> 37:26.083 Happened very quick. I went to check on Luna, 37:26.166 --> 37:28.375 and this nurse said that there was an imminent delivery, 37:28.458 --> 37:32.291 and the next second, I was catching a baby. 37:33.375 --> 37:37.875 I was literally the first person in the universe to hold him. 37:37.959 --> 37:39.792 And then I handed him to his parents, 37:39.875 --> 37:41.875 and their faces were just... 37:43.166 --> 37:45.083 No wonder Val's so depressed. 37:45.208 --> 37:47.583 It's the happiest thing I've ever seen. 37:47.667 --> 37:52.500 It was just so pure and simple and perfect. 37:52.583 --> 37:54.000 I was buzzing. 37:54.083 --> 37:55.792 But it was a total random fluke, 37:55.917 --> 37:58.667 and tomorrow, I'll be back to the same depressing crap. 37:58.750 --> 38:01.333 I mean, you did save Val's life today. 38:02.583 --> 38:04.166 You think that's why Carina DeLuca 38:04.250 --> 38:05.959 -is always in such a good mood? -[chuckles] 38:06.041 --> 38:07.667 She's just, you know, handing out babies, 38:07.750 --> 38:09.917 and it shoots her serotonin level through the roof. 38:10.000 --> 38:14.208 Well, yeah, but doesn't she also have, like, an orgasm hobby? 38:15.083 --> 38:16.625 What if I changed? 38:16.709 --> 38:18.291 Changed what? 38:18.375 --> 38:19.917 Careers. Programs. 38:20.000 --> 38:21.834 -[Chuckles] -Is that insane? 38:22.250 --> 38:24.500 -[sighs] -Khan did it, and what he did 38:24.583 --> 38:27.291 is so much harder than switching specialties. 38:27.375 --> 38:29.625 He started over with nothing. 38:29.709 --> 38:32.166 And I know-- I know I've put years into surgery, 38:32.250 --> 38:34.250 but if it's not bringing me any joy, 38:35.375 --> 38:38.917 then wouldn't it be insane to not change? 38:39.750 --> 38:43.834 I think you eat and then sleep before you make any major li-- 38:43.917 --> 38:45.709 Oh, my God. I sound like my mother. 38:46.667 --> 38:48.375 -[sighs] -I want to be happy. 38:49.625 --> 38:52.166 Everyone's dying. Meredith's-- 38:54.000 --> 38:56.792 Tomorrow is not promised. 38:56.875 --> 38:58.458 Not in marriage. 38:58.542 --> 38:59.750 Not in life. 39:00.375 --> 39:01.750 I want to be happy. 39:08.208 --> 39:09.792 She's decompensating. 39:11.625 --> 39:12.834 You should go in. 39:15.375 --> 39:17.333 She barely knows who I am. 39:18.458 --> 39:21.166 And I want to be there for her. 39:21.250 --> 39:24.500 I-I want her husband to be there for her. 39:24.583 --> 39:29.041 She deserves to be surrounded by love and family. 39:30.750 --> 39:32.792 But Dad's in quarantine. 39:32.875 --> 39:36.709 He's high-risk, and I don't want him to expose anyone. 39:36.792 --> 39:38.709 I don't want him to be exposed. 39:38.792 --> 39:42.166 I know this is not what you imagined for your mother. 39:42.250 --> 39:44.166 And I'm sorry about that. 39:45.750 --> 39:47.333 But she needs you now. 39:49.542 --> 39:50.667 It's time. 39:52.208 --> 39:53.583 And if you don't go in, 39:53.667 --> 39:55.834 I promise you will never forgive yourself. 39:59.000 --> 40:00.792 [crying] I'm scared. 40:01.750 --> 40:03.125 ♪ I've got sunshine ♪ 40:03.208 --> 40:04.500 I know. 40:06.125 --> 40:08.000 We'll do it together. 40:08.083 --> 40:09.750 [Bailey] Patients lose their power 40:09.834 --> 40:12.667 when they are referred to as "Bed number 4" 40:12.750 --> 40:15.333 or "arm pain guy." [sighs] 40:15.417 --> 40:16.625 ♪ I've got the month of May ♪ 40:16.709 --> 40:18.959 Even in their deaths, 40:19.041 --> 40:21.500 they are not faceless. 40:21.583 --> 40:23.709 They are not nameless. 40:24.667 --> 40:27.041 They are more than statistics. 40:27.125 --> 40:30.208 ♪ What can make me feel this way? ♪ 40:30.291 --> 40:32.166 [door closes] 40:32.250 --> 40:34.166 More than "co-morbid conditions" 40:34.250 --> 40:36.166 or "nursing-home patients." 40:36.250 --> 40:38.125 ♪ My girl ♪ 40:38.208 --> 40:41.709 They are sons, brothers, and uncles 40:41.792 --> 40:43.291 who speak five languages 40:43.375 --> 40:47.542 and run restaurants-- Wade Klein, 66. 40:47.625 --> 40:49.125 ♪ My girl ♪ 40:49.208 --> 40:52.375 They are great-grandfathers who love Broadway-- 40:52.458 --> 40:55.333 Jacob Lappin, 92. 40:55.417 --> 40:58.583 ♪ I don't need no money ♪ 40:59.834 --> 41:03.875 ♪ Fortune or fame ♪ 41:04.667 --> 41:07.417 ♪ I got all the riches, baby ♪ 41:07.500 --> 41:11.417 They are baseball-loving nurses with an easy laugh-- 41:11.500 --> 41:14.000 Dane Wilson, 45. 41:14.083 --> 41:18.917 ♪ I guess you'd say ♪ 41:20.000 --> 41:23.750 ♪ What can make me feel ♪ 41:23.834 --> 41:25.625 -♪ This way? ♪ -♪ This way? ♪ 41:26.625 --> 41:28.834 -♪ My girl ♪ -♪ My girl ♪ 41:30.125 --> 41:34.333 ♪ Talking 'bout my girl ♪ 41:37.709 --> 41:39.250 ♪ My girl ♪ 41:39.333 --> 41:40.500 It's okay. 41:42.333 --> 41:43.458 ♪ My girl ♪ 41:43.625 --> 41:44.625 Okay. 41:45.125 --> 41:48.583 They are the world's greatest mothers, 41:48.667 --> 41:51.750 and they are the most beloved wives -- 41:52.041 --> 41:55.709 Elena Rose Bailey, 84.