WEBVTT 00:00.208 --> 00:01.208 [siren wailing] 00:01.291 --> 00:04.583 ♪ Little bird, little bird ♪ 00:04.667 --> 00:06.542 [Meredith] When a virus finds its way into our bodies... 00:06.625 --> 00:10.250 ♪ Won't you sing me a song? ♪ 00:11.000 --> 00:12.959 ...our immune system unleashes an attack. 00:13.041 --> 00:17.125 ♪ I may not know all the words ♪ 00:17.750 --> 00:20.417 It puts up a good fight and then stands down. 00:20.500 --> 00:23.500 ♪ But I'll try to sing along ♪ 00:23.583 --> 00:25.917 Or at least that's what it's supposed to do. 00:26.000 --> 00:27.750 ♪ My little bird ♪ 00:27.834 --> 00:29.375 [wheezing] 00:29.458 --> 00:32.834 ♪ Let 'em talk, that's what they do ♪ 00:32.917 --> 00:34.667 Sometimes the system works so hard 00:34.750 --> 00:36.917 that it goes completely off the rails. 00:37.041 --> 00:39.125 ♪ No amount of saying somethin' ♪ 00:39.208 --> 00:42.000 Immune cells start attacking healthy tissue. 00:42.083 --> 00:45.041 They flood the lungs, clot the blood, 00:45.125 --> 00:49.041 cause vessels to leak, and shut down organs. 00:49.125 --> 00:51.667 Our own body wreaks havoc on itself. 00:51.750 --> 00:55.500 ♪ All will be all right ♪ 00:55.583 --> 00:57.000 [monitor beeping] 00:57.083 --> 01:02.041 ♪ Hold tight, stay cold ♪ 01:02.125 --> 01:04.417 It's called the cytokine storm. 01:04.500 --> 01:11.166 ♪ It hurts bad but I know ♪ 01:11.250 --> 01:12.917 [gasps] 01:13.000 --> 01:14.458 ♪ Ooh ♪ 01:14.542 --> 01:16.458 And it takes a miracle to stop it. 01:26.542 --> 01:28.083 [laughing] 01:30.667 --> 01:32.542 [DeLuca] Okay, better lung sounds than yesterday, 01:32.625 --> 01:34.166 and your inflammatory markers are decreasing. 01:34.250 --> 01:36.041 But, uh, how do you feel? 01:36.125 --> 01:38.709 [Meredith] Like I've been asleep for a week or a month. 01:38.792 --> 01:40.667 It's like that whether you have COVID or not. 01:40.750 --> 01:43.125 You've been mostly asleep for eight days. 01:43.208 --> 01:44.875 [Meredith] Oof. 01:44.959 --> 01:46.208 How are the kids? 01:46.291 --> 01:47.417 Have they been a lot? Be honest. 01:47.500 --> 01:48.917 [Amelia] This week? 01:49.000 --> 01:50.875 Ellis is leaving dishes all over the house. 01:50.959 --> 01:53.333 Bailey is mad that he can't fly. 01:53.417 --> 01:55.875 [chuckles] And Zola's teacher has asked 01:55.959 --> 01:57.417 that Zola stop correcting her. 01:57.500 --> 01:58.542 [Maggie chuckles] 01:58.625 --> 01:59.959 When can I leave? 02:00.041 --> 02:01.750 Your oxygen requirements are decreasing, 02:01.834 --> 02:03.375 so if they continue in that direction, 02:03.458 --> 02:05.250 we could probably discharge you within a week. 02:06.834 --> 02:10.083 I'll be back in an hour to run another ABG, okay? 02:10.166 --> 02:12.583 Take a deep breath for me, there, Shanice. 02:12.667 --> 02:14.709 Good. Another one. 02:14.792 --> 02:16.250 [Shanice] I didn't want anyone to get hurt. 02:16.333 --> 02:18.250 [Sharon] Hush, sweetie. You are brave. 02:18.333 --> 02:19.417 You are a hero. 02:19.500 --> 02:20.542 Rescue someone, did you? 02:20.625 --> 02:22.083 Herself and her friend. 02:22.166 --> 02:23.291 From a fire? That's incredible. 02:23.375 --> 02:25.083 By starting a fire. 02:25.166 --> 02:28.000 Some animal kidnapped them and locked them up in his house. 02:28.083 --> 02:29.792 It was the only way they could get out. 02:29.875 --> 02:31.750 -Oh, my God. That's-- -[door opens] 02:31.834 --> 02:33.125 Oh, my God. 02:33.208 --> 02:34.917 [Owen] Jada Williams. Smoke inhalation, 02:35.000 --> 02:36.500 second degree burns to the left hand. 02:36.583 --> 02:38.333 -[Shanice] Jada! Are you okay? -[Sharon] Where's your mother? 02:38.417 --> 02:40.542 [Jada crying] They took her. They arrested her! 02:40.625 --> 02:42.125 -Wait, why would they-- -Montgomery from 19 02:42.208 --> 02:44.083 said there was an altercation with police at the scene. 02:44.166 --> 02:45.750 Obviously some mix-up. Sharon: It's okay. 02:45.834 --> 02:47.375 It's a mistake, okay? They'll let her out. 02:47.458 --> 02:49.083 Where's your father? Did your mother call him? 02:49.166 --> 02:50.500 [Jada] He went to see my grandma in Nevada. 02:50.583 --> 02:52.458 She wouldn't stop going out in public without a mask. 02:52.542 --> 02:54.917 Okay. We'll figure it out. 02:55.000 --> 02:56.917 -We'll be okay. -Schmitt, get her a chest X-ray 02:57.000 --> 02:59.208 and page Avery to come and have a look at this hand. 03:02.291 --> 03:04.250 -[FaceTime call chimes] -[Winston] Hey. 03:04.333 --> 03:06.250 Did we have a date and I forgot about it? 03:06.333 --> 03:08.000 [Maggie] Mer's awake. [laughs] 03:08.083 --> 03:10.458 Really? That's incredible! 03:10.542 --> 03:12.250 We weaned her off of high flow O2. 03:12.333 --> 03:14.000 Her PaO2 is 88. 03:14.083 --> 03:15.583 She even laughed! 03:15.667 --> 03:17.291 She's awake! God! 03:17.375 --> 03:20.208 [cackles] 03:20.291 --> 03:21.917 That sounded a little crazy. 03:22.000 --> 03:23.792 But it's just been so dark around here. 03:23.875 --> 03:25.625 I hear you. 03:25.709 --> 03:27.208 But you're still shining on my end. 03:27.291 --> 03:28.417 Aww. 03:29.625 --> 03:32.041 -Where are you? -Oh, I'm in my car, 03:32.125 --> 03:34.500 in a-a grocery store parking lot. 03:34.583 --> 03:35.959 Mm-hmm. Oh, my God. 03:36.041 --> 03:37.542 There is another woman, isn't there? 03:37.625 --> 03:39.709 You know, I, uh, hate for you to find out this way, 03:39.792 --> 03:41.166 but, you know, I'm just not cut out 03:41.250 --> 03:42.667 for the whole long-distance thing. 03:42.750 --> 03:46.166 Yeah, well, it was nice while it lasted. 03:46.250 --> 03:48.208 I'm so happy about Meredith. 03:48.291 --> 03:49.709 [chuckles] Truly. 03:49.959 --> 03:52.667 -[chuckles] -Now let me go buy my eggs. 03:52.750 --> 03:53.875 [call ends] 03:53.959 --> 03:55.792 Okay. 03:56.500 --> 03:58.208 [Richard] Evening rounds was uneventful. 03:58.500 --> 04:01.625 But Ms. Fisher complained of a tenderness around the incision. 04:01.709 --> 04:03.750 [Jo] Okay. I'll check on her as soon as I can. 04:04.709 --> 04:08.166 Uh, Wilson, I know you've taken on some of Grey's cases, 04:08.250 --> 04:10.834 and now with Bailey's mother passing... 04:10.917 --> 04:12.458 I'm asking a lot of you. 04:12.542 --> 04:13.583 Well, she's awake now. 04:13.667 --> 04:15.333 But she still needs time to recover. 04:15.417 --> 04:17.667 Right. Just [chuckles] wishful thinking. 04:17.750 --> 04:19.500 -Yeah. -Um-- Oh, uh, uh, sir, 04:19.583 --> 04:21.625 w-when you have a minute, I was wondering if I could talk to you 04:21.709 --> 04:23.709 -about something that I am considering... -[text message chimes] 04:23.792 --> 04:25.625 ...um, career-wise. 04:27.417 --> 04:29.083 Oh, damn it. 04:29.166 --> 04:30.625 Oh, well, it doesn't have to be now. 04:30.709 --> 04:33.375 I'm sure that you are dying to go home. 04:33.458 --> 04:35.083 [sighs] 04:35.166 --> 04:36.792 No one's leaving here tonight. 04:45.291 --> 04:46.458 Pierce. 04:46.542 --> 04:47.959 What? No Magpie? 04:48.041 --> 04:49.458 You said you hate my nicknames. 04:49.542 --> 04:53.500 Which only seemed to increase your pleasure in using them. 04:53.583 --> 04:55.291 [monitor beeping] 04:55.375 --> 04:57.542 All right. 04:57.625 --> 04:58.792 Deep breath. 04:58.875 --> 05:01.458 [wheezing inhale] 05:01.542 --> 05:03.709 -[exhales shakily] -All right. Still diminished, 05:03.792 --> 05:05.083 but decent. 05:05.166 --> 05:06.834 Who slapped you with the happy stick? 05:08.083 --> 05:09.250 Meredith's awake. 05:09.333 --> 05:10.792 Oh. 05:10.875 --> 05:12.959 Maybe I won't die alone and forgotten. 05:13.250 --> 05:15.125 I'm basing my chances of beating this thing 05:15.208 --> 05:17.125 on Grey pulling through. 05:17.208 --> 05:19.166 She's a lot, uh, feistier. 05:19.250 --> 05:20.166 And younger. 05:20.250 --> 05:21.875 -Ouch. -[chuckles] 05:21.959 --> 05:24.208 I'm gonna come check on you in an hour. 05:25.125 --> 05:26.291 Try to get some rest. 05:26.375 --> 05:28.000 I literally have no choice. 05:28.083 --> 05:29.583 [monitor beeping] 05:29.792 --> 05:32.208 [door opens, closes] 05:32.291 --> 05:33.500 [wheezing] 05:33.583 --> 05:34.959 Know any good jokes? 05:36.250 --> 05:37.834 [chuckles] 05:37.917 --> 05:39.333 Me neither. 05:41.333 --> 05:42.875 [sighs] 05:46.542 --> 05:48.959 [indistinct conversations] 05:49.125 --> 05:51.417 [Jo] Hey. Great news about Meredith. 05:51.500 --> 05:52.959 [Teddy] Yeah. Great. 05:53.917 --> 05:57.458 [Richard] Listen up. Seattle Pres has reached capacity. 05:57.542 --> 06:00.417 Which means we should expect to receive 06:00.500 --> 06:03.041 about twice the patients per day. 06:03.125 --> 06:07.083 We are activating surge capacity protocol. 06:07.166 --> 06:09.542 -[all murmuring] -Hey, I'm not happy about it, either. 06:09.625 --> 06:12.125 We need to double up on every room we can. 06:12.208 --> 06:16.542 We are converting this cafeteria to COVID overflow tonight. 06:16.625 --> 06:19.583 We need all available hands, including residents. 06:19.667 --> 06:23.041 You will now take care of COVID patients. 06:23.375 --> 06:25.542 So, call home, make arrangements, 06:25.625 --> 06:27.625 check your inboxes for assignments. 06:27.709 --> 06:29.417 Thank you. 06:29.542 --> 06:30.875 [Bailey] I didn't get an e-mail. 06:30.959 --> 06:33.208 Because you're not supposed to be here. You should be at home. 06:33.291 --> 06:35.250 I'm not exposing my kids to COVID 06:35.333 --> 06:36.959 the week they lost their grandma. 06:37.041 --> 06:38.417 Then go to a hotel. 06:38.500 --> 06:41.500 You told me you couldn't leave this place when it needed you. 06:41.583 --> 06:42.583 Well, neither can I. 06:43.667 --> 06:44.750 Fine. 06:45.208 --> 06:46.417 Patient transfer. 06:47.208 --> 06:49.583 -Bailey, if you need to leave to go home-- -I won't. 06:58.667 --> 06:59.875 We want to do a chest X-ray 06:59.959 --> 07:01.709 to make sure the smoke didn't damage your lungs, okay? 07:01.792 --> 07:03.166 Shouldn't take long. 07:03.250 --> 07:04.917 [Jackson} We're gonna have to do the same for you, too. 07:05.000 --> 07:06.792 Let me just finish this hand first. 07:06.875 --> 07:09.000 [sighs] I pushed on the vent thing to get out, 07:09.083 --> 07:11.834 -but the fire made it really hot. -[cellphone ringing] 07:11.917 --> 07:13.333 -Stupid. -[Sharon] Hello? 07:13.417 --> 07:15.333 No, no. It sounds smart. 07:15.417 --> 07:17.750 [Sharon] Sure. Hold on. Let me ask. 07:17.834 --> 07:19.625 This is Jada's father. Can they talk? 07:19.709 --> 07:21.250 Of course. I'm almost done here. 07:22.166 --> 07:23.375 I-I'm so sorry. 07:23.458 --> 07:24.792 Daddy, I'm-- I'm so sorry. 07:24.875 --> 07:26.500 We didn't mean to do anything bad. 07:27.834 --> 07:29.959 -Any word on the mother? -Can't believe they arrested her. 07:30.083 --> 07:31.625 -I can. -[Owen] Nothing yet, 07:31.709 --> 07:33.583 but we need to get them transferred upstairs. 07:33.667 --> 07:36.125 What? Now? We've only just gotten them anywhere near calm. 07:36.208 --> 07:37.625 They're bringing the kidnapper here, 07:37.709 --> 07:39.542 and Montgomery said that he is belligerent. 07:39.625 --> 07:41.959 Absolutely not. We're not bringing him to this hospital. 07:42.041 --> 07:43.417 I'm as against it as you are. 07:43.500 --> 07:44.792 But Seattle Pres has closed their doors, 07:44.875 --> 07:47.125 and he has to go somewhere. 07:53.875 --> 07:56.000 [DeLuca] Okay. Sats are incredible. 07:56.083 --> 07:58.250 [Meredith] Must be able to do those in your sleep by now. 07:58.333 --> 07:59.500 Sleep? What sleep? 08:00.333 --> 08:02.792 Kidding. I've been getting sleep. 08:02.875 --> 08:04.291 How are my patients doing? 08:06.250 --> 08:08.875 Okay, Randall, Thompson, and Patel... 08:08.959 --> 08:10.417 they were all discharged. They recovered. 08:10.500 --> 08:12.166 Walker? 08:12.250 --> 08:13.667 Did his son get to see him at least? 08:13.750 --> 08:16.166 He barely made it in time, but yeah. 08:18.500 --> 08:20.166 Wish I could help. 08:20.250 --> 08:21.834 If it's any consolation, 08:21.917 --> 08:23.583 I've been working here every single day, 08:23.667 --> 08:25.583 and I don't really feel like I'm much help, either. 08:25.667 --> 08:26.875 [cellphone chimes] 08:27.125 --> 08:28.208 [sighs] 08:29.500 --> 08:30.834 Look, I really hate to go, but-- 08:30.917 --> 08:32.208 No. Go. It's okay. 08:33.333 --> 08:34.834 Hey. 08:34.917 --> 08:36.458 It's really good to hear your voice. 08:44.500 --> 08:46.959 Fire marshal says no more than 30 beds. 08:47.041 --> 08:49.000 Has Supply brought down the pulse oxes yet? 08:49.083 --> 08:51.000 Yes, they're being delivered as we speak. 08:51.083 --> 08:52.667 And we got an additional four high flows. 08:52.750 --> 08:54.208 How? 08:54.291 --> 08:56.083 We lost the patients who were using them. 08:58.959 --> 09:00.291 Helm! 09:00.375 --> 09:02.375 You have just put the monitor in the wrong place, 09:02.458 --> 09:04.583 and now we're gonna have wires and cords 09:04.667 --> 09:06.250 running along the patient's bed, 09:06.333 --> 09:07.959 which has created a hazard, 09:08.041 --> 09:10.625 not only for a seriously ill patient, 09:10.709 --> 09:12.125 but also for the staff. 09:12.208 --> 09:13.917 I'm sorry. I didn't realize-- 09:14.000 --> 09:15.291 I guess you didn't "realize" 09:15.375 --> 09:16.959 that you put the medical waste bin 09:17.041 --> 09:19.750 too far away from the hand sanitizer dispenser. 09:19.834 --> 09:21.417 So if I'm examining a patient, 09:21.500 --> 09:23.417 that means that I have to cross the room 09:23.500 --> 09:26.667 to dispose of the medical supplies, recross the room, 09:26.750 --> 09:28.417 sanitize my hands, 09:28.500 --> 09:30.375 which means you have doubled my exposure time 09:30.458 --> 09:32.291 and wasted my time. 09:32.375 --> 09:35.000 So fix this station and fix the other three stations. 09:35.125 --> 09:37.041 Actually, you know what? Find someone else to do it, 09:37.125 --> 09:38.333 because you've just proven 09:38.417 --> 09:40.667 why we haven't let residents actually do anything. 09:40.750 --> 09:41.875 -Richard] Dr. Altman. 09:42.542 --> 09:43.709 Can I help you? 09:43.792 --> 09:44.834 Can I send Dr. Helm upstairs 09:44.917 --> 09:47.041 to help out on the COVID floor? 09:47.125 --> 09:48.667 Bailey's asking for reinforcements. 09:50.583 --> 09:51.792 I don't care. 09:55.875 --> 09:57.750 [flatline] 09:57.834 --> 09:59.250 [Maggie] Charge to 200. 09:59.333 --> 10:02.083 [paddles whine] 10:02.166 --> 10:03.458 Clear. 10:03.542 --> 10:05.083 [defibrillator thumps] 10:05.166 --> 10:06.500 Charge to 300. 10:07.000 --> 10:08.500 Clear. 10:08.583 --> 10:10.417 [defibrillator thumps] 10:10.500 --> 10:12.667 [flatline] 10:16.041 --> 10:17.792 Time of death, 2:13. 10:17.875 --> 10:19.709 [click, flatline stops] 10:23.542 --> 10:24.917 I didn't even know his whole name. 10:28.166 --> 10:29.542 Do you want to? 10:29.625 --> 10:31.583 His wife would call him every day. 10:31.667 --> 10:33.583 She'd talk his ear off on the speaker phone. 10:33.667 --> 10:35.750 I don't speak Spanish, but I could hear kids playing. 10:35.834 --> 10:37.583 Maybe grandkids. 10:38.041 --> 10:39.291 I could hear his wife crying. 10:39.375 --> 10:40.834 And then she would force a laugh. 10:40.917 --> 10:42.000 And sometimes his eyes were open. 10:42.083 --> 10:43.917 And... he would force a smile, 10:44.000 --> 10:45.542 you know, when she would force a laugh 10:45.625 --> 10:47.875 'cause he was trying to take care of her through the phone. 10:47.959 --> 10:49.542 His first name is Hector. 10:49.834 --> 10:52.166 And yes, I'd like to know his last name 10:52.250 --> 10:53.709 for my prayers, please. 10:55.458 --> 10:56.583 Martinez. 10:56.667 --> 10:58.083 Hector Martinez. 11:01.500 --> 11:03.458 -Is Grey still awake? -Yes. 11:04.375 --> 11:06.250 Yeah, she's still awake. 11:06.333 --> 11:07.750 All right. 11:07.834 --> 11:08.917 [cellphone chiming] 11:12.417 --> 11:15.041 [sighs] 11:18.959 --> 11:21.750 [door opens, closes] 11:26.709 --> 11:28.709 [sirens wailing in distance] 11:28.792 --> 11:29.875 All right, we got the girls upstairs, 11:29.959 --> 11:33.041 so the coast is clear down here for... Satan's arrival. 11:33.375 --> 11:34.792 Do they know what this guy was doing? 11:34.875 --> 11:37.125 Is he, like, a serial killer? In a pandemic? 11:37.208 --> 11:39.583 Sex trafficking is more likely. The house they burned down 11:39.667 --> 11:42.375 could have been a way station or the destination. 11:43.750 --> 11:45.625 I don't want to be anywhere near this guy. 11:52.041 --> 11:55.291 [Bob coughing] 11:55.375 --> 11:57.500 [Travis] 45-year-old male involved in a house fire. 11:57.583 --> 11:59.333 Smoke inhalation, burns to the left arm. 11:59.417 --> 12:00.458 Vitals are stable. 12:00.542 --> 12:02.125 [Owen] The victims are safe, Montgomery. 12:02.208 --> 12:03.625 You mean the girls who broke into my house 12:03.709 --> 12:04.959 and set fire to it? 12:05.041 --> 12:06.542 [Travis] They could have burned alive in there. 12:06.625 --> 12:08.709 He's human garbage. Get these cuffs off me! 12:08.792 --> 12:10.333 I want my lawyer. Now. 12:10.417 --> 12:11.917 He's also gonna say that a lot. Good luck. 12:12.000 --> 12:13.208 -[coughs] -We've already informed security. 12:13.291 --> 12:14.458 Let's get him to trauma one. 12:16.917 --> 12:18.667 -Ma'am? -What happened to the guy 12:18.750 --> 12:20.417 who just came out of the ambulance? Is he okay? 12:20.500 --> 12:23.041 Ma'am, you can't be out here without a a mask. 12:23.125 --> 12:24.834 Okay, yeah. Thank you very much. 12:24.917 --> 12:27.834 I just, um... I'm a little...out of it. 12:27.917 --> 12:29.750 I just was mugged, and, um, 12:29.834 --> 12:31.625 the guy, he-- he shoved me and took my purse, 12:31.709 --> 12:33.291 and I hit my head, I think. 12:33.375 --> 12:35.333 You'd think people would behave better in a pandemic. 12:37.375 --> 12:39.250 Come on. Follow me. I'll get you checked out. 12:49.875 --> 12:51.125 [Jackson] So, I made a few calls, 12:51.208 --> 12:53.000 and my attorney's looking into your mother's arrest. 12:53.083 --> 12:54.834 We should know more pretty soon. 12:54.917 --> 12:56.375 -[Woman on PA] Code Blue, Room 5260. -Man: Room 5260 coding. Let's go. 12:56.458 --> 12:57.750 It's okay. 12:57.834 --> 12:59.291 I know it may not sound like it, 12:59.375 --> 13:01.291 but you're safe here, Jada. You are, okay? 13:01.792 --> 13:03.291 We are gonna get your mother out of there. 13:03.417 --> 13:04.750 [Jada] She didn't-- 13:04.834 --> 13:06.542 She didn't do anything wrong. 13:08.166 --> 13:10.083 She was just scared... 13:10.166 --> 13:12.959 trying to protect us. [sighs] 13:13.041 --> 13:14.417 We never should have met up with a stranger. 13:14.500 --> 13:15.834 It was so dumb. 13:15.917 --> 13:17.166 He's the bad guy here, not you. 13:17.250 --> 13:19.375 You're 13 years old, Jada. 13:19.458 --> 13:22.750 You should be allowed to make a few mistakes and survive them. 13:22.834 --> 13:24.667 That's kind of what growing up is all about. 13:25.000 --> 13:27.333 When I was 15 years old, took my mother's car. 13:27.417 --> 13:28.959 Didn't have a driver's license yet. 13:29.041 --> 13:31.208 Picked up my buddies, driving around, trying to show off, 13:31.291 --> 13:33.417 spin the tires, you know, burn rubber. 13:33.500 --> 13:35.959 Caught a patch of ice. Crashed sideways. 13:36.041 --> 13:38.667 Could have killed everyone 'cause I did something stupid. 13:39.583 --> 13:41.291 Still ended up being a doctor. 13:42.542 --> 13:43.792 You made a mistake. 13:43.875 --> 13:45.834 You learned from it, right? 13:47.166 --> 13:48.792 What that guy did, that was no mistake. 13:48.875 --> 13:50.166 He did that on purpose. 13:50.250 --> 13:51.458 So he's the one that we're mad at. 13:52.500 --> 13:53.500 You want to be mad at somebody, 13:53.583 --> 13:54.917 be mad at him, not yourself. 13:56.000 --> 13:57.875 [inhales deeply] Okay. 14:00.083 --> 14:01.834 [Bob coughs, grunts] 14:04.125 --> 14:05.875 Can you at least loosen these damn things? 14:05.959 --> 14:07.208 If you would calm down and stop moving, 14:07.291 --> 14:08.542 it might not bother you so much, 14:08.625 --> 14:10.750 and it would help me to work on your arm. 14:10.834 --> 14:12.375 Oh, they burned down my house, and I got arrested. 14:12.458 --> 14:13.667 Would you be calm? 14:16.208 --> 14:18.125 Oh, don't tell me you believe them. 14:18.208 --> 14:21.458 Sir, not only do I believe them, but I'm amazed by them. 14:21.542 --> 14:24.417 They are resourceful, powerful, brilliant. 14:24.750 --> 14:26.166 You know, my own sister 14:26.250 --> 14:28.792 was taken hostage by scumbags like you. 14:28.875 --> 14:30.417 She was held for 10 years. 14:30.500 --> 14:32.166 And these girls, they got themselves out in one night, 14:32.250 --> 14:33.959 and they risked their lives to do it. 14:34.041 --> 14:36.750 Now, it is my job to repair your lungs and your skin, 14:36.834 --> 14:40.500 and I need your cooperation to do that, but your life, Bob... 14:40.583 --> 14:43.083 your life will be spent behind bars. 14:43.166 --> 14:44.792 And your soul? [chuckles] 14:44.875 --> 14:47.041 There is nothing anyone can do to save that. 14:47.125 --> 14:48.417 You're the devil's barbecue, Bob, 14:48.500 --> 14:50.959 so get used to the smell of burning flesh. 14:51.041 --> 14:53.291 [grunts] Get me another doctor. 14:53.375 --> 14:54.917 I want another doctor! 14:55.000 --> 14:56.834 I've been through enough... 14:56.917 --> 14:59.125 without... hav-- 15:02.875 --> 15:04.500 [Owen] Okay, dramatic move, Bob. 15:06.208 --> 15:09.166 Let's call a stroke alert and have CT on standby. 15:09.250 --> 15:10.792 [Woman on PA] Code stroke, emergency room. Code stroke, emergency room. 15:10.917 --> 15:12.041 Doesn't look like you sustained any serious injuries 15:12.125 --> 15:13.208 from your fall. 15:13.291 --> 15:14.834 Code stroke, emergency room. 15:14.917 --> 15:16.333 [Opal] Um, what's-- what's going on in there? 15:16.417 --> 15:17.750 [Owen] Let's get ready to move him. 15:17.834 --> 15:20.375 Ugh. You don't want to know. 15:21.500 --> 15:23.083 Anything else hurting you? 15:23.166 --> 15:25.458 Any soreness or... 15:25.542 --> 15:27.917 Have someone from neuro meet me in CT. 15:28.000 --> 15:30.208 He has slurred speech and focal deficits. 15:30.291 --> 15:32.083 Possible stroke. Let's go. 15:33.542 --> 15:35.041 Ma'am? 15:35.125 --> 15:37.000 Oh. [exhales sharply] Sorry. 15:37.083 --> 15:38.500 Been alone for months. 15:38.583 --> 15:40.041 I'm not used to all this activity. 15:40.125 --> 15:41.875 Um, can I... 15:41.959 --> 15:43.333 Where is your restroom? 15:43.417 --> 15:44.875 Oh, yeah, it's just around the corner. 15:44.959 --> 15:46.375 Thanks. 15:48.458 --> 15:50.000 [door opens] 15:50.083 --> 15:51.208 [Sighs] 15:51.959 --> 15:53.917 Ksracick: Uh, you can go. 15:54.000 --> 15:55.375 -[clears throat] -[door closes] 15:55.458 --> 15:56.750 [Meredith] It got you, too, huh? 15:56.834 --> 15:59.875 [Koracick] Like an 18-wheeler on a sheet of ice. 15:59.959 --> 16:01.834 But I, uh... 16:01.917 --> 16:03.750 I just wanted to see for myself 16:03.834 --> 16:05.375 that it's possible to beat this thing. 16:05.458 --> 16:06.709 Almost beat it. 16:07.333 --> 16:09.291 You know how many rules you're breaking right now? 16:09.375 --> 16:12.709 I really just wanted to be in a room where no one was dying. 16:15.166 --> 16:16.750 'Cause everyone's dying. 16:25.917 --> 16:27.625 I won't tell if you don't. 16:28.500 --> 16:29.917 [sighs] 16:36.041 --> 16:37.458 [Amelia] Whatcha got? 16:37.542 --> 16:38.709 [Owen] I didn't mean for them to page you. 16:38.792 --> 16:40.208 If you need to be with Meredith... 16:40.291 --> 16:42.417 I want to be wherever I can help and save lives, 16:42.500 --> 16:44.458 so it is your guy's lucky day. 16:44.542 --> 16:46.917 Well, slurred speech, slight droop in the face, 16:47.000 --> 16:48.667 left-sided weakness in the arms and legs. 16:48.750 --> 16:52.000 He was also just arrested for kidnapping two teenage girls, 16:52.083 --> 16:53.875 possibly trafficking. 16:53.959 --> 16:56.083 I'm not sure that this is a life you're looking to save. 16:56.166 --> 16:57.458 I've already said a few things to this guy 16:57.542 --> 16:59.166 that could get me fired. 17:00.375 --> 17:01.917 Well, then... 17:02.000 --> 17:03.458 I guess I am his best chance 17:03.542 --> 17:06.333 at living long enough that he will rot in prison. 17:06.417 --> 17:08.333 -[chuckle] -Silver lining? 17:08.417 --> 17:09.792 [computer beeps] 17:09.875 --> 17:11.375 Okay, looks like an ischemic stroke. 17:12.542 --> 17:14.750 Let's start Alteplase and get a CTA. 17:14.834 --> 17:16.250 -Okay. -Mm-hmm. 17:25.250 --> 17:26.917 [DeLuca] Ah, Bailey. Good. 17:27.000 --> 17:28.917 Uh, Abrams and Richardson are settled, 17:29.000 --> 17:30.208 and I want to wait on Lottman's ABG results. 17:30.291 --> 17:31.875 Make sure she's stable. 17:33.709 --> 17:36.333 Um, DeLuca, can you get Mr. Franklin settled? 17:37.625 --> 17:38.834 Dr. Bailey? 17:40.125 --> 17:42.917 Uh, my mom died in that room last night. 17:43.000 --> 17:44.917 I just need a minute. 17:48.291 --> 17:50.166 -Dr. Bailey... -Hmm. 17:50.250 --> 17:52.125 ...you're superhuman. 17:52.208 --> 17:53.417 You know that, right? 17:53.500 --> 17:55.083 You got an ability to cut through crap 17:55.166 --> 17:57.250 unlike anyone I have ever seen. 17:57.583 --> 18:00.375 You're a world-class surgeon and an even better boss. 18:01.417 --> 18:03.208 So please don't mistake this as disrespect 18:03.291 --> 18:04.917 when I say... 18:05.125 --> 18:06.875 go away. 18:07.291 --> 18:08.542 Go home. 18:09.834 --> 18:11.041 At the very least, go to your office 18:11.125 --> 18:13.041 and scream, break something-- I don't know. 18:13.125 --> 18:15.333 Just take more than a minute. 18:16.458 --> 18:20.458 Because, yes, even superhumans need more than a minute 18:20.583 --> 18:23.291 to grieve the loss of the person that made them who they are. 18:24.542 --> 18:25.667 We got this. 18:27.917 --> 18:29.041 Go away. 18:34.458 --> 18:35.709 [door opens] 18:36.250 --> 18:38.291 [DeLuca] Okay. How we doing here? 18:47.625 --> 18:48.792 [Amelia] Fluoro. 18:50.000 --> 18:52.583 [ventilator hissing, monitor beeping] 18:52.667 --> 18:56.417 He's got a clot in his middle cerebral artery. 18:58.875 --> 19:00.500 Are the girls he hurt okay? 19:01.458 --> 19:03.959 I mean... okay as they can be? 19:04.041 --> 19:06.041 I hope so, but I cannot imagine. 19:06.125 --> 19:07.625 Was the world always this messed up 19:07.709 --> 19:10.625 and we just didn't pay attention 'cause we didn't have kids yet? 19:10.709 --> 19:12.208 Yeah, I notice more now. 19:12.291 --> 19:14.542 I just want to hug Scout and never let go. 19:15.583 --> 19:18.208 You know, after drenching myself in sanitizer. 19:18.291 --> 19:20.291 [chuckles] 19:20.375 --> 19:22.500 I can't even go home to hug Allison and Leo. 19:23.792 --> 19:26.500 They're staying at my mom's, and I see them on video chat. 19:27.542 --> 19:29.625 It is a special kind of torture. 19:29.709 --> 19:32.583 [scoffs] Sensory deprivation. I just-- 19:33.583 --> 19:36.625 Ugh. I just want to smell them and hold them. 19:37.792 --> 19:40.166 Well, at least I have a pandemic to keep me occupied. 19:40.250 --> 19:41.667 [chuckles] That's dark. 19:41.750 --> 19:42.959 You know, when all this started, 19:43.041 --> 19:45.208 I treated it like it was a war, like we were all this together, 19:45.291 --> 19:46.750 but we're not in this together-- not even close. 19:46.834 --> 19:49.667 I mean, some of us are risking our lives, 19:49.750 --> 19:52.583 missing our families, sacrificing everything, and why? 19:52.667 --> 19:54.875 So other people can just keep finding ways to hurt each other? 19:54.959 --> 19:57.125 I mean, kidnapping teenagers during a pandemic? 19:57.917 --> 19:59.083 Don't even get me started 19:59.166 --> 20:00.875 on all those people who are partying without masks. 20:01.375 --> 20:03.125 I think you said those things in the wrong order. 20:03.208 --> 20:05.041 I'm not so sure. [scoffs] 20:07.208 --> 20:08.667 [both laugh] 20:08.750 --> 20:10.083 -[Meredith] Just the facts, huh? -Yeah! 20:10.166 --> 20:11.583 [Koracick] Neurosurgeons are the best lovers 20:11.667 --> 20:13.000 of all the surgeons. 20:13.083 --> 20:16.041 It's the attention to the smallest of details. 20:16.125 --> 20:18.417 We know about, uh, pleasure centers. 20:18.500 --> 20:20.959 Okay. It's been very nice having you stop by. 20:21.041 --> 20:23.083 [laughing] You're welcome to prove me wrong. 20:23.166 --> 20:24.625 Ortho? 20:24.709 --> 20:25.875 Forget about it. No finesse. 20:25.959 --> 20:27.625 Anesthesiology? 20:27.709 --> 20:30.458 -Snooze. Literally. -[both laughing] 20:30.542 --> 20:31.667 [coughs] 20:32.166 --> 20:35.166 If this thing ever ends, I am creating a dating app 20:35.375 --> 20:37.542 for women who want to date a neurosurgeon, 20:37.625 --> 20:39.041 and that would be me. 20:39.125 --> 20:40.542 [Woman] Let's go, let's go, let's go! 20:40.625 --> 20:42.583 [Man on PA] Code Blue, room 4850. 20:42.667 --> 20:45.667 Code Blue, room 4850. 20:46.333 --> 20:48.792 You know, you don't realize how addicted you are to saving lives 20:48.875 --> 20:50.500 until you can't. 20:51.250 --> 20:52.709 I realized it. 20:55.000 --> 20:56.375 How hilarious is it 20:56.458 --> 21:01.125 that the best and second-best surgeons in this joint 21:01.208 --> 21:02.542 caught the plague? 21:02.625 --> 21:04.667 You're not the second-best surgeon here. 21:04.750 --> 21:07.208 [laughing] You might be top five. 21:07.291 --> 21:09.333 [chuckling] Wait. Wait, you-- 21:09.417 --> 21:11.625 you thought I put you at number one? 21:11.709 --> 21:14.542 Oh, that is-- [laughing] that is so sad. 21:14.625 --> 21:16.917 How many Catherine Fox Awards do you have? 21:17.000 --> 21:19.166 How many Catherine Foxes have you saved? 21:19.250 --> 21:20.375 [gasps] 21:21.583 --> 21:22.709 Good one. 21:24.208 --> 21:26.250 [Woman] I can't believe we lost another one. 21:26.333 --> 21:27.834 [Man] We did our best. 21:37.542 --> 21:40.000 [Teddy] Six more beds, nine more vital monitors, 21:40.083 --> 21:42.750 and we will meet protocol standards. 21:42.834 --> 21:44.250 Nice work, Altman. 21:44.333 --> 21:47.083 It'll fill up before we know it, but I guess it's something. 21:47.166 --> 21:49.542 Well, when I said not everyone would be needed here, 21:49.625 --> 21:50.750 I meant it. 21:50.834 --> 21:53.166 -If you need to take personal time. -That's a joke, right? 21:53.250 --> 21:54.875 You've been burning the candle at both ends 21:54.959 --> 21:56.375 trying to save Meredith. 21:56.458 --> 21:57.667 You've earned a break. 21:57.750 --> 21:59.417 Meredith doesn't matter, Richard. 22:00.792 --> 22:04.500 I'm saying it's great that she's awake. 22:05.667 --> 22:07.333 But I thought if I-- if I could-- 22:07.417 --> 22:10.917 if I could just keep her alive, that meant something. 22:11.000 --> 22:13.208 And now she's awake, and nothing has changed. 22:13.291 --> 22:16.458 And we are in a frickin' cafeteria. 22:16.625 --> 22:18.625 People used to take breaks in here, 22:18.709 --> 22:20.583 and they would eat ice cream and French fries, 22:20.667 --> 22:22.583 and we-- now we just converted it 22:22.667 --> 22:24.250 so that they would die here instead. 22:24.333 --> 22:26.750 So, taking a break won't save anyone. 22:27.667 --> 22:29.583 And I don't have anywhere to go anyway. 22:30.875 --> 22:32.208 And that's on you. 22:34.834 --> 22:36.375 And you know it's on you. 22:37.417 --> 22:39.667 Feeling sorry for yourself 22:39.750 --> 22:41.667 doesn't save lives. 22:43.291 --> 22:45.208 You aren't gonna get better until you take the time 22:45.291 --> 22:47.709 to find out why you did what you did. 22:47.792 --> 22:49.250 You blew up your life 22:49.333 --> 22:51.250 and profoundly hurt and humiliated 22:51.333 --> 22:52.500 the man that you love. 22:52.583 --> 22:53.792 You need to take inventory. 22:54.792 --> 22:55.917 Name your demons. 22:56.000 --> 22:57.750 Clean up your messes. 22:57.834 --> 23:00.166 You may not be able to get things back the way they were, 23:00.250 --> 23:03.125 but if you honestly look at yourself, 23:04.083 --> 23:06.417 maybe you won't repeat the same pattern again. 23:16.208 --> 23:19.542 [Woman on PA] Nurse Kruger to the OR. Nurse Kruger to the OR. 23:22.125 --> 23:23.917 [exhales shakily] 23:26.542 --> 23:29.041 [Maggie] Ma'am, you okay? 23:29.125 --> 23:31.083 I will be. I just need a minute. 23:31.917 --> 23:34.625 I'm sorry, but you have to keep your mask on. 23:36.792 --> 23:38.083 Do you want to sit down? 23:43.667 --> 23:45.709 My daughter, she was taken, 23:45.792 --> 23:47.875 and I almost lost her forever. 23:47.959 --> 23:49.667 Oh, my God. I heard about that. 23:50.959 --> 23:54.333 I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now. 23:54.417 --> 23:56.000 You know, I spend my whole day 23:56.083 --> 23:58.208 just trying to get to the end of it still standing. 23:58.291 --> 24:00.333 And there's always something, 24:00.417 --> 24:02.083 but I find ways to deal with the somethings. 24:02.166 --> 24:03.458 I try to get ahead of them. 24:03.542 --> 24:04.917 But you can't get ahead of everything. 24:05.000 --> 24:07.333 It's too much stress. It's too much. I'm so sorry. 24:07.417 --> 24:09.542 And you know what's crazy? I have to get up 24:09.625 --> 24:12.208 and go to work in the morning and act like nothing happened. 24:12.291 --> 24:15.875 Because we have to eat and have a roof over our head. 24:15.959 --> 24:17.667 Even in a pandemic. 24:17.750 --> 24:19.542 There's no stopping. There's no relief. 24:25.125 --> 24:26.792 I need to get back to my girl. 24:39.834 --> 24:41.834 [Opal] It's Bob. He's not gonna talk. 24:41.917 --> 24:43.917 No, he's not. I know. 24:44.000 --> 24:45.458 I know. I just have to figure out 24:45.542 --> 24:46.875 how to get close enough to him 24:46.959 --> 24:48.291 to find out what they already know. 24:48.375 --> 24:50.166 No, because he may have had a stroke. 24:50.709 --> 24:52.417 I will, yes. 24:55.875 --> 24:57.792 [Woman] Dr. DeLuca, can you take a look at this? 25:00.333 --> 25:01.750 That is my niece! 25:01.834 --> 25:02.959 Arrest this woman for child trafficking! 25:03.041 --> 25:04.750 Security! Detain her! 25:06.291 --> 25:07.667 [DeLuca] I'm still waiting on the results, 25:07.750 --> 25:09.458 so let me know when they come in, okay? Thank you. 25:09.834 --> 25:11.166 [ccellphone chimes] 25:15.041 --> 25:16.667 [sighs] Okay. 25:28.500 --> 25:30.417 [Koracick] Your sats still look good. [Koracick] Your sats still look good. 25:30.500 --> 25:31.750 [Meredith] You're a workaholic. 25:31.834 --> 25:33.583 Oh, work is all I have. 25:33.667 --> 25:35.750 That and a... to-do list 25:35.834 --> 25:38.125 of many, many women. 25:38.208 --> 25:39.500 That's not all you have. 25:39.792 --> 25:41.250 [sighs] 25:41.333 --> 25:42.583 You miss the kids? 25:42.667 --> 25:43.917 So much it hurts. 25:44.166 --> 25:47.583 I even miss when they say, "Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom," 25:47.667 --> 25:49.792 so many times I want to change my name. 25:49.875 --> 25:51.458 [chuckles] 25:51.542 --> 25:54.667 Used to be so angry at God for taking David away, 25:54.750 --> 25:57.250 but now I think it's kind of like a blessing. 25:57.333 --> 26:00.125 He doesn't have to feel this or worry about me. 26:00.208 --> 26:01.667 I don't have to worry about him. 26:01.750 --> 26:03.709 [chuckles] 26:03.792 --> 26:05.041 Yeah, that's B.S. 26:05.834 --> 26:10.667 I'd kill for a "Dad, Dad, Dad, Dad" about now. 26:12.458 --> 26:14.375 Just trying to silver-line something. 26:14.458 --> 26:15.750 -[door opens] -Oh. 26:15.834 --> 26:16.709 [Nurse James] Are you kidding me? 26:16.792 --> 26:18.375 Okay, arrest me, officer. 26:18.458 --> 26:22.041 No, no, I've been a terrible, terrible patient. I-- 26:22.125 --> 26:23.250 Good luck with your plague! 26:23.333 --> 26:24.583 Good luck with yours! 26:25.375 --> 26:26.834 [door closes] 26:28.959 --> 26:30.208 [Woman on PA] Chaplain to patient services. 26:30.291 --> 26:31.917 [Levi] She's got red hair, and-- 26:32.000 --> 26:33.792 Oh, oh, there she is! 26:33.875 --> 26:36.208 [Opal] Uh-- Uh, what's going on? 26:36.291 --> 26:38.625 You were mugged. Don't you want to make a statement? 26:39.375 --> 26:41.834 Yes. Thank you. O-Of course. 26:41.917 --> 26:44.250 I-- Uh... it's been a crazy night. 26:44.333 --> 26:46.917 Um... I was walking to my car, 26:47.000 --> 26:49.709 and I actually felt something from behind. 26:49.792 --> 26:51.583 [Policeman] Okay. And then what? 26:52.792 --> 26:54.834 [Hayes] So, both girls are responding well to the oxygen. 26:54.917 --> 26:57.041 As long as the next X-rays are looking good, 26:57.125 --> 26:58.250 you can all be on your way. 27:00.000 --> 27:01.000 [Woman] Baby... 27:01.083 --> 27:03.166 -Mom! -[both crying] 27:03.250 --> 27:05.291 I'm so sorry, Mom! 27:05.375 --> 27:08.083 [Joyce] No. Oh, God. I was so worried about you. 27:08.166 --> 27:10.291 -I was so scared. -I was so scared. 27:10.375 --> 27:12.208 Okay, sweet girl. 27:12.291 --> 27:13.583 I'm okay. 27:14.375 --> 27:16.166 I'm here, baby. 27:16.250 --> 27:17.834 I'm here. 27:17.917 --> 27:20.166 [Hayes] You did this? You got her out? 27:20.250 --> 27:21.792 [Jackson] Money did this. 27:21.875 --> 27:23.959 It's the only language this country understands. 27:26.083 --> 27:28.083 [Maggie] No, Mrs. Willett. [sighs] 27:29.375 --> 27:31.250 I don't have better news. I'm sorry. 27:34.959 --> 27:36.291 Okay. 27:36.375 --> 27:37.583 I will. 27:37.667 --> 27:40.291 [siren wailing in distance] 27:43.709 --> 27:45.125 [Maggie] Hey. 27:45.208 --> 27:47.000 Thought you had surgery. 27:47.083 --> 27:49.125 I did. [sighs] 27:49.208 --> 27:51.834 Saving a sex trafficker's life. 27:51.917 --> 27:54.750 So... I needed some air. 27:56.041 --> 27:57.667 How did you manage to not... 27:58.333 --> 28:00.709 stab him in the skull with a scalpel? 28:01.166 --> 28:02.625 Skin of my teeth. 28:04.375 --> 28:08.000 I easily could have let the catheter slip by a millimeter, 28:08.083 --> 28:09.125 lacerate his artery, 28:09.208 --> 28:12.709 or I could have accidentally let him have a bigger stroke, 28:12.792 --> 28:14.333 landing him in a vegetative state, 28:14.417 --> 28:17.041 sitting in his own filth for decades, but I didn't. 28:17.667 --> 28:19.000 Because I took an oath. 28:19.083 --> 28:21.166 I saved his life so amazingly well 28:21.250 --> 28:24.041 that he will live far longer than he should, 28:24.125 --> 28:27.709 until he dies alone in prison. 28:31.083 --> 28:32.875 [sighs] I'm so sick of it. 28:35.083 --> 28:37.875 I'm so sick of it. I know. It's infuriating. 28:37.959 --> 28:39.208 How anyone could kidnap children-- 28:39.291 --> 28:41.083 No. That's not it, Amelia. 28:42.041 --> 28:43.125 That's not it. 28:45.375 --> 28:47.041 You're outraged. 28:47.125 --> 28:48.792 Everyone is outraged 28:48.875 --> 28:51.583 that this monster kidnapped these girls. 28:51.667 --> 28:53.041 And that is awful. 28:53.125 --> 28:54.291 It's awful. 28:54.917 --> 28:57.458 But what about the monsters that got us here? 28:58.333 --> 29:00.291 The many reasons that Black girls are more vulnerable 29:00.375 --> 29:02.125 to being taken in the first place? 29:02.208 --> 29:05.041 I want outrage for that. I want outrage for the fact 29:05.125 --> 29:09.250 that we are seen as disposable, and rarely seen as victims. 29:09.333 --> 29:10.750 That Black girls are less likely 29:10.834 --> 29:13.125 to be as seen as innocent than white girls, 29:13.208 --> 29:15.667 which makes people think that we don't need protecting, 29:15.750 --> 29:17.834 and it's okay to hypersexualize us in the media. 29:17.917 --> 29:21.208 Meanwhile, we are being physically and sexually abused 29:21.291 --> 29:24.792 at horrific rates, and not just by sex traffickers. 29:25.166 --> 29:27.917 There are so many things just waiting to rob Black women and girls 29:28.000 --> 29:31.959 of our freedom and future and our joy. 29:33.083 --> 29:37.291 And because none of it has an evil or obvious face, 29:37.375 --> 29:39.041 it just gets ignored. 29:41.667 --> 29:42.917 And now... 29:43.792 --> 29:47.375 there's a plague that is killing Black people 29:47.458 --> 29:51.625 at a rate that should make everyone outraged! 29:51.709 --> 29:53.208 If COVID were killing white people 29:53.291 --> 29:56.250 at the rate that it is killing Black people, [scoffs] 29:56.333 --> 29:59.834 you better believe that everyone would be wearing masks 29:59.917 --> 30:01.959 because it would be the damn law! 30:07.125 --> 30:08.458 You're right, Maggie. 30:11.750 --> 30:13.458 And I don't know how you carry it all. 30:15.041 --> 30:16.333 By the skin of my teeth. 30:31.750 --> 30:33.125 [sighs] 30:36.458 --> 30:38.000 Did you quit yet? 30:38.709 --> 30:40.917 It's not quitting. 30:41.000 --> 30:43.750 -It's choosing joy. -Mm. 30:43.834 --> 30:46.166 I want to choose joy. 30:46.250 --> 30:48.333 I want to bring life into the world. 30:48.417 --> 30:50.458 It's nothing to shame me over. 30:50.542 --> 30:51.750 I didn't shame you. 30:51.834 --> 30:53.208 A little bit, you did. 30:55.000 --> 30:57.417 I heard Grey's awake. Did you tell her? 30:57.500 --> 30:59.166 No. 30:59.250 --> 31:01.041 She would definitely shame me. 31:01.125 --> 31:02.542 [chuckles] 31:02.625 --> 31:03.917 She was my teacher. 31:04.000 --> 31:06.792 She loves to cut more than anybody I know. 31:07.000 --> 31:12.125 She would tell me that it's a reaction to the pandemic 31:12.208 --> 31:16.875 and that it's insane to quit surgery, and... 31:18.000 --> 31:20.000 on some level, she'd be right. 31:20.083 --> 31:21.417 But... 31:22.834 --> 31:26.458 But when I think about quitting, 31:27.458 --> 31:31.000 it brings me so... much... joy. 31:33.125 --> 31:34.834 It's like I have a dirty little secret. 31:34.917 --> 31:39.041 ♪ We will call this place our home ♪ 31:39.125 --> 31:42.291 [DeLuca] 27 patients transferred... 31:42.375 --> 31:43.917 in under five hours. 31:44.834 --> 31:47.000 And somehow we're all still standing. 31:47.083 --> 31:49.083 ♪ Though the storms will push and pull ♪ 31:49.166 --> 31:50.458 [sighs] 31:51.000 --> 31:53.250 So... did you break something? 31:53.709 --> 31:56.375 I screamed into a pillow for a few minutes. 31:56.458 --> 31:57.583 Thank you. 31:59.333 --> 32:00.250 [sighs] 32:00.333 --> 32:03.959 ♪ We'll tell our stories on these walls ♪ 32:04.041 --> 32:06.166 You know, when my mom died... 32:06.250 --> 32:08.041 ♪ Every year, measure how tall ♪ 32:08.125 --> 32:11.208 ...I don't even have words to describe how bad it felt. 32:12.000 --> 32:13.917 Like the pain should just carry me out of my body 32:14.000 --> 32:15.333 and take me with her. 32:15.417 --> 32:17.792 I feel like I'm not in my body. 32:17.875 --> 32:21.667 Like I'm watching myself move around, 32:21.750 --> 32:24.750 but I'm not all there. 32:24.834 --> 32:28.166 I have no idea what to do about a memorial. 32:28.250 --> 32:30.625 She wanted something joyous. 32:30.709 --> 32:35.125 My father and I following behind the hearse in a white limo. 32:35.208 --> 32:36.458 Had to be white. 32:37.083 --> 32:40.417 Her church choir singing "His Eye Is On The Sparrow" 32:40.500 --> 32:42.834 in front of the entire congregation. 32:43.250 --> 32:44.750 And no crying. 32:44.834 --> 32:47.834 Yeah, said she'd been to enough sad funerals. 32:47.917 --> 32:51.667 She wanted good food, 32:52.083 --> 32:54.709 good music, and laughter. 32:54.792 --> 32:56.625 You know, working every day in the COVID ICU, 32:56.709 --> 32:59.834 I have to say, I've seen some-- some pretty beautiful things. 32:59.917 --> 33:01.583 ♪ We are the impact and the glue ♪ 33:01.667 --> 33:04.583 Candlelit drive-by vigils and video memorials. 33:04.667 --> 33:06.125 Look, I know none of it's ideal, 33:06.208 --> 33:08.250 but it does provide a little comfort. 33:08.792 --> 33:11.208 [cellphone chimes] 33:11.291 --> 33:14.166 Oh, uh, do-- Do you mind if I knock off? 33:14.250 --> 33:17.333 I-I have to take my meds and get some sleep. 33:18.417 --> 33:19.792 [chuckles] What? 33:19.875 --> 33:21.166 ♪ With each year, our color fades ♪ 33:21.250 --> 33:22.625 Go, of course. 33:22.709 --> 33:25.125 I'm just so proud of you, DeLuca. 33:25.250 --> 33:28.333 Managing your mental health, taking your meds, 33:28.417 --> 33:31.041 getting rest, setting boundaries. 33:31.125 --> 33:32.709 That's not easy even when we aren't 33:32.792 --> 33:34.250 in the middle of a pandemic. 33:34.333 --> 33:35.834 Guess I'm just lucky I was surrounded by people 33:35.917 --> 33:38.250 that didn't give up on me. 33:38.333 --> 33:39.750 Night, Chief. 33:39.834 --> 33:44.792 ♪ And repaint every day ♪ 33:47.750 --> 33:50.583 [flatline, alarm beeping in distance] 33:57.959 --> 34:00.375 [Woman on PA] Code Blue, room 4878. 34:00.458 --> 34:03.291 Code Blue, room 4878. 34:05.291 --> 34:11.083 Code Blue, room 4878. Code Blue, room 4878. 34:13.333 --> 34:18.291 Code Blue, room 4878. Code Blue, room 4878. 34:22.750 --> 34:24.500 [Nurse Linda] Dr. Grey, get back in bed. 34:24.583 --> 34:26.375 The code team will be here any minute. 34:26.458 --> 34:27.959 [Meredith] She doesn't have that kind of time! 34:28.041 --> 34:29.834 Get me an ET tube. 34:32.000 --> 34:33.542 Take over compressions. 34:43.917 --> 34:45.542 Dr. Grey! 34:47.000 --> 34:48.667 [Meredith] All right, I'm in. Bag her. 34:50.959 --> 34:52.166 [flatline, alarms beeping] 34:53.333 --> 34:54.667 What the hell are you doing? 34:55.959 --> 34:58.083 [weakly] Helm, get me a wheelchair. 35:10.333 --> 35:12.583 [siren wailing in distance] 35:15.250 --> 35:16.917 [Owen sighs] 35:18.417 --> 35:19.875 [exhales sharply] 35:19.959 --> 35:22.250 [vehicle backup alert beeping] 35:30.291 --> 35:31.917 -Hey. -Hey. 35:37.166 --> 35:38.834 Teddy, I don't want to keep punishing you. 35:39.208 --> 35:40.750 We have kids, you know? 35:43.333 --> 35:46.083 Maybe it's time we start to talk about what we're gonna do. 35:46.542 --> 35:47.625 Allison. 35:48.333 --> 35:50.583 Allison's fine. I talked to Mom this morning. She said that-- 35:50.667 --> 35:52.625 No, Owen. Not our Allison. 35:52.709 --> 35:53.959 My Allison. 35:56.667 --> 35:58.458 We weren't just best friends. 35:59.583 --> 36:02.500 I was in love with her, and she was in love with me. 36:02.583 --> 36:05.792 We were so deeply in love. 36:05.875 --> 36:08.792 And I don't know what this has to do with what I did to you. 36:08.875 --> 36:11.667 But I know that is it the only secret that I kept from you 36:11.750 --> 36:14.500 before Tom and before this. I-- 36:15.709 --> 36:17.583 I know that it's connected. 36:18.000 --> 36:19.166 And I know you well enough 36:19.250 --> 36:21.500 to know that you-- you need the whole story. 36:21.583 --> 36:23.083 I don't know all of it yet, 36:23.166 --> 36:24.583 but I wanted to give you what I do know. 36:26.792 --> 36:28.709 [sighs] I don't know what to do with this. 36:28.792 --> 36:29.834 You don't have to do anything. 36:29.917 --> 36:32.709 I just want you to know that I love you and I love our kids 36:32.792 --> 36:35.458 and I loved our family, even if it's over. 36:39.458 --> 36:40.834 ♪ Hold the line, aye ♪ 36:40.917 --> 36:44.375 [laughing] 36:44.458 --> 36:46.834 ♪ Do you fight for pride or glory? ♪ 36:46.917 --> 36:49.709 [laughs loudly] 36:49.792 --> 36:51.750 This makes so much sense. 36:51.834 --> 36:54.083 [laughs, sighs] 36:55.875 --> 36:57.583 I mean, ever since our wedding day... 36:58.709 --> 37:01.417 I've been trying to piece it together-- Our history. 37:01.500 --> 37:04.083 Searching for when you changed and became someone 37:04.166 --> 37:06.583 that was capable of doing things that I couldn't understand. 37:06.667 --> 37:08.458 And it turns out that... 37:09.375 --> 37:10.583 you didn't change. 37:11.500 --> 37:12.500 Turns out-- 37:15.208 --> 37:17.041 Turns out I just never really knew you. 37:17.125 --> 37:18.500 Owen, that's not true. 37:18.583 --> 37:20.375 Do you even know what true is, Teddy? 37:21.917 --> 37:25.834 We named our daughter after a lie. 37:25.917 --> 37:29.375 ♪ I don't know where you've gone ♪ 37:29.458 --> 37:32.417 ♪ You used to be the heart of this town ♪ 37:32.500 --> 37:36.166 No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. 37:36.250 --> 37:38.041 [patients coughing] 37:40.917 --> 37:43.458 ♪ I don't know where you are now ♪ 37:43.542 --> 37:46.208 [Richard] I have never seen anything like this. 37:46.291 --> 37:49.208 [Bailey] Everyone really pulled together today. 37:49.291 --> 37:50.709 It would be beautiful 37:50.792 --> 37:52.000 if it wasn't full of dying people. 37:52.083 --> 37:53.875 I mean COVID. 37:53.959 --> 37:56.709 We're doing our best, but this is the first time in my career 37:56.792 --> 37:58.625 I'm not sure that's enough. 37:58.709 --> 38:01.709 Pretty soon, we're gonna start losing our own. 38:01.792 --> 38:03.166 Not to the disease... 38:04.250 --> 38:06.417 but to the toll it's taking. 38:08.542 --> 38:10.083 I fear this will hurt us 38:10.166 --> 38:12.792 in a way we can't even begin to understand. 38:14.458 --> 38:15.750 [cellphones chime] 38:15.834 --> 38:17.792 ♪ Whoa ♪ 38:19.250 --> 38:20.709 [Bailey] It's Grey. 38:20.792 --> 38:22.000 Come on. 38:22.834 --> 38:25.083 ♪ Whoa ♪ 38:25.166 --> 38:26.792 [patients coughing] 38:30.500 --> 38:34.709 ♪ Yeah, you've got your back Against the wall ♪ 38:34.792 --> 38:36.792 [indistinct conversations] 38:36.875 --> 38:39.000 [monitor beeping] 38:41.750 --> 38:43.667 [sighs] Her sats are plummeting. 38:43.750 --> 38:45.625 But she was fine-- Yeah, until she got out of bed 38:45.709 --> 38:48.417 and tried to resuscitate a coding patient. 38:48.500 --> 38:50.792 The exertion, it just pushed her over the edge. 38:50.875 --> 38:53.500 [Teddy] Maybe. Or maybe her lungs already looked that way. 38:53.583 --> 38:54.875 The experimental drug 38:54.959 --> 38:57.417 doesn't reverse damage that's already occurred. 38:57.500 --> 38:59.041 She might have been on a COVID high. 38:59.125 --> 39:00.542 What about putting her on BIPAP? 39:00.625 --> 39:03.166 It won't be enough. If she's not already responding to high flow. 39:03.250 --> 39:04.291 Where's Pierce? 39:04.375 --> 39:06.125 She went home. She's not answering her phone. 39:09.583 --> 39:11.917 I think it's time. Dr. Webber-- 39:12.000 --> 39:13.375 No. Uh-- Mnh-mnh. 39:13.458 --> 39:14.959 She said she didn't want to be on a vent. 39:15.041 --> 39:17.125 Unless it's a last resort. 39:17.208 --> 39:19.542 Well, Meredith's lungs are at a breaking point. 39:19.625 --> 39:22.291 I know early results weren't good, 39:22.375 --> 39:24.500 but more and more patients are surviving 39:24.583 --> 39:25.750 after they go on a vent. 39:25.834 --> 39:27.333 -Richard-- -It's my call. 39:37.250 --> 39:38.375 Do it. 39:48.000 --> 39:49.750 [door closes] 39:53.583 --> 39:56.041 No, I'm sorry. I had to get out. 39:56.125 --> 39:57.458 It's too risky. 40:03.959 --> 40:05.458 Open your eyes, people! 40:05.542 --> 40:07.208 She's selling human beings! 40:09.291 --> 40:11.291 -[Carina] Buon giorno. -DeLuca] Shh, shh, shh, shh. 40:11.375 --> 40:13.125 -Carina. -What's wrong? 40:13.208 --> 40:15.291 It's the woman who brought the girl. Cindy. 40:15.375 --> 40:17.792 E-Erin. Erin Banks. Do you remember her? 40:17.875 --> 40:19.500 Andrea... Carina, I swear it's her. 40:20.667 --> 40:21.834 [In Italian] Carina, look at me. 40:21.959 --> 40:24.375 I'm fine and I'm right. Believe me, it's her. 40:24.458 --> 40:26.041 OK then, call the police. 40:26.125 --> 40:27.834 [In English] No, you call the police. I'm following her. 40:27.917 --> 40:30.000 I let her out of the hospital once. I'm not doing it again. 40:30.083 --> 40:33.041 Va bene. But-- But I'm driving. 40:33.125 --> 40:35.083 -Okay? -Okay. Come on. Hurry up. 40:38.375 --> 40:40.542 -[cellphone chimes] -[knock on door] 40:42.709 --> 40:44.000 I don't need anything. 40:44.083 --> 40:45.542 [knocking on door] 40:47.792 --> 40:49.208 [sighs] 40:59.041 --> 41:00.583 Are you real? 41:00.667 --> 41:02.125 I told you the long-distance thing wasn't working for me. 41:03.417 --> 41:04.625 [laughs] 41:06.709 --> 41:08.625 [sobbing] 41:08.709 --> 41:11.625 ♪ Hmm, hmm ♪ 41:11.709 --> 41:14.542 ♪ Hmm, hmm ♪ 41:17.208 --> 41:22.291 ♪ Ooh ♪ 41:27.709 --> 41:34.625 ♪ Ooh ♪ 41:34.709 --> 41:40.458 ♪ Ah, ah ♪ 41:40.542 --> 41:42.291 [birds chirping] 41:45.041 --> 41:50.542 ♪ Ah, ah ♪ 41:50.625 --> 41:53.625 [monitor beeping] 41:53.709 --> 41:55.125 [seagulls squawking] 41:55.208 --> 42:00.166 ♪ So take me to the airport ♪ 42:00.792 --> 42:04.500 ♪ And put me on a plane ♪ 42:06.000 --> 42:11.291 ♪ I got no expectations ♪ 42:11.375 --> 42:15.000 ♪ To pass through here again ♪ 42:16.792 --> 42:20.834 ♪ To pass through here again ♪ 42:22.083 --> 42:26.291 ♪ Our love was like the water ♪ 42:27.291 --> 42:30.542 ♪ That splashes on a stone ♪ 42:30.625 --> 42:33.667 [Meredith] Sometimes, when you think the storm has passed, 42:33.750 --> 42:36.041 you realize you were just in the eye of it. 42:36.125 --> 42:38.125 ♪ Our love is like our music ♪ 42:38.208 --> 42:41.625 ♪ It's here, and then it's gone ♪ 42:48.083 --> 42:51.917 [monitor beeping]