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[ Celeste's "Little Runaway" plays ]

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Meredith: This job isn't easy.

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The sheer amount of pressure and loss

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that we square off against every day...

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♪ I don't see nothin' comin' ♪

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...can leave you exhausted...

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♪ Maybe they were all misplaced ♪

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...or helpless.

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You're okay. You're okay.

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♪ Good news, I could use some ♪

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Meredith: You're going to need to find
an outlet for the stress.

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♪ One man revolution ♪

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[ Cellphone vibrating ]

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya ♪

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♪ 'Cause I'm lost alone again ♪

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya ♪

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Maybe it's physical...

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♪ I don't believe, but I'll pretend ♪

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...maybe it's emotional...

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♪ Your little runaway
is runnin' out of faith ♪

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[ Cellphone rings ]

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Hey, buddy. Hey!

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Hi. Oh, you're so big.

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Mommy misses you both so much.

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I love you, Mommy.

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I love you. I miss you.

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Meredith: ...maybe it's family...

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♪ Runnin' out of faith, so if you can ♪

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...but trust me, you're not
going to survive residency

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unless you have a happy place...

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♪ 'Cause I'm waitin' ♪

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♪ Hallelujah, take me to ya ♪

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...somewhere that you
can just escape it all.

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♪ 'Cause I'll be waitin' ♪

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[ Siren wails ]

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Ben: I need another ABD.

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Why aren't we there yet?

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We're going as fast as we can
without crashing.

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Ben: Uh...

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You need to tell them
it's him so they're ready.

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Okay, Carina, I know you are
scared, but this isn't helping.

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"B."

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"B"? "B" what, buddy?

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"B" positive. That's my blood type.

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We'll call ahead and make sure they know.

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Give me a 4x4.

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Andrea, you are gonna be okay,
Andrea, okay?

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[ Groaning ]

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Okay?

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Reza: Val Ashton.

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Two days post extended liver resection.

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LFTs are still elevated.

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Blood cultures are growing
gram-negative bacteria.

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How are you feeling?
Any tenderness or nausea?

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Honestly, I think I can get out of bed

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and do a couple laps.

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She's still septic.

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Start her on Levophed, add an antifungal,

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and order a repeat CT.

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You feel like crap, and you're
acting like you don't.

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Why would I --

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So I'll let you out of bed
so you can see Luna.

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I've tried this your way.

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It isn't working.

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Val, I know that this --

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Please don't say you know how this feels,

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because I like you,
and I want to keep liking you.

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But unless you've had
a baby that you haven't

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been allowed to hold or even see
in person her whole life,

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you don't know.

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[ Sighs ]

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I finally got ahold of Luna's father.

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He signed over his parental rights.

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Isn't that what you wanted?

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Yeah.

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But I expected at least a little fight.

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Not a text back that says, "Good luck."

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Baby emoji.

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So, yes, I feel like crap.

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I feel sick down to my bones
that I made a child

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with someone who doesn't
even care she exists.

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Let's get the sepsis under control,

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and then we can talk about seeing Luna.

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[ Monitor beeping ]

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[ Sighs ]

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They were out of oat milk,
so it's gonna be almond.

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Savages.

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Right?

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[ Groans ]

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Hmm.

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You should eat.

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Coffee first.

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And I don't need a speech about breakfast

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and nutrients for my brain
because my brain

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is finally turned off.

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I'd like to keep it that way
for as long as possible.

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Want to get some fresh air?

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We could go for a walk.

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I'm right where I want to be.

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[ Music playing ]

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Maggie, I don't know if you are asleep

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or if you are ignoring me
or the world entirely, but call.

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Link: Still nothing?

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Uh, she could be passed out
on the floor from COVID,

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and no one would know.

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Or -- Or she could be
hit by a car on the I-94

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on the way to Wyoming.

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What's in Wyoming? I don't know.

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But one sister's on a vent
and the other one is missing,

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and the last time a sibling was missing,

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he was dying on the side of the road, so--

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Is my mommy gonna die?

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Uh...

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It's okay. You can tell me.

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[ Sighs ]

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Come on, Zo. Let's go inside.

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[ Sighs ]

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[ Door closes ]

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[ Siren wailing in distance]

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I called up to the blood bank

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to have type "B" blood on standby.

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Hopefully, it's a sign.

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You know, "be positive"?

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Rig's here.

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Carina, what the hell?

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-It's Andrea.
-What?

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Ben: Stab wound to the abdomen,
possibly into the chest.

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Slightly hypotensive and tachycardic

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after one liter of NS. What happened?

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He was following a sex trafficker,

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and she attacked him.

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They got her. I-I think I'm okay.

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Owen: DeLuca, try not to talk.
It's Dr. Hunt.

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You're at Grey-Sloan.
Let's get him to trauma one.

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Let's move. Schmitt, let's go.

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-Carina: Owen.
-Yeah?

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Please save him. Please.

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Okay.

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[ Groans ]

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Owen: There's fluid in his abdomen
and around his heart.

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-Ben: How you feeling, DeLuca?
-Like I got stabbed.

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Chest films are up.

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-[ Groans ]
-Okay, let me see.

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[ Monitor beeps ]

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DeLuca, you have a hemothorax.

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I'm gonna have to place
a chest tube, okay?

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-Great.
-Schmitt, hang another unit.

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[ Groaning ]

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[ Grunting ]

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Here it comes. Ready?

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[ Gasping, groaning ]

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Ben: BP's still dropping.

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Okay, let's call the OR.
Tell them we're on our way up, okay?

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Hey, I want to go with him.

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DeLuca: Carina, no.

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Andrea, I want to come with you.

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Carina, he's right. Please.

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Okay, ready? We good?

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Oh, God.

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Okay, good. Let's go. Move.

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[ Groaning ]

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[ Sobs ]

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Uh, Dr. Webber?

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Um...

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There's a...

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a huge trauma that just
came in, and, um...

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-Well, did Hunt ask for help?
-No. Uh...

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Did he ask you to come to stare at me?

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It's, uh --

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It's DeLuca.

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He's been stabbed, and, um, I saw him,

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and I-I wish I hadn't,

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but, um, I did,
and I thought you should know.

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[ Seagulls crying ]

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Hey!

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Hey yourself.

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[ Sighs ]

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Impressive.

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Your turn.

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Let's see what you got.

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-Okay.
-[ Chuckles ]

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There you go.

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Just gotta put a little bit
more muscle into it.

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Yeah. [ Chuckles ]

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You know, this is
the first time in my life

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I can ever remember
not feeling competitive.

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Is this your life?

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What?

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Well, you said
the first time in your life,

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but I don't know.

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I'm not so sure.

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Are we alive?

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I think so.

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[ Inhales deeply ]

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You look good.

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The beach suits you.

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You too.

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[ Sighs ] I made Zola a grilled cheese.

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She's watching a movie with the other two.

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[ Sighs ]

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Did you actually say anything?

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[ Sighs ] Ellis interrupted us
before we got too far.

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Which feels like divine intervention

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because I have no idea what I would say.

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I mean, I can't lie because...lying.

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And Zola's so smart she'd just
see right through it.

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So you're just gonna keep
making grilled cheeses?

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Are you just gonna walk for two hours

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every time Scout needs to sleep?

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You want to see what happens when I stop?

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I'm sorry. I need Maggie.

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Maggie is thoughtful and levelheaded,

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and I know I have to tell Zola the truth,

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but I need help knowing how
to tell her the truth.

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She's not picking up.
I have to go get her.

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W-What? No, you haven't slept.

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You can't stand still. You're not driving.

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You haven't slept either.

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Okay, deep breaths.

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[ Inhales deeply ]

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We'll figure this out.

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Um, I-I'll just call somebody
that can find Maggie.

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Who?

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I don't know.

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[ Sighs ]

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[ Scout crying ]

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Ooh.

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[ Intercom chatter ]

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Hey, where's Carina?

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Uh, they headed up to the chapel.

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Okay, can you tell her
that DeLuca is stable

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and he's on his way to the OR?

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Yeah. Thanks.

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Who's that?

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Uh, it's the woman DeLuca was following.

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Detectives need her photo.

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Why? You -- You know her?

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She was here last night,
and I treated her.

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For what?

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She said she was mugged. Oh, my God.

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-Schmitt, hey, hey.
-Oh, my God. Is this my fault?

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No, none of this is your fault.

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[ Indistinct conversations ]

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Hi.

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What, no gifts?

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At the very least, some crosswords,

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peanut butter cookies, contraband porn?

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Kidding.

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I'd trade all that for good conversation.

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Okay, if this is about the nurses,

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they need to calm down.

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We both have COVID. It was no biggie.

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What are you talking about?

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I went to see Grey.

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I needed to see some living scenery.

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You would have loved it --
the two of us under blankets,

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it was like "On COVID Pond."

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It's not funny.

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It's a little funny.

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We intubated Meredith, Tom.

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[ Scoffs ]

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You know, if you ever
find yourself thinking about

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cheering up kids
in the cancer ward, don't.

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Sorry. I'm sorry. I-I just... [ Sighs ]

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I just needed to be in a room with someone

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who doesn't hate me.

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[ Scoffs ]

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Well, no one can
clear a remarkably low bar

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like Tom Koracick.

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Have a seat.

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[ Sighs ]

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I don't hate you, Altman.

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But it would help me to hear you admit

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that you never loved me.

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You don't have to say it now, but...

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You're tired. We're both sc-scared.

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But it would help me
to hear it sometime soon.

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-Dr. Wilson.
-Yeah?

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I've maxed out Ms. Ashton on pressors,

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but her MAPS keep dropping.

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Her repeat CT shows no fluid,
which means that

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what's left of her liver is failing.

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Um, start her on liver dialysis

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and keep me posted if she gets any worse.

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Luna Ashton's mom is your patient, right?

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Why?

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Luna has a bronchogenic cyst.

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I'd like to get her into the OR

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before it causes respiratory distress.

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Thought you might like to
join me to tell her mom.

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No.

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Okay, suit yourself.

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No, I just -- I don't want you
to tell her either.

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I don't want anyone to tell her.

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I suppose we could sneak Luna in

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and say it was emergent,
that Val was sleeping.

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We didn't have time to ask her.

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-Really?
-No. What's wrong with you?

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She just -- She needs some really

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not-terrible news right now.

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We all do.

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[ Sighs ]

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You're gonna do an ex-lap
and a sternotomy?

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Is that necessary?

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His FAST exam indicates cardiac injury.

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Well, then I'll scrub in.

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Respectfully, Richard,
you haven't operated in months.

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I'm not sure that this is
the way to jump back in.

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Well, respectfully, you need the help,

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and I'm not about to wake up Bailey

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when she's sleeping for the first time
since her mother died.

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I'm not asking you to. Get Altman.

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Altman's coming off
a 20-hour shift which ended

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in putting Meredith Grey on a vent.

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She's in no condition to operate.

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Look, DeLuca saved my life.

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It's only right that I do the same.

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When Teddy and I were in Iraq,
this was our job.

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To sew up our own people
when they were broken.

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We knew the names of
their kids, their dogs,

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what compelled them
to serve their country.

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Day after day, they'd go
out there, they'd take shrapnel,

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and we would take it out,
we'd sew them back up,

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and then we'd send them out
there and do it all over again.

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There was no sleep, no rest,

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no time to let the gravity
of it all sink in.

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That was the job, Richard.
Not many people can do it.

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Altman can. So, please, get me Altman.

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Hey, I got your page,
but DeLuca doesn't need ortho.

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I needed ortho.

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I saw the woman who did this to DeLuca.

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She was here last night.

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She said that she was mugged,
but I think that she was lying.

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I mean, I-I know she was lying.

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And she was asking about the kidnappers,

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but I didn't put the pieces together.

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And I don't know if I could have,

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but I still feel like I should have.

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Which is crazy, right?

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I-I-I just need to focus
on DeLuca's surgery.

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No, you can't scrub in.

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This was a pep-talk page.

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Okay, then, switch services.
You can do it. Come on.

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I want to help.

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Then make sure DeLuca gets
a surgeon that's not a wreck.

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Said with love, in case you
couldn't tell behind the mask.

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[ Sighs ]

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It's a small piece of abnormal lung growth

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that I need to remove
so she can breathe normally.

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And then it'll be my turn
for another surgery.

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And then hers.

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And then maybe I'll go twice
so you keep me guessing.

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Jo: I know it sounds scary,
but Dr. Hayes has done

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this surgery countless times.

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Has anyone even held her
since she was born?

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Well, she has to stay in the incubator

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for her own safety, I'm afraid.

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That's not right.

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She is helpless, and she is scared.

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Babies aren't supposed to live
in a plastic container.

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[ Val crying ]

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You're right, Val. You're right.

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You need to see her.
It's not right that you haven't.

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Wilson.

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I'll bring her to you before
she goes into surgery.

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Thank you.

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[ Voice breaking ] Thank you so much.

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Wilson.

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[ Sobbing ]

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Teddy: Webber paged.

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Yeah, for me. DeLuca got stabbed.

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He has a massive hemothorax
and blood in the pericardium.

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-Teddy: Sternotomy tray?
-Owen: And Balfour.

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We treated a kid in Jordan
who had shrapnel

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in the same area.

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Right. Texas Hold 'Em guy.

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And we sent him home in one piece.

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Alright, let's do it again.

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Yep.

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[ Josh Ronen's "Wake Me Up" plays ]

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Ready?

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Okay, Schmitt, let's call the blood bank,

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make sure there's more coming,
and you can scrub in.

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Khan, not Schmitt.

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Dr. Schmitt said he needed
to switch services.

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I assume because of my time in
Pakistan as a vascular surgeon.

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Excellent call, Schmitt.

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Alright, you'll assist me
with the sternotomy

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while Dr. Hunt explores the abdomen.

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We're gonna go fast.

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Understood.

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Okay, then.

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Scalpel.

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♪ I hear the thunder calling me ♪

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♪ I see the skies ♪

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♪ They gently weep ♪

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Warren got called to
a four-alarm downtown.

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Do you have to go?

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Carina, I'm not going anywhere.

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Hey, hey.

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♪ I hope when I close my eyes ♪

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♪ That beauty will find me ♪

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Before she died, Mama called us
two halves of one whole.

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♪ Will there be someone... ♪

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It loses something in translation.

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My dad, he thought
we were completely different,

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but my mom knew that we couldn't
breathe without the other.

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One year, when Dad was
too manic to talk sense to,

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he, um, spent all our Christmas money

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on stuff he didn't need, but Mom saved up,

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and she surprised us with one gift.

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A pair of roller skates.

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Andrea tried to give them to me,

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but I-I put on the left
and he put on the right,

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and we held the other
two legs up like flamingos

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and skated around the house.

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♪ That beauty will find me ♪

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Two parts, one whole.

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♪ I've seen fire and ashes fall ♪

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♪ Will there be someone to save my soul? ♪

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Teddy: Looks like the knife went
through the pericardium

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and just nicked the ventricle.

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You can repair the ventricle
with 3-0 prolene.

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Altman?

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Yeah, he's right. I'm on it.

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-Okay, get in there.
-Right, 3-0 large taper needle.

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Damn it. Looks like it's gone through

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his spleen, his stomach,
and his diaphragm.

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We're gonna have to remove his spleen

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and check for intestinal injuries.

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Dr. Knox, how many units
has he received so far?

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Six units of blood, six of FFP.

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Alright, run a TEG to check
for his clotting factors.

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[ Sighs ]

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You good?

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Yep.

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Bovie.

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♪ Pulls me in and tears me up ♪

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Richard: Please don't take this boy.

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♪ I hope when I close my eyes ♪

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♪ That beauty will find me ♪

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Please don't take this boy.

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[ Moans, chuckles ]

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[ Exhales slowly ]

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Mm.

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Mm.

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[ Both laugh ]

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Okay.

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Comedy or drama?

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[ Both sigh ]

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C-SPAN?

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[ Laughs ]

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Listen, there's something
really soothing about

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the whole scrolling at the bottom.

18:58.709 --> 19:00.625
It's like this endless
potential of information.

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You're gonna make me read that to you

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when we're 80, aren't you?

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I mean -- I didn't mean...

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Yeah, you did.

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You did mean it.

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[ Both chuckle ]

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Okay.

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[ Knock on door ]

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Did you order more champagne?

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No.

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Hold on. I'll get rid of them.

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[ Knock on door ]

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We're coming.

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[ Knocking continues ]

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Yeah, we're coming.

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[ Knocking continues ]

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Hey, uh, can I help you?

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Oh, sorry. Wrong -- Wrong room.

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Jackson?

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Oh, um, this is --
Okay, it's the right room.

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Why are you here?

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Link called me. You need to come home.

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How are we, Knox?

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Just hung another two units.

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Blood pressure's starting to come up.

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-Teddy: Just a few more sutures.
-Nice repair.

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I don't see any leak.

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Owen: I'm just gonna run
this bowel one more time,

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and then I am good to go down here.

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Alright, I just need to place the drain,

20:06.125 --> 20:09.041
and then we are good
to start the wire closure.

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Great work, everyone.

20:18.917 --> 20:20.125
When was everyone tested?

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-Last night.
-Yesterday.

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-This morning.
-Alright, come on in.

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Amelia's in her room, and, uh,
please keep it down.

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This guy just went to sleep.

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[ Sighs ]

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Anybody want a beer?

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-I'm good.
-It's pretty early.

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Okay, I'll get some.

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[ Sighs ]

20:48.875 --> 20:50.667
The wound was more severe
than we'd hoped,

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but he's pulled through.

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Oh, my God.

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He's alive. Your brother's alive.

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Oh, my God!

20:55.959 --> 20:58.375
Oh, it hurts not to hug you right now.

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Hey, look at them while you hug me.

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[ Laughs ]

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Thank you.

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Thank you for getting me to help.

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Yeah, don't read into it.

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I owed it to DeLuca.

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And if there was someone else
I could've called, I would've.

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Hayes: I said no and I meant it.

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I do not take preemies on joyrides.

21:24.959 --> 21:27.208
You're already moving her.
This is just adding a stop.

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Plus, I told Val we would make it happen.

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Without consulting me first.

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It's out of the question.

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Get out of my way, Wilson.

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Were you nice before your wife died?

21:35.875 --> 21:36.834
Excuse me?

21:36.917 --> 21:38.125
I'm just curious.

21:38.208 --> 21:39.917
You know, I lost the love of my life.

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He didn't die, but he might as well have,

21:42.083 --> 21:44.583
and I was sad and angry and confused,

21:44.667 --> 21:46.250
but I still cared about other people.

21:46.333 --> 21:47.625
In fact, I think it made me care more.

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I'm looking out for my patient.

21:49.083 --> 21:50.458
You know this won't jeopardize Luna.

21:50.542 --> 21:51.959
Grey was laughing and joking,

21:52.041 --> 21:53.709
and a few hours later she's on a vent.

21:53.792 --> 21:55.917
This is not the time to play
fast and loose with rules

21:56.000 --> 21:57.333
that keep our patients safe.

21:57.417 --> 21:59.500
If it was Meredith Grey
asking to see her child,

21:59.583 --> 22:00.625
would you say the same thing?

22:04.250 --> 22:06.208
Five minutes, not a second longer.

22:14.500 --> 22:15.834
Ah. Ah.

22:18.208 --> 22:21.500
ABG's the same as this morning,

22:22.000 --> 22:24.250
but no fever and labs are decent.

22:25.125 --> 22:26.333
DeLuca's awake.

22:27.041 --> 22:28.834
-Does Bailey know?
-She's still sleeping,

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but, uh, I'll tell her in a bit.

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That was a great save, Altman.

22:33.542 --> 22:34.667
Thank you.

22:35.458 --> 22:37.750
I'm gonna go check on my other patients.

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♪ I've been here all day ♪

22:43.041 --> 22:45.083
♪ It's too hot to sleep ♪

22:46.500 --> 22:48.375
♪ Time is running away ♪

22:48.458 --> 22:50.125
I don't regret it.

22:50.208 --> 22:51.417
How did you know I was wondering that?

22:51.667 --> 22:52.917
I don't know.

22:53.000 --> 22:54.375
I just did.

22:55.500 --> 22:56.583
I don't regret it.

22:57.166 --> 22:58.583
You know, we walk through our lives

22:58.667 --> 22:59.792
and we witness atrocities.

22:59.875 --> 23:01.917
See homeless people
on the street asking for help

23:02.000 --> 23:03.583
and we just walk right past them.

23:04.375 --> 23:06.875
See people that can't pay
for medicine for their children,

23:06.959 --> 23:08.250
see people beating their kids,

23:08.333 --> 23:09.834
and we just say, "Well,
it's none of our business."

23:10.000 --> 23:11.792
See atrocities on the news every day.

23:12.583 --> 23:14.625
Crimes and cruelties committed
by our government,

23:14.709 --> 23:17.375
paid for, nonetheless,
by our own tax dollars.

23:19.250 --> 23:21.166
And what do we do? We just
change the channel, right?

23:21.250 --> 23:23.417
We just -- We tune it out.

23:23.625 --> 23:26.041
Then we go back to work and we
pretend like what we just saw,

23:26.125 --> 23:30.083
or that article we just read was
somehow normal or acceptable,

23:30.166 --> 23:31.667
and the people who take to the streets

23:31.750 --> 23:33.250
screaming out for change,

23:33.875 --> 23:35.375
they're written off as crazy,

23:35.458 --> 23:37.041
they're written off as extreme.

23:37.291 --> 23:38.542
Doesn't make any sense.

23:39.333 --> 23:40.583
Makes no sense.

23:41.000 --> 23:42.542
But what you did, Meredith,

23:42.625 --> 23:44.583
risking your medical license
to save that little girl--

23:44.667 --> 23:45.959
that made sense.

23:46.041 --> 23:47.458
And what I did-- following that woman,

23:47.542 --> 23:49.000
not letting up, not letting her get away,

23:49.083 --> 23:51.625
not letting her harm
another single human being.

23:52.041 --> 23:54.208
Yeah, it was dangerous, but it made sense.

23:55.500 --> 23:57.041
It's the only thing that made sense.

23:59.250 --> 24:01.000
So I don't regret it.

24:03.125 --> 24:06.000
♪ But I'm standing still ♪

24:06.208 --> 24:07.667
Owen: He suffered a lot of bleeding,

24:07.750 --> 24:09.083
but his vitals are stable.

24:09.166 --> 24:10.417
Oh, Andrea.

24:10.500 --> 24:13.083
♪ Is so vacant and numb ♪

24:13.166 --> 24:14.667
Hey, hey.

24:14.750 --> 24:16.417
♪ I can't even remember what it was ♪

24:16.500 --> 24:17.959
Hey.

24:18.041 --> 24:20.458
Easy, easy, don't try to talk.

24:21.667 --> 24:23.250
You did it. It's over.

24:23.333 --> 24:24.500
They arrested the woman,

24:24.583 --> 24:26.000
they arrested the man who stabbed you.

24:26.083 --> 24:28.083
You saved so many children, Andrea.

24:28.291 --> 24:31.417
[ Speaking Italian ]

24:32.542 --> 24:34.625
[ in English ] Now,
blink once for morphine

24:34.709 --> 24:37.125
and twice for "I'm a dummy
who will never ignore

24:37.208 --> 24:38.792
his sister ever again."

24:38.875 --> 24:40.291
♪ Is more than I can bear ♪

24:40.375 --> 24:41.542
[ Chuckles ]

24:41.625 --> 24:44.166
[ Speaks Italian ]

24:44.250 --> 24:46.583
♪ It's not dark yet ♪

24:47.875 --> 24:49.875
♪ But it's getting there ♪

24:55.625 --> 24:56.875
[ Cellphone keyboard clacking ]

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[ in English ] What was the surgery?
I want details.

25:04.625 --> 25:07.583
It was a trauma. It went well.

25:07.667 --> 25:10.417
Your oxygen saturation's gone up.

25:10.834 --> 25:12.417
That's encouraging.

25:19.917 --> 25:21.166
I did love you,

25:21.250 --> 25:23.125
even though I tried so hard
not to love you

25:23.208 --> 25:24.959
because I also loved Owen.

25:25.041 --> 25:26.834
I think I thought
that I could love you both,

25:26.917 --> 25:29.000
but instead, I just--
I tore it all to the ground

25:29.083 --> 25:30.959
and took you both with me.

25:31.500 --> 25:33.542
[ Chuckling ] Wow.

25:34.792 --> 25:37.291
I asked you for one thing, Altman.

25:37.458 --> 25:39.375
You asked me for the truth.

25:39.458 --> 25:40.959
No, no. I didn't ask you for that

25:41.041 --> 25:42.792
because the truth is relative.

25:42.875 --> 25:45.041
You got yourself convinced
that you loved us both,

25:45.125 --> 25:47.458
but empirical evidence
would suggest otherwise.

25:47.542 --> 25:48.583
Empirical? I--

25:48.667 --> 25:49.792
He doesn't want you.

25:54.041 --> 25:55.458
You're right, you dragged us
both to the ground,

25:55.542 --> 25:56.834
but he doesn't want anything
to do with you

25:56.917 --> 25:58.291
and I'm still here sitting in the dust.

25:58.375 --> 26:01.750
If you loved me, Teddy, we'd be together

26:01.834 --> 26:05.667
instead of... together in our misery.

26:07.041 --> 26:08.709
Empirical evidence.

26:10.750 --> 26:14.125
I asked you to admit you never
loved me because...

26:17.125 --> 26:18.166
I need it.

26:19.834 --> 26:23.542
If I survive this thing...

26:26.542 --> 26:29.500
...I want to get up off the ground
where you dropped me, so...

26:32.417 --> 26:33.542
...I need it.

26:45.083 --> 26:46.709
I never loved you, Tom.

26:48.333 --> 26:49.667
[ Scoffs ]

26:53.083 --> 26:54.500
Thank you.

26:59.333 --> 27:00.500
Jackson: You want to sit, or...

27:00.583 --> 27:02.417
Oh, the second I stop,

27:02.500 --> 27:04.083
Scout starts wailing
like a human ambulance.

27:04.166 --> 27:05.417
As you were.

27:05.500 --> 27:07.208
And Scout needs me to keep moving.

27:07.291 --> 27:11.333
Zola, Bailey, Ellis--
they need us to keep on moving,

27:11.417 --> 27:12.875
playing songs and eating.

27:12.959 --> 27:14.291
They eat so much.

27:14.375 --> 27:16.083
So I just keep going to the grocery store

27:16.166 --> 27:18.375
and buying food
that Amelia keeps pretending

27:18.458 --> 27:19.917
she knows how to cook,

27:20.250 --> 27:22.041
and what if Meredith doesn't survive this,

27:22.125 --> 27:23.709
you know what it's gonna do to my life?

27:24.917 --> 27:26.959
Yeah, you just said that out loud.

27:27.041 --> 27:28.041
Don't worry about it, we're all scared.

27:28.125 --> 27:29.417
No one's judging you.

27:29.500 --> 27:30.667
Winston: I'm a little bit judging,

27:30.750 --> 27:32.792
but that's 'cause I've only
known you seven minutes.

27:33.792 --> 27:36.625
I'm on my knees every night
praying that she survives this,

27:36.709 --> 27:38.834
and I'm not an
on-my-knees-praying kind of guy.

27:38.917 --> 27:40.625
-I get it.
-I'm not praying for myself.

27:40.709 --> 27:42.458
You're human, Link.
Give yourself a break, alright?

27:42.542 --> 27:44.125
You're exhausted.

27:44.208 --> 27:46.542
Meredith is-- she's family to me.

27:46.625 --> 27:48.875
I mean, Meredith is family.

27:49.125 --> 27:53.125
I can think of a million reasons
I don't want her to... die.

27:53.208 --> 27:55.041
Some of them are about her,
some are about me,

27:55.125 --> 27:56.500
some are about the world at large.

27:56.583 --> 27:58.375
Point is, you're allowed
to have your reasons.

27:58.458 --> 28:00.083
They don't all have to be selfless.

28:00.166 --> 28:01.166
I just...

28:02.959 --> 28:04.917
I mean, those kids already lost their dad.

28:05.333 --> 28:07.875
I don't want them to have
to grow up without a mom, too.

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And all we can do is just --

28:11.125 --> 28:12.250
Keep moving.

28:12.333 --> 28:13.375
Yeah.

28:13.458 --> 28:14.959
I mean, literally keep moving,

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'cause human ambulance.

28:16.500 --> 28:18.000
[ Chuckling ] Yeah.

28:18.083 --> 28:19.542
You know, you're pretty good at this.

28:19.625 --> 28:21.208
The whole "keep somebody calm

28:21.291 --> 28:23.291
you've only known seven minutes" thing.

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Well, to be fair, it's been more
like eight minutes now.

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It's true.

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And, Jackson, thank you
for getting Maggie over here.

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I-I-I'm sorry if that was awkward.

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-You were the only one picking up.
-No, it's fine.

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Why would it be awkward?

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Uh, just...

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Yeah.

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Okay, you're, uh --
you're her ex, aren't you?

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Mm. Another round?

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Yeah.

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[ Sighs ]

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I was Zola and Bailey and Ellis.

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I was the kid who lost a parent

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and the world turned upside down.

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And I don't know...

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if I hadn't been there to see
my dad dead on the ground,

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how long they would've waited to tell me.

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Nobody talked about it.

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I didn't expect answers, but...

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there wasn't room for questions.

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Just... silence.

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Meredith told the kids about Derek.

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We can do this for her.

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She deserves us

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stepping up.

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And the kids do, too.

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Can we just stay here a little longer?

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Your mom is gonna freak out
when she sees you.

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Yes, she is.

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Woman on PA: Code blue, code blue.

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Code blue.

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Val's coding! Hurry!

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No.

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No, no, no.

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Hey.

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Comfortable?

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Well, your sister just went to get coffee,

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but she left strict instructions.

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No car chases, okay?

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[ Chuckles ]

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[ Clears throat ] Okay.

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[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]

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He's tachycardic and his CVP's going up.

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Woman on PA: Code blue, code blue.

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Must be cardiac tamponade.

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We're gonna have
to open him back up again.

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Let's get a scalpel and order more blood.

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Woman on PA: Code blue, code blue.

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DeLuca? DeLuca, we're gonna have
to open you back up, okay?

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But I am with you, okay?

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I got you, okay?

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Come on. Staple remover.

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Thank you.

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[ Monitor continues to beep rapidly ]

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Come on, come on, come on, come on.

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[ Rapid beeping continues ]

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Okay, wire cutters.

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Okay.

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Good, let's go.

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One, two, three.

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[ Grunts ]

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Somebody page Altman and have
her meet me in the OR!

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Owen: [ Muffled ] Call for more blood.

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Start the massive transfusion protocol.

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♪ Black water fills the room
all around me ♪

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Almost there, DeLuca, okay?

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Let's go, let's go!

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Jo: Charge to 150. Clear.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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-[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]
-Come on, Val!

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You're so close to seeing your baby girl.

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Charged to 200.

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Clear.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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♪ My fingers turning red ♪

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What happened?

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He went into DIC. He's bleeding out.

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-Push TXA --
-Dr. Knox: I already have.

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Push more.

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Teddy: I'm gonna need
a ton of lap pads.

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Let me in.

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♪ I can feel it slowly caving in ♪

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♪ I can feel it ♪

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♪ I can feel it ♪

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[ Monitor beeping ]

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He's crashing.

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Starting cardiac massage.

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♪ I can feel it ♪

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Charge to 270.

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I think it's too late.

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Clear.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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[ Sighs ]

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♪ I can barely feel my heart beat ♪

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So, this morning they put
your mom on a ventilator.

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That's the machine that breathes for her.

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Yeah.

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When will they take her off of it?

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Different people come off of it
at different times.

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My dad never did.

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Do you think my mom will?

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We hope so.

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But we don't know.

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We just --

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We don't know.

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We shouldn't tell Bailey and Ellis.

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Not unless we need to.

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They're just too young to understand.

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Okay. We'll wait.

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[ Slow music playing ]

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[ Door opens ]

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Hayes: No respiratory distress,

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chest tube's barely putting out anything.

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Thank you.

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She's a trouper.

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She's gonna need to be.

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No.

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I ran the code for an hour.

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You know...

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[ Clears throat ]

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I was nicer...

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before Abigail died.

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I was a great deal many things,
most of them better.

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I'm sorry, I never should've--

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Oh, it was kind
what you wanted to do, it was.

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I'm so sorry.

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Me too.

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[ Music playing ]

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[ Door opens ]

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[ Door opens ]

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[ Door closes ]

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Val is dead.

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I heard.

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I'm sorry.

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DeLuca was okay and now he might not be.

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I spent so many years
pretending to be someone else.

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So many years afraid
of what my mother thought,

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neighbors thought, what I thought.

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I wasted so much time.

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And now we're all just working
and surviving and waiting.

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[ Chuckles ]

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For what?

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Is this all just gonna end one day?

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Like, one day we're all gonna get a memo

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that says, "COVID's over.
Everyone back to normal"?

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I think I wasted all the time
I was supposed to be happy.

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[ Crying ]

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Bailey: Mm.

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How long have I been asleep?

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Richard: Uh, most of the day.

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[ Grunts ]

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Bailey, something's happened.

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No, it's -- it's not Meredith.

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It's DeLuca.

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What?

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Richard, what?

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[ Monitor beeping rapidly ]

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Okay, give me 1 of epi.

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[ Teddy speaking indistinctly ]

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Meredith: The tide is coming in!

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I know.

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It's gonna wash it away.

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I know, I'm trying to beat it.

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You're trying to beat the tide?

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Yeah.

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I had more to do.

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I had plans.

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Wanted to do another tower over here

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and a-- a-- a bridge with a moat.

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Tide's coming in too fast.

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Come on. It's too fast.

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I had plans.

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[ Groans ] Come on.

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You can't build a sand castle
without a moat.

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I don't know what happens
from here, Meredith.

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Meredith: Me either.

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DeLuca: But no matter what happens,

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I want you to know that I never
felt seen the way you saw me.

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I never felt inspired
the way you inspired me.

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You made me want to be
not just my best self,

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but better.

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And yeah, I felt small
around you sometimes.

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I felt insecure.

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I wanted something from you that
I needed to give to myself.

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But here, now, on this beach with you,

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I...I get it.

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I don't just get it, I feel it.

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I get who I am.

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I know my own soul, my strength.

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Do you want to take a walk?

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We can watch the sunset from the dock.

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In a minute.

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I just want to feel this first.

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I just want to hold onto this
a little longer.

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Meredith: I'm a little bit of an exception

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when it comes to having a happy place.

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Because the hospital's always been mine.

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Internal paddles.

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-Come on, come on.
-Owen: Let's go, let's go.

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♪ And there could be a place ♪

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Charge to 20.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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Clear.

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Again.

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Clear.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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Charge to 30.

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-Clear.
-[ Paddles whine ]

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Come on.

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-Again.
-Again.

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Clear.

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[ Paddles whine ]

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♪ Always so far ♪

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Teddy: Come on.

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♪ Always so near ♪

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Meredith: Maybe it's because
it's where I grew up.

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♪ Who cast the spell ♪

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♪ Of our fair weather ♪

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Woman: Andrea!

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♪ The sweet hellos ♪

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♪ The fair farewells ♪

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Mom?

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[ Chuckling ] Mom?

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Andrea!

39:24.208 --> 39:25.792
Meredith: I'll miss you.

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If I go back and you don't,

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I'll miss you.

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It'll be okay, Meredith.

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It will. It'll be okay.

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Woman: Andrea!

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I have to go.

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Okay.

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[ Speaks Italian ]

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Mama!

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♪ Where the wind may blow ♪

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[ Speaks Italian ]

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♪ I've never been a man ♪

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♪ For another's shadows ♪

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-Oh!
-[ Chuckles ]

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♪ But sometimes I ♪

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♪ Drive by the place you live ♪

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-♪ Just hoping I ♪
-[ Laughter ]

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♪ Might catch you in the windows ♪

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[ Suction gurgling ]

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♪ Well, if you've known love ♪

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Reza: His heart won't restart.

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He's been down for 40 minutes.

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♪ The sun and then the bloody rain ♪

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♪ And though there's nothing ♪

40:39.709 --> 40:41.834
♪ Nothing to forgive ♪

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♪ If we could find the grace ♪

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♪ There could be a place ♪

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♪ There could be a place ♪

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[ Flatline ]

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Isn't somebody going to call it?

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[ Flatlining continues ]

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[ Tools clang ]

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Time of death -- 22:50.

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♪ Ohh ♪

41:39.625 --> 41:44.125
♪ Ohh ♪

41:44.208 --> 41:46.750
♪ Another life ♪

41:46.834 --> 41:48.166
Meredith: But if you're not like me...

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♪ Another time ♪

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♪ Could there be a place ♪

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♪ For you and I? ♪

41:59.166 --> 42:01.291
♪ Abandon reason ♪

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♪ Adopt the rhyme ♪

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♪ And there could be a place ♪

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...you're going to want somewhere else.

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♪ For us to find ♪

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♪ There could be a place ♪

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[ Closing theme music playing ]