WEBVTT 00:06.542 --> 00:09.166 [Meredith] During our ER rotation in med school, 00:09.500 --> 00:11.917 my roommate fell in love with emergency medicine. 00:12.041 --> 00:13.000 [sighing] 00:13.083 --> 00:14.208 [Owen] Avery. 00:14.291 --> 00:17.458 Care to tell me why you've pulled all of my residents from the ER? 00:17.542 --> 00:20.291 Yeah, I just wanted to speed up our free COVID testing, 00:20.375 --> 00:22.834 but I mean, hey, if you want, I guess we could... 00:22.917 --> 00:25.125 we could start turning them away. 00:25.208 --> 00:27.458 It's a great program. 00:27.542 --> 00:28.875 Forget I asked. Okay? 00:29.333 --> 00:31.041 [Meredith] She loved being on the frontline. 00:31.166 --> 00:33.875 She felt that's where she had the most impact. 00:33.959 --> 00:37.959 But I knew three days in emergency medicine was not for me. 00:38.083 --> 00:40.125 Most treatments were meant to just tie patients over 00:40.208 --> 00:43.709 until they could see their own physician, a specialist or a surgeon. 00:43.792 --> 00:46.875 -[Teddy] And how is her base deficit? -The same as I told you five minutes ago. 00:46.959 --> 00:49.166 -And her inflammatory markers? -Altman. 00:49.250 --> 00:51.500 We would not be here without your tireless effort. 00:51.583 --> 00:53.583 But you still have two days off. 00:53.667 --> 00:56.166 Enjoy them, because you're gonna miss them when you're back. 00:56.250 --> 00:59.417 -Okay. Thanks. One more thing. -Goodbye, Altman. 01:00.417 --> 01:02.709 [Meredith] And I thought what's the point of starting something 01:02.792 --> 01:03.959 you won't get to finish. 01:04.041 --> 01:08.375 ...closer, I saw it didn't have a ball in its mouth, it had an avocado. 01:08.458 --> 01:11.250 No idea where he got it from. [sighs] 01:11.333 --> 01:12.667 You're gonna love dogs. 01:12.750 --> 01:15.875 You're gonna love everything about the outside. 01:15.959 --> 01:18.250 Trees. Grass. Rainbows. 01:18.333 --> 01:20.667 -Isn't that right, Luna? -Wait! Wait, wait. 01:20.750 --> 01:22.166 -Say her name again. -Why? 01:22.250 --> 01:24.166 Because I think she understood it! Her face changed. 01:24.250 --> 01:27.709 -Luna. Luna! -Yeah. Luna. 01:27.792 --> 01:30.125 For what it's worth, she doesn't respond when I say her name either. 01:30.208 --> 01:32.375 Yes, she does. She's a genius. 01:32.458 --> 01:34.125 All right if I complete my rounds now? 01:34.208 --> 01:36.166 Or is she such a genius that she can look after herself? 01:36.250 --> 01:37.917 [both] No. Go ahead. 01:39.000 --> 01:42.959 Wilson, Chief. While I think these visits do Luna the world of good, 01:43.041 --> 01:46.166 I have about 15 other patients and their very worried parents waiting for me. 01:46.250 --> 01:47.125 So if you don't mind... 01:47.208 --> 01:48.709 -[Bailey] No, no, no. -Mmm-hmm. 01:49.709 --> 01:50.625 Thank you. 01:57.917 --> 01:59.875 No. Go back where you came-- 01:59.959 --> 02:01.917 I already have all the clothes in the house. 02:02.000 --> 02:05.208 Ellis thought her laundry went under her bed, not in the hamper. 02:05.291 --> 02:06.750 [Scout crying] 02:08.458 --> 02:12.417 -He just ate. -I ate a lot when I was a kid. Still do. 02:13.041 --> 02:16.125 -[sighs] Okay. Baby or laundry? -Neither. 02:16.208 --> 02:18.667 I just want everything to stop. The whole planet. 02:18.750 --> 02:21.041 It could just stop turning and we could all just melt. 02:21.125 --> 02:24.458 Is it for us? Is it for us? Is it for us? 02:24.542 --> 02:28.291 -Is what for us, buddy? -The camping truck! The camping truck! 02:28.375 --> 02:29.291 [crying continues] 02:29.375 --> 02:31.500 ♪ Over you ♪ 02:31.834 --> 02:34.417 ♪ Darling, over you ♪ 02:36.083 --> 02:38.959 -Dad? -Hey, kiddos! 02:39.125 --> 02:40.417 [laughing] 02:41.166 --> 02:45.041 -Surprise! -Whoa, whoa, whoa! COVID! And stranger! 02:45.125 --> 02:48.291 We've talked on the computer screen lots of times. We're old friends. 02:48.375 --> 02:49.959 -Where are your masks? -Where's my grandson? 02:50.041 --> 02:51.041 That's what I want to know. 02:52.375 --> 02:54.625 Don't worry, honey, we've been totally safe. 02:54.709 --> 02:57.792 Two-week quarantine from Colorado while we took in the scenery. 02:57.875 --> 03:00.417 Your dad packed for everything. We didn't even have to shop. 03:00.500 --> 03:04.083 Haven't spoken face to face with another soul since we left. 03:04.166 --> 03:06.542 -It was so romantic. -[both chuckling] 03:08.875 --> 03:11.083 I guess I'll go get Scout? 03:11.166 --> 03:12.583 -Okay. -I'll do you one better. 03:12.667 --> 03:16.125 We thought we could take all the kids to check out Mount Rainier. 03:16.208 --> 03:18.709 Fun! Can we go, please? 03:18.792 --> 03:22.792 Uh... I'm sorry. You're-- You want to take everyone from here? 03:22.875 --> 03:27.291 Those first few months with a newborn, impossible without help. 03:27.375 --> 03:28.959 Only if it's okay. 03:31.500 --> 03:33.917 -Okay! -Yes! 03:34.583 --> 03:38.125 Have I told you two how much I love you? Because I definitely love you. 03:38.208 --> 03:39.583 And we love you too, honey. 03:39.667 --> 03:41.667 Couldn't have asked for a better daughter-in-law. 03:42.834 --> 03:44.875 She is the mother of my grandson, 03:44.959 --> 03:47.000 and even if you haven't gotten around to proposing, 03:47.083 --> 03:49.709 I'm gonna call her what I want to call her. 03:49.792 --> 03:51.625 I don't get why they're not married either. 03:51.709 --> 03:54.917 [Maureen] Okay. Time to hit the road. I'll go get Scout. 03:55.291 --> 03:57.041 I can't wait to meet my grandson. 04:01.166 --> 04:02.959 [distant siren wailing] 04:04.583 --> 04:07.000 -That's it? -I can go again if you want. 04:07.083 --> 04:09.542 You'll get a text in 30 minutes with the results. 04:09.625 --> 04:11.417 -Thank you. -All right. 04:11.500 --> 04:13.208 I've almost used all my kits. I'm so sorry. 04:13.291 --> 04:16.041 -It's just the-the turn-out's so high. -Relax, Schmitt. 04:16.125 --> 04:17.417 We have more in the van. 04:17.500 --> 04:20.250 If we run low, we can go over to the drive-through site at Station 19. 04:20.333 --> 04:23.458 -They've got extras. -Oh! Wow. That's amazing. 04:23.542 --> 04:24.834 How did we get more kits? 04:24.917 --> 04:27.125 Twenty hours of virtual meetings with the Fox Foundation, 04:27.208 --> 04:28.583 convincing them it's the right thing to do, that's how. 04:28.667 --> 04:31.500 You don't just ask your mom? [chuckles] 04:34.500 --> 04:36.083 -Ready for you, sir. -Thank you. 04:36.166 --> 04:37.792 Go ahead and have a seat. How you doing? 04:37.875 --> 04:40.375 Good. One of our cashiers tested positive at the store. 04:40.458 --> 04:42.583 I feel fine, but, you know, I figured I should make sure. 04:42.667 --> 04:46.166 Good, smart. Okay. Can you take your mask down a little bit for me? 04:48.750 --> 04:51.083 All right. One more. 04:51.166 --> 04:53.625 -Great. All set. -How many days till I know? 04:53.709 --> 04:56.333 Well, it's a rapid test, so about 30 minutes for your results. 04:56.417 --> 04:59.000 Oh, wow, I won't be late for my shift then. Thank you so much. 04:59.083 --> 05:00.667 You're very welcome. Thank you. 05:04.166 --> 05:06.917 I wouldn't be the surgeon I am without you, Meredith. 05:07.000 --> 05:12.083 You taught me to push myself, to innovate, to see what's possible. 05:12.166 --> 05:14.125 And to trust my instinct. 05:14.208 --> 05:18.333 And right now, that's telling me to change to OB. 05:19.375 --> 05:22.125 -Go with God? -Meredith wouldn't say that. 05:22.208 --> 05:24.709 I have literally never known what Dr. Grey is going to say. 05:24.792 --> 05:26.500 Ooh! Why don't you be me and I be her? 05:26.583 --> 05:29.458 How about you be you and her, so I can get back to the testing tent? 05:29.542 --> 05:31.834 She's my mentor. I don't want to disappoint her or Bailey 05:31.917 --> 05:33.750 -or Dr. Webber. This is stressful. -[cell phone beeps] 05:33.834 --> 05:36.458 -So is pissing off Dr. Avery. -Oh, crap. Trauma. 05:36.542 --> 05:39.625 -I gotta go. -I had to go first! 05:42.500 --> 05:45.208 -Arthur Beaton, 14 months. -Hold up, Khan. 05:45.291 --> 05:47.125 Chris, did you want to wait for Hollie? 05:47.208 --> 05:49.208 Or I can set you up with the video-chat on the tablet? 05:49.291 --> 05:51.500 No. Thank you. 05:51.583 --> 05:54.250 It's...not a good time. 05:54.333 --> 05:56.667 She has work, so go ahead. 05:57.083 --> 06:00.500 Arthur Beaton, 14 months, diagnosed with multiple VSDs, 06:00.583 --> 06:02.166 cardiomyopathy and heart failure. 06:02.250 --> 06:06.667 He's currently on day 12 of ECMO, waiting for a transplant, status 1A. 06:06.750 --> 06:09.125 We thought this would only be for a few days. 06:09.208 --> 06:12.291 Do a lot of kids with his condition stay on it this long? 06:12.375 --> 06:15.417 -It's unusual. -It means he's strong. 06:15.500 --> 06:17.542 He's already held his own through several procedures. 06:17.625 --> 06:19.375 None of which have fixed the holes in his heart. 06:21.000 --> 06:24.166 We're hoping he can hang on a little bit longer, 06:24.250 --> 06:26.917 until a donor heart comes through. 06:27.000 --> 06:29.125 I'll be back in a couple hours. Okay? 06:34.291 --> 06:36.000 Chief. Welcome back. 06:36.959 --> 06:39.083 So this the car that got stuck in a truck? 06:39.166 --> 06:41.959 Yeah. Ran right up the loading ramp. They had to cut open the side of the van. 06:42.041 --> 06:44.083 -[sirens approaching] -Newlyweds, I heard. 06:45.291 --> 06:46.667 Hell of a honeymoon. 06:48.917 --> 06:52.083 [Ben] Shayne Riley, 45. Unstable pelvis and lower abdominal pain 06:52.166 --> 06:54.333 after sustaining crush injuries in an MVC. 06:54.417 --> 06:58.125 Initially unresponsive, but now alert and oriented after saline boluses. 06:58.208 --> 07:00.000 Shayne, you are in good hands. 07:00.083 --> 07:02.583 And I'm not just saying that because Dr. Bailey here is my wife. 07:02.667 --> 07:03.959 But you are looking really good, Chief. 07:06.333 --> 07:09.792 [Vic] Karissa Skolaski, 42. Vital signs stable, A and O times three. 07:09.875 --> 07:12.125 Minor lacerations to the face, arms and legs. 07:12.208 --> 07:14.709 -Patient complains of headache. -Let's take her to Trauma One. 07:14.792 --> 07:17.834 -Shayne? Where's my husband? -He's right over there, ma'am. 07:17.917 --> 07:20.834 -He's being taken care of. -Shayne! I'm sorry, babe! 07:20.917 --> 07:23.041 I didn't mean it! Can he hear me? 07:23.125 --> 07:25.458 -He's heavily sedated, ma'am. -I can hear her just fine. 07:25.542 --> 07:28.250 I'm just not talking to her. Ever again. 07:31.625 --> 07:35.875 Improving ground glass opacities. No pleural effusion or pneumothorax. 07:35.959 --> 07:38.625 And no signs of stroke on head CT. 07:38.709 --> 07:40.083 This is great news! 07:42.709 --> 07:43.834 It's not great news? 07:44.375 --> 07:48.875 Great news doesn't matter if she's too weak to stay awake. 08:01.041 --> 08:03.542 Karissa, you can't get up. We're waiting on Neuro to see you. Okay? 08:03.625 --> 08:06.625 I'm fine. But my boyfriend... husband. 08:06.709 --> 08:08.458 He hates needles. He really hates needles. 08:08.542 --> 08:11.291 He's being worked on by excellent doctors. Can you follow my finger? 08:11.417 --> 08:13.959 Can't you put us in the same room? I really need to talk to him. 08:14.041 --> 08:16.417 When we were in the accident, I kinda said a thing and I feel terrible. 08:16.500 --> 08:18.709 You're in luck. They pay me to help people who feel terrible. 08:18.792 --> 08:21.250 -Any loss of consciousness? Dizziness? -I don't think so. 08:21.333 --> 08:24.959 So what? You cheated on him? You stole all his money? You ran over Grandma? 08:25.041 --> 08:27.375 -CT is calling for her. You want to come? -Please and thank yous. 08:27.458 --> 08:30.500 -Squeeze my hands, please. -I told the paramedics to save me first. 08:30.583 --> 08:32.166 Over him. My husband. 08:32.250 --> 08:34.083 Yikes. Maybe you can blame that on a brain bleed. 08:35.333 --> 08:37.834 -Can you please tell him I'm okay? -[Koracick] Let's go. 08:39.125 --> 08:43.750 You know what else she said? That except for her, no one would miss me if I died. 08:43.834 --> 08:46.250 She thinks I'm a loner and no one cares about me. 08:46.333 --> 08:49.834 A lot of people panic on their wedding day. I know I did. 08:49.917 --> 08:51.625 Dr. Hunt knows... 08:53.583 --> 08:55.125 -Does this hurt? -Ow! Yeah. 08:55.208 --> 08:58.250 Don't people normally panic before saying "I do?" 08:58.333 --> 09:00.083 We'd already been married four hours. 09:00.166 --> 09:03.875 I'm not sure. But your scan does show you have an open book pelvic fracture. 09:03.959 --> 09:06.750 We're gonna have to do a CT to make sure there's no other abdominal injuries, 09:06.834 --> 09:08.875 but you will need surgery. Okay? 09:08.959 --> 09:12.834 Shayne, we're taking Karissa to CT, but she's stable and feeling okay. 09:12.917 --> 09:14.959 Let me guess, she asked to go first? 09:15.041 --> 09:19.083 -No, she's very worried about you. -Good. Don't tell her how I am. 09:19.166 --> 09:21.542 -She doesn't get to know anything. -Let's go. 09:23.458 --> 09:26.458 I'm just going to not tell her anything? She's terrified. 09:26.542 --> 09:27.667 You know the rules. 09:30.125 --> 09:31.208 [sighs] 09:32.667 --> 09:36.917 -It's not just me, right? This is weird. -[Amelia] Super weird. 09:37.583 --> 09:40.709 It's like we won the lottery of silence. 09:40.792 --> 09:42.667 Where do we even start? 09:44.125 --> 09:48.583 -By getting naked. -Okay, loving that. 09:51.875 --> 09:56.333 Whoa, Amelia. I don't think you're grasping the extent of our freedom here. 09:56.417 --> 09:58.375 There are no baby monitors, 09:58.458 --> 10:01.208 there are no homework assignments, no one--no one's hungry. 10:01.291 --> 10:04.959 -I'm a little hungry. -Then let's have sex in the kitchen. 10:05.041 --> 10:08.250 We can do whatever we want! You realize that? 10:08.333 --> 10:10.875 We can... we can be loud. 10:10.959 --> 10:12.375 Do you remember being able to be loud? 10:15.542 --> 10:16.375 What's wrong? 10:24.667 --> 10:27.792 Okay. All right. Amelia... 10:28.542 --> 10:29.709 Look at me. 10:30.959 --> 10:33.208 -Oh, my God! No! -No? 10:33.291 --> 10:34.250 Get up, get up! 10:35.208 --> 10:37.875 I thought-- I thought you were crying because my mom and Zola... 10:37.959 --> 10:40.458 [crying] No, I'm not, I'm... I just... 10:40.542 --> 10:42.959 I just really need to be crying right now. 10:48.667 --> 10:50.000 Okay. 10:52.750 --> 10:53.875 [exhales] 10:55.792 --> 10:57.709 Marcel tested positive. He needs to be home isolating. 10:57.792 --> 11:00.166 I told him that, but apparently he lives with his family. 11:00.250 --> 11:04.083 Six people in a two-bedroom apartment, including his grandpa. 11:04.166 --> 11:06.875 He doesn't want to get them sick. Can't we just admit him? 11:06.959 --> 11:09.083 -Get him some care... -This is not a hotel, Schmitt. 11:09.166 --> 11:12.041 He can't afford to stay anywhere else. 11:14.333 --> 11:15.875 Okay. Book him a hotel room. 11:18.166 --> 11:20.291 On you? You're sure? 11:20.375 --> 11:22.000 It's a matter of public health. Okay? 11:22.083 --> 11:26.166 Anybody needs a room, just book them a hotel. No questions. 11:27.083 --> 11:28.083 We got you a hotel. 11:41.875 --> 11:44.583 -Chris? -I had to get out of there for a minute. 11:44.667 --> 11:48.083 I understand. You want to get outside, get some fresh air? There's a chapel. 11:48.208 --> 11:50.583 So I can pray for someone else's kid to die? 11:56.083 --> 11:59.667 I lied earlier. Hollie wasn't on a work call. 12:00.625 --> 12:02.625 She hasn't signed on to work in weeks. 12:03.250 --> 12:06.166 I don't know if it's postpartum depression 12:06.250 --> 12:09.417 or Arthur or the world... 12:09.500 --> 12:13.208 Listen, it's... it's been a terrible ordeal for the pair of you. 12:13.291 --> 12:15.709 She's so depressed she can't get out of bed. 12:16.291 --> 12:21.375 When COVID hit, seeing people lose whole families in a week... 12:22.333 --> 12:26.291 we knew we had to be careful because of Arthur's heart condition. 12:26.375 --> 12:27.250 And we were. 12:28.166 --> 12:29.959 And in the end, it didn't matter. 12:30.083 --> 12:32.417 I'm still losing them. 12:32.500 --> 12:36.834 The only thing keeping me going right now is the hope for a miracle. 12:38.917 --> 12:42.667 Arthur gets a heart, Hollie comes back to life. 12:42.750 --> 12:44.834 And we a family again. 12:45.500 --> 12:49.166 And I know we can't have our miracle unless someone else loses theirs... 12:49.250 --> 12:52.166 lives what I'm living right now, gets shattered. 12:54.458 --> 12:55.959 I pray for it anyway. 12:56.792 --> 12:58.208 Because Arthur... 12:59.500 --> 13:00.917 [Hayes] He's your son. 13:01.834 --> 13:04.750 I can't lose him, Dr. Hayes. 13:04.834 --> 13:06.291 We can't lose him. 13:07.125 --> 13:08.458 Please. 13:19.250 --> 13:21.500 -How's she looking? -Squirmy. 13:21.583 --> 13:23.166 -Karissa? -Did I hear Dr. Wilson? 13:23.250 --> 13:24.709 Is Shayne okay? 13:24.792 --> 13:25.834 Uh... [clears throat] 13:26.583 --> 13:30.000 Sorry, Karissa. Patient confidentiality. 13:30.083 --> 13:33.208 Confidentiality? From his wife? 13:33.875 --> 13:37.625 Wait. Did he ask you not to tell me? 13:37.709 --> 13:41.417 -That is also confidential. -He's still mad. 13:41.542 --> 13:44.583 My sisters said we were crazy for moving so quickly. 13:44.667 --> 13:47.792 They said three months is not enough time to get to know someone 13:47.875 --> 13:49.750 you're gonna spend the rest of your life with. 13:49.834 --> 13:53.000 -Well, neither is six years. -Scans are up. 13:53.083 --> 13:56.500 Karissa, you have a very small contusion on your brain. 13:56.583 --> 13:59.000 It's benign and a very minor bleed, 13:59.083 --> 14:01.959 so minor I don't think we can blame it for anything. Sorry. 14:02.041 --> 14:04.959 But we do have to keep you overnight for observation. 14:05.041 --> 14:06.000 I was wrong. 14:06.625 --> 14:08.792 I was wrong that no one would miss him. 14:10.750 --> 14:15.959 Because it's only been a few hours and I miss him so much I could burst. 14:16.041 --> 14:18.041 [Karissa crying] 14:23.625 --> 14:25.834 Hi. I got your page. What's up? 14:25.917 --> 14:28.959 Can you think of a salvage procedure we can do on a 14-month-old 14:29.041 --> 14:31.542 -with multiple VSDs? -Another one? 14:31.625 --> 14:35.792 -We just did one two weeks ago. -It's the same boy. Arthur Beaton. 14:35.875 --> 14:38.792 -The one we put on ECMO? -He's hanging on. 14:38.875 --> 14:40.917 What about a double pump EXCOR? 14:41.000 --> 14:43.375 You know, an artificial heart that can take over from the ventricles. 14:43.458 --> 14:46.000 I know what it is. I... 14:46.083 --> 14:47.917 Arthur's chest cavity is too small. 14:48.000 --> 14:50.750 The cannulas would push against vital organs. 14:50.834 --> 14:54.417 We'd have to leave him open and leave him on a vent. 14:54.500 --> 14:57.250 He's been on ECMO for 12 days. 14:57.333 --> 14:59.709 I don't think he has the strength to withstand a transplant, 14:59.792 --> 15:01.834 and that's even if we could find a donor. 15:01.917 --> 15:03.542 So then what do you suggest? 15:04.166 --> 15:08.667 I think you should have a very difficult conversation with his parents. It's time. 15:08.750 --> 15:10.834 Aren't you supposed to be some sort of genius or something? 15:10.917 --> 15:12.417 Youngest cardio chief in the country? 15:12.500 --> 15:15.041 More innovative and published than any of your peers? 15:15.125 --> 15:17.458 So what, you're just gonna give up? 15:17.542 --> 15:20.291 We've been at this for months. 15:20.375 --> 15:22.500 We have done everything we can for that boy. 15:22.583 --> 15:26.417 At this point, we're just prolonging his pain, and his family's. 15:26.500 --> 15:29.542 It's not giving up. It's letting them go on. 15:36.667 --> 15:38.208 [whistling] 15:44.583 --> 15:45.875 [sighing] 15:47.000 --> 15:51.542 It just hit me that it's been months since I've been able to feel whatever I want 15:51.625 --> 15:55.625 without worrying that I will permanently scar a child. 15:55.709 --> 15:59.959 The constant pressure of not ruining a life is exhausting. 16:01.834 --> 16:05.500 Are you mad that I shouted no and made you get up? 16:05.583 --> 16:09.291 I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at my mom for bringing it up. 16:09.917 --> 16:12.250 Are you wanting to get married? 16:12.333 --> 16:16.333 After you shouted no and made me get up? Not so much. 16:16.417 --> 16:19.291 I meant, "No, you're misreading the moment." 16:19.375 --> 16:21.166 Not, "No, I don't wanna marry you." 16:22.583 --> 16:25.542 -So you do want to marry me? -I wasn't saying I want to marry you, 16:25.625 --> 16:28.834 or I don't want to marry you. I, um... 16:28.917 --> 16:31.709 haven't thought about it. I haven't had time. 16:31.792 --> 16:34.667 I haven't had time either, but I've still thought about it. 16:36.291 --> 16:38.083 What have you thought? 16:38.250 --> 16:39.291 [sighs] 16:41.041 --> 16:42.125 I love you. 16:42.208 --> 16:45.750 And I love Scout and I love us together. And... 16:46.375 --> 16:49.583 You know, marriage is, uh... 16:49.667 --> 16:52.291 I guess kind how society locks it all in. 16:52.375 --> 16:54.917 -But it doesn't lock it in. -It doesn't lock it in. 16:55.000 --> 16:57.542 -And your parents' divorce was hell. -It was hell! 16:57.625 --> 17:00.000 And I swore that I'd never put a kid through that. 17:00.083 --> 17:02.917 Mmm-hmm. So... 17:03.000 --> 17:04.917 I know that your mom has big ideas... 17:06.083 --> 17:11.500 and Zola has big wedding dress dreams, but, um... 17:12.583 --> 17:14.417 Have you really changed your mind? 17:18.000 --> 17:20.500 I was a terrible wife. 17:20.583 --> 17:22.458 -You had a brain tumor. -I did. 17:22.542 --> 17:25.208 But I'm not sure that sexy brain tumor can take all the credit. 17:25.291 --> 17:28.583 I still think I'm wired for self-destruction. 17:30.041 --> 17:31.667 Why do you think that? 17:32.959 --> 17:36.917 Because every day, for a lot of days now, 17:37.000 --> 17:40.625 I go to sleep thinking about getting high. 17:40.709 --> 17:44.375 And I wake up thinking about getting high. 17:44.458 --> 17:48.125 And sometimes in the middle of feeding Scout, 17:48.208 --> 17:51.917 I zone out and think about getting high. 18:01.750 --> 18:04.709 And he won't let me tell his wife anything. 18:04.792 --> 18:07.709 It's their wedding day and he's already over her. 18:07.792 --> 18:11.667 Which is just... it's just sad and messy and... 18:11.750 --> 18:15.500 And it's not that I'm sick of adults. 18:15.583 --> 18:18.083 Okay, I'm a little-- I'm a little sick of adults. 18:18.166 --> 18:20.959 Adults are always here on the worst day of their lives. 18:21.041 --> 18:24.166 And I am so sick of worst days. 18:24.250 --> 18:27.750 And people being terrified of me because I'm cutting them open. 18:28.417 --> 18:30.125 But with moms, 18:30.208 --> 18:33.792 they want you here, even though it's scary sometimes. 18:33.875 --> 18:38.250 Because you being there means they're getting to meet their baby. 18:38.333 --> 18:40.125 Their dream. 18:40.250 --> 18:41.834 And they can't do it without my help. 18:45.333 --> 18:49.417 Since, uh... Since Alex left, um... 18:50.208 --> 18:53.834 my house hasn't been my happiest place. 18:53.917 --> 18:56.500 So... 18:56.583 --> 18:58.333 I want work to be. 18:58.917 --> 19:02.625 And I think that you get that. And I am so grateful to you. 19:02.709 --> 19:07.458 Because you believed in me before I believed in myself. 19:08.834 --> 19:12.583 And I will tell you all of this again when you're awake. 19:15.000 --> 19:18.500 Please, please be awake soon. 19:19.375 --> 19:21.583 Please be well soon. 19:22.792 --> 19:25.792 We can't take any more worst days around here. 19:30.417 --> 19:31.959 I've booked 18 hotel rooms. 19:32.041 --> 19:33.875 The manager wondered if you'd rather book a whole floor. 19:33.959 --> 19:36.750 We got a lot of positives. Tell him we'll take all the rooms we can get. 19:36.834 --> 19:38.875 Thank you. I think I've memorized your credit card number. 19:38.959 --> 19:41.166 When did hotel stays become part of the plan? 19:41.250 --> 19:45.083 Well, people need more than a test. And quarantining isn't easy for everybody. 19:45.166 --> 19:46.542 And you realized that today? 19:46.625 --> 19:48.792 -Excuse me? -You know he's your boss, right? 19:48.875 --> 19:50.458 -And technically, so am I. -I'm sorry. 19:50.542 --> 19:52.125 -Schmitt, give us a minute? -Well, don't fire her. 19:52.208 --> 19:53.417 Schmitt! 19:55.208 --> 19:56.542 Come here, please. 19:57.208 --> 19:59.000 I assume that wasn't your real question, 19:59.083 --> 20:00.875 so would you like to tell me what is going on? 20:00.959 --> 20:05.125 You're booking up hotel rooms. So is Seattle Partners. 20:05.291 --> 20:09.250 Okay, I've heard of them. A group of community organizations, right? 20:09.333 --> 20:12.333 Long-standing community organizations. 20:12.417 --> 20:15.500 That have been providing housing and wrap-around services 20:15.583 --> 20:19.333 for people who test positive for COVID in low income neighborhoods. 20:19.417 --> 20:22.458 -Okay, so the more the better... -Yeah. Maybe in theory. 20:22.542 --> 20:25.875 But they can't book hotel rooms at their discounted rate 20:25.959 --> 20:28.208 because the local doctor's booking them at full price. 20:28.291 --> 20:32.417 And hotels are kicking people out to make room for your new arrivals. 20:33.250 --> 20:35.000 I got it. 20:35.083 --> 20:37.083 I apologize. I didn't know that. 20:37.166 --> 20:40.333 Great. We'll just tell everyone it wasn't on purpose. 20:40.417 --> 20:42.208 That should keep them real warm tonight. 20:54.917 --> 20:55.959 [Link chuckles] 20:57.750 --> 20:59.500 Oh, I fell asleep? 20:59.583 --> 21:02.125 I think it's a defense mechanism. 21:02.208 --> 21:04.458 -I've noticed you do that. -Do what? 21:04.542 --> 21:07.333 Fall asleep when you are emotionally overwhelmed. 21:08.125 --> 21:09.583 Some people cry. 21:09.709 --> 21:11.750 Some people talk. Some people yell. 21:11.834 --> 21:14.542 -You... fall asleep. -Right. 21:14.625 --> 21:17.583 Well, I'm not avoiding my feelings if that's what you're implying. 21:17.667 --> 21:22.458 I just process them better while I'm unconscious. 21:24.041 --> 21:27.166 Okay. Let's figure this out. 21:27.250 --> 21:28.875 There's not much to figure out. 21:29.709 --> 21:32.834 -I'm an addict. -You're an addict in recovery. 21:32.917 --> 21:34.542 So what, you need to hit up a meeting? 21:34.625 --> 21:38.875 I've talked about it in meetings. A lot of us have. 21:38.959 --> 21:43.500 And this pandemic feels like Satan has designed the perfect set of circumstances 21:43.583 --> 21:45.750 to make sobriety seem impossible. 21:46.208 --> 21:50.625 Isolation, fear, futility, anger, hopelessness. 21:50.709 --> 21:54.083 I mean, name a trigger, it is stronger. 21:54.959 --> 21:58.000 For the record, I don't believe in Satan. I'm just saying it feels like that. 21:58.083 --> 22:01.208 Also, what's weird is I'm not even craving pills. 22:01.291 --> 22:04.083 I'm just... I just want to drive to a dispensary 22:04.166 --> 22:06.166 and buy some weed and smoke it. 22:06.250 --> 22:10.208 Is that allowed, to smoke weed if that wasn't the thing you were addicted to? 22:10.333 --> 22:13.542 There's no such thing as "allowed" in my program. 22:13.625 --> 22:15.417 There are just suggestions. 22:15.500 --> 22:19.542 And... no. It's not suggested. 22:19.625 --> 22:24.709 -Why not? -Because if I smoked weed, 22:24.792 --> 22:28.500 it is very likely that I would forget to not do heroin. 22:31.041 --> 22:32.125 Well... 22:33.208 --> 22:34.583 for the record... 22:36.166 --> 22:37.792 I would marry you in a hot minute. 22:39.125 --> 22:41.417 -Why? -Because most drug addicts 22:41.500 --> 22:43.917 who crave drugs just do drugs. 22:44.709 --> 22:46.625 But you don't. 22:46.709 --> 22:49.291 That makes you stronger than most people. 22:49.917 --> 22:51.709 And cooler. 22:51.792 --> 22:54.834 And the opposite of self-destructive. 22:56.291 --> 22:57.375 So... 22:57.792 --> 22:58.667 [Link clears throat] 22:59.709 --> 23:01.667 All right. Amelia... 23:03.000 --> 23:05.625 -Oh, my God! No! Oh, my God! Get up! -Got it. 23:07.291 --> 23:10.166 Like, not ever or not today? 23:10.250 --> 23:13.458 Just not when I'm confessing my darkest secrets 23:13.542 --> 23:15.875 and I have snot running down my face. [sniffling] 23:17.625 --> 23:18.917 Okay. 23:19.750 --> 23:22.125 -[Jo] Is Luna okay? -Yeah. She's fine. 23:22.208 --> 23:24.875 I just needed to see a friendly face. 23:25.709 --> 23:29.083 I'm about to ask a father about taking his baby off life support. 23:29.166 --> 23:30.875 Oh, my God. 23:31.333 --> 23:34.125 She's the best. She doesn't judge. 23:34.208 --> 23:35.667 Isn't selfish. 23:35.750 --> 23:38.959 Isn't bitter or resentful about the cards she's been dealt. 23:39.709 --> 23:44.875 I hope she doesn't become bitter or resentful. 23:44.959 --> 23:47.667 I wouldn't blame her if she did. 23:48.709 --> 23:52.917 I spent a lot of my life being angry about the way I came into the world. 23:53.625 --> 23:57.208 It took me a long time to realize that that anger didn't serve me. 23:57.709 --> 24:00.291 The more it I let go, the better off I'd be. 24:01.125 --> 24:02.709 Letting it go was like... 24:03.500 --> 24:07.458 breaking off the crusty black pieces of my heart that hurt 24:07.542 --> 24:09.333 at first, but... 24:09.417 --> 24:11.333 -With time... -Wow, Wilson. 24:11.417 --> 24:13.500 -What? -Thank you! 24:13.959 --> 24:15.208 [chuckles] 24:18.709 --> 24:21.166 The Cooper ligament’s completely destroyed. 24:21.291 --> 24:24.959 -I think Stoppa technique's our best bet. -Agreed. Pickups. 24:25.667 --> 24:29.834 What a wedding day. Started with his bride calling him a loser. 24:29.917 --> 24:34.291 Can't imagine much worse. Not that I... 24:36.375 --> 24:39.333 -How are the kids? -You ask me, he's lucky. 24:39.417 --> 24:41.875 -How so? -He found out the truth on day one 24:41.959 --> 24:43.834 instead of 20 years from now. 24:43.917 --> 24:46.208 No house. No kids. Lucky. 24:46.291 --> 24:48.667 -Mayo scissors, please. -And how is Altman? 24:49.333 --> 24:52.041 -Should be back in a couple days. -That's not why I'm asking. 24:52.125 --> 24:57.000 Respectfully, Chief, the OR has heard enough about my personal life. Okay? 24:57.083 --> 24:58.375 Mesh. 24:59.583 --> 25:01.083 Hayes, you paged again. 25:01.333 --> 25:04.375 You said there's not enough space for a total artificial heart. 25:06.083 --> 25:09.709 You paged me 911 after I told you it was impossible? 25:09.792 --> 25:12.333 -His chest cavity is too small. -I know. 25:12.417 --> 25:15.333 Too small because his heart's taking up space. 25:15.417 --> 25:16.750 But what if we made space? 25:16.834 --> 25:20.333 -Sure, let's just take out his heart. -Don't be ridiculous. 25:20.458 --> 25:22.291 We'll leave some of it behind. 25:32.375 --> 25:35.250 -You want to cut out part of his heart? -The lower part. 25:35.333 --> 25:37.917 The ventricles, which are not functioning properly. 25:38.000 --> 25:41.500 So the answer is yes. You want to cut out part of his heart. 25:41.583 --> 25:43.875 To create space for a total artificial heart pump 25:43.959 --> 25:45.458 to act in place of what we removed. 25:47.542 --> 25:48.959 Have you done this before? 25:49.041 --> 25:51.667 Because it sounds like you haven't done it before. 25:51.750 --> 25:54.333 We have used the device on older children. 25:54.417 --> 25:57.375 But in those cases, we did not have to remove both ventricles. 25:57.458 --> 26:00.875 So you could do this and it doesn't work? 26:02.208 --> 26:04.917 -Why would you even suggest... - Because Arthur's chances of survival 26:05.000 --> 26:07.500 are exactly the same as if we did absolutely nothing. 26:08.000 --> 26:09.792 I know this sounds insane. 26:09.875 --> 26:13.083 But we're running out of options. And Arthur is almost out of time. 26:13.792 --> 26:15.625 You asked me to save your son. Yes? 26:15.709 --> 26:18.041 I'm telling you, this is his best chance. 26:19.375 --> 26:21.542 I need to call Hollie. 26:21.625 --> 26:23.458 She'll want to see him, before... 26:25.208 --> 26:28.083 -Just in case. -Of course. 26:37.959 --> 26:40.417 Your surgery went better than we could have hoped. 26:40.500 --> 26:44.083 Yep. You may have a couple months rehab, but everything looks good. 26:44.166 --> 26:48.834 Months of rehab alone in an apartment during a pandemic. 26:49.625 --> 26:55.166 Oh, so that's it? It's been what, 12 hours, and you're jumping ship? 26:55.250 --> 26:56.667 Bailey, maybe we should let them... 26:56.750 --> 27:00.375 Shayne, my parents were together for over 60 years. 27:00.458 --> 27:04.000 After my mom passed, my dad and I were going through their old photos 27:04.083 --> 27:08.667 looking for something that we could post with her obituary. 27:08.750 --> 27:14.625 Sixty years is a lot of hair styles and fashion trends. 27:15.166 --> 27:17.959 Finally, my dad told me that I should just pick. 27:18.041 --> 27:20.208 Because when he looked at them, 27:20.291 --> 27:23.125 all he saw was the woman he fell in love with. 27:23.834 --> 27:26.500 She was still the same caring, nurturing, 27:26.583 --> 27:30.917 kind-hearted person she was the day they met. 27:31.000 --> 27:33.583 Look, people are who they are. 27:33.667 --> 27:36.333 Karissa said some things 27:36.417 --> 27:40.542 while you were trapped in a car and she was terrified. 27:41.250 --> 27:43.208 But my guess is... 27:43.291 --> 27:46.750 she's still the same person she was when you met. 27:47.667 --> 27:50.458 You might want to give her a chance to prove that 27:50.542 --> 27:52.333 before you just throw it all away. 27:55.375 --> 27:57.417 Is there any way I can see her? 27:59.709 --> 28:00.917 I'll get you a tablet. 28:06.875 --> 28:09.500 I just got off with Kelly Bernard who runs Seattle Partners. 28:09.583 --> 28:12.041 No one is losing their bed. Nobody's losing a room. 28:12.125 --> 28:14.166 She's gonna point me in the direction of hotels 28:14.250 --> 28:17.458 so I can sponsor patient rooms without getting in anybody's way. 28:22.041 --> 28:24.041 Oh, come on. 28:24.125 --> 28:26.000 Do you have a problem with all your attendings or just me? 28:26.083 --> 28:27.917 -Because I'm trying to make this right. -I know you are! 28:28.000 --> 28:31.125 It's just this whole situation pisses me off. 28:31.208 --> 28:32.583 -And that's my fault? -No. 28:32.667 --> 28:34.750 No. It's the whole system. 28:34.834 --> 28:37.458 It's not designed to help the people that actually need it. 28:37.542 --> 28:41.083 -Especially when they look like us. -Right. That's why I'm trying to help. 28:41.667 --> 28:43.166 When I was a social worker, 28:43.250 --> 28:47.041 I saw a lot of temporary fixes that came from a good place. 28:47.125 --> 28:49.583 But they never get to the root of the problems. 28:49.667 --> 28:52.125 Hotel rooms are great for quarantine. 28:52.208 --> 28:56.542 But then people have to go back to risky jobs and overcrowded homes. 28:57.375 --> 28:59.291 I know you're trying to help. 28:59.375 --> 29:02.625 [voice breaking] It's just that all this is--is too much. 29:03.792 --> 29:06.875 And I'm really over it. You know? 29:06.959 --> 29:08.458 I'm just over it. 29:13.208 --> 29:15.208 [thunder rumbles] 29:15.291 --> 29:19.709 ♪ In my younger days I was a fighter ♪ 29:19.792 --> 29:21.417 I want to teach you to swim. 29:23.166 --> 29:25.500 I wanna take you to hockey games. 29:27.041 --> 29:29.625 ♪ Things didn't go my way ♪ 29:30.333 --> 29:31.375 [crying] 29:31.458 --> 29:33.083 But if we don't... 29:34.083 --> 29:35.750 get to do those things... 29:36.625 --> 29:38.792 I want you to know how much I love you. 29:39.583 --> 29:42.041 How much your mom and I love you. 29:44.709 --> 29:48.709 You have already given us a lifetime of joy. 29:48.792 --> 29:52.250 I'm so sorry, Chris, but we really need to go. 29:52.500 --> 29:55.417 ♪ I'd trade my freedom for a steady hand now ♪ 29:57.875 --> 30:01.291 ♪ But I wouldn't trade The lessons I learned ♪ 30:02.917 --> 30:05.667 ♪ No, I wouldn't change a thing ♪ 30:08.417 --> 30:09.834 ♪ About my younger days ♪ 30:09.917 --> 30:12.583 What would our wedding even look like? 30:12.667 --> 30:15.875 Rooftop, French Quarter, New Orleans, April or early May. 30:16.834 --> 30:19.417 For someone that doesn't want to get married, you answered that really fast. 30:20.166 --> 30:22.458 It's a magical place. 30:22.542 --> 30:24.250 Just don't go in June. 30:24.333 --> 30:26.041 It's hot and it smells bad by then. 30:26.417 --> 30:28.542 Mmm. Magic. 30:29.208 --> 30:32.709 It'll be fun. The kids would love it. 30:33.750 --> 30:38.000 And, Link, I love you so much sometimes I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. 30:38.458 --> 30:44.083 So... marriage seems so obvious. 30:44.166 --> 30:45.375 But... 30:45.458 --> 30:49.417 -But you're not sure. -And you're not sure. 30:52.125 --> 30:54.500 I need you to not get high. 30:54.583 --> 30:59.000 I mean it. I need you to do whatever you need to do to stay sober. 30:59.959 --> 31:02.250 Because I'm not-- I'm not Owen. I'm not equipped for... 31:02.333 --> 31:03.834 Drama? 31:03.917 --> 31:06.250 I'll just end up sleeping my life away. 31:07.333 --> 31:08.709 Okay. 31:09.667 --> 31:10.625 I won't get high. 31:10.709 --> 31:13.709 And you don't propose to me in a semi-compulsory manner. 31:13.834 --> 31:16.792 -For how long? -A day at a time. 31:16.875 --> 31:18.500 [Link chuckles] 31:18.583 --> 31:20.500 That's about all I can manage. 31:21.500 --> 31:22.709 Okay. Deal. 31:25.959 --> 31:27.458 What's that face? 31:27.542 --> 31:32.583 That's the one that says this house is still empty... 31:34.500 --> 31:38.083 and you look incredible by this fire. 31:39.333 --> 31:42.834 I'm pretty sure these clothes still come off. 31:46.959 --> 31:48.375 [thunder rumbles] 31:48.500 --> 31:52.583 Oh, my God. Get up! 31:52.667 --> 31:54.041 Get up! 32:01.583 --> 32:03.750 Hey, sleepyhead. 32:07.583 --> 32:08.875 Oh. 32:10.375 --> 32:13.125 I'm sorry. [coughs] 32:13.709 --> 32:17.375 -For what? -You had to put me on a vent. 32:18.792 --> 32:20.500 You had to make that call. 32:21.250 --> 32:24.083 I'd do it again if I had to. 32:24.166 --> 32:25.208 But I hope I don't. 32:25.291 --> 32:26.709 [both chuckle] 32:26.792 --> 32:29.458 I'm glad I chose you. 32:37.250 --> 32:39.083 We need to talk about Wilson. 32:46.208 --> 32:49.625 ["We Carry On" by Peter Groenwald playing] 33:05.667 --> 33:09.125 ♪ We are raindrops in a river ♪ 33:12.375 --> 33:16.083 ♪ One day, we'll all be memories ♪ 33:19.166 --> 33:22.834 ♪ To be lost is to be looking ♪ 33:29.000 --> 33:32.709 ♪ The heart, it is a lighthouse ♪ 33:35.750 --> 33:40.333 ♪ Our minds are rocks along the shore ♪ 33:43.250 --> 33:47.041 ♪ I will not follow my mind anymore ♪ 33:47.417 --> 33:48.959 [Maggie] That's it. 33:50.250 --> 33:51.625 It's in. 33:51.709 --> 33:53.667 All that's left is to take him off bypass. 33:54.458 --> 33:57.250 And pray that he maintains his blood pressure with this new pump. 33:57.333 --> 34:00.959 ♪ You're a giant who walks among us ♪ 34:01.667 --> 34:03.875 [machine flatlining] 34:03.959 --> 34:06.625 ♪ You have carried me this far ♪ 34:06.709 --> 34:09.041 -Nothing's happening. -Give him another second. 34:12.500 --> 34:15.125 Come on, Arthur, come on, come on, come on. 34:16.667 --> 34:18.041 [beeping] 34:18.750 --> 34:20.542 It's working. Ah! 34:20.625 --> 34:22.875 -We did it! We did it! -[laughing] 34:23.500 --> 34:25.917 [all cheering] 34:30.208 --> 34:31.125 We did it. 34:36.709 --> 34:38.125 [man] Whoo! 34:38.375 --> 34:41.583 ♪ No, you're never gone ♪ 34:42.834 --> 34:44.458 ♪ Never gone ♪ 34:47.959 --> 34:50.125 -[knock on door] -[door opens] 34:50.750 --> 34:52.917 -You paged? -Have a seat. 34:57.834 --> 35:01.959 Look, Dr. Avery, I'm really sorry about earlier. 35:02.041 --> 35:06.333 I... I just have a huge problem keeping my opinions to myself. 35:06.417 --> 35:09.750 Especially when it comes to underserved communities. 35:10.625 --> 35:12.959 Well, sounds like that makes two of us. 35:13.750 --> 35:15.041 I want to help people. 35:16.166 --> 35:18.834 Especially those who have been ignored or shut out of the system 35:18.917 --> 35:20.000 for far too long. 35:20.083 --> 35:22.875 It sounds like you have some ideas from your last career. 35:23.000 --> 35:25.250 I'd like to hear them. All of them. 35:26.583 --> 35:29.792 -Really? -You have a deep understanding. 35:29.875 --> 35:32.959 I have deep pockets and a desire to help. 35:33.041 --> 35:37.917 So, Dr. Ortiz, if you had the power to effect real change... 35:40.000 --> 35:41.250 where would you start? 35:43.625 --> 35:45.333 Okay. Well... 35:46.208 --> 35:48.417 access to affordable healthy food 35:48.500 --> 35:51.208 is a huge problem in low-income neighborhoods. 35:51.291 --> 35:52.500 Okay. 35:53.000 --> 35:56.166 The car was closing in. I had no idea what I was saying. 35:56.250 --> 35:58.667 -I just... [sighs] -I was so worried about you. 35:58.750 --> 36:01.166 The whole way here, and then once we got here. 36:01.250 --> 36:03.250 Do you even know what that was like for me? 36:03.333 --> 36:04.834 -I'm sure it was... -They wouldn't even tell me 36:04.917 --> 36:06.333 if you were dead or alive. 36:06.417 --> 36:09.041 Please promise me you'll never put me through that again. 36:09.750 --> 36:10.875 I won't. 36:10.959 --> 36:15.125 -Thank God, because that was hell. -I want an annulment. 36:15.792 --> 36:19.250 -What's happening? -You were right. 36:19.333 --> 36:21.375 I didn't say anything about an annulment. 36:21.458 --> 36:22.709 [Karissa] Shayne, what the hell? 36:22.792 --> 36:24.750 You said people don't change and you were right. 36:24.834 --> 36:26.125 She hasn't changed. 36:26.250 --> 36:28.917 Today wasn't any different than any other day. 36:29.000 --> 36:32.208 I just found her self absorption charming on every other day. 36:32.291 --> 36:34.041 Like I was drunk on her sense of humor. 36:34.125 --> 36:36.500 'Cause she's funny too. And I was lonely. 36:36.583 --> 36:39.875 And then I was laughing and I wasn't lonely and so I thought I could overlook 36:39.959 --> 36:42.417 -basically the rest of her personality. -Okay. 36:42.500 --> 36:45.208 -Then maybe we do this later. -No. 36:45.291 --> 36:48.208 I want to do it now and then I want to be done with it. 36:48.291 --> 36:49.458 You're selfish, Karissa, 36:49.542 --> 36:52.125 and you were the same person today that you were the day we met. 36:52.208 --> 36:55.500 The same person who ate all the trail mix I'd packed for our hike 36:55.583 --> 36:57.417 without offering me so much as a peanut. 36:57.500 --> 37:01.375 -You're dumping me over a peanut? -It's an example. One of many. 37:01.458 --> 37:03.709 You're the center of your own universe, 37:03.792 --> 37:06.166 and I'd rather be alone than with someone 37:06.250 --> 37:09.333 who isn't capable of considering anyone but herself. 37:09.417 --> 37:13.291 -Well, now I feel terrible. -I'm sure it wont last long. 37:14.875 --> 37:17.125 -Thank you. -[Bailey stutters] 37:17.208 --> 37:20.792 [Meredith] One way or the other surgeons get closure with their patients. 37:20.917 --> 37:23.041 You got yourselves a feisty one here. 37:23.125 --> 37:26.709 He sailed through every hour of it. Never showed any signs of giving up. 37:26.792 --> 37:28.208 My man. 37:28.291 --> 37:31.250 You're here. You're still here. 37:31.333 --> 37:34.792 -I've gotta call Hollie. -Of course. 37:34.875 --> 37:37.792 [exclaiming] Honey, he's okay. He's okay. 37:38.834 --> 37:41.709 -And he's bionic. -[Hollie crying] 37:41.792 --> 37:43.000 [Hayes] Just for a little while, Hollie. 37:43.083 --> 37:45.458 As soon as a donor heart comes up, we'll remove the machine. 37:45.542 --> 37:48.959 Until then, Arthur's got his very own little battery pack. 37:50.125 --> 37:52.500 Hi, sweetheart. 37:52.917 --> 37:55.291 -Oh, my beautiful boy. -We're so proud of you. 37:55.375 --> 37:56.834 Hi. Hi. 37:58.458 --> 38:02.792 -You're a strong little guy. -Mommy loves you. We love you so much. 38:03.083 --> 38:05.208 [Meredith] Sometimes we fix you, sometimes we can't. 38:05.792 --> 38:08.667 [Schmit] Thanks for driving me. I'm too tired to ride my bike. 38:08.750 --> 38:10.458 [Jo] Well, if I'm driving, you're cooking. 38:10.542 --> 38:13.750 [sighs] Who knew sticking things up people's noses would be so exhausting? 38:13.834 --> 38:16.291 Wilson, you got a minute? 38:16.375 --> 38:18.333 Sure, yeah. What's-- What's up? 38:18.417 --> 38:20.250 I was hoping you could tell me. 38:21.000 --> 38:23.625 -About...? -Quitting surgery. 38:24.417 --> 38:25.458 I'm just gonna... 38:27.583 --> 38:30.792 If you're serious about changing specialties, 38:30.875 --> 38:32.875 I--I wanna support you, but... 38:32.959 --> 38:34.792 I can't do that if I'm in the dark. 38:36.625 --> 38:40.834 [Meredith] But our intention is to find a long-term solution. 38:41.583 --> 38:44.125 [Link] Zola's reading for 20 minutes. 38:44.208 --> 38:50.000 And the others fell sleep before the animals saw Toad's bathing suit. 38:50.709 --> 38:52.583 This guy's down. 38:54.250 --> 38:56.875 How long can your parents live in the driveway? 38:57.041 --> 38:57.917 [sighs] 38:58.250 --> 39:01.375 So my mom can keep accidentally referring to you as my wife? 39:01.667 --> 39:02.667 [chuckles] 39:05.959 --> 39:08.083 What if we just... 39:08.166 --> 39:09.583 do a check-in? 39:10.542 --> 39:13.750 Every few weeks, no judgment, 39:13.834 --> 39:16.333 to just make sure we're still good with our decision? 39:18.875 --> 39:21.458 Are we super broken? 39:21.542 --> 39:23.959 Or are we super evolved? 39:24.834 --> 39:26.542 Oh, definitely evolved. 39:30.959 --> 39:33.959 [Meredith] Which isn't to say emergency medicine isn't important. 39:34.834 --> 39:37.542 Especially when something's gone neglected too long. 39:40.834 --> 39:44.542 Owen. I just... I just put the kids down. 39:44.625 --> 39:47.291 -I didn't know that you were... -Actually, I came to see you. 39:49.917 --> 39:54.125 You tried to tell me the truth about your relationship with Allison, and I... 39:55.667 --> 39:57.417 I was awful to you. 39:58.834 --> 40:00.041 And I'm sorry. 40:00.709 --> 40:02.750 [stuttering] I should have told you years ago. 40:03.583 --> 40:07.041 You told me when you could. And I should have been there for you. 40:07.125 --> 40:09.166 Because since the day we met, Teddy, 40:09.250 --> 40:11.959 every day since, you have been there for me. 40:12.041 --> 40:15.583 You have listened to me. You have fought for me. 40:15.667 --> 40:20.041 So that thing you did on our [sighs] wedding day, 40:20.125 --> 40:21.709 -it was... -I'm--I'm sorry. 40:21.792 --> 40:23.917 [Owen] I know. I know you are. 40:24.875 --> 40:28.542 We were friends first. We've been friends for years. 40:28.625 --> 40:31.208 And you've never been anything but there for me. 40:31.291 --> 40:35.166 So when you... when you did this thing that was so out of character, 40:35.250 --> 40:38.375 I should have known that you were going through something bigger than me. 40:40.041 --> 40:41.583 And that you just needed a friend. 40:42.709 --> 40:45.458 -Owen. -I can be your friend. 40:46.000 --> 40:47.583 I want to be your friend. 40:47.667 --> 40:51.250 And I don't know if I have more than that in me. 40:52.000 --> 40:55.000 But I can be your friend, if you'll let me, Teddy. 40:55.959 --> 40:58.834 And I'd like to hear about Allison, if you'll tell me. 41:02.000 --> 41:06.166 -Do you want some tea? -Yeah. 41:07.375 --> 41:08.917 Tea would be good. 41:09.709 --> 41:12.709 ♪ The day will never come ♪ 41:13.375 --> 41:15.750 ♪ When everything is broken ♪ 41:15.834 --> 41:19.250 ♪ Seems like the light is gone ♪ 41:20.291 --> 41:23.834 [Meredith] But try as we might, some solutions can only be temporary. 41:23.917 --> 41:26.625 -How'd she do today? -Her energy's low. 41:27.208 --> 41:29.000 She's still mostly sleeping. 41:29.917 --> 41:31.583 She's listening. 41:32.417 --> 41:34.625 Even when you think maybe she's not... 41:35.417 --> 41:37.125 -she's... -Extraordinary. 41:37.208 --> 41:41.667 -Unstoppable. -Always has been, always will be. 41:42.834 --> 41:44.917 I pray to God you're both right. 41:45.166 --> 41:49.291 [Meredith] We evaluate you, we think in the moment, we do our best. 41:52.208 --> 41:54.792 And we hope like hell we've done enough to carry you through. 41:59.500 --> 42:02.792 ♪ I will see the sun ♪ 42:04.000 --> 42:05.750 [theme music playing]