WEBVTT 00:03.041 --> 00:06.291 -[ Thunder crashes ] -♪ I've got your number, lonely ♪ 00:06.375 --> 00:09.709 ♪ October 33 ♪ 00:09.792 --> 00:12.041 Jackson: It's a natural progression in any profession 00:12.125 --> 00:14.000 for the student to become the teacher, 00:14.083 --> 00:16.375 the mentee to become the mentor. 00:16.458 --> 00:17.709 [ Thunder crashes ] 00:17.792 --> 00:22.542 ♪ Holds me down, like you know how, darlin' ♪ 00:22.625 --> 00:24.542 ♪ Hold me now ♪ 00:25.417 --> 00:27.792 ♪ Like you know my plight ♪ 00:27.875 --> 00:29.667 ♪ Got your number ♪ 00:29.750 --> 00:31.333 [ Thunder crashes ] 00:34.083 --> 00:36.041 It's not that much different from parenting. 00:36.125 --> 00:37.291 I'm your son. 00:40.041 --> 00:43.333 We learn from our ancestors how to make the perfect soup. 00:44.375 --> 00:47.166 ♪ I'm sending love where you are at ♪ 00:48.083 --> 00:50.709 How to soothe an aching head or heart. 00:50.917 --> 00:52.500 Woman: Your call has been forwarded 00:52.583 --> 00:54.917 to an automated voice messaging system. 00:55.000 --> 00:58.208 -[ Cellphone beeps ] -♪ October 33 ♪ 00:58.792 --> 01:01.083 ♪ Your love's my only good thing ♪ 01:01.166 --> 01:03.792 ♪ Like, fair, fair, fair ♪ 01:04.375 --> 01:07.792 ♪ So, help me hear the bird sing ♪ 01:07.875 --> 01:10.542 ♪ I'll help you capture your dream ♪ 01:10.625 --> 01:13.542 ♪ Let's see it in the present ♪ 01:13.625 --> 01:15.625 ♪ And try to let it be ♪ 01:15.875 --> 01:19.709 ♪ I, I've got your number, lonely ♪ 01:19.875 --> 01:23.041 ♪ October 33 ♪ 01:25.750 --> 01:28.083 ♪ Like, fair, fair, fair ♪ 01:28.166 --> 01:30.625 Jackson: We measure milestones and percentiles 01:30.709 --> 01:32.333 -and first steps... -[ Bell jingles ] 01:32.417 --> 01:35.959 ...to try and gain insight into the person they'll grow into. 01:36.041 --> 01:37.583 [ Knocks on door ] 01:37.667 --> 01:40.041 -Hello? -♪ October 33 ♪ 01:40.291 --> 01:42.333 Man: Tate, you're early. 01:42.417 --> 01:44.875 I've just started packing lunches. 01:47.542 --> 01:49.041 [ Groans ] 01:51.250 --> 01:52.750 ♪ Crying in the back ♪ 01:52.834 --> 01:55.041 As if knowing a bunch of numbers on charts 01:55.125 --> 01:58.166 is any true measure of what we might make of ourselves. 01:58.875 --> 02:00.375 Jackson. 02:00.458 --> 02:01.458 ♪ I do, to you ♪ 02:02.208 --> 02:03.625 Hey, Dad. 02:03.709 --> 02:06.291 ♪ Hold on ♪ 02:06.375 --> 02:07.917 ♪ Hold on ♪ 02:08.000 --> 02:09.750 [ Thunder crashes ] 02:09.834 --> 02:11.500 ♪ Hold on ♪ 02:11.583 --> 02:14.959 ♪ Fair, fair, fair ♪ 02:16.083 --> 02:17.333 ♪ Hold on ♪ 02:17.417 --> 02:19.917 [ Engine shuts off, music stops ] 02:22.750 --> 02:25.166 [ Thunder crashes ] 02:29.000 --> 02:30.542 [ Doorbell rings ] 02:30.625 --> 02:32.667 Alright. I know it seems, like, impulsive and out of nowhere, 02:32.750 --> 02:35.041 but it's not -- it's just, uh... 02:35.125 --> 02:36.417 uh, fast. 02:36.500 --> 02:38.875 But it's not, like... 02:38.959 --> 02:40.792 impulsive, impulsive. It's... 02:42.542 --> 02:45.166 I thought it through. It's just I thought it through -- 02:45.250 --> 02:46.583 [ Thunder crashes ] 02:46.667 --> 02:48.000 Oh! 02:51.834 --> 02:53.125 [ Gasps ] 02:55.875 --> 02:57.959 [ Thunder crashes ] 03:06.417 --> 03:08.000 [ Dog barks in distance ] 03:09.875 --> 03:11.208 Everybody alive? 03:11.291 --> 03:13.834 Yeah. Yeah, yeah. That's not -- 03:13.959 --> 03:15.500 [ Clears throat ] Not why I'm here. 03:15.583 --> 03:16.792 I thought you were Tate. 03:16.875 --> 03:19.792 He delivers meals for me to people in the community that need them. 03:20.208 --> 03:21.875 Okay. Not Tate. 03:22.500 --> 03:24.166 Well, come on in. Take a load off. 03:24.250 --> 03:27.375 I tested clean yesterday and haven't seen anyone. 03:27.458 --> 03:28.959 I haven't seen anyone, either. 03:29.041 --> 03:30.458 I just made a fresh pot of coffee. 03:30.542 --> 03:32.542 -Want some? -I'm good. 03:33.792 --> 03:35.083 How have you been? 03:35.750 --> 03:37.417 I've been thinking a lot about you lately, 03:37.500 --> 03:39.166 what with everything going on in the world. 03:39.250 --> 03:40.500 I was gonna call, 03:40.583 --> 03:42.041 but the way we left things last time, 03:42.125 --> 03:43.959 I figured you did not want to talk to me. 03:44.041 --> 03:48.709 And I didn't want to be one of those added things 03:48.792 --> 03:50.959 on top of the pandemic to deal with. 03:53.500 --> 03:54.792 How have you been? 03:54.875 --> 03:56.458 How's your little girl? 03:56.542 --> 03:57.959 She must be, what... 03:58.041 --> 04:00.041 She's 3 1/2 years old. Her name is Harriet. 04:00.125 --> 04:01.208 Right. 04:03.917 --> 04:06.166 Look, I didn't travel all this way 04:06.250 --> 04:09.208 to just catch up, so, um... 04:09.291 --> 04:10.917 I need...answers. 04:11.083 --> 04:14.125 Well, I've got about 150 lunches to put together, 04:14.208 --> 04:15.542 so if we're gonna talk, 04:15.625 --> 04:19.041 why don't you grab a pair of gloves over here with me and, uh... 04:19.125 --> 04:20.750 help me out? 04:21.834 --> 04:23.333 [ Thunder crashes ] 04:23.417 --> 04:25.375 Oh, my God, it's your night. 04:25.458 --> 04:26.792 It's -- Wait -- It's your night? 04:26.875 --> 04:28.417 How can it be your night with Harriet? 04:28.500 --> 04:30.875 She's not packed, she's not ready, she's sick, and I have a calendar. 04:30.959 --> 04:32.375 It's okay, no, no, it's not -- it's not my night. 04:32.458 --> 04:33.542 No? Alright? April, hey. 04:33.625 --> 04:34.959 -It's not? -No, no, no, it's alright. 04:35.041 --> 04:36.083 -Okay. -Just take a breath. 04:36.166 --> 04:37.583 What's going on? What's wrong? 04:37.667 --> 04:40.375 She has a temp of 102, and -- and she's coughing... 04:40.458 --> 04:41.792 -...and she has no appetite. -Come here. 04:41.875 --> 04:43.458 But I-I took a rapid test -- it's not COVID. 04:43.542 --> 04:45.250 Come here, munchkin. Come here. That's good. 04:45.333 --> 04:46.792 -Hey. Why didn't you call me? -I don't know what it is. 04:46.875 --> 04:48.834 Whooping cough or RSV or rickets? 04:48.917 --> 04:50.709 -It's not rickets. -People get rickets, Jackson. 04:50.792 --> 04:52.542 And -- And Matthew just went out East with Ruby 04:52.625 --> 04:53.750 to see his sister, 04:53.834 --> 04:54.917 and the power keeps going on and off, 04:55.000 --> 04:56.291 and I know, I am a doctor, 04:56.375 --> 04:58.000 I need to take a deep breath and I should be cool, 04:58.083 --> 04:59.709 -but I am -- -You're not being cool right now. 04:59.792 --> 05:01.250 You're not even breathing, okay? Go ahead. 05:01.333 --> 05:02.875 Oh, God. She's been sick before, obviously, 05:02.959 --> 05:05.583 but, like, COVID just makes everything feel so...big. 05:05.667 --> 05:06.792 And I know I need to calm down, 05:06.875 --> 05:08.083 but no one in the history of calming down 05:08.166 --> 05:09.750 has ever calmed down by being told to calm down, so I'm not gonna, okay? 05:09.834 --> 05:10.750 I'm not gonna tell you to calm down, alright? 05:10.834 --> 05:12.208 I'm not telling you to calm down, I promise. I just... 05:12.291 --> 05:13.583 Why don't you let me in the house, maybe? 05:13.667 --> 05:15.333 -Yeah, yes, okay. Just -- sorry. -Okay? 05:15.417 --> 05:17.417 -Come in. -Hey, sweetheart. 05:18.333 --> 05:19.875 I can't tell you how long it took me 05:19.959 --> 05:22.041 to come up with this nifty system. 05:22.125 --> 05:23.500 First, we start with a bunch of these, 05:23.583 --> 05:25.750 what I've coined the brawn bundle. 05:25.834 --> 05:28.792 Here's how we do it -- two pieces of smoked ham, 05:28.875 --> 05:32.458 one slice of honey turkey, and provolone. 05:32.542 --> 05:33.750 Are you serious with all this? 05:33.834 --> 05:36.291 Roll it up, and once you have your ingredients set, 05:36.375 --> 05:37.583 you move down here to the bread. 05:37.667 --> 05:40.917 You won't believe how much time that saves. 05:41.000 --> 05:42.125 Try a piece. 05:42.208 --> 05:44.542 Look, I'll make the damn sandwiches with you 05:44.625 --> 05:46.250 in order to -- it's fine. 05:46.333 --> 05:49.041 Okay? But I don't need to taste anything 05:49.125 --> 05:50.458 or have any food or coffee. 05:50.542 --> 05:52.709 Just -- I don't need anything from you, honestly. 05:52.792 --> 05:53.959 I just need answers. 05:54.333 --> 05:55.709 [ Dog barking in distance ] 05:55.792 --> 05:57.000 Okay. 05:59.333 --> 06:01.625 Answers? 06:02.250 --> 06:05.125 Mom said something to me that I cannot get out of my head. 06:05.208 --> 06:06.875 Yeah, she has a talent for that. 06:06.959 --> 06:09.542 She said, for the first time ever, 06:09.625 --> 06:11.583 that I sounded like you. 06:11.667 --> 06:13.542 [ Chuckles ] Did you piss her off? 06:13.625 --> 06:15.166 I said I can't really see change 06:15.250 --> 06:17.000 coming from inside the foundation. 06:17.083 --> 06:19.041 -There's too much bureaucracy. -Well, to be honest, 06:19.125 --> 06:21.834 I haven't thought about the foundation in a long time. 06:21.917 --> 06:23.959 Yeah, but what do you think she meant by that? 06:24.041 --> 06:25.709 Years ago, I learned 06:25.792 --> 06:27.875 to never put words in your mother's mouth. 06:27.959 --> 06:29.208 If you had to guess. 06:30.458 --> 06:32.667 I've never been one for the establishment. 06:33.625 --> 06:35.625 I always thought the whole system is rigged. 06:36.709 --> 06:38.583 So, how we doing over there? 06:39.792 --> 06:40.875 You know, I don't think 06:40.959 --> 06:43.125 ham-and-turkey sandwiches get enough credit. 06:43.208 --> 06:45.500 They're simple, but they get the job done. 06:45.583 --> 06:48.375 So I said that the whole system's just broken, 06:48.458 --> 06:50.250 needs to be thrown out and rebuilt, 06:50.333 --> 06:52.625 understanding that that's damn near impossible 06:52.709 --> 06:54.291 considering how many people benefit from it 06:54.375 --> 06:55.875 the way it is right now. 06:55.959 --> 06:57.542 That does sound a little like me. 07:01.458 --> 07:03.792 You look like you could use some more turkey. 07:04.041 --> 07:05.834 Ever use a commercial meat slicer? 07:05.917 --> 07:08.500 -When would I have done that? -Summer job? 07:09.667 --> 07:11.875 Anyway, it reminds me of the O.R., 07:12.709 --> 07:15.417 without the pressure of possibly killing someone. 07:15.500 --> 07:16.583 Come on, let me show you. 07:23.000 --> 07:25.333 Yeah, I can figure it out, thank you. 07:25.417 --> 07:26.625 Okay. 07:26.709 --> 07:28.291 [ Dog barking in distance ] 07:30.959 --> 07:32.291 You might want to -- 07:32.375 --> 07:34.041 You might want to turn it on first. 07:34.250 --> 07:35.834 Yeah, right. 07:35.917 --> 07:38.792 [ Motor whirring ] 07:39.500 --> 07:40.792 Just, what is it? 07:40.875 --> 07:42.333 Here, let me show you. Okay. 07:42.417 --> 07:44.375 First of all, you gotta lift this. 07:44.458 --> 07:45.750 Here's your gauge for how thick 07:45.834 --> 07:47.125 you want to make the slice of meat. 07:47.208 --> 07:48.333 Okay. Got it. Thank you. 07:48.417 --> 07:49.917 -The carriage goes back and forth. -Great. 07:50.000 --> 07:51.625 [ Motor whirring ] 07:51.709 --> 07:52.959 I got it. 07:56.125 --> 07:58.583 Kinda relaxing when you get a rhythm going, huh? 07:59.458 --> 08:03.166 So...you're saying you wanted change, but what? 08:03.250 --> 08:04.834 You felt powerless 'cause you were an Avery or...? 08:04.917 --> 08:05.792 As you know, 08:05.875 --> 08:07.375 the Avery name carries a great deal of influence, 08:07.458 --> 08:08.709 but it also carries... 08:09.458 --> 08:10.834 a great deal of baggage. 08:10.917 --> 08:12.208 That amount of money 08:12.291 --> 08:14.417 can become a burden pretty quickly. 08:14.500 --> 08:16.667 Everybody knows you have it, so... 08:16.750 --> 08:19.041 they expect you to be responsible 08:19.125 --> 08:20.333 to fix everything with it. 08:20.417 --> 08:22.500 And there's almost no one in your shoes, 08:22.625 --> 08:24.792 so almost no one seems to get it. 08:24.875 --> 08:26.542 At least not when I said it. 08:26.625 --> 08:29.208 Certainly not when the name is synonymous 08:29.291 --> 08:31.375 with just the worst behavior imaginable. 08:31.458 --> 08:34.875 Well, not here it's not. 08:34.959 --> 08:36.792 Here, nobody knows who my father was 08:36.875 --> 08:38.208 or that I come from money. 08:38.834 --> 08:40.250 Out here, they just think 08:40.333 --> 08:43.166 I'm Robert who runs the diner. 08:44.500 --> 08:48.083 [ Thunder crashes ] 08:48.166 --> 08:49.500 April: God. 08:49.583 --> 08:52.041 Uh, Matthew's been working a lot. 08:52.125 --> 08:53.542 I mean, I've been working a lot. 08:53.625 --> 08:55.542 Yeah, don't worry about it. My place is, uh -- 08:55.625 --> 08:56.500 Please don't do that. 08:56.583 --> 08:58.417 Don't be all weird-nice with your voice an octave higher 08:58.500 --> 09:00.583 like you do with people at hotels or at the bank. 09:00.667 --> 09:02.625 I have a weird bank voice now? 09:02.709 --> 09:03.917 It's making you nuts. 09:04.000 --> 09:05.333 [ Chuckling ] You -- You can say it. 09:05.417 --> 09:07.041 Just mess everywhere. 09:07.125 --> 09:08.542 Pillows all over the place. 09:08.625 --> 09:09.875 I maintain that throw pillows 09:09.959 --> 09:11.583 are useless and stupid, yeah. 09:12.250 --> 09:14.667 How long has my munchkin been sick? 09:14.750 --> 09:16.625 [ April sighs ] Couple days. 09:17.250 --> 09:18.959 She just hasn't wanted to do anything, 09:19.041 --> 09:20.250 just lie on me. 09:20.333 --> 09:21.959 Also, she needs a bath. She smells like feet. 09:22.041 --> 09:23.583 Well, I hate to break it to you -- that's you. 09:23.667 --> 09:25.375 -No, it's not. -100 percent you. 09:25.458 --> 09:26.625 [ Sniffing ] 09:26.709 --> 09:28.625 -Oh, God. That is me. -Jackson: Yeah. 09:28.709 --> 09:30.834 -Go take a shower. -April [ sighs ]: Jackson, I -- 09:30.917 --> 09:33.041 April, go take a shower, please. 09:34.750 --> 09:36.625 -Hey, Jackson. -Mm-hmm? 09:36.709 --> 09:37.792 I'm calming down. 09:37.875 --> 09:39.583 -See? -I am. I am. 09:39.667 --> 09:41.709 -10 minutes. -10 minutes. 09:41.792 --> 09:44.542 She ever taken a 10-minute shower in her life? 09:44.625 --> 09:45.875 I don't think so. 09:46.709 --> 09:48.208 Some tunes? Good idea. 09:48.792 --> 09:50.709 Let's see what she's got. 09:54.667 --> 09:57.875 [ Jazz music plays ] 09:59.959 --> 10:02.458 We got this, right? 10:02.542 --> 10:04.750 We got this, baby. 10:04.834 --> 10:06.166 We got this. 10:06.250 --> 10:08.333 You're gonna feel better in no time. 10:08.417 --> 10:10.250 Harriet and Dad. 10:11.125 --> 10:12.792 -We got this. -[ Thunder crashes ] 10:12.875 --> 10:14.083 [ Electricity crackles ] 10:14.166 --> 10:15.709 April: Oh, come on! 10:15.792 --> 10:17.333 Or maybe we don't. 10:17.625 --> 10:21.083 [ John Moran's "Thousand Watt Workout" plays ] 10:21.166 --> 10:25.375 ♪ Looking like a fisherman ♪ 10:25.458 --> 10:28.333 ♪ I'm dropping a line in the sea ♪ 10:30.291 --> 10:32.250 I gotta give it to you -- that's some good turkey. 10:32.333 --> 10:33.542 Best in the state. 10:33.625 --> 10:35.500 Yeah, I'll take your word for it. 10:35.583 --> 10:36.917 ♪ Hoping that the graying skies ♪ 10:37.000 --> 10:38.166 So, what'd your dad think 10:38.250 --> 10:40.041 when you decided to walk away from it all? 10:40.125 --> 10:42.667 At first, he thought it was just a phase. 10:42.750 --> 10:44.709 But then when he realized I was serious, 10:45.500 --> 10:47.625 he stopped speaking to me. 10:47.709 --> 10:48.834 Completely? 10:48.917 --> 10:51.000 He said I was selfish, compulsive, lazy, 10:51.083 --> 10:53.291 a stain on the family name. 10:53.375 --> 10:57.083 Which I now see is such a complete joke. 10:57.166 --> 11:00.041 No, he was never interested in talking to me, 11:00.125 --> 11:02.709 unless it was about the hospital image 11:02.792 --> 11:04.625 or profits or expansion. 11:04.709 --> 11:06.208 If I have to have one more conversation 11:06.291 --> 11:08.500 about cutting hospital costs, I swear... 11:08.583 --> 11:09.875 Someone's got to do it. 11:09.959 --> 11:11.667 I just knew it wasn't gonna be me. 11:11.750 --> 11:14.792 I was never gonna be the son my father wanted 11:14.875 --> 11:17.625 because I didn't want to be the man the role required. 11:21.875 --> 11:23.333 That's why you're here. 11:24.083 --> 11:25.667 -Why's that? -Because... 11:26.166 --> 11:28.166 you're ready to leave it all behind. 11:28.250 --> 11:29.458 [ Motor whirring ] 11:41.041 --> 11:42.750 [ Sighs ] 11:42.834 --> 11:44.667 Why does anyone have an electric water heater? 11:44.750 --> 11:47.291 A power outage is when you need hot water the most. 11:47.375 --> 11:50.250 Well, Harriet cried herself to sleep. 11:50.333 --> 11:52.417 I propped her head up to help with the coughing. 11:52.500 --> 11:53.709 Okay, thank you. 11:53.792 --> 11:56.208 And I found a flashlight and a few candles, 11:56.291 --> 11:58.000 but I can't find any damn matches in this house. 11:58.083 --> 12:00.083 Oh, yeah, well, I'm married to a first responder. 12:00.166 --> 12:02.417 The matches are in a drawer even I've never found. 12:02.500 --> 12:04.792 Alright. Well, then, stove it is. 12:04.875 --> 12:06.834 -[ Clicking ] -April: Geez. 12:06.917 --> 12:08.542 Can you get some more candles? 12:08.625 --> 12:10.041 [ Chuckles ] 12:10.125 --> 12:11.583 What? 12:13.208 --> 12:14.500 Oh, crap! Sorry. 12:14.583 --> 12:16.000 This is a nun. 12:16.083 --> 12:18.458 -I just grabbed the, uh -- -The first nun you could find? 12:18.542 --> 12:20.458 [ Sighs ] Saying I'm going to hell? 12:20.542 --> 12:22.458 -Since when do you believe in hell? -True. 12:22.625 --> 12:24.375 But they're your candles, so you're going to hell. 12:24.458 --> 12:25.917 Okay. [ Chuckles ] 12:26.000 --> 12:28.250 -Alright, just give me this. -Yeah, grab that. 12:28.333 --> 12:29.500 Her fever's at 102, 12:29.583 --> 12:31.917 so you might be right about RSV. 12:32.000 --> 12:34.917 Okay. So we just give her acetaminophen 12:35.000 --> 12:36.917 and wait it out unless she gets short of breath? 12:37.000 --> 12:39.083 Versus driving in a blackout to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic? 12:39.166 --> 12:40.542 Yeah, we're not going anywhere. 12:40.625 --> 12:42.000 The risk of exposure alone... 12:42.083 --> 12:44.291 We don't need doctors, April. We are doctors. 12:44.375 --> 12:45.500 And if she gets worse... 12:45.583 --> 12:46.792 Which she probably won't. 12:46.875 --> 12:47.875 Exactly. 12:47.959 --> 12:50.041 Yeah. 12:50.667 --> 12:52.291 How's Meredith doing? 12:52.375 --> 12:53.750 I've been praying for her. 12:53.834 --> 12:55.834 -Oh, she's, uh -- She's awake. -Yeah? 12:55.917 --> 12:57.709 And she's getting better every day, stronger. 12:57.792 --> 12:58.834 -Oh. -Yeah. 13:00.166 --> 13:02.458 So, tonight wasn't your night. 13:02.542 --> 13:04.792 Yes. As usual, your calendar is impeccable. 13:04.875 --> 13:05.834 Well done. 13:05.917 --> 13:07.625 No, I'm just saying, uh, tonight -- 13:07.709 --> 13:09.542 tonight wasn't your night, so why are you -- 13:09.625 --> 13:11.500 How have I never been to your place? 13:11.583 --> 13:13.542 I feel like I guess we must always do drop-offs 13:13.625 --> 13:14.750 at mine or work. 13:14.834 --> 13:16.625 It's -- It's nice. It looks really nice. 13:16.709 --> 13:18.166 -I like what you've done. -Jackson... 13:18.250 --> 13:20.000 You guys are happy, you and -- you and Matthew? 13:20.083 --> 13:21.667 We're busy, like everyone else. 13:21.750 --> 13:23.333 And Harriet and you and him and Ruby, 13:23.417 --> 13:25.250 the same house, it's going... 13:25.375 --> 13:27.125 Exposed brick is -- is cool. I know you've always liked -- 13:27.208 --> 13:28.375 Do you really think I can't tell when you're being cagey? 13:28.458 --> 13:30.667 -I'm not being cagey. -Am I happy? 13:30.750 --> 13:32.542 Exposed brick? Would you just talk like a person? 13:33.917 --> 13:35.333 [ Sighs ] 13:36.625 --> 13:37.959 I went to see my dad again. 13:38.041 --> 13:39.166 Oh, God. Is he sick? 13:39.250 --> 13:40.792 No, he's the same as always. 13:40.875 --> 13:43.792 Obliviously medium happy about his obliviously medium life. 13:45.291 --> 13:46.959 I thought you never wanted to see him again. 13:47.041 --> 13:48.458 I didn't. 13:48.959 --> 13:51.458 I needed to know if I was right about what I... 13:52.417 --> 13:53.625 what I wanted. 13:54.458 --> 13:56.041 And we're back to being cagey. 13:56.125 --> 13:57.667 I'm not trying to be cagey, April. 13:58.291 --> 14:00.250 April, he couldn't handle it. 14:00.959 --> 14:05.000 Okay? He couldn't step up or step into his own, 14:05.083 --> 14:06.458 and I can. 14:06.583 --> 14:07.875 [ Thunder rumbles ] 14:07.959 --> 14:10.291 I want to take over the foundation. 14:13.917 --> 14:16.875 Is this the, uh, coffee you showed me last time I was here? 14:16.959 --> 14:18.625 We sold out of our first batch. 14:18.709 --> 14:20.458 The local paper wrote us up, 14:20.542 --> 14:22.917 so we decided to add four more roasts. 14:23.000 --> 14:25.250 I was gonna branch out into other parts of the state, 14:25.333 --> 14:27.375 and then, ah, COVID. 14:27.458 --> 14:29.709 Yeah, I remember. You guys got hit pretty hard. 14:29.792 --> 14:31.417 Hospital was turning people away, right? 14:31.500 --> 14:32.834 It was a lot. 14:32.917 --> 14:34.458 I did everything I could 14:34.542 --> 14:36.166 to keep this place open after COVID hit. 14:36.250 --> 14:40.208 But then I ended up just bagging up food for the regulars. 14:40.291 --> 14:41.375 Word spread, 14:41.458 --> 14:43.417 and every morning, I come in here 14:43.500 --> 14:46.333 and crank up the Doobie Brothers, 14:46.417 --> 14:48.041 start packing lunches. 14:48.125 --> 14:50.667 It was weirdly therapeutic. 14:50.750 --> 14:52.000 Kept my mind occupied. 14:52.083 --> 14:54.041 [ Sighs ] Well... 14:54.125 --> 14:56.083 you got quite the bubble out here. 14:56.166 --> 14:58.458 Built a very different life for yourself. 14:58.542 --> 14:59.667 Robert: We're all raised to think 14:59.750 --> 15:01.667 that's some kind of wild concept. 15:01.750 --> 15:04.250 But what's wild is going to work every day 15:04.333 --> 15:06.166 doing something you do not like, 15:06.250 --> 15:08.250 thinking one day, it'll just magically stop. 15:09.375 --> 15:10.458 Yeah. 15:11.667 --> 15:13.709 -I just feel stuck. -Hmm. 15:15.583 --> 15:17.709 Like there's two of me. Like there's this -- 15:17.792 --> 15:20.959 this successful surgeon that I worked so hard to become, 15:21.041 --> 15:24.166 was trying to push the foundation to be more progressive. 15:24.250 --> 15:26.041 [ Sighs ] And also just the guy 15:26.125 --> 15:29.250 that didn't ask for any of this, you know? 15:29.333 --> 15:31.625 I'm worried that maybe it's too late -- 15:32.542 --> 15:34.667 the system's beyond repair. 15:35.333 --> 15:38.083 Maybe I could be effective from the outside. 15:38.166 --> 15:40.041 Or maybe you could let go of the idea 15:40.166 --> 15:42.834 that it's your job to save the world. 15:44.458 --> 15:47.667 You know, there's nothing wrong with wanting to keep things simpler. 15:47.750 --> 15:49.583 Yeah, I think about that a lot. 15:50.166 --> 15:51.959 Actually, I think, you know, 15:52.041 --> 15:54.625 I could get a small place in the woods, 15:54.709 --> 15:56.667 maybe open a private practice, 15:56.750 --> 15:59.792 do things [Chuckling] I really care about. 15:59.875 --> 16:02.667 Explore the great outdoors with Harriet. 16:03.208 --> 16:05.875 We all deserve to live our lives however we want. 16:05.959 --> 16:07.000 Sure, yeah. 16:07.083 --> 16:09.250 You are an older white guy who's always had money, so... 16:09.333 --> 16:11.083 If nothing changes in the world, 16:11.166 --> 16:13.667 you're still gonna be fine, but I -- I hear you. 16:13.750 --> 16:16.542 You given any thought to what if? 16:16.625 --> 16:18.208 What if I didn't come back here? 16:18.291 --> 16:20.083 What if you chose differently, yeah. 16:22.250 --> 16:24.458 Well, I'm more of a, hmm... 16:26.250 --> 16:27.792 "never look back" type. 16:31.583 --> 16:33.250 Right, yeah. 16:34.792 --> 16:36.083 Yeah, um... 16:40.417 --> 16:43.709 When I was here last time, I wanted to ask you why, 16:43.792 --> 16:45.750 and I -- I didn't -- I couldn't -- 16:45.834 --> 16:47.583 I guess I used to say I was over it, 16:47.667 --> 16:48.792 but I'm not. 16:48.875 --> 16:50.208 I need to know why you left. 16:53.166 --> 16:54.667 'Cause, um... 16:57.417 --> 16:59.667 ...I realize that it's really messed me up... 17:00.417 --> 17:01.542 pretty badly. 17:01.625 --> 17:03.333 And, um... 17:03.417 --> 17:06.333 [ Clears throat ] It just made it hard to, like, 17:06.417 --> 17:08.375 maintain relationships and stuff. 17:09.333 --> 17:11.750 Having this inclination to run away all the time. 17:11.834 --> 17:12.834 And I know, I know -- 17:12.917 --> 17:14.583 running away doesn't actually solve anything. 17:14.667 --> 17:15.959 I know that. 17:17.333 --> 17:19.208 So -- And I've tried. 17:19.291 --> 17:23.083 I've tried really hard to rid myself of the shame 17:23.458 --> 17:25.917 and the pain that comes with all that, and, uh... 17:26.000 --> 17:27.792 You know, just kind of doubled-down 17:27.875 --> 17:30.583 on being the best at everything -- 17:30.667 --> 17:32.333 the best father I could possibly be. 17:32.417 --> 17:34.625 I probably stayed in my marriage longer than I should have, 17:34.709 --> 17:36.166 went along with foundation business 17:36.250 --> 17:37.542 longer than I should have, 17:37.625 --> 17:39.375 but no matter what, [Grunts] when it gets rough, 17:39.458 --> 17:42.083 I just end up... right there, 17:42.542 --> 17:44.375 running, into the woods. 17:44.458 --> 17:46.542 Try to fight the you in me. 17:46.750 --> 17:49.041 [ Motor whirring ] 17:49.125 --> 17:51.792 Can you not just sit there looking at me? Can you say something? 17:52.000 --> 17:53.542 Pretend that I'm worth talking to? 17:53.625 --> 17:55.542 I don't know how you can just say nothing all the -- Ow! 17:55.625 --> 17:57.709 God! Aah! Damn it! 17:58.834 --> 17:59.959 God! 18:00.041 --> 18:01.291 Oh, man. You alright? 18:01.375 --> 18:03.458 No, I'm not alright! Give it -- I got it! 18:03.542 --> 18:05.166 Pressure, pressure, pressure. 18:12.625 --> 18:14.125 Okay. 18:20.625 --> 18:22.583 [ Sighs ] Temp's down to 101. 18:22.667 --> 18:24.333 -It's just a bad dream. -[ Thunder rumbles ] 18:24.417 --> 18:26.834 -Oh, yeah? How's her breathing? -It's better. 18:26.917 --> 18:28.000 -Oh, good, alright. -Yeah. 18:28.083 --> 18:30.166 -So we could be out of the woods. -Yeah. 18:31.542 --> 18:33.083 [ Thunder rumbling ] 18:33.750 --> 18:35.083 So, were you hoping 18:35.166 --> 18:36.792 -Matthew wasn't gonna be here tonight? -What? 18:36.875 --> 18:38.125 No, I don't have a problem with Matthew. 18:38.208 --> 18:39.750 -Really? -[ Chuckling ] What? 18:39.834 --> 18:41.500 Whenever you guys are in the same room together, 18:41.583 --> 18:42.875 you say one of three things -- 18:42.959 --> 18:45.000 "Yup," "Sure," "Not a problem." 18:45.083 --> 18:46.041 Jackson: Well, okay, yeah. 18:46.125 --> 18:49.417 We're not best friends, but, I mean, it's civil. 18:49.500 --> 18:50.959 He seems like a fine guy. 18:51.041 --> 18:54.792 -He seems, uh, kind. -Kind? 18:54.875 --> 18:56.542 I don't have a bad word to say about him. 18:56.625 --> 18:57.875 That -- That's something. 18:57.959 --> 19:00.917 So then why did you want to come tell me this in person? 19:02.000 --> 19:04.041 You're considering running the foundation. 19:04.125 --> 19:05.166 What's that got to do with me? 19:05.250 --> 19:06.500 That's the thing -- 19:06.583 --> 19:09.959 I'm not just considering it. I'm doing it. 19:11.250 --> 19:13.750 Running the foundation means I got to move to Boston. 19:14.792 --> 19:17.667 W-- Without Harriet? 19:17.750 --> 19:19.125 No. God, no. 19:19.208 --> 19:20.333 I'm moving to Boston, 19:20.417 --> 19:23.458 and I really need you all to come. 19:24.375 --> 19:26.166 The foundation will employ you and Matthew. 19:26.250 --> 19:27.208 You'll be set. 19:27.291 --> 19:28.333 You can do whatever you want 19:28.417 --> 19:31.125 in terms of an outreach program or design or build. 19:31.208 --> 19:33.000 Anything you want to do, we'll fund it. 19:33.667 --> 19:36.000 -I would never leave Harriet. -[ Thunder crashes ] 19:37.625 --> 19:40.583 I could never, ever leave Harriet, 19:40.667 --> 19:43.333 which means I really need you all to come with me. 19:44.667 --> 19:45.959 Please. 19:46.375 --> 19:47.959 [ Thunder crashes ] 19:51.709 --> 19:54.375 Robert: Doesn't look like there are any tendon injuries. 19:54.458 --> 19:55.792 Yeah, the cut's not that deep. 19:55.875 --> 19:58.250 Okay. Another wash, then let's glue it. 19:59.041 --> 20:00.125 [ Sighs ] 20:00.166 --> 20:01.583 I can handle it from here. 20:01.667 --> 20:02.875 Actually, just hand me the glue. 20:03.792 --> 20:05.000 Okay. 20:07.709 --> 20:09.000 Ow. 20:10.583 --> 20:11.917 [ Grunts softly ] 20:12.333 --> 20:13.875 Just give me your hand. 20:13.959 --> 20:16.291 -Come on, man. Let me do this. -Okay. 20:17.083 --> 20:18.959 I may not have practiced in a while, 20:19.041 --> 20:21.208 but it is like riding a bike. 20:21.417 --> 20:23.542 Not exactly, but okay. 20:23.625 --> 20:25.375 Hold it together. 20:27.291 --> 20:28.417 See? 20:28.500 --> 20:30.333 Alright. That is not bad. 20:30.417 --> 20:31.834 Okay. Does it hurt? 20:31.917 --> 20:33.625 -Do you want any Tylenol or anything? -Um. 20:33.709 --> 20:35.583 No, no, no. It's actually just... 20:35.959 --> 20:38.542 It stings a little bit, but that's fine. 20:38.625 --> 20:40.291 -Thank yo -. Look at us. 20:40.375 --> 20:42.542 We ought to open up a family practice. 20:47.375 --> 20:48.667 You know, I'm gonna... 20:49.834 --> 20:51.792 I'm just gonna grab some air. 20:58.333 --> 21:00.083 -[ Thunder crashes ] -April: I get it, Jackson. 21:00.166 --> 21:01.500 You're not the only person in quarantine 21:01.583 --> 21:03.250 who's drowning in big 21:03.333 --> 21:04.542 "What the hell am I doing with my life?" 21:04.625 --> 21:05.625 kind of questions. 21:05.709 --> 21:08.917 But you don't just up and move across the country on a whim. 21:09.000 --> 21:10.875 No, no, no, that's not what this is. It's not on a whim. 21:10.959 --> 21:13.125 Since the moment I met you at Mercy West, 21:13.208 --> 21:16.166 you have rejected your family name, the legacy, 21:16.250 --> 21:17.542 even the freaking plane. 21:17.625 --> 21:19.542 You've -- You've wanted nothing to do with any of it. 21:19.625 --> 21:21.250 -I resisted. That's not necess-- -No, no, no. 21:21.333 --> 21:23.208 Sorry, you've been running, kicking and screaming. 21:23.250 --> 21:24.834 That is not where this is coming from. 21:24.917 --> 21:26.709 Okay? I can use this as an opportunity 21:26.792 --> 21:29.083 to make some profound changes in the world. 21:29.166 --> 21:30.291 You understand? 21:30.375 --> 21:32.500 I respect that. I mean, I-I admire that, Jackson. 21:32.583 --> 21:35.000 As long as it's not an inconvenience to your perfect little life here? 21:35.083 --> 21:38.417 Uprooting my entire life is not an inconvenience. 21:38.500 --> 21:40.208 Okay, you're right. 21:40.291 --> 21:42.041 But I need this. 21:42.125 --> 21:43.625 I know that I need to do this. 21:43.709 --> 21:45.792 I can feel it in my gut, and I just want to trust that for once. 21:45.917 --> 21:48.834 Okay. How many times have you "felt in your gut"... 21:48.917 --> 21:51.166 -Don't -- -...the need to just pack up a tent 21:51.250 --> 21:53.083 and go for a walkabout 21:53.166 --> 21:54.792 and talk to yourself amongst the trees? 21:54.875 --> 21:57.083 So I'm the only one that's walked away when I was having a hard time? 21:57.959 --> 21:59.542 -Just me, huh? -[ Sighs ] 21:59.625 --> 22:00.625 How many times have you been 22:00.709 --> 22:02.000 sitting in the front pew at a church, 22:02.083 --> 22:04.250 talking to God about the plans for your life? 22:04.333 --> 22:06.125 -It's not the same thing. I -- -Why not? 22:06.208 --> 22:08.208 Why is it that you can find solace and purpose in a church, 22:08.291 --> 22:09.500 but I can't find it in nature, 22:09.583 --> 22:12.000 where I can actually have some time that's quiet, 22:12.083 --> 22:13.834 hear myself think, think about what I want, 22:13.917 --> 22:15.333 not what everybody else expects of me? 22:15.417 --> 22:16.583 So how long did you spend 22:16.667 --> 22:19.333 thinking about going to see your father? 22:19.417 --> 22:21.250 -How much time did you spend doing that? -Don't reduce it to that! 22:21.333 --> 22:22.750 Or did you just, like, get in a car and -- and go -- 22:22.834 --> 22:23.917 No, it's not on a whim, okay? 22:24.000 --> 22:25.041 -It was a realization. -Okay, I -- 22:25.125 --> 22:26.166 I needed clarity, 22:26.250 --> 22:28.333 and I went and talked to Robert, and I got it. 22:28.417 --> 22:33.125 [ Sighs ] You have never wanted any of this. 22:33.208 --> 22:36.291 And -- And I'm just supposed to roll with it 22:36.375 --> 22:37.583 and see what happens? 22:37.917 --> 22:40.083 What -- What happens when you regret it? 22:40.166 --> 22:42.625 What happens when you realize that you actually hate it? 22:42.709 --> 22:44.125 What you're asking of me, 22:44.208 --> 22:46.542 of -- of our family, of our daughter, it's... 22:48.333 --> 22:50.875 [ Sighs ] What happens if it doesn't work? 22:52.917 --> 22:55.500 Matthew got on one knee and proposed to you... 22:55.583 --> 22:57.500 -Please don't. Jackson, I'm -- -No, no, no, it's true. 22:57.625 --> 22:59.500 He got on one knee and proposed to you in front of me. 22:59.917 --> 23:01.166 I stood there, 23:01.875 --> 23:03.250 watched another man become your husband 23:03.333 --> 23:05.500 and stepfather to my child -- our child... 23:05.625 --> 23:06.542 Mm-hmm. 23:06.625 --> 23:08.375 ...and at no point did I come to you and say, 23:08.458 --> 23:10.208 "Yeah, but what if it doesn't work?" 23:10.291 --> 23:11.208 I didn't do that. 23:11.291 --> 23:12.875 I had your back that day and every day since. 23:14.500 --> 23:16.250 He bugs the hell out of you, doesn't he? 23:16.333 --> 23:18.125 I'm allowed to be frustrated at the guy 23:18.208 --> 23:19.875 who makes sandwiches weird. 23:19.959 --> 23:21.917 Who -- I-It's -- And he calls her Hair-Hair. 23:22.000 --> 23:24.875 -I know. I know. I'm working on that. -[ Chuckles ] 23:25.834 --> 23:28.125 What I'm not allowed to do, April, 23:28.250 --> 23:30.041 what -- what I've actually never done, 23:30.125 --> 23:31.125 is stand in the way 23:31.208 --> 23:33.542 of the happiness that you chose for yourself. 23:33.625 --> 23:35.083 [ Thunder rumbles ] 23:35.166 --> 23:36.458 I had your back. 23:37.291 --> 23:38.709 I know this is a surprise, 23:38.792 --> 23:41.583 but I'm just asking you -- do the same for me. 23:42.500 --> 23:44.041 -[ Thunder crashes ] -I... 23:45.709 --> 23:48.291 I -- I want you to be happy, Jackson. 23:49.125 --> 23:50.583 You deserve it. 23:52.208 --> 23:55.583 But... running the foundation? 23:55.667 --> 23:58.834 I -- I'm sorry. It's just... 24:00.083 --> 24:01.500 You're not that guy. 24:01.834 --> 24:04.375 -[ Thunder rumbles ] -I don't think you ever will be. 24:10.959 --> 24:13.333 Jackson: So, that's it? I'm either gonna fail or quit? 24:13.417 --> 24:15.417 I'm sorry, Jackson. I didn't -- I didn't mean that -- 24:15.500 --> 24:16.834 Yeah, you did. That's exactly what you meant. 24:16.917 --> 24:20.458 [ Sighs ] Ok-- Fine. Yeah. I did. 24:21.166 --> 24:23.291 Jackson, you are a brilliant surgeon. 24:23.375 --> 24:25.917 You rebuild people's faces, you rebuild their lives. 24:26.000 --> 24:27.125 You find a way to make them breathe 24:27.208 --> 24:28.917 when -- when it seems impossible. 24:29.333 --> 24:31.500 You gave a little boy back his hands. 24:31.583 --> 24:33.417 You prayed me back into the world 24:33.500 --> 24:34.959 when I was almost dead. 24:35.041 --> 24:37.166 Y-You take out impossible tumors, 24:37.250 --> 24:39.333 and you make people walk out into the world 24:39.417 --> 24:41.166 with their heads held high. 24:41.250 --> 24:43.333 That's where you've left your mark. 24:44.041 --> 24:47.083 It's what makes you exceptional. Wh-- 24:47.542 --> 24:50.000 Why would you want to give all of that up? 24:50.083 --> 24:52.041 It's not about what I want. It's what I need to do. 24:52.125 --> 24:53.875 Well, you know what? It's a little late to decide that. 24:53.959 --> 24:54.834 Excuse me? 24:54.917 --> 24:56.583 You don't get to choose who I am in this world, April. 24:56.667 --> 24:57.583 Nobody does. 24:57.667 --> 24:59.750 Not my father, not Mom -- nobody. 24:59.834 --> 25:01.542 And you don't get to choose your career over mine. 25:01.625 --> 25:02.875 -That's -- -I am happy. 25:03.000 --> 25:04.083 I'm helping people. 25:04.166 --> 25:06.458 I'm really helping them. 25:06.583 --> 25:08.000 I am building support systems 25:08.083 --> 25:10.458 and resources for people in rural communities, 25:10.542 --> 25:11.959 and they need so much, 25:12.041 --> 25:13.709 and I can actually do that for them. 25:13.792 --> 25:15.250 Jackson: And you can keep doing that. 25:15.333 --> 25:17.166 You can do it on an even bigger scale. 25:17.250 --> 25:18.542 You can do it across the country. 25:18.625 --> 25:20.834 I'm -- You're literally just gaining resources. 25:20.917 --> 25:22.709 April, I am not trying to diminish your work. 25:22.792 --> 25:24.250 We have an opportunity 25:24.333 --> 25:26.125 to do something really amazing for all of us. 25:26.208 --> 25:28.041 Matthew will go along with it. 25:28.125 --> 25:30.000 He'll follow you. 25:30.083 --> 25:31.667 That's why I like him so much. 25:32.291 --> 25:34.250 [ Both laugh ] 25:34.333 --> 25:36.166 Oh, God. 25:40.750 --> 25:41.875 You know what? 25:41.959 --> 25:45.667 You -- You didn't always have my back. 25:48.250 --> 25:51.166 When I found what I needed in Jordan, 25:51.291 --> 25:52.250 you didn't go with me. 25:52.333 --> 25:54.125 You left me alone. I went alone. 25:54.208 --> 25:56.834 Jackson: April, that's not fair. You ran away from me. 25:56.917 --> 25:59.667 And Samuel and the pain and the grief, 25:59.750 --> 26:02.291 which is understandable. 26:02.375 --> 26:05.583 You know, I was resentful at the time, but I get it. 26:05.667 --> 26:07.166 You were surviving. 26:07.250 --> 26:09.500 You had to do what you had to do to survive. 26:09.583 --> 26:11.875 But this isn't that, anyway. 26:11.959 --> 26:13.667 I'm not running from something. 26:14.166 --> 26:15.750 I'm trying to run to something. 26:15.834 --> 26:18.291 Trying to make something my own. 26:18.375 --> 26:19.917 [ Thunder rumbles ] 26:21.625 --> 26:23.125 [ Sighs ] 26:23.208 --> 26:25.750 It's not fair, Jackson. 26:26.834 --> 26:28.291 If you had the opportunity 26:28.375 --> 26:32.875 to finally make it all make sense... 26:34.166 --> 26:36.917 to become what you were meant to be, 26:37.000 --> 26:40.959 wouldn't you try really, really hard to get there? 26:42.375 --> 26:43.959 I would. 26:44.500 --> 26:46.750 I did. [ Chuckles ] 26:46.834 --> 26:49.125 That's all I'm asking for. 26:52.291 --> 26:53.667 [ Sighs ] 26:53.750 --> 26:56.208 [ Harriet cries ] 26:56.291 --> 26:57.667 I got it. 26:57.750 --> 27:00.375 [ Crying continues ] 27:01.375 --> 27:03.542 [ Thunder rumbles ] 27:08.000 --> 27:11.125 [ Sighs ] 99.3. 27:11.208 --> 27:12.333 -Oh, good. Alright. -Yeah. 27:12.417 --> 27:13.750 So she's a little more comfortable. 27:13.834 --> 27:15.375 Yeah. She's talking in her sleep. 27:15.458 --> 27:16.875 -Oh, yeah? -Yeah. 27:16.959 --> 27:17.959 Anything good? 27:18.041 --> 27:19.542 Just gibberish. 27:19.625 --> 27:21.583 She said, "Amananome." 27:21.667 --> 27:23.667 Ah. That is the sea anemone. 27:23.750 --> 27:24.792 Oh. 27:24.875 --> 27:26.375 She's been waking me up the last few weeks 27:26.458 --> 27:28.625 with a different sea creature fact. 27:28.709 --> 27:29.792 Are they really "facts," though? 27:29.875 --> 27:32.250 [ Laughs ] In her head, they are. 27:32.333 --> 27:33.709 [ Chuckles ] 27:33.792 --> 27:35.959 It's the best alarm clock, ever, I'll tell you. 27:36.041 --> 27:37.625 Last week, she told me 27:37.709 --> 27:40.792 that she could hear "werewoofs" throwing up in your basement. 27:40.875 --> 27:42.375 Really? I don't even have a basement. 27:42.458 --> 27:43.625 Oh, I'm aware. 27:43.709 --> 27:45.375 There's no convincing her otherwise. 27:45.458 --> 27:46.917 So stubborn. 27:47.000 --> 27:48.959 Which I would say comes from her mother... 27:49.041 --> 27:50.250 -Mm. -...but I think we both know... 27:50.333 --> 27:51.583 -50/50 split. -...right down the middle. 27:51.667 --> 27:53.458 Yeah. 27:53.542 --> 27:55.625 I could never give that up going to Boston. 27:55.709 --> 27:58.583 Sea creature alarm clocks, holding her when she's sick. 27:58.667 --> 28:00.125 But I can't walk away from this chance 28:00.208 --> 28:01.792 to make real change in the foundation. 28:01.875 --> 28:04.417 I mean, Mom was able to do both. 28:04.500 --> 28:06.500 And I know in my gut, that I can, too. 28:06.583 --> 28:08.959 I mean, I owe it to Harriet to try, at least. 28:09.041 --> 28:10.959 -I know. -And I know I can't do it all, 28:11.041 --> 28:12.834 but, April, I am telling you, 28:13.208 --> 28:15.792 I can take this foundation to a whole new chapter. 28:15.959 --> 28:18.417 I mean, creating real racial equity in medicine. 28:18.500 --> 28:19.500 Are you kidding? 28:19.583 --> 28:21.917 It's a revolutionary, lasting change. 28:22.208 --> 28:24.000 I could look my daughter in the face 28:24.083 --> 28:26.041 and know that I've done everything I possibly can 28:26.125 --> 28:27.834 to give her a better world. 28:27.917 --> 28:29.875 I know. I know. 28:30.875 --> 28:32.208 I could do all that 28:32.291 --> 28:34.500 and -- and be the father that mine never was. 28:37.875 --> 28:40.709 And all I need to do is turn my life upside down. 28:47.583 --> 28:51.458 [ Birds chirping ] 28:58.625 --> 29:00.792 Puts a lot into perspective, huh? 29:05.458 --> 29:08.667 Yeah, I come out here every morning just to take it all in. 29:10.333 --> 29:12.333 Feel like I got a lot more thinking done 29:12.417 --> 29:13.875 these last few days out here 29:13.959 --> 29:16.166 than probably [Chuckling] all year. 29:19.250 --> 29:20.792 Might find it hard to believe, 29:20.875 --> 29:23.667 but I've been thinking a lot about our last visit. 29:23.750 --> 29:25.083 Everything you said. 29:26.625 --> 29:28.083 And the truth is, 29:28.166 --> 29:30.125 I left because that's what I do. 29:30.542 --> 29:32.583 I chose this place because it's safe. 29:33.291 --> 29:36.583 Running the restaurant, bagging lunches, 29:36.834 --> 29:39.125 none of it requires much of me. 29:39.583 --> 29:42.417 I can walk away and not look back any time. 29:45.500 --> 29:47.750 And just forget about who you're leaving behind, yeah? 29:47.834 --> 29:50.041 I was convinced you were better off without me. 29:50.125 --> 29:51.166 Without a father? 29:51.250 --> 29:53.709 How would you think I'm better off without... 29:54.542 --> 29:57.750 my father never being there for any birthdays, 29:57.834 --> 29:59.125 any graduations? 29:59.291 --> 30:02.333 That time I got beat up by Billy Paxton? 30:02.875 --> 30:04.333 At my wedding? 30:04.417 --> 30:07.125 The birth of my child, your granddaughter. 30:07.542 --> 30:09.417 My divorce -- maybe that would've been a good time 30:09.500 --> 30:12.333 for you to step in and share some wisdom. 30:13.041 --> 30:14.542 A hug, I don't know. 30:14.625 --> 30:16.250 Help me make some decisions? 30:16.333 --> 30:19.625 It's not like it was a few months, man. 30:20.000 --> 30:21.583 Or a year or 10 years. 30:21.667 --> 30:22.834 It's my entire life. 30:22.917 --> 30:25.417 -How could you think that's better? -In my father's eyes, 30:25.834 --> 30:27.583 I was the screw-up in the family, 30:27.667 --> 30:28.917 and I absorbed that story. 30:29.000 --> 30:30.625 Maybe I became it. 30:30.709 --> 30:32.959 And I didn't want to pass that down to you. 30:33.333 --> 30:35.166 : I did not want to mess you up. 30:36.375 --> 30:38.917 [ Scoffs ] Congrats. 30:39.000 --> 30:40.208 Robert: I get that now. 30:40.291 --> 30:41.959 I hurt a lot of people. 30:43.083 --> 30:45.166 You, your mother. 30:46.291 --> 30:49.041 And to have found out I have a granddaughter that I... 30:52.166 --> 30:53.458 may never meet... 30:53.542 --> 30:55.583 Yeah, well, it didn't have to be that way, did it? 30:55.667 --> 30:57.333 Robert: You're absolutely right. 30:57.417 --> 30:59.083 So I buy her presents. 30:59.166 --> 31:02.542 An art set, a basketball, tricycle, board games. 31:02.625 --> 31:04.417 What are you saying? And you didn't send them? 31:04.500 --> 31:05.500 I don't have the right. 31:05.750 --> 31:06.959 I don't deserve... 31:07.959 --> 31:11.291 to take your time, be in your space. 31:13.166 --> 31:15.417 Not one day has passed 31:15.500 --> 31:18.333 that I haven't regretted leaving you. 31:18.417 --> 31:20.583 It haunts me in my sleep, 31:21.000 --> 31:22.917 when I wake up in the morning. 31:23.000 --> 31:25.166 And I am truly, truly sorry. 31:25.250 --> 31:28.333 And yet I know an apology will never make up for it. 31:28.417 --> 31:30.291 And I have to live with that. 31:31.083 --> 31:32.959 I will never get over it. 31:35.208 --> 31:37.041 Oh, Jackson. 31:37.125 --> 31:39.625 Crossroads like this, you don't arrive at them often, 31:39.709 --> 31:41.834 but I know you will be okay, 31:42.500 --> 31:44.291 no matter what road you choose. 31:45.166 --> 31:46.875 I'm still an Avery, right? 31:46.959 --> 31:48.291 I still find some way to... 31:48.875 --> 31:50.000 walk away from it all. 31:50.083 --> 31:51.583 Apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 31:51.667 --> 31:52.792 Isn't that what they say? 31:52.875 --> 31:55.041 -[ Chuckles ] -Nice. 31:55.125 --> 31:56.959 -That's great. -No, I'm sorry. 31:57.041 --> 31:58.500 I just thought that was funny. 31:58.583 --> 32:00.333 I'm the tree, you're the apple. 32:01.291 --> 32:02.542 Do you really think that? 32:03.000 --> 32:04.417 I'm sitting here, aren't I? 32:04.500 --> 32:07.458 Jackson, let me assure you, you are not me. 32:07.542 --> 32:09.750 The fact that you're even questioning your choices 32:09.834 --> 32:11.250 is proof of that. 32:11.333 --> 32:12.500 And if that's not enough, 32:12.583 --> 32:14.417 you are committed, Jackson. 32:14.500 --> 32:17.875 Committed to your work, to your family, to people in need. 32:20.000 --> 32:22.417 And I know sometimes you want to run away from it all, 32:22.500 --> 32:24.542 but anybody with any sense does that. 32:24.959 --> 32:28.208 It's very different from actually following through with it. 32:29.917 --> 32:31.417 I was scared. 32:32.375 --> 32:33.625 I'm scared. 32:33.709 --> 32:36.166 Yeah, but you're scared of doing the wrong thing. 32:36.625 --> 32:39.667 I was too scared to do the right thing. 32:42.125 --> 32:43.458 You're not a runner. 32:43.542 --> 32:45.625 If you were, you would have been long gone by now. 32:45.792 --> 32:47.000 Do you know how easy it would have been 32:47.083 --> 32:48.375 for you to walk away from everything 32:48.458 --> 32:50.583 after it all came out about the foundation? 32:50.667 --> 32:52.583 Did you even consider it? 32:54.792 --> 32:56.041 Not really, no. 32:56.125 --> 32:57.417 Of course not. 32:57.500 --> 32:59.959 'Cause you have it in your soul to do the right thing, 33:00.041 --> 33:01.625 to make things right. 33:01.709 --> 33:03.291 And you didn't just fix a disaster, 33:03.375 --> 33:04.583 you made it better. 33:05.417 --> 33:08.709 So if you don't want to stay, don't. 33:08.792 --> 33:10.583 But don't blame it on me. 33:13.500 --> 33:15.000 'Cause on your worst day, 33:15.083 --> 33:17.291 you are 10 times the man I am. 33:28.208 --> 33:31.417 [ Thunder crashes ] 33:38.542 --> 33:40.125 -Jackson? -Hey. 33:40.208 --> 33:41.333 -Come in. -I can't stay. 33:41.417 --> 33:42.959 Honey, it's pouring out here. 33:43.041 --> 33:44.083 Here, Mom. 33:44.166 --> 33:45.875 I mean, I can't stay at Grey-Sloan in Seattle. 33:45.959 --> 33:47.709 I can't keep doing what we've always done. 33:47.792 --> 33:49.125 You know how many people of color 33:49.208 --> 33:50.917 we've already lost since the pandemic started? 33:51.000 --> 33:53.000 The system keeps diminishing and erasing us. 33:53.083 --> 33:55.375 T-They're literally letting people just die in the streets, 33:55.458 --> 33:56.583 and we can do something about it. 33:56.667 --> 33:58.250 I got to show Harriet that we can put our money 33:58.333 --> 34:00.000 and our attention where our mouths are. 34:00.083 --> 34:01.834 And we can acknowledge the connection between our work 34:01.917 --> 34:03.250 and what's actually happening in the streets 34:03.333 --> 34:06.375 and give a sense of equity in this world, okay? 34:06.458 --> 34:08.166 It's not gonna change after COVID. 34:08.250 --> 34:09.959 We know that. 34:10.041 --> 34:12.500 White supremacy is woven into the fabric of this country, 34:12.583 --> 34:14.250 and that means medicine, too. 34:14.333 --> 34:15.834 [ Sighs ] People that look like us 34:15.959 --> 34:18.333 should not have to be gaslit, shamed, and ignored 34:18.417 --> 34:19.792 when they're just going to the doctor, 34:19.875 --> 34:21.875 constantly having to prove that their lives have any value. 34:21.959 --> 34:24.125 It's like this constant cycle of stress 34:24.208 --> 34:26.375 from poverty and trauma and racism, 34:26.458 --> 34:28.917 and it's definitely impacting mental health -- 34:29.000 --> 34:30.667 it's definitely killing us. 34:30.750 --> 34:32.041 Where are people supposed to turn? 34:32.125 --> 34:33.417 They don't feel safe going to the doctor. 34:33.500 --> 34:35.250 They're scared to call the cops. 34:35.375 --> 34:37.500 This is like a deep-seated neglect. 34:37.583 --> 34:40.250 And if our deaths are not affecting their profit margin, 34:40.333 --> 34:42.000 then it's not gonna change. 34:44.750 --> 34:46.000 I want to take over the foundation. 34:46.083 --> 34:47.667 What? 34:47.750 --> 34:49.083 I want to reallocate every penny that we have 34:49.166 --> 34:50.583 to equity in medicine -- 34:50.667 --> 34:52.834 women's health, trans health, racial equity. 34:52.917 --> 34:56.667 I want everyone who this country abuses to be served, okay? 34:56.750 --> 34:59.083 We need to challenge all the ways that we teach, 34:59.166 --> 35:00.792 everything that we're doing. 35:00.875 --> 35:03.291 If that means dismantling the whole medical system 35:03.375 --> 35:05.875 a-and -- and designing something that actually serves everyone, 35:05.959 --> 35:07.333 then that's what I want to do. 35:07.417 --> 35:08.583 I-I see that now. I'm ready. 35:08.667 --> 35:10.500 Jackson, where have you been? 35:10.583 --> 35:12.041 It doesn't even matter anymore, Mom. 35:12.125 --> 35:14.250 It matters that I'm back and I know where I belong. 35:14.333 --> 35:15.583 Oh! 35:15.667 --> 35:16.959 -I gotta go. I love you. -Ah! 35:17.083 --> 35:18.709 [ Smooches ] Where on God's earth are you going now? 35:18.792 --> 35:20.125 I got to go talk to April. 35:20.208 --> 35:21.709 What?! Jackson... 35:21.792 --> 35:23.417 [ Thunder crashing ] 35:28.959 --> 35:31.333 Here we go. Yummy! 35:31.417 --> 35:33.000 Are you gonna go with crazy fork? 35:33.667 --> 35:34.709 [ Exhales sharply ] 35:34.792 --> 35:37.291 Pancakes go in your belly. 35:37.375 --> 35:38.709 Why do you always go for the big ones? 35:38.792 --> 35:39.750 [Harriet speaking indistinctly] 35:39.834 --> 35:41.834 -Take all the small pieces, alright? -[ Sighs ] 35:41.917 --> 35:43.250 You want to cut your own little piece? 35:43.333 --> 35:44.333 -Harriet: A small one. -Jackson: What are you doing -- 35:44.417 --> 35:46.750 a small one this time, that's soaked up in syrup? 35:46.834 --> 35:48.208 Extra syrup? 35:48.291 --> 35:49.583 Ooh. There she is. 35:49.709 --> 35:51.583 -There she is. -Hi! 35:51.667 --> 35:52.834 Harriet: Mommy! 35:52.917 --> 35:55.417 [ Laughs ] Hi! 35:55.500 --> 35:57.125 -Oh! -No fever. 35:57.208 --> 35:59.959 Oh, good, good, good. 36:00.041 --> 36:01.291 I want orange juice. 36:01.375 --> 36:02.875 Yeah, you can have some orange juice. 36:02.959 --> 36:04.291 You want me to get it for you, baby? 36:04.375 --> 36:05.542 No, I get it myself. 36:05.625 --> 36:06.917 -[ Chuckles ] Okay. -Jackson: Okay. 36:07.000 --> 36:08.291 [ Laughs ] 36:08.375 --> 36:10.000 Go ahead, baby. 36:10.083 --> 36:12.500 Are you gonna unscrew the top and pour it? 36:16.667 --> 36:19.041 April: You are that guy, Jackson. 36:19.750 --> 36:22.125 I was an ass for saying otherwise. 36:22.208 --> 36:23.458 Yeah? 36:25.083 --> 36:26.959 Pillows in every room. [ Chuckles ] 36:27.041 --> 36:28.667 They come in handy. 36:29.041 --> 36:31.125 Hey, are you sure about this? 36:31.875 --> 36:33.333 I'm not sure it's gonna work, but... 36:33.417 --> 36:35.291 I'm sure it's what I want, yeah. 36:36.125 --> 36:38.834 Why is our timing always so terrible? 36:39.125 --> 36:41.083 I thought that was kind of our thing -- bad timing. 36:41.166 --> 36:42.500 We just never figured out 36:42.583 --> 36:44.709 how to want the same thing at the same time. 36:44.792 --> 36:45.959 Even with Harriet. 36:46.166 --> 36:48.875 Yeah, but, I mean, it worked out pretty well. 36:49.375 --> 36:50.792 Yeah, but we were fighting, 36:50.875 --> 36:52.166 and then we had sex 36:52.250 --> 36:53.959 while our marriage was falling apart. 36:54.458 --> 36:55.875 That was actually our thing -- 36:56.000 --> 36:58.500 arguing until we were blue in the face and then having sex. 36:58.583 --> 37:00.625 Yeah, I guess we were doomed, huh? 37:01.458 --> 37:04.792 Look, if you're really living your dream here, 37:04.875 --> 37:06.625 I'll give it up, because you're right. 37:06.709 --> 37:08.125 I'm totally springing it on you guys. 37:08.208 --> 37:09.125 No. What? 37:09.208 --> 37:11.041 You do not get to do all the speeches 37:11.125 --> 37:12.208 and the convincing 37:12.291 --> 37:15.000 and that thing where your face just lights up 37:15.083 --> 37:16.208 just to take it all back again. 37:16.291 --> 37:17.417 Don't take it all back. 37:18.125 --> 37:19.792 You deserve this. 37:20.208 --> 37:21.834 Wait. What are you saying? 37:21.917 --> 37:23.417 I am saying... 37:24.959 --> 37:27.250 ...we will make Boston work. 37:28.458 --> 37:30.083 I'm saying yes. 37:30.166 --> 37:32.166 What? You're saying yes? 37:32.250 --> 37:33.417 -To my question, you're saying yes? -Yes. 37:33.500 --> 37:35.625 I'm saying -- Yeah. I thought that's what you wanted. 37:35.709 --> 37:37.375 Yeah, but -- Yes? 37:37.458 --> 37:39.667 Like, I didn't think it would be that easy. 37:39.750 --> 37:41.458 I'm sorry. You call this night easy? 37:41.542 --> 37:42.917 No, not -- not easy like that, 37:43.000 --> 37:46.166 but, like, I thought [chuckles] you'd have to pray 37:46.250 --> 37:49.041 or consult with Matthew, maybe get your pastor involved, 37:49.125 --> 37:51.375 -some additional praying... -Yeah. Yeah. Matthew will be fine. 37:51.458 --> 37:53.041 -[ Sighs ] -Alright, well, when does he get back? 37:53.125 --> 37:54.792 I can help with the pitch. I can talk to him. 37:54.875 --> 37:56.917 -What do you want me to...? -Uh, no. No. No. 37:57.000 --> 37:58.834 No, that's a horrible and weird idea... 37:58.917 --> 38:00.166 [Yeah. -Yes... obviously. 38:00.250 --> 38:02.041 Um, but tell him that I can help him with work. 38:02.125 --> 38:03.959 I'll make sure everything is arranged for him and for Ruby. 38:04.041 --> 38:05.291 We split up. 38:09.500 --> 38:10.750 Oh. 38:18.333 --> 38:22.000 April: We kept trying to tell ourselves that our whole winding road 38:22.083 --> 38:24.917 was God's plan to bring us back together. 38:25.000 --> 38:26.208 [ Breathes deeply ] 38:26.291 --> 38:29.208 But he was still so angry and so hurt. 38:30.542 --> 38:33.583 I mean, I left him at the altar, and then his wife died. 38:33.667 --> 38:35.709 You know, you don't just stop feeling hurt 38:35.792 --> 38:37.417 'cause it's a better story 38:37.500 --> 38:40.333 if God brought us together in our pain. 38:41.291 --> 38:42.834 He denied it for so long. 38:42.917 --> 38:45.917 You know, he tried so hard not to hate me. 38:46.000 --> 38:49.583 I think loving me, making us a full circle 38:49.667 --> 38:51.959 was the story he was writing. 38:52.083 --> 38:54.625 I mean, I guess it was the story we were both writing. 38:54.709 --> 38:56.166 I mean, I was trying to get past my guilt. 38:56.250 --> 38:58.125 He was -- He was trying to forgive God 38:58.208 --> 39:00.208 for the loss of Karin. 39:03.709 --> 39:06.875 But, y-you know, ultimately, we learned that... 39:08.417 --> 39:09.667 [ Chuckles ] 39:10.041 --> 39:14.166 ...life just isn't always so tidy. 39:17.500 --> 39:20.750 And God's plan isn't always so easy to understand. 39:22.166 --> 39:23.792 He's always been so good with Harriet, 39:23.875 --> 39:25.375 and I adore Ruby, 39:25.458 --> 39:27.542 but we both started working longer hours, 39:27.625 --> 39:29.208 just avoiding coming home. 39:29.291 --> 39:31.500 And then, his sister got sick. She lives in Philadelphia. 39:31.583 --> 39:34.250 So he and Ruby went to Philadelphia to be with her, 39:34.333 --> 39:36.417 and...now she's better, 39:36.500 --> 39:39.125 uh, but they're still in Philadelphia. [ Chuckles ] 39:40.542 --> 39:41.792 And... 39:43.250 --> 39:44.709 they are not coming back. 39:48.667 --> 39:50.458 I had no idea. 39:52.125 --> 39:53.792 Yeah, I mean, I was gonna tell you, 39:53.875 --> 39:56.458 but, you know, hundreds of thousands of people were dying. 39:56.542 --> 40:00.291 I just didn't think my marriage counted as a casualty. 40:00.667 --> 40:04.417 And you were maybe a little too proud to tell me? 40:05.375 --> 40:06.917 -Yeah, fine. -[ Chuckles ] 40:07.000 --> 40:08.709 I was a little -- a little too proud. 40:11.375 --> 40:12.667 You okay? 40:16.041 --> 40:17.417 It's hard to say. 40:20.291 --> 40:21.500 But... 40:22.458 --> 40:24.625 it looks like I'm moving to Boston. 40:24.709 --> 40:26.208 [ Chuckles ] 40:26.291 --> 40:27.291 So... 40:27.375 --> 40:28.959 [ Humming ] 40:29.041 --> 40:31.709 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 40:32.750 --> 40:34.875 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 40:35.417 --> 40:38.291 ♪ I know you're out there, doin' the best you can ♪ 40:38.375 --> 40:39.875 Jackson: No one said it was easy, 40:39.959 --> 40:41.750 becoming the person you're meant to be. 40:41.834 --> 40:45.000 ♪ But everybody needs a helping hand ♪ 40:45.125 --> 40:48.041 It takes bravery a step into the power you found 40:48.125 --> 40:50.208 and earned and deserve. 40:50.291 --> 40:52.041 ♪ 'Cause we're all alone in this together ♪ 40:52.125 --> 40:53.417 ♪ But the storm won't last forever ♪ 40:53.500 --> 40:54.959 Richard: He'll come back. 40:55.041 --> 40:57.625 And you'll visit, and he'll visit. 40:57.709 --> 40:58.834 I know. 40:58.917 --> 41:00.667 Richard: You know, it's okay to be sad. 41:01.125 --> 41:04.125 It's hard handing over something you put your life into. 41:04.250 --> 41:05.667 ♪ So much light ♪ 41:05.750 --> 41:07.291 [ Voice breaking ] I'm not sad. 41:07.750 --> 41:12.375 It's just, like, I never in my life 41:13.125 --> 41:16.667 felt pride quite like this. 41:16.917 --> 41:18.417 ♪ We can hold each other up ♪ 41:20.542 --> 41:25.208 ♪ We can hold each other up ♪ 41:25.917 --> 41:28.625 ♪ Yeah ♪ 41:28.709 --> 41:30.709 ♪ Hold each other up ♪ 41:30.792 --> 41:33.875 Jackson: The trick is, to take the people who were there for you, 41:33.959 --> 41:35.041 with you. 41:35.125 --> 41:37.041 To remind you you're not alone. 41:37.125 --> 41:38.667 It's gonna take a few days, 41:38.750 --> 41:40.583 figure out what to tell the chief. 41:41.208 --> 41:43.208 Feels weird to say Boston. 41:44.083 --> 41:45.500 [ Scoffs ] Feels like a... 41:45.583 --> 41:47.041 [ Door creaks ] 41:47.709 --> 41:48.917 I don't know. 41:49.000 --> 41:52.083 It feels "I don't know" to me, too. 41:52.166 --> 41:54.417 ♪ 'Cause I see hope in togetherness ♪ 41:54.500 --> 41:56.375 -Thank you. -Oh! 41:56.625 --> 41:57.542 ♪ So much light ♪ 41:57.625 --> 41:58.667 Harriet: Mommy, Daddy! 41:58.750 --> 41:59.875 ♪ And so much love ♪ 41:59.959 --> 42:00.959 I got her. 42:01.041 --> 42:02.000 You go. 42:02.083 --> 42:03.166 Get ready to go. 42:03.250 --> 42:05.208 ♪ There is strength, strength in tenderness ♪ 42:05.291 --> 42:06.583 [ Door closes ] 42:07.458 --> 42:10.667 Jackson: You have an entire legacy behind you 42:10.750 --> 42:12.375 as you create your own. 42:12.750 --> 42:17.959 ♪ We can hold each other up ♪ 42:29.375 --> 42:32.709 [ Closing theme music playing ]