WEBVTT 00:06.006 --> 00:08.550 [Meredith] The way kids feel at Christmas 00:08.633 --> 00:12.387 is a pretty close equivalent to the way surgeons feel walking into an OR. 00:12.470 --> 00:14.764 [vocalist] ♪ Lots of people around ♪ 00:15.849 --> 00:18.101 ♪ Baby, please come home ♪ 00:18.184 --> 00:21.813 [Meredith] It's a complicated mix of anxiety and excitement... 00:23.940 --> 00:26.234 that makes it almost impossible to sleep. 00:27.193 --> 00:31.489 [vocalist] ♪ 'Cause I remember when you were here ♪ 00:31.573 --> 00:34.909 [Meredith] The anticipation is the best and worst part. 00:34.993 --> 00:37.871 Will this go my way? Will I get what I want? 00:39.122 --> 00:41.708 Will my patient live? Will they heal? 00:42.375 --> 00:43.752 Is Santa real? 00:44.335 --> 00:47.172 [vocalist] ♪ You should be here with me ♪ 00:47.255 --> 00:50.925 [Meredith] Stepping into an O.R. is its own kind of magic. 00:52.719 --> 00:56.222 [vocalist] ♪ It's Christmas Day ♪ 00:56.306 --> 00:59.726 ♪ Baby, please come home ♪ 00:59.809 --> 01:03.772 ♪ Baby, please come home ♪ 01:03.980 --> 01:06.274 ♪ Baby, please come home ♪ 01:06.357 --> 01:09.486 [Meredith] The possibility that on this day, you might save a life... 01:09.569 --> 01:10.570 [Link] I'm going to Minnesota... 01:10.653 --> 01:11.654 [Meredith] ...or end it. 01:11.738 --> 01:12.739 ...in one hour. 01:12.822 --> 01:14.657 I have to talk to Amelia, and it can't wait another day. 01:14.741 --> 01:15.825 I want to be with her on Christmas. 01:15.909 --> 01:18.578 I want our family together on Christmas morning. 01:18.661 --> 01:22.248 So I have to tell her I love her and that I don't need her to marry me. 01:22.332 --> 01:24.501 Right this second. Right? 01:24.584 --> 01:27.879 -I have to go? -You have to go. Yeah. 01:27.962 --> 01:29.798 -I will watch Scout. -Thank you. 01:30.673 --> 01:33.009 Hey. You won't be alone on Christmas. 01:33.093 --> 01:35.428 You and Luna will be invited. Always! 01:35.512 --> 01:38.139 You will always be invited. 01:40.308 --> 01:41.893 I do not like waiting. 01:41.976 --> 01:43.770 Especially for David Hamilton. 01:43.853 --> 01:46.106 I've learned he doesn't really care what people like. 01:46.189 --> 01:47.482 Oh, there they are. 01:47.565 --> 01:50.443 [Hamilton] They've cleaned up the place since I've been here last. Not as drab. 01:50.527 --> 01:53.696 -Webber. Nice to see you again. -David. 01:54.906 --> 01:58.493 Richard, this is Kai Bartley, the lead neuroscientist on the project. 01:58.576 --> 01:59.577 Pleasure to meet you, Dr. Bartley. 01:59.661 --> 02:00.703 Thanks for accommodating our team 02:00.787 --> 02:02.956 and making Grey Sloan available on such short notice. 02:03.039 --> 02:06.751 The project is already using my surgeons, might as well use my operating room. 02:06.835 --> 02:08.169 You know how it is. 02:08.253 --> 02:11.965 Famous patient, trailblazing neurosurgery, futuristic equipment, 02:12.048 --> 02:14.384 not to mention the great Meredith Grey walking the halls. 02:14.467 --> 02:17.303 The people of Minnesota were asking questions. 02:18.054 --> 02:19.681 It threatened the work. 02:19.764 --> 02:23.518 Well, I... I hope it works. For your sake, and science. 02:23.601 --> 02:24.686 I wish you could observe, 02:24.769 --> 02:26.980 but we can't compromise the secrecy of the technology. 02:27.063 --> 02:29.149 -It's essential personnel only. -I have residents to teach. 02:29.232 --> 02:31.192 And I've got pre-op bloodwork to do. 02:31.276 --> 02:34.612 So, Dr. Bartley, Dr. Shepherd, I'll see you at game time. 02:34.696 --> 02:35.613 Thanks again, Webber. 02:38.616 --> 02:42.036 "Famous patient?" He's not Bono. 02:42.120 --> 02:45.290 In Minnesota, he's about as close as you can get. 02:45.373 --> 02:48.001 Prince was from Minnesota. 02:49.127 --> 02:50.044 Excuse me. 02:50.879 --> 02:53.131 [distant telephone rings] 02:53.715 --> 02:55.300 [door opens] 02:56.759 --> 02:58.595 -Hey. -Excuse me, but only doctors 02:58.678 --> 03:00.889 who actually work in this hospital are supposed to be in the lounge. 03:00.972 --> 03:02.432 Security risk. 03:02.515 --> 03:04.184 [Meredith chuckles] 03:04.267 --> 03:09.063 [chuckles] So, we've all been told to stay away from OR Two. 03:09.147 --> 03:11.816 I suppose that's where the super-secret project is happening? 03:11.900 --> 03:14.402 Can't say. Security risk. 03:16.446 --> 03:19.866 -It's good to see you. -It's good to see you. 03:24.204 --> 03:25.914 How are you doing? 03:26.623 --> 03:28.041 [light chuckle] 03:29.000 --> 03:32.420 -The holidays are hard, I know. -My wife loved Christmas. 03:32.503 --> 03:34.964 Like collected nutcrackers kind of loved it. 03:35.048 --> 03:36.966 This time of year, the boys... 03:37.050 --> 03:40.720 We just... we miss her so much, you know? 03:40.803 --> 03:42.138 I'm so sorry. 03:45.558 --> 03:46.643 You know... 03:48.061 --> 03:49.771 she might still love Christmas. 03:49.854 --> 03:53.316 So, this is going to sound completely ridiculous and very unscientific. 03:53.399 --> 03:55.818 And I always thought of myself as an atheist, 03:55.902 --> 03:59.322 and I did believe that we start and end with the body. 03:59.405 --> 04:02.617 But when I was sick, I had a dream. 04:03.618 --> 04:05.703 Or what I thought was a dream. 04:05.787 --> 04:08.289 I dreamt about Derek on a beach. 04:08.790 --> 04:12.377 And it felt so real. 04:12.460 --> 04:14.212 It felt like it wasn't a dream. 04:14.295 --> 04:15.672 I mean, it felt like... 04:16.673 --> 04:17.882 he's here. 04:17.966 --> 04:20.760 Like he's been with me this whole time. 04:21.344 --> 04:23.096 Like he might be here with me now. 04:23.596 --> 04:26.099 And today I'm doing this groundbreaking surgery. 04:26.182 --> 04:29.519 And it's exactly the type of thing that he would have loved to do. 04:30.520 --> 04:32.438 And in the past, that would have made me sad. 04:33.273 --> 04:35.900 But somehow, I think he might just be here... 04:36.901 --> 04:39.862 hovering over me, watching the whole thing, soaking it all in. 04:40.863 --> 04:42.282 And that makes me happy. 04:45.868 --> 04:47.787 And please don't tell anyone I'm telling you this 04:47.870 --> 04:50.957 because I am acutely aware of how ridiculous it sounds. 04:52.417 --> 04:53.835 No, not crazy. 04:55.044 --> 04:56.045 Kind. 04:56.713 --> 05:00.008 It's very kind of you to share that with me, Grey. 05:07.932 --> 05:11.227 You know, I could hear you on the beach too. 05:11.311 --> 05:14.230 Were you talking to me about my children? 05:16.357 --> 05:17.859 I was. 05:17.942 --> 05:20.695 I heard you. And it helped. 05:25.074 --> 05:26.826 PICU. 05:26.909 --> 05:28.578 Good luck with whatever you're doing today, Grey. 05:28.661 --> 05:31.331 -Thank you. -And, um, thank you, Grey. 05:31.414 --> 05:34.250 Maybe I'll go pick up a nutcracker after work or something. 05:37.503 --> 05:39.339 -Bye. -Bye. 05:42.550 --> 05:44.594 What, you scheduled the lawyer for Friday morning? 05:44.677 --> 05:45.678 Mm-hmm. 05:45.762 --> 05:49.807 Oh, I have a sleeve gastrectomy, and then I'm supposed to have clinic. 05:49.891 --> 05:51.934 I'm still on shift on Thursday morning. 05:52.018 --> 05:55.813 -Can you get a sub? -It's the holidays. No. 05:55.897 --> 05:57.982 -Monday? -That's next week! 05:58.066 --> 06:00.068 Okay. How are we supposed to fight for Pru 06:00.151 --> 06:01.861 if we can't even fit it into our calendars? 06:01.944 --> 06:06.616 Miranda, we are doing our best in a world of uncertainty, okay? 06:06.699 --> 06:09.619 -And I will look into getting a sub. -Thank you. 06:09.702 --> 06:12.997 But if I do, will you at least consider taking it easy at work? 06:13.081 --> 06:14.082 What? 06:14.165 --> 06:16.209 I just think we need to go spend some time as a family. 06:16.292 --> 06:19.212 We could go look at lights or ice skate. 06:19.295 --> 06:21.005 Dean loved Christmas. 06:21.089 --> 06:22.799 Oh, oh! We could go caroling. 06:22.882 --> 06:24.967 We are not going caroling, Benjamin. 06:25.051 --> 06:27.220 As soon as the words left my mouth, I knew you were gonna give me that look. 06:27.303 --> 06:28.179 Chief Bailey. 06:28.763 --> 06:31.641 Oh, Dr. Wright. Hey, happy first day. 06:31.724 --> 06:34.852 -Thank you. -This is my husband, Ben Warren. 06:34.936 --> 06:37.105 Morning. Oh, okay. 06:37.188 --> 06:39.232 Coffee? Regular or decaf. 06:39.315 --> 06:41.442 I wasn't sure which one you wanted, so I got one of each. 06:41.526 --> 06:44.237 They also had this holiday candy cane thing, but I felt that was a bit risky. 06:44.320 --> 06:47.281 Yeah. Well, I have my morning smoothie, so, thank you. 06:47.365 --> 06:49.200 But I'm sure someone around here wants it. 06:49.283 --> 06:51.452 Like me. Yeah, regular? 06:51.536 --> 06:53.162 I fight fires. I need this. 06:54.330 --> 06:56.666 Well, um, I don't wanna keep you. 06:56.749 --> 07:01.087 I just wanted to tell you how happy I am to finally learn from you in person. 07:01.170 --> 07:03.089 So, uh, see you in there. 07:03.172 --> 07:04.173 'Kay. 07:06.217 --> 07:08.928 -Still got it. -Get out of here. 07:31.534 --> 07:32.785 How are you holding up? 07:37.498 --> 07:40.710 Megan, maybe you should take a break. 07:40.793 --> 07:43.838 Get outside, maybe take a walk? Grab a nap? 07:46.716 --> 07:48.426 I can sit with him for a while. 07:48.509 --> 07:50.052 If he doesn't make it, neither do I. 07:53.473 --> 07:57.185 If Farouk dies, I go with him. I'm not sticking around. 07:58.186 --> 08:01.564 I'm not interested in surviving another chapter of earth-shattering pain. 08:01.647 --> 08:04.567 I've survived enough in this life. I'm not willing to survive this. 08:08.362 --> 08:09.614 Megan... 08:09.697 --> 08:11.782 I'm sorry I said that to you. I... 08:11.866 --> 08:13.868 I just... I needed to... 08:14.869 --> 08:17.246 say it to someone, and it can't be my brother 08:17.330 --> 08:19.332 and it can't be my mother and it can't be Teddy. 08:21.542 --> 08:24.295 I just wanted someone to know that I've loved this life. 08:24.378 --> 08:26.047 Or parts of it. I've loved parts of this life. 08:26.130 --> 08:27.131 But... 08:27.924 --> 08:30.134 I'm just not willing to survive this. 08:41.062 --> 08:44.232 -Noah's service was nice. Packed. -Yeah. 08:45.233 --> 08:47.068 You know, some of the guys from the support group 08:47.151 --> 08:50.154 are gonna buy a Christmas tree and some decorations for Danny. 08:50.238 --> 08:52.073 And we-- we could contribute some gifts. 08:52.156 --> 08:53.783 Yeah, sure. Yeah. 08:53.866 --> 08:56.953 Owen, Heather and Danny, eventually, they will be okay. 08:57.036 --> 08:59.455 I know. I know, okay? 08:59.539 --> 09:01.332 I think there's already some relief for Heather, 09:01.415 --> 09:03.000 knowing that he's out of pain. 09:03.084 --> 09:04.919 [cellphone buzzes] 09:05.002 --> 09:07.213 -Winston. 911. I gotta-- -Yeah. 09:12.426 --> 09:13.594 What happened? 09:13.678 --> 09:16.597 Fifteen-year-old MVC suffered a catastrophic brain injury. 09:16.681 --> 09:18.391 -He's been declared brain dead. -Oh, my God. 09:18.474 --> 09:20.768 I don't understand. Is he here? Do we know him? 09:20.851 --> 09:22.603 -Megan? -No, no, he's in Tacoma. 09:22.687 --> 09:25.022 He's an organ donor, and UNOS just called. 09:26.065 --> 09:27.400 The heart is a match for Farouk. 09:27.483 --> 09:29.360 [sobbing] Oh, my God. 09:31.445 --> 09:32.863 Oh, my God! 09:32.947 --> 09:34.240 [sobbing] 09:34.323 --> 09:37.410 He's gonna be o... he's gonna be o... 09:41.205 --> 09:43.958 Oh, my God, my baby! 09:55.720 --> 09:58.055 Wait! Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait! 09:58.139 --> 09:59.432 Ah, thank you. [light chuckle] 10:02.351 --> 10:04.979 -You're supposed to be in Minnesota. -I came back early for a surgery. 10:05.062 --> 10:08.065 Hello, my sweet boy, what a happy surprise. 10:08.149 --> 10:10.818 Link went to, um, get a Christmas tree, 10:10.901 --> 10:12.737 so I-I said I would take the kids to daycare. 10:12.820 --> 10:14.822 Got it. Okay, well, I-I've got them from here. 10:14.905 --> 10:16.240 Yeah, of course. 10:18.451 --> 10:21.621 Can I ask you, how is Link doing? Things have been a little... 10:22.705 --> 10:23.706 Well, how is he? 10:24.290 --> 10:26.751 -He's fine. -Okay. 10:26.834 --> 10:29.128 Um, a-are you coming to daycare? 10:29.211 --> 10:30.338 No. Yes. 10:30.421 --> 10:33.966 I just, um, I have to, uh, grab her binky from the car. 10:34.050 --> 10:35.051 Okay. 10:37.887 --> 10:39.930 And I have to call him now, right? 10:40.014 --> 10:42.850 Because whatever these feelings are, they are new and stupid 10:42.933 --> 10:46.354 and need to go back to whatever dark hole of desperation they crawled out of. 10:46.937 --> 10:47.938 Okay. 10:50.941 --> 10:53.444 -Hey, I'm almost to the airport. -Amelia's in Seattle. 10:53.527 --> 10:55.237 No, she's in Minnesota. 10:55.321 --> 10:57.740 Dude, I was just in the elevator with her in Seattle, 10:57.823 --> 10:59.742 so if you want to see her, do not get on the plane. 11:03.788 --> 11:06.082 The "dude" was a little much, right? 11:09.210 --> 11:12.171 Winston is starting Farouk on the induction therapy now. 11:12.254 --> 11:14.674 As soon as we're en route with the donor heart, he'll bring him to the OR 11:14.757 --> 11:15.966 -and get him ready. -Tacoma's close by. 11:16.050 --> 11:17.760 -We'll have plenty of time. -Wait. Both of you are going? 11:17.843 --> 11:19.470 Yeah, I want to put eyes on the heart myself, 11:19.553 --> 11:20.930 make sure they don't screw it up in Tacoma. 11:21.013 --> 11:22.640 My mom's on her way to take care of Megan. 11:22.723 --> 11:25.935 Well, I'm coming, too. My patient, and we've got things to discuss. 11:36.612 --> 11:38.406 -Are you in pain? -No. 11:41.492 --> 11:43.536 -I was praying. -Mmm. 11:43.619 --> 11:45.246 Well, don't sound so ashamed. 11:45.329 --> 11:49.333 Well, I-I've never been entirely sure what it is I believe in, 11:49.417 --> 11:54.672 so it's-- it's all very confusing, this part where I might die now. 11:54.755 --> 11:56.215 Well, you're not going to die. 11:56.298 --> 11:58.551 Oh, anything can happen in there, you know that. 11:58.634 --> 12:01.887 I-I hope I don't die today. But... 12:01.971 --> 12:06.600 I left notes for my wife and kids and grandkids. 12:06.684 --> 12:09.729 They're saved in the-- in the draft file of my email. 12:09.812 --> 12:12.148 The passwords are on a Post-It on the computer. 12:12.231 --> 12:13.691 I didn't want to send the notes. 12:13.774 --> 12:15.693 If everything goes perfectly, 12:15.776 --> 12:17.778 I don't want to have, 12:17.862 --> 12:19.989 you know, put them through all that for no reason. 12:20.072 --> 12:22.283 I've been awful to you, Dr. Grey. 12:22.366 --> 12:23.951 I've been the very worst parts of myself. 12:24.034 --> 12:25.453 And before you put me under, 12:25.536 --> 12:28.539 I want to be sure you know both... 12:29.832 --> 12:32.001 how sorry I am for my behavior... 12:33.085 --> 12:35.212 and how grateful I am to you. 12:35.296 --> 12:37.882 I may have written those notes to the kids and the grandkids 12:37.965 --> 12:39.967 just to remind you that I'm a dad and a granddad 12:40.050 --> 12:42.094 and not just a megalomaniac. 12:42.178 --> 12:43.554 As you're cutting into my brain today, 12:43.637 --> 12:46.348 please try to remember there are people who love me. 12:46.432 --> 12:48.058 Even if you're not one of them. 12:48.976 --> 12:50.895 Well, I appreciate the apology. 12:50.978 --> 12:54.899 I assure you I have absolutely every intention of making history today. 12:54.982 --> 12:58.778 And if this works, you will not only live, you'll heal. 13:01.655 --> 13:03.073 You're sure you're not in pain? 13:04.950 --> 13:07.369 -Only the existential kind. -Okay. 13:07.453 --> 13:08.746 I'll see you soon. 13:11.373 --> 13:12.917 Oh, last time I checked, 13:13.000 --> 13:15.878 Dr. Webber and I deserved the respect of punctuality. 13:15.961 --> 13:19.048 It was his fault. Someone was supposed to wake me up. 13:19.131 --> 13:21.091 Before we hand out assignments, 13:21.175 --> 13:23.928 we'd like to introduce our new fourth year resident, 13:24.011 --> 13:26.806 transfer from Minnesota, Jordan Wright. 13:26.889 --> 13:28.808 Do you mind, uh, sir? 13:28.891 --> 13:30.392 Um... 13:30.476 --> 13:33.020 All right. [chuckles] The floor's yours. 13:33.103 --> 13:34.730 Excuse me. 13:35.314 --> 13:36.440 Um... 13:36.982 --> 13:38.150 Wow. Hey, folks. 13:38.234 --> 13:40.444 I would like to say an official hello 13:40.528 --> 13:42.738 and tell you how excited I am to be here. 13:42.822 --> 13:45.658 Grey Sloan is my Yankee Stadium, so here I am, 13:45.741 --> 13:49.328 facing current legends, Chief Bailey, Dr. Webber. 13:49.411 --> 13:51.831 And, uh, future legends. 13:51.914 --> 13:53.916 Okay, um, that's all I got. 13:54.458 --> 13:56.168 [Bailey chuckles] All right. Good. 13:56.252 --> 13:57.837 -He likes sports. -Gross. 13:57.920 --> 13:59.255 All right. Assignments, listen up. 13:59.338 --> 14:02.508 Some of you will fly solo using the Webber Method, 14:02.591 --> 14:04.426 and some of you will not. 14:04.510 --> 14:06.512 Tseng, merry Christmas. 14:06.595 --> 14:09.348 You are on cardio for a heart transplant. 14:09.431 --> 14:11.892 Perez, you have an appy in OR Five. 14:11.976 --> 14:17.273 Schmitt and Helm, you will be doing an ileostomy takedown in OR Four. 14:17.356 --> 14:20.234 -Dr. Wright... -Dr. Wright, uh, we're assigning you 14:20.317 --> 14:23.988 a solo laparoscopic sigmoidectomy for diverticulitis. 14:24.071 --> 14:27.032 I'm not sure, are-- are you familiar with my method? 14:27.116 --> 14:28.450 I'm familiar with it, sir. 14:28.534 --> 14:31.161 And with your blessing, I'll take a rain check. 14:34.081 --> 14:36.250 -A rain check. -Yeah. 14:36.333 --> 14:38.043 On which part? 14:38.127 --> 14:40.379 I-I'm more than happy to do the bowel resection, 14:40.462 --> 14:43.507 but, respectfully, I prefer not to use the Webber Method. 14:44.300 --> 14:45.926 I'm here to learn from Chief Bailey, 14:46.010 --> 14:47.803 so I'd like the opportunity to... 14:47.887 --> 14:50.222 learn from Chief Bailey. 14:52.516 --> 14:54.768 Guess I'm scrubbing in. 15:00.357 --> 15:03.569 Hey. Koracick's called me, like, ten times wanting to know if we've started. 15:03.652 --> 15:05.863 They're moving Hamilton up to pre-op. 15:06.447 --> 15:07.448 You okay? 15:10.159 --> 15:11.452 Come inside, it's cold. 15:11.535 --> 15:13.120 [distant siren wails] 15:14.413 --> 15:16.498 Okay, I'm just gonna say it. 15:16.582 --> 15:18.751 I think we'll both feel better if I just say it. 15:21.045 --> 15:24.214 We are drilling a hole into a renowned surgeon's head 15:24.298 --> 15:26.675 using a piece of equipment we just invented 15:26.759 --> 15:29.762 to inject a cellular solution that has never been tested 15:29.845 --> 15:33.307 on a human being before to cure what has heretofore been 15:33.390 --> 15:36.060 considered an entirely incurable disease. 15:38.228 --> 15:42.608 [Meredith retching and coughing] 15:48.155 --> 15:50.783 You're right. That made me feel much better. 15:51.909 --> 15:53.035 Let's go. 16:02.252 --> 16:05.297 The Webber Method only works on specific procedures 16:05.381 --> 16:08.968 that have, maybe, one or two crucial points that require supervision. 16:09.051 --> 16:10.803 The resident operates to a predetermined point... 16:10.886 --> 16:12.930 -Any resident? -Only those residents who have shown 16:13.013 --> 16:15.641 that they can independently and competently open the patient 16:15.724 --> 16:17.351 and then dissect to where they need to be. 16:17.434 --> 16:18.852 I'd love to see that list. 16:18.936 --> 16:22.272 Once they get to the difficult part of the procedure, they pause. 16:22.356 --> 16:24.566 They wait for their attendings to arrive, and then they continue. 16:24.650 --> 16:26.777 So this is just for general surgery, right? 16:26.860 --> 16:30.322 As for now, but we're hoping to implement it across all specialties. 16:30.406 --> 16:33.701 No, no. Not mine. Not cardio. 16:33.784 --> 16:36.453 No hearts in baby surgeons' hands. No. Sorry. 16:36.537 --> 16:39.123 -You busy? -I have a lobectomy in a few hours. 16:39.206 --> 16:41.208 Great. So you can come with me 16:41.291 --> 16:43.752 and watch how the method works in action. 16:47.214 --> 16:48.590 If everything goes smoothly, 16:48.674 --> 16:51.760 this heart will be the best Christmas gift for Farouk. 16:51.844 --> 16:53.846 Maybe we can even get him home by New Year's. 16:53.929 --> 16:56.056 -What about Megan? -What about her? 16:58.142 --> 16:59.560 She's not all right. 16:59.643 --> 17:02.104 I've been sitting here for the last half hour trying to figure out 17:02.187 --> 17:05.607 how to talk to the two of you about it without overstepping. 17:05.691 --> 17:09.278 Her son is on ECMO, and they're awaiting a new heart. 17:09.361 --> 17:12.698 She's sleep-deprived and anxious, like any parent would be. 17:12.781 --> 17:15.743 I've dealt with a lot of anxious and depressed parents over the years. 17:15.826 --> 17:16.910 But this is different. 17:17.745 --> 17:20.998 Look, Hunt, I know she's your sister, this is hard for you to hear, but-- 17:21.081 --> 17:22.958 Listen, Megan is tougher than you think. 17:23.042 --> 17:25.627 And she's been through way worse than we can even imagine. 17:25.711 --> 17:28.297 I'm aware. And I'm still telling you that she needs serious help. 17:28.380 --> 17:30.007 She is not all right. 17:30.090 --> 17:33.844 Hayes, this is a good day. We have a heart for Farouk. 17:33.927 --> 17:37.431 -And when he's okay, she'll be okay. -And what if he's not okay? 17:37.514 --> 17:39.308 There's still a million things that can still go wrong here. 17:39.391 --> 17:41.435 -Hayes. -I know you guys want to celebrate, 17:41.518 --> 17:44.396 but I need you to understand what your sister just said to me, 17:44.480 --> 17:47.066 and I'm not sure that it's cured even with a heart transplant for her son. 17:47.149 --> 17:48.817 She's profoundly depressed. 17:51.487 --> 17:53.072 Uh, we're five minutes out. 17:57.326 --> 17:59.953 Devon, an ileostomy takedown's fairly straightforward. 18:00.037 --> 18:02.706 We'll just start with an incision around the stoma, 18:02.790 --> 18:04.708 and through that we'll extract the part of the intestine that-- 18:04.792 --> 18:06.502 Do what you have to do. 18:06.585 --> 18:08.712 I'll just be stoked to get some quality time outdoors again. 18:08.796 --> 18:12.424 After my ulcerative colitis diagnosis, then a surgery, the recovery, 18:12.508 --> 18:14.635 and now surgery to recover from the recovery... 18:14.718 --> 18:16.970 The wound from this procedure should heal in a month or so. 18:17.054 --> 18:19.723 Too much time stuck to a bed, and your mind goes to some ugly places. 18:19.807 --> 18:21.016 I'm sorry, I... 18:22.226 --> 18:23.519 Have we met? 18:23.602 --> 18:25.562 I don't think so. 18:25.646 --> 18:29.191 Your voice, it's so familiar. No, I feel like we've... 18:30.484 --> 18:33.237 Oh, my God. You're Devon Gomez. 18:33.320 --> 18:35.906 I-I listen to your podcast. 18:36.490 --> 18:38.158 How about that. Small world. 18:38.242 --> 18:39.326 What podcast? 18:39.409 --> 18:41.411 He hosts a show called "On Foot with Devon," 18:41.495 --> 18:43.997 where he basically just takes a walk and records it. 18:44.081 --> 18:46.083 Every week I go somewhere I've never been before. 18:46.166 --> 18:48.585 Bonus if it's far from a city or there's a body of water. 18:48.669 --> 18:51.046 I just take a walk with my microphone and talk about what I'm seeing. 18:51.130 --> 18:52.756 Then I post it online. If people dig it, that's cool, 18:52.840 --> 18:54.508 and if not, I have a record of a nice day in my life. 18:54.591 --> 18:57.177 It's like, um... I don't know, like a meditation. 18:57.261 --> 18:58.470 -It kinda is. -Yeah. 18:58.554 --> 18:59.888 Or it was. 18:59.972 --> 19:02.474 I stopped making episodes after my last surgery because walking was too painful. 19:02.558 --> 19:04.685 But I'm hoping that this surgery lets me get back to it. 19:04.768 --> 19:07.271 Mr. Gomez, we'll be back to prep you when the OR's ready. 19:07.354 --> 19:09.648 And it will be an honor. And a privilege. 19:09.731 --> 19:11.275 I never knew I had a groupie. 19:12.609 --> 19:13.735 It's nice. 19:13.819 --> 19:15.070 It's nice to meet you, Dr. Schmitt. 19:15.154 --> 19:16.196 Yes. 19:16.280 --> 19:18.657 [voice on PA] Dr. Emma Cade to the ICU. 19:20.367 --> 19:21.660 -Why aren't you in pre-op? -They couldn't take him. 19:21.743 --> 19:23.954 Why? Is there a problem with the equipment? 19:24.037 --> 19:25.664 I checked everything last night, it looked fine. 19:25.747 --> 19:28.041 The equipment is not the problem. David is the problem. 19:28.125 --> 19:29.501 Dr. Bartley, I'm fine. 19:29.585 --> 19:31.920 If you were fine, you wouldn't be asking me to keep it a secret. 19:32.004 --> 19:33.922 -It's one degree. -Keep what secret? 19:34.006 --> 19:37.009 Fever. He has a low-grade fever. 19:37.092 --> 19:40.637 99.6 is not a fever. 99.6 is nerves. 19:40.721 --> 19:44.349 I am in charge of this project, I am paying your salaries... 19:45.350 --> 19:46.560 -Oh, my God! -It's a cramp. 19:46.643 --> 19:49.521 "Existential pain." And I believed you! 19:50.105 --> 19:52.232 Existential pain, my ass. 19:53.192 --> 19:56.236 Your abdomen is rock hard. He needs a CT. 20:02.618 --> 20:04.244 Megan, it's Teddy. I got the heart. 20:04.328 --> 20:06.872 It's perfect. We're on our way back now. 20:06.955 --> 20:09.625 It's gonna be okay. I love you, okay? Bye. 20:10.459 --> 20:11.752 Farouk is prepped, 20:11.835 --> 20:14.296 and, uh, Winston's gonna bring him up to the OR any minute. 20:14.379 --> 20:16.673 -Megan's gonna be okay. -Okay. 20:18.634 --> 20:21.053 It's a beautiful and healthy heart. 20:22.429 --> 20:23.555 It's perfect. 20:25.307 --> 20:28.435 And for the record, Megan does get help. She goes to therapy. 20:28.518 --> 20:29.645 She's living with us while she's here-- 20:29.728 --> 20:31.772 When's the last time she actually spent the night at home? 20:31.855 --> 20:33.690 'Cause every morning when I'm doing pre-rounds, 20:33.774 --> 20:35.859 she's sitting there in that uncomfortable chair in the PICU, 20:35.943 --> 20:37.736 looking like she hasn't closed her eyes all night. 20:40.656 --> 20:41.657 Sir, are you okay? 20:42.783 --> 20:44.076 What's happening, Owen? 20:45.535 --> 20:46.912 He's passed out. 20:58.340 --> 21:00.550 -Oh, my God! -Teddy! Teddy! 21:00.634 --> 21:03.512 Yes, I'm fine, I'm fine! There's-- nothing's broken. 21:03.595 --> 21:04.763 -Hayes! -I'm okay, I'm okay. 21:07.224 --> 21:09.393 Sir? Sir, sir, can you hear me? 21:10.686 --> 21:12.813 He has a blown pupil. He must have had a massive stroke. 21:12.896 --> 21:15.816 -The cooler! -I got it, I got it. No cracks or dents. 21:15.899 --> 21:17.818 All right, phones. We-- we need to try to call for help. 21:17.901 --> 21:21.113 Yeah. Mine's... mine's no good. 21:21.196 --> 21:24.491 -I can't get a signal. -All right, hang on. I got it. 21:25.325 --> 21:27.703 [Teddy] I-I have one bar. Let me try. 21:27.786 --> 21:29.288 No, it won't go through. 21:30.330 --> 21:33.834 I gotta try to figure out how to get out and find better reception, or maybe-- 21:33.917 --> 21:35.085 No, no, wait, wait. Don't move. 21:36.128 --> 21:37.963 -We seem to be in a ditch. -What? 21:38.046 --> 21:39.464 Hayes, what can you see? 21:40.924 --> 21:42.551 Nobody bloody move! 21:53.895 --> 21:55.564 They're about 25 minutes out with the heart, 21:55.647 --> 21:57.607 so we're gonna get him on the table and start immediately. 22:01.069 --> 22:04.239 Megan, I think you should sit this one out in the waiting room. 22:05.449 --> 22:08.076 -She will. I'll be with her. -Okay. 22:14.166 --> 22:16.293 Bye, baby. I'll see you soon. 22:16.376 --> 22:17.586 Okay? 22:21.089 --> 22:22.090 Okay. 22:22.174 --> 22:23.342 Let's go. 22:33.852 --> 22:38.398 Hey, Mr. Gomez, any questions before we begin your anesthesia? 22:38.482 --> 22:41.777 Call me Devon. And I'm ready. On Dasher, on Dancer, right? 22:41.860 --> 22:45.405 Hey, would you mind if I listened to your podcast while I operate? 22:45.489 --> 22:47.908 Most surgeons like to listen to music while they work, 22:47.991 --> 22:50.327 but I always try to imagine that I'm outside, 22:50.410 --> 22:53.121 not stuck under these fluorescent lights. 22:54.081 --> 22:56.917 -It keeps me grounded, focused. -Absolutely. 22:57.000 --> 22:58.210 I'd be honored. 22:59.544 --> 23:00.629 Helm, he's ready. 23:00.712 --> 23:03.423 Okay, Devon, here we go. 23:03.507 --> 23:05.842 Count backwards from ten. 23:06.426 --> 23:09.763 Ten, nine, eight... 23:12.474 --> 23:14.393 [Devon, on podcast] Hey, folks, welcome to "On Foot." 23:14.476 --> 23:16.186 Thanks for joining me on my walk today. 23:17.396 --> 23:20.190 So, my buddy told me there's a waterfall about a quarter mile north of here. 23:21.691 --> 23:22.776 Let's make our way to it. 23:24.528 --> 23:25.362 I'm gonna go scrub. 23:28.448 --> 23:30.200 [indistinct remark] 23:30.283 --> 23:33.370 Oh, wow, it's Schmitt and Helm. 23:33.453 --> 23:37.791 Feels like just yesterday he was dropping his glasses into an abdomen. 23:40.293 --> 23:43.505 -How are you so calm? -Schmitt's come a long way. 23:44.673 --> 23:46.007 They all have. 23:48.009 --> 23:51.430 Perez is getting ready to do his endoloop for his appy in OR Five. 23:53.098 --> 23:54.433 That is insane. 23:55.267 --> 23:58.895 Not literally. Just... exciting! Wow! 24:00.230 --> 24:01.231 Wow. 24:03.066 --> 24:04.484 [Bailey] Uh-huh. 24:04.568 --> 24:07.654 -Any observations, Dr. Bailey? -Uh, no, no. 24:07.737 --> 24:09.698 No. You're doing great. 24:09.781 --> 24:12.200 As a matter of fact, flawless. 24:12.284 --> 24:17.038 Thank you. And next, I'll walk down this dissection inferiorly. 24:17.122 --> 24:20.625 Dr. Wright, clearly this isn't your first sigmoidectomy. 24:20.709 --> 24:24.754 Oh, no, no, no. I've done probably 40, give or take. 24:24.838 --> 24:28.842 Trust me when I say I'm happier here in the OR 24:28.925 --> 24:31.178 than at my desk doing paperwork. 24:31.261 --> 24:34.598 But your work is thorough... 24:34.681 --> 24:37.267 and your technique is at an expert level. 24:37.350 --> 24:39.102 Before every surgery, I sketch it. 24:39.186 --> 24:41.813 I draw the anatomy, and I draw what I will do to it. 24:41.897 --> 24:44.983 I even sketch out every step and even every possible complication, 24:45.066 --> 24:47.444 and then I draw the solutions. 24:47.527 --> 24:49.863 You're right. I do know this surgery from start to finish. 24:49.946 --> 24:51.615 Then why didn't you want to do it on your own? 24:54.034 --> 24:57.245 I study every move my attendings make so I can anticipate what they need. 24:57.329 --> 25:00.624 I'm not here to learn this surgery, Dr. Bailey. 25:00.707 --> 25:02.083 I'm here to learn you. 25:04.127 --> 25:05.212 Then carry on. 25:05.295 --> 25:09.216 But I prefer blunt dissection when you're in this area. 25:09.299 --> 25:10.509 Just so you know. 25:12.177 --> 25:13.386 [Wright] Thank you, Dr. Bailey. 25:15.430 --> 25:19.059 Okay, Wilson, one hand by the fetus's head, 25:19.142 --> 25:20.268 the other one by the buttocks. 25:20.352 --> 25:21.770 Lower. 25:21.853 --> 25:23.063 -Okay. -Good. 25:23.146 --> 25:25.941 Now push down and try the forward somersault technique. 25:26.983 --> 25:28.151 [patient groans] 25:28.235 --> 25:30.237 -I am so sorry! -You were doing it right. 25:30.320 --> 25:32.405 Sylvia, I know this is uncomfortable, 25:32.489 --> 25:34.950 but if you still want to have a vaginal birth, 25:35.033 --> 25:36.701 we need to try and turn the baby around, okay? 25:36.785 --> 25:38.870 -Okay. -Wilson? 25:38.954 --> 25:40.455 Okay. 25:40.539 --> 25:41.498 [groaning] 25:41.581 --> 25:43.041 -Should we try more gel? -No, it's... 25:43.124 --> 25:44.709 [knock on door] 25:44.793 --> 25:46.795 -Uh, yeah. We'll take a break. -Oh, thank God. 25:46.878 --> 25:48.672 [soft chuckle] 25:48.755 --> 25:52.008 I swear, part of OB is just torturing women. 25:52.092 --> 25:53.426 Did you talk to Amelia? 25:53.510 --> 25:55.804 When I was going to Minnesota, I knew exactly what I was going to say. 25:55.887 --> 25:58.014 -But now that I'm in Seattle... -The city makes a difference? 25:58.098 --> 25:59.474 Just listen. 26:02.769 --> 26:03.770 I love you. 26:04.688 --> 26:07.148 I love you so much, 26:07.232 --> 26:09.776 and nothing else matters to me except you and Scout. 26:09.859 --> 26:13.530 You two are my life, and I don't care about being married anymore. 26:13.613 --> 26:15.115 I just need you. 26:15.198 --> 26:17.617 And I'm sorry it took me so long to see it from your side, 26:17.701 --> 26:19.661 but I'm not perfect and neither are you. 26:19.744 --> 26:23.039 We've both made mistakes, but now we're both here, 26:23.123 --> 26:27.085 perfect for each other at the right time. 26:27.168 --> 26:30.422 I love you now, and I have always loved you. 26:30.505 --> 26:33.133 So let's be together. Let's try. However it needs to be. 26:33.216 --> 26:36.386 However it works. Let's be together right now. 26:39.222 --> 26:40.599 Something like that? 26:42.392 --> 26:43.393 Uh-huh. 26:43.476 --> 26:47.355 Yeah, it's, um... it's perfect. 26:47.439 --> 26:48.440 Okay. 26:49.858 --> 26:51.776 Okay, thanks. 26:51.860 --> 26:53.528 I'm gonna go find her. 26:59.117 --> 27:02.245 Did you read the research Dr. Bartley provided 27:02.329 --> 27:06.249 about the relationship between anxiety, stress and Parkinson's pain? 27:06.333 --> 27:08.126 Multiple articles are being written. 27:08.209 --> 27:10.920 They are very interesting. Please stay still. 27:11.004 --> 27:14.215 I'm merely suggesting that the abdominal pain could be psychosomatic. 27:14.299 --> 27:17.135 And I'm merely suggesting you stay still. 27:17.218 --> 27:20.972 We have a 72-hour window the FDA has provided us 27:21.056 --> 27:23.224 to get this surgery accomplished. 27:23.308 --> 27:25.393 David, I swear to God... 27:25.477 --> 27:26.853 I'm holding still. 27:27.854 --> 27:30.315 He lied to you about his pain on the day of the surgery 27:30.398 --> 27:33.151 that has cost him tens of millions of dollars? Who does that? 27:33.234 --> 27:35.195 He's stubborn. And he doesn't want a setback. 27:36.821 --> 27:40.116 Free air. His bowel's perfed. We need to do an immediate ex lap. 27:40.200 --> 27:43.453 -So that's it. We're... we're done. -We're not done. 27:43.536 --> 27:45.747 We can't inject the cells in the FDA window. 27:45.830 --> 27:49.584 Not if he needs an emergent surgery. The impact of the anesthesia alone... 27:49.668 --> 27:52.504 Okay, so we'll get a new window from the FDA. 27:52.587 --> 27:54.339 So we're not done. We're delayed. 27:54.422 --> 27:58.760 I've had enough patients to know the results should be in by now. 28:01.971 --> 28:05.016 They'll try to contact us, and then, when they don't hear from us, 28:05.100 --> 28:06.935 they'll send a rescue unit. We just have to wait. 28:07.018 --> 28:08.895 No, we can't wait. Not if we want to save Farouk. 28:08.978 --> 28:11.064 By the time they get here, that heart won't be viable. 28:11.147 --> 28:12.482 [Teddy groans] 28:12.565 --> 28:15.610 Hayes, can you... can you open your window? 28:15.694 --> 28:17.112 No, it's not working. 28:17.195 --> 28:18.780 Okay, let me see... 28:19.364 --> 28:20.573 Hold on, hold on. 28:20.657 --> 28:22.659 Okay, let me see. 28:22.742 --> 28:25.453 Okay, okay. Use this. 28:25.537 --> 28:29.040 Use that and smash the bottom. It'll shatter the glass. Okay? 28:29.124 --> 28:31.000 -Hit it hard. Don't tap. -Cover your eyes. 28:31.084 --> 28:32.585 Yeah. 28:35.839 --> 28:37.465 -You okay? -Okay, good. 28:37.549 --> 28:40.635 Hayes, you go and we'll follow, unless somebody has a better plan. 28:40.719 --> 28:42.554 -Okay. -Wait, okay. 28:42.637 --> 28:44.723 I'm gonna go on three. Okay? Ready? 28:44.806 --> 28:46.474 One, two... 28:46.558 --> 28:49.769 [screams] 28:56.359 --> 28:59.028 Okay, don't! Don't... don't... don't move! Don't move! 28:59.112 --> 29:01.114 Okay, they must have put out a distress call. Somebody's coming. 29:01.197 --> 29:02.240 -When? -I don't know. 29:02.323 --> 29:05.034 -So, what, we just do nothing until then? -I don't know, Teddy. 29:05.118 --> 29:07.495 -How will they know where to look? -I don't know! 29:07.579 --> 29:09.247 I don't have answers right now! 29:09.330 --> 29:12.500 But they must know that we're in this area so somebody will be coming to find us. 29:12.584 --> 29:15.295 What we can do, all we can do, is try to stay alive until then. 29:15.378 --> 29:18.256 No, that's not all we can do. We're here because a child died, 29:18.339 --> 29:21.551 and the family had the grace to give this heart to us. 29:21.634 --> 29:23.303 We're here for Farouk. 29:23.386 --> 29:26.347 So, this car may fall, but we cannot let this heart fall. 29:27.432 --> 29:29.934 We've got about three hours before this heart stops being viable. 29:30.018 --> 29:32.437 So, two of us are gonna stay in the car, lean on opposite sides. 29:32.520 --> 29:33.938 That will stabilize the weight. 29:34.022 --> 29:35.523 One of us can climb out with the cooler. 29:35.607 --> 29:38.568 -What about the other two? -Stay in the car and wait till help comes. 29:38.651 --> 29:39.986 Well, Teddy should go first. 29:40.069 --> 29:43.364 She can climb out, take the heart, flag down a car, and call for help. 29:43.448 --> 29:47.744 Owen, he's a single parent. His kids have already lost their mother. 29:47.827 --> 29:50.914 Listen, if he goes and this car slips, then our kids lose both their parents. 29:50.997 --> 29:53.333 Looks, we've all got kids we wanna be there for. 29:53.416 --> 29:55.084 We all have lives we want to keep. 29:55.168 --> 29:59.214 So, we're all getting out of this car alive, we just need to... 29:59.297 --> 30:01.800 Wait, wait! Nobody move! Do you hear that? 30:01.883 --> 30:03.635 I think the car's pulling the tree out of the ground. 30:03.718 --> 30:05.178 What? 30:05.261 --> 30:06.262 [screams] 30:07.680 --> 30:10.558 Hey, I just watched Perez ask a scrub nurse 30:10.642 --> 30:13.520 whether he should use 2-0 vicryl or 3-0 vicryl to close an appy. 30:13.603 --> 30:16.022 Better her than us. When was the last time you did an appy? 30:16.105 --> 30:18.525 I go away for a few weeks, now the residents are attending? 30:18.608 --> 30:20.276 Place falls apart without you. 30:20.360 --> 30:22.487 I almost just had a panic attack in the gallery just now. 30:22.570 --> 30:25.031 -How is Bailey okay with this? -It's progress, Maggie. 30:25.114 --> 30:27.826 The residents are excited in a way they have not been in a long time. 30:27.909 --> 30:29.994 You plan on letting them cut into brains without you? 30:30.078 --> 30:32.580 -Oh, absolutely not. -Yeah. 30:32.664 --> 30:36.000 What are you doing here? I thought you had your big super-secret surgery today. 30:36.084 --> 30:37.919 I did, and then I didn't, so I thought I would find you 30:38.002 --> 30:39.295 and tell you about my new crush, 30:39.379 --> 30:41.798 but somehow the vibe does not feel right. 30:41.881 --> 30:43.299 I'm gonna find you later. 30:46.010 --> 30:47.887 You can't report this to the FDA. 30:47.971 --> 30:51.641 Just repair the bowel and tell them we had an equipment malfunction. 30:51.724 --> 30:53.810 I cannot lie to the FDA. 30:53.893 --> 30:56.229 I'm gonna tell them everything and they'll just give us a new window. 30:56.312 --> 30:58.731 You know how long that will take? I'll lose weeks. 30:58.815 --> 31:00.775 You're a rule-breaker, Grey, so break the rules. 31:00.859 --> 31:02.443 I cannot compromise this project. 31:02.527 --> 31:05.154 You're compromising my only chance at getting my life back. 31:05.238 --> 31:07.031 You're not the only one with Parkinson's. 31:07.115 --> 31:10.451 There are ten million people living around the world with this disease. 31:10.535 --> 31:13.830 They don't have your money or your access to healthcare. 31:13.913 --> 31:17.709 They still live. They travel, they spend time with their families, 31:17.792 --> 31:19.502 they work as long as they can. 31:19.586 --> 31:22.672 Their lives are as productive and as meaningful as anyone else's. 31:22.755 --> 31:25.174 The only thing stopping you from living with this disease 31:25.258 --> 31:26.718 is your own ego. 31:26.801 --> 31:28.553 Is that what you said to your mother? 31:28.636 --> 31:30.346 What does my mother have to do with this? 31:30.430 --> 31:31.723 Oh, come on, Meredith. 31:31.806 --> 31:34.350 If our procedure is even a little successful, 31:34.434 --> 31:36.185 it'll have huge ramifications 31:36.269 --> 31:38.354 for the treatment of other neurodegenerative diseases. 31:38.438 --> 31:41.441 The funding will pour in, you know that. 31:42.525 --> 31:44.402 You never wanted to cure me. 31:45.111 --> 31:47.113 You want to cure Alzheimer's. 31:49.324 --> 31:51.451 [Devon, on podcast] You know, this is my favorite time of day. 31:51.534 --> 31:54.537 The sun burns the fog that settled overnight, so... 31:54.621 --> 31:57.457 -A little more traction. -Okay, I get it. 31:57.540 --> 32:00.877 His footsteps are like ASMR, which puts people to sleep. 32:00.960 --> 32:03.212 You really shouldn't play this while your hands are in someone's body. 32:03.296 --> 32:06.591 And when you're lead surgeon, you can choose. Suction. 32:08.885 --> 32:10.345 Okay. 32:11.387 --> 32:12.722 Page Dr. Webber, please. 32:12.805 --> 32:16.100 ...and walking through it is just, well, so peaceful. 32:16.184 --> 32:18.102 Dr. Schmitt, according to the method, 32:18.186 --> 32:21.356 we are supposed to wait to continue until he arrives. 32:21.439 --> 32:23.274 This dissection is routine for me at this point. 32:23.358 --> 32:25.777 I'll get it started and Webber will be here soon. 32:25.860 --> 32:27.612 So, wherever you are listening, 32:27.695 --> 32:30.323 I hope that you're feeling this peace too. 32:30.406 --> 32:33.618 I should have put on the holiday one from last season. 32:33.701 --> 32:36.079 -He trudges through the snow... -He's bleeding. 32:36.162 --> 32:37.288 From where? 32:40.124 --> 32:42.543 I can't see! Suction! Where is it? 32:42.627 --> 32:44.420 Where is it?! 32:51.552 --> 32:53.012 -We don't have much time. -Altman. 32:53.096 --> 32:55.431 Tell my kids to call their aunt. Tell them I love them. 32:55.515 --> 32:56.766 Tell them they'll be okay. 32:57.475 --> 32:58.476 Owen... 32:59.894 --> 33:03.481 Listen, we'll stabilize the car. Just get back to the road and bring help. 33:07.527 --> 33:08.528 I love you. 33:09.112 --> 33:10.238 I love you. 33:10.321 --> 33:11.322 Go. 33:21.249 --> 33:23.042 I'm out! I'm out. 33:23.126 --> 33:25.044 Take the cooler. Save Farouk. 33:25.128 --> 33:27.463 [vocalist] ♪ I don't know what's coming ♪ 33:27.547 --> 33:30.967 ♪ Or what's coming over me ♪ 33:31.259 --> 33:32.301 [Owen] Teddy, go! 33:34.262 --> 33:36.973 ♪ There's a howl in the heavens ♪ 33:37.557 --> 33:40.184 ♪ And there are tears in my eyes ♪ 33:40.268 --> 33:44.230 ♪ Oh, what a strange time to feel ♪ 33:44.313 --> 33:45.982 ♪ Life ♪ 33:46.065 --> 33:49.652 Hey. He's headed into surgery now. 33:49.736 --> 33:51.154 How long will it take? 33:51.237 --> 33:53.322 A few hours. Depends. 33:53.406 --> 33:56.325 Look, I know this complication is frustrating, but... 33:56.409 --> 33:59.787 we made it this far, and it's still gonna happen. 33:59.871 --> 34:01.122 How can you be so sure? 34:02.749 --> 34:04.876 -Close your eyes. -Why? 34:08.421 --> 34:09.672 Fine. 34:13.843 --> 34:17.096 You are on Peaks Island 34:17.180 --> 34:19.849 off the coast of Maine in late summer. 34:20.349 --> 34:22.769 You're standing on the beach, 34:22.852 --> 34:25.396 which is also surrounded 34:25.480 --> 34:28.608 by huge, amazing trees. 34:28.691 --> 34:30.401 It's nighttime, so it's cool, 34:30.485 --> 34:33.738 but... the breeze is warm. 34:35.406 --> 34:36.491 And when you look up... 34:38.076 --> 34:39.077 stars. 34:40.870 --> 34:42.330 Forever and ever. 34:45.166 --> 34:46.709 Hearing the waves. 34:48.544 --> 34:50.129 A calm exists... 34:52.340 --> 34:53.883 like no other. 34:55.009 --> 34:59.222 [vocalist] ♪ And the wind is wild, are you listening? ♪ 35:00.223 --> 35:01.599 ♪ Are you listening? ♪ 35:01.682 --> 35:03.476 Did you just guide-meditate me? 35:05.520 --> 35:07.188 Did it work? 35:08.356 --> 35:09.982 It didn't not work. 35:10.525 --> 35:12.151 [vocalist] ♪ ...alive ♪ 35:12.235 --> 35:14.737 ♪ Oh, what a strange ♪ 35:14.821 --> 35:16.280 ♪ Time ♪ 35:16.364 --> 35:17.490 ♪ To feel ♪ 35:18.324 --> 35:19.492 ♪ Alive ♪ 35:19.575 --> 35:23.579 ♪ Oh, what a strange time ♪ 35:23.663 --> 35:26.874 ♪ To feel alive ♪ 35:26.958 --> 35:31.337 ♪ Oh, what a strange time ♪ 35:31.420 --> 35:35.299 ♪ To feel alive ♪ 35:37.260 --> 35:41.055 ♪ Shine on ♪ 35:41.139 --> 35:44.267 ♪ Long after the light ♪ 35:44.350 --> 35:46.352 ♪ Is gone ♪ 35:48.354 --> 35:51.983 ♪ I will shine on ♪ 35:53.151 --> 35:54.777 ♪ Shine on ♪ 35:56.863 --> 35:58.322 -Irrigation. -Irrigation... 35:58.406 --> 36:01.617 Urgent page from OR Four. They're calling anyone available. 36:01.701 --> 36:04.036 -Anyone? -Any attending. 36:04.120 --> 36:06.998 -Go ahead. I'm good to close up. -Okay. 36:08.749 --> 36:11.085 Dr. Grey, he's hypotensive! 36:11.169 --> 36:13.296 [rapid beeping] 36:15.464 --> 36:17.133 [beeping continues] 36:17.800 --> 36:20.261 [Devon, on podcast] Okay, it's definitely close. 36:20.344 --> 36:24.348 I can hear the water. It's getting louder, and... 36:24.432 --> 36:25.433 think we'll be there soon, folks. 36:25.516 --> 36:26.934 What the--? 36:27.018 --> 36:30.313 Initiate the massive transfusion protocol, right now! 36:30.396 --> 36:31.814 I'm coming down! 36:33.566 --> 36:35.193 [labored breathing] 36:41.157 --> 36:43.159 [flatline beep] 36:48.748 --> 36:52.376 [Devon, on podcast] Yeah, I think... oh, oh, there it is. 36:52.960 --> 36:55.755 Holy moly. Holy moly. 36:56.881 --> 36:57.924 Wow. 37:00.218 --> 37:03.221 It's been so long since I've seen a waterfall in person. 37:03.304 --> 37:04.972 This is just the best. 37:05.056 --> 37:07.099 Yeah, I'm gonna stay here a while, you guys. 37:07.683 --> 37:09.435 Turn that off. 37:10.519 --> 37:12.813 [flatline beep] 37:18.110 --> 37:19.111 [beep stops] 37:19.195 --> 37:21.739 [Bailey] I need to know what happened. Now. 37:25.743 --> 37:27.703 We were doing the dissection. 37:27.787 --> 37:29.997 Everything looked good. 37:30.081 --> 37:32.667 Uh, Dr. Schmitt put traction on the IMA... 37:32.750 --> 37:35.586 -Why did you not call for an attending? -We did. 37:35.670 --> 37:39.257 But, um, Levi... Dr. Schmitt... 37:39.340 --> 37:42.385 started the dissection instead of waiting. 37:43.803 --> 37:47.807 He thought he could just get it started. But then there was a bleed. 37:48.849 --> 37:54.689 Uh, Dr. Schmitt identified it was coming from the base of the IMA at the aorta. 37:55.356 --> 37:58.025 We attempted to control it, but, um... 37:58.109 --> 37:59.902 it was too late. 38:07.785 --> 38:08.619 [Bailey] Schmitt. 38:10.288 --> 38:11.956 Call it. 38:15.793 --> 38:17.336 -Time of death... -No! 38:17.420 --> 38:18.963 You call it, Schmitt. 38:19.547 --> 38:24.051 This is your patient, your OR, your hands that operated. 38:24.135 --> 38:26.345 Call it. 38:40.568 --> 38:42.737 Time of death: 1:19. 38:45.531 --> 38:47.658 [Meredith] I often ask my kids... 38:49.535 --> 38:52.455 do they prefer Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? 38:52.538 --> 38:54.498 [Bailey] This is on you. 38:54.582 --> 38:56.584 [Meredith] I go back and forth on that question. 38:57.168 --> 38:58.794 ["Carol of the Bells" playing] 38:58.878 --> 39:00.254 [vocalist] ♪ Hark how the bells ♪ 39:00.338 --> 39:02.548 ♪ Sweet silver bells all seem to say ♪ 39:02.631 --> 39:05.092 ♪ Throw cares away, Christmas is here... ♪ 39:05.176 --> 39:07.720 [Meredith] As a person, I prefer Christmas Eve... 39:08.554 --> 39:10.222 when life is all possibility. 39:11.849 --> 39:14.977 Falling asleep with unopened presents under a tree, 39:15.061 --> 39:17.480 filled with excitement for tomorrow. 39:20.566 --> 39:22.026 [vocalist] ♪ On, on they send ♪ 39:22.109 --> 39:23.652 ♪ On without end... ♪ 39:23.736 --> 39:26.864 [Meredith] But, as a surgeon, I prefer Christmas Day. 39:29.283 --> 39:32.078 The point where possibility meets reality. 39:35.790 --> 39:37.208 [vocalists] ♪ Throw cares away ♪ 39:37.291 --> 39:38.667 [vocalist] ♪ Hark how the bells ♪ 39:38.751 --> 39:39.752 ♪ Sweet silver bells ♪ 39:39.835 --> 39:41.462 ♪ All seem to say ♪ 39:41.545 --> 39:42.755 ♪ Throw cares away ♪ 39:42.838 --> 39:45.466 ♪ Christmas is here, bringing good cheer ♪ 39:45.549 --> 39:48.135 ♪ To young and old, meek and the bold ♪ 39:48.219 --> 39:50.179 ♪ Oh, how they pound, raising their sound... ♪ 39:50.262 --> 39:51.889 Wait, wait, stop! 39:53.641 --> 39:55.184 [Meredith] You tried your best... 39:55.726 --> 39:57.269 you call to close... 39:57.353 --> 39:59.939 you finish the surgery with the proper suture... 40:00.022 --> 40:01.565 ♪ Merry, merry, merry Christmas ♪ 40:01.649 --> 40:03.275 Hayes, just go! 40:03.359 --> 40:05.653 Tell Teddy and Megan and my kids that I love them. 40:05.736 --> 40:07.405 And my mom. Tell them I love them all so much. 40:07.488 --> 40:09.365 -Absolutely not! -No child deserves 40:09.448 --> 40:10.991 -to grow up without a parent. -I'm not listening. 40:11.075 --> 40:12.284 I'll be right behind you! 40:12.910 --> 40:15.579 When the car tips, there'll be a few seconds, I might just make it. 40:15.663 --> 40:17.415 No! The weight won't be enough! We can go together. 40:17.498 --> 40:19.250 It won't work, it won't work. You're closest to the window. 40:19.333 --> 40:22.128 This is the only way. Okay? 40:22.211 --> 40:24.422 -I'm not leaving you. -Think of your kids, Hayes, okay? 40:24.505 --> 40:25.840 Please. 40:27.550 --> 40:30.719 If I don't make it, just... I need you to do something for me, okay? 40:31.679 --> 40:33.931 I gave Noah Young the drugs that he needed to die. 40:34.014 --> 40:35.975 And I promised him that I'd give the same drugs 40:36.058 --> 40:37.935 to three other dying soldiers. 40:38.018 --> 40:40.563 It's the right thing to do, Hayes. 40:40.646 --> 40:43.399 I already have the meds, they're in my truck, glove compartment. 40:43.482 --> 40:45.651 Call Noah's wife, Heather. 40:45.734 --> 40:47.736 She has their names. She'll help you, okay? 40:47.820 --> 40:48.779 [Meredith] ...and soon... 40:48.863 --> 40:49.697 [Owen] Okay? 40:49.780 --> 40:51.490 [Meredith] ...you'll see if it all worked. 40:51.574 --> 40:54.743 Move. Move before it takes us both! Move! Go! 40:54.827 --> 40:55.995 [Meredith] But whichever you prefer... 40:56.078 --> 40:56.912 Go! 40:57.788 --> 40:59.582 [Meredith] ...I can promise you this... 40:59.665 --> 41:01.667 [screaming] 41:01.750 --> 41:03.169 Hunt! 41:03.252 --> 41:05.713 [glass and metal crunching] 41:05.796 --> 41:10.050 [Meredith] ...eventually, the holiday is over. 41:10.134 --> 41:12.761 ["Carol of the Bells" playing] 41:16.724 --> 41:20.936 [wind howls] 41:34.617 --> 41:37.536 [end theme music playing]