WEBVTT 00:01.001 --> 00:02.752 Previously on Grey's Anatomy: 00:02.836 --> 00:04.462 This dissection is routine for me at this point. 00:04.546 --> 00:05.672 [Bailey] I need to know what happened. 00:05.755 --> 00:08.049 Dr. Schmitt started the dissection instead of waiting. 00:08.133 --> 00:09.551 Time of death, 1:19. 00:09.634 --> 00:12.470 -Why aren't you in pre-op? -He has a low-grade fever. 00:12.554 --> 00:15.640 -Dr. Grey, he's hypotensive! -Jo, you're right. 00:15.724 --> 00:17.350 I've been holding on to a fairytale. 00:17.434 --> 00:19.644 We don't have to get married now. I just need her, right? 00:19.728 --> 00:21.730 -[Winston] What happened? -The heart is a match for Farouk. 00:21.813 --> 00:24.441 It's a beautiful and healthy heart. It's perfect. 00:24.524 --> 00:26.735 -How are you holding up? -If Farouk dies, I go with him. 00:26.818 --> 00:28.945 -She is not all right. -What's happening, Owen? 00:29.029 --> 00:30.530 [horn honks, tires squeal] 00:30.613 --> 00:33.700 Nobody bloody move. Take the cooler. Save Farouk. 00:33.783 --> 00:35.243 I gave Noah Young the drugs that he needed to die, 00:35.326 --> 00:37.037 and I promised him that I would give the same drugs 00:37.120 --> 00:40.582 to three other dying soldiers. Move, before it takes us both! 00:45.712 --> 00:51.801 [praying indistinctly] 00:53.678 --> 00:56.139 [sighs] 00:56.222 --> 00:58.892 -Is that it? -Yeah. 00:58.975 --> 01:00.310 You're sure? 01:00.393 --> 01:02.395 I've never been more sure about anything in my life. 01:02.479 --> 01:04.397 -And Heather knows? -She does. 01:04.481 --> 01:08.109 We made a plan, and I can take better care of Danny from the other side. 01:08.860 --> 01:11.071 [exhales sharply] 01:11.154 --> 01:14.115 I feel good about my life... 01:15.575 --> 01:17.744 and I feel good about where I'm going. 01:19.245 --> 01:22.123 I did my best, and... 01:22.207 --> 01:24.084 I think that's pretty damn good. 01:27.295 --> 01:28.838 Yeah. 01:30.548 --> 01:31.925 Hey, Dr. Hunt? 01:32.926 --> 01:36.638 I don't want to abandon the guys in my unit. They need your help, too. 01:37.347 --> 01:38.640 We... 01:39.474 --> 01:41.017 We need your help. 01:41.101 --> 01:42.811 Please. 01:46.106 --> 01:48.525 [breathing heavily] 01:48.608 --> 01:49.859 [horn honks, tires squeal] 01:49.943 --> 01:52.153 [groans] 01:52.237 --> 01:53.613 [Teddy screams, glass shatters] 01:53.696 --> 01:56.074 [groans, breathing heavily] 02:01.079 --> 02:02.956 Here! I'm here! 02:05.166 --> 02:09.337 [Meredith] The vagus nerve is the longest and most complex of the cranial nerves. 02:09.420 --> 02:12.715 It transmits information to or from the surface of the brain 02:12.799 --> 02:15.301 to tissues and organs elsewhere in the body. 02:15.385 --> 02:18.930 Wait! Stop! Stop! 02:19.013 --> 02:20.265 Wait, wait! 02:27.438 --> 02:30.859 When a body sustains an extended period of stress or trauma, 02:30.942 --> 02:34.279 the vagus nerve becomes hyperactive. 02:34.362 --> 02:37.699 We think of stress and trauma as primarily emotional... 02:37.782 --> 02:41.327 -[Richard] Why didn't you wait? -...but the real impact is on the body. 02:41.411 --> 02:42.412 That's not the Webber Method! 02:42.495 --> 02:46.207 When the vagus nerve is triggered, it fights to slow the heart. 02:51.254 --> 02:52.714 Blood pressure drops, 02:52.797 --> 02:56.968 and you can experience nausea, tunnel vision... 02:57.051 --> 02:59.095 [high-pitched ringing] 02:59.179 --> 03:02.849 ...ringing in the ears, low blood pressure, 03:02.932 --> 03:05.268 an irregular heartbeat. 03:05.351 --> 03:08.354 [alarms beeping] 03:09.314 --> 03:12.775 And when the mind suffers, the body suffers. 03:12.859 --> 03:15.111 And it can be difficult to undo the damage. 03:20.909 --> 03:23.411 -There was an accident. -[Winston] Yeah, I heard. 03:23.494 --> 03:25.955 -You okay? -I will be as long as the heart is. 03:47.185 --> 03:48.978 -Ndugu? -The heart's bruised. 03:49.062 --> 03:50.563 It must have hit the side of the cooler when the car-- 03:50.647 --> 03:51.689 Can you still use it? 03:51.773 --> 03:53.441 [sighs] 03:59.322 --> 04:00.406 Page Dr. Pierce. 04:00.490 --> 04:03.117 [woman] Please page Dr. Pierce to OR Three. 04:17.423 --> 04:19.175 [Amelia, muffled] Owen. 04:19.550 --> 04:20.635 [horn blares] 04:20.843 --> 04:22.387 Owen, can you hear me? 04:22.470 --> 04:24.180 [Owen] Hayes, I already have the meds. Okay?! 04:24.264 --> 04:27.433 -Aah! -It's me. It's Amelia. Link is here, too. 04:27.517 --> 04:28.643 [groaning] 04:28.726 --> 04:30.228 There you are. 04:30.311 --> 04:32.605 You were in an accident. Do you remember? 04:32.689 --> 04:34.857 They gave you morphine on the way here for the pain. You're in Trauma One. 04:34.941 --> 04:38.152 I know your leg hurts, but can you wiggle your toes? Feel anything? 04:38.236 --> 04:39.821 Good. Okay. Can you feel this? 04:39.904 --> 04:41.614 -A little. -Good. That's good. 04:41.698 --> 04:43.408 We are gonna get you scanned and we're gonna get you into-- 04:43.491 --> 04:46.369 Amelia. Amelia. Teddy. Farouk's heart? 04:46.452 --> 04:47.912 Teddy's okay. She's outside. 04:47.996 --> 04:50.039 Farouk is in surgery. They got the heart here in time. 04:50.123 --> 04:51.582 Okay. Hayes? 04:51.666 --> 04:53.960 I haven't seen him, but I will see what I can find out. 04:54.043 --> 04:57.422 Amelia. Don't tell Megan that I'm hurt, okay? 04:57.505 --> 04:59.048 -Owen-- -Please. 04:59.132 --> 05:02.260 Not until after Farouk's all right. Please. 05:03.803 --> 05:06.931 Teddy. Do you need to sit down? 05:07.015 --> 05:08.182 -Is he...? -He's in a lot of pain, 05:08.266 --> 05:09.851 which right now is a good thing. 05:09.934 --> 05:12.687 Preliminary assessment shows extensive fractures to the left leg. 05:12.770 --> 05:14.105 -His neuro exam? -He's conscious, 05:14.188 --> 05:15.356 and he's following commands. 05:15.440 --> 05:17.734 His motor and sensory exams seem to be intact. 05:18.651 --> 05:21.988 -Will he walk again? -We'll know a lot more after a scan. 05:23.281 --> 05:24.949 Teddy, he's alive. 05:26.284 --> 05:28.453 He's still here. 05:28.536 --> 05:29.912 You can go in and see him. 05:32.749 --> 05:37.128 -Has anyone checked you out yet? -I'm fine. I'm-- I just, um... 05:37.211 --> 05:38.921 I just... 05:39.964 --> 05:42.675 I think I need a minute. I'm not sure I... 05:42.759 --> 05:44.510 I just-- I need a minute. 05:44.594 --> 05:46.095 You got it. 05:50.683 --> 05:53.436 -You should get checked out, Teddy. -He got me out of the car first, 05:53.519 --> 05:56.773 and I went to call for help and... 05:56.856 --> 05:58.816 and then I heard the car fall, 05:58.900 --> 06:02.362 and I rode all the way here with Farouk's heart in my hands, 06:02.445 --> 06:04.447 and I-- I thought Owen was dead. 06:04.530 --> 06:06.491 And it's just... I feel like my insides are like, lead, 06:06.574 --> 06:10.578 or like, you know, like... like ice, and I just... 06:10.661 --> 06:13.623 I just need them to thaw before I go... 06:13.706 --> 06:16.125 -before I go inside and see him. -You've gone hard. 06:16.209 --> 06:18.044 Your nervous system is protecting you. 06:18.669 --> 06:21.130 But he is alive. 06:21.214 --> 06:24.842 And he needs to see you. I know that. 06:31.766 --> 06:32.892 [Owen groans] 06:35.770 --> 06:38.648 [monitor beeping] 06:40.817 --> 06:42.985 [groans] 06:43.069 --> 06:44.695 Hi, Teddy. 06:46.239 --> 06:48.116 I thought you were gone. 06:48.199 --> 06:50.618 [exhales sharply] 06:50.701 --> 06:52.161 Me too. 06:55.456 --> 06:57.458 Can you come over here, please? 06:59.335 --> 07:00.503 [crying] 07:00.586 --> 07:01.921 Hey. 07:03.631 --> 07:05.174 I'm still here. [groaning] 07:08.428 --> 07:09.595 [Teddy crying] 07:09.679 --> 07:11.305 [speaking indistinctly] 07:12.223 --> 07:13.975 -I love you. -I know. 07:14.642 --> 07:16.602 [woman on P.A.] Dr. Radford to 2-6-2-2. 07:16.686 --> 07:20.523 Hey. I think we just do a pan scan and cover all our bases. 07:20.606 --> 07:22.859 I don't want to take a chance of being blindsided in the OR. 07:22.942 --> 07:26.279 Couldn't agree more. No one likes being blindsided. 07:27.488 --> 07:30.199 -Link? -Dr. Goldberg to the ICU. 07:30.283 --> 07:31.909 Link, are you all right? 07:31.993 --> 07:33.619 [sighs] 07:33.703 --> 07:36.080 Link, Owen means a lot to me, to everyone, 07:36.164 --> 07:38.666 -so whatever is going on with you-- -I have work to do. 07:38.749 --> 07:41.252 I'll, uh, meet you in Radiology. 07:43.463 --> 07:45.339 [Richard] This is not about the Webber Method, Bailey! 07:45.423 --> 07:47.550 It's about one surgeon, one surgeon who overstepped. 07:47.633 --> 07:50.761 If we canceled a teaching method every time a surgeon made a mistake-- 07:50.845 --> 07:54.432 [Bailey] A preventable mistake. It was preventable. 07:54.515 --> 07:59.145 I am suspending the Webber Method immediately and indefinitely. 07:59.228 --> 08:01.355 You absolutely will not. I won't accept it. 08:01.439 --> 08:04.442 Now, you may be the chief of this hospital, but I'm the chief of chiefs. 08:04.525 --> 08:06.152 I will call the medical board, Richard. 08:06.235 --> 08:08.654 You want to pull rank on me? I will report you! 08:08.738 --> 08:10.114 -Bailey! -There should have been 08:10.198 --> 08:15.036 an attending in that room! I am done arguing! 08:16.162 --> 08:20.291 Schmitt, stop wasting water. Your hands are clean. 08:26.255 --> 08:27.256 [Maggie] I don't know. 08:27.340 --> 08:29.383 [sighs] I don't think so. 08:29.467 --> 08:31.886 [Winston] If we don't do this, we have to put him back on ECMO, 08:31.969 --> 08:35.848 with risks of him bleeding or throwing a clot causing a stroke, or worse. 08:35.932 --> 08:37.600 I don't know if he could survive long enough to get another heart. 08:37.683 --> 08:40.937 And if this heart fails because it was bouncing around a cooler, 08:41.020 --> 08:43.356 he goes into immediate cardiac arrest. 08:43.439 --> 08:44.774 [breathes deeply] 08:44.857 --> 08:48.861 You called me here for my opinion, and I think you need to wait for a new heart. 08:51.030 --> 08:54.116 Okay, everyone. Let's incise the right atrium. 08:54.200 --> 08:56.619 -Dr. Ndugu-- -Dr. Pierce, I know the risks, 08:56.702 --> 09:00.748 but it is a miracle that Hunt and Altman and Hayes are alive. 09:00.831 --> 09:03.167 It's a miracle that this heart is in front of us right now. 09:03.251 --> 09:04.794 And it is a miracle that we have the privilege 09:04.877 --> 09:08.673 to see if it will beat inside Farouk's chest, bruised or not. 09:08.756 --> 09:13.302 So I'm gonna take the miracle and trust my gut. 09:13.386 --> 09:16.347 And I'm asking you to help me do this quickly and well. 09:19.058 --> 09:20.142 Okay. 09:24.021 --> 09:25.356 Scalpel. 09:36.242 --> 09:38.953 -[Nick] What do you mean he lied? -He had a bowel obstruction 09:39.036 --> 09:42.832 and he tried to hide the pain from us until it got so bad he nearly perfed. 09:42.915 --> 09:44.542 He was septic. I almost lost him on the table. 09:44.625 --> 09:47.628 -What an idiot. -"Idiot" doesn't begin to describe it. 09:47.712 --> 09:50.715 -"Megalomaniac" maybe. -[ Chuckles ] 09:50.798 --> 09:52.592 Hey. You know what? I got a crazy idea. 09:52.675 --> 09:55.052 -Yeah? -There's a jet leaving for Seattle, 09:55.136 --> 09:56.596 a critical care transport. 09:56.679 --> 10:00.057 I'm not... I'm not working, so I wasn't gonna go, but now I'm thinking... 10:00.141 --> 10:02.893 I don't know, I hitch a ride and take you out to drown your sorrows. 10:02.977 --> 10:04.895 -Seriously? -You hate this idea? 10:04.979 --> 10:07.064 -I love this idea. -[ Chuckles ] 10:07.148 --> 10:09.900 Okay. In that case, I gotta go. 10:09.984 --> 10:11.235 [beep] 10:11.944 --> 10:14.614 [siren wails in distance] 10:15.114 --> 10:18.534 Hey. Hayes, what happened to your head? 10:18.618 --> 10:21.704 There was, uh... there was an accident. 10:21.787 --> 10:23.122 What kind of accident? 10:23.205 --> 10:24.206 [sighs] 10:25.207 --> 10:26.876 My whole life... 10:27.001 --> 10:29.128 [clears throat] 10:29.295 --> 10:32.882 My whole bloody life flashed before my eyes. 10:33.758 --> 10:35.885 I saw Abigail and... 10:37.219 --> 10:38.304 my boys and... 10:38.387 --> 10:39.889 [sniffles] 10:39.972 --> 10:42.642 It was just a lot. It was a lot. 10:43.768 --> 10:45.936 -Have you been checked out? -I'm fine. I'm fine. 10:46.020 --> 10:48.814 Well, I'll be the judge of that. Let's go inside. Come on. 10:52.818 --> 10:54.320 [sighs] 10:57.657 --> 10:59.450 Pupils look good. 11:00.910 --> 11:02.244 Was there any loss of consciousness? 11:02.328 --> 11:04.872 No. I'm all right, Grey. 11:04.955 --> 11:07.458 Scale of one to ten, how bad does your head hurt? 11:07.541 --> 11:08.959 It doesn't hurt. 11:10.795 --> 11:13.506 Just let me take your blood pressure, 11:13.589 --> 11:15.800 and then we can agree that you're okay. 11:19.929 --> 11:21.889 What's your opinion on mercy killings? 11:21.972 --> 11:23.766 Whoa. You've gone dark. 11:23.849 --> 11:27.353 No, I'm serious. What is your opinion on mercy killings? 11:27.436 --> 11:28.771 And not on me. 11:30.272 --> 11:34.026 I believe in death with dignity, if that's what you're asking me. 11:34.110 --> 11:35.820 No, I'm asking what you would think of a doctor 11:35.903 --> 11:38.030 who took that decision into his own hands, 11:38.114 --> 11:39.990 who killed a man, a man who wanted to die, 11:40.074 --> 11:42.493 a man who was gonna die soon anyway. 11:43.035 --> 11:47.623 -I would say first do no harm. -Yeah. That's what I thought. 11:51.252 --> 11:53.337 Something you want to tell me? 11:55.214 --> 11:59.552 Listen. Altman and Hunt were in that car with me. 11:59.635 --> 12:01.387 -Hunt was hurt. -How badly? 12:01.470 --> 12:03.764 Bad enough he might need a great general surgeon. 12:05.683 --> 12:08.352 -I came as soon as I heard. -What are we looking at? 12:08.436 --> 12:12.064 L1 burst fracture. We'll need to go in and remove any bone fragments 12:12.148 --> 12:13.858 before stabilizing it with a cage. 12:13.941 --> 12:16.652 Open femoral fracture needs a wash-out, and we'll use a nail to fixate it. 12:16.736 --> 12:19.196 Left leg also has a tibial plateau fracture. 12:19.280 --> 12:22.074 We'll have to wait a few days for the swelling to go down before repairing it. 12:22.158 --> 12:24.702 -Is that a splenic lac? -[Richard] Yeah, looks like a Grade One. 12:24.785 --> 12:27.788 -Let's monitor it with labs. -Yeah, the leg's in much worse shape. 12:27.872 --> 12:29.540 -You think he'll be able to walk again? -The sooner we get in, 12:29.623 --> 12:30.833 -the sooner we'll know. -Shepherd? 12:30.916 --> 12:32.793 There is some retropulsion into the spinal canal. 12:32.877 --> 12:35.880 But he's got some movement and feeling, which is a good sign, 12:35.963 --> 12:38.007 but we'll have to get in quick, and we'll need to be perfect. 12:38.090 --> 12:41.385 -Perfect or he's paralyzed? -Yeah. 12:42.845 --> 12:45.264 [Richard] Okay. Whatever OR you need, it's yours. 12:45.347 --> 12:47.016 -What about Schmitt? -What about him? 12:47.099 --> 12:49.727 -He's the best resident. Can we have him? -Schmitt's unavailable. 12:49.810 --> 12:50.936 [door opens] 12:51.020 --> 12:52.396 -Do you want me? -You want to be our resident? 12:52.480 --> 12:53.981 Well, I'm just saying, if you need hands. 12:54.064 --> 12:56.692 Mer, we got him, but if that changes, you'll be our first call. 12:56.776 --> 12:59.111 Okay. Our patient is awake. I have to go yell at him. 12:59.195 --> 13:01.155 I'm here if you need me, okay? 13:01.238 --> 13:02.573 [door opens] 13:02.656 --> 13:05.910 [woman] Total room disinfection in process. 13:07.286 --> 13:09.705 You're supposed to be writing an operative report. 13:13.292 --> 13:16.003 Hey, I don't know what you think you're scrubbing in on, but don't. 13:16.086 --> 13:18.214 You're in no condition. 13:18.297 --> 13:21.217 Total room disinfection in process. 13:23.010 --> 13:27.056 Look, a surgeon who's never lost a patient hasn't done enough surgeries. 13:28.015 --> 13:30.559 It happens, even to the best of us. 13:30.643 --> 13:32.645 [cellphone buzzes] 13:34.897 --> 13:36.273 [sighs] 13:36.357 --> 13:41.195 Take a break, Schmitt. Take a walk, feel your feelings, 13:41.278 --> 13:43.113 and then write that report. 13:44.406 --> 13:46.325 [door opens] 13:46.408 --> 13:49.662 I'll start on your burst fracture, and then Link and Nico will start in 13:49.745 --> 13:51.121 -on your femoral fracture. -The other way around. 13:51.205 --> 13:53.123 Femoral fracture first, then spine. 13:53.207 --> 13:54.667 We always start with the spine. 13:54.750 --> 13:57.753 Yes, when the spinal fracture's more unstable with motor and sensory deficits. 13:57.837 --> 14:00.172 In this instance, the leg is shattered with an open wound 14:00.256 --> 14:02.591 and he has decreased PT and DP pulses, 14:02.675 --> 14:04.301 so it takes priority if he wants to keep it. 14:04.385 --> 14:05.886 [Nico] We could actually compromise here. 14:05.970 --> 14:08.514 We position Hunt on his side, we both go in laterally, 14:08.597 --> 14:11.141 you in through the lumbar spine, and I'll go in through the side of the femur. 14:11.225 --> 14:12.893 We do the repairs simultaneously. 14:14.770 --> 14:16.564 Owen, the risks here are you lose your leg 14:16.647 --> 14:20.234 or you lose the ability to use your legs. I really think that we want to-- 14:20.317 --> 14:21.777 -Where's Hayes? -Hayes? 14:21.861 --> 14:23.279 Yeah. I need to see him. 14:23.362 --> 14:24.864 We need to get you into the OR as soon as possible. 14:24.947 --> 14:26.907 Owen, listen. You can talk to Hayes after your surgery. 14:26.991 --> 14:30.369 No, no. No. No. I need to talk to Hayes, and it can't wait. 14:31.996 --> 14:33.956 I will see if he can meet you in pre-op. 14:36.375 --> 14:39.628 -Okay. -And we will go in simultaneously. 14:47.803 --> 14:49.263 Okay? 14:55.769 --> 14:57.646 Ndugu. We know anything yet? 14:57.730 --> 15:00.524 -I'd like to give his mother an update. -There's no way to know just yet. 15:00.608 --> 15:02.610 We still have a couple more vessels to anastomose. 15:02.693 --> 15:06.739 [Winston] But for what it's worth... I have a good feeling. 15:18.751 --> 15:21.795 [woman on P.A.] Dr. Sellers. Dr. Mari Sellers. 4-6-1-9. 15:21.879 --> 15:22.963 [Owen groans] 15:23.047 --> 15:25.507 Dr. Mari Sellers. 4-6-1-9. 15:25.591 --> 15:26.967 My God. Look at you. 15:27.051 --> 15:28.594 [sighs] Could have been much worse. 15:28.677 --> 15:30.429 Yeah. Could have been me. 15:30.512 --> 15:33.098 [chuckles] 15:33.182 --> 15:34.224 [sighs] 15:34.308 --> 15:36.477 Thank you, Hunt. 15:36.560 --> 15:38.312 I don't know what else to say. 15:38.395 --> 15:40.022 Thank you. 15:40.105 --> 15:42.274 You could thank me by forgetting what I told you. 15:42.358 --> 15:43.943 [sighs] 15:45.527 --> 15:47.488 If I do that... 15:48.489 --> 15:50.658 then I'm an accessory to a crime. 15:50.741 --> 15:53.369 Hayes, Noah was dying. You know that. 15:53.452 --> 15:55.412 He qualified for physician assisted death. 15:55.496 --> 15:56.664 Then why do you want me to forget about it? 15:56.747 --> 16:00.584 'Cause his friends don't come from states that allow death with dignity. 16:00.668 --> 16:04.380 I made him a promise, and he made them a promise. 16:04.463 --> 16:06.674 So you stole drugs and plan to pass them out like candy? 16:06.757 --> 16:10.094 I plan to show those soldiers the respect that our country hasn't. 16:10.177 --> 16:12.221 I plan to keep my promise to those men, okay? 16:12.304 --> 16:16.809 You saved my life, and I need to spend what's left of it looking after my boys. 16:16.892 --> 16:19.061 -I can't go to prison. -That's not gonna happen. 16:19.144 --> 16:21.897 You stole life-ending drugs that you plan to dispense 16:21.981 --> 16:24.817 to men who do not qualify. 16:25.901 --> 16:28.654 Come forward, tell Bailey what you've done, what you plan to do next. 16:28.737 --> 16:31.115 The longer you hold this secret inside, the worse it's gonna get. 16:31.198 --> 16:33.200 Tell the truth so I don't have to. 16:33.283 --> 16:35.035 I fell off of a cliff so you didn't have to. 16:35.119 --> 16:38.872 If not prison, I'd almost certainly lose my license to practice medicine 16:38.956 --> 16:40.582 for knowing about this and failing to report it. 16:40.666 --> 16:42.668 -Hayes, come on. -Hunt, I'm grateful to you 16:42.751 --> 16:45.170 for getting me out of that car, but I can't make you any promises. 16:46.171 --> 16:47.923 I need to think this through. 16:48.007 --> 16:49.925 [sighs] 16:56.098 --> 16:58.684 -Hey. Farouk's heart? -We don't know yet. 16:58.767 --> 17:00.728 Okay. Thank you. 17:05.649 --> 17:06.650 Hey. 17:16.368 --> 17:18.370 [loud rattling] 17:18.454 --> 17:20.622 [groans] 17:20.706 --> 17:22.458 -I'm sorry. -No. 17:22.541 --> 17:25.586 -No, I'm not sorry? -I'm not interested in your apology. 17:25.669 --> 17:27.212 I'm honestly not super into it, either. 17:27.296 --> 17:30.966 Dr. Bartley worked two years on this protocol, and you nearly ruined it. 17:32.092 --> 17:34.762 -Stupid. -Way worse than stupid. 17:34.845 --> 17:38.098 David, you were septic. You almost died. 17:38.182 --> 17:40.976 We don't have another patient with Parkinson's 17:41.060 --> 17:43.854 who will volunteer to let us experiment on his brain, 17:43.937 --> 17:48.776 and even if we did, the FDA only approved you. You're it. 17:48.859 --> 17:51.987 Our time is a non-renewable resource. 17:52.071 --> 17:53.530 I have children here in Seattle 17:53.614 --> 17:56.408 that I am missing days with that I will not get back. 17:56.492 --> 17:59.453 So if you pull a stunt like this again, I will quit, 17:59.536 --> 18:02.873 and if I quit, the FDA will kill this project. 18:02.956 --> 18:06.001 And then I will have wasted two years of Dr. Bartley's time. 18:06.085 --> 18:10.172 We'll get over it, but you won't, because you will die with Parkinson's. 18:10.255 --> 18:13.467 -Understood? -Understood. 18:17.554 --> 18:18.889 [door closes] 18:18.972 --> 18:22.184 Yeah. I'm walking out, too. 18:23.352 --> 18:24.937 But only 'cause I need more coffee. 18:25.020 --> 18:26.355 [door opens] 18:37.866 --> 18:40.327 Hey. Bailey told me what happened. 18:40.410 --> 18:43.497 She thought you might still be in here, so she sent me to take you home. 18:44.081 --> 18:47.126 Levi, it's the worst, and we've all been there. 18:49.211 --> 18:50.879 Levi, your hands! 18:51.630 --> 18:54.091 Levi! Okay, you need to stop it. 18:54.174 --> 18:55.551 [gasps] 18:55.634 --> 18:56.885 Levi! 19:00.430 --> 19:01.932 [scrubbing continues] 19:19.658 --> 19:21.160 [Hayes] Megan. 19:23.078 --> 19:25.831 I wanted to give you an update. Your mother said you were here. 19:27.583 --> 19:30.085 I came here to pray, and I don't pray. 19:30.169 --> 19:33.672 But I came here to pray because no one will tell me anything. 19:33.755 --> 19:36.550 No one's told me anything for hours. I haven't seen Teddy. I haven't seen Owen. 19:36.633 --> 19:40.220 I haven't seen you. No one will give me an update. 19:42.764 --> 19:44.141 How bad is it? 19:45.601 --> 19:49.229 -Megan, I need to know your plan. -[sighs] What plan? 19:49.313 --> 19:51.565 I need to know your plan for how not to kill yourself. 19:53.025 --> 19:55.319 Maybe it's medication. Maybe it's inpatient treatment. 19:55.402 --> 19:57.279 Maybe it's just talking to your family, 19:57.362 --> 20:00.115 letting them know how you feel and then letting them take over. 20:00.199 --> 20:03.035 Whatever it is, I need to know your plan for living. 20:11.293 --> 20:15.214 My wife died a few years back. Did you know that? 20:15.297 --> 20:16.840 No. 20:16.924 --> 20:19.009 I tried to move on. I couldn't. 20:19.092 --> 20:23.347 I blamed it on my son's panic attacks, but the truth is... 20:23.430 --> 20:25.182 I'm not over Abigail. 20:27.476 --> 20:29.603 I don't know if I'll ever get over her. 20:30.729 --> 20:32.314 I desperately don't want to leave my boys, 20:32.397 --> 20:34.733 but I'm desperate to see Abigail again. 20:34.816 --> 20:38.320 What I'm saying is, I know how it feels 20:38.403 --> 20:40.989 to want to live and not want to live. 20:42.199 --> 20:43.909 I know the depth of that grief. 20:43.992 --> 20:46.328 I know the impulse to want to leave the planet. 20:47.371 --> 20:49.373 But if I'm gonna give you more bad news, 20:49.456 --> 20:54.002 I need to know that I'm not handing you a bottle of pills... 20:55.254 --> 20:56.964 that I'm not taking you out. 20:59.174 --> 21:00.467 [sniffles] 21:00.592 --> 21:02.844 I took a sedative. That helped. 21:05.555 --> 21:08.684 You can watch me call my therapist. 21:09.268 --> 21:12.104 And I'll e-mail my psychiatrist and CC you. 21:12.187 --> 21:15.065 Just please... If you'll please just tell me. 21:15.148 --> 21:16.817 Tell me everything. 21:17.943 --> 21:19.486 There was an accident. 21:19.569 --> 21:21.613 Car went off the road. The heart was bruised. 21:21.697 --> 21:26.076 Ndugu thinks it's still functional, so they're working on Farouk right now. 21:26.159 --> 21:27.160 Owen was injured. 21:27.244 --> 21:30.122 His injuries are not life-threatening, but his leg was shattered. 21:30.205 --> 21:32.165 He is also in surgery. 21:33.292 --> 21:34.751 Wow. [chuckles] 21:35.544 --> 21:38.922 -When it rains, it pours, huh? -Yeah. 21:42.384 --> 21:44.219 All right. 21:44.303 --> 21:45.887 Let's make that call. Have you got your phone? 21:45.971 --> 21:48.098 [breathes deeply] 21:48.181 --> 21:49.349 Yeah. 21:57.024 --> 21:59.568 Hey. How's it going? 22:01.236 --> 22:04.740 I can't imagine Owen Hunt unable to stand over an operating table. 22:04.823 --> 22:07.159 Is that where we are? 22:07.242 --> 22:09.453 I don't know. It's slow going. 22:11.538 --> 22:14.833 -Heard about Schmitt? -No. 22:14.916 --> 22:19.046 He had a tough loss. Young guy in his 20s. 22:19.129 --> 22:21.506 He bled out in Schmitt's OR. 22:21.590 --> 22:24.843 And I should be comforting him, but I am just so angry 22:24.926 --> 22:27.971 because he was at the anastomosis with the stapler 22:28.055 --> 22:30.098 and he didn't wait for the attending. 22:30.932 --> 22:34.311 Put too much traction on the IMA, and it avulsed at the aorta. 22:34.394 --> 22:37.981 Just hubris. Just... pure and simple. 22:38.065 --> 22:39.191 I wouldn't have waited. 22:39.274 --> 22:42.110 If you had been teaching this way when I started, I... 22:42.903 --> 22:44.029 would have been drunk on it. 22:44.112 --> 22:46.865 Cristina wouldn't have waited. Alex wouldn't have waited. 22:46.948 --> 22:48.325 Okay. I got it. Thanks. 22:48.408 --> 22:51.370 -I'm just saying-- -No, you're saying that Bailey was right. 22:51.453 --> 22:54.498 You're saying we should kill the Webber Method completely. 22:54.581 --> 22:58.251 No, that's not what I'm saying. I'm... 22:58.877 --> 23:02.631 I am just saying that I am... 23:02.714 --> 23:04.174 sorry for Schmitt. 23:07.594 --> 23:10.806 [Amelia] Exposing the endplate. Drill, please. 23:10.889 --> 23:13.392 [Link] Hold the drill for a second. Nico's checking his anastomosis. 23:13.475 --> 23:15.310 Tell me when. 23:16.645 --> 23:18.688 [pulse whooshing] 23:18.772 --> 23:21.233 Strong signal. The primary repair worked. 23:21.316 --> 23:23.402 I'm not seeing any other neuro-vascular issues. 23:23.485 --> 23:24.694 More irrigation, please. 23:24.778 --> 23:26.696 Shepherd, go ahead. 23:26.780 --> 23:28.573 [drill whirring] 23:29.616 --> 23:31.118 [whirring stops] 23:31.201 --> 23:33.537 [monitor beeping] 23:36.873 --> 23:38.458 [whirring resumes] 23:42.546 --> 23:43.880 Can we clear the gallery, please? 23:44.673 --> 23:46.842 -What? -I need to focus. And I... 23:46.925 --> 23:49.136 I'm asking to clear the gallery. 23:52.013 --> 23:54.015 Can we clear the gallery, please?! 24:03.108 --> 24:04.109 [Amelia] Rongeur. 24:04.192 --> 24:06.111 Now to clean some of this dead tissue. 24:06.194 --> 24:07.612 Nice work, Nico. Now I need you to-- 24:07.696 --> 24:10.365 Debride and then do a wet-to-dry dressing. I got it. 24:11.116 --> 24:13.326 Owen, we are almost done. 24:18.331 --> 24:21.918 [woman on P.A.] Nurse Kaiser to the OR. Nurse Kaiser to the OR. 24:22.627 --> 24:23.712 -Sorry! -Whoa. Whoa. You okay? 24:25.088 --> 24:28.258 Um, I need your help. It's Levi. Our friend needs our help. 24:33.430 --> 24:35.891 -Oh, my God. -Levi. It's been hours. 24:35.974 --> 24:37.476 You have to stop. 24:38.852 --> 24:45.734 Uh, Schmitt. I heard what happened, man, and I've been there. 24:45.817 --> 24:47.777 The first patient I lost, I went running. 24:47.861 --> 24:50.947 I went running for five hours until my legs gave out and my friends found me 24:51.031 --> 24:53.200 collapsed on the side of the street, unable to move. 24:53.283 --> 24:57.787 I get it. I know how you feel. But you have to stop, okay? 25:02.250 --> 25:05.420 Um., Listen. Step back. 25:05.504 --> 25:08.507 Look, um... It's gonna be okay. 25:08.590 --> 25:11.968 You have to step back, though. And the water will turn off. 25:12.052 --> 25:13.803 Just step back. 25:13.887 --> 25:16.264 -I've got you, buddy. It's all right. -No! [screaming] 25:16.348 --> 25:17.891 -It's all right. -Levi. 25:17.974 --> 25:18.975 -It's all right. -Watch out! 25:19.059 --> 25:20.936 -It's all right. It's all right. -Levi. 25:21.019 --> 25:22.687 -It's okay. -All right. 25:22.771 --> 25:25.023 -It's okay, Levi. -You're okay. You're okay. 25:25.106 --> 25:26.191 -It's all right. -You're okay. 25:26.274 --> 25:27.442 -It's okay. -Let him up. 25:27.526 --> 25:28.735 It's okay. 25:29.152 --> 25:31.279 [Levi screaming] 25:43.833 --> 25:46.878 I'll get him up to the ICU. When do you want the first post-op labs? 25:46.962 --> 25:47.963 [Link] As soon as he arrives. 25:48.046 --> 25:49.798 And I want them doing regular neuro-vascular checks. 25:49.881 --> 25:51.383 [Nico] Got it. 25:51.466 --> 25:53.301 [woman on P.A.] Dr. Rymock to the Psych Unit. 25:53.385 --> 25:55.428 Dr. Rymock, call the Psych Unit. 25:57.013 --> 26:00.183 You spent the day punishing me because you saw me kissing someone else? 26:00.267 --> 26:03.061 You brought all of that, all of that into Owen's surgery. 26:03.144 --> 26:06.690 You don't think maybe a conversation before we're cutting into someone I love? 26:06.773 --> 26:09.818 Are you kidding me? You think you get to be upset? 26:09.901 --> 26:13.905 Are you serious?! I'm over here pining for you, Amelia, 26:13.989 --> 26:16.616 head-over-heels, can't-think-straight pining, 26:16.700 --> 26:20.996 because you told me you loved me. You told me over and over and over. 26:21.079 --> 26:23.832 We were building a life together, and suddenly, you say, "No, thanks." 26:23.915 --> 26:26.251 And while I'm torturing myself trying to convince myself 26:26.334 --> 26:28.295 that I don't need to be married, I just need you. 26:28.378 --> 26:31.047 -Since when? -Since now. Since today. 26:31.131 --> 26:33.800 And I came to tell you this, but instead, I find you 26:33.883 --> 26:37.554 kissing someone else in the hospital where I work! 26:39.347 --> 26:41.391 You... you just moved on. 26:41.474 --> 26:44.686 You just... you just moved on like the last year and a half didn't matter. 26:44.769 --> 26:46.771 Okay. I am not a person who just moves on. 26:46.855 --> 26:50.400 I had to think and process and go through every scenario in my head 26:50.483 --> 26:52.569 and every feeling in my body, and it was exhausting. 26:52.652 --> 26:54.571 And you know that I spent a year in AA meetings 26:54.654 --> 26:56.072 trying to figure out what I needed, 26:56.156 --> 26:59.826 and you did not want to hear that I was losing myself 26:59.909 --> 27:04.664 in something that I did not... that I could not want. 27:04.748 --> 27:08.835 You demanded that I marry you, 27:08.918 --> 27:10.545 and now once again, you want to gaslight me 27:10.629 --> 27:13.131 into thinking that I played you? 27:15.925 --> 27:17.177 [chuckles] 27:17.344 --> 27:21.056 You keep using that word, "gaslight." 27:21.139 --> 27:23.391 That's when you pretend that someone else's experience, 27:23.475 --> 27:26.686 their, uh, reality isn't real, right? 27:26.770 --> 27:30.523 Like when you pretend that we didn't make an amazing baby together, 27:30.607 --> 27:34.277 raise four kids, or love each other really damn well. 27:35.779 --> 27:37.447 When you pretend that we weren't in love 27:37.530 --> 27:39.991 because you're ready to move on with some random woman. 27:40.784 --> 27:42.035 They're non-binary. 27:42.118 --> 27:45.538 [sarcastically] Oh, okay. That makes it better. 27:51.461 --> 27:53.463 Congratulations. 27:53.546 --> 27:55.590 I hope you're really happy. 28:03.890 --> 28:06.351 [Winston] Okay, everyone. We're gonna try to get this heart going. 28:06.434 --> 28:09.354 If it doesn't beat, I need everybody ready to go back on bypass. 28:12.982 --> 28:14.359 Okay. Taking off clamp. 28:26.079 --> 28:27.288 Here we go. 28:39.134 --> 28:40.593 ♪ I hear... ♪ 28:40.677 --> 28:43.471 [Jo] You're gonna go home, and you're gonna sleep 28:43.555 --> 28:47.016 and hydrate and eat if you can and cry if you can, 28:47.100 --> 28:49.352 and, little by little, you will feel like you can breathe again. 28:49.436 --> 28:51.730 [cellphone buzzes] 28:51.813 --> 28:54.149 I have to take this. Don't wrap it too tight. 28:54.232 --> 28:55.859 Hey. Don't leave him alone. 28:55.942 --> 28:57.318 -Call me if you need me. -Yeah. 28:57.402 --> 29:00.113 ♪ In the air ♪ 29:00.196 --> 29:02.824 What happened? You okay? 29:02.907 --> 29:04.659 ♪ Nothing is clear ♪ 29:04.743 --> 29:07.620 Hey. What happened to him? 29:07.704 --> 29:11.207 Levi? What is going on here? 29:11.291 --> 29:13.835 -Let's, um... -Yeah, yeah. I got it. 29:13.918 --> 29:15.587 ♪ Ahh-ahh ♪ 29:15.670 --> 29:18.757 Let's take a walk, Nico. Yeah? 29:19.674 --> 29:21.551 ♪ These secrets sound like sirens ♪ 29:21.634 --> 29:23.011 [Nico] What's going on? 29:23.094 --> 29:26.973 All right, man. We are done here. 29:27.056 --> 29:28.224 Everything's gonna be all right. 29:28.308 --> 29:33.062 ♪ Sound like sirens, but they never come ♪ 29:33.146 --> 29:36.441 ♪ Ahhh ♪ 29:39.402 --> 29:42.572 ♪ Ahhhh ♪ 29:42.655 --> 29:47.786 ♪ Stand on edges where fear is proud ♪ 29:49.329 --> 29:52.415 ♪ They don't like to be found ♪ 29:52.499 --> 29:55.210 His heart is beating, and it's beating well, Megan. 29:55.293 --> 30:00.006 ♪ Shadows flee in the blackest night ♪ 30:00.089 --> 30:02.383 [Megan crying] 30:02.467 --> 30:07.388 ♪ Without me they won't survive ♪ 30:07.472 --> 30:08.765 ♪ Ahhhh ♪ 30:08.848 --> 30:10.600 [Megan laughs] 30:10.683 --> 30:12.977 Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 30:13.061 --> 30:14.395 Thank you. 30:14.479 --> 30:16.648 ♪ Ahhhh ♪ 30:18.358 --> 30:22.987 Dr. Ndugu made sure the graft was perfect, and he'll be up any minute. 30:24.239 --> 30:27.826 What... what about, uh, Owen? Is he out of surgery yet or...? 30:27.909 --> 30:30.578 We will get an update to you as soon as we can. 30:30.662 --> 30:33.915 Right now, I just want you to take this in. 30:33.998 --> 30:38.169 Farouk's heart is beating in his chest. He's okay. 30:38.253 --> 30:41.840 And it's okay to... to take in the miracle. 30:41.923 --> 30:43.758 ♪ These secrets sound like sirens ♪ 30:43.842 --> 30:46.886 ♪ But they never come ♪ 31:19.586 --> 31:21.296 [knock on door] 31:22.380 --> 31:23.882 Dr. Bailey, can I have a word? 31:23.965 --> 31:27.343 [Bailey] Yeah, just let me... Oh, your head. 31:27.427 --> 31:31.264 Uh, any update on the Hunt family? 31:31.347 --> 31:34.434 Farouk's heart transplant was a success. 31:34.517 --> 31:39.063 -And Owen? -I, uh... I haven't heard. 31:39.147 --> 31:41.065 Well, I need him to be okay. 31:41.733 --> 31:44.986 [sighs] That family has been through so much. 31:45.570 --> 31:47.572 They've lived lives of service. 31:47.655 --> 31:50.158 The mother was an Army nurse. Did you know that? 31:50.241 --> 31:52.827 -No. -Whole military family. 31:52.911 --> 31:57.415 Owen Hunt is one of the best men I know. 31:57.498 --> 32:01.294 He cares and he fights and he... 32:01.377 --> 32:03.379 He's gonna be okay. 32:03.463 --> 32:06.090 I'm just gonna decide that right now. 32:06.174 --> 32:09.093 Owen Hunt is gonna be okay! You hear me? 32:09.177 --> 32:13.222 -Oh, this day. Did you hear about Schmitt? -Dr. Bailey. 32:13.306 --> 32:14.933 I have to give you my notice. 32:15.016 --> 32:16.726 -What? -I'm sorry. 32:17.685 --> 32:21.481 My kids, they're not thriving here. They're not happy. We have to go. 32:22.357 --> 32:25.610 -Where? -Back to Ireland. 32:27.236 --> 32:30.865 [laughing] Okay. I... I... 32:32.033 --> 32:34.452 I don't suppose there's anything I can... do 32:34.535 --> 32:38.456 to convince you to stay? 32:38.539 --> 32:41.292 -Support for the boys... -No. I'm sorry. 32:41.376 --> 32:42.710 The decision's been made. 32:44.545 --> 32:47.006 Um, my... 32:48.299 --> 32:51.302 head of trauma is still in surgery 32:51.386 --> 32:54.555 and could need months of recovery, 32:54.639 --> 32:58.351 uh, so can you at least give me until he's well? 32:58.434 --> 33:01.688 I mean, at this rate, I'm hemorrhaging surgeons. 33:01.771 --> 33:02.814 I just can't. 33:05.316 --> 33:07.944 I truly am sorry. 33:08.027 --> 33:10.154 I've loved my time here. 33:12.615 --> 33:15.034 But I got to do what's best for my family. 33:16.411 --> 33:18.204 I'll hand off my cases. 33:18.871 --> 33:20.873 This will be my last shift. 33:24.335 --> 33:25.920 I'm sorry. 33:53.239 --> 33:58.077 So, are we celebrating with drinks at Joe's or pajamas in bed? 33:59.370 --> 34:00.538 [woman] Grey-Sloan Memorial. How can I... 34:00.621 --> 34:02.540 What... what was that look for? 34:05.710 --> 34:07.545 "Take in the miracle." 34:09.213 --> 34:11.632 You're a person who takes in miracles. 34:11.716 --> 34:13.259 I didn't know that about you. 34:13.342 --> 34:17.805 -What, you don't? -I take in science, data, reason. 34:17.889 --> 34:19.265 Calculated risk. 34:19.348 --> 34:23.269 And today, you jumped in and had my back when I decided to leap. 34:23.352 --> 34:26.689 You were right there, every stitch, every move. 34:26.773 --> 34:30.234 -Meaning? -Meaning we both showed up. 34:30.902 --> 34:32.487 We were a team. 34:32.570 --> 34:35.907 Owen and Teddy and Hayes, they're alive, 34:35.990 --> 34:37.742 and they kept that heart alive. 34:37.825 --> 34:40.328 The two of us, we were a team. 34:40.411 --> 34:42.205 We gave that boy a heart. 34:42.288 --> 34:44.332 So call it a miracle... 34:44.415 --> 34:47.543 Or skill, precision, hard work. 34:47.627 --> 34:49.212 Okay. Either way. 34:49.295 --> 34:52.340 That boy's brand-new heart is beating in his chest. 34:54.175 --> 34:56.552 His heart is beating in his chest. 34:57.887 --> 34:58.888 Hmm. 35:03.059 --> 35:04.727 Pajamas. 35:04.811 --> 35:06.938 We're definitely celebrating with pajamas. 35:10.149 --> 35:11.943 [siren wails in distance] 35:13.694 --> 35:15.488 [Nick] Meredith! 35:15.571 --> 35:18.116 -Hi. -I thought you'd never get here. 35:18.199 --> 35:20.576 -What do you mean? I'm right on time. -I know. 35:20.660 --> 35:22.036 How you doing? 35:22.120 --> 35:23.579 -Bad day, huh? -Yeah. 35:23.663 --> 35:27.083 -What's up? -My friend got into a car accident. 35:27.166 --> 35:28.835 -Oh, no. -Yeah. 35:28.918 --> 35:32.630 -My other friend quit. -Oh, no. 35:32.713 --> 35:34.799 And then my favorite resident flamed out. 35:34.882 --> 35:37.802 Geez. This place really falls apart without you, doesn't it? 35:37.885 --> 35:38.886 [Meredith chuckles] 35:38.970 --> 35:43.975 Well, I got us a reservation at a nice restaurant not too far from here. 35:44.058 --> 35:45.643 I thought that might be your reaction, 35:45.726 --> 35:47.770 so I also got a hotel with amazing room service. 35:47.854 --> 35:51.566 -Yes, better. -Much better. 35:51.649 --> 35:53.901 [indistinct conversations] 35:53.985 --> 35:56.320 [sighs] 35:56.404 --> 35:58.906 -Hey. -Hi. 35:58.990 --> 36:00.241 [sighs] 36:00.324 --> 36:02.952 -Fries? -Yeah. Please. 36:05.079 --> 36:06.289 How did the surgery go? 36:06.372 --> 36:10.459 Uh, well, the patient has a long road to recovery, 36:10.543 --> 36:13.462 but he's alive and he's not paralyzed. 36:13.546 --> 36:15.756 And he is my ex-husband. 36:15.840 --> 36:22.054 And, uh, the surgeon who operated with me is my son's father, 36:22.138 --> 36:26.893 -so, you know, family reunion. -Got it. 36:28.936 --> 36:32.481 Oh. Got it. So he cleared the gallery because I came in? 36:32.565 --> 36:34.358 He saw us kissing. 36:37.195 --> 36:39.071 My life, uh, is... 36:42.200 --> 36:43.534 messy. 36:44.911 --> 36:48.664 And I would totally understand if you don't want anything to do with that mess. 36:48.915 --> 36:51.000 ♪ Hear your voice ♪ 36:53.085 --> 36:57.632 Tell me, is your type always hot, square-jawed men? 36:57.715 --> 37:03.054 Lately, it appears my type is hot, square-jawed you. 37:04.430 --> 37:07.391 -Touché. -What about you? Do you have a type? 37:07.475 --> 37:11.437 No, but I'm sharing my fries. That's not a small thing. 37:13.814 --> 37:15.233 [cellphone chimes] 37:15.316 --> 37:18.277 ♪ I still see you ♪ 37:19.695 --> 37:23.783 ♪ The sunlight on your face in my rearview ♪ 37:23.866 --> 37:25.952 -Is that your kid? -That's Scout. 37:26.035 --> 37:30.790 His dad sends a good night photo of him every night that he has him. 37:30.873 --> 37:32.625 Even if we're fighting. 37:34.627 --> 37:35.753 He's a good man. 37:35.836 --> 37:37.838 I hate that I broke his heart, 37:37.922 --> 37:42.176 and I hate that he made me break it all over again. 37:47.723 --> 37:51.018 -You want me to grab you a drink? -Yes. [chuckles] 37:51.102 --> 37:53.813 But, no, because I don't drink. 38:03.531 --> 38:04.615 Thank you. 38:04.699 --> 38:06.617 ♪ When you go away ♪ 38:06.701 --> 38:09.662 ♪ I still see you ♪ 38:16.168 --> 38:18.170 Thank you. 38:24.343 --> 38:26.512 I don't want to feel all this again. 38:29.473 --> 38:30.850 Then don't. 38:31.934 --> 38:33.644 Helpful. Thank you. 38:33.728 --> 38:35.771 [chuckles] I'm saying, don't. 38:35.855 --> 38:38.774 I'm saying life is hard enough, 38:38.858 --> 38:41.110 and sometimes on bad days, 38:41.193 --> 38:44.864 we kill people and wash our hands until they bleed. 38:44.947 --> 38:48.159 Maybe don't suffer any more than you have to. 38:49.076 --> 38:50.453 Is it that easy? 38:51.912 --> 38:53.205 Maybe. 38:54.081 --> 38:59.545 Amelia is a good mom and a great surgeon and a decent human being, I guess, 38:59.628 --> 39:02.798 but she doesn't want what you want. 39:02.882 --> 39:05.968 And you, you are... 39:06.052 --> 39:07.970 -Atticus Lincoln. -[chuckles] 39:08.054 --> 39:12.433 You are the best ortho surgeon, the best bartender, 39:12.516 --> 39:17.605 the best father I know, and you're also just, like, really hot. 39:17.688 --> 39:19.440 -[chuckles] -I'm serious! 39:19.523 --> 39:21.442 You're the hottest guy that everyone knows. 39:21.525 --> 39:24.362 Let's just not pretend that that's not true. 39:25.446 --> 39:30.868 There are other women who would... love to love you, Link. 39:32.078 --> 39:35.498 -I am a catch. -[laughs] There's no denying it. 39:41.379 --> 39:43.339 You already mourned her. 39:44.757 --> 39:46.801 You already suffered, so maybe just... 39:50.054 --> 39:52.139 don't suffer anymore. 39:59.814 --> 40:01.857 ♪ There's nothing left to say ♪ 40:01.941 --> 40:04.402 ♪ No breath in your lungs ♪ 40:07.279 --> 40:09.240 ♪ Standing in flames ♪ 40:09.323 --> 40:11.784 ♪ The wreckage of us ♪ 40:14.370 --> 40:15.830 ♪ Caught in this war ♪ 40:15.913 --> 40:18.916 -This is a bad idea. -Is it? 40:18.999 --> 40:22.795 ♪ It's a dangerous love ♪ 40:22.878 --> 40:25.840 ♪ Mmm-mm ♪ 40:29.135 --> 40:35.850 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 40:35.933 --> 40:42.606 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 40:44.024 --> 40:45.943 ♪ There's nothing left to say ♪ 40:46.026 --> 40:48.571 ♪ Your heart turned to stone ♪ 40:51.240 --> 40:53.159 ♪ It's too late to save ♪ 40:53.242 --> 40:57.413 ♪ You're already gone ♪ 40:57.496 --> 41:01.167 [Meredith] Recent studies suggest that when we experience physical sensations 41:01.250 --> 41:05.671 related to intense emotions, it comes back to the vagus nerve. 41:08.007 --> 41:10.259 ♪ Mmm-mm ♪ 41:10.342 --> 41:12.887 [elevator bell dings, doors close] 41:12.970 --> 41:18.559 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 41:20.394 --> 41:22.521 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 41:22.605 --> 41:26.609 We think of the pain of a broken heart as being outside of our control. 41:26.692 --> 41:28.068 [siren chirps] 41:28.152 --> 41:34.992 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 41:35.075 --> 41:40.789 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 41:45.085 --> 41:48.422 But science suggests that if we laugh instead of cry... 41:49.965 --> 41:52.760 if we sing instead of ache... 41:54.178 --> 41:56.972 we might just heal faster. 41:57.181 --> 42:02.770 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 42:04.855 --> 42:10.110 ♪ Ooh-ooh ♪ 42:11.195 --> 42:13.989 [groaning] Ahh. 42:14.073 --> 42:18.118 Okay, okay. Hey. Okay. Here. 42:18.202 --> 42:20.079 Press this if you need some more, okay? 42:20.162 --> 42:23.499 -[beep] -Yep. Give it a second. 42:23.582 --> 42:24.833 Okay. 42:24.917 --> 42:27.002 [breathing heavily] 42:27.294 --> 42:29.672 Okay. Okay. Phew. 42:29.755 --> 42:32.758 -The surgery? -It went well. 42:32.841 --> 42:34.843 -I'll walk? -Yes. 42:34.927 --> 42:37.263 -It'll take time, but yes. -Ohh. 42:39.515 --> 42:41.600 Bailey just stopped by to check on you. 42:42.643 --> 42:44.979 She told me that Hayes quit. 42:45.813 --> 42:48.065 Says he wants to go back to Ireland. 42:49.942 --> 42:51.235 [sighs] 42:51.318 --> 42:53.153 What happened in that car, Owen? 42:53.237 --> 42:55.322 Of course, when we're hurting... 42:55.406 --> 42:56.949 What are you not telling me? 42:57.032 --> 43:01.662 ...sometimes it's just easier to keep hurting than to try to heal.