WEBVTT 00:02.002 --> 00:05.505 [Devon Gilfillian's "Icarus" playing] 00:08.216 --> 00:09.926 [both breathing heavily] 00:10.010 --> 00:12.637 [Meredith] In the last decade, researchers have discovered 00:12.721 --> 00:14.848 that humans have at least six senses. 00:15.682 --> 00:20.687 ♪ Rather play with fire than follow ♪ 00:25.025 --> 00:30.196 ♪ Ain't got time to wait for tomorrow ♪ 00:30.280 --> 00:32.198 This new sense is called proprioception. 00:34.284 --> 00:38.955 ♪ Oooo, I wanna live above the weather ♪ 00:39.039 --> 00:43.460 ♪ Oooo, I wanna kiss the sky forever ♪ 00:43.918 --> 00:47.088 ♪ Now I'm crashing through the ceiling... ♪ 00:47.172 --> 00:48.965 It refers to how your brain understands 00:49.049 --> 00:50.759 where your body is in space. 00:50.842 --> 00:53.303 ♪ ...as if the dark has won ♪ 00:53.386 --> 00:58.183 ♪ Wax is melting, wings are failing ♪ 00:58.266 --> 01:02.771 ♪ At least I touched the sun ♪ 01:02.854 --> 01:07.108 ♪ At least I touched the sun ♪ 01:07.358 --> 01:09.694 The mind, body connection to people... 01:09.778 --> 01:12.280 -[sighs] -[cellphone chimes] 01:12.363 --> 01:17.327 ♪ No receipts or second chances ♪ 01:18.953 --> 01:20.413 ♪ No repeats or second dances... ♪ 01:20.497 --> 01:22.582 Hey. Uh, so what do we got? 01:22.665 --> 01:24.209 Um, Dr. Wilson? 01:24.334 --> 01:25.251 Yeah? 01:28.755 --> 01:30.340 ...and to your environment. 01:35.053 --> 01:38.306 Mm. Bye, baby, I'll see you tonight for dinner. 01:38.389 --> 01:39.974 Mm. What, no breakfast? 01:40.058 --> 01:41.810 Oh, honey, I'm having breakfast with Helen Anderson 01:41.893 --> 01:44.437 at the Medical Accreditation Council. 01:44.521 --> 01:47.107 I gotta try to save your residency program. 01:47.232 --> 01:48.775 -Mm. -The Grey-Sloan follow-up 01:48.858 --> 01:49.692 is not for a few weeks, 01:49.776 --> 01:52.237 and you know I'm not above calling in a favor. 01:52.737 --> 01:53.696 Good luck with that. 01:53.780 --> 01:54.781 [smooches] 01:58.451 --> 02:00.787 [mutters] Don't want that. 02:01.204 --> 02:02.330 Ah. 02:03.456 --> 02:04.833 Mm, voilà. 02:07.127 --> 02:08.503 [elevator bell dings] 02:08.586 --> 02:13.466 And this, baby girl, is the operating floor. 02:13.550 --> 02:16.010 One of my favorite places. 02:16.094 --> 02:16.928 Happy place! 02:17.011 --> 02:19.389 [chuckling] Yes, my happy place! 02:19.472 --> 02:21.724 Let's see what's going on in OR 1. 02:21.808 --> 02:23.768 I did my first surgery in there. 02:23.852 --> 02:25.436 And Ben did his at-- 02:25.520 --> 02:28.565 No, no, no. 02:28.648 --> 02:29.607 Oh, no, no. 02:29.691 --> 02:32.277 Morning, Chief. Who is our new intern? 02:32.360 --> 02:34.362 Hi, my name is Pru. 02:34.445 --> 02:38.074 Hi, Pru. I'm Maggie. It's so nice to meet you. 02:38.158 --> 02:39.617 No, oh, no, have you all seen this board? 02:39.701 --> 02:42.620 Canceled, postponed, incomplete staff. 02:42.704 --> 02:45.373 No, oh-- okay, you know what? 02:45.456 --> 02:48.459 I took a few days off, found my joy again, 02:48.543 --> 02:51.004 brought my joy to work, was gonna carry my joy all day, 02:51.087 --> 02:53.298 but now I have to leave my joy at daycare 02:53.381 --> 02:55.675 because clearly nothing was done in my absence! 02:56.676 --> 03:00.430 [sighs] Saving this program is a "we" problem, 03:00.513 --> 03:01.514 not a "me" problem. 03:01.598 --> 03:03.892 So we need to fix this. 03:03.975 --> 03:07.854 Remind everyone why Grey-Sloan is the premier place to work. 03:07.937 --> 03:09.689 And then get me a list of people 03:09.772 --> 03:12.233 whose names belong on this board. 03:12.317 --> 03:13.651 [sighs] 03:14.110 --> 03:15.195 Well? 03:15.278 --> 03:18.364 -Uh, uh, I'm sorry? Just us or-- -No, everyone! 03:18.448 --> 03:20.950 Spread the word. Go. Save the program. 03:21.034 --> 03:22.660 -Save lives. Educate! -Alright, here we go. 03:22.744 --> 03:23.870 And if you need me, 03:23.953 --> 03:26.039 I'll be in the ninth floor conference room 03:26.122 --> 03:27.916 because my office has a smell. 03:27.999 --> 03:29.667 That does not bring me joy. 03:29.751 --> 03:31.794 See that, baby girl? 03:31.878 --> 03:34.088 That is reclaiming your power. 03:34.172 --> 03:36.007 [chuckles] 03:36.090 --> 03:38.218 Feels like my first day of school. 03:39.093 --> 03:41.638 Yeah, and you've already been called to the principal's office. 03:41.721 --> 03:43.556 -Yeah, seriously. Why am I so nervous? -[chuckles] 03:43.640 --> 03:46.684 Because Bailey likes it that way. She thrives on terrifying people. 03:46.768 --> 03:48.603 So you're still mad about what she said? 03:48.686 --> 03:51.689 She hasn't apologized to me, which means that she's still mad. 03:52.607 --> 03:54.025 Which means that I'm still mad. 03:54.108 --> 03:56.110 Well, then, this meeting's gonna go great. 03:58.696 --> 04:00.531 Oh, hey, Dr. Webber. It's nice to... 04:03.618 --> 04:06.371 Dr. Webber? This is Nick Marsh. 04:06.454 --> 04:08.831 He's going to be here for a couple of months. 04:08.915 --> 04:10.208 It's nice to finally meet you, Dr. Webber. 04:10.291 --> 04:11.417 Uh-huh. 04:11.501 --> 04:13.002 -[objects clattering] -Here. 04:16.881 --> 04:18.174 What was that about? 04:18.258 --> 04:20.802 There used to be snacks in here. 04:22.929 --> 04:23.763 Richard. 04:25.723 --> 04:26.683 Richard. 04:27.392 --> 04:29.894 -Huh? -Are you okay? 04:30.478 --> 04:31.604 When'd you get here? 04:32.730 --> 04:34.148 Come with me. 04:36.859 --> 04:38.403 Come with me, please. 04:39.946 --> 04:43.658 So yesterday we asked Leo if he wanted us to tell Ms. Patty-- 04:43.741 --> 04:46.160 she runs the daycare-- that he was a girl. 04:46.452 --> 04:47.453 [Robin] And? 04:47.537 --> 04:49.330 And he asked for a string cheese. 04:49.414 --> 04:50.707 Well, I mean, but-- 04:50.790 --> 04:52.875 but he nodded before he asked for the cheese. 04:52.959 --> 04:55.503 You said that we could consider disclosing 04:55.586 --> 04:57.422 what's going on to other people if we see signs. 04:57.505 --> 05:00.091 Persistent, consistent, and insistent signs. 05:00.174 --> 05:03.511 Mm. The only insistent thing is the request for snacks, so... 05:03.594 --> 05:06.764 [chuckling] And that's okay. Let Leo be gender creative right now. 05:06.848 --> 05:09.851 He doesn't need to change his pronoun or his name or his clothes. 05:09.934 --> 05:11.644 Well, uh, if we're not doing that, 05:11.728 --> 05:13.271 then-- then what are we doing? 05:13.354 --> 05:15.398 Supporting and affirming. 05:15.481 --> 05:18.109 You're following Leo's lead. Which may be one thing today, 05:18.192 --> 05:20.236 but it might be something completely different tomorrow. 05:20.320 --> 05:21.612 It's hard to know. 05:21.696 --> 05:23.990 [chuckles] What is it? 05:24.157 --> 05:28.828 It's just... [clears throat] Teddy loves ambiguity, so... 05:28.911 --> 05:30.413 [breathes sharply] 05:30.788 --> 05:33.583 Take her to trauma one. Thank you. 05:33.666 --> 05:35.501 Bailey's got you covering the pit, too? 05:35.585 --> 05:38.171 Apparently she thinks I'm an actual machine. 05:38.254 --> 05:39.756 I haven't seen you in days. 05:39.839 --> 05:42.633 I know. What are you up to tonight? 05:42.717 --> 05:44.802 I'm hanging out with Todd. Oh, can you watch Luna tonight? 05:44.886 --> 05:46.929 I meant to text you. Seriously? 05:47.013 --> 05:48.639 It's just that you know her bedtime routine, 05:48.723 --> 05:50.725 -and a new sitter would have to learn-- -Did you page me for this? 05:52.143 --> 05:54.354 No. Bed four. 05:54.437 --> 05:56.481 Patient came in with abdominal pain and vomiting. 05:56.564 --> 05:58.608 The wife says he's your patient. 05:58.691 --> 05:59.984 [Kristen] Dr. Lincoln. 06:00.068 --> 06:02.111 Oh, hey. 06:04.030 --> 06:05.948 Simon Clark, 38, 06:06.032 --> 06:08.368 status post synovial sarcoma resection four years ago, 06:08.451 --> 06:11.204 has been undergoing chemoradiation for recurrent lung mets. 06:11.287 --> 06:12.288 I got this one, Helm. 06:12.955 --> 06:14.374 [sighs] 06:14.916 --> 06:16.542 Thought I told you to take it easy. 06:16.626 --> 06:18.586 Mm, so no 5k next month? 06:18.669 --> 06:20.755 -[both chuckle] -[Kristen] This morning I found him 06:20.838 --> 06:23.216 in the nursery barely able to breathe. 06:23.299 --> 06:24.717 He's nauseous, can't eat. 06:24.801 --> 06:27.095 I think it's his chemo, but he was adamant 06:27.178 --> 06:29.097 about trying to finish putting together the crib. 06:29.180 --> 06:31.224 Would you let your mother-in-law build your kid's crib? 06:31.349 --> 06:33.142 I'm supposed to build the crib. 06:33.226 --> 06:35.895 [chuckles] It's your job to stay alive, Simon. 06:35.978 --> 06:37.271 That's your job. 06:37.355 --> 06:39.941 Okay, we'll get you some scans, we'll see what's going on, 06:40.024 --> 06:41.401 and we'll make you comfortable while we admit you. 06:41.484 --> 06:44.904 And no one will build any more furniture. 06:44.987 --> 06:46.072 Deal? 06:46.948 --> 06:49.242 -Deal. -Deal. 06:50.743 --> 06:51.786 [medical device whirring] 06:51.869 --> 06:54.080 Any heart palpitations or night sweats? 06:54.664 --> 06:56.624 -Night sweats. -Open your eye. 06:57.333 --> 06:58.751 You've been having night sweats? 06:58.960 --> 07:03.047 Oh, no, no. Just, uh-- it just makes a funny sound. 07:03.798 --> 07:07.552 Night s-s-s-s-sweats. 07:07.635 --> 07:12.932 Ni-i-ght swe-e-e-e-e-ats. 07:13.015 --> 07:15.435 Okay, when's the last time you had a heavy metal screening? 07:15.518 --> 07:17.061 Mm, heavy metal. 07:18.729 --> 07:20.690 Thank you, Detroit! 07:20.773 --> 07:22.233 [chuckles] 07:22.316 --> 07:24.277 I need you to be very honest with me right now. 07:24.444 --> 07:26.112 -Okay. -I know you're under 07:26.195 --> 07:28.322 -an immense amount of pressure. -Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 07:28.448 --> 07:30.074 Have you started drinking again? 07:30.158 --> 07:32.201 [laughs] 07:32.869 --> 07:34.954 -Nah. Not in ten years. -[device beeps] 07:35.037 --> 07:37.081 Uh, the only thing I had to drink today 07:37.165 --> 07:40.293 was some, uh... some juice. 07:40.751 --> 07:42.962 Though it did have a bit of a kick. 07:43.045 --> 07:46.841 You know, Catherine's been buying this, um, boota stuff. 07:46.924 --> 07:50.261 Kamtucha. Komrumba-- Now that's a funny sound. 07:50.344 --> 07:52.805 -Kombucha? -Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh-huh. 07:52.889 --> 07:54.891 Kombucha has alcohol content. 07:55.224 --> 07:56.309 No. 07:56.392 --> 07:57.351 It does. 07:57.435 --> 08:01.314 [sighs] No, no. No, no, no, no, no. 08:08.654 --> 08:10.573 Richard. This is not Kombucha. 08:10.698 --> 08:11.657 It's cannabis. 08:11.741 --> 08:12.867 It's what now? 08:12.950 --> 08:14.076 You're stoned. 08:14.660 --> 08:16.913 [laughs] 08:21.918 --> 08:26.005 Now, that is really very not at all f-funny. 08:26.088 --> 08:26.923 [chuckles] 08:39.602 --> 08:42.355 -[Maggie] What am I looking at? -Margot Talbert, 37, 08:42.438 --> 08:45.316 complains of throbbing abdominal pain that radiates to the back. 08:45.399 --> 08:47.527 Aah! I feel like someone is inside me 08:47.610 --> 08:48.569 and trying to claw her way out. 08:48.653 --> 08:50.112 Okay, ma'am, when did the pain start? 08:50.196 --> 08:52.240 Uh, this morning. Woke up, took one sip of coffee. 08:52.323 --> 08:54.367 And boom-- doubled over. Agonizing pain. 08:54.450 --> 08:57.537 She's nauseous, sweaty, dizzy, and... 08:59.539 --> 09:00.957 Wow. Yeah. 09:01.040 --> 09:03.751 Alright, well, we'll order a CT scan, get some labs. 09:03.834 --> 09:05.294 Can you take some deep breaths for me? 09:05.378 --> 09:06.754 Is there anyone you want us to call? 09:06.837 --> 09:07.922 No. No one. 09:09.131 --> 09:12.927 Okay. Well, we will see you upstairs soon. 09:14.679 --> 09:16.264 You left early this morning. 09:16.347 --> 09:17.515 Yeah, I went for a jog. 09:18.307 --> 09:19.976 I had breakfast with your brother. 09:20.059 --> 09:22.353 I did not know that he had majored in anthropology. 09:22.728 --> 09:26.774 Wendell didn't go to college, Maggie. He just talks a good game. 09:27.567 --> 09:29.360 I have rounds, I'll see you in CT. 09:29.610 --> 09:32.863 Oh! I can't be stoned, Meredith. 09:32.947 --> 09:35.074 I-I-I don't know if you know this, but... 09:36.492 --> 09:39.120 [whispering] I don't drink. Or do drugs. 09:39.203 --> 09:40.955 I know that. It's okay. 09:41.038 --> 09:42.456 -You did not mean to get stoned. -Ohh, ohh. 09:42.540 --> 09:44.041 It was an accident. 09:44.125 --> 09:47.211 Why is there even drug juice in my fridge? 09:47.295 --> 09:48.754 Well, that doesn't matter right now. 09:48.838 --> 09:50.214 I have to call Catherine to come and get you 09:50.298 --> 09:51.757 because I have a surgery. 09:51.841 --> 09:53.593 Oh, no, no, no, no. No. No, no, no. No, no, no. 09:53.676 --> 09:55.011 You can't call Catherine, okay? 09:55.094 --> 09:56.804 She has to save the program. 09:56.887 --> 09:58.806 And I have to save the prog... 09:59.974 --> 10:01.726 I know, I just-- 10:01.809 --> 10:03.311 Where are you going? No. 10:03.394 --> 10:05.021 Huh? You can't leave. 10:05.104 --> 10:07.148 Let's go sit down, please. 10:07.231 --> 10:08.858 Come on, come on. 10:09.984 --> 10:11.360 I'm going to get you some water. 10:11.444 --> 10:13.195 Okay, okay. Mm-hmm. 10:14.488 --> 10:15.990 [exhales sharply] 10:16.407 --> 10:18.659 [groans] Drink that. 10:18.743 --> 10:20.828 Oh, Bailey's gonna be so mad at me. 10:20.911 --> 10:23.122 -[knock on door] -And I'm still mad at you. 10:23.205 --> 10:25.041 -Get in line. -[knocking continues] 10:28.419 --> 10:29.712 What do you need? 10:29.795 --> 10:31.047 I'm on your service. 10:31.130 --> 10:33.341 Uh, Nurse Karen told me that you were in here, so... 10:33.424 --> 10:35.176 Oh, you're not on my service. 10:35.259 --> 10:36.886 You're on Nick Marsh's service. 10:36.969 --> 10:39.639 -Who is Nick Marsh? -Nick Marsh is taking my cases. 10:40.056 --> 10:43.225 Page him, and tell him that you are on his service. 10:43.309 --> 10:44.310 -Okay. -Okay. 10:44.393 --> 10:45.895 Oh, Schmitt. 10:46.437 --> 10:47.855 You didn't see me in here, okay? 10:48.648 --> 10:49.523 Okay. 10:54.111 --> 10:57.740 Is this a really big fish 10:58.824 --> 11:03.621 or a re-e-ally little bear? 11:05.456 --> 11:08.459 Four years ago, he came in as a newlywed 11:08.542 --> 11:10.544 with stage two synovial sarcoma of the knee. 11:10.628 --> 11:12.672 And we tried every treatment possible 11:12.755 --> 11:14.382 while they tried to start a family. 11:14.465 --> 11:17.093 But between the chemo, radiation, and surgery, 11:17.551 --> 11:20.012 it took them until eight months ago to conceive. 11:20.721 --> 11:22.264 He made me promise 11:22.807 --> 11:24.892 he'd be here long enough to meet his kid. 11:25.726 --> 11:29.188 Okay, well, do you think the, uh-- 11:29.271 --> 11:30.981 the symptoms are chemo-related? 11:31.065 --> 11:32.650 -I hope so. -[beeps] 11:34.276 --> 11:37.321 Link, if you don't want to watch Luna anymore, I get it. 11:37.405 --> 11:38.572 I didn't say that. 11:38.948 --> 11:42.660 Okay, well, earlier, when I asked, you kind of snapped. 11:42.993 --> 11:45.579 Because I was asking you if you wanted to hang out with me 11:45.663 --> 11:47.456 and you asked me to babysit. 11:47.832 --> 11:50.876 Oh God. Okay, I-- [sighs] I'm sorry. 11:50.960 --> 11:51.836 I didn't realize that that's-- that's what you-- 11:51.919 --> 11:53.379 -It's fine, Jo. -Oh. 11:53.462 --> 11:54.797 It's-- It's fine. 11:56.674 --> 11:57.633 [sighs] 11:58.718 --> 11:59.552 Crap. 11:59.635 --> 12:00.970 Mass in the ileum. 12:01.053 --> 12:04.014 -Wow. It's almost-- -Obstructing his small bowel. 12:05.224 --> 12:06.642 I'm so sorry. 12:06.809 --> 12:08.477 God. [sighs] 12:09.019 --> 12:11.272 How am I gonna tell him it's progressing even faster? 12:11.480 --> 12:14.233 We just do it. Or I do it. 12:14.358 --> 12:15.359 He's my patient. 12:15.443 --> 12:17.820 Um, not today. 12:17.987 --> 12:20.114 Small intestine. General surgery. 12:21.323 --> 12:24.410 Let me try to resect the tumor at the bowel segment, 12:24.493 --> 12:25.870 buy him some more time. 12:25.953 --> 12:28.539 And you can scrub in, 12:28.664 --> 12:31.625 be an extra pair of hands if there's heavy bleeding. 12:33.002 --> 12:35.004 Come on. It'll be like we're hanging out. 12:36.130 --> 12:38.090 -[both chuckle] -[knock on door] 12:39.383 --> 12:40.426 Hello? 12:41.969 --> 12:43.429 [clears throat] 12:48.100 --> 12:49.602 [clears throat] 12:52.813 --> 12:55.691 [exhales deeply] Okay, I know you blame me-- 12:55.775 --> 12:58.027 I do not blame you, I do not know you. 12:58.110 --> 13:00.112 Y-You think I'm taking Meredith away, 13:00.196 --> 13:01.614 which i-it's perfectly understandable. 13:01.697 --> 13:04.533 Meredith is an adult woman, 13:04.617 --> 13:06.702 no one can take her away, 13:06.786 --> 13:08.871 it would be ridiculous of me to think that. 13:08.954 --> 13:11.248 So then why are you being so hostile to me right now? 13:11.332 --> 13:12.500 Oh, you think I'm being hostile? 13:12.583 --> 13:13.501 Frankly, yes. 13:13.709 --> 13:16.128 I'm so sorry, Dr. Marsh. 13:16.212 --> 13:18.047 Uh, welcome to Grey-Sloan. 13:18.172 --> 13:21.842 I am so grateful to you for taking pity on me 13:21.926 --> 13:25.054 and offering to help us out for the next few months 13:25.137 --> 13:26.347 before leaving again. 13:26.430 --> 13:28.307 Okay. [breathes deeply] 13:29.642 --> 13:32.853 I know you've told your staff you're hiring locum tenens. 13:32.937 --> 13:35.231 I'm locum tenens. I'm what you need. 13:35.314 --> 13:37.483 I'm a transplant guy. I'm also a general surgeon, 13:37.566 --> 13:40.069 so I can help bring others in and help with your caseload. 13:40.152 --> 13:43.239 I need more than just surgeons, I need surgeons who can teach. 13:43.322 --> 13:46.408 Hello! Jordan Wright was my student, and you stole him. 13:46.492 --> 13:49.411 Well, you can have him back, I put in the transfer papers. 13:49.495 --> 13:51.914 I know, because your residency program is failing. 13:53.707 --> 13:55.251 I want to help. I do. 13:55.334 --> 13:57.336 I want to help you. I want to help this program. 13:57.419 --> 14:00.172 Even though, funny thing, Grey-Sloan rejected me 14:00.256 --> 14:01.674 back in the day, and now so are you. 14:01.757 --> 14:04.593 Look, I-I'm gonna be in Seattle for the next few months anyway, 14:04.677 --> 14:07.721 so if you say no, I'm just gonna spend my days hiking and fishing 14:07.805 --> 14:11.016 instead of helping you with your never-ending list of appys and choles. 14:13.477 --> 14:17.773 I hope he has your smile. 14:18.899 --> 14:20.860 And your laugh. 14:20.943 --> 14:22.236 [chuckles] 14:23.654 --> 14:25.239 And your snaggletooth. 14:25.364 --> 14:27.408 [gasps] I don't have a snaggletooth. 14:27.658 --> 14:28.909 Ah, don't you? 14:28.993 --> 14:31.161 [laughs] 14:31.245 --> 14:32.538 Mm. 14:32.621 --> 14:34.915 [monitor beeping] 14:37.501 --> 14:38.919 Hit us, Link. 14:39.628 --> 14:40.629 Don't sugar coat it. 14:41.922 --> 14:43.424 We found a new met. 14:44.466 --> 14:45.634 No. 14:45.718 --> 14:47.428 -Sweetheart, let him finish. -No. 14:47.511 --> 14:49.096 It's in the small intestine. 14:49.179 --> 14:50.514 It's causing a blockage, 14:50.598 --> 14:52.474 which explains your nausea and pain. 14:53.517 --> 14:57.271 We recommend resecting the tumor to relieve the obstruction. 14:57.354 --> 15:00.024 I'm only 32 weeks. That's two more months. 15:00.524 --> 15:03.444 He has to meet his son. I need that, Dr. Lincoln. 15:03.527 --> 15:06.488 -I need that. -Kristen, I know it's been a long road. 15:06.572 --> 15:08.240 But the road is not ending. 15:08.324 --> 15:09.992 We're going to take care of this met today, 15:10.075 --> 15:12.536 -[sniffles] -...and we'll go from there. 15:12.995 --> 15:15.998 -Hey, I'm here, Kris. -[crying] 15:16.081 --> 15:18.751 Look. Kris, I'm here. 15:19.084 --> 15:22.421 I'm here right now. Okay? 15:23.380 --> 15:25.424 Hello forever. 15:26.675 --> 15:27.927 Hello forever? 15:28.636 --> 15:30.846 It's a thing we say to each other. 15:31.138 --> 15:32.181 I remember. 15:32.264 --> 15:34.141 Hello forever. 15:34.224 --> 15:35.851 Hello forever. 15:35.935 --> 15:37.561 Hello forever. 15:39.730 --> 15:41.023 Hello forever. 15:41.106 --> 15:42.858 Hello forever. 15:42.942 --> 15:44.443 [sighs] 15:50.783 --> 15:54.954 [woman on PA] Dr. Hidari to cardiology. Dr. Hidari to cardiology. 15:55.037 --> 15:56.664 -Dr. Marsh? -Yeah? 15:57.373 --> 15:59.667 Uh, Schmitt, right? 15:59.750 --> 16:01.168 Dr. Grey sent me. I'm on your service. 16:01.251 --> 16:02.211 I-I don't have a service. 16:02.294 --> 16:05.005 Bailey literally just granted me privileges. Begrudgingly. 16:05.089 --> 16:08.384 Well, Dr. Grey needs you to take over her caseload, so... 16:08.509 --> 16:10.010 Why? Where is she? 16:10.094 --> 16:11.345 Um... [sighs] 16:11.804 --> 16:13.847 What is this? Is this s-some sort of hazing thing? 16:13.931 --> 16:15.307 -What's the deal? -I-I... 16:16.016 --> 16:17.518 I'm not supposed to tell you, 16:17.601 --> 16:18.686 you just need to take her surgeries. 16:18.769 --> 16:20.479 Schmitt. Where's Meredith? 16:20.562 --> 16:21.939 I am not at liberty to say. 16:22.022 --> 16:23.148 [breathes sharply] 16:23.232 --> 16:25.025 Okay. Fine, let's go. 16:27.486 --> 16:29.154 [machinery whirring] 16:31.448 --> 16:34.660 [Maggie] So, have you had a chance to, uh, test the new batch of heart patches? 16:34.743 --> 16:36.495 Are they viable enough for Wendell to-- 16:36.578 --> 16:38.580 -[door opens] -To get off our couch? 16:38.664 --> 16:40.457 Winston, I don't have a problem 16:40.541 --> 16:41.750 with Wendell staying with us. 16:41.834 --> 16:44.378 Just to double check, you're not calling anyone, right? 16:44.878 --> 16:46.797 No, not unless you want us to. 16:46.880 --> 16:49.299 No! No, my wife will freak out. 16:49.717 --> 16:51.552 Margot, you should call your wife. 16:51.635 --> 16:52.553 -Y-You might-- -I said no! 16:52.636 --> 16:54.805 Please, do not call her. 16:54.888 --> 16:56.223 [monitor beeps] 16:56.306 --> 16:57.516 Scans are up. 16:57.599 --> 16:59.601 -[monitor beeping] -[sighs] Yep. 16:59.685 --> 17:01.395 Abdominal aortic aneurysm. 17:01.478 --> 17:02.563 Helm, book an OR. 17:06.608 --> 17:09.903 Margot, we're going to have to take you up to surgery. 17:10.404 --> 17:12.531 Surgery? Are you sure? 17:12.614 --> 17:14.241 Yes. Very sure. 17:14.324 --> 17:15.701 Which means we definitely need to call your wife. 17:15.784 --> 17:17.786 I said no! Please. 17:18.412 --> 17:20.080 She thinks I already took care of this. 17:20.164 --> 17:22.750 I've been having abdominal pain the last couple months 17:22.833 --> 17:24.501 and she kept nagging me to get it looked at, 17:24.585 --> 17:27.129 but my work had been crazy, so a few weeks ago 17:27.212 --> 17:29.715 I told her I went to urgent care and they said it was just IBS. 17:29.798 --> 17:32.176 Margot, you told us this pain started today. 17:32.259 --> 17:33.802 I know, I lied. 17:33.886 --> 17:35.679 So if I tell her now that I lied, 17:35.763 --> 17:37.598 and it's way worse, she's gonna be so pissed. 17:37.681 --> 17:39.933 One, two, three. [grunts] 17:40.017 --> 17:41.435 What if you die? 17:41.852 --> 17:42.686 Winston. 17:42.770 --> 17:44.938 Well, then she'll be really mad. 17:45.064 --> 17:46.690 But I won't have to tell her. 17:46.774 --> 17:47.608 You will. 17:53.072 --> 17:56.408 ♪ It had to be you, pretty baby ♪ 17:56.492 --> 17:58.952 ♪ It had to be you ♪ 17:59.036 --> 18:00.204 That's not the words. 18:00.287 --> 18:03.540 ♪ Had to be you-u-u-u-u ♪ 18:03.624 --> 18:05.626 [chuckles] 18:08.670 --> 18:11.465 It's that Nick character. 18:11.548 --> 18:13.050 That's why you're leaving. 18:14.635 --> 18:17.262 Maybe he could fall in love with the city. 18:17.346 --> 18:21.183 I mean, we have trees, and we have an ocean. 18:22.101 --> 18:25.604 We have ferryboats. Whoo-whoo. 18:27.856 --> 18:30.484 The ferryboats might be one of the reasons 18:30.567 --> 18:32.402 why I need to, you know... 18:34.029 --> 18:35.447 Seattle's just... 18:36.115 --> 18:37.449 Haunted. 18:38.951 --> 18:43.080 Because everywhere you look there's a memory. 18:43.163 --> 18:46.166 A memory of people who aren't here anymore. 18:46.750 --> 18:47.709 I get it. 18:48.252 --> 18:50.087 That's how I felt when Ellis died. 18:50.838 --> 18:52.005 You mean Adele. 18:52.089 --> 18:53.674 No. 18:59.012 --> 19:00.305 We need to start teaching. 19:00.597 --> 19:02.766 They said they'd shut down the program if we didn't teach. 19:02.850 --> 19:04.643 That's what we're gonna do. Okay. 19:04.726 --> 19:05.686 Okay, but, no, no, no, no. 19:05.769 --> 19:09.189 They will shut down your career if you go out there like that. 19:09.273 --> 19:10.149 [breathes deeply] 19:10.232 --> 19:11.817 Let's sit down. 19:13.235 --> 19:15.737 What about if I go get you some snacks? 19:15.821 --> 19:16.655 I'll be back. 19:18.574 --> 19:20.450 -[door opens] -Had to be you. 19:20.534 --> 19:22.161 [door closes] 19:22.244 --> 19:23.996 [cellphone keyboard clicking] 19:27.332 --> 19:29.710 [line ringing] 19:38.385 --> 19:40.762 -Hey. Sorry, I was finishing up... -Hey. 19:40.846 --> 19:42.723 ...a laminectomy when you paged. 19:42.806 --> 19:44.641 Okay, so, motorcycle versus pedestrian. 19:44.725 --> 19:47.269 Several fractured ribs, a scalp lac, 19:47.352 --> 19:48.604 depressed skull fracture, 19:48.687 --> 19:50.522 sluggish light reflex on the left. 19:50.606 --> 19:51.899 They're taking him up to ICU now. 19:52.816 --> 19:53.775 Yeah. 19:54.151 --> 19:56.320 Yeah, that looks like a small subdural hematoma. 19:56.403 --> 19:58.155 Alright, so burr holes or craniotomy? 19:58.238 --> 20:00.908 Mm, neither. Least not yet. 20:00.991 --> 20:05.245 Let's just watch him with q 1 hour neurochecks. 20:05.329 --> 20:08.415 -Y-You just want to wait and see? -Yeah. 20:08.498 --> 20:09.458 I mean, even though there's something that you can do 20:09.541 --> 20:11.210 to address the situation? 20:11.293 --> 20:13.086 I mean, even though there's actual steps that you could take 20:13.170 --> 20:15.464 to understand a-and make yourself feel better 20:15.547 --> 20:16.673 about the situation 20:16.757 --> 20:17.674 and-- and the person involved? 20:17.758 --> 20:20.010 Y-You just want to stay in limbo? 20:20.928 --> 20:22.221 How's family therapy going? 20:23.096 --> 20:24.431 Well, we're... [sighs] 20:25.307 --> 20:28.101 We're supposed to follow Leo's lead. 20:28.185 --> 20:30.896 But he's-- he's four. He could lead us to Candyland. 20:31.480 --> 20:32.564 You know what I mean. 20:32.648 --> 20:35.567 I just-- we're-- we're his parents, and this huge thing happened, 20:35.651 --> 20:37.694 and we're reading the books and the blogs 20:37.778 --> 20:39.279 and educating ourselves. 20:39.363 --> 20:42.699 And I feel like I'm-- I'm ready to take the next step 20:42.783 --> 20:44.701 to help him on his journey. 20:44.785 --> 20:46.828 And I-I know, I know that-- thank you-- 20:46.912 --> 20:48.413 it's Leo's journey, but I-- 20:48.664 --> 20:52.668 I like direction and answers and-- and knowing what to say. 20:55.379 --> 20:57.172 I-I met someone in Minnesota. 20:57.756 --> 21:00.175 And this story about me does have a point. 21:00.259 --> 21:02.511 Um, their name is Kai. 21:02.844 --> 21:06.473 And they are non-binary, and since I've been with them, 21:06.556 --> 21:09.059 I have felt opened up in a way I never imagined. 21:09.393 --> 21:13.689 Things and people don't need to be constantly defined 21:13.939 --> 21:16.358 in order to be loved unconditionally. 21:17.067 --> 21:19.403 And since I started viewing the world that way, 21:20.404 --> 21:22.656 I've never felt more like myself. 21:22.739 --> 21:24.533 I'm really happy for you. 21:34.668 --> 21:35.961 [sighs] 21:36.753 --> 21:38.297 [siren wails in distance] 21:38.380 --> 21:41.133 [monitor beeping] 21:41.967 --> 21:44.136 Dr. Marsh, I just gave you privileges. 21:44.219 --> 21:45.762 I did not say you could take over 21:45.846 --> 21:47.097 your girlfriend's caseload. 21:47.180 --> 21:49.516 Do you mean Chief of General Surgery, Dr. Grey? 21:49.599 --> 21:51.226 Yes, and I doubt this patient came here-- 21:51.310 --> 21:53.061 This patient came here for care. I'm giving him care. 21:53.145 --> 21:54.813 Would you like to revoke my privileges? 21:55.522 --> 21:56.440 Blood in the field. 21:56.523 --> 21:57.899 -[Bailey] Dr. Marsh. -[Nick] I see it. 21:57.983 --> 21:59.609 [sighs] God. The liver is bleeding. 21:59.693 --> 22:01.778 It's okay. Just cauterize the area and breathe, Schmitt. 22:01.862 --> 22:03.572 Do not just breathe. Fix it. 22:03.655 --> 22:04.990 Come on. Suction. 22:05.073 --> 22:06.950 Last time this happened, my patient died. 22:07.034 --> 22:08.910 Well, don't think about the last time. That's an old story. 22:08.994 --> 22:10.120 Only think about what's right in front of you. 22:10.203 --> 22:11.580 Schmitt, write a new story. 22:11.663 --> 22:13.040 -Breathe. -Schmitt, you need to-- 22:13.123 --> 22:15.459 Shut up. Chief Bailey, respectfully, please, quiet. 22:15.542 --> 22:18.462 Schmitt, I want you to control the bleeding. 22:22.758 --> 22:23.633 [sighs] Turn up the Bovie. 22:23.717 --> 22:24.760 Good. 22:24.843 --> 22:25.761 [sighs] 22:28.347 --> 22:29.181 Good. 22:30.307 --> 22:32.184 Good. Let's check hemostasis. 22:33.226 --> 22:35.437 Looks good. You're doing great. Anything else you'd like to do? 22:35.520 --> 22:38.023 I think an omental patch on top to just be sure. 22:38.106 --> 22:39.358 I think that sounds like a great idea. 22:41.026 --> 22:42.652 Okay. Now you've stopped the bleeding. 22:43.236 --> 22:44.613 I wrote a new story. 22:44.696 --> 22:45.697 [suction gurgling] 22:45.781 --> 22:46.656 Yes, you did. 22:46.740 --> 22:48.200 [Richard] You wrote a new story. 22:49.701 --> 22:50.619 Dr. Webber. 22:50.702 --> 22:52.162 Richard, what are you doing up here? 22:52.245 --> 22:54.039 I figured it out, Meredith. 22:54.122 --> 22:56.375 We have to rewrite the story. 22:56.458 --> 22:58.085 -That sounds amazing. -Yeah. 22:58.168 --> 22:59.294 -Let's go. -Oh. 22:59.378 --> 23:00.337 -Uh. -You didn't see us. 23:02.506 --> 23:03.882 [chuckling] Okay. 23:03.965 --> 23:05.300 Pickups. 23:05.384 --> 23:06.385 Thank you. 23:08.303 --> 23:10.055 [breathes sharply] 23:10.138 --> 23:11.390 If I don't make it-- 23:11.473 --> 23:13.350 Uh, not gonna happen, Simon. Okay? 23:13.433 --> 23:14.559 I believe you, man. 23:14.643 --> 23:17.104 I believe you and I believe in you, 23:17.187 --> 23:20.190 but also, you are not God. 23:20.315 --> 23:23.568 I know you have a Roman god-like profile... 23:23.652 --> 23:26.363 -[laughs] -...but you are not God. 23:26.446 --> 23:28.281 And sometimes bad things happen. 23:28.365 --> 23:31.284 And if I don't make it, I need you to tell Kristen 23:31.368 --> 23:33.328 she's not allowed to name him after me. 23:33.412 --> 23:35.497 Simon cannot be his first name 23:35.580 --> 23:37.290 and it cannot be his middle name 23:37.374 --> 23:39.042 and I need you to convince her. 23:39.459 --> 23:41.753 I want my kid's life to be joyful. 23:42.421 --> 23:45.173 And if she names him after me, his life will not be joyful 23:45.257 --> 23:48.718 because every time she calls his name, she's gonna get sad. 23:49.636 --> 23:52.222 And I need you to convince her that I'm right. 23:52.305 --> 23:54.516 I'll do what I have to do, Simon, okay? 23:54.599 --> 23:57.310 But my strong preference is that you survive this surgery. 23:57.769 --> 23:59.020 So I'm gonna need you to get your head in the game. 23:59.104 --> 24:00.897 -[both chuckle] -Okay? 24:00.981 --> 24:02.190 -You got it. -Yeah. I'm serious. 24:02.274 --> 24:03.275 -Now, lay back. -Okay. 24:03.358 --> 24:05.068 You close your eyes, 24:05.152 --> 24:07.821 and you think about waking up and meeting your kid, okay? 24:13.743 --> 24:15.996 [Maggie] Okay, so we're going to put this mask on you, 24:16.079 --> 24:18.165 and you're going to count backward from ten. 24:18.248 --> 24:20.333 Just so you know, we are obligated to call an emergency contact. 24:20.417 --> 24:21.793 So we will be calling your wife. 24:21.877 --> 24:23.920 -What? No. -That is not entirely true. 24:24.004 --> 24:25.672 We cannot discharge her by herself. 24:25.755 --> 24:27.382 Why don't we just repair the aneurysm first? 24:27.466 --> 24:28.758 If my wife finds out I lied-- 24:28.842 --> 24:29.801 Then maybe you shouldn't have lied. 24:29.885 --> 24:31.845 Dr. Ndugu, why don't you go scrub? 24:31.928 --> 24:33.388 I've got this. 24:35.307 --> 24:36.766 [monitor beeping rapidly] 24:36.850 --> 24:37.851 Her pressure's bottomed out. 24:37.934 --> 24:40.061 -Call her. -Intubate now! Gown me. 24:40.145 --> 24:41.313 Her aneurysm might have ruptured. 24:41.396 --> 24:43.190 We need to open her up now! 24:43.273 --> 24:44.858 Prep the abdomen fast! 24:44.941 --> 24:47.986 [beeping continues] 24:55.327 --> 24:58.455 [sighs] Well, at least my eyes aren't dry anymore. 24:58.914 --> 25:00.290 That stuff was awful. 25:01.249 --> 25:03.418 I think I used to like it back in the day. 25:04.252 --> 25:06.630 Yeah, well, the weed is a lot stronger now 25:06.713 --> 25:08.256 than it was back in the day. 25:08.340 --> 25:10.342 I can't tell you the amount of kids I see come in the ER 25:10.425 --> 25:12.636 with full psychotic breaks just from smoking weed. 25:12.719 --> 25:13.845 -[knock on door] -Mm. 25:13.929 --> 25:15.472 [door opens] 25:16.223 --> 25:17.766 What took you so long? 25:17.849 --> 25:20.810 I was listening to Bailey rant about our collective failure 25:20.894 --> 25:22.646 and "your boyfriend getting to go rogue 25:22.729 --> 25:25.357 because he's with Meredith Grey." Her words, not mine. 25:25.440 --> 25:27.317 Okay, well, I'll go take care of that. 25:27.400 --> 25:28.652 Just keep an eye on him. 25:28.735 --> 25:31.488 -I can hear you. -You stay hydrated. 25:31.571 --> 25:32.948 -[door opens] -[sighs] 25:33.615 --> 25:36.284 -[door closes] -How are you feeling? 25:36.701 --> 25:39.996 Like I just threw a decade of sobriety in the garbage. 25:40.497 --> 25:44.709 You know, I didn't even know that marijuana came in a liquid form. 25:44.793 --> 25:47.254 And I still don't know why it was in my home. 25:47.963 --> 25:51.299 I mean, Catherine likes her martinis but she's not a pothead. 25:51.383 --> 25:54.010 She wouldn't do that to me. Tempt me like that. 25:54.094 --> 25:55.762 Make me lose ten years. 25:55.845 --> 25:58.723 If you can honestly say that you did not intend to get high, 25:58.807 --> 26:01.142 and you don't intend to do it again, you shouldn't-- 26:01.226 --> 26:03.270 you shouldn't change your sobriety date. 26:03.353 --> 26:04.437 I mean, you earned those ten years, 26:04.521 --> 26:06.690 and accidents happen. 26:06.773 --> 26:08.275 [crunching] 26:08.358 --> 26:09.484 Yeah, I guess so. 26:10.735 --> 26:13.029 Well, on a positive note, 26:13.113 --> 26:16.116 I think I had an epiphany on how to reinvent the program. 26:16.199 --> 26:18.159 -[chuckles] -Or at least improve it. 26:19.703 --> 26:21.413 Addison said something to me. 26:23.206 --> 26:26.334 Medicine has always been about the data, 26:26.418 --> 26:29.254 okay, the wins versus the losses 26:29.337 --> 26:31.381 instead of the people. 26:31.464 --> 26:33.883 Yeah, and it worked. Hell, it worked well, 26:34.009 --> 26:38.013 but it wiped out the-- the humanity. 26:38.930 --> 26:40.974 Our residents forget they're people 26:41.057 --> 26:42.517 and that they're helping other people. 26:43.184 --> 26:46.146 So we have to rewrite that story. 26:46.229 --> 26:49.482 Make sure that they don't lose or forget the-- 26:50.066 --> 26:52.152 -the best part of themselves. -Mm. 26:52.235 --> 26:55.196 That they can be whole individuals 26:55.280 --> 26:58.825 that blossom and-- and grow with-- 26:58.908 --> 27:01.369 with empathy and-- and-- and knowledge. 27:01.453 --> 27:04.539 Look, now, I know we can't improve the program overnight. 27:04.623 --> 27:08.627 But it's like planting a tree, okay? 27:08.710 --> 27:10.253 I mean, you prepare the ground 27:10.337 --> 27:12.422 and you-- you nurture the seed, 27:13.214 --> 27:16.259 but the tree that grows will outlive you, 27:16.343 --> 27:19.095 whether or not you're there to see it at all. 27:21.848 --> 27:23.183 [groans] 27:23.266 --> 27:24.184 [breathes deeply] 27:24.267 --> 27:25.935 Are you still high? 27:26.770 --> 27:27.812 Little bit. 27:29.105 --> 27:31.232 [both laugh] 27:31.316 --> 27:34.194 [monitor beeping] 27:34.277 --> 27:36.154 [suction gurgling] 27:36.237 --> 27:37.656 Oh, no. 27:37.739 --> 27:40.116 It's wrapped around the vascular structures. 27:40.825 --> 27:42.243 I see it. 27:45.080 --> 27:48.166 [sighs] Okay, everyone, change of plan. 27:48.249 --> 27:51.711 We're gonna divert the bowel, buy him a little more time, 27:51.795 --> 27:52.837 -make him more comfortable. -No, no. 27:52.921 --> 27:54.297 Hold on, you're not gonna resect any of it? 27:54.381 --> 27:55.799 It's too dangerous. He could bleed out. 27:55.882 --> 27:57.550 So-- So he's just supposed to live with this in his bowel? 27:57.634 --> 27:59.135 I didn't put the tumor in there, Link. 27:59.219 --> 28:01.221 So you're just gonna close him up with a stool bag and that's it? 28:01.304 --> 28:04.099 The other option is I close him without doing anything. 28:04.182 --> 28:05.642 He's dying, Link. 28:06.726 --> 28:08.228 This will help him with his pain. 28:08.311 --> 28:09.354 He'll live a better life, 28:09.437 --> 28:11.523 even if it's just for a few weeks. 28:11.606 --> 28:13.650 He wants to meet his son. 28:16.069 --> 28:18.154 Okay. Let's prep for an ileostomy. 28:18.613 --> 28:20.532 [medical equipment whirring] 28:20.615 --> 28:22.492 [beeping continues] 28:22.575 --> 28:24.869 Almost done with the distal anastomosis. 28:25.370 --> 28:26.663 Pledgets. 28:26.746 --> 28:28.248 [suction gurgling] 28:28.331 --> 28:30.500 [monitor beeping] 28:30.583 --> 28:32.961 You can't talk to patients like that, 28:33.044 --> 28:34.671 no matter how ridiculous they're being. 28:34.754 --> 28:36.297 I know. 28:36.381 --> 28:38.466 It's not enough that you know. You ruptured her and-- 28:38.550 --> 28:41.094 I did not rupture it. It ruptured. 28:41.511 --> 28:43.555 You picked a fight, and you delayed-- 28:43.638 --> 28:45.306 I didn't rupture it. She waited for weeks. 28:45.390 --> 28:47.475 She lied about her pain for weeks. 28:47.559 --> 28:49.519 And it ruptured. That is not my fault. 28:51.229 --> 28:52.939 Helm, why don't you get ready to close? 28:53.022 --> 28:54.149 Dr. Ndugu, you can go. 28:54.232 --> 28:56.067 -Maggie. -You can go. 28:59.779 --> 29:00.989 [tools clanging] 29:10.373 --> 29:11.458 I stayed. 29:12.125 --> 29:15.128 I said yes to helping, yes to working, 29:15.211 --> 29:16.921 and you still can't be happy. 29:17.005 --> 29:18.840 You have to torture a doctor 29:18.923 --> 29:20.884 who volunteered to be here to help. 29:20.967 --> 29:22.844 Why did I stay? 29:23.178 --> 29:24.804 What do you want? 29:24.888 --> 29:25.722 I don't know. 29:25.805 --> 29:26.931 I don't know. 29:27.015 --> 29:28.767 I don't know. 29:28.850 --> 29:30.143 I don't know. 29:30.226 --> 29:32.228 This program is failing. 29:32.312 --> 29:34.647 I feel like I'm failing. 29:34.731 --> 29:37.150 The first female chief, and it's on her. 29:37.233 --> 29:38.777 You know, it's always on her. 29:38.860 --> 29:42.697 The woman who was given a chance after a string of messy men. 29:42.781 --> 29:43.698 [breathes deeply] 29:43.782 --> 29:45.450 I don't know what I want. 29:45.533 --> 29:47.118 I just feel helpless. 29:47.202 --> 29:51.539 Because it is all out of my control. 29:51.623 --> 29:55.043 A devastating pandemic wiped out millions of people's lives. 29:55.126 --> 29:59.631 I-It-- It wiped out generations of doctors and nurses, 29:59.714 --> 30:02.008 physically, emotionally. 30:02.091 --> 30:04.928 And how-- how was I supposed to handle that? 30:05.011 --> 30:05.887 [breathes sharply] 30:07.680 --> 30:08.598 I do need help. 30:08.681 --> 30:12.894 And I am thankful to you for staying. 30:12.977 --> 30:14.813 And t-to Nick for coming. 30:14.896 --> 30:16.439 But I just-- 30:16.523 --> 30:19.359 I'm not sure if that's enough. 30:19.776 --> 30:21.986 -We can figure all of this out. -Mnh-mnh. 30:22.529 --> 30:24.614 And I'm sorry for the way you found out. 30:24.697 --> 30:26.699 Hamilton should not have told Richard anything. 30:26.783 --> 30:30.578 The reason why I didn't say anything is because I hadn't made any decision. 30:31.329 --> 30:32.664 Well, thank you. 30:33.373 --> 30:34.791 And I'm sorry 30:35.083 --> 30:38.878 for calling you "that girl." 30:38.962 --> 30:40.296 [breathes sharply] I... 30:40.380 --> 30:41.631 Mnh. 30:41.714 --> 30:43.132 [breathes deeply] 30:44.634 --> 30:47.595 If Marsh has taken over your surgeries, 30:47.679 --> 30:49.347 w-where have you been all day? 30:50.807 --> 30:52.100 With Richard. 30:55.353 --> 30:58.273 He got stoned, accidentally. 31:00.066 --> 31:02.110 -I know. -My God. 31:02.193 --> 31:05.113 Just when I think this place can't top itself. 31:06.072 --> 31:07.448 [sighs] 31:09.200 --> 31:10.410 Thank you, Grey. 31:10.994 --> 31:13.538 And Marsh seems like a... 31:15.248 --> 31:17.876 wonderful... teacher. 31:19.627 --> 31:20.795 He is. 31:20.879 --> 31:21.713 Oh. 31:21.796 --> 31:22.964 [laughs] 31:23.047 --> 31:24.340 [door opens] 31:28.636 --> 31:29.721 How long? 31:33.057 --> 31:36.144 Please tell me how long my husband has to live. 31:36.769 --> 31:38.563 We still have to do staging, 31:38.646 --> 31:40.732 but from the information that we have, 31:41.274 --> 31:44.110 maybe a month at most. 31:46.696 --> 31:47.739 [exhales sharply] 31:51.159 --> 31:52.785 [voice breaking] His whole life, 31:53.494 --> 31:56.915 Simon always wanted to be a dad. 31:57.665 --> 32:00.585 He wanted to be the best dad. 32:00.668 --> 32:02.378 And I wanted to give him that. 32:04.547 --> 32:06.507 We need to take the baby out now. 32:06.591 --> 32:08.134 I need a C-section. 32:08.217 --> 32:10.511 -It's too early. -Simon needs to meet his son. 32:10.595 --> 32:13.514 -Kristen, I think-- -I need to talk to an OB, please. 32:13.598 --> 32:15.350 Um, I am an OB. 32:15.433 --> 32:17.644 I am a general surgeon. But I'm also an OB. 32:17.727 --> 32:19.145 -It is too early. -No. 32:19.562 --> 32:21.940 -Kristen, we cannot risk taking-- -I'll talk to Dr. DeLuca. 32:22.398 --> 32:23.858 Okay, Kristen? 32:23.942 --> 32:26.152 Dr. Wilson is an OB resident. She's a student. 32:26.235 --> 32:27.695 Dr. DeLuca's her teacher. 32:27.779 --> 32:29.238 I'll check with her, okay? 32:29.322 --> 32:30.531 Thank you. 32:31.991 --> 32:33.284 Excuse me. 32:35.453 --> 32:37.080 [pen clicks] 32:37.372 --> 32:39.165 [sighs] I know you're hurting right now 32:39.248 --> 32:41.542 so I'm keeping my voice quiet, but that was really not-- 32:41.626 --> 32:44.212 That was the truth, Jo. I told her the truth. 32:44.879 --> 32:46.339 You're a first year resident. 32:46.881 --> 32:49.509 You have to stick to the rules. Maybe Carina DeLuca won't. 32:49.592 --> 32:50.885 Page me when DeLuca gets that. 32:50.969 --> 32:52.553 You're too angry to do anything right now, 32:52.637 --> 32:53.972 to talk to anybody right now. 32:54.055 --> 32:55.807 You need to go smash some tires with a bat 32:55.890 --> 32:56.891 or a bowl or something. 32:56.975 --> 32:58.267 Just get it all out of your body. 32:58.351 --> 33:00.395 -I don't need your advice. -You really do. I know you best. 33:00.478 --> 33:01.938 -You're in no shape for-- -You're a user, Jo. 33:02.021 --> 33:04.440 You used me. So I don't need your advice. 33:08.403 --> 33:10.196 You're angry and you're hurting 33:10.279 --> 33:11.906 and you lash out when you're hurting and I can take it. 33:11.990 --> 33:13.157 But if you want to fight someone, fight me. 33:13.241 --> 33:16.119 Don't go to my boss and ask for a medically unsound C-section 33:16.202 --> 33:19.622 -because you're feeling emotional. -You used me for sex. 33:19.706 --> 33:21.833 Which was fun so I could roll with it. 33:21.916 --> 33:23.918 But then you kicked me out which was less fun. 33:24.002 --> 33:25.878 And now you have Todd 33:25.962 --> 33:28.214 so you want me to sleep over with Luna 33:28.297 --> 33:30.299 any time you have a date. 33:30.425 --> 33:32.427 Which-- Yeah, which might be okay 33:32.510 --> 33:34.971 if you ever wanted to just hang with me, but you don't. 33:35.054 --> 33:37.265 Which means I'm being used. 33:37.557 --> 33:40.226 You know, and I could roll with that because you and I, 33:40.309 --> 33:42.228 we go way back and everybody's awful sometimes. 33:42.311 --> 33:44.814 But now you want to talk to me like we're besties. 33:44.897 --> 33:46.482 Like we hang out all the time 33:46.566 --> 33:48.192 and you know me better than anybody else 33:48.276 --> 33:50.236 so I should listen to you instead of doing 33:50.319 --> 33:53.281 everything I possibly can to help my patient. 33:53.364 --> 33:54.824 That I cannot roll with! 33:54.907 --> 33:56.242 I cannot make an exception for that. 33:56.325 --> 33:58.202 So please get out of my way 33:58.286 --> 33:59.662 so I can do my damn job. 33:59.746 --> 34:01.456 I fell in love with you. 34:02.915 --> 34:04.083 [scoffs] 34:04.834 --> 34:06.377 [sighs] I wasn't using you. 34:06.502 --> 34:08.212 I had feelings. 34:09.088 --> 34:10.506 I developed feelings. 34:11.049 --> 34:12.759 And I thought that you might, too. 34:12.842 --> 34:15.136 But you didn't. So I asked you to move out 34:15.219 --> 34:17.722 because I wanted to protect our friendship. 34:20.558 --> 34:21.851 And you didn't think that... 34:21.934 --> 34:23.603 [sighs] 34:23.686 --> 34:24.812 ...mentioning this to me-- 34:24.896 --> 34:26.147 You're right. It was wrong of me not to. 34:26.230 --> 34:27.356 But in case you haven't realized, 34:27.440 --> 34:29.025 I'm not a perfect person. 34:29.108 --> 34:31.527 I'm a person who is doing the best I can. 34:31.611 --> 34:34.405 But I'm also a person who cannot lose you. 34:35.114 --> 34:37.825 And I am a person with enough education in obstetrics 34:37.909 --> 34:39.827 to know that at 32 weeks, 34:39.911 --> 34:42.163 a baby's lungs are not fully formed. 34:42.330 --> 34:44.373 And if we take him out prematurely 34:44.457 --> 34:45.625 then Kristen runs the risk 34:45.708 --> 34:47.460 of losing both her husband and her baby. 34:47.585 --> 34:49.295 And I know you well enough to know 34:49.754 --> 34:51.172 that you can't live with that. 34:52.924 --> 34:54.550 [sighs] 35:02.975 --> 35:04.477 [sighs] 35:09.690 --> 35:11.734 [Maggie] So, we were able to repair the aneurysm. 35:12.360 --> 35:14.904 Looks like she was in pain for quite some time. 35:15.988 --> 35:18.533 I kept telling her to go to the doctor. 35:18.616 --> 35:19.700 Well, it's not easy 35:19.784 --> 35:21.119 for some people to take care of themselves. 35:21.202 --> 35:22.662 [monitor beeping] 35:23.371 --> 35:26.040 Thank you for calling me. 35:26.124 --> 35:27.792 She really didn't want us to. 35:27.875 --> 35:30.169 Well, she obviously doesn't know what's good for her. 35:31.671 --> 35:35.383 [indistinct conversations in distance] 35:45.268 --> 35:47.728 Speaking to you as your boss and your wife in this moment, 35:47.812 --> 35:49.355 there's no compartmentalizing, 35:49.438 --> 35:51.482 so you need to tell me what the hell is going on! 35:55.695 --> 35:57.697 [lowered voice] I feel like I don't know who I married. 35:57.780 --> 36:00.074 Winston, ever since your brother got here... 36:00.158 --> 36:01.117 you don't talk to me. 36:01.200 --> 36:02.201 And now you're not talking to him. 36:02.326 --> 36:06.080 The tension in our home is raising my blood pressure. 36:06.164 --> 36:09.167 And then today, you seriously messed with one of my patients. 36:10.209 --> 36:12.378 You're not yourself and I need to know why. 36:13.796 --> 36:14.630 Come with me. 36:20.678 --> 36:22.096 [sighs] 36:22.722 --> 36:26.601 When-- When I was 16, we were going out with friends 36:26.684 --> 36:29.770 and Wendell asked me to pick him up at the mall with his buddy. 36:29.854 --> 36:31.772 And so I'm sitting in the car waiting for him 36:31.856 --> 36:33.316 and they both jump in the back seat 36:33.399 --> 36:35.234 and tell me to drive off as fast as I can. 36:35.318 --> 36:37.570 And I did it because he's my brother. 36:37.653 --> 36:38.529 And so I did what he said. 36:39.113 --> 36:40.698 Then the cops pull us over. 36:40.781 --> 36:43.117 And there's stolen goods in the car and I'm behind the wheel. 36:43.409 --> 36:44.535 I'm the getaway driver. 36:45.578 --> 36:46.787 I got arrested. 36:47.330 --> 36:49.707 I had to see a probation officer for four months. 36:49.790 --> 36:52.919 But Wendell... talked his way out of it. 36:53.377 --> 36:55.296 He let me take the whole rap. 36:55.379 --> 36:57.715 Everything is like this with him. 36:58.382 --> 37:01.344 And he comes around and I'm just-- I'm-- I'm, like-- I'm right back there. 37:01.427 --> 37:02.845 I'm right back to grade school 37:02.929 --> 37:05.056 when he would trick kids into giving him lunch money. 37:05.139 --> 37:06.182 And our dad would find out about it 37:06.265 --> 37:08.184 and he would take a belt to both of us 37:08.267 --> 37:09.393 and keep the money. 37:11.395 --> 37:14.023 His patches don't work. Just another one of his scams. 37:14.106 --> 37:15.775 Which he spent ten grand on. 37:15.858 --> 37:18.486 And now he wants me to lie and say that they're amazing. 37:18.569 --> 37:21.322 And-- And try to get Bailey to place an order. 37:21.405 --> 37:23.324 -Yeah, well, you can't do that. -I know. But that's what he does. 37:23.407 --> 37:25.618 He gets in my head and he confuses me 37:25.701 --> 37:27.245 and the next thing I know I'm yelling at patients. 37:27.328 --> 37:29.205 And I'm lying to my wife. 37:29.288 --> 37:32.124 I told you when he got here. I told you he would ruin us. 37:32.208 --> 37:33.501 I told you he would just take 37:33.584 --> 37:37.630 any good thing that I got going because that's all he ever does. 37:37.713 --> 37:40.716 I'm the sucker who just convinces myself over and over 37:40.800 --> 37:42.551 that somehow it's gonna be better this time. 37:44.762 --> 37:45.972 That's who you married. 37:46.806 --> 37:48.849 I know I should have told you about the patches, 37:48.933 --> 37:50.476 but he just... 37:51.018 --> 37:53.271 like, he makes me a liar like him. 37:54.355 --> 37:56.232 And I just need a night to-- 37:56.941 --> 37:59.193 I need this night, Maggie, to talk to him. 38:00.027 --> 38:03.531 You know, just loudly and alone. 38:03.614 --> 38:04.782 ♪ They wanted you to stay where you are ♪ 38:04.865 --> 38:06.117 Could you give me that? 38:06.200 --> 38:07.743 And I will... 38:09.704 --> 38:10.955 We will be okay. 38:11.038 --> 38:12.290 ♪ All the time ♪ 38:12.373 --> 38:13.499 Because I love you. 38:13.582 --> 38:14.792 ♪ Every... ♪ 38:14.875 --> 38:16.711 So I will make sure of it. 38:16.794 --> 38:18.296 ♪ ...night ♪ 38:18.379 --> 38:19.297 ♪ You say another prayer... ♪ 38:19.380 --> 38:21.215 I'll stay with my sisters. 38:21.299 --> 38:22.717 ♪ ...there's a heaven ♪ 38:22.800 --> 38:26.846 ♪ I say it's anywhere you're forgiven ♪ 38:26.929 --> 38:31.142 ♪ All the time ♪ 38:31.225 --> 38:34.937 ♪ I think it's time ♪ 38:35.021 --> 38:36.564 ♪ To let it go ♪ 38:36.647 --> 38:38.524 [Simon whispering indistinctly] 38:41.444 --> 38:43.195 Hello forever. 38:43.696 --> 38:45.364 Hello forever. 38:45.448 --> 38:47.366 ♪ Now all your second chances feel like thirds ♪ 38:47.450 --> 38:50.077 ♪ You wonder what you wanted ♪ 38:50.161 --> 38:51.329 Did they tell you? 38:51.412 --> 38:52.872 Tell me what? 38:52.955 --> 38:55.916 You have to live long enough to meet your son. 38:56.000 --> 38:58.169 And they won't take him out for a few more weeks. 38:58.252 --> 38:59.545 ♪ All the time ♪ 38:59.628 --> 39:00.796 Okay. 39:00.880 --> 39:03.174 Swear to God, Simon, if you don't meet your son, 39:03.257 --> 39:04.884 I'm gonna name him Simon Simon. 39:04.967 --> 39:07.470 [chuckles] 39:07.553 --> 39:09.597 ♪ I think it's time ♪ 39:11.057 --> 39:12.516 ♪ To let it go ♪ 39:12.600 --> 39:15.478 Feces in the ceiling? 39:16.062 --> 39:17.438 -What? -What happened? 39:17.521 --> 39:19.482 Feces in the ceiling. 39:19.565 --> 39:22.068 That's the smell, in case you were wondering. 39:22.151 --> 39:26.572 Some creature with fangs and a tail and fur 39:26.655 --> 39:28.574 crawled up into the ceiling. 39:28.657 --> 39:31.202 I'm not working back in that office again, no. Unh-unh. 39:31.285 --> 39:32.119 You don't have to say anymore. 39:32.203 --> 39:33.662 Typical of this place. 39:33.746 --> 39:35.039 -Um, Chief. -What? 39:36.040 --> 39:36.916 Oh, what? 39:37.333 --> 39:38.751 [sighs] 39:39.627 --> 39:41.128 I just wanted to say thank you. 39:41.212 --> 39:43.422 For letting me come back. 39:44.090 --> 39:47.259 Today was difficult. But it made me remember 39:47.343 --> 39:49.095 why I wanted to be a surgeon in the first place. 39:49.178 --> 39:52.473 So just... thank you. 39:53.599 --> 39:55.184 Thank you, Schmitt. 39:55.267 --> 39:57.895 -[chuckles] -Bye. 39:57.978 --> 40:00.022 [Meredith] Some will argue that it's experience 40:00.106 --> 40:02.149 that helps a parent see that their child's stomach ache 40:02.233 --> 40:03.484 is more than the flu. 40:03.567 --> 40:06.195 Let's get out of here. Come on, sweetie, come on. 40:06.278 --> 40:08.656 Or that it's experience when a surgeon knows 40:08.739 --> 40:10.616 to look further during a routine lap appy 40:10.699 --> 40:12.493 to diagnose a larger problem. 40:12.576 --> 40:14.120 Hey, hey, little buddies. 40:14.203 --> 40:16.163 -Who wants ice cream? -Me! 40:16.247 --> 40:17.790 Okay, do you want, uh, mint chocolate chip 40:17.873 --> 40:20.084 or cookies and cream or a combo? 40:20.167 --> 40:21.377 Um... 40:22.211 --> 40:23.921 You don't have to decide right now, honey. 40:24.004 --> 40:25.881 [elevator bell dings] 40:25.965 --> 40:27.466 Okay. 40:27.550 --> 40:30.136 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 40:30.344 --> 40:32.471 Hey, hey. I, uh... 40:33.097 --> 40:35.391 I know it's your night with Scout, but I-- 40:35.474 --> 40:37.017 I could really use some Scout time right now. 40:37.810 --> 40:39.645 Um, you guys go ahead. 40:39.728 --> 40:41.397 -Okay. Bye. -Yeah. 40:41.480 --> 40:42.606 Is everything okay? 40:42.690 --> 40:44.275 Not really. 40:45.151 --> 40:46.402 -Okay, yeah. -Ah. 40:46.485 --> 40:48.320 ♪ Restless wolves cry out in the cold ♪ 40:48.404 --> 40:50.489 Hey, buddy. 40:50.573 --> 40:53.534 Oh, yes, yes, yes. 40:53.617 --> 40:55.661 Did you have the best day ever? 40:55.744 --> 40:56.787 Huh? 40:56.871 --> 40:58.456 [mouthing words] 40:58.539 --> 41:01.876 It's not an experience. It's a feeling. Instinct. 41:02.251 --> 41:05.463 It's our brains being innately connected to our bodies. 41:06.005 --> 41:07.506 [sighs] Hey. 41:07.590 --> 41:09.425 Hey, can I crash at your place tonight? 41:09.508 --> 41:11.427 Yeah, of course. 41:11.886 --> 41:12.845 Is everything okay? 41:13.220 --> 41:14.513 Not really. 41:14.597 --> 41:16.140 [elevator bell dings] 41:19.351 --> 41:20.561 ♪ Da da da dum ♪ 41:20.644 --> 41:23.522 The hard part is trusting what our bodies are saying. 41:23.606 --> 41:25.065 Thank you both. 41:25.149 --> 41:26.817 You saved my ass today. 41:26.901 --> 41:28.903 -In more ways than one. -[chuckles] 41:28.986 --> 41:30.529 Well, based on what I've heard about this place, 41:30.613 --> 41:31.864 it was a very fitting first day. 41:31.947 --> 41:33.032 [chuckles] 41:33.866 --> 41:35.743 I'm sorry, but I had to. 41:35.951 --> 41:37.119 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 41:37.203 --> 41:38.245 Good night. 41:38.871 --> 41:40.122 Catherine. 41:40.206 --> 41:42.500 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 41:42.583 --> 41:45.794 Richard, I am so sorry. 41:45.878 --> 41:48.422 Catherine, what the hell were you thinking bringing that into our house? 41:48.506 --> 41:50.799 You know how important my sobriety is. 41:50.883 --> 41:53.093 And since when do you get stoned? 41:55.095 --> 41:56.472 It's for my pain. 41:56.639 --> 41:58.682 ♪ Coming home with your song in my heart ♪ 41:58.766 --> 42:01.977 My cancer has progressed, baby. 42:02.770 --> 42:04.104 What? 42:05.272 --> 42:07.942 ♪ Da da da dum ♪ 42:08.025 --> 42:09.735 And hoping like hell we get it right.