WEBVTT 00:02.627 --> 00:05.797 [Meredith] Metastatic. Advanced. Progressed. 00:05.964 --> 00:08.299 All words no one wants to hear from their doctor. 00:08.383 --> 00:10.552 I can't see anything. There's too many adhesions. 00:10.635 --> 00:11.970 Retractor. 00:12.053 --> 00:12.887 Retractor! 00:13.430 --> 00:15.223 That seems a little basic, don't we think? 00:15.515 --> 00:17.225 I swear, this place has gone down the pipes. 00:17.308 --> 00:18.977 It means despite everything you've done, 00:19.060 --> 00:20.437 every rule you've followed, 00:20.520 --> 00:21.771 you may be near the end. 00:21.855 --> 00:23.106 I still don't have visualization. 00:23.189 --> 00:24.941 Maybe if I can mobilize the liver-- 00:25.025 --> 00:26.943 [Ellis] Maybe? That's what everyone wants in a surgeon. 00:27.027 --> 00:28.778 They maybe know what they're doing. 00:28.862 --> 00:30.405 Always have a plan-- I told you that. 00:30.488 --> 00:31.406 -[monitor alarm] -Suction, Meredith! 00:31.489 --> 00:33.366 It's the moment when fear sets in. 00:33.450 --> 00:35.493 You panic as you realize you may not survive. 00:35.577 --> 00:36.578 You're losing control. 00:36.661 --> 00:38.079 I know what I'm doing. 00:38.163 --> 00:39.622 If you did, you would have done it already. 00:39.706 --> 00:40.623 -Give me that. -[thunder crashes] 00:40.707 --> 00:42.459 It's why people turn to experimental treatments 00:42.542 --> 00:44.169 and last-ditch efforts. 00:44.252 --> 00:46.421 Things haven't changed here. I have to do everything myself. 00:46.504 --> 00:47.589 Clamp. 00:47.672 --> 00:49.132 If you knew you were dying... 00:49.215 --> 00:50.592 [gasps] 00:50.675 --> 00:51.885 ...what would you do? 00:53.511 --> 00:56.097 If someone gave you a lifeline, would you take it? 00:56.514 --> 00:58.892 [thunder crashing] 01:00.143 --> 01:02.062 If it weren't for the accreditation council, 01:02.145 --> 01:04.314 I'd say that we should call in sick. 01:05.190 --> 01:08.526 -Stay in bed all day. -[chuckles] 01:08.610 --> 01:09.903 Mm. 01:17.827 --> 01:19.162 What are you thinking? 01:22.540 --> 01:23.500 I should go to Boston. 01:23.750 --> 01:26.086 I've called Nana Ante and my cousins, 01:26.169 --> 01:28.004 the few people I know Wendell still talks to. 01:28.088 --> 01:29.339 They all think that he's back in Boston. 01:29.422 --> 01:30.507 Winston-- 01:30.590 --> 01:31.549 I'm gonna get your money back. 01:31.633 --> 01:33.176 Maybe you don't. 01:33.259 --> 01:35.220 Maybe you just let Wendell have it 01:35.303 --> 01:37.222 and let him get out of whatever trouble he's in 01:37.305 --> 01:39.808 and-- and-- and we just go back to our lives. 01:39.891 --> 01:41.184 My brother stole from you. 01:41.267 --> 01:42.560 -[sighs] -My wife. 01:42.685 --> 01:45.355 It's wrong, and he knows it, and I-I want to fix it. 01:45.438 --> 01:47.524 -I need to fix it. -No, no. It's fine. 01:48.191 --> 01:49.943 Just let it go. I don't want you involved 01:50.026 --> 01:51.194 in whatever he is mixed up in. 01:51.277 --> 01:52.237 It's not fine, Maggie. 01:52.320 --> 01:53.196 It's not fine. 01:53.279 --> 01:54.656 [thunder rumbles] 01:54.739 --> 01:56.407 Please don't tell me how to handle my brother. 01:56.491 --> 01:58.785 Alright? You have sisters, but they're not-- 01:58.868 --> 02:00.453 What? They're not actually my sisters? 02:02.122 --> 02:03.414 You didn't grow up with them. 02:03.498 --> 02:04.749 So that makes them less my sisters? 02:04.833 --> 02:05.834 No, I-- [sighs] 02:05.917 --> 02:07.252 That's not what I meant. 02:10.213 --> 02:12.549 Bailey's gonna lose it if we're late today. 02:16.845 --> 02:18.888 [Zola] Ooh, that one has a sauna. 02:19.139 --> 02:20.515 When have you been in a sauna? 02:20.598 --> 02:22.142 I read that it's good for circulation. 02:22.934 --> 02:25.061 It is. So's biking. 02:25.145 --> 02:26.354 When have you ridden a bike? 02:26.437 --> 02:28.106 -[door closes] -[laughs] 02:28.189 --> 02:30.984 [sighs] Gotta say, I am not gonna miss this rain. 02:31.609 --> 02:33.236 You've only been here 30 days. 02:33.319 --> 02:34.946 Yeah, and it's rained for like 26 of them. 02:35.029 --> 02:36.781 [laughs] True. 02:36.865 --> 02:38.783 If the accreditation council 02:38.867 --> 02:40.243 okays the residency program today, 02:40.326 --> 02:41.744 does that mean we're leaving? 02:42.871 --> 02:43.997 Soon. 02:44.080 --> 02:44.914 [Amelia] It's out. It's out. 02:44.998 --> 02:46.791 It's here. Look. 02:47.458 --> 02:48.960 Oh, it's out. 02:49.043 --> 02:50.378 [Nick] The Parkinson's treatment article? 02:50.461 --> 02:52.046 -Wow. Nice. -[Zola claps] 02:54.340 --> 02:55.550 Wow. 02:55.967 --> 02:57.260 [thunder rumbling] 02:57.343 --> 02:59.095 [siren wails in distance] 02:59.179 --> 03:02.182 You know, you don't have to walk us all the way to the door. 03:02.265 --> 03:03.683 We can handle the rain. 03:03.766 --> 03:05.476 Well, I'm a full-service guy. 03:05.560 --> 03:07.103 As you know. 03:07.353 --> 03:09.189 Last night was amazing. 03:09.647 --> 03:12.275 It... was. 03:13.067 --> 03:14.485 So I'll see you tonight? 03:14.569 --> 03:15.820 Um, maybe. 03:15.904 --> 03:17.405 It depends on work. 03:17.697 --> 03:18.907 Alright. 03:24.287 --> 03:27.081 -[Luna crying] -[Jo sighs] 03:27.624 --> 03:29.375 Aww, is she tired? 03:29.584 --> 03:32.795 Yeah, she, uh, didn't sleep well last night. 03:33.254 --> 03:34.422 -Teething? -Todd. 03:34.505 --> 03:35.590 Oh. 03:35.965 --> 03:37.258 He's staying over now? 03:37.342 --> 03:39.093 First time. Probably the last. 03:39.177 --> 03:40.511 Things not going so well? 03:41.387 --> 03:42.513 Is he not so nice? 03:42.597 --> 03:43.514 -Should I be worried? -No. 03:43.598 --> 03:45.433 He's nice, he's just... 03:46.184 --> 03:48.686 We, uh-- We had sex for the first time 03:48.770 --> 03:51.022 and he told me he loved me. 03:51.606 --> 03:52.649 Hmm. 03:52.732 --> 03:53.816 Did you say it back? 03:53.900 --> 03:55.693 Love is a big word for me. 03:56.319 --> 03:57.528 Right. 04:01.991 --> 04:03.576 He also sings. 04:03.701 --> 04:05.078 -Loudly. -I sing. 04:05.161 --> 04:07.413 Um, he sings when he's... 04:08.164 --> 04:09.040 finished. 04:10.250 --> 04:11.584 He woke up Luna. 04:12.335 --> 04:14.128 O-Oh, oh! 04:14.379 --> 04:15.588 -Wow. [chuckles] -[sighs] 04:15.672 --> 04:16.714 [clears throat] 04:17.382 --> 04:18.591 Is it show tunes? 04:18.675 --> 04:20.635 Jazz? '90s Seattle grunge? 04:20.718 --> 04:24.514 No. It's more like one long note. 04:24.597 --> 04:26.015 So like-- 04:26.099 --> 04:29.143 ♪ Do, re, mi, fa, Jo ♪ 04:29.227 --> 04:31.980 [laughs] Are you gonna break up with him at lunch 04:32.063 --> 04:33.189 -or after work? -[elevator bell dings] 04:33.273 --> 04:35.275 Just forget I even told you. 04:35.775 --> 04:38.152 ♪ Goodby-y-y-ye ♪ 04:38.778 --> 04:41.614 [Kristen laughs] So you dropped your glasses 04:41.698 --> 04:44.492 in one patient and left a guide wire in the other one? 04:44.575 --> 04:48.121 Well, I have also had plenty of really great days, too, I swear. 04:48.204 --> 04:49.747 -[laughter] -Yeah, they're just not as funny 04:49.872 --> 04:50.873 in the retelling. 04:50.957 --> 04:53.209 [laughter] 04:54.294 --> 04:56.587 So, how are you feeling, Simon? 04:56.671 --> 04:57.672 Outstanding. 04:57.755 --> 05:01.551 I might jump in that triathlon out in Bellingham this Saturday. 05:01.634 --> 05:05.346 Unless my son shows up, but he's taking his sweet time. 05:05.430 --> 05:06.472 Mm-hmm. 05:06.556 --> 05:08.641 [chuckles] Well, listen up. 05:08.725 --> 05:10.101 Check your e-mails. 05:10.184 --> 05:11.561 Many elective surgeries were postponed 05:11.644 --> 05:12.854 due to the acute blood shortage. 05:12.937 --> 05:15.189 We're setting up a donation center. 05:15.273 --> 05:18.234 In the meantime, Jamarah Blake returns today. 05:18.318 --> 05:20.945 And, God willing, today's the day we'll get our program back. 05:21.154 --> 05:23.448 -[sighs] Yes. -Oh, thank God. 05:23.531 --> 05:25.950 I'll donate. Sign me up. 05:27.535 --> 05:30.038 Oh, come on, I'm dying. 05:30.121 --> 05:32.165 Someone laugh at my jokes. 05:32.248 --> 05:33.750 [laughs] 05:33.875 --> 05:34.917 -[chuckles] -[clears throat] 05:35.001 --> 05:35.835 [residents chuckle] 05:38.338 --> 05:40.131 [radio chatter] 05:40.214 --> 05:41.674 Can we mop up this area by the doors? 05:41.758 --> 05:43.176 Two kids have slipped already. 05:43.426 --> 05:46.095 Hey, did the blood bank send out any more O-neg? 05:46.179 --> 05:47.722 They said there's no more left to send. 05:47.805 --> 05:49.223 Oh. [sighs] We're gonna have to consider 05:49.307 --> 05:50.767 closing to trauma unless something changes. 05:50.850 --> 05:52.018 Can you bring the construction worker 05:52.101 --> 05:53.144 from trauma two upstairs, please? 05:53.227 --> 05:54.562 -Yep. -[woman] Here you go, Doctor. 05:54.645 --> 05:55.605 Thanks. 05:55.855 --> 05:57.482 -[John] Dr. Hunt? -Yeah? 05:58.107 --> 05:59.317 Dr. Owen Hunt? 05:59.400 --> 06:01.319 -Yes, can I help you? -My wife. 06:02.445 --> 06:04.822 She's a Marine, and she's really sick. 06:07.241 --> 06:09.452 Heather Young said you could help us. 06:15.083 --> 06:17.460 Rosie did three tours in Iraq, 06:17.543 --> 06:19.087 and when she returned from the last one, 06:19.170 --> 06:20.296 she had this awful cough. 06:20.380 --> 06:21.839 She did a couple rounds of steroids, 06:21.923 --> 06:23.216 but nothing really helped. 06:23.299 --> 06:25.885 At first they diagnosed her with chronic bronchitis, 06:25.968 --> 06:27.095 but eventually... 06:27.178 --> 06:28.638 -Pulmonary fibrosis. -Yeah. 06:28.721 --> 06:31.140 Well, Pirfenidone has been shown to slow down 06:31.224 --> 06:32.392 lung function decline. 06:32.475 --> 06:33.810 Rosie couldn't tolerate the side effects. 06:33.893 --> 06:35.395 Has she tried pulmonary rehab? 06:35.478 --> 06:36.562 We've tried everything. 06:39.190 --> 06:41.109 I can tell you a little about the study that we're doing, 06:41.192 --> 06:43.277 but if Rosie would like to enroll, 06:43.361 --> 06:45.279 I'm gonna have to examine her in person. 06:45.363 --> 06:46.572 I'm not here about the study. 06:51.619 --> 06:52.662 We live in Utah. 06:52.745 --> 06:55.039 They don't have physician-assisted death, 06:55.123 --> 06:57.375 and my wife is in terrible pain. 06:57.959 --> 07:00.211 She can't eat, she can't sleep. 07:01.337 --> 07:02.713 She's dying. 07:04.215 --> 07:06.551 She needs those medications you gave the other vets. 07:06.634 --> 07:08.344 John, I don't know what Heather told you-- 07:08.428 --> 07:10.388 She doesn't want to feel like she's committing suicide. 07:10.471 --> 07:12.265 She wants death with dignity. 07:12.348 --> 07:13.599 She needs your help. 07:16.352 --> 07:17.520 Please. 07:19.814 --> 07:21.023 John... 07:22.817 --> 07:24.777 I'm sorry, but I can't. 07:29.991 --> 07:32.702 If you don't give me the drugs for my wife, 07:33.703 --> 07:35.371 I'll report what you've done. 07:55.516 --> 07:58.311 [Bailey] Thank you for coming, everyone. I'll get right to it. 07:58.561 --> 08:02.315 So, you are all aware that blood has been in short supply 08:02.440 --> 08:03.733 since the pandemic. 08:03.816 --> 08:05.318 With the weather being what it is 08:05.401 --> 08:07.153 and a few heavy traumas this past week, 08:07.236 --> 08:10.239 our supply has fallen to critical levels. 08:10.323 --> 08:11.991 So I've asked the coordinators 08:12.074 --> 08:14.243 to reschedule all elective surgeries, 08:14.327 --> 08:16.662 and we've also called state blood banks 08:16.746 --> 08:18.831 and are working on getting an emergency delivery. 08:18.915 --> 08:21.584 In the meantime, I want to see butts in seats, 08:21.667 --> 08:23.753 needles in arms. Tell your friends. 08:24.378 --> 08:27.298 Okay. People's blood isn't gonna donate itself. 08:27.381 --> 08:28.424 Ex-- Excuse me. 08:28.508 --> 08:30.176 I'm the chief. I'm first. 08:30.843 --> 08:33.221 [woman over P.A.] Dr. Bradford to labor and delivery. 08:33.304 --> 08:35.264 Dr. Bradford to labor and delivery. 08:35.348 --> 08:37.642 I thought blood drives just give you one cookie, two tops. 08:37.725 --> 08:39.685 -What's this? -Because I'm chief of general. 08:39.769 --> 08:40.853 -It comes with perks. -Ah. 08:40.937 --> 08:42.271 Congrats on the article, Dr. Grey. 08:42.355 --> 08:43.272 Thank you, Karen. 08:43.356 --> 08:44.607 Hey, take a look at this. 08:45.107 --> 08:46.484 Forty-eight-year-old female, 08:46.567 --> 08:48.819 CT shows a 12-centimeter pancreatic head tumor 08:48.903 --> 08:50.488 that involves the liver, the duodenum, 08:50.571 --> 08:53.074 and causing thrombosis of the portal vein. 08:53.282 --> 08:54.825 -Wow. -Yeah, the tumor's 08:54.909 --> 08:56.911 literally at the juncture of all her internal organs. 08:56.994 --> 08:58.246 If it gets any larger, she'll be at risk 08:58.329 --> 09:00.414 for catastrophic bleeding, so it's bad. 09:00.498 --> 09:01.916 Or obstruction. 09:01.999 --> 09:03.751 Yeah, um, but you don't think a Whipple 09:03.834 --> 09:05.169 would work in this case, do you? 09:05.253 --> 09:06.837 Are you asking my opinion? 09:06.921 --> 09:07.922 Well, no. I know you're famous and everything now, 09:08.005 --> 09:10.132 but I thought I might still have an in. 09:10.925 --> 09:12.802 Well, you could try a traditional Whipple, 09:12.885 --> 09:14.762 but I don't even think you'd get clear margins. 09:14.845 --> 09:15.888 Mm. 09:18.057 --> 09:19.308 Can I meet her? Take a look? 09:19.392 --> 09:20.810 See? You fell right into my trap. 09:20.893 --> 09:22.979 Lucky for you, it's my favorite trap. 09:25.481 --> 09:27.567 [exhales sharply] Try not to pass out this time. 09:27.650 --> 09:29.527 Ha, ha, very funny. 09:31.195 --> 09:32.780 -Crap. -What is it? 09:32.863 --> 09:34.240 I can't donate. 09:34.323 --> 09:35.825 What? Why? 09:35.908 --> 09:37.827 Men who are sexually active with other men 09:37.910 --> 09:39.787 in the last three months are prohibited. 09:39.870 --> 09:44.000 And I wasn't active, uh, the last time I donated. 09:44.083 --> 09:45.126 I wasn't even out. 09:45.209 --> 09:46.836 -But what about gay women? -They don't care. 09:46.919 --> 09:48.296 That is the most asinine thing... 09:48.379 --> 09:49.797 -Shh! -...I have eve heard. 09:49.880 --> 09:51.173 Please, it's fine. 09:51.257 --> 09:53.259 You and your blood are being excluded for being gay. 09:53.342 --> 09:54.594 You should say something. 09:54.677 --> 09:56.137 Can I just keep my job, please? 09:56.220 --> 09:57.680 Plus, it's almost been three months 09:57.763 --> 09:59.140 since Nico and I broke up, so I'll just-- 09:59.223 --> 10:00.266 I'll do it then. 10:01.267 --> 10:02.935 [sighs] Go. 10:12.486 --> 10:13.696 Who's this guy? 10:14.322 --> 10:17.575 Glen Sandstone. High-powered attorney. 10:17.658 --> 10:18.993 [Nick] And he's married to the blonde one here? 10:19.076 --> 10:22.997 No, no. Audrey, the Spanish woman that has the twin sister. 10:23.080 --> 10:24.081 Ah, a twist. 10:24.165 --> 10:25.458 Didn't see that coming. 10:25.875 --> 10:27.501 [Cora] She needs help remembering her own name, 10:27.585 --> 10:29.837 but she has the entire town of Gladwell's family tree 10:29.920 --> 10:30.921 committed to memory. 10:32.923 --> 10:35.301 Cora, I agree with Dr. Marsh. 10:35.384 --> 10:37.845 Yeah, normally I love hearing that. 10:38.429 --> 10:40.306 We can try a Whipple procedure, 10:40.389 --> 10:43.643 but we won't be able to get 100% of the tumor. 10:44.602 --> 10:46.020 But, i-it will help with your pain 10:46.103 --> 10:48.773 and maybe even give you some more time with your aunt. 10:49.148 --> 10:50.358 Hopefully. 10:50.900 --> 10:54.070 [indistinct chatter on television continues] 10:54.153 --> 10:56.822 I take care of her now, but... 10:57.365 --> 10:58.949 Sally raised me. 10:59.033 --> 11:00.701 My mom wanted to be a good mother, in theory. 11:00.785 --> 11:02.995 But she had other priorities. 11:03.079 --> 11:06.582 So when she would disappear for days on end with a new guy, 11:06.666 --> 11:10.336 Sally would come, make sure I was eating dinner, 11:10.419 --> 11:13.130 taking a bath, tuck me in at night, 11:13.214 --> 11:15.007 and tell me my mom had just called. 11:15.091 --> 11:16.592 I'd just missed her. 11:16.676 --> 11:19.053 But she called to tell me she loves me. 11:19.136 --> 11:20.971 And it wasn't till my 20s that I realized 11:21.055 --> 11:23.349 that Sally was making it up. 11:23.933 --> 11:25.518 And thank God she did, you know? 11:25.601 --> 11:27.687 Because it's better to miss your mom than to hate her. 11:28.896 --> 11:30.398 And now she needs me. 11:31.982 --> 11:35.986 She needs me to feed her and bathe her... 11:37.613 --> 11:39.156 tell her someone loves her. 11:41.033 --> 11:43.494 So I need something better than hopefully... 11:46.122 --> 11:47.540 and maybe. 11:52.253 --> 11:54.004 So Heather is just walking around, 11:54.088 --> 11:55.798 advertising that-- that you're 11:55.881 --> 11:57.425 the military's concierge death doctor? 11:57.508 --> 11:58.801 Of course not. 11:58.884 --> 12:00.636 I tried calling her, but she didn't answer. 12:00.720 --> 12:02.221 Until then, I don't know what to do with this guy. 12:02.304 --> 12:04.056 What do you mean, what to do? You tell him no. 12:04.140 --> 12:05.307 [whispering] Well, then... 12:05.808 --> 12:08.310 then he reports me, and I go to jail. 12:08.394 --> 12:10.020 Owen, we don't even know who this guy is. 12:10.104 --> 12:11.522 He could be lying about his wife. 12:11.605 --> 12:12.690 I saw medical records. 12:12.773 --> 12:14.358 He could have fabricated them! 12:14.442 --> 12:16.152 He could be a drug-seeker, appealing specifically to you 12:16.235 --> 12:17.486 'cause he heard what you did. 12:17.570 --> 12:19.113 Listen, he called her on video-chat. 12:19.196 --> 12:20.364 -We spoke. -[sighs] 12:20.448 --> 12:21.949 Rosie's real, Teddy. 12:22.032 --> 12:23.951 She's really sick and she just wants my help. 12:24.452 --> 12:25.953 [sighs] Listen, I-- 12:26.036 --> 12:30.166 I can check the VA database, confirm that she is military. 12:30.249 --> 12:31.500 -That make you feel better? -Yes. 12:31.584 --> 12:32.710 And if he's telling the truth? 12:32.793 --> 12:34.754 We find another way to help. 12:43.637 --> 12:45.931 [Kristen] Help! Help! 12:46.015 --> 12:47.266 -Dr. Lincoln, hurry! -[Link] What happened? 12:47.349 --> 12:48.684 Please, it's Simon. He can't-- 12:48.768 --> 12:50.478 -He's not breathing! -Winston! 12:50.561 --> 12:52.146 I'm scared that he's dying! 12:52.229 --> 12:53.147 [monitor alarm beeping] 12:53.230 --> 12:55.566 [gasping] 12:58.652 --> 13:00.112 Sats are plummeting, despite his high-flow. 13:00.196 --> 13:01.363 BP's dropping, too. 13:01.447 --> 13:02.990 We're gonna have to intubate you, Simon. 13:03.073 --> 13:05.785 No, I'm okay, just-- just keep the air coming. 13:05.868 --> 13:07.203 Don't intubate. 13:07.286 --> 13:09.163 Don't talk, babe. Save your energy. 13:09.246 --> 13:11.916 If they put in the tube, I may never wake up. 13:11.999 --> 13:13.042 Our son... 13:13.125 --> 13:14.794 -[coughs] -[monitor beeps] 13:14.877 --> 13:16.170 [Levi] Sats are in the 80s. 13:16.253 --> 13:18.255 His O2's maxed out. What do you want to do? 13:18.339 --> 13:19.340 Kristen. 13:21.175 --> 13:22.426 Intubate him. 13:23.302 --> 13:24.762 Get the intubation tray. 13:25.137 --> 13:26.514 [woman] Coming through. 13:26.639 --> 13:28.516 We need a size 8 ET tube. 13:28.599 --> 13:30.017 Get suction ready. 13:33.854 --> 13:35.231 Give me some cricoid pressure. 13:42.279 --> 13:43.864 [indistinct conversations] 13:43.948 --> 13:45.282 Maybe if we close our eyes, 13:45.366 --> 13:46.450 it'll feel like we're at the spa. 13:46.534 --> 13:50.162 Mm. Spas smell like lavender and eucalyptus, 13:50.246 --> 13:52.289 not rubbing alcohol and plastic. 13:52.373 --> 13:54.542 Also, people bring you things to put over your eyes. 13:54.875 --> 13:56.377 This is not a spa. 13:57.127 --> 13:58.671 -How are you? -Today should be 13:58.754 --> 14:00.923 one of the biggest celebratory days of my career. 14:01.006 --> 14:02.216 Our article was published. 14:02.299 --> 14:03.968 I might have gotten one step closer 14:04.051 --> 14:06.387 to surgically curing Parkinson's disease. 14:06.470 --> 14:07.972 And all you can think about is Kai. 14:08.055 --> 14:09.139 Have you heard from them? 14:09.223 --> 14:10.516 They texted, "Thinking of you." 14:10.599 --> 14:12.810 Which is sweet, but does nothing to soothe 14:12.893 --> 14:16.438 the intense ache that is consuming my body. 14:16.522 --> 14:18.399 Breakups are hard. Give it time. 14:19.650 --> 14:21.235 Has Winston heard from his brother? 14:21.735 --> 14:22.862 No. 14:23.195 --> 14:25.531 And, uh, he's mildly obsessing. 14:25.614 --> 14:26.615 No-- not mildly. 14:26.699 --> 14:27.825 He is obsessing. 14:27.908 --> 14:30.035 And this morning I tried to get him to let it go, 14:30.119 --> 14:31.620 and he responded by telling me I don't know what it's like 14:31.704 --> 14:33.622 -to have siblings. -Mm. 14:34.248 --> 14:35.583 What? You agree with him? 14:35.666 --> 14:38.002 It's just-- No, it's just, it's different. 14:38.085 --> 14:39.378 I mean, you and I are sisters 14:39.461 --> 14:42.339 in like the best and most adult ways, 14:42.423 --> 14:43.382 and I love you. 14:44.717 --> 14:46.218 But my Shepherd sisters? 14:46.302 --> 14:48.178 When they get under my skin, I cannot get them out, 14:48.262 --> 14:49.680 and I love them, 14:49.763 --> 14:51.348 but I'm not sure that I like them. 14:51.432 --> 14:53.976 And that is just based in, like, childhood stuff. 14:54.059 --> 14:54.977 So you agree with him. 14:55.060 --> 14:56.145 [chuckles] I'm saying, 14:56.228 --> 14:57.980 don't try to help him stop obsessing. 14:58.063 --> 14:59.481 It is only gonna make him obsess more. 14:59.565 --> 15:01.609 Here I thought I knew my husband inside and out, 15:02.192 --> 15:04.486 and there's just a lo-- I mean... 15:04.695 --> 15:08.032 Deep things, like this thing with his brother. 15:08.574 --> 15:10.075 [sighs] 15:10.159 --> 15:11.285 A lot of stuff I didn't anticipate, 15:11.368 --> 15:13.662 a lot of stuff that I-I don't know. 15:17.583 --> 15:19.960 [whirring] 15:21.253 --> 15:24.423 Hey. I, uh-- I heard about Simon. 15:24.506 --> 15:25.841 You okay? 15:26.634 --> 15:29.136 [sighs] I'm just trying to distract myself 15:29.219 --> 15:30.971 from thinking about all the terrible things 15:31.055 --> 15:33.349 that are gonna appear on this screen in two minutes. 15:34.099 --> 15:35.351 [sighs] 15:35.434 --> 15:36.769 You break up with Pavarotti? 15:36.852 --> 15:38.520 Really? You're thinking about Todd right now? 15:38.646 --> 15:42.816 No, I'm thinking about how I wish we had gone to karaoke 15:42.942 --> 15:44.193 the night the three of us went out drinking. 15:44.276 --> 15:46.236 [laughs] I hate you. 15:46.654 --> 15:49.365 He's nice. He's kind. 15:49.448 --> 15:52.159 But he is also obsessed with his own PhD, 15:52.242 --> 15:55.704 and he narrates his life out loud. 15:55.788 --> 15:58.707 Like, "And now, I'm making the coffee. 15:58.791 --> 16:00.626 I'm putting the beans in the filter. 16:00.709 --> 16:03.128 Now, I'm putting the water in the pot." 16:03.212 --> 16:04.421 [laughs] That is-- 16:04.505 --> 16:06.131 Enraging. Yeah, it is. 16:06.215 --> 16:07.174 That... 16:07.758 --> 16:09.259 plus the singing orgasm-- 16:09.343 --> 16:11.053 -It's a lot. -Yeah. 16:11.136 --> 16:13.931 But he's-- Oh, he's so nice. 16:14.181 --> 16:15.766 ♪ Figaro ♪ 16:15.849 --> 16:17.142 ♪ Figaro ♪ 16:17.309 --> 16:18.185 No! 16:18.268 --> 16:19.311 ♪ Figaro, Figaro ♪ 16:19.436 --> 16:20.980 [laughs] 16:21.063 --> 16:22.147 [computer chirps] 16:22.231 --> 16:24.149 Oh, damn it. 16:27.987 --> 16:29.238 [Nick] Okay, how about this? 16:29.321 --> 16:31.281 What if we resect her entire pancreas, 16:31.365 --> 16:32.616 extract the islet cells, 16:32.700 --> 16:33.826 and insert them into her liver 16:33.909 --> 16:35.202 so she can still make insulin? 16:36.161 --> 16:37.830 Well, we said bold swings. That's a bold swing. 16:37.913 --> 16:40.916 I have done an islet cell transplant before. 16:41.000 --> 16:42.418 Of course you have. Of course. 16:42.501 --> 16:44.378 -Are you impressed? -I mean, impressed. 16:44.461 --> 16:46.046 I'm turned on. I'm impressed, I'm turned on... 16:46.130 --> 16:47.798 [laughs] 16:47.881 --> 16:50.175 I just wish there were a way to just get in there 16:50.259 --> 16:53.178 and cut around the tumor a little bit at a time, 16:53.262 --> 16:54.847 piece by piece. 16:54.930 --> 16:56.640 But how do we do that during a critical blood shortage? 16:57.558 --> 16:59.810 Wait, she would lose a lot less blood 16:59.893 --> 17:01.770 if we didn't do the surgery inside the body. 17:02.187 --> 17:04.106 You want to do an ex-vivo surgery? 17:04.189 --> 17:05.441 You've done one of those, too, haven't you? 17:06.400 --> 17:07.985 -[laughs] -Right. 17:08.068 --> 17:09.570 Well, if we were going to go that route, 17:09.653 --> 17:11.530 it would be helpful to have an extra set of hands. 17:12.865 --> 17:15.284 So, basically, you want to do a Whipple, 17:15.367 --> 17:18.328 but outside the body on the back OR table? 17:18.412 --> 17:21.206 Exactly. Remove everything involved-- 17:21.290 --> 17:24.001 the liver, the pancreatic head with the tumor, 17:24.084 --> 17:25.002 the intestines. 17:25.085 --> 17:26.211 Remove it all en bloc, 17:26.295 --> 17:27.463 excise the tumor, 17:27.546 --> 17:30.424 and then transplant everything back into Cora's body. 17:30.507 --> 17:31.884 And whose idea was this? 17:32.384 --> 17:33.552 Does it matter? 17:33.969 --> 17:36.472 No, it doesn't, because it's a bad idea. 17:36.638 --> 17:37.973 I mean, it's too risky, 17:38.057 --> 17:39.767 and, frankly, today, it's irresponsible. 17:39.850 --> 17:42.311 I mean, a surgery like this would take over 20 hours. 17:43.103 --> 17:45.439 So we should, what, send her home to die? 17:45.522 --> 17:47.357 Jamarah Blake is on her way to decide 17:47.441 --> 17:50.652 whether or not this hospital can continue its training program, 17:50.778 --> 17:53.697 because I was too confident and tried to reinvent the wheel. 17:53.781 --> 17:55.324 Today is not the day to go rogue. 17:58.202 --> 18:00.120 [sighs] 18:00.204 --> 18:02.289 Maybe it isn't rogue, maybe it's cutting edge. 18:02.372 --> 18:04.917 And maybe cutting edge is exactly what we need to do 18:05.000 --> 18:05.876 to save the program. 18:07.419 --> 18:10.172 No, I'm sorry. I'm not gonna do it. 18:15.260 --> 18:17.846 Okay, um... well, we can keep her admitted. 18:17.930 --> 18:19.389 I mean, we could do it in a few days. 18:19.473 --> 18:21.558 Just because he screwed up doesn't mean Cora has to die. 18:21.642 --> 18:23.060 I'm booking the OR. 18:24.770 --> 18:25.687 Okay. 18:30.692 --> 18:33.278 Not only did the existing lung mets grow, 18:33.570 --> 18:35.489 Simon now has more. 18:35.572 --> 18:36.782 So can we resect them? 18:37.366 --> 18:38.450 Unfortunately, no. 18:38.534 --> 18:40.327 Um, he already has too much tumor burden. 18:40.410 --> 18:41.537 There won't be enough pulmonary reserve. 18:41.620 --> 18:42.663 What about a bronchial stent? 18:42.746 --> 18:45.082 Well, it's not a problem of getting air into his lungs. 18:45.165 --> 18:47.000 It's a problem of getting them to work at all. 18:47.084 --> 18:49.211 His wife is 36 weeks pregnant. 18:49.294 --> 18:51.130 We just need him to hold on long enough 18:51.213 --> 18:52.881 that she can have a safe C-section. 18:55.342 --> 18:56.885 I told him he'd meet his kid. 18:57.344 --> 18:59.638 Which, I know, I know, it was stupid. 19:00.139 --> 19:01.265 [sighs] 19:01.932 --> 19:02.808 What about ECMO? 19:02.891 --> 19:04.977 ECMO's not medically indicated in this situation. 19:05.060 --> 19:06.019 Would it work? 19:06.687 --> 19:08.230 Well, come on. Would it buy him some time? 19:08.313 --> 19:09.690 There are protocols that we could follow 19:09.773 --> 19:11.608 in order to reduce the amount of blood products. 19:11.692 --> 19:12.734 No, because what if he bleeds out? 19:13.277 --> 19:15.404 Just come meet Kristen. 19:15.612 --> 19:18.282 Meet his wife. We can go over these options together. 19:19.491 --> 19:21.910 [sighs] Please. 19:24.121 --> 19:25.873 [sighs] 19:26.707 --> 19:28.167 [elevator bell dings] 19:28.250 --> 19:31.503 Uh, Ms. Blake, as, uh, director of the residency program, 19:31.587 --> 19:33.255 I want you to know that we have followed 19:33.338 --> 19:35.257 your recommendations very seriously. 19:35.340 --> 19:36.508 Well, I'm glad to hear it. 19:36.592 --> 19:38.677 [chuckles] Just in the past three weeks, 19:38.760 --> 19:40.888 we've hired six new attendings, 19:40.971 --> 19:43.807 and teaching cases have risen 40%. 19:43.891 --> 19:44.933 That's very impressive. 19:45.017 --> 19:46.643 I also read the Parkinson's research 19:46.727 --> 19:48.437 of Doctors Grey and Shepherd. 19:48.520 --> 19:50.397 It sounds like you've done some groundbreaking work. 19:50.480 --> 19:52.232 Well, they have indeed. [chuckles] 19:52.316 --> 19:54.318 Well, this follow-up visit, it shouldn't take long. 19:54.401 --> 19:56.028 I'll mostly be looking to confirm 19:56.111 --> 19:58.155 that the issues that I flagged have been addressed. 19:58.238 --> 20:00.240 Which it seems that many of them have. 20:00.324 --> 20:01.992 -You're almost done. -Thank you. 20:02.075 --> 20:04.494 Are these your residents? 20:04.953 --> 20:06.288 Hi. 20:07.331 --> 20:11.168 Ms. Blake, I am sure you are aware that the state-- 20:11.251 --> 20:13.545 the entire country, for that matter-- 20:13.629 --> 20:16.381 has been experiencing a serious blood shortage. 20:16.465 --> 20:20.177 So we d-decided to take matters into our own hands. 20:20.260 --> 20:24.223 By making your residents donate blood during a shift? 20:24.306 --> 20:26.183 It-- This is entirely voluntary. 20:28.393 --> 20:33.232 Well, are you gonna shut us down for a nation-wide problem? 20:33.315 --> 20:34.691 [scoffs] 20:37.527 --> 20:40.530 [monitor beeping] 20:40.614 --> 20:42.908 So it moves the blood out of his body 20:42.991 --> 20:46.286 and oxygenates it so he doesn't have to use his lungs? 20:46.370 --> 20:49.039 That's right, it bypasses his heart and lungs. 20:49.456 --> 20:50.374 Okay. 20:50.457 --> 20:52.125 Um, let's do that, then. 20:52.209 --> 20:54.628 Kristen, ECMO comes with its own complications. 20:55.545 --> 20:58.173 Particularly, it comes with the risk of blood clots. 20:58.799 --> 21:00.926 So, he could... 21:01.009 --> 21:02.135 die more quickly. 21:02.719 --> 21:05.013 Kristen, we usually use ECMO on patients 21:05.097 --> 21:07.224 so that their heart and lungs can rest and recover. 21:08.225 --> 21:10.394 And Simon's lungs are not going to recover. 21:10.852 --> 21:13.689 So what worries me about using ECMO in this case 21:13.772 --> 21:14.856 is that at some point-- 21:14.940 --> 21:17.276 -We would have to unplug him. -At some point, yes. 21:17.484 --> 21:20.112 And that might be harder than you-- 21:20.195 --> 21:21.071 It won't be. 21:22.072 --> 21:23.240 It won't be harder. 21:24.199 --> 21:26.034 I mean, honestly, it's all hard. 21:27.035 --> 21:28.287 It's more than hard. 21:28.370 --> 21:30.706 It's, um-- it's all impossible. 21:30.789 --> 21:34.418 But here we are anyway. Right? 21:34.501 --> 21:38.005 Simon wants me to be able to tell our son that they met. 21:38.130 --> 21:40.173 ♪ Wait until the sun goes down ♪ 21:40.257 --> 21:43.260 That his dad loved him beyond the beyond. 21:44.094 --> 21:46.221 We've talked about this for months. 21:46.305 --> 21:47.389 ♪ And you can see the stars ♪ 21:47.472 --> 21:49.599 We've talked about everything, forever. 21:49.683 --> 21:52.769 We're-- We're talkers, we're planners. 21:53.228 --> 21:56.440 We had so many plans. 21:56.982 --> 21:58.066 ♪ You know exactly where they are ♪ 21:58.150 --> 21:59.318 And we don't get to have them. 21:59.401 --> 22:01.361 ♪ Even galaxies apart ♪ 22:01.445 --> 22:02.946 But if we could have this... 22:03.030 --> 22:05.365 ♪ They'll stay forever ♪ 22:05.449 --> 22:07.743 ♪ Just know they're never too far ♪ 22:07.826 --> 22:09.745 I mean, obviously, we didn't talk about ECMO. 22:09.828 --> 22:11.455 We didn't talk about this specific, impossible thing. 22:11.538 --> 22:13.165 But I know my husband. 22:15.417 --> 22:19.254 I know him better than I know myself. 22:19.921 --> 22:22.883 I'm fine with the fact that it might be harder on me. 22:22.966 --> 22:23.884 If I have to... 22:25.677 --> 22:29.389 say goodbye and unplug him... 22:31.266 --> 22:34.436 it will be just one more impossible thing. 22:37.856 --> 22:40.400 But at least he will have met his son. 22:43.153 --> 22:47.240 ♪ It's the letting go that lets you fly ♪ 22:47.324 --> 22:48.241 Yes. 22:48.325 --> 22:49.368 ♪ Lets you fly ♪ 22:49.451 --> 22:50.744 I say yes. 22:51.661 --> 22:53.038 Okay. Let's do it. Let's try it. 22:54.748 --> 22:55.791 ♪ Getting darker now ♪ 22:55.874 --> 22:57.042 Let's try. 23:01.296 --> 23:04.049 ♪ But the sky is full of lights ♪ 23:04.257 --> 23:05.842 [Nick] Cora, we just want to make sure 23:05.926 --> 23:07.219 that you understand the surgery 23:07.302 --> 23:09.346 and how complicated it will be. 23:10.013 --> 23:11.973 ♪ But you can't hold something bright ♪ 23:12.057 --> 23:13.517 [sighs] 23:13.767 --> 23:15.644 It's different when it's you. 23:15.852 --> 23:16.812 I'm sorry? 23:16.895 --> 23:20.315 I'm so used to taking Sally to all her appointments and... 23:20.399 --> 23:21.858 ♪ Just know they're never too far ♪ 23:21.942 --> 23:24.569 ...so many doctors and so many hospitals. 23:24.986 --> 23:26.321 ♪ They'll keep us together ♪ 23:26.405 --> 23:27.989 When it's you, it's-- it's different. 23:28.073 --> 23:30.867 Sharper focus. More frightening. 23:30.951 --> 23:32.494 Cora, we're gonna take great care of you 23:32.577 --> 23:34.121 no matter what you decide. 23:34.204 --> 23:35.872 But I don't know what happens to Sally if I die. 23:35.956 --> 23:38.542 I mean, she's confused if I'm gone for just five minutes. 23:39.918 --> 23:43.004 I know this surgery sounds really risky. 23:43.088 --> 23:45.132 But in my professional opinion, 23:45.215 --> 23:47.717 it is your only chance of survival. 23:48.510 --> 23:51.555 Worst-case scenario? You could have organ damage. 23:51.638 --> 23:52.973 You could bleed too much. 23:53.056 --> 23:54.558 -You could die. -And soon. 23:54.641 --> 23:57.018 Cora, you've put off your own health 23:57.144 --> 23:58.520 for a really long time. 23:58.603 --> 24:00.772 And I think if Sally could remember who you are, 24:00.856 --> 24:02.941 she would tell you that in order to take care of her, 24:03.024 --> 24:05.402 you have to first take care of yourself. 24:13.493 --> 24:14.828 Sally. 24:16.621 --> 24:17.914 Oh, love. 24:17.998 --> 24:19.249 That's for you. 24:19.332 --> 24:20.709 Yeah. 24:20.792 --> 24:24.546 ♪ It's the letting go that lets you fly ♪ 24:24.629 --> 24:25.839 Okay, yeah. 24:25.922 --> 24:27.757 Let's do the surgery. 24:28.341 --> 24:29.259 Yeah. [sniffles] 24:29.342 --> 24:32.179 ♪ Lets you fly ♪ 24:32.262 --> 24:33.930 -Good. -Okay. 24:34.014 --> 24:35.140 Yeah. 24:35.223 --> 24:39.186 ♪ It's the letting go that lets you fly ♪ 24:40.145 --> 24:42.981 [thunder crashes] 24:43.315 --> 24:45.984 [siren wails in distance] 24:47.486 --> 24:48.820 John. 24:52.949 --> 24:54.576 We're going to help you. 24:54.659 --> 24:56.203 Oh, thank God. 24:57.162 --> 25:00.624 But it's, uh-- it's complicated. 25:00.707 --> 25:03.502 First, we're going to relocate you and Rosie to Washington. 25:03.585 --> 25:04.669 We're going to set you up with housing 25:04.753 --> 25:06.546 and vouch that you're current residents. 25:06.630 --> 25:08.048 And then we'll file all the paperwork 25:08.131 --> 25:10.383 to show Rosie's service record 25:10.467 --> 25:13.803 and that she qualifies for physician-assisted death. 25:13.887 --> 25:15.305 [Teddy] We're willing to help with the costs 25:15.388 --> 25:17.682 and make sure that Rosie has all the medications and care 25:17.766 --> 25:19.768 required to keep her as comfortable as possible. 25:19.851 --> 25:21.811 Stop. That's-- That's not why I came here. 25:21.895 --> 25:24.064 -That's not what I asked you for. -We understand that, but-- 25:24.147 --> 25:25.482 John, we haven't assessed your wife. 25:25.565 --> 25:27.901 To give any medications to a patient 25:27.984 --> 25:30.737 that you haven't seen, it's just-- it's... 25:30.820 --> 25:33.657 -It's not ethical. -Not ethical to who? 25:34.199 --> 25:35.617 Some committee? 25:36.201 --> 25:39.079 Some spreadsheet that tells you what's allowed? 25:39.162 --> 25:41.873 -John-- -My wife is dying. 25:41.957 --> 25:44.626 She's not going to relocate and fill out paperwork 25:44.709 --> 25:46.711 and be vouched for by strangers. 25:47.379 --> 25:50.090 Rosie wants it to look like she just died in her bed. 25:50.173 --> 25:52.759 She doesn't want our children to know she took pills. 25:52.842 --> 25:55.428 That's what matters to her more than anything. 25:56.054 --> 25:57.889 My wife is in pain 25:57.973 --> 26:00.225 and you're talking to me about ethics?! 26:00.475 --> 26:01.560 [thunder crashes] 26:05.146 --> 26:06.523 Heather told me you're veterans. 26:07.899 --> 26:09.150 What about honor? 26:10.777 --> 26:15.073 Let Rosie die with the dignity and honor she lived with, please. 26:18.201 --> 26:19.035 Please. 26:19.744 --> 26:20.996 [sighs] 26:21.079 --> 26:22.664 -Maybe there's a way-- -No. 26:22.747 --> 26:25.750 No, I am truly, deeply sorry, John. 26:26.126 --> 26:27.877 I-I wish there was more that we could do, 26:27.961 --> 26:30.255 but to what you are asking, the answer is no. 26:30.338 --> 26:31.506 We just can't. 26:37.304 --> 26:40.056 [thunder crashes] 26:50.692 --> 26:54.029 -[monitor beeping] -Okay. [sighs] 26:54.112 --> 26:55.447 And there it is. 26:55.947 --> 26:58.742 It involves the entire hepatoduodenal ligament. 26:58.825 --> 27:00.785 We sure we want to keep going here? 27:01.745 --> 27:03.788 [suction] 27:03.872 --> 27:05.123 We can do this. 27:05.206 --> 27:06.625 What other choice does she have? 27:06.708 --> 27:08.918 Let's mobilize the right colon first. 27:09.002 --> 27:10.378 Okay. 27:10.462 --> 27:11.838 Hyper vigilant on the suction, Helm. 27:11.921 --> 27:13.715 We need to send every drop of blood Cora loses 27:13.798 --> 27:17.093 into the cell saver so we can transfuse it back into her. 27:28.647 --> 27:29.939 Wait, when Dr. Webber said no, 27:30.023 --> 27:31.358 did he mean that he wouldn't do the surgery 27:31.441 --> 27:34.694 or that no one should do the surgery? 27:35.320 --> 27:36.613 Suction, Helm. 27:41.951 --> 27:44.037 [machines hissing, beeping] 27:44.120 --> 27:45.747 Hello, forever. 27:48.083 --> 27:50.669 We used to live in this two-story townhome 27:50.752 --> 27:55.173 that had an upstairs office that I was convinced was haunted. 27:55.924 --> 27:57.926 And every time I would go upstairs to work, 27:58.009 --> 28:00.970 Simon would say, "Goodbye, forever." 28:01.054 --> 28:02.472 [chuckles] 28:04.349 --> 28:06.017 It always made me laugh... 28:08.061 --> 28:09.854 until his diagnosis. 28:09.938 --> 28:13.316 I told him that I didn't want to hear that anymore, 28:14.484 --> 28:16.403 and suddenly... 28:17.654 --> 28:19.614 instead of "Goodbye"... 28:21.032 --> 28:22.409 it was "Hello." 28:28.873 --> 28:30.125 I'm ready. 28:33.211 --> 28:34.963 [sighs] 28:35.046 --> 28:37.006 ["Hold the Line" by AG x Daniel Saint Black playing] 28:37.090 --> 28:38.508 Start prepping him. Let's move. 28:38.591 --> 28:40.343 ♪ It's a hard thing ♪ 28:40.427 --> 28:42.011 ♪ To learn ♪ 28:43.096 --> 28:47.016 ♪ Growing up on your own ♪ 28:47.100 --> 28:48.810 [Meredith] We should hang another unit of blood. 28:48.893 --> 28:50.562 ♪ It's a river rising ♪ 28:50.645 --> 28:53.314 [Nick] Okay, everything is clamped off and divided. 28:53.815 --> 28:55.567 On my count. 28:55.650 --> 28:59.237 One, two, three. 28:59.946 --> 29:01.865 Oh, my God, oh, my God, oh, my God. 29:01.948 --> 29:03.450 ♪ I will hold the line ♪ 29:03.533 --> 29:04.451 Perfect. 29:04.534 --> 29:05.452 Got it? 29:05.535 --> 29:06.870 ♪ Always hold the line ♪ 29:06.953 --> 29:09.456 Admit it. Parkinson's seems boring after this. 29:09.539 --> 29:10.999 ♪ When you're feeling down ♪ 29:11.082 --> 29:14.461 ♪ And the world's not right ♪ 29:14.544 --> 29:17.672 ♪ And I know in time ♪ 29:17.756 --> 29:20.759 ♪ It will be alright ♪ 29:20.842 --> 29:23.887 ♪ But until then ♪ 29:23.970 --> 29:27.348 ♪ I will hold the line ♪ 29:27.432 --> 29:30.185 ♪ Hold the line ♪ 29:34.022 --> 29:36.107 ♪ Hold the line ♪ 29:40.153 --> 29:46.159 ♪ I can't say I've got all the answers ♪ 29:46.868 --> 29:51.289 ♪ But I'm here all the same ♪ 30:06.221 --> 30:12.227 ♪ I can't say I've got all the answers ♪ 30:13.228 --> 30:17.774 ♪ But I'm here all the same ♪ 30:17.857 --> 30:19.234 [Link] You need to eat something. 30:20.401 --> 30:22.946 ♪ Maybe we're outnumbered ♪ 30:23.029 --> 30:24.155 Am I selfish? 30:24.239 --> 30:26.699 ♪ And we don't have much time ♪ 30:26.783 --> 30:28.701 Putting him through this? 30:28.785 --> 30:32.413 ♪ Always hold the line ♪ 30:32.497 --> 30:35.416 ♪ When you're feeling down ♪ 30:35.542 --> 30:36.584 ♪ And the world's not right ♪ 30:36.835 --> 30:38.336 My son... 30:38.419 --> 30:41.798 The first time I saw him, screaming his lungs out, 30:41.881 --> 30:44.676 it was like my heart left my body. 30:44.759 --> 30:49.055 The amount of love I experienced in that second... 30:50.640 --> 30:51.933 ♪ The line ♪ 30:52.016 --> 30:53.184 [Levi] His heart rate's increasing. 30:53.268 --> 30:54.727 [Winston] Some bleeding over here. 4x4. 30:54.811 --> 30:56.187 [Maggie] My incision is starting to ooze, too. 30:56.271 --> 30:57.939 We need push half a dose of protamine. 30:58.022 --> 30:59.524 BP's dropping. 30:59.607 --> 31:01.693 [Link] ...I didn't care what happened to me for the rest of my life. 31:01.776 --> 31:03.111 [Maggie] We need to work faster. 31:03.194 --> 31:05.321 Without adequate access, there's no ECMO. Tube. 31:06.114 --> 31:07.282 ♪ The line ♪ 31:07.365 --> 31:08.741 Alright. 31:08.825 --> 31:10.201 Remove the clamps. 31:11.828 --> 31:14.038 ♪ Hold the line ♪ 31:14.122 --> 31:15.415 Come on, Simon. 31:15.498 --> 31:17.208 ♪ Ooh ♪ 31:17.292 --> 31:19.377 Come on. Come on. 31:19.502 --> 31:20.962 ♪ It's a river rising ♪ 31:21.212 --> 31:24.299 ♪ A hundred stones ♪ 31:24.382 --> 31:26.092 ♪ You don't have... ♪ 31:26.175 --> 31:27.218 That... 31:27.302 --> 31:29.053 ♪ ...to face them alone ♪ 31:29.137 --> 31:30.346 That was enough. 31:30.430 --> 31:33.725 ♪ I will hold the line ♪ 31:36.144 --> 31:40.315 ♪ Hold the line ♪ 31:40.398 --> 31:43.151 [Bailey] That blood should have been here over an hour ago! 31:43.234 --> 31:44.527 [woman over P.A.] Dr. Mari Sellers 4619. Dr. Mari Sellers 4619. 31:44.611 --> 31:46.946 It rains approximately 150 days a year. 31:47.989 --> 31:50.575 Are you actually telling me that no one has had to drive 31:50.658 --> 31:53.036 a shipment of blood in the damn rain? 31:53.119 --> 31:55.371 What-- Okay, well, can I pick it up myself? 31:55.455 --> 31:58.333 My blood is just as helpful as anyone else's. 31:58.416 --> 32:01.085 It has plasma and red blood cells 32:01.169 --> 32:03.087 and white blood cells and platelets and-- 32:03.171 --> 32:04.047 W-- Let me call you back. 32:04.130 --> 32:05.465 [cellphone beeps] 32:05.548 --> 32:09.135 I have donated blood to this hospital before. Many times. 32:09.218 --> 32:11.971 And I just saw units of blood 32:12.055 --> 32:13.765 circulating into an ECMO machine, 32:13.848 --> 32:15.642 and I know that we can use every drop we have. 32:15.725 --> 32:19.103 And I can't help. I can't help because of this... prejudice. 32:19.187 --> 32:22.690 This absurd, disgusting idea that my blood-- 32:22.774 --> 32:26.152 my sexually active gay blood-- is... 32:28.071 --> 32:31.157 My blood is the same as it's always been. 32:31.240 --> 32:32.659 It's-- I-I know. 32:32.742 --> 32:34.410 And it is not right. 32:34.494 --> 32:36.454 It is very, very wrong. 32:36.537 --> 32:39.082 And if I were in charge of the rules, 32:39.165 --> 32:40.917 we wouldn't be having this conversation. 32:41.501 --> 32:43.836 -So can I help? -No, Schmitt. 32:43.920 --> 32:45.254 -[sighs] -I'm sorry. 32:45.338 --> 32:48.549 But look, you help this hospital in so many other ways. 32:50.385 --> 32:52.428 -Okay. -Schmitt-- 32:55.306 --> 32:57.475 [sighs] 32:57.558 --> 32:58.810 Great. 32:58.893 --> 33:00.061 [sighs] 33:00.144 --> 33:01.980 -[knock on door] -[John] 'Scuse me. 33:02.063 --> 33:02.981 Are you Chief of Surgery? 33:03.564 --> 33:06.317 Uh, y-- I am, but right now I'm in the middle of-- 33:06.401 --> 33:08.653 I need to report a crime one of your doctors committed. 33:16.452 --> 33:17.787 [telephone rings] 33:18.204 --> 33:20.331 Hey! I got a-- 33:20.415 --> 33:21.666 No. 33:22.000 --> 33:23.042 Not a good time? 33:23.126 --> 33:25.211 Not a good... bear? 33:25.294 --> 33:27.714 -[chuckles] -Not a good match. 33:29.549 --> 33:31.467 But we had sex. 33:32.969 --> 33:33.970 We did. 33:34.095 --> 33:37.432 And I-I'm so sorry, but y-you said that you loved me. 33:37.515 --> 33:41.310 And I think I might see this as more casual than you do. 33:41.894 --> 33:44.147 I'm so sorry, Todd, 33:44.230 --> 33:45.982 but, please, give the bear to your sister. 33:46.065 --> 33:47.316 Well, it's a sex bear. 33:47.400 --> 33:49.527 It's a "thank you for the excellent sex" bear. 33:49.610 --> 33:51.529 Does it say that somewhere on it? 33:51.612 --> 33:52.447 Well, no. 33:53.322 --> 33:55.366 Then maybe it's just a bear. 33:58.661 --> 34:01.831 Okay, I'm sorry. Um... bye. 34:08.129 --> 34:09.881 Hey, would you like a sex bear? 34:09.964 --> 34:12.258 Or just-- I guess it's a bear? 34:15.303 --> 34:16.888 [sighs] 34:17.221 --> 34:19.098 [Richard] Only a few people at Grey-Sloan 34:19.182 --> 34:20.850 have successfully performed ex-vivo surgeries. 34:20.933 --> 34:23.478 Well, then, you're lucky that Dr. Marsh joined the team. 34:23.603 --> 34:25.146 -[chuckles] -And Dr. Grey is amazing. 34:25.313 --> 34:26.314 Oh, of course. 34:26.397 --> 34:28.441 I'm so glad she decided to postpone leaving. 34:31.652 --> 34:36.240 Um, oh-- If you watch Dr. Marsh here anastomose-- 34:36.324 --> 34:38.451 Dr. Grey is leaving? 34:38.534 --> 34:39.702 Since when? 34:41.621 --> 34:42.747 [sighs] 34:45.958 --> 34:47.960 [Meredith] Okay, Helm. We're done here. 34:48.169 --> 34:50.922 You do the honors and bring the liver to Dr. Marsh. 34:51.005 --> 34:52.715 Absolutely, yes. 34:52.799 --> 34:55.843 [monitor beeping] 34:55.927 --> 34:58.054 -I approve. -What's that? 34:58.137 --> 35:00.515 Uh, you and Grey? Uh, Dr. Grey. 35:00.598 --> 35:02.350 I-- Sorry-- Never mind. Here. 35:03.101 --> 35:04.685 [Meredith] Ready to do your thing? 35:04.769 --> 35:05.853 [Nick] She's stable and ready. 35:05.937 --> 35:07.939 Let's make this old liver new again. 35:13.111 --> 35:14.445 [Kristen] Simon. 35:14.529 --> 35:16.447 Hello, forever. 35:21.786 --> 35:24.831 -How are you feeling? -Better now that you're here. 35:24.914 --> 35:26.207 ♪ Heart on the edge ♪ 35:26.290 --> 35:29.836 And... I dreamed up a name for the baby. 35:29.919 --> 35:31.087 ♪ It's bound to break ♪ 35:31.170 --> 35:32.713 Jamal. 35:33.506 --> 35:35.383 -I love it. -Mm-hmm. 35:36.050 --> 35:37.426 After your uncle? 35:37.510 --> 35:38.719 ♪ There's silence in my head ♪ 35:38.803 --> 35:40.304 No. 35:40.388 --> 35:41.514 After you. 35:42.557 --> 35:45.685 It means "beauty." 35:46.310 --> 35:48.229 [chuckles] 35:53.526 --> 35:58.489 ♪ Oh, the stars are getting dark tonight ♪ 35:58.573 --> 36:00.324 ♪ Waters rising ♪ 36:00.408 --> 36:02.160 ♪ Fires dying ♪ 36:02.618 --> 36:04.829 ♪ And here we stand ♪ 36:04.912 --> 36:06.372 ♪ At the end ♪ 36:06.455 --> 36:07.832 [Maggie] What's your blood type? 36:08.749 --> 36:09.876 What? 36:10.459 --> 36:12.712 I'm your wife, and I don't know your blood type, 36:12.795 --> 36:14.213 and I feel like that's weird. 36:14.297 --> 36:16.257 -O Positive. -A Positive. 36:16.340 --> 36:19.010 Okay. Noted. 36:19.093 --> 36:20.845 ♪ At the end ♪ 36:24.599 --> 36:26.392 Sometimes I-I feel like... 36:28.102 --> 36:31.439 I feel like we knew each other better before... 36:32.940 --> 36:35.484 when our relationship was long distance. 36:36.319 --> 36:38.029 Because of blood types? 36:38.112 --> 36:40.781 Because I'm constantly being surprised by things about you 36:40.865 --> 36:43.826 and decisions you make. 36:43.910 --> 36:47.413 Like everything you never told me about your brother, 36:47.538 --> 36:50.791 and how it makes you angrier than I think you realize. 36:50.875 --> 36:53.002 I'm not-- I'm not angry. I... 36:54.086 --> 36:55.379 ♪ Lying here in this hurt ♪ 36:55.463 --> 36:57.882 I-I am angry, but I'm not angry with you. 36:57.965 --> 36:59.508 This morning, you implied that I don't know 36:59.592 --> 37:02.094 -what it's like to have a sibling. -No, I didn't. I didn't. 37:02.178 --> 37:03.512 I said-- I said it was different. 37:03.596 --> 37:05.014 It is different. 37:05.598 --> 37:08.059 -You can't see that? -I guess I don't know what it's like 37:08.142 --> 37:09.810 to have a sibling who's a con artist. 37:09.894 --> 37:11.854 ♪ It's the bed that we made ♪ 37:11.938 --> 37:14.190 Why are you making this a fight between us? 37:14.273 --> 37:15.399 -It's not a fight. -It's not a fight. 37:15.483 --> 37:18.861 ♪ Oh, the stars are getting dark tonight ♪ 37:18.945 --> 37:21.572 I guess I just feel like, um... 37:21.656 --> 37:24.033 ♪ Waters rising ♪ 37:24.116 --> 37:25.660 ...like I don't know you. 37:25.993 --> 37:27.245 ♪ At the end ♪ 37:27.328 --> 37:28.955 And that you don't really get me. 37:29.038 --> 37:31.707 ♪ Oh, you know that you can't hide from time ♪ 37:31.791 --> 37:32.708 [sighs] 37:32.792 --> 37:34.252 Winston, I love you. I... 37:34.335 --> 37:36.963 ♪ And denied it ♪ 37:37.046 --> 37:38.047 I think maybe... 37:38.130 --> 37:39.340 ♪ Here we stand ♪ 37:39.423 --> 37:42.343 ♪ At the end ♪ 37:42.426 --> 37:44.845 Maybe we got married too quickly. 37:46.138 --> 37:48.224 ♪ At the end ♪ 37:52.228 --> 37:53.604 [thunder crashes] 37:54.522 --> 37:56.274 Can you stop pacing and help me pack? 37:56.357 --> 37:57.900 I'm trying to call Heather again. 37:57.984 --> 38:00.486 Heather made this mess. She's not gonna get you out of it. 38:00.569 --> 38:02.029 Well, maybe she can try. Or maybe-- 38:02.113 --> 38:03.364 Maybe-- Maybe-- Maybe what? 38:03.447 --> 38:04.573 Maybe we can go back in time 38:04.657 --> 38:06.659 and help you not destroy your career? 38:06.742 --> 38:08.035 Well, maybe I can go to Utah and... 38:08.119 --> 38:09.537 -Oh! -...and I can help his wife. 38:09.620 --> 38:10.955 She is a soldier, Teddy. 38:11.038 --> 38:13.582 She served our country and she deserves help! 38:13.666 --> 38:14.542 Owen, I love you. 38:14.625 --> 38:17.003 I love you and your stupid, giant heart 38:17.086 --> 38:19.380 and your-- your intense inability 38:19.463 --> 38:22.633 to see reality when you're busy believing your ideals. 38:23.050 --> 38:25.052 I love every part of you. 38:25.136 --> 38:26.929 But I am not gonna watch you go off to prison, 38:27.013 --> 38:28.764 and I am not gonna raise the kids alone. 38:28.848 --> 38:30.057 -I'm not. -So where are we going? 38:30.141 --> 38:31.767 What are we doing? We're running? 38:31.851 --> 38:34.228 Yes, we are running because that is the only option you left us. 38:34.312 --> 38:35.688 ♪ At the end ♪ 38:39.150 --> 38:40.318 Please... 38:40.693 --> 38:44.238 tell me a lunatic just entered my office 38:44.322 --> 38:47.408 and told me ridiculous lies about you. 38:47.491 --> 38:50.578 Please, tell me I need to call the police on him, 38:50.661 --> 38:53.039 and not my own doctors. 38:59.086 --> 39:02.089 You can take the specimen to pathology. Thank you. 39:02.173 --> 39:05.217 We have reperfusion of the intestines and the liver. 39:06.010 --> 39:06.969 Okay. 39:07.553 --> 39:08.929 Where's this blood coming from? 39:09.013 --> 39:10.139 [monitor beeping] 39:10.222 --> 39:11.682 It's the portal vein-- anastomosis. 39:11.766 --> 39:13.768 She's lost too much. We need to order more units. 39:13.851 --> 39:15.436 Clamp. The transfusions aren't keeping up. 39:15.519 --> 39:16.354 BP's dropping. 39:16.437 --> 39:18.731 You stole drugs from this hospital? 39:18.814 --> 39:20.483 I stand by my decision, Bailey. 39:20.566 --> 39:24.153 You stand by your decision to steal drugs from my hospital? 39:24.236 --> 39:25.905 A hospital that's already crumbling? 39:25.988 --> 39:27.073 It was a while ago-- 39:27.156 --> 39:28.991 Oh! Well, that makes it better. [chuckles] 39:29.075 --> 39:31.994 Your criminal conduct on my watch was a while ago! 39:32.078 --> 39:33.162 [Meredith] Okay, we still have to do 39:33.245 --> 39:34.330 the gastrointestinal reconstruction. 39:34.413 --> 39:35.331 [Taryn] Is there a plan? 39:35.414 --> 39:36.582 Of course there's a plan. 39:36.665 --> 39:38.000 What's her latest ABG? 39:38.084 --> 39:39.710 [Dr. Knox] She's acidotic, and PaO2 is plummeting. 39:39.794 --> 39:41.295 -What about pressors? -Maxed out. 39:41.379 --> 39:43.547 Was it so long ago that it's outside 39:43.631 --> 39:44.757 the statute of limitations? 39:44.840 --> 39:45.966 -Bailey. -[cellphone rings] 39:46.050 --> 39:47.301 -D-- -[ends call] 39:47.385 --> 39:50.179 What is the statute of limitations on murder? 39:50.262 --> 39:51.555 Huh? D-Did you look that up 39:51.639 --> 39:52.848 before you committed your crimes? 39:52.932 --> 39:54.225 This wasn't murder, Bailey. 39:54.308 --> 39:55.976 These were sick and dying soldiers. 39:56.060 --> 39:58.187 They fought for their country, and I did right by them. 39:58.270 --> 39:59.939 You did right by them. Well, what about me? 40:00.022 --> 40:02.817 Did you think, even for one minute, about me? 40:02.900 --> 40:04.151 [Taryn] Dr. Grey, what are we doing? 40:04.235 --> 40:05.111 [monitor beeping] 40:05.236 --> 40:07.279 [Ellis] That's what everyone wants in a surgeon. 40:09.073 --> 40:10.783 Someone who maybe knows what they're doing. 40:10.866 --> 40:12.868 Always have a plan. I told you that. 40:13.327 --> 40:15.204 [Nick] Meredith. Meredith. 40:15.287 --> 40:17.415 [beeping continues] 40:21.544 --> 40:23.170 -We should stop. -What?! 40:23.254 --> 40:24.880 We need blood. We don't have it. 40:24.964 --> 40:25.881 So we should stop. 40:25.965 --> 40:27.174 [cellphone rings] 40:27.258 --> 40:28.426 Is everything okay? 40:28.509 --> 40:30.761 I'm at an accident. On Henderson. 40:30.845 --> 40:32.972 Were you in the accident? 40:33.055 --> 40:34.432 No. But you kinda were. 40:34.515 --> 40:37.143 Her digestive tract still isn't completely connected. 40:37.226 --> 40:39.270 We'll reconnect it once the blood arrives. 40:39.353 --> 40:42.231 [Meredith] We've all felt it, a moment where all is lost. 40:42.314 --> 40:44.066 -What? -Whether it's in our jobs... 40:44.150 --> 40:45.651 Your blood, Miranda. 40:45.734 --> 40:46.902 It's trashed. 40:46.986 --> 40:48.612 ...family, love... 40:48.696 --> 40:50.698 -No. -...we fear everything will be taken. 40:52.283 --> 40:53.409 -No! -We close our eyes... 40:53.492 --> 40:54.702 -No! -...we bite our lips... 40:54.785 --> 40:56.370 No! No! 40:56.454 --> 40:58.622 ...and the adrenaline floods through our body. 40:58.706 --> 41:00.583 -[siren wails] -But despite how hard you try, 41:00.666 --> 41:03.294 that last-ditch attempt still may not work. 41:03.377 --> 41:07.131 [Bailey] No, no, no, no, no, no, no! 41:07.214 --> 41:12.386 [siren wailing] 41:15.931 --> 41:18.642 [theme music playing]