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MEREDITH:
When researchers studied the way

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surgeons make decisions in the O.R.,

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they found newer surgeons tend to rely
on the standard operating procedures

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they learned in school.

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I don’t like this one.

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You haven’t even seen it.
Keep an open mind.

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I did that in New York and New Hampshire.

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Brookline STEAM has one of the best
science programs in the country.

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And you know, Harvard Medical School
is just right down the street.

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I want to stay in Seattle.
It was so much better there.

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You said the kids at Sea Tech Science
were snobby.

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It wasn’t that bad.

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Are you feeling worried?
Do you need to take some deep breaths?

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No. I just want to go home.

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This isn’t a punishment.
You are an extremely gifted child.

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You are going to do great in a school

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where other kids are as gifted as you.

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We can check out the aquarium after.

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Zola, we’re in Boston.
You’re signed up to shadow.

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Let's just check it out.
So you can make an informed decision.

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To make sure I hate it.

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If you hate it, you'll never have
to go back here again. Okay?

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Let's go.

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♪ Make you move ♪

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MEREDITH: It makes sense.

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Newer surgeons have limited experience
to fall back on.

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But seasoned surgeons are more intuitive.

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They mine from years of practice
to make quick and effective decisions.

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What about in your brown jacket?
Go look. And put your dad on.

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Instead of looking for his lucky
baseball card,

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Henry could be using this time
to actually study for his math test.

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Hey. (chuckles)

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Oh, good. Crisis averted.

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Okay, babe, I'll see you tomorrow.
I love you. Bye.

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Sorry about that.

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(scoffs) I'm all too familiar
with the Mom-I-can’t-find-it emergencies.

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Was it in the brown jacket?

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Of course it was in the brown jacket.

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(chuckles)

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We know where everything is.
It’s a mom superpower.

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I mean, you’d think they’d be
more impressed that we’re doctors.

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MIRANDA: Please. Tuck couldn’t care less.

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But Cynthia is thrilled that we’re coming.

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Yeah, how do you know her again,
Med school?

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No, college.
She was my first year roommate.

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Grew up in Chicago.
I thought she was very cosmopolitan.

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How’d she wind up
running a clinic in Pullman?

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Her husband got a job teaching music
at the University.

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-She likes it?
-Well, Pullman, Washington is no Chicago,

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but she loves running the clinic.

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And she loves having a couple of doctors
coming to volunteer even more.

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Now patients from Idaho
have been flooding the place

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ever since the state restricted abortion.

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-Oh, it should be coming up here.
-(crowd clamoring)

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MEREDITH: The more experience we have,
the less likely we are to be thrown

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when we encounter complications.

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We can shift gears more easily
when it’s needed.

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MIRANDA: Oh, come on!

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(clamoring)

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Whoa.

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You're stopping a beating heart! Hey.

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You're terminating lives
and you know that.

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-Just keep moving.
-You're killing babies.

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You’re a baby killer
'cause abortion is murder!

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And you've taken oath to do no harm!

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Hey! How was the bus?

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Fine, but I took it for a reason.

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I know. Well, I can't say good morning.

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You did. Right after you woke me up
to make lunches for Ellis and Bailey.

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Hey, I really appreciate you helping out
while Meredith’s out.

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I worked three 16-hour days in a row,
I just wanted to sleep--

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Can we not talk about this here?

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Oh, I have an epidural hematoma.
Can you take him to daycare?

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-No. I have rounds.
-I have an emergency.

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I would ask any trusted intern to do this.

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And I assure you they’d be more than happy
to help the chief of neuro.

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I will let them know that you’re coming.

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Okay. Bye, baby.

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Uh...

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Uh, where's... So where’s daycare?

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Okay.

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CYNTHIA: Oh, it's so good to see you.

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So how long has this clinic been open?

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Forty-five years.

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Last year we provided more
than 2,000 patients with birth control,

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prenatal care, abortion care, STD testing,
cancer screening, pizza parties.

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Oh, come on, look outside, guys.
Let me at least crack a joke.

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Well, is seems like
there’s plenty of demand.

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Yeah, we added the construction trailer
when Roe was overturned,

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and I moved our staff offices
and break room

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so we could convert more space
for these exam rooms.

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Smart.

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Okay, Cynthia also somehow fit
a full-sized couch in our dorm room

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and a mini-fridge.

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CYNTHIA:
Yeah, well, I can figure out space.

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But without volunteers like you
coming from Seattle and Spokane,

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I’d be sunk.

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All right, put us to work.

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Okay, these are patients
who are ready to be seen.

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These are patients who have not been seen.

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(chuckles)

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I know it’s a low-tech operation,
but it somehow gets the job done.

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-Okay.
-Have fun.

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-If that couch could talk...
-(sighs) Hey, hey.

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(chuckles)

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TOM: Is this where the family reunion
is happening?

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And by family,
I mean, my #work family.

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-You want a photo? Let's get one.
-I don't, actually.

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Good Morning, Tom.
I see you haven’t changed.

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What? You might want to stop
by Ophthalmology 7th floor, East Wing,

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because I've toned the glutes and the abs.

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The Bostonians are noticing.

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Haven't heard that.

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Catherine, you look radiant as ever.
Shall we?

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-Where are you two going?
-We got a little project.

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-You want to elaborate?
-Oh, it’s none of your business.

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Well, I run the foundation,
so actually it is.

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I’ll loop you in when the time is right.

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Come on.

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Should I text you to tell you I'm here?

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Oh, hey!

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-Hi!
-What's going on? Tell me everything.

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(sighs) Can we go up to your office,

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so that I can have
my nervous breakdown in private?

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Okay, Jessica,
do you have enough prenatal vitamins?

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-They’re still free.
-I could use more.

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Okay.

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Okay, come back in two weeks, yeah?

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Great, I made all my appointments
weeks ago.

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-It’s too hard to get in here otherwise.
-All right, take good care.

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I loved my measure-and-listen
appointments

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when I was pregnant with Tuck.

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My favorite part about being an OB.

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So, what do you have so far?

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I did consults with six women
who wanted medication abortions

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and gave pills to five.

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-Does someone need a D&C?
-They changed their mind.

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-We are making progress.
-MIRANDA: Mm-hmm.

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Progress is neither swift nor easy.

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Marie Curie?

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First woman to win a Nobel Prize.
And she knew what she was talking about.

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SCOUT: Dad-o.

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Yeah, yeah. I got him, I got him.
He’s in here somewhere.

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SCOUT: Dad-o.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, I’m looking for him.
I... Here's Dad-o, here's Dad-o.

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Ye... Oh, damn it!

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Crap, I mean... Whatever. Sorry.

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(elevator dings)

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-You getting out?
-Nope. You?

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Going down.

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(elevator dings)

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Wow. (sighs)

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He’s Lincoln’s.

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And Shepherd’s. We know what’s up.

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Yeah, I’m just dropping him off
at daycare.

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Shepherd had an emergency
and needed a favor.

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I wonder what other kinds of favors
he does for her.

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What's that?

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You going to the lunch and learn today?

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-Dad-o.
-Oh, my God. He just called you Dad.

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No. No, no. It’s his dino.
He can’t say "dino."

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(elevator dings)

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-All right.
-Isn’t the daycare two floors up?

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Stairs. They’re good exercise.

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-(sighs) Oh. Same
-I miss paper.

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Except at least with e-records,
I can read my own notes.

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MIRANDA: Heh.

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I’ve got a 39-year-old
with a cesarean scar ectopic pregnancy.

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C-section scar?

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Yes, fetus can attach to the scar
in the uterine wall.

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Her OB found it on an ultrasound
this morning. He wouldn’t remove it.

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They’re in Idaho.

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It's a life-threatening case,
so it should be an exception.

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It's cardiac activity.
They didn't wanted to take the risk.

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The law is confusing. Nobody wants
to be the first one to lose their license

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-or be charged with a felony.
-All right. I’ll see her. Which room?

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Across the border in Moscow.

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She called from the OB’s parking lot.

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Also, her car won’t start.

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-You wanted to help?
-I’ll get the keys. (chuckles)

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What do you mean “panic attacks”?

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Oh, she gets dizzy, her body shakes,

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-she has trouble breathing.
-How often is this happening?

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Often enough.
I mean, her grades are slipping.

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-She can't relate to her friends.
-Because she’s scared of Alzheimer’s?

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Oh...

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I mean, she's very bright.

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And she's under-stimulated in school.

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And her mind goes
in 17 different directions at one time.

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And she's very aware that Ellis died
of Early-Onset Alzheimer's.

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And so of course, her mind goes there.

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She's afraid that I will get it,
that Maggie will get it.

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All right, so how are you handling
it out, therapy, or...

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Yes, we go to therapy once a week,
but it's not enough.

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I mean, she has a fear anxiety,
and I completely missed it.

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She was always my cheerful child.

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-I never had to worry about her.
-Relax, you didn't.

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(sighs)

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I just want to help her,
I just want to comfort her.

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I don't know what to do.
I am so exhausted. I stay up every night

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just reading pages and pages and pages
about Alzheimer's.

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Thinking, "Oh, if I cure Alzheimer's,
that can help Zola." Ridiculous.

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Makes absolutely no sense,
it's ridiculous, I know,

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but I just feel powerless.

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(sighs) I hate that feeling.

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-What if it wasn't ridiculous?
-What?

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What if you try to cure Alzheimer’s?

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ADDISON: Henry. Baseball emoji,
smiley face, sunflower.

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I’m going to interpret that as affection.

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(Miranda scoffs) Wait till he’s a teenager
and you just get letters.

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BRB, IDK,

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-and the enigmatic KK.
-Why the two K’s?

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Tuck claims it’s more respectful.

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Well, what do I know?
I’m just his chauffeur.

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Speaking of which,
I can take over driving. I like to drive.

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It’s 20 minutes to Moscow.

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I never thought I’d have to drive
across state lines to pick up a patient.

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-Feels like we’re on the lam.
-The medical Thelma and Louise.

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Didn’t they drive off a cliff?
Bonnie and Clyde.

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Shot to death.

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Bailey and Addison?

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American heroes.

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(laughs)

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Is it okay if Kyle picks her up
after five?

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I really appreciate it.

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No. No, no, no. I’ll be fine.
Yeah. You’re doing plenty.

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They're here, I gotta go.

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-Susan?
-Dr. Montgomery?

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Yes, that’s me.

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Thanks so much for the ride.

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I didn't realize the clinic
was such a full-service operation.

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Well, Dr. Bailey is also a surgeon.

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-Yeah. This is just a side hustle.
-Water?

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-SUSAN: Yes, thank you.
-MIRANDA: Seat belts.

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(seat belt clicks)

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Are you sure no one needs
an assist in the O.R. or pit?

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The square knot
is the foundation for all knots.

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Fifteen minutes a day
is a good investment in time.

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LUCAS: Damn it. Too loose.

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Yeah, your guy's still bleeding.

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Oh, I hope that's not his face.

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-Or his liver.
-Or his heart.

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(phone chimes)

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-911.
-Oh, God forbid it's someone

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-who needs stitches.
-Something good?

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-I don't know yet.
-BENSON: The pit?

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(chimes)

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Uh, yeah, something like that.

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You sure your son
hasn’t got us figured out?

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Did he seem suspicious of you?

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How can he not be?
I'm a Greek sculptor's dream.

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-They're only human.
-Please.

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Sneaking around with the boss's mom
is not gonna help my performance review.

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This is between me and you,
don't let Jackson get all up in your head.

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So, what you are saying
is we're gonna have to kill him.

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-Be serious, Tom.
-Then fine, I'll kill him myself.

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But you, you got to deal
with your husband.

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Tom, could you just please tell me
about my scans?

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It's not the news we wanted.

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So the tumor’s bigger?

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-Two millimeters.
-Two millimeters, that's nothing.

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It's not nothing, it's growing.

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-How are you feeling?
-The same.

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Mostly well, occasional pain,
two millimeters isn't worth the scars.

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Catherine.

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Two months ago we did a scan,
and we noticed your tumor had grown.

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And?

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And you said if it grew further,
you'll consider more treatment.

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-I know what I said.
-And it grew.

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Two millimeters.

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Your son thinks you're still in remission.

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-It's two millimeters.
-It's not remission.

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You need more treatment. And you need
to talk to your husband and son

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and let them know what's going on.

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And you need to remember
that my name is on this building.

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So I'll be the one to decide what I need.

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I got a text about Scout Lincoln.
Something about an accident? Is he okay?

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-He’s fine. He’s just wet.
-Oh.

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ALACIA:
We used his back-up clothes last week,

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-we never got new ones.
-Okay.

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We tried his parents,
but they’re both in surgery.

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We had your information from this morning.

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So I’m supposed to...

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A few parents have found clothes
at the gift shop.

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I’m sure you don’t want him
to be uncomfortable.

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Tina’s bringing Emily home with Colette,
so you can pick her up there after work.

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I canceled the piano lesson,

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and can you pick up fruit snacks
and Pirate’s Booty?

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It’s our week
to bring the snacks to soccer.

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Martha said she'll come get me
when I'm done.

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I’ll be fine. Love you, too. Bye.

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What’d I do with my keys?

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I had them when you picked me up, right?

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-Sorry, I don’t remember.
-Oh, don't be.

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I’m usually ready for anything,

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but ectopic pregnancy
wasn’t on my calendar.

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-It kinda threw me.
-Totally understandable.

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(laughs)

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Bracelets. My daughter makes them.

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Take one. Heck, take two, please.

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She’s made enough for everyone
this side of the Mississippi

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but it keeps her busy
when I’m trying to get ready for work.

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We get it. We have kids.
How old’s your daughter?

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Five. She turns six next week.

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-Sweet.
-She only asked for one present, a sister.

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She’s been calling the baby "Sundae"
‘cause she loves ice cream.

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I can still get pregnant
after this, right?

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It’s hard for me to know
without doing further imaging tests.

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But it's possible.

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Oh! Oh...

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-(suspenseful music playing)
-(Susan panting)

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Doctor, Montgomery...

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This is bad, right?

15:53.827 --> 15:55.746
(breathes heavily)

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(groans in pain)

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IDH inhibitors, CDK inhibitors,
immune checkpoint inhibitors...

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Please. I’m not one for inhibition.

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Historically, I've been grateful for that.
But these trials--

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-I've already done one of these.
-And it helped.

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It helped. But it made me feel
like absolute hell.

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I said I would consider more treatment,
I did, it's not what I want.

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So don’t do it for you. Do it for me.

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If you think about it,
you really owe me one.

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I'm getting help,
if that makes you feel any better.

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I met a medicine man in Bali,
I met a shaman in Peru,

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I learned all about energy medicine
and frequency medicine,

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medicines that don't make me feel
like I'm suffering.

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-That's because they don't work.
-According to you.

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I have an acupuncturist
who's done more for my pain

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than any pill you ever prescribed,

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and studies show that Reiki
will reduce pain

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and it can improve post op recovery.

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-Catherine, please...
-Tom, Tom, Tom.

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I know you mean well.

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And you've been carrying my secret.

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But this is my cancer. This is my choice.

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JACKSON: Oh, got it.

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This group of neuroscientists
from Brussels,

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they applied for a grant
to expand their research

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on the connection
between Alzheimer's and--

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Gut microbial composition.

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I've read studies on it.

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There are also some that link
gut integrity with brain plaque production

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and neuro inflammation.

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I saw this all
in the Parkinson's research.

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Of course. You already know more
than the group who applied for the grant

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since your areas of specialty,
gut and brain.

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Yeah, it's all theoretical.

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Like you didn't just do a record breaking
study on Parkinson's

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based on something
that was initially theoretical,

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come on, you should do this.

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We can help fund it,
we got facilities, equipment, tech.

17:40.601 --> 17:43.228
We have this amazing partnership
with MIT's brain science program.

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They could be a resource.

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You should just fund
the people from Brussels.

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They're not you, Meredith Grey, studying
the disease that killed her mother.

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That's a story that we've been funding
and funding is what cures diseases.

17:54.198 --> 17:57.159
This is exciting. What's...
what's going on? Where did you go?

17:57.242 --> 17:59.036
Zola was miserable this morning

17:59.119 --> 18:02.998
and I could never move to Boston
if she didn't want to.

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I mean, she's been through so much.

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So much trauma. She lost her birth family,
her birth country.

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Her father died. I almost died.

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You know, all of that stuff is...
is just now coming to the surface.

18:20.307 --> 18:22.226
I really need to focus on her.

18:23.560 --> 18:25.687
Okay, I love you both.

18:26.647 --> 18:29.650
Not exactly gonna give up
on this entirely, okay? Not just yet.

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-When did you become so relentless?
-When I took this job.

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DISPATCH: 911, what's your emergency?

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Yes, this is Doctor Miranda Bailey.
I have a 39-year-old female

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with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy
on a cesarean scar.

18:46.667 --> 18:49.378
She’s alert and oriented,
but hemorrhaging.

18:49.461 --> 18:52.589
Pulse is weak.
Abdomen is rigid and distended.

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We are in a Blue Grey Sloan van
on a Highway 270.

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-Can you send an ambulance?
-On its way.

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Thank you. How’s it going back there?

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Okay. It's gonna be okay, Susan.

19:04.726 --> 19:07.604
-What are you looking for?
-Uterine Balloon Tamponade.

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-I don't find one in there.
-My OB just said I was okay.

19:10.357 --> 19:14.862
Well, it’s difficult to predict if or when
an ectopic pregnancy will rupture, Susan.

19:14.945 --> 19:17.698
This is like a lot of blood.
Is this a lot of blood?

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Pregnancy embraided the muscle layers
and lightly tore up in the uterus incision

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-which is why we have to-- Ha!
-What is that?

19:24.663 --> 19:25.706
Holy Catherine.

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I insert this into your vagina
and inflate it,

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the pressure against your uterus
will slow the bleeding. Is that okay?

19:32.254 --> 19:34.548
-Is it safe?
-Safer than letting you keep bleeding.

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Yeah. Okay, do it. Just make it stop.

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-Okay, I’m inserting it.
-SUSAN: Okay.

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Try to hold still, Bailey,
no sudden moves.

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Could I have prevented this
if I didn’t get the C-section?

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You didn’t do anything wrong.
C-sections are safe.

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This kind of ectopic pregnancy's
extremely rare.

19:50.564 --> 19:53.692
You doing okay? Okay, I’m going
to inflate the balloon now.

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You're gonna feel
a little bit of pressure.

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Hold still, you got it.

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(whines)

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Okay. That should buy us
a little bit of time.

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How much time?

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It's okay.

20:15.797 --> 20:17.633
-CLERK: Do you want a bag?
-Nah, I’m good.

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SIMONE: Good luck with that.
I asked Schmitt for a day off,

20:19.885 --> 20:21.637
he looked at me like I killed his dog.

20:21.720 --> 20:24.389
-Bag, bag, I need a bag.
-MIKA: Oh, hey, Skywalker!

20:24.806 --> 20:28.227
-Hey. What are you doing here?
-Getting snacks.

20:28.310 --> 20:30.979
Apparently the vending machine
is too low brow for Dr. Kwan.

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-Yogurt covered pretzels?
-I need brain food. Cashews and almonds.

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Oh, is that what powers that ego?

20:37.694 --> 20:39.112
-What are you doing?
-Same.

20:39.196 --> 20:41.949
-That's $32.75.
-Wow, that is a lot of snacks.

20:42.032 --> 20:43.242
Uh...

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Geez, I forgot my wallet in my locker.

20:46.161 --> 20:47.329
I'll spot you.

20:47.412 --> 20:49.248
But I get your next appy.

20:49.331 --> 20:50.791
Hey, that’s my--

20:50.874 --> 20:53.418
Ho-ho-ho! Wow.

20:53.502 --> 20:56.630
I may be wrong,
but I think these are a little too small.

20:56.713 --> 20:58.423
They’re not for me. They’re for the--

20:58.507 --> 21:01.093
Let me guess, Daddy Daycare?

21:02.803 --> 21:05.055
-Oh, Schmitt.
-Oh, Schmitt.

21:06.306 --> 21:09.935
It’s okay. I’ll let him know
that you have child care issues.

21:12.729 --> 21:15.440
Should I get another bag, or--

21:16.692 --> 21:20.028
Yeah, and you were interested in neuro
and you set that aside for Derek.

21:20.112 --> 21:22.948
Well, it was a bit more complicated
than that.

21:23.031 --> 21:26.285
Like how hard it was to chose
general surgery because of Ellis?

21:26.618 --> 21:28.495
I wish I could make one decision
in my life

21:28.578 --> 21:30.247
where people didn't bring Ellis into it.

21:31.331 --> 21:34.501
Couple of years ago, I actually
got to spend some time with my father.

21:35.002 --> 21:37.838
Realized my entire life,
he had loomed so large.

21:38.046 --> 21:40.173
He was this mountain of a man,

21:40.257 --> 21:42.426
and spending some time with him,
I realized he was just some guy.

21:42.509 --> 21:45.470
Wasted potential, regrets, flaws.

21:45.804 --> 21:46.763
You didn't wanna be like him.

21:46.847 --> 21:48.724
Scary part is I wasn't that different,

21:48.807 --> 21:50.392
I mean, I was living in cruise control.

21:50.475 --> 21:52.436
You know, I wasn't fulling my potential.

21:52.894 --> 21:55.022
Feeling that similarity to him is painful

21:55.105 --> 21:57.399
but it also propelled me forward,
I mean, I'm happier here.

21:57.858 --> 21:59.359
Doing something I'm passionate about.

21:59.985 --> 22:03.030
Maybe it's not an accident that you're
up all night researching Alzheimer’s.

22:03.113 --> 22:04.948
I mean, you're feeling
so much pain about Zola,

22:05.032 --> 22:07.367
maybe it's all these pieces
of your life coming together.

22:08.076 --> 22:12.122
I kinda think you're having
a breakthrough, rather than a breakdown.

22:12.205 --> 22:13.290
Relentless.

22:13.373 --> 22:15.584
No, I'm just being a friend.

22:15.917 --> 22:19.671
I hadn't seen you push through
so many things before and ignore them.

22:19.755 --> 22:22.257
I'm just saying that this might be
something that you wanna push through.

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Think you should let it help you grow.

22:25.886 --> 22:28.555
Once upon a time,
I did want to cure Alzheimer’s.

22:28.638 --> 22:29.514
Exactly.

22:29.598 --> 22:30.682
What if it fails?

22:30.766 --> 22:32.809
-Oh, it's probably gonna fail. (chuckles)
-Right.

22:32.893 --> 22:34.478
But I mean you could
definitely move the needle.

22:34.895 --> 22:36.438
That means something Zola sees

22:36.521 --> 22:39.566
that her mom is doing everything she can
to cure Alzheimer’s,

22:39.649 --> 22:40.776
and that's pretty amazing.

22:48.075 --> 22:50.410
Can you see an accident? An ambulance?

22:50.494 --> 22:51.703
No.

22:51.787 --> 22:54.081
Nothing. How much longer
will the catheter hold?

22:54.164 --> 22:55.332
I'm not sure.

22:55.665 --> 22:57.000
Susan.

22:57.084 --> 22:58.835
Susan, stay with me, yeah?

22:59.127 --> 23:01.254
Okay, talk to me. Tell me, um...

23:01.797 --> 23:03.924
Tell me about Emily’s birthday party.

23:04.007 --> 23:05.425
It’s a spa-party.

23:06.218 --> 23:08.220
I don’t know where she got the idea,

23:08.303 --> 23:11.932
but her teenage cousins are coming
to paint the kids’ nails.

23:12.641 --> 23:15.268
And she wants a coffee cake.

23:15.352 --> 23:17.479
Like the kind from her school.

23:17.562 --> 23:18.438
(heavy breathing)

23:18.522 --> 23:21.525
I... I haven't baked it yet.

23:22.234 --> 23:24.528
I need to be okay.

23:24.611 --> 23:26.696
I need to bake her cake.

23:27.072 --> 23:30.117
I want to see her turn six.

23:30.200 --> 23:36.206
I want to see her lose her front teeth
and learn how to read.

23:36.289 --> 23:40.377
I... I want to teach her how to drive

23:40.877 --> 23:43.463
and send her off to prom.

23:43.547 --> 23:46.383
I want to drop her off at college

23:46.758 --> 23:51.596
and miss her every day
till she comes home for summer.

23:52.431 --> 23:54.724
I... I want to...

23:54.808 --> 23:57.811
I want to watch her fall in love,

23:57.894 --> 24:03.191
I want to see her
start her first real job.

24:03.817 --> 24:07.863
I want to be there for all of it, okay?

24:09.281 --> 24:14.286
I'm not ready to go. I’m not ready to go.

24:14.369 --> 24:15.704
I'm not ready...

24:15.787 --> 24:16.788
(pants)

24:16.872 --> 24:18.248
Susan.

24:19.124 --> 24:20.167
Susan.

24:22.252 --> 24:23.462
What?

24:23.545 --> 24:25.213
I can't feel a pulse. I’m starting CPR.

24:25.297 --> 24:27.090
I’m pulling over.

24:28.675 --> 24:30.385
DISPATCH: 911, what's your emergency?

24:30.469 --> 24:32.804
MIRANDA: This is Doctor Miranda Bailey
calling again

24:32.888 --> 24:35.724
about a patient hemorrhaging
from a ruptured ectopic pregnancy.

24:35.807 --> 24:37.184
on Highway 270.

24:37.267 --> 24:39.436
She's coding. We're starting CPR.

24:39.519 --> 24:41.313
We need immediate help!

24:41.396 --> 24:44.357
DISPATCH: We dispatched an ambulance,
but there's a significant accident.

24:44.441 --> 24:46.443
Road is stopped in both directions.

24:46.526 --> 24:48.069
Hopefully we'll be there soon.

24:49.696 --> 24:54.784
♪ What's gonna leave? What's gonna stay? ♪

24:55.785 --> 25:00.415
♪ It's gotten hard for me
To recognize myself ♪

25:01.291 --> 25:05.795
♪ Think I was born in this disguise ♪

25:07.714 --> 25:12.219
♪ Staring down at the hand
That I've been dealt ♪

25:13.803 --> 25:17.390
♪ Trying to see through different eyes ♪

25:17.891 --> 25:19.976
MIRANDA: She's bleeding into her abdomen.

25:21.186 --> 25:22.979
She's in hypovolemic shock.

25:23.897 --> 25:27.317
The compressions won't do anything
without giving her more blood.

25:28.026 --> 25:29.778
If I stop, her heart stops.

25:31.029 --> 25:33.031
-She has no pulse.
-I'm not stopping.

25:33.114 --> 25:36.201
-Addison, she’s gone.
-No, no.

25:36.284 --> 25:37.327
Addison.

25:38.119 --> 25:41.623
♪ What a time, what a time, what a time ♪

25:44.167 --> 25:47.712
♪ What a time, what a time, what a time ♪

25:49.089 --> 25:54.886
♪ Mm, mm, mm, mm ♪

25:54.970 --> 25:57.973
♪ Mm, mm, mm ♪

25:58.056 --> 25:59.099
♪ Ooh ♪

25:59.182 --> 26:00.183
(sniffles)

26:01.851 --> 26:04.688
Time of death, 13:34.

26:04.771 --> 26:07.065
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

26:07.148 --> 26:12.946
♪ Mm, mm, mm, mm ♪

26:13.029 --> 26:17.993
♪ Mm, mm, mm, mm ♪

26:21.871 --> 26:23.415
TOM: That stuff keep you up at night?

26:23.498 --> 26:25.417
CATHERINE: Herbal tea, no caffeine.

26:25.500 --> 26:28.962
No, I meant consistently lying
to your friends and family.

26:29.045 --> 26:32.424
Tom, I thought we were done
with this conversation.

26:32.507 --> 26:35.927
Well, persistence is part of my charm.
You can’t fault me...

26:36.761 --> 26:39.931
for trying. My friend's life is at stake.

26:40.640 --> 26:43.143
I spent the last six months
traveling abroad,

26:43.226 --> 26:45.645
and everywhere I went,
all I thought was,

26:45.729 --> 26:48.690
“Thank God I'm not in an oncology ward.”

26:49.107 --> 26:51.026
If I stay the course without chemo,

26:51.109 --> 26:55.697
I'll have a few good years left.
I want to spend them living.

26:57.198 --> 27:00.744
Cancer gets more aggressive,
or there’s some promising new option,

27:00.827 --> 27:02.203
maybe I'll change my mind.

27:03.788 --> 27:05.123
But if I'm going to be stuck
in a hospital,

27:05.206 --> 27:07.709
I want it to be as a doctor,
not as a patient.

27:09.294 --> 27:12.505
At some point,
everyone is gonna know you lied.

27:12.589 --> 27:14.674
How about we just let Jackson

27:14.758 --> 27:16.009
-and... Okay, Richard.
-No!

27:16.092 --> 27:20.221
Tom, this conversation with you
is exhausting enough.

27:20.305 --> 27:22.390
I'm not gonna have it with anyone else.

27:22.474 --> 27:26.478
I am lying to protect my privacy
and to protect my peace.

27:26.561 --> 27:28.063
I’m happy with this decision.

27:30.231 --> 27:31.733
You know what, I’m not even going to ask.

27:31.816 --> 27:32.901
There’s nothing to know.

27:32.984 --> 27:34.861
How about if you’re ready to go?
Can I ask that?

27:34.944 --> 27:35.987
You cutting out early?

27:36.071 --> 27:38.448
Harriet has ballet. I told her she could
just wait at the recital, but--

27:38.531 --> 27:40.825
Wait, child, please. I’m here.

27:40.909 --> 27:43.703
Let's go, I don’t want to miss anything.

27:51.002 --> 27:53.546
Dr. Kwan, have you seen Adams?

27:53.630 --> 27:55.757
Oh, last I saw him,
he was at the gift shop...

27:56.466 --> 27:57.759
buying clothes for your son.

27:59.594 --> 28:01.680
Don’t worry. Your secret’s safe.

28:01.763 --> 28:03.723
Oh, you know?

28:03.807 --> 28:06.351
About you two? It looks pretty obvious.

28:06.434 --> 28:07.602
Is it?

28:07.686 --> 28:10.313
Yeah, when you see you together.

28:10.397 --> 28:12.190
You know, it might be less obvious
if you gave the rest of us

28:12.273 --> 28:13.566
some more neuro cases.

28:15.694 --> 28:18.822
Do you have a special interest
in neuro, Dr. Kwan?

28:20.990 --> 28:23.493
I have a special interest in gaining
as much experience as I can

28:23.576 --> 28:25.995
before I declare an area
of special interest.

28:26.079 --> 28:29.666
I also have steady hands
and many skills in other areas

28:29.749 --> 28:32.043
if your interests are... expansive.

28:33.461 --> 28:35.922
You think I’m playing favorites with Lucas
because he’s my--

28:36.005 --> 28:38.341
Dr. Shepherd, I need a consult.

28:42.762 --> 28:45.098
-Is there supposed to be a patient?
-Can I tell you something?

28:45.181 --> 28:48.643
Okay. Oh, hey, I’m glad you finally told
the other interns about us, by the way.

28:48.727 --> 28:49.728
They think we’re together.

28:51.229 --> 28:52.397
Together like...

28:53.022 --> 28:54.441
dating? (chuckles)

28:55.859 --> 28:57.402
More like sleeping together.

28:57.902 --> 29:03.199
(scoffs) What? How? Why? Why? Why?

29:03.283 --> 29:04.951
I don't know. They assume things.

29:07.245 --> 29:08.872
Did you tell them that they’re wrong?

29:09.289 --> 29:12.292
Lucas! You have to tell them! Oh, my God!

29:12.375 --> 29:15.044
Kwan was just offering me sexual favors
in exchange for surgeries!

29:15.128 --> 29:17.255
What... I might throw up.

29:17.338 --> 29:18.298
But I just--

29:18.381 --> 29:19.841
No. No, no. There’s no "but."

29:19.924 --> 29:22.218
You have no idea
how fast rumors spread around here.

29:22.302 --> 29:24.429
I don't want people thinking
that I am dating my nephew.

29:24.512 --> 29:25.722
Just sleeping together.

29:25.805 --> 29:27.932
Stop saying that! Just... Ugh!

29:29.642 --> 29:30.769
Fix it!

29:39.986 --> 29:41.696
♪ Six feet ♪

29:41.780 --> 29:44.073
-How long has it been going?
-Thirty-two seconds.

29:44.532 --> 29:45.742
Maybe we'll get to a minute!

29:45.825 --> 29:49.704
♪ It's just like the one
That you showed me in Oakland ♪

29:49.788 --> 29:52.373
♪ Thought you were joking
But I shoulda seen it comin' to me... ♪

29:52.457 --> 29:54.167
-Hey.
-Hi.

29:54.250 --> 29:55.251
This looks so cool.

29:55.335 --> 29:58.254
It’s a gyroscope. The spinning wheel
is creating angular momentum

29:58.338 --> 29:59.589
when it's going so fast.

29:59.672 --> 30:02.300
When you apply force, it changes momentum
in multiple directions,

30:02.383 --> 30:03.593
not just linear.

30:03.676 --> 30:05.512
That's what keeps it upright.
It’s physics.

30:05.595 --> 30:07.472
It certainly is.

30:07.555 --> 30:10.141
-♪ And it still keeps me up at night ♪
-(laughs)

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WOMAN: Sonata!

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My mom's here. We’ve gotta go.

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Bye, Zola! Hope to see you again.

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-Bye, Matisse. Bye, Sonata.
-MEREDITH: Bye-bye.

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♪ Barely on my mind ♪

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♪ Sinkin' in your teeth ♪

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♪ Actin' like you're sweet, car crash ♪

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They seem so nice.

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How was it?

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-It was okay.
-Just okay, huh?

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ZOLA: Can we go to the aquarium now?

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MEREDITH: Yes, are you hungry?

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♪ It's barely on my mind ♪

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Excuse me.
They said you're her doctors.

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We treated her today.

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I’m looking for records, scans,
anything that might help with the reports.

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Well, you're gonna have to talk
to her OB in Idaho.

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And while you're at it,
you might wanna ask him

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why he refused to treat her.

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He was following the law,
just like this gentleman is doing.

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Right. No, you're right.
It’s the lawmakers.

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They should actually be made
to come out here.

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Yeah, have a look
at the carnage they've caused,

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Take a look at all the blood. I mean...

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how are we supposed to be doctors?

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How are we supposed to treat patients?

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We’re hamstrung by laws that are written

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by people that are so far away from this.

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I even have a medical degree.

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I have decades of experience
treating pregnancies.

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What experience do they have?
Why do they get to decide?

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No, it’s wrong, and it's infuriating!

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I am infuriated! Okay?

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Women's lives are on the line,
and our hands...

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that are trained to help them...

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Our hands are tied.

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It's...

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Oh...

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He wants to stick around a little longer
in case we need to answer more questions.

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We've answered everything. Twice.

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I know, but they are about to tell
her husband he's lost his wife.

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And then he's gonna need to tell his child
she's lost her mom.

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I would like to be here for that.

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(sighs)

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If this is the future, it’s bleak.

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You know, I’ve always supported
the right to choose,

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but I, just, you know, personally I...

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believed it wasn’t the choice for me.

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But then I got pregnant. A girl.

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And then I miscarried.

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Oh, Miranda, I’m so sorry.

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And to add insult to injury,
the miscarriage was incomplete.

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So I needed a procedure
to prevent infection.

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Now, I did not choose an abortion.
But I've had a D&C.

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It is the same procedure.

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And I’m worried
doctors are afraid to use it.

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I’m worried the next generation
won't get enough training on it.

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I’m worried that is our future.

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I want to offer it at Grey Sloan.
Train anyone who wants it,

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I... I want to prepare

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healthcare professionals to help.

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That's an excellent plan.

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Yeah, I know,
and it won't be nearly enough.

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You take care of business?

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No, I...

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-Lucas, it's your mess. Clean it up.
-LUCAS: Um...

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Wh... My mess? Do you know
why all the interns think we’re a couple?

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You follow me into on-call rooms,

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you hover over me with apartment listings,

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you got me on daddy daycare with Scout.

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I asked you for help with one thing,

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don't blow my cover at work.
And you've refused to do it.

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So...

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that makes it okay to tell people
that we're sleeping together?

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I didn't tell anybody anything.

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It's not my job
to correct people's misconceptions.

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Yes, it is.

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You were an intern, I am an attending,

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there are rules
about these things for a reason.

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We're not actually together!

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They don't know that.

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All my life, everyone's always assumed

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that I only get anywhere
because of my family connections.

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And all my life, I’ve been my family’s
biggest disappointment.

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I haven’t lived up to anybody’s
expectations as a Shepherd,

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so I thought I’d see what happens
when I’m not one.

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But now,
thanks to your lack of discretion,

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everyone believes we're connected,
just in a different way.

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A way that is admittedly disturbing,
but for this particular purpose, better.

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You have three days.

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And then if you haven't told them, I will.

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(sighs)

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So when does the clinic open?

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A couple of days.

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I'm already thinking of how to expand.

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I want to do more, too. I, uh...

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I have to do more.

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You will. From L.A.

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No, no, I wanna...

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I want to go to places
where people need me.

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Places like Pullman, you know?

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I mean, I can't just sit.

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I have a unique set of skills,
I know I can make a difference, I...

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guess I just need to look at a map.

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Southern Illinois?

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It's right near Missouri...

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Arkansas, Tennessee,
Kentucky, Mississippi...

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All states that have abortion bans.

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They're expected up to 14,000 women
to cross state lines for care.

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Yeah? How do you know that?

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'Cause I thought about doing it, too.

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But I got the baby girl,

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she recently lost her father, so...

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she needs me at home.

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But you, though, you go, you go,

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and give more women access to care.

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I just...

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Susan, it's just...

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No, okay, stop.

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You know you did everything you could
for her under the circumstances.

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No, you...

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You needed the right tools,
the right supplies.

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You needed an ultrasound. You needed...

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What?

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-The PRT.
-Huh?

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No, okay, so my husband,
he convinced the fire department

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that he needed this O.R.
on wheels, but it...

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Okay, the city sidelined it,
so we helped fund it,

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and now it just sits
in the motorpool collecting dust.

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Oh, I can think
of a much better use for it.

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You said you like driving?

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Come on.

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MEREDITH: With enough practice,
surgeons learn how and when to pivot

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from standard operating procedures.

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-Well, do you like the lobster roll?
-Mm-hmm.

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Did you know,
lobsters can be yellow or blue?

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Just depends
on their pigment protein.

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Hmm?

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Did you learn that at the aquarium?

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Brookline STEAM has a marine science lab.

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MEREDITH: Experience gives us more context
to know when we need a different approach.

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It gives us more options
to help our patients.

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I saw you laughing.

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I saw you making friends.

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Why don't you like it there?

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What if we move
and I still have panic attacks?

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Or I fail school?

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You will not fail.

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And you're going to continue the therapy.

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But we'll have left Seattle for nothing.
And you'll have given up your job.

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Zola, let me worry about that.

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That's my job.

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You run a hospital.
People depend on you.

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What if I told you Uncle Jackson
offered me a job here in Boston?

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Working on a cure for Alzheimer’s?

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♪ We're golden ♪

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What if...

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What if I decide
I don't wanna be a doctor?

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That's completely fine.

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Really? You wouldn't be disappointed?

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Not at all.

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You are so intelligent and so creative,

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and you are going to make your mark
no matter what you do.

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You think so?

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I know so.

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You have always been
and will always be extraordinary.

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So?

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Is it Brookline STEAM?

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Mom...

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I love it here.
I want to sign up for the robotics team.

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They do this competition at MIT,
and last year, they won first place.

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And I want be in the orchestra.

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Can I please take cello lessons
when we move?

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You can, you can take cello lessons.
When we move.

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MEREDITH: One-size-fits-all solutions
don’t always work.

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(laughter)

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Every patient is different.

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Just like every person is different.

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♪ And we're only ♪

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We each have various factors to consider
when facing life’s big decisions.

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♪ And we're only
We're only at the start ♪

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So we gather the facts,
we analyze the options...

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And we use our knowledge and experience...

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♪ And we're only
We're only at the start ♪

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(chimes)

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♪ A new day is dawning ♪

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(chimes)

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♪ Oh, a new day has just begun
I got hope here in my heart ♪

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MEREDITH: ...to make the choices
that are right for us.

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♪ And we're only
We're only at the start ♪