WEBVTT 00:01.001 --> 00:02.877 [Meredith] Previously on Grey's Anatomy... 00:02.961 --> 00:04.087 What if it wasn't ridiculous? 00:04.170 --> 00:06.214 -What? -What if you try to cure Alzheimer's? 00:06.297 --> 00:08.508 Should I anticipate any goodbye emails from you? 00:08.591 --> 00:09.551 I don't know. 00:09.634 --> 00:11.970 Tessa's, like, Seattle Royalty, man. I grew up on her stories. 00:12.053 --> 00:13.847 [Tessa] I do have another story to tell. 00:13.930 --> 00:16.182 Tessa and the Rising Sun. 00:17.308 --> 00:18.685 I'm sorry, we can't. 00:19.728 --> 00:21.271 [Nick] You don't consider me part of your life? 00:21.354 --> 00:22.439 'Course you're part of my life. 00:22.522 --> 00:23.940 You took the Boston job without even talking to me. 00:24.024 --> 00:25.942 I love Cardio, but I love you more. 00:26.026 --> 00:27.652 Guess I'm not sure that I respect that. 00:27.736 --> 00:28.987 [thunder rumbles, crash] 00:29.070 --> 00:30.071 [yells] 00:32.824 --> 00:35.160 [instrumental music playing] 00:39.998 --> 00:42.459 [Meredith] One of the greatest frustrations surgeons have 00:42.542 --> 00:45.336 are the unrealistic expectations of our patients... 00:45.462 --> 00:46.546 Whoa! 00:47.172 --> 00:50.300 No! No! No! 00:50.383 --> 00:52.552 No! No. 00:52.635 --> 00:53.970 No, no, no! 00:54.054 --> 00:57.265 [Meredith] ...whether they're acutely ill or they've been sick for years. 00:57.348 --> 01:01.352 No, no, no. Oh, my God. 01:01.436 --> 01:02.771 No. 01:02.854 --> 01:04.564 [Meredith] By the time they're on the surgical table, 01:04.647 --> 01:05.607 they're hoping for a miracle. 01:05.690 --> 01:06.649 Thanks for the ride. 01:06.733 --> 01:08.693 -Get out. I'm late. -So am I. 01:09.527 --> 01:12.989 [Meredith] But often, surgery is just the beginning of the healing 01:13.073 --> 01:14.491 rather than the end. 01:14.574 --> 01:16.159 Because for weeks or months post-op, 01:16.242 --> 01:19.662 people have to learn how to live without the part of their body we've just removed. 01:19.746 --> 01:21.998 -[Simone] You're late. -[Mika] Not as late as you. 01:22.082 --> 01:25.085 [Meredith] And that's not always easy, and it's never painless. 01:25.835 --> 01:29.672 So surgery is not the happily ever after our patients hope it will be. 01:29.756 --> 01:32.383 Like everything else in life, it's an evolution. 01:32.467 --> 01:33.885 Now, remember what I said to you. 01:33.968 --> 01:37.305 We're going to take these gifts and go visit your old daycare teachers. 01:37.388 --> 01:39.516 They're going to be very excited to see you. 01:39.599 --> 01:40.892 Do you remember where you were going? 01:41.267 --> 01:42.393 Mom, I'm not a baby. 01:42.477 --> 01:44.395 -Same, Mom. -Okay! 01:45.230 --> 01:47.398 -[Amelia] Hey! -[Maggie] Look who's here. 01:47.482 --> 01:49.526 -Hi! -Big last day! 01:49.609 --> 01:52.779 Yeah, we're trying to forget all that and act like everything is super normal. 01:52.862 --> 01:54.447 -How are we doing? -Not great. 01:54.531 --> 01:55.573 How's the new place? 01:55.657 --> 01:56.866 [Amelia] It is great. 01:56.950 --> 01:59.244 It is weird to live alone when I don't have Scout, 01:59.327 --> 02:00.912 but I feel very grown up. 02:00.995 --> 02:02.956 Do you have any surgeries I can watch today? 02:03.039 --> 02:03.915 Zola-- 02:03.998 --> 02:06.417 I might have a very excellent one with Uncle Winston 02:06.501 --> 02:08.545 in OR 2 if your mom says it's okay. 02:08.628 --> 02:09.796 Mom, please? 02:09.879 --> 02:12.340 It's okay. If anyone asks, I don't know where you are. 02:14.134 --> 02:16.427 Link. Hi. Hey. 02:16.511 --> 02:18.638 Do you, do you have a busy schedule today? 02:18.721 --> 02:21.516 Actually, no. I've carved out my whole day to catch up on charting. 02:21.599 --> 02:23.893 -I am buried in-- -I need you to pick up a cake by noon. 02:24.519 --> 02:25.979 -[sighs] -This bakery's across town. 02:26.062 --> 02:28.481 -It's for Meredith. -Does she like faraway cake? 02:28.565 --> 02:31.192 It's her favorite. It's the triple berry with the buttercream. 02:31.276 --> 02:33.653 I would do it myself but the baby that I delivered 02:33.736 --> 02:35.238 two weeks ago with a malformed heart, 02:35.321 --> 02:39.075 he's having heart surgery today and his parents are very attached to me. 02:39.159 --> 02:41.411 And-- And you love me, so please help. 02:41.953 --> 02:43.288 That is true. 02:44.664 --> 02:46.499 -I do love you. -Thank you. 02:49.210 --> 02:53.131 You're all rounding with Doctors Ndugu and Pierce. 02:53.214 --> 02:56.593 They are breaking new surgical ground, and it is a privilege 02:56.676 --> 02:57.886 that they have invited-- 02:57.969 --> 03:00.346 Sorry, my car broke down. Had to get a ride with my sister. 03:00.430 --> 03:02.265 Yeah, my car got towed and it's also my house. 03:02.348 --> 03:06.269 Do you know who else wasn't punctual? Taryn Helm wasn't punctual. 03:06.644 --> 03:08.396 Despite being an excellent surgeon and now, 03:08.479 --> 03:11.107 you can find her throwing her life away 03:11.191 --> 03:12.483 bartending across the street. 03:12.567 --> 03:14.736 There's a surgeon bartending at Joe's? 03:15.195 --> 03:18.031 -Why? -Because she burnt out, that's why. 03:18.114 --> 03:20.825 So hydrate and sleep 03:20.909 --> 03:23.745 and lean on your friends and take a break 03:23.828 --> 03:25.788 and get a good therapist. 03:25.872 --> 03:27.707 And be on time! 03:27.790 --> 03:30.710 Unless you want to wind up like Helm, wasting your talents, 03:30.793 --> 03:33.004 your family's investment, your futures. 03:33.087 --> 03:34.797 Does she know you're throwing shade behind her back? 03:36.299 --> 03:37.425 [sighs] 03:40.094 --> 03:42.055 [indistinct PA announcement] 03:46.726 --> 03:51.064 Meadow, Will, we're a teaching hospital, and these are our first-years. 03:51.147 --> 03:53.107 Is it okay if they stay? You can say no. 03:53.191 --> 03:54.943 Uh, that should be okay. 03:55.026 --> 03:56.152 Baby? 03:57.946 --> 03:59.364 -[baby wails] -Okay. 04:02.825 --> 04:03.993 Dr. Kwan. 04:06.120 --> 04:09.374 Uh... Arlo Fischer, delivered by Dr. Wilson two weeks ago, 04:09.457 --> 04:12.252 and diagnosed with truncus arteriosus and VSD. 04:12.335 --> 04:14.504 He's been listed for transplant for heart failure, 04:14.587 --> 04:16.798 and he was placed on ECMO a week ago. 04:16.881 --> 04:19.467 Arlo's deterioration is sending him into organ failure. 04:19.550 --> 04:22.136 We got a call from UNOS last night that there is a match. 04:22.220 --> 04:24.138 But the procurement team reported 04:24.222 --> 04:26.266 that the donor heart muscle is weak 04:26.349 --> 04:27.850 and not suitable for transplantation. 04:27.934 --> 04:31.187 [Winston] But, Dr. Pierce and I believe that we can still make use of the heart 04:31.271 --> 04:33.856 if we transplant only the two major arteries. 04:33.940 --> 04:36.317 So it's a partial heart transplant. Has that ever been done before? 04:36.401 --> 04:38.194 No, this will be the first. 04:38.403 --> 04:39.529 [Meadow siffs] 04:39.988 --> 04:42.740 I don't understand. Why can't we just wait on another heart? 04:42.824 --> 04:45.326 [Maggie] Meadow, it could take months to find another match. 04:45.410 --> 04:47.620 Arlo cannot stand ECMO for that long. 04:47.704 --> 04:49.872 Baby, she's saying partial is better than nothing. 04:49.956 --> 04:51.833 We know this is frightening, but if this works, 04:51.916 --> 04:54.294 these valves will grow with him for the rest of his life. 04:54.377 --> 04:57.547 And he won't need a heart transplant or any other additional surgeries. 04:57.630 --> 05:00.591 "If this works." What if it doesn't work? 05:01.342 --> 05:03.886 He dies. My baby dies. 05:03.970 --> 05:04.887 No. 05:06.014 --> 05:07.932 [Maggie] We want to give you some time to think about it. 05:08.474 --> 05:12.770 We really do believe that this is Arlo's best option at this point. 05:14.355 --> 05:15.732 [sobbing] 05:17.859 --> 05:20.653 -Can you... -I can stay, yes. Of course. 05:20.737 --> 05:21.779 -Thank you, Doctor. -Yeah. 05:31.331 --> 05:32.623 [knock on door] 05:32.790 --> 05:33.833 Come in. 05:37.754 --> 05:39.380 -Hi. -Hi. 05:39.464 --> 05:40.923 Heard it's your last day. 05:41.007 --> 05:41.924 It is. 05:43.634 --> 05:44.886 Thanks for coming. 05:44.969 --> 05:46.137 I went by the house. 05:46.804 --> 05:48.473 It's nice to see it's still standing. 05:48.556 --> 05:50.641 There's a giant hole where the attic used to be. 05:50.725 --> 05:52.977 They spent the last two weeks stabilizing the place, 05:53.061 --> 05:55.688 but everything still reeks of smoke. It's-- 05:55.772 --> 05:56.898 How are the kids? 05:56.981 --> 05:59.150 Zola's excited to start at our new school. 05:59.233 --> 06:01.277 I think Bailey and Ellis are sad to leave. 06:01.903 --> 06:03.071 I called, you know. 06:03.154 --> 06:04.113 I know. 06:05.281 --> 06:10.828 This has been a lot. A fire, living in a hotel, moving... 06:10.912 --> 06:12.163 No, I know it's been a lot. But what was your plan? 06:12.246 --> 06:14.165 You were just gonna leave and not call me back? 06:14.248 --> 06:16.334 And you're gonna move across the country without a conversation? 06:16.417 --> 06:18.378 I-- I don't get that. 06:18.461 --> 06:20.380 -I don't. -I didn't know what to say. 06:20.463 --> 06:21.297 I moved here to be with you. 06:21.381 --> 06:24.592 Yes, I took a job, but I moved here to be with you. 06:24.675 --> 06:27.261 You didn't say it back. 06:28.304 --> 06:29.639 I didn't say what back? 06:29.722 --> 06:30.598 You-- 06:31.516 --> 06:32.433 What? 06:33.434 --> 06:34.811 I said, "I love you." 06:34.894 --> 06:38.272 You were standing exactly in that spot where you are right now. 06:38.356 --> 06:41.109 I said "I love you." You didn't say it back. 06:41.192 --> 06:43.986 You had just taken a job at my hospital. 06:44.070 --> 06:47.949 I thought, I had hoped, that we were going to pick it up 06:48.032 --> 06:49.700 right where we left off. 06:49.784 --> 06:54.539 But you seem to want to take it slow, so it did not occur to me 06:54.622 --> 06:57.250 to confer with you about me moving. 06:57.333 --> 06:59.001 Okay, so wait, wait, wait, whoa. 06:59.085 --> 07:02.004 This... So this is on me? This whole thing, it's my fault? 07:02.088 --> 07:03.214 That is not what I just said. 07:03.297 --> 07:06.008 I didn't do and say exactly what you thought I should do and say 07:06.092 --> 07:07.593 on exactly your timeline. 07:07.677 --> 07:09.720 So this whole mess is my fault. That's what you're saying? 07:09.804 --> 07:10.763 That is not what I said. 07:10.847 --> 07:13.599 No, no. No. Nope. I can't. 07:13.683 --> 07:14.559 I can't. 07:20.064 --> 07:22.442 [intense music playing] 07:29.657 --> 07:32.827 So, essentially, we will take out the truncus 07:32.910 --> 07:34.162 and the malformed artery, 07:34.245 --> 07:36.289 replace it with the donor aorta and pulmonary trunk, 07:36.372 --> 07:39.333 and then use their walls to close the VSD. 07:39.417 --> 07:41.669 So it's like gutting inside of a house without disturbing the frames. 07:41.752 --> 07:44.630 Can you not use the word "gutting" when talking about a tiny baby heart? 07:44.714 --> 07:45.673 Cosign. 07:45.756 --> 07:47.967 I don't like the verbiage, but it is a pretty apt metaphor. 07:48.050 --> 07:49.427 [Simone] Do we get to scrub in? 07:49.510 --> 07:51.471 There will only be room for one of you at the table. 07:51.554 --> 07:54.223 [Winston] We are operating on a heart the size of a strawberry. 07:54.307 --> 07:56.267 The vessels are half a centimeter wide. 07:56.350 --> 07:58.311 -My hands are the smallest. -[Maggie] You will not be stitching. 07:58.394 --> 07:59.353 You will be observing. 07:59.437 --> 08:02.440 But whoever does the best vascular anastomosis 08:02.523 --> 08:05.276 in the skills lab wins the spot. 08:06.736 --> 08:07.737 Dr. Kwan. 08:07.820 --> 08:09.113 -Yeah? -Uh... 08:09.197 --> 08:12.158 Don't do your finger agility exercises in front of the patients, all right? 08:12.241 --> 08:15.578 Oh, it's a technique I use to disengage from the emotionality... 08:17.622 --> 08:18.706 to stay neutral. 08:19.332 --> 08:21.584 When the mother started crying, I was... 08:22.001 --> 08:24.420 It's smart. You just can't let them see it, Kwan. 08:24.504 --> 08:25.463 Understood. 08:26.923 --> 08:28.925 -[door opens] -[Maggie sighs] 08:30.009 --> 08:32.929 Richard. Just curious how it's going. 08:33.012 --> 08:34.597 The search for the new chief. 08:34.680 --> 08:37.808 It was easy a few years ago when we were at the top of our game. 08:37.892 --> 08:41.229 But we've got a lot of interesting applicants we're sorting through. Yeah. 08:41.312 --> 08:45.024 Yeah, I mean, Grey Sloan is not an easy place just to step right into. 08:45.107 --> 08:49.278 It's got its own history, its own quirks, its own personalities. 08:49.362 --> 08:50.863 -Well, that it does. -Yeah. 08:51.864 --> 08:55.243 I mean, it wouldn't be the worst idea to look closer to home. 08:55.326 --> 08:59.163 Someone who's been here, who understands our history, 08:59.247 --> 09:02.291 the issues, and our past and our needs. 09:02.375 --> 09:05.753 Altman, I think you're on to something. 09:05.836 --> 09:09.173 There's no extra pay involved, but there's lots of free pastries 09:09.257 --> 09:11.342 and we could use your expertise. 09:11.425 --> 09:13.553 I'm sorry. There's no extra pay? 09:13.636 --> 09:15.179 No. The search committee is voluntary. 09:15.263 --> 09:16.430 But we'd love to have you. 09:16.514 --> 09:18.224 We're meeting in the second floor conference room 09:18.307 --> 09:20.101 from four to six on Monday. 09:21.143 --> 09:24.855 Okay. Got it. Thank you. I will... join. 09:24.939 --> 09:25.898 Great. 09:25.982 --> 09:26.899 -Yeah. -Thank you. 09:26.983 --> 09:27.984 Okay. 09:30.194 --> 09:32.446 Meadow, I got a page. Is everything okay? 09:32.530 --> 09:33.489 I can't do it. 09:34.824 --> 09:38.869 I can't kiss him goodbye for what might be forever. 09:38.953 --> 09:40.580 She wants to wait. 09:42.582 --> 09:45.334 We want to wait for a whole heart. 09:45.418 --> 09:49.130 An infant donor heart could take up to six months to find a match. 09:49.213 --> 09:50.172 But we got this one. 09:50.256 --> 09:51.924 This one was a match and it came in days. 09:52.008 --> 09:53.217 But it was damaged. 09:53.301 --> 09:57.638 I know, but we could get another match in the next couple of days. 09:57.722 --> 09:59.015 It could happen. 09:59.640 --> 10:02.143 I know that it's hard, and I know that it's scary, 10:02.226 --> 10:05.271 but Dr. Pierce is as good as it gets, 10:05.354 --> 10:06.981 and she is not a risk taker. 10:07.064 --> 10:09.317 She doesn't do experimental surgeries 10:09.400 --> 10:11.319 for practice or for glory. 10:11.402 --> 10:13.654 She is suggesting this because she believes 10:13.738 --> 10:15.281 that she can save Arlo's life. 10:19.660 --> 10:23.080 I don't know how to love my son this much 10:23.164 --> 10:25.833 and send him in for an experimental surgery 10:25.916 --> 10:27.126 that might kill him. 10:29.003 --> 10:30.338 I can't do it. 10:33.299 --> 10:37.345 If he dies in that surgery, I won't ever be okay again. 10:37.970 --> 10:42.099 Tell Dr. Pierce thank you, but no, the surgery is off. 10:47.146 --> 10:48.731 [Meadow sobbing] 11:04.330 --> 11:06.499 Ow! Damn it. 11:06.582 --> 11:09.335 You know what? Screw this. 11:12.088 --> 11:14.256 -Should I go after her? -[Kwan] Shh! 11:14.340 --> 11:16.133 Some of us are trying to win. 11:16.217 --> 11:17.551 I hate the stitch. 11:17.635 --> 11:20.763 You have to kind of twirl your wrist like... 11:21.389 --> 11:22.348 Here. 11:24.433 --> 11:25.601 Right. 11:26.602 --> 11:27.645 Yeah. 11:29.355 --> 11:30.898 -[phone buzzing] -No. 11:31.315 --> 11:32.650 It's Tessa Hobbes. 11:32.733 --> 11:33.609 Who? 11:33.693 --> 11:35.069 [Kwan] I have no idea. 11:35.611 --> 11:37.446 -[instrument clatters] -Done! 11:39.073 --> 11:40.282 -Tessa. -What happened? 11:40.366 --> 11:41.242 I'm so sorry. 11:41.325 --> 11:43.202 She came in with severe abdominal pain. 11:43.285 --> 11:45.579 She's a bit hypertensive. Take her to CT. 11:45.663 --> 11:47.540 [breathing heavy] I picked up my groceries. 11:47.623 --> 11:50.042 Tessa, we said no heavy lifting, three months. 11:50.126 --> 11:51.460 It was just a grocery bag. 11:51.544 --> 11:53.796 And I was feeling... so great. 11:53.879 --> 11:57.299 And there was this sharp pain, like something tore. 11:57.383 --> 11:58.426 And then she drove herself here. 11:58.509 --> 11:59.677 You drove yourself? 11:59.760 --> 12:02.096 Well, in retrospect, I could see that might have been a bad idea. 12:02.179 --> 12:03.931 Tessa, which area hurts exactly? 12:04.014 --> 12:06.058 All of it. The entire abdomen hurts. 12:06.142 --> 12:07.435 -Here, touch right there. -Ow! 12:07.518 --> 12:09.645 She's tachycardic. We should take her straight to the OR. 12:09.729 --> 12:10.646 No, her blood pressure's holding. 12:10.730 --> 12:13.649 Get her to CT first and then call the OR to be on standby. 12:13.733 --> 12:15.943 -Skip the line. I'll call ahead. -I really think 12:16.026 --> 12:17.111 we should just take her straight to the OR. 12:17.194 --> 12:18.362 Go! I'll call Marsh. 12:18.446 --> 12:20.322 Someone page Chief Grey. 12:23.951 --> 12:25.411 [music playing] 12:29.457 --> 12:31.041 Are you Dr. Hellum? 12:31.125 --> 12:32.001 Who's asking? 12:32.084 --> 12:33.961 Mika Yasuda. First year surgical resident. 12:34.044 --> 12:35.796 It's Helm and I'm no longer a doctor. 12:35.880 --> 12:38.674 Cool. 'Cause I'm barely a doctor, and I'm desperate for a win. 12:40.843 --> 12:44.555 Could you possibly teach me how to do a perfect microvascular anastomosis? 12:44.638 --> 12:46.140 There's a contest and if I win, 12:46.223 --> 12:48.809 I get to scrub in on a partial heart transplant on a newborn. 12:48.893 --> 12:50.227 A partial heart transplant doesn't exist. 12:50.311 --> 12:51.812 I know, but it is about to. 12:51.896 --> 12:53.773 And I... I need this. 12:54.815 --> 12:58.235 I need a win because I don't have anywhere to sleep tonight, 12:58.319 --> 13:00.362 and Seattle is outrageously expensive, 13:00.446 --> 13:04.033 and being a surgical resident is exhausting 13:04.116 --> 13:06.243 to the point of nearly impossible. 13:06.327 --> 13:08.996 And I just really need to give myself a reason to keep caring. 13:10.498 --> 13:13.250 And if Blue wins, I cannot take the gloating. 13:13.334 --> 13:14.835 -Blue? -Like the ribbon. 13:14.919 --> 13:16.587 And this is a nickname he perpetuates. 13:16.670 --> 13:18.631 Wow, that is arrogant. 13:18.714 --> 13:19.840 Right? 13:21.467 --> 13:22.593 Twenty bucks. 13:23.052 --> 13:25.221 My house was towed this morning, so I don't have 20 bucks. 13:25.304 --> 13:26.931 But if I win this contest, 13:27.014 --> 13:28.933 I will barback for you on Friday night for free. 13:29.016 --> 13:30.017 You've been a barback? 13:30.100 --> 13:32.645 No, but I've been a cater waiter, and I'm excellent at chopping limes. 13:37.066 --> 13:38.025 Okay. 13:46.909 --> 13:51.372 I'm was treating myself to champagne and fruit salad 13:51.455 --> 13:55.918 because it's what I was craving, and I had plenty to celebrate. 13:56.001 --> 13:56.919 No, okay, let me... 13:57.002 --> 13:58.504 [panting] 13:58.629 --> 14:01.090 And then the groceries came 14:01.173 --> 14:03.008 and they left them on the front stoop. 14:03.092 --> 14:07.388 It didn't even occur to me not to bend over and pick them up. 14:07.471 --> 14:10.266 It's routine. It's muscle memory. 14:10.349 --> 14:11.225 Stop. 14:11.308 --> 14:13.686 Dr. Griffith, the ring around your necklace. 14:14.144 --> 14:15.604 Are you engaged? 14:15.688 --> 14:17.398 I was engaged. 14:17.481 --> 14:18.983 Now I'm not. 14:19.066 --> 14:22.987 -Heartbreak is the worst. -It is. 14:23.070 --> 14:25.364 If I die today, I might even miss heartbreak. 14:25.447 --> 14:26.782 Please try not to die today. 14:26.866 --> 14:28.075 Yeah, I'll do my best. 14:28.158 --> 14:29.869 Oh, wait. I need my purse. 14:29.952 --> 14:31.829 -Right now? -Yes. Where is it? 14:31.912 --> 14:34.248 It's downstairs with your clothes. I can get it after we're done here. 14:34.331 --> 14:35.249 Okay. 14:35.791 --> 14:37.126 [Meredith] Hey. What happened? 14:37.209 --> 14:39.753 Schmitt said her abdomen is distended and she's tachy. 14:39.837 --> 14:41.255 She's getting more hypotensive. 14:41.338 --> 14:43.173 Okay, well, you two need to go book an OR. 14:43.257 --> 14:45.259 I don't care if you have to kick someone out to do it. 14:45.342 --> 14:46.760 Tessa takes priority. 14:49.054 --> 14:50.931 I don't get it. She did this for groceries? 14:51.015 --> 14:53.267 Well, I don't think she did it on purpose, Nick. 14:53.350 --> 14:55.853 I think she probably lives alone and is set in her ways. 14:55.936 --> 14:58.689 And I'm sure it's a lot for her to change and ask for help. 14:58.772 --> 15:00.816 -Hello! -We're here, Tessa. 15:00.900 --> 15:02.276 Please stay very still. 15:02.359 --> 15:04.695 I'm afraid. This is all wrong. 15:05.237 --> 15:06.947 I don't want to die. 15:08.115 --> 15:09.867 I still have something to say. 15:09.950 --> 15:11.577 [Meredith] Tessa, you're not going anywhere today. 15:11.660 --> 15:12.745 We've got you. 15:12.828 --> 15:14.038 She's bleeding out. 15:14.121 --> 15:15.289 We're going to need some help in here. 15:16.540 --> 15:18.167 We're gonna need blood in the OR. 15:18.250 --> 15:20.544 Tessa, we're going to take you upstairs. 15:21.295 --> 15:23.213 [Amelia] So, on a scale of one to better? 15:23.297 --> 15:24.214 We're better. 15:24.298 --> 15:25.758 I think. I think we're better. 15:25.841 --> 15:27.092 But you're not sure? 15:27.676 --> 15:31.805 I am sure that we are both excited about this partial heart transplant 15:31.889 --> 15:35.392 on an infant, which is a stroke of genius idea that we came up with together. 15:35.476 --> 15:38.771 And that is because in the OR, we're good together. 15:38.854 --> 15:41.357 In our chosen field of study, we are so good. 15:41.440 --> 15:43.233 Are you rehearsing a speech you plan on giving him later? 15:43.317 --> 15:44.401 Maybe a little. 15:44.485 --> 15:46.236 So the two of you haven't really spoken since the fire? 15:46.320 --> 15:47.738 We said some things. 15:48.405 --> 15:49.990 We needed a cooling off period. 15:50.074 --> 15:52.743 It's best that we haven't talked about it, 15:52.826 --> 15:55.371 and, you know, we'll talk again soon. 15:55.454 --> 15:57.581 As soon as we change medical history. 15:57.665 --> 16:00.084 I had bad news. 16:00.167 --> 16:01.418 No. The baby? 16:01.502 --> 16:04.171 No, he's stable, but his mom's too scared. 16:04.254 --> 16:05.339 She wants to call it off. 16:05.422 --> 16:07.841 I can't talk her into it. That would be unethical. 16:08.509 --> 16:09.969 But you think she's got this one wrong? 16:10.052 --> 16:13.138 Without this surgery, the baby has days to live. 16:13.222 --> 16:15.975 She had a 30-hour labor, and she did it without any meds. 16:16.058 --> 16:17.518 -Meaning? -She's a warrior. 16:17.601 --> 16:21.480 She's strong in her convictions, and she seems sure of what she wants. 16:22.356 --> 16:23.232 Let me talk to her. 16:24.400 --> 16:26.318 -You can't. -I'm not her doctor. 16:27.736 --> 16:28.654 Let me talk to her. 16:31.198 --> 16:34.284 [Will] You're a neurosurgeon. So do you think Arlo needs... 16:34.368 --> 16:37.496 -No, no, no. -I'm not here as one of Arlo's doctors. 16:37.579 --> 16:40.165 I'm sorry, but if you're here to try to talk me into-- 16:40.249 --> 16:44.628 I'm here because I had a baby who only lived for 43 minutes. 16:44.712 --> 16:46.714 He had a condition called anencephaly, 16:46.797 --> 16:49.967 which is when the baby's brain does not develop typically 16:50.050 --> 16:52.761 and we discovered it when I was six months pregnant. 16:54.013 --> 16:55.639 We didn't know. 16:55.723 --> 16:58.642 We didn't know until he was born that there was anything wrong. 16:58.726 --> 17:01.812 I gave her to Christopher knowing that he would be an organ donor 17:02.521 --> 17:03.772 Because there was nothing that we could do. 17:03.856 --> 17:06.191 There was no surgery that we could try. 17:06.692 --> 17:08.027 And... 17:09.194 --> 17:11.363 I think about him a lot these days, 17:11.447 --> 17:15.451 because he has a brother now named Scout. 17:15.534 --> 17:18.412 And as Scout grows up, I cannot help but think 17:18.495 --> 17:20.622 about who Christopher would have been. 17:21.498 --> 17:22.541 And... 17:23.709 --> 17:25.586 What I do know is... 17:25.669 --> 17:27.129 [sighs] 17:28.005 --> 17:29.548 If there had been a chance... 17:30.507 --> 17:31.842 that Christopher could have lived, 17:31.925 --> 17:33.802 if there had been any hope, 17:33.886 --> 17:38.390 if there had been any surgery, and it meant that he might live... 17:40.142 --> 17:41.477 I would take the shot. 17:47.900 --> 17:50.152 [music playing] 17:59.870 --> 18:02.289 Anyway, I think you should have taken her straight to the OR. 18:02.372 --> 18:03.665 We needed the CT to see if we can operate. 18:03.749 --> 18:04.792 My gut doesn't lie. 18:04.958 --> 18:06.794 [sighs] I should have fought for it. 18:07.294 --> 18:09.213 I should've brought her straight here. 18:14.927 --> 18:16.303 Yeah, number one. 18:16.386 --> 18:17.596 Damn, someone likes himself. 18:17.679 --> 18:20.140 Nope. My sample was literally number one. 18:20.557 --> 18:22.392 But, yes, I intend to win. 18:22.810 --> 18:25.395 What's that face? Is that good? 18:25.479 --> 18:26.647 It is if you want to go home early. 18:26.730 --> 18:28.482 [Jules] I knew I shouldn't have practiced on bananas. 18:28.565 --> 18:30.734 What about fruit says "baby veins" to you? 18:31.318 --> 18:32.486 This is all good work. 18:32.569 --> 18:35.656 Number one's sutures are particularly precise. 18:38.075 --> 18:40.619 But with perfect alignment and tension, 18:40.702 --> 18:43.288 the winner is number three. 18:43.372 --> 18:44.206 That's me. 18:45.499 --> 18:48.585 Guess we gotta call you Red today. Huh. 18:52.172 --> 18:53.882 [intense music playing] 19:15.654 --> 19:16.613 [Maggie] Scalpel. 19:28.041 --> 19:29.585 I thought you would win. 19:29.668 --> 19:31.837 Your stitches are typically excellent. 19:31.920 --> 19:34.673 -I know. -Better than Yasuda's. 19:35.507 --> 19:38.969 I tanked the contest because babies scared the crap out of me. 19:39.052 --> 19:40.512 Didn't want to be anywhere near that table. 19:40.596 --> 19:42.681 Why are you scared of babies? 19:43.599 --> 19:45.809 No, no, no. You gotta tell me. Come on. 19:45.893 --> 19:48.228 Okay, but you owe me one. 19:48.312 --> 19:49.188 Owe you what? 19:49.271 --> 19:50.731 Whatever I decide. 19:51.315 --> 19:52.357 Fine. 19:53.984 --> 19:57.279 When I was five, my dad took me into the backyard 19:57.362 --> 20:01.491 where my mom had just given birth to my brother 20:01.575 --> 20:03.327 in a kiddie pool. 20:04.703 --> 20:06.872 Now, you've done an OB rotation, 20:06.955 --> 20:09.833 you're acquainted with all the blood and placenta, 20:09.917 --> 20:12.502 and the literal horror movie that is human childbirth. 20:12.586 --> 20:15.172 And I'm sure it's all very beautiful in its own way. 20:15.255 --> 20:19.009 But I was five, and before I could fully process what I was seeing, 20:19.092 --> 20:21.220 my dad handed me a pair of scissors 20:21.303 --> 20:23.597 and told me to cut the umbilical cord. 20:23.680 --> 20:25.390 -You were five? -Yeah. 20:25.807 --> 20:27.684 [sniggers] 20:28.936 --> 20:30.395 What, you think this is funny? 20:30.479 --> 20:32.105 This is trauma. 20:32.481 --> 20:37.819 This is crystal-loving, weed-smoking, latter-day-hippie-style trauma. 20:37.903 --> 20:40.072 -[both chortling] -[Zola] Shh! 20:40.155 --> 20:43.075 Sorry to shush you, but my aunt is making history right now, 20:43.158 --> 20:44.868 and I think we should all be paying attention. 20:50.082 --> 20:52.584 [music playing] 21:03.428 --> 21:05.931 [machines beeping] 21:39.256 --> 21:41.466 [machines beeping] 21:42.759 --> 21:44.052 [Meredith] Starting compression. 21:47.723 --> 21:49.391 Come on, Tessa. 21:59.943 --> 22:01.486 Come on, Tessa. Fight! 22:01.903 --> 22:04.990 [nick] Mer. Meredith. Let Griffith take over. 22:46.073 --> 22:48.075 [Meredith] Griffith, it's time to stop. 22:52.913 --> 22:54.873 [Nick sighs] 22:56.958 --> 22:58.418 God. 23:03.215 --> 23:05.217 Oh, my God, no. 23:05.342 --> 23:08.011 [flatlining] 23:10.555 --> 23:12.599 Time of death, 12:21. 23:16.311 --> 23:20.816 Chief Grey, I'd like to close her up. I'd like to pay her that respect. 23:26.571 --> 23:27.489 Can I help? 23:28.115 --> 23:29.074 Yeah. 23:39.835 --> 23:41.503 [exhales sharply] 23:46.049 --> 23:48.343 That was so incredibly stupid. 23:48.427 --> 23:50.137 That did not have to end that way. 23:50.220 --> 23:51.555 I hate this day. 23:51.638 --> 23:53.306 I hate everything about this day. 23:53.390 --> 23:54.641 Me, too. 24:01.106 --> 24:03.692 I'm a, I'm a transplant surgeon. I wait. 24:03.775 --> 24:06.361 I'm trained to wait. I attach. I perfuse. 24:06.445 --> 24:09.739 I wait for the organ to take, for it not to be rejected. 24:10.115 --> 24:12.576 For it to pink up, for blood to flow, 24:12.659 --> 24:14.161 because that's how humans respond. 24:14.244 --> 24:17.122 They're not machines with an on-off switch. 24:18.874 --> 24:21.042 And I'm a grown woman with a big life 24:21.126 --> 24:22.919 and a big career and three kids. 24:23.003 --> 24:24.796 And this move is what my daughter needs. 24:24.880 --> 24:27.841 I want you in my life if you want to be in my life. 24:28.300 --> 24:30.802 But if I have to choose, I'm going to pick me. 24:30.886 --> 24:33.805 I pick my kids, and I pick what's best for us. 24:33.889 --> 24:36.266 And I am not going to beg you to love me. 24:41.521 --> 24:42.355 [she sighs] 24:59.998 --> 25:01.791 Sorry I was emotional earlier. 25:03.668 --> 25:06.796 Be sorry when you stop feeling the losses. 25:06.880 --> 25:09.049 This was my last surgery here. 25:10.842 --> 25:13.094 Thought for sure I was going out on a high. 25:13.970 --> 25:15.305 I know that sounds shallow. 25:15.388 --> 25:17.807 Yeah. It's devastating on every level. 25:20.143 --> 25:21.520 How's your grandmother? 25:22.312 --> 25:23.647 Awful. It's awful. 25:23.730 --> 25:25.941 She exclusively calls me by my mother's name now, 25:26.024 --> 25:26.858 which I can handle. 25:26.942 --> 25:30.153 I didn't know my mother, but my sister, she remembers my mother. 25:30.237 --> 25:31.321 She remembers that I killed her. 25:31.404 --> 25:33.448 She was six when it happened and... 25:34.616 --> 25:36.284 so she's never forgiven me for it. 25:37.035 --> 25:39.829 And every time my grandmother calls me by my mother's name, 25:39.913 --> 25:40.747 she hates me more. 25:40.830 --> 25:42.916 And I don't know why I'm telling you this, Chief Grey. 25:45.001 --> 25:46.670 Well, because you know I know. 25:47.712 --> 25:50.674 And I don't work here anymore, so you can call me Meredith. 25:54.261 --> 25:56.054 I have Tessa's book, Meredith. 25:57.097 --> 25:58.765 -What? -She wrote her last book. 25:58.848 --> 26:00.433 She saved it on a thumb drive 26:00.517 --> 26:01.810 and she brought it here to the hospital, 26:01.893 --> 26:03.270 which means after she felt her pain, 26:03.353 --> 26:05.855 the first thing she did is go to her computer and save her book. 26:08.191 --> 26:10.402 She wanted me to give it to her publisher in Boston. 26:10.485 --> 26:13.280 And I know you're going there today. 26:13.905 --> 26:15.490 [music playing] 26:21.371 --> 26:24.165 So glad that she got to write her last story. 26:29.504 --> 26:31.464 Chief Grey? Meredith? 26:33.383 --> 26:34.634 Sorry. 26:36.970 --> 26:40.599 My mentor once told me to worry when you stop feeling the losses. 26:47.439 --> 26:48.898 Let's go inside. 27:00.785 --> 27:02.746 The heart is completely pumping on its own. 27:09.669 --> 27:10.754 It worked. 27:10.837 --> 27:12.714 -So far. -[Maggie] So far it worked, yeah. 27:16.801 --> 27:18.720 Amelia, thank you. 27:22.223 --> 27:23.099 [sighs] 27:25.060 --> 27:27.020 [Maggie] Echo looks great. 27:27.103 --> 27:30.857 VSD is closed, outflow from the new arteries looks good. 27:30.940 --> 27:33.026 Sure feels like we saved that baby's life. 27:37.822 --> 27:39.532 Are you taking in the miracle? 27:39.866 --> 27:41.368 That is exactly what I'm doing. 27:42.243 --> 27:44.913 That was beyond my wildest imagination of what my day would be. 27:44.996 --> 27:46.748 And not just this day, which was awful, 27:46.831 --> 27:49.167 because my house-van got towed with my whole life in it. 27:49.250 --> 27:52.212 That was beyond my wildest imagination 27:52.295 --> 27:53.713 of what any day of my life could be. 27:54.130 --> 27:56.299 The way that you saved that tiny baby heart... 27:57.300 --> 27:58.426 I'll never forget it. 27:58.510 --> 27:59.719 Did you say house-van? 27:59.803 --> 28:00.970 Yeah, you sleep in a van? 28:01.054 --> 28:05.016 Uh-- Well, I can't afford to get it out of impound, so not tonight. 28:05.100 --> 28:07.143 Anyway, thank you. 28:17.320 --> 28:18.780 Aunt Amy, how did you do it? 28:19.197 --> 28:20.532 How did I do what? 28:20.615 --> 28:22.409 How did you stop caring what other people think? 28:22.492 --> 28:25.078 My mom, your sisters, they talk about you like... 28:25.161 --> 28:27.997 like you don't give a flying crap what anybody else thinks, 28:28.081 --> 28:29.791 and, like, they're a little jealous of that. 28:30.333 --> 28:31.876 I want to know how you did it. 28:33.086 --> 28:36.005 Because I wanted to fight for a patient today. 28:36.089 --> 28:37.716 My gut told me everything she needed. 28:37.799 --> 28:40.593 And I didn't do it because I was worried about what other people would think. 28:40.677 --> 28:42.929 I was worried about getting in trouble. 28:43.012 --> 28:44.597 You want to know the truth? 28:45.223 --> 28:49.144 The truth is, I care deeply what other people think. 28:50.353 --> 28:53.982 And then I do what I think is right anyway. 28:54.065 --> 28:56.151 But I learned that the hard way. 28:56.234 --> 28:57.861 I had to live a lot of life 28:57.944 --> 29:00.739 before I became the kind of person I like and respect. 29:03.742 --> 29:05.660 My patient died today. 29:07.162 --> 29:08.496 I should have fought. 29:10.707 --> 29:14.753 The good news is, you let that pain soak in. 29:16.004 --> 29:19.424 Next time, you will fight. 29:24.763 --> 29:27.098 Did you ever find a place to live, Shep? 29:28.099 --> 29:31.186 Uh, I found a youth hostel with a roach problem. 29:31.269 --> 29:33.605 And please don't call me "Shep". 29:33.688 --> 29:35.857 Then don't call me "Aunt Amy". 29:40.695 --> 29:41.613 Is that it? 29:41.696 --> 29:43.782 Straight from the oven from the faraway baker. 29:43.865 --> 29:46.367 You are truly, madly, deeply the best. 29:46.451 --> 29:49.954 Wow, it's so much bigger than I thought it would be. 29:50.038 --> 29:53.374 Barely fit in my car. Wait, what do you mean "bigger"? 29:53.458 --> 29:54.417 Did you check it? 29:54.501 --> 29:56.169 I gave them your name. They gave me a cake. 30:01.174 --> 30:03.176 [laughs] 30:04.469 --> 30:05.678 What-- There's no time to take it back. 30:05.762 --> 30:06.888 What do we do? 30:12.519 --> 30:14.020 [chattering] 30:20.860 --> 30:22.320 Oh, hey. 30:34.249 --> 30:36.042 -Top of my class. -What? 30:36.125 --> 30:38.336 I was top of my class at an East Coast boarding school 30:38.419 --> 30:40.171 where my classmates were doing designer drugs 30:40.255 --> 30:41.881 and cheating their way to a passing grade, 30:41.965 --> 30:43.132 I was top of my class. 30:43.216 --> 30:44.884 And I didn't even drink in high school. 30:44.968 --> 30:45.844 This is sparkling cider. 30:45.927 --> 30:48.263 Then I was second in my class in undergrad, 30:48.346 --> 30:51.349 but that's because I had a brutal case of mono my junior year, 30:51.432 --> 30:52.684 which took me out for weeks. 30:52.767 --> 30:55.854 But in med school, I was back up to number one, 30:55.937 --> 30:59.691 and I completed my cardiothoracic fellowship at the Mayo Clinic 30:59.774 --> 31:01.192 before coming here 31:01.276 --> 31:04.445 and training Cristina Yang as a heart surgeon. 31:04.529 --> 31:06.489 I have an inarguable pedigree, 31:06.573 --> 31:09.033 and I find it insulting that you invite me to sit on a panel 31:09.117 --> 31:12.036 to choose a chief without stopping to consider offering me the job. 31:12.120 --> 31:14.706 Teddy, this hospital just came out of a shutdown. 31:14.789 --> 31:18.751 Dr. Bailey and Dr. Grey both quit the job that you're talking about, 31:18.835 --> 31:20.920 and their pedigree is quite similar to yours. 31:21.004 --> 31:24.507 I didn't consider you for the job because it is a flailing program 31:24.591 --> 31:26.342 with a huge amount of stress. 31:26.426 --> 31:30.513 But by all means, if you want it, it's yours. 31:31.681 --> 31:33.391 -Really? -Is that a yes? 31:34.309 --> 31:35.351 Can I think about it? 31:40.398 --> 31:41.858 What is going on here? 31:41.941 --> 31:44.193 Crap. She's here. Surprise! 31:44.277 --> 31:45.904 [all] Surprise! 31:45.987 --> 31:47.739 Come on, people. You can do better than this. 31:47.822 --> 31:49.282 Okay. Ready? 31:49.365 --> 31:51.743 [all, loudly] Surprise! 31:52.869 --> 31:54.704 Well, this is very thoughtful. 31:55.830 --> 31:58.333 And ridiculous because I'm only going to Boston 31:58.416 --> 32:00.251 and, you know, I'll probably be here next week. 32:00.335 --> 32:02.462 For God's sake's, Grey, will you just let us toast you? 32:02.545 --> 32:05.048 -[laughs] -Meredith Grey! 32:05.131 --> 32:06.341 [cheering] 32:07.508 --> 32:09.260 You know, once upon a time... 32:10.511 --> 32:11.596 you were the... 32:12.472 --> 32:14.140 bane of my existence, 32:14.223 --> 32:15.266 but no, you grew up 32:15.350 --> 32:17.018 to become... 32:17.852 --> 32:20.396 one of my greatest points of pride. 32:20.980 --> 32:22.440 I'm... 32:22.523 --> 32:24.692 [music playing] 32:29.697 --> 32:31.074 It's-- Wait... 32:33.451 --> 32:35.119 -Okay, go. Go. -Dr. Grey. 32:35.828 --> 32:38.164 What Dr. Bailey is trying to say is... 32:39.582 --> 32:42.210 this place won't be the same without you. 32:46.089 --> 32:48.508 [music continues] 32:59.102 --> 33:00.186 [Richard] To Meredith Grey. 33:00.269 --> 33:03.564 -Hey, hear, hear. -[cheering] 33:08.444 --> 33:09.445 -Mom? -Yes. 33:09.529 --> 33:10.571 -It was amazing. -Was it? 33:10.655 --> 33:12.073 Aunt Maggie was amazing. 33:12.156 --> 33:13.616 Of course, she's amazing. 33:13.700 --> 33:17.036 I think I might want to change from Neuro to Cardio. 33:17.578 --> 33:18.746 Will you be mad? 33:18.830 --> 33:20.999 I will absolutely not be mad. 33:22.458 --> 33:23.459 Did you talk to Nick? 33:23.543 --> 33:24.460 I did. 33:25.670 --> 33:26.963 We have a plane to catch. 33:28.381 --> 33:29.257 Should we go? 33:39.350 --> 33:42.311 [chattering] 33:43.229 --> 33:44.480 [exhales] 33:46.107 --> 33:47.525 Dr. Marsh. 33:48.818 --> 33:51.404 Helm. Hey. 33:53.364 --> 33:55.783 What are you doing behind a bar? 33:55.867 --> 33:58.411 Living my best life. What are you doing at the bar? 34:00.580 --> 34:04.542 Yeah, well, it was a bit of a rough day, so I decided to call it early. 34:05.209 --> 34:07.462 Can I have a whiskey, rocks, please? 34:07.545 --> 34:08.546 Thank you. 34:08.629 --> 34:11.966 I don't get it. Isn't Dr. Grey leaving today? 34:12.050 --> 34:14.552 Isn't her party, like, right now? 34:15.928 --> 34:16.929 Yeah. 34:17.013 --> 34:18.598 Oh, my God. You're such an idiot. 34:19.766 --> 34:20.850 Wow. 34:22.685 --> 34:25.229 I don't work there anymore, so I'm just going to tell you the truth 34:25.313 --> 34:27.899 instead of pretending to respect your awful decision making. 34:27.982 --> 34:29.525 She's Meredith Grey. 34:29.609 --> 34:33.446 She's impossible and she's perfect and she's brilliant and she cares. 34:33.529 --> 34:35.782 And she can be mean sometimes, but only when she needs to be. 34:35.865 --> 34:37.909 And she can be selfish sometimes 34:37.992 --> 34:40.119 because she has earned that right. 34:40.203 --> 34:41.454 For some stupid reason, 34:41.537 --> 34:43.498 she's into men, so she never fell in love with me, 34:43.581 --> 34:45.041 but she fell in love with you. 34:46.292 --> 34:47.627 And you're here? 34:48.669 --> 34:50.088 How stupid are you? 35:05.311 --> 35:06.771 [Winston] He's still going strong. 35:07.688 --> 35:09.190 I'm in awe. 35:09.273 --> 35:10.858 It really is a miracle. 35:12.401 --> 35:13.319 Yes. 35:14.570 --> 35:18.282 It is. It's a miracle of science, Winston. 35:18.366 --> 35:21.577 Specifically, it's a miracle of cardiothoracic surgery. 35:21.661 --> 35:24.372 We did a thing that no one else has done today, 35:24.455 --> 35:26.707 and we saved that baby's life. 35:26.791 --> 35:28.918 And if it worked like I think it did, 35:29.001 --> 35:33.965 this miracle of science is going to save thousands of babies' lives. 35:34.048 --> 35:36.926 That has to make you see that you can't just change your field of study 35:37.009 --> 35:38.970 at this stage of your career. 35:41.139 --> 35:43.141 Okay, you told me that you didn't respect my choice. 35:43.224 --> 35:45.143 You said you didn't respect me. 35:45.226 --> 35:46.686 -I didn't say that. -And then there was a fire. 35:46.769 --> 35:48.938 You know, it was a lot. I gave you time and I gave you space. 35:49.021 --> 35:50.064 But for two weeks now, 35:50.148 --> 35:52.191 I've been waiting for an apology that hasn't come. 35:52.275 --> 35:53.901 And now you're doubling down? 35:54.569 --> 35:57.196 Y-- There's no apology coming because you meant what you said? 35:57.280 --> 35:58.156 I think you'll reconsider. 35:58.239 --> 36:00.950 You're changing my job to protect my marriage. 36:01.033 --> 36:03.286 It's not a job. It's not a job. 36:03.661 --> 36:04.954 It is a gift. 36:05.037 --> 36:06.330 All right. 36:07.790 --> 36:10.877 And just like that, the feeling is mutual. 36:10.960 --> 36:11.961 What feeling? 36:12.503 --> 36:15.339 You told Kwan that his strategy to disengage emotionally 36:15.423 --> 36:17.425 from his patients was smart. 36:17.508 --> 36:18.759 What feeling? 36:18.843 --> 36:21.012 All this time, I don't know how I missed it. 36:21.095 --> 36:22.597 Winston, what feeling? 36:22.680 --> 36:24.140 The disrespect. 36:24.849 --> 36:25.933 You're cold. 36:26.559 --> 36:27.894 And I don't respect it. 36:37.653 --> 36:39.447 Bailey? Where's Meredith? 36:39.530 --> 36:40.948 She's one of a kind. 36:41.032 --> 36:42.158 That's what I was trying to say. 36:42.241 --> 36:43.618 She's one of a kind. Firecracker. 36:43.701 --> 36:44.869 -Yeah. -Any words at all, really. 36:44.952 --> 36:46.746 Look, she's on her way to the airport. 36:46.829 --> 36:49.832 But there's cake if you need some. You look like you need some. 36:52.460 --> 36:54.086 Fine. 36:54.170 --> 36:55.129 More for me. 36:56.047 --> 36:57.924 [boarding call announcement] 36:59.926 --> 37:01.844 [intense music playing] 37:14.982 --> 37:16.651 Come on, come on, come on. 37:28.913 --> 37:30.498 Come on. 37:31.457 --> 37:32.500 Oh, my God. 37:38.089 --> 37:39.507 Zola, you can sit here. 37:40.091 --> 37:41.300 Guys, wanna sit here? 37:42.843 --> 37:43.886 Go right there. 37:46.138 --> 37:48.182 [sighs] 37:49.100 --> 37:50.643 I'm never gonna make it. 37:54.689 --> 37:55.606 Okay. 38:08.911 --> 38:11.956 Who wants to read the new Tessa book? 38:12.415 --> 38:14.250 Zola, I know this is a little young for you, 38:14.333 --> 38:15.626 but this is the last one ever. 38:16.168 --> 38:17.295 That's the book? 38:17.378 --> 38:18.838 Yes, I got an advanced copy. 38:21.257 --> 38:22.591 Hold on, guys. 38:24.135 --> 38:25.803 Hi. We're on the plane. 38:25.886 --> 38:27.179 I love you. 38:28.973 --> 38:31.100 I fell in love with you the first day I met you. 38:31.183 --> 38:33.686 And I fell in love with you the second day I met you. 38:33.769 --> 38:36.105 And I've loved you every minute of every day 38:36.188 --> 38:37.481 that I have known you. 38:41.193 --> 38:42.069 Meredith? 38:42.945 --> 38:45.114 Um, I... 38:46.032 --> 38:46.866 Meredith. 38:46.949 --> 38:49.618 I can't quite hear you. 38:49.702 --> 38:51.329 -Meredith. -We're about to take off, 38:51.412 --> 38:54.498 so I'll call you when we get settled. 38:54.957 --> 38:55.958 Meredith. 38:57.126 --> 38:58.294 Meredith. 39:08.971 --> 39:11.974 "I've flown rockets and slayed dragons. 39:12.058 --> 39:15.811 I've saved lives, and I've had my life saved. 39:15.895 --> 39:18.647 I've been through broken bones, and a broken home, 39:18.731 --> 39:20.399 and the deaths of people I love. 39:20.483 --> 39:22.109 But I am still here. 39:23.736 --> 39:25.946 I never chose the safety of what was known 39:26.030 --> 39:28.866 when there was possibility of more to be discovered." 39:28.991 --> 39:29.992 Hey. 39:30.076 --> 39:31.118 Hey. 39:32.203 --> 39:33.954 Could I stay at your place tonight? 39:36.999 --> 39:39.960 [Meredith] "I've had adventures that most people only dream about. 39:40.378 --> 39:42.963 [music playing] 39:43.172 --> 39:45.674 And I've had losses that I still dream about. 39:50.471 --> 39:53.724 And if there's one thing I've learned in all my adventures, 39:53.808 --> 39:55.643 it's that there's no such thing 39:55.726 --> 39:58.771 as a life lived happily ever after. 39:59.772 --> 40:03.109 Unless the happily means simply that we're still alive, 40:03.192 --> 40:05.569 that the sun is rising on another day. 40:05.653 --> 40:09.240 Because with every sunrise comes the possibility of happiness 40:09.323 --> 40:11.867 and also the possibility of heartache." 40:13.911 --> 40:14.912 What are you doing here? 40:14.995 --> 40:16.080 Grey gave me a key. 40:16.163 --> 40:17.915 She said there's a hole in the attic, 40:17.998 --> 40:21.293 but if I don't mind overseeing the repairs, I can stay here. 40:21.377 --> 40:23.254 [Meredith] "And sometimes it's all rolled back together." 40:23.337 --> 40:26.006 Yeah, my Aunt Amelia told me the same thing. 40:28.801 --> 40:31.178 [Meredith] "I came to understand as a very young child, 40:31.262 --> 40:35.683 that when the imagination is limitless, life's possibilities are endless." 40:35.766 --> 40:38.686 When I got kicked out of my residency, 40:38.769 --> 40:40.855 it also ended my relationship, 40:40.938 --> 40:43.732 Had my dream job, was planning my dream life. 40:43.816 --> 40:45.401 And then I didn't. And I wasn't. 40:45.484 --> 40:47.069 [Meredith] "But I learned that the hard way." 40:47.153 --> 40:49.530 It's not that I don't feel things. 40:49.613 --> 40:53.242 It's that I don't want to put you through any kind of... 40:54.452 --> 40:55.536 rebound. 40:59.373 --> 41:00.416 I mean, 41:00.499 --> 41:02.710 I can be down for a rebound. 41:02.793 --> 41:06.088 -[sniggers] Did you really just say that? -Yeah. 41:06.547 --> 41:08.757 Um-- Okay. What I'm saying is, 41:08.841 --> 41:10.926 you know, as long as we call it what it is, then, 41:11.010 --> 41:12.636 no harm, no foul, right? 41:12.720 --> 41:16.307 You know, apparently we live together, so that's a really... 41:18.642 --> 41:20.102 terrible idea. 41:20.978 --> 41:22.062 Yeah. 41:31.238 --> 41:33.532 [Meredith] "I learned it through yearning and frustration 41:33.616 --> 41:36.494 and ache and longing and sometimes desperation 41:36.577 --> 41:38.621 for a life different than the one I was living. 41:51.759 --> 41:54.595 I learned to stretch my imagination and spread my wings 41:54.678 --> 41:58.390 and to allow for all the options life had to offer. 42:04.730 --> 42:07.149 Not only the ones I could see with my eyes, 42:07.566 --> 42:10.277 I stretched for the ones I could deal with my heart." 42:12.905 --> 42:15.115 [music continues] 42:17.785 --> 42:19.245 Wow. 42:19.828 --> 42:21.872 [sighs] This is amazing. 42:26.961 --> 42:28.128 [door opens] 42:30.923 --> 42:31.966 What are you doing here? 42:32.049 --> 42:33.217 What are you doing here? 42:33.300 --> 42:35.511 Dr. Pierce gave me a key. 42:35.970 --> 42:39.348 Said I could stay if I fixed up the hole in the attic. 42:41.392 --> 42:42.768 -Same. -Same. 42:43.102 --> 42:45.354 [Meredith] "As long as the sun rises on your life." 42:45.938 --> 42:47.898 Well, I guess we should have brought sleeping bags. 42:48.566 --> 42:50.901 [Meredith] "There will be new dragons to slay." 42:51.443 --> 42:52.945 So who wants pizza? 42:54.530 --> 42:57.783 [Meredith] "So the end of my story is not any kind of ever after. 42:58.450 --> 43:01.370 Because I'm still alive, I'm still here, 43:01.912 --> 43:05.082 and the sun still rises on my life." 43:26.020 --> 43:28.480 [closing theme music playing]