WEBVTT 00:01.042 --> 00:03.294 [Judith Hill's "Today Is" playing] 00:04.587 --> 00:07.173 [Meredith] Oxygen is the human body's fuel. 00:08.967 --> 00:09.968 [together] ♪ Today ♪ 00:10.051 --> 00:11.302 [Meredith] It powers our brains, 00:11.386 --> 00:13.054 organs, and bodily tissues. 00:13.138 --> 00:14.347 ♪ It's a light, come and see it now ♪ 00:14.431 --> 00:16.391 [together] ♪ Today, today is ♪ 00:16.474 --> 00:17.976 [Meredith] Without a proper supply, 00:18.059 --> 00:20.812 our bodies can't function. 00:20.895 --> 00:24.357 I haven't written mine yet, but I will by Friday. 00:24.441 --> 00:26.568 Wait, you already wrote and memorized your vows, didn't you? 00:26.651 --> 00:27.736 I'm excited too. 00:27.819 --> 00:28.945 I just need more hours in a day, 00:29.029 --> 00:30.739 but I did book a car to pick up your parents. 00:30.822 --> 00:31.990 -[Meredith] Our brains... -Okay. 00:32.073 --> 00:33.283 [Meredith] Hearts, and kidneys... 00:33.366 --> 00:34.534 See you soon. 00:34.617 --> 00:36.119 [Meredith] Can only tolerate a lack of oxygen 00:36.202 --> 00:39.164 for a limited time before their cells begin to die. 00:39.247 --> 00:40.915 Wow, you really know what you're doing. 00:40.999 --> 00:43.501 I have had seven sister's worth of hand-me-downs. 00:43.585 --> 00:45.253 This is nothing. 00:45.336 --> 00:46.796 Wouldn't have pegged you for a vintage dress though. 00:46.880 --> 00:48.840 -I was gonna rock a jumpsuit. -Fierce! 00:48.923 --> 00:51.801 But then my grandma pulled my mom's dress from the attic, 00:51.885 --> 00:52.927 because she thinks I'm my mom. 00:53.011 --> 00:55.597 And it just felt like a sign. 00:55.680 --> 00:57.766 I'm just lucky you have tailoring skills. 00:57.849 --> 01:00.310 Lucky, and also, you're getting a bill. 01:00.393 --> 01:02.395 [Meredith] About five minutes for the brain... 01:02.479 --> 01:04.981 -♪ Come and feel it now ♪ -Wow. 01:05.065 --> 01:06.524 [Meredith] About 30 for the heart and kidneys. 01:06.608 --> 01:09.069 Don't look. It's bad luck for the bride to see the roommate 01:09.152 --> 01:10.361 before the wedding. 01:10.820 --> 01:12.155 Yeah, you're fine. 01:12.238 --> 01:13.490 Have you guys seen this email? 01:13.573 --> 01:16.618 Apparently, Dr. Webber has a special announcement this morning. 01:16.701 --> 01:19.454 Wait, do you think the residency program is coming off probation? 01:19.537 --> 01:20.955 Or maybe Grey or Pierce is coming back? 01:21.039 --> 01:23.416 Or they're finally putting cheese curls back in the vending machine. 01:23.500 --> 01:25.877 It's more likely than either of yours. 01:25.960 --> 01:27.128 We're leaving in five minutes. 01:27.212 --> 01:28.922 I'm only gonna tell you once, okay? 01:29.005 --> 01:30.757 She's still in a wedding dress. 01:30.840 --> 01:33.051 And you're slow. Get in the shower. 01:33.927 --> 01:35.428 ♪ Your moment shining down ♪ 01:35.512 --> 01:37.263 [Meredith] When a patient loses oxygen, 01:37.347 --> 01:40.350 doctors know the clock is ticking. 01:40.433 --> 01:42.352 ♪ It's a vibe, can you feel it now? ♪ 01:45.188 --> 01:48.108 -Matcha latte, your favorite. -Thanks. 01:48.191 --> 01:49.984 You could have one every day if you came back. 01:50.068 --> 01:51.569 Could have one every day now. 01:51.653 --> 01:54.114 Well, yeah, but you wouldn't need to cross the street. 01:54.197 --> 01:56.991 Plus, you could wear scrubs, which are basically pajamas. 01:57.075 --> 01:59.119 Are those your big selling points? 01:59.202 --> 02:01.704 Well, Webber has an announcement this morning. 02:01.788 --> 02:02.956 That's gotta be good news. 02:03.039 --> 02:04.374 Yeah, well, don't get your hopes up. 02:04.457 --> 02:06.126 I only agreed to talk to a few people. 02:06.209 --> 02:09.921 -Ooh, I gotta go. -Oh, you get to save lives... 02:10.004 --> 02:11.714 in pajamas! 02:11.798 --> 02:13.174 BokHee, hey. 02:13.258 --> 02:16.511 Um, uh, attention, everyone. Attention. 02:16.594 --> 02:19.097 We have some exciting news that we want to share. 02:19.180 --> 02:22.142 As you know, each year, the Catherine Fox Award 02:22.225 --> 02:24.018 recognizes surgical innovations 02:24.102 --> 02:26.479 that push the boundaries of modern medicine. 02:26.563 --> 02:29.357 It's been some time since Grey Sloan's had a nominee, 02:29.440 --> 02:32.402 but this morning, we received word that not one 02:32.485 --> 02:35.613 but two of our doctors have been nominated. 02:35.697 --> 02:40.118 Please join me in congratulating Dr. Nick Marsh 02:40.201 --> 02:43.538 nominated for his work on xenotransplantation. 02:43.621 --> 02:45.290 Wow, thank you. 02:45.373 --> 02:48.459 And Dr. Winston Ndugu, 02:48.543 --> 02:51.629 who's been nominated along with Dr. Maggie Pierce 02:51.713 --> 02:54.257 for their groundbreaking partial heart transplant. 02:54.340 --> 02:57.760 [applause] 02:57.844 --> 03:02.015 We look forward to celebrating you at the award ceremony in Boston. 03:02.098 --> 03:04.559 [applause] 03:04.642 --> 03:06.728 [light dramatic music playing] 03:10.356 --> 03:12.901 Congratulations again to both of you 03:12.984 --> 03:15.820 -I've got seats on the Fox Foundation jet. -Thank you. 03:15.904 --> 03:18.531 I'm headed to the OR now, but I'm truly honored. 03:18.615 --> 03:19.741 Congratulations. 03:24.829 --> 03:26.581 [sighs] 03:28.666 --> 03:32.128 I'll have information about the ceremony and travel plans later today. 03:32.212 --> 03:34.505 We're just finalizing a few things. 03:34.589 --> 03:37.759 That's okay. I'm good. I'm-- I'm not going. 03:39.260 --> 03:40.345 But thank you. 03:40.428 --> 03:42.639 Sam Sutton post-op day two status. 03:42.722 --> 03:44.390 Post upper and lower limb fracture repairs 03:44.474 --> 03:46.935 and right lower extremity gastroc flap. 03:47.018 --> 03:50.647 All Doppler signals are strong, and no sign of infection. 03:50.730 --> 03:52.440 I hear I'm gonna be famous. 03:52.523 --> 03:53.733 Well, it depends on how you define it. 03:53.816 --> 03:55.109 We're writing up your case for a medical journal, 03:55.193 --> 03:56.236 not "The New York Times." 03:56.319 --> 03:58.821 But we do hope it'll help other doctors and patients. 03:58.905 --> 04:01.741 So they know how to treat the next guy who breaks 93 bones. 04:01.824 --> 04:02.742 [all chuckle] 04:02.825 --> 04:03.993 Well, your vitals look good. 04:04.077 --> 04:05.536 I'll come back and check on you later tonight. 04:05.620 --> 04:06.913 Great. What happened to my other doctor? 04:06.996 --> 04:09.916 Uh, Dr. Griffith, the intern? 04:09.999 --> 04:11.918 No, no, no, she had light brown hair, 04:12.001 --> 04:14.587 Disney princess eyes, heart-stopping smile. 04:14.671 --> 04:15.797 -Dr. Wilson? -Yes. 04:15.880 --> 04:16.839 Is Dr. Wilson single, 04:16.923 --> 04:18.675 or did she just say that because I was dying? 04:18.758 --> 04:19.926 She said that? 04:21.010 --> 04:22.595 Well, she's with other patients, 04:22.679 --> 04:25.265 but Dr. Yasuda will be taking your data for the rest of the day, 04:25.348 --> 04:27.976 -so if you need something, just ask her. -All right. 04:28.059 --> 04:29.185 Yeah. 04:29.269 --> 04:30.478 [light quirky music playing] 04:30.561 --> 04:33.648 You can call me a Disney princess, but I don't date patients. 04:33.731 --> 04:38.152 And we should also monitor her urine output and fluid status. 04:38.236 --> 04:39.654 Uh, Dr. Bailey? 04:40.446 --> 04:41.906 May I please be on your service? 04:41.990 --> 04:43.741 I thought you were on Shepherd's. 04:43.825 --> 04:47.203 I was, but I know this case, and I can provide a high level of care. 04:47.870 --> 04:52.583 You know the patient, which is a reason for you not to be on the case. 04:52.667 --> 04:55.420 She and I are not family, and we've barely known each other 04:55.503 --> 04:58.131 for more than a few months. I can be professional. 04:58.214 --> 04:59.215 I'm happy to switch. 05:00.800 --> 05:04.178 Okay, Millin, you're with me. Kwan, go find Shepherd. 05:06.014 --> 05:07.140 Hello. 05:07.223 --> 05:08.474 Hello, Doctor. 05:08.558 --> 05:10.351 Maxine Anderson, 81 years old. 05:10.435 --> 05:13.438 Diagnosed with a UTI complicated by delirium and sepsis. 05:13.521 --> 05:15.481 Treated with IV antibiotics. 05:15.565 --> 05:18.818 Her delirium has resolved, and she's been off pressors for 24 hours. 05:18.901 --> 05:21.654 She's being downgraded to a stepdown bed today. 05:21.738 --> 05:24.407 -How are you feeling today? -Much better, thank heavens. 05:24.490 --> 05:26.451 I lost my marbles there for a minute. 05:26.534 --> 05:29.120 Well, glad you're feeling better. 05:29.203 --> 05:31.998 Jules-- I mean, Dr. Millin, 05:32.081 --> 05:35.710 if that happens again, I want you to know a few things. 05:35.793 --> 05:38.963 First, please remember to feed Mr. Darcy. 05:39.505 --> 05:41.966 The cat. Got it. What else? 05:42.050 --> 05:43.384 I want to be cremated. 05:43.468 --> 05:47.722 Spread my ashes in the Grand Canyon and play Tom Jones at my funeral. 05:47.805 --> 05:52.435 -Max-- -And if I'm going, just let me go. 05:52.518 --> 05:56.439 I do not want to lie around like a turnip for the rest of my days. 05:56.522 --> 06:00.568 No shocking with paddles, no tube down my throat. 06:00.651 --> 06:02.779 I want to be remembered as a vibrant 81. 06:02.862 --> 06:04.280 Max, you're not dying. 06:04.364 --> 06:06.783 You're being moved from the ICU to a regular room. 06:06.866 --> 06:11.788 But we understand your wishes, and we'll get you the paperwork. 06:11.871 --> 06:13.206 You'll be able to go home in a day or two. 06:13.289 --> 06:16.542 Oh, that's great news, not that I mind it here. 06:16.626 --> 06:18.378 The food's edible, 06:18.461 --> 06:20.713 the orderlies are quite good-looking, 06:20.797 --> 06:25.426 and with Jules sleeping down the hall, it almost feels like home. 06:25.510 --> 06:27.011 I've had a couple of late nights. 06:27.095 --> 06:28.971 That's what the on-call room is for, right? 06:29.514 --> 06:34.268 Okay, Mrs. Anderson, Dr. Millin will transport you, 06:34.352 --> 06:37.188 and I will see you in your new room. 06:39.941 --> 06:42.610 -Max. -Oh, I forgot. 06:42.693 --> 06:45.405 Either of you ever seen an abdominal aortic aneurysm? 06:45.488 --> 06:46.656 Only in textbooks. 06:46.739 --> 06:49.742 I read that triple As are super rare. Basically unheard of in patients under 60. 06:49.826 --> 06:50.952 That's right. Keep up, please. 06:51.035 --> 06:53.704 Well, our guy's only 29, and he's a non-smoking vegetarian 06:53.788 --> 06:56.290 with no predisposing genetic history of cardiac disease. 06:56.374 --> 06:58.376 What are the triple As most serious complications? 06:58.459 --> 07:01.671 Dissection, a tear in the aortic lining requires stenting or surgery. 07:01.754 --> 07:04.632 Rupture, if the aneurysm bursts, we gotta take him straight to the OR. 07:04.715 --> 07:05.967 -Good. -Is that why we're rushing? 07:06.050 --> 07:07.301 Not exactly. 07:08.761 --> 07:10.680 No, no, no, no, no, not again . Ray, listen. 07:10.763 --> 07:14.517 Look, I'm sorry, Dr. Altman, okay? I can't do this today. 07:14.600 --> 07:15.643 Ray. 07:15.726 --> 07:17.478 Sorry, sorry. Excuse me, excuse me. 07:17.562 --> 07:19.147 Uh, what are we supposed to do now? 07:19.230 --> 07:20.314 We run after him. 07:20.398 --> 07:23.109 [light dramatic music playing] 07:23.192 --> 07:24.569 [sighs] 07:35.246 --> 07:38.541 Hey, I just saw the funniest thing at day care. 07:38.624 --> 07:41.669 Scout was annoyed that Luna had this hedgehog toy, 07:41.752 --> 07:44.297 and he made this face. It looked exactly like you look 07:44.380 --> 07:45.506 when you're annoyed with me. 07:45.590 --> 07:48.426 Excuse me. Sam Sutton asked for you. 07:48.509 --> 07:49.969 He said it wasn't urgent, though. 07:50.052 --> 07:51.971 Yeah, I just saw him. 07:52.054 --> 07:53.890 No, he's asking for Dr. Wilson. 07:54.348 --> 07:55.433 Oh. 07:56.434 --> 07:57.602 Mm. 07:57.685 --> 07:59.270 That's it. That's the face. 07:59.353 --> 08:01.856 Wait, why-- why are you annoyed with me? 08:02.648 --> 08:03.816 [sighs] 08:03.900 --> 08:05.985 Don't you think it's a little inappropriate 08:06.068 --> 08:07.653 to tell a patient that you're single? 08:07.737 --> 08:10.239 He asked, and he thought he was gonna die. 08:10.323 --> 08:12.950 He said you have Disney princess eyes. 08:13.034 --> 08:14.452 You think I don't? 08:15.786 --> 08:17.330 I'm kidding. I'm kidding. 08:17.413 --> 08:20.416 I appreciate the misplaced chivalry, but do you remember how many times 08:20.500 --> 08:21.959 I would get hit on at Jimmy's Crab Shack? 08:22.043 --> 08:24.086 -[chuckles] -I think I can handle myself. 08:24.170 --> 08:25.880 [woman over PA] Dr. Angle to the Psych Unit. 08:25.963 --> 08:28.382 Dr Lea Engle to the Psych Unit. 08:28.466 --> 08:30.384 Ray, can we just stop and talk about this? 08:30.468 --> 08:32.929 Look, you said I didn't need the surgery right now. 08:33.012 --> 08:35.306 Right now and never are two very different things, 08:35.389 --> 08:38.518 plus that was two months and three failed attempts at surgery ago. 08:38.601 --> 08:43.648 Okay, well, I'm still alive, so I'm good, great, fantastic, really. 08:43.731 --> 08:46.025 You have a weakened aorta, which supplies blood 08:46.108 --> 08:48.361 to all of your major organs. If it bursts-- 08:48.444 --> 08:49.862 I know, okay? You told me. 08:49.946 --> 08:52.823 But those consent forms, they say I could have renal failure 08:52.907 --> 08:55.409 or heart problems or bleed out during surgery. 08:55.493 --> 08:56.661 No, thanks. 08:56.744 --> 08:58.329 There is a less than 5% chance 08:58.412 --> 09:00.790 of renal failure, bleeding out, or heart problems, 09:00.873 --> 09:02.542 but there is a 10% chance 09:02.625 --> 09:04.877 that your aneurysm will rupture at any moment, 09:04.961 --> 09:06.879 and if that happens, your chances of survival 09:06.963 --> 09:09.549 are worse than all of these numbers combined. 09:09.632 --> 09:12.468 Okay, just stop. Just stop. 09:12.552 --> 09:14.679 I don't know about all the statistics, 09:14.762 --> 09:17.473 but what I do know is that those consent forms 09:17.557 --> 09:21.185 say I could die a dozen different ways if I do the surgery. 09:21.269 --> 09:24.272 I'm an illustrator. I sit at a desk all day. 09:24.355 --> 09:26.524 It doesn't require much exertion. 09:26.607 --> 09:29.151 At this point, it might not take much. 09:29.235 --> 09:30.695 I'll take my chances. 09:31.612 --> 09:33.990 Those chances would be so much better with surgery. 09:34.073 --> 09:36.158 You can't force me to do this. 09:36.242 --> 09:37.493 [light dramatic music playing] 09:38.160 --> 09:40.288 -Ray. -So we just let him go? 09:40.371 --> 09:43.249 -He's a ticking time bomb. -Informed consent. 09:43.332 --> 09:45.835 We can't force a patient to get a procedure. 09:45.918 --> 09:48.546 His mom will work on him, and hopefully he will come back. 09:48.629 --> 09:52.592 All right, you two, go to the skills lab, and I will page you if something comes up. 09:52.675 --> 09:55.928 Mm. Coming? 09:56.012 --> 09:58.306 Yeah, go ahead. I'll catch up. 10:03.269 --> 10:06.022 -Hey, you were looking for me. -I was. 10:06.105 --> 10:11.152 I have a question about the-- the, uh, the plate 10:11.235 --> 10:14.864 that you put in my arm, and-- 10:14.947 --> 10:17.325 okay, yeah, obviously, I don't really have a question. 10:17.408 --> 10:20.036 I just wanted to see you so I could thank you. 10:20.119 --> 10:22.288 -For what? -Saving my life. 10:22.371 --> 10:24.957 Okay, I know that post-op can be boring-- 10:25.041 --> 10:26.500 It is. It is so boring. 10:26.584 --> 10:29.837 I thought I could flirt with you while we play a game of cards. 10:29.920 --> 10:32.506 You'd be holding all the cards for real. 10:32.590 --> 10:35.968 Well, my day is anything but boring, so... 10:36.052 --> 10:37.678 Okay, okay, go cut people open. 10:37.762 --> 10:39.930 I'll be here all week. We have time. 10:40.014 --> 10:41.724 Actually, I'm delivering twins. 10:41.807 --> 10:44.602 I am both an OB-GYN and a general surgeon. 10:44.685 --> 10:46.687 You're pretty and multitalented. 10:46.771 --> 10:48.564 We are a rare breed. 10:49.982 --> 10:53.819 Uh, so what do you do now that you're no longer military? 10:53.903 --> 10:55.988 Oh, I'm still a pilot, just not military. 10:56.072 --> 10:57.990 So flying hundreds of people through the air 10:58.074 --> 10:59.450 wasn't terrifying enough. 10:59.533 --> 11:02.328 You had to put on a shiny sleeping bag and jump out of a plane. 11:02.411 --> 11:04.747 I'm actually a pretty simple guy. 11:04.830 --> 11:07.792 Yeah, because simple guys are always 11:07.875 --> 11:11.629 jumping off of pyramids and rainforest cliffs, or-- 11:11.712 --> 11:13.506 You stalked my social media. 11:14.423 --> 11:18.177 I wanted to know what wingsuiting was. 11:19.011 --> 11:20.471 [clears throat] 11:20.554 --> 11:22.598 Um, I have to get back to OB. 11:22.682 --> 11:24.725 Is there anything else that you need? 11:24.809 --> 11:27.269 Not at the moment, but I will keep your offer in mind. 11:31.023 --> 11:32.733 You realize that she meant medically? 11:35.319 --> 11:37.988 -No, she didn't. -[sighs] 11:43.744 --> 11:45.121 Ray, hi. 11:45.204 --> 11:46.706 Uh, can I have a minute. 11:46.789 --> 11:49.375 Oh, my God. Stop with the consent forms. 11:49.458 --> 11:51.127 What, do you get a commission on the surgery or something? 11:51.210 --> 11:54.046 Uh, no, no, no commission. Just my notes. 11:54.130 --> 11:56.048 -I just want to talk. -Yeah. 11:56.132 --> 11:57.675 You mean talk me into the surgery. 11:57.758 --> 11:59.468 No, no, no, talk about the surgery. 12:00.261 --> 12:03.431 Okay, it's your decision. I just-- 12:03.514 --> 12:05.558 I won't be able to sleep knowing I didn't do everything I could 12:05.641 --> 12:09.353 to make sure you were informed. Let's just take a walk, okay? 12:09.437 --> 12:12.773 You're leaving anyway, right? I could use some fresh air. 12:15.234 --> 12:16.986 [sighs] 12:17.069 --> 12:18.362 Are you coming? 12:18.446 --> 12:19.864 [woman over PA] Dr. Brooks to Oncology. 12:19.947 --> 12:21.657 Dr. Brooks to Oncology. 12:21.741 --> 12:26.245 -We got you one with a window. -Oh, how nice. 12:29.039 --> 12:30.916 [together] Surprise! 12:31.000 --> 12:33.085 Norma, Lois! 12:33.169 --> 12:35.838 -Welcome to your new room. -Did we scare you? 12:35.921 --> 12:38.632 I didn't want to yell, but Norma made me. 12:38.716 --> 12:41.093 I'm fine. I loved it! 12:41.177 --> 12:42.678 Come here, you two. 12:42.762 --> 12:44.388 [laughter] 12:44.472 --> 12:45.473 [both] Mwah! 12:45.556 --> 12:47.641 I told them they could only stay for an hour. 12:47.725 --> 12:49.810 -You need to get your rest. -Oh, don't listen to Jules. 12:49.894 --> 12:51.520 She's in doctor mode. 12:51.604 --> 12:55.149 Speaking of Jules, we brought your crochet bag. 12:55.232 --> 12:58.486 You know, my treble stitch is getting much better. 12:58.569 --> 13:01.739 Wow, nice, but that's a half double. 13:01.822 --> 13:04.700 I can show you the treble this afternoon again. 13:04.784 --> 13:06.118 Oh, you see how she talks to me? 13:06.202 --> 13:09.121 She's an angel, if a doctor can be an angel, 13:09.205 --> 13:10.372 like in that movie. 13:10.456 --> 13:12.792 Oh, we put your toiletries in the bathroom. 13:12.875 --> 13:16.170 Oh, thank heavens. My hair needs a good brushing. 13:16.253 --> 13:19.131 -"Angel Doctor." -That's not a movie. 13:19.215 --> 13:21.133 -Uh, "Doctor Angel." -That's not a movie either. 13:21.217 --> 13:23.135 -Max. -I'm fine. I'm fine. 13:23.219 --> 13:24.887 -Okay, okay. -Thanks. 13:24.970 --> 13:26.764 Oh, Doc. 13:26.847 --> 13:28.849 -Her color's good. -How's her appetite? 13:28.933 --> 13:30.601 Uh, it's back. Her appetite-- 13:30.684 --> 13:32.186 -Ow! -[loud thuds] 13:32.269 --> 13:34.104 -Max. -[grunts] 13:34.188 --> 13:36.148 Oh, Max, are you okay? 13:36.232 --> 13:38.192 [gasps] 13:38.275 --> 13:42.112 I-- I-- I don't know. Am I? 13:42.196 --> 13:44.448 Okay, all right. 13:44.532 --> 13:46.992 Okay, just take deep breaths. 13:47.076 --> 13:49.036 [dramatic music playing] 13:54.208 --> 13:56.460 -Winston. -Hey. 13:56.544 --> 14:01.382 Will it be awkward for you seeing Maggie so soon? 14:01.924 --> 14:04.593 It'll definitely be awkward, yeah. 14:04.677 --> 14:06.595 But, uh, you're coming anyway. 14:07.054 --> 14:10.224 Very few Black men have been nominated for this award... 14:10.307 --> 14:11.892 -[sighs] -So I'll be there. 14:11.976 --> 14:13.310 I'm proud of you, son. 14:14.728 --> 14:16.397 -I'm proud of me too. -[phone chimes] 14:16.480 --> 14:18.858 -Excuse me, a consult. -Okay. 14:21.944 --> 14:23.946 [taps] 14:24.029 --> 14:27.908 The Catherine Fox Award means something to people around here. 14:27.992 --> 14:32.204 You know, if Winston can rise and face Maggie, 14:32.288 --> 14:35.416 I think you'll be able to handle seeing Meredith. 14:35.499 --> 14:39.253 Dr. Webber, I don't believe in ranking medical contributions. 14:39.336 --> 14:42.089 I just don't. I also don't feel the need to go all the way to Boston 14:42.172 --> 14:43.632 for some rubber chicken dinner. 14:43.716 --> 14:45.301 Listen, I'm sorry, but it's a little presumptuous-- 14:45.384 --> 14:47.887 Your absence would be an insult to this hospital, 14:47.970 --> 14:51.140 your fellow nominees, and my wife for who the award is named, 14:51.223 --> 14:53.809 so I suggest you get off your moral high ground, 14:53.893 --> 14:58.397 set aside your feelings about Boston, do your job, and join us. 14:59.064 --> 15:01.191 [woman over PA] Dr. Olivares to Labor and Delivery. 15:01.275 --> 15:02.902 Dr. Nicole Olivares to Labor and Delivery. 15:02.985 --> 15:03.861 [sighs] 15:03.944 --> 15:06.280 Floor wasn't even slippery. 15:06.363 --> 15:08.282 There weren't any obstacles. 15:08.365 --> 15:10.409 I was just walking to the sink. 15:11.785 --> 15:13.287 -Ow. -What do you see, Millin? 15:13.370 --> 15:14.705 Uh, she has a fractured rib, 15:14.788 --> 15:16.916 which explains her pain when she moves her upper body. 15:16.999 --> 15:18.167 What's the treatment for that? 15:18.250 --> 15:19.627 Rest. It should heal on its own. 15:19.710 --> 15:22.838 -What about her head? -The cut doesn't appear serious, 15:22.922 --> 15:23.964 but I'd like to get a scan. 15:24.048 --> 15:27.468 So let's get her up to CT and page Neuro. 15:27.551 --> 15:31.347 -Maxine-- -I'm not up to visitors today. 15:31.430 --> 15:33.933 I think you two better go. 15:34.016 --> 15:37.186 I'll be here, and I will call with any updates. I promise. 15:37.269 --> 15:40.105 [light dramatic music playing] 15:46.695 --> 15:50.240 Left open comminuted humeral fracture, right open femoral fracture... 15:50.324 --> 15:51.742 Do you always narrate your data input? 15:51.825 --> 15:53.661 Helps keep me accurate. What are you working on? 15:53.744 --> 15:54.912 I'm watching an old triple A surgery 15:54.995 --> 15:57.247 while double checking the wedding spreadsheet for the RSVPs. 15:57.331 --> 15:58.332 Oh, you know I'm coming, right? 15:58.415 --> 15:59.708 Never sent in a card. 15:59.792 --> 16:02.044 I live with you. It was assumed. 16:02.127 --> 16:04.630 -Adams isn't coming. -That is different, and you know it. 16:06.173 --> 16:08.175 -You bringing a plus one? -[sighs] 16:08.258 --> 16:09.885 Did you even read the invitation? 16:09.969 --> 16:11.595 I was working two jobs. 16:11.679 --> 16:13.806 It's this weekend, right, isn't it? 16:13.889 --> 16:16.892 -Why'd you move it up again? -Grandma's getting worse. 16:16.976 --> 16:18.811 She's got maybe a good 90 minutes in the morning, 16:18.894 --> 16:20.688 -and that time is shrinking. -That's rough. 16:20.771 --> 16:23.273 You know what she remembers though? Weddings, she loves them, 16:23.357 --> 16:25.693 the colors, the flowers, the favors. 16:25.776 --> 16:27.361 We actually have conversations about the wedding 16:27.444 --> 16:29.405 that feel completely real. 16:30.030 --> 16:31.615 -Hi. -Hi. 16:32.032 --> 16:35.035 I'm just gonna take a look around. 16:35.119 --> 16:37.997 -How's the new space? -Can't complain. 16:42.001 --> 16:43.877 -Is everything okay? -I don't know, let me think. 16:43.961 --> 16:46.630 You complained to Altman about a job you haven't worked at for months. 16:46.714 --> 16:49.591 You projected your own trauma onto my situation 16:49.675 --> 16:50.968 resulting in half of the surgical chiefs 16:51.051 --> 16:53.053 -meeting about me. -I'm sorry. 16:53.137 --> 16:57.850 -I-- how can I make it up to you? -I'll get over it. 16:57.933 --> 17:00.602 I just need to be mad at you for a minute. 17:00.686 --> 17:03.564 -Is that a literal minute or-- -Figurative. 17:03.647 --> 17:04.648 Right. [chuckles] 17:05.858 --> 17:07.317 I'm just gonna... 17:13.073 --> 17:14.950 I always thought you two had chemistry. 17:15.034 --> 17:16.535 What, me and Helm? Why? 17:16.618 --> 17:18.328 -She hasn't made a move. -You could. 17:18.412 --> 17:19.413 I don't like rejection. 17:19.496 --> 17:22.416 I once had very embarrassing, somewhat traumatic rejection 17:22.499 --> 17:25.544 during a prom-posal go viral at my high school. 17:25.627 --> 17:28.338 I don't make the first move anymore, and it's worked out fine for me. 17:28.422 --> 17:30.090 Okay. 17:30.924 --> 17:32.801 Who's your plus one again? 17:32.885 --> 17:35.512 [quirky music playing] 17:38.724 --> 17:41.685 So you're an illustrator, huh? 17:41.769 --> 17:44.855 Yeah, yeah, graphic novels. 17:44.938 --> 17:48.776 I draw, and my friend Sunita writes the stories. 17:48.859 --> 17:50.736 We're working on one right now about a kid 17:50.819 --> 17:54.698 whose big brother is afraid to die before he turns 30, 17:54.782 --> 17:57.117 so they're building a portal to a parallel universe 17:57.201 --> 18:00.204 so that they could time jump and that he could turn 31 18:00.287 --> 18:02.831 and then reenter the real world. 18:02.915 --> 18:04.708 Cool. 18:04.792 --> 18:07.336 -Also very specific. -[chuckles] 18:07.419 --> 18:10.255 I had a really vivid dream when I was a kid. 18:10.339 --> 18:14.384 Um, my grandpa who died before I was born 18:14.468 --> 18:18.931 sat at the edge of my bed and told me we'd be together for my 30th birthday. 18:19.014 --> 18:19.973 [chuckles] 18:20.057 --> 18:22.601 It scared the crap out of me, 18:22.684 --> 18:25.020 so I've never smoked. I don't drink. 18:25.104 --> 18:27.481 I stopped eating meat. Hell, I don't even drive. 18:27.564 --> 18:29.108 I take public transit. 18:29.191 --> 18:30.859 And maybe it's completely irrational, 18:30.943 --> 18:33.821 but I always thought, if I could just make it 18:33.904 --> 18:37.199 past 30 I'll be okay. 18:37.282 --> 18:42.037 I need to stay alive for my mom, 18:42.121 --> 18:44.373 and I'm helping with my sister's college tuition, 18:44.456 --> 18:46.250 so I can't die. 18:48.919 --> 18:50.379 I don't wanna die. 18:53.757 --> 18:55.467 I don't want that either. 18:57.427 --> 19:00.055 Look, I'm not a professional like you, 19:00.139 --> 19:02.266 but here is your aorta. 19:02.349 --> 19:04.601 Dr. Adams, look, I appreciate what you're trying to do. 19:04.685 --> 19:07.229 Look, the statistics freak you out, so let's draw it. 19:09.231 --> 19:11.859 Okay, so we'll access your aorta through your groin, 19:11.942 --> 19:15.863 and then we'll thread a small wire up through the abdominal aneurysm, 19:15.946 --> 19:17.322 and then we'll deploy a graft, 19:17.406 --> 19:19.825 which will expand to reinforce the weak area 19:19.908 --> 19:22.953 and simulate an artery, which will allow blood 19:23.036 --> 19:25.664 -to flow through safely. -Is that a potato? 19:25.747 --> 19:27.958 -That's a kidney. -With a Slinky? 19:28.041 --> 19:30.711 -That's the graft. -[laughs] 19:30.794 --> 19:33.005 Bruh, you suck at drawing. 19:33.088 --> 19:35.340 [chuckles] Fair. 19:35.424 --> 19:38.302 But I promise 19:38.385 --> 19:41.305 this procedure has been tested over and over, 19:41.388 --> 19:43.807 and if a problem comes up like you mentioned, 19:43.891 --> 19:45.601 we have ways to address it. 19:45.684 --> 19:48.979 What we can't do is be with you if the aneurysm ruptures 19:49.062 --> 19:50.147 while you're at home. 19:53.400 --> 19:55.944 [Amelia] Did you feel dizzy before you fell, Mrs. Anderson? 19:56.028 --> 19:57.654 I don't think so. 19:57.738 --> 20:03.368 I just remember losing my balance and stupidly hitting my head on the sink. 20:03.452 --> 20:04.953 Maybe it's a sign. 20:05.037 --> 20:06.538 Loss of balance can be a symptom 20:06.622 --> 20:07.956 of a variety of conditions. 20:08.040 --> 20:10.042 Or a sign that my time is up. 20:10.125 --> 20:12.711 When the racehorse breaks its leg, 20:12.794 --> 20:14.004 they usually put it down. 20:14.087 --> 20:15.672 Max, you're not a racehorse. 20:15.756 --> 20:17.466 No, not anymore. 20:17.549 --> 20:21.261 Oh, an active brain bleed in the subdural space. 20:21.345 --> 20:22.429 We should prep for a decompression. 20:22.512 --> 20:24.181 -Kwan, book an OR. -On it. 20:24.264 --> 20:27.017 Uh, Dr. Shepherd, could I scrub in if that's okay? 20:27.100 --> 20:28.310 Uh, no, it's not. 20:28.393 --> 20:30.812 You were on neuro this morning, and you traded with Kwan. 20:30.896 --> 20:33.565 -I could trade back. -You will do no such thing. 20:33.649 --> 20:34.691 What is happening here? 20:34.775 --> 20:38.445 Ah, Millin just confirmed my suspicion that she's too close to the patient 20:38.528 --> 20:39.863 -to be her doctor. -What? No, no. 20:39.947 --> 20:42.699 I just-- she's talking about being euthanized like an animal. 20:42.783 --> 20:44.618 Look me in the eye and tell me 20:44.701 --> 20:47.621 that you do not consider that woman family. 20:47.704 --> 20:48.705 [light dramatic music playing] 20:48.789 --> 20:51.708 Mm-hmm, you're off the case for good. 20:51.792 --> 20:57.756 [music continues to play] 21:03.470 --> 21:04.888 -Dr. Altman. -Yes, yes. 21:04.972 --> 21:07.349 We're all very excited. Thanks, Catherine. 21:07.432 --> 21:09.351 You know, technically, Grey Sloan can claim 21:09.434 --> 21:11.144 three Catherine Fox Award nominees 21:11.228 --> 21:12.729 since Pierce performed her transplant here. 21:12.813 --> 21:14.064 That's great. About Ray-- 21:14.147 --> 21:16.525 Yeah, I know it can be disappointing. 21:16.608 --> 21:18.318 Sometimes patients just don't understand, 21:18.402 --> 21:20.737 but there will be other triple As to repair. 21:20.821 --> 21:22.781 Yeah, but I still think we should do Ray's. 21:22.864 --> 21:24.741 He signed the consent forms. 21:24.825 --> 21:29.079 [dramatic music playing] 21:29.162 --> 21:31.456 Page Griffith, and let's get him to radiology 21:31.540 --> 21:33.959 before he bolts again. Well done. 21:34.042 --> 21:38.714 [music continues to play] 21:41.967 --> 21:44.594 -Oh. -Seriously? 21:44.678 --> 21:46.888 You're lucky the twins' mom is still dilating. 21:46.972 --> 21:48.307 -What is it? -I have an itch to scratch. 21:48.390 --> 21:50.767 No, literally, it's-- help. 21:50.851 --> 21:52.602 This is what orderlies are for. 21:52.686 --> 21:55.063 I know. I could've called somebody else, 21:55.147 --> 21:57.941 but then you wouldn't be here. 21:58.025 --> 21:59.359 Don't move. 21:59.443 --> 22:00.777 Okay. That? 22:00.861 --> 22:03.405 Oh, you are the best doctor I've ever had in my life. 22:03.488 --> 22:06.867 If you ask for a sponge bath, I'm leaving. 22:06.950 --> 22:11.121 You know, last time I had a cast, they let me pick the colors. 22:11.204 --> 22:12.789 [laughs] How old were you? 22:12.873 --> 22:14.750 Seven. Fell off the monkey bars. 22:14.833 --> 22:16.501 You had a death wish even then, huh? 22:16.585 --> 22:17.794 I was so bummed. 22:17.878 --> 22:21.048 My dad was taking me to my first pro ball game. 22:21.131 --> 22:23.967 I had been practicing catching fly balls for three months. 22:24.051 --> 22:26.762 Glove doesn't fit over the cast. Can't catch anything. 22:26.845 --> 22:28.722 But the first baseman saw me in the stands, 22:28.805 --> 22:31.224 ran over, signed my cast. 22:31.308 --> 22:33.310 I cried when they cut it off. 22:33.393 --> 22:34.936 [quirky music playing] 22:35.020 --> 22:37.981 Well, you're, uh, lucky with all the dumb stuff you do 22:38.065 --> 22:40.108 that you haven't had a cast since. 22:40.192 --> 22:44.279 Yeah, I have had half a dozen surgeries 22:44.363 --> 22:46.615 and one metal plate, but, yeah, no casts. 22:46.698 --> 22:49.618 -[exhales] -[phone chimes] 22:49.701 --> 22:50.702 -The twins. -Oh. 22:50.786 --> 22:53.246 -Gotta go. -Lucky bastards. 22:56.917 --> 22:59.211 [applause] 22:59.294 --> 23:00.754 Thank you. Thank you so much. 23:00.837 --> 23:02.923 I'm-- hey, I'm glad to be nominated. 23:03.006 --> 23:04.216 [applause] 23:04.299 --> 23:07.469 Do you know how many codes I ran to save lives in the ER last year? 23:07.552 --> 23:09.679 -Where's my award for that? -For doing your job? 23:09.763 --> 23:10.639 He was doing his. 23:10.722 --> 23:11.973 My research is helping to cure Parkinson's. 23:12.057 --> 23:14.059 You don't see me nominated for anything. 23:14.142 --> 23:17.771 Listen to you two complaining about your lack of recognition. 23:18.688 --> 23:19.856 You're right. 23:19.940 --> 23:21.942 We're happy for him and Marsh. 23:22.025 --> 23:27.197 I mean, I oversaw a simultaneous 12-person domino surgery 23:27.280 --> 23:30.659 wherein six people got new kidneys. 23:30.742 --> 23:34.913 You know, I used deactivated HIV 23:34.996 --> 23:37.124 to save a boy with SCID. 23:37.207 --> 23:41.128 I mean, I spearheaded changes in post-op protocols 23:41.211 --> 23:45.424 to reduce post-op fistulas, basically curing the problem. 23:45.966 --> 23:49.302 If anyone should ask, "Where's my award?" it's me. 23:51.972 --> 23:54.808 -I was almost out of here. -You will be soon. 23:54.891 --> 23:57.227 Dr. Shepherd has done a lot of these. 23:57.310 --> 24:00.689 You're drilling into my 81-year-old skull, right? 24:00.772 --> 24:05.277 If it were only me, I'd tell you to put me out of my misery and send me to the farm. 24:05.360 --> 24:08.738 I talked to Norma about Jules. 24:08.822 --> 24:10.949 I said she was an excellent roommate. 24:11.032 --> 24:13.118 Not sure I can say the same about Norma. 24:13.201 --> 24:15.787 That woman snores like a freight train. 24:15.871 --> 24:16.913 [laughs] 24:16.997 --> 24:18.748 Let's hope it doesn't come to that. 24:18.832 --> 24:21.793 I know that Jules loves living with you. 24:21.877 --> 24:23.044 Mm. 24:23.128 --> 24:27.549 Pete, my son, he went to college 24:27.632 --> 24:30.635 right after my husband and I divorced. 24:30.719 --> 24:33.221 I brought him up to be independent, 24:33.305 --> 24:38.226 which was maybe my excuse for not being more involved. 24:38.310 --> 24:39.644 By the way, it worked. 24:39.728 --> 24:42.814 He graduated and moved to London. 24:42.898 --> 24:44.232 I hardly ever see him anymore. 24:44.316 --> 24:47.944 He doesn't need my homemade split pea soup 24:48.028 --> 24:52.324 or my special herbal teas to ward off colds 24:52.407 --> 24:55.535 or my hugs after a long day... 24:56.745 --> 25:01.416 but Jules, she needs all of those things. 25:01.500 --> 25:05.337 It seems she didn't have them when she was a child, 25:05.420 --> 25:07.297 and now I get to give them to her. 25:09.174 --> 25:12.260 -She's lucky to have you. -[chuckles] 25:12.344 --> 25:13.678 I'm the lucky one. 25:13.762 --> 25:16.223 [elevator dings] 25:16.306 --> 25:19.434 [tender music playing] 25:26.608 --> 25:28.109 [Teddy] What did you do to convince him? 25:28.193 --> 25:30.111 I drew a bad picture. 25:30.195 --> 25:32.697 I thought he'd respond to a different approach. 25:34.324 --> 25:38.203 Chief, I just wanted to say thanks for funding the intern skills practicum. 25:38.286 --> 25:39.538 -I appreciate it. -Of course. 25:39.621 --> 25:40.956 And congrats, again, on the nomination. 25:41.039 --> 25:42.123 Sure, yeah. 25:42.207 --> 25:44.584 Oh, uh, Richard wanted me to ask you about the dinner-- 25:44.668 --> 25:45.669 No, count me out on that. 25:45.752 --> 25:47.712 [Ray groaning] 25:48.380 --> 25:49.714 Ray, what's wrong? 25:49.798 --> 25:51.550 [Ray] My back, it really hurts. 25:51.633 --> 25:54.052 Something's wrong. 25:54.135 --> 25:55.554 Damn it. 25:56.346 --> 25:58.682 -Oh, my God, is that a-- -It's a rupture. Come on. 25:58.765 --> 26:00.850 Code blue! 26:00.934 --> 26:02.394 [woman over PA] Code blue, Radiology. Third floor. 26:02.477 --> 26:04.020 Call the blood bank. Activate an MTP. 26:04.104 --> 26:05.313 Let's go, let's go, let's go. 26:05.397 --> 26:06.565 [Lxandra's "The Elephant"] playing 26:06.648 --> 26:07.816 ♪ Somehow ♪ 26:07.899 --> 26:09.442 -I need a vascular setup. -I'll assist. 26:09.526 --> 26:11.945 -Alert the OR! -There's no time. 26:12.028 --> 26:13.530 -I'm opening him up right now. -On the CT table? 26:13.613 --> 26:16.908 There's nowhere else. You heard Altman. Let's go. Come on, let's go. 26:18.868 --> 26:20.495 Come on, Ray. 26:20.579 --> 26:21.830 Betadine, let's go. 26:21.913 --> 26:24.374 All right, I need suction setup. 26:24.457 --> 26:27.043 Lap pad. Ten blade. 26:27.127 --> 26:28.962 ♪ What are you gonna do? ♪ 26:29.045 --> 26:32.173 Here we go. Stop compressions. 26:32.257 --> 26:38.263 ♪ Oh, can't hide the skeletons ♪ 26:39.139 --> 26:40.640 ♪ Oh-oh ♪ 26:40.724 --> 26:42.100 More irrigation, please. 26:42.183 --> 26:43.810 ♪ This is hell out on the loose ♪ 26:43.893 --> 26:45.937 Almost through. 26:46.021 --> 26:48.565 We need to hang more blood. 26:49.232 --> 26:51.693 I need better visualization. 26:51.776 --> 26:53.486 Keep the compressions coming. 26:53.570 --> 26:57.198 ♪ From a shallow grave Every choice you made ♪ 26:57.282 --> 27:01.494 ♪ Shaking the ground Ground, ground, ground ♪ 27:04.331 --> 27:07.167 ♪ Hold on ♪ 27:07.834 --> 27:09.919 -Still no pulse. -Scissors. 27:12.297 --> 27:13.923 All right, got it. Clamp. 27:14.007 --> 27:17.969 ♪ Running out on you ♪ 27:18.053 --> 27:20.847 ♪ Do you feel it? ♪ 27:24.017 --> 27:26.645 ♪ Can't cage the elephant ♪ 27:26.728 --> 27:28.271 All right, more lap pads. 27:28.355 --> 27:30.649 ♪ Oh ♪ 27:30.732 --> 27:34.152 ♪ What are you gonna do? ♪ 27:35.570 --> 27:38.114 ♪ Oh ♪ 27:38.198 --> 27:42.160 ♪ Can't hide the skeletons ♪ 27:42.243 --> 27:44.788 ♪ Oh ♪ 27:44.871 --> 27:47.207 ♪ This is hell out on the loose ♪ 27:47.290 --> 27:49.751 Charge at 200. 27:49.834 --> 27:52.837 All right, clear. Come on, come on, come on. 27:52.921 --> 27:55.882 Charge again to 200. Clear. 27:55.965 --> 27:57.133 [defibrillator humming and thudding] 27:57.217 --> 27:58.510 Come on. 27:59.427 --> 28:01.012 Damn it. Let me in there. 28:01.096 --> 28:03.515 Come on. Come on. 28:03.598 --> 28:05.934 -Altman. -He's 29 years old. 28:06.017 --> 28:07.477 I know. We did everything we could. 28:07.560 --> 28:08.770 Come on. 28:10.313 --> 28:12.315 ♪ This is hell out on the loose ♪ 28:12.399 --> 28:14.275 Beautiful work, Dr. Shepherd. 28:14.359 --> 28:17.654 ♪ Can't hide the skeletons ♪ 28:17.737 --> 28:19.906 ♪ Oh ♪ 28:19.989 --> 28:23.201 ♪ This is hell out on the loose ♪ 28:24.828 --> 28:25.829 Time of death... 28:25.912 --> 28:27.205 [heart monitor droning] 28:27.288 --> 28:29.124 15:21. 28:38.425 --> 28:41.761 [tense music playing] 28:50.145 --> 28:53.273 Dr. Webber, hi. Exciting news this morning. 28:53.356 --> 28:55.150 Well, I wish everyone shared your enthusiasm. 28:55.233 --> 28:58.069 Well, you know who loves awards? Helm. 28:58.153 --> 28:59.988 -Oh, she does, huh? -I don't know. 29:00.071 --> 29:01.781 I'm just looking for a good segue. 29:01.865 --> 29:03.742 -Ah. -How did things go with her? 29:03.825 --> 29:04.784 She said she'd think about it. 29:04.868 --> 29:06.411 Did she seem upbeat? 29:06.494 --> 29:09.914 Well, honestly, she was asking for things we hadn't done before. 29:09.998 --> 29:11.082 Were they unreasonable? 29:11.166 --> 29:13.334 Well, not terribly, I suppose, but-- 29:13.418 --> 29:14.919 With all due respect, sir, 29:15.003 --> 29:16.880 I don't see why this is a question. 29:16.963 --> 29:19.382 This hospital is bursting at the seams with patients 29:19.466 --> 29:22.427 and not enough doctors. Helm is a proven asset. 29:22.510 --> 29:24.304 You know exactly what you're getting with her, 29:24.387 --> 29:25.263 because you trained her. 29:25.346 --> 29:27.056 You've worked with her long enough to know 29:27.140 --> 29:29.893 her talent and her dedication, and frankly, Sir, 29:29.976 --> 29:33.813 we need more senior residents, so please, please, 29:33.897 --> 29:35.231 just give her what she wants. 29:35.315 --> 29:36.775 [woman over PA] Nurse Kingsbury to Five West 29:36.858 --> 29:38.193 Nurse Kingsbury to Five West. 29:38.735 --> 29:42.697 Again, it ruptured, and we couldn't control the bleeding. 29:42.781 --> 29:44.157 [sobbing] 29:44.240 --> 29:47.202 I am very sorry, Mrs. Sanchez. 29:47.285 --> 29:48.578 I... 29:51.414 --> 29:54.918 the hospital will mail your son's belongings to you in Tempe. 29:56.044 --> 29:57.796 Thank you, Doctor. 29:58.338 --> 29:59.714 [phone beeps] 29:59.798 --> 30:02.342 Yeah, those calls are never easy. 30:05.804 --> 30:07.806 Hey, you got him back to the hospital. 30:09.557 --> 30:13.228 Adams, there's-- there's a thing with ADHD 30:13.311 --> 30:18.691 where we feel the losses really deeply, so you have to take equal time 30:18.775 --> 30:19.859 to give yourself credit when you win. 30:19.943 --> 30:23.696 -You fought for him. -Hey, hey. 30:23.780 --> 30:27.325 You fought for him. That matters. 30:28.952 --> 30:32.455 He knew in his gut he was dying. 30:32.539 --> 30:34.541 He knew he wasn't gonna see 30. 30:36.376 --> 30:39.462 I knew in my gut that I was different. 30:40.213 --> 30:42.465 There was something different about me my whole life. 30:42.549 --> 30:45.343 I knew I wasn't just lazy, which is what they called me. 30:46.052 --> 30:47.887 You know, I went down a rabbit hole online, 30:47.971 --> 30:50.682 and I have pretty much every single symptom. 30:52.642 --> 30:56.604 I mean, difficulty focusing, time blindness, short attention span, 30:56.688 --> 30:58.565 and my family is full of doctors. 30:58.648 --> 31:02.193 It's not like ADHD is rare. You saw it. Why didn't they? 31:03.611 --> 31:04.612 [sighs] 31:06.656 --> 31:10.785 I-- I think parents, sometimes they see their kids 31:10.869 --> 31:12.328 through the lens of their own experience. 31:12.412 --> 31:13.788 Your parents were overachievers, 31:13.872 --> 31:15.623 so they expected you to be, and when you weren't, 31:15.707 --> 31:17.667 they were so busy pushing and pushing you to live up 31:17.750 --> 31:20.044 to your potential, they didn't think to look 31:20.128 --> 31:21.838 for why you weren't 31:22.839 --> 31:25.800 Yeah, or maybe they were just too busy being disappointed in me, 31:25.884 --> 31:27.635 they didn't bother. 31:29.846 --> 31:31.389 [sighs] 31:36.603 --> 31:38.980 You know, I hope you win the Catherine Fox Award. 31:41.649 --> 31:43.067 Why? 31:43.151 --> 31:47.822 I don't know, because I feel like a failure, 31:47.906 --> 31:51.284 and I feel like I caught this too late, and if you win, then-- 31:51.367 --> 31:53.828 If I win, we aren't just losers? 31:53.912 --> 31:55.204 Is that it? 31:55.288 --> 31:58.082 [chuckles] Yeah, something like that. 31:58.166 --> 32:03.129 You know, Adams, this award, it doesn't mean anything. 32:05.298 --> 32:06.758 If that's your acceptance speech, 32:06.841 --> 32:10.136 -it's gonna need work. -[laughs] 32:12.931 --> 32:14.515 How long does a delivery usually take? 32:14.599 --> 32:17.143 -A couple hours? -Like, from Postmates? 32:17.226 --> 32:19.854 -Never mind. -Dude, you gotta take it easy. 32:19.938 --> 32:23.524 Women don't love aggressive flirting, at least not from men. 32:23.608 --> 32:25.193 You don't get anywhere if you don't ask. 32:25.276 --> 32:27.278 -You gotta at least ask. -False alarm. 32:27.362 --> 32:29.906 -You paged her again? -Wasn't me. 32:29.989 --> 32:31.282 The twins do not want to come out. 32:31.366 --> 32:32.492 So you came back to get cheered up 32:32.575 --> 32:34.494 -by your favorite patient. -No. 32:34.577 --> 32:38.081 I was making sure that Yasuda is checking... 32:38.164 --> 32:39.666 -I am. -On-- okay. 32:39.749 --> 32:40.917 Here. 32:43.878 --> 32:45.755 -That sounds... -Weak. 32:45.838 --> 32:48.174 It does sound weak. Here. 32:48.257 --> 32:49.592 [light dramatic music playing] 32:49.676 --> 32:51.844 Take this. Ready? 32:54.055 --> 32:56.265 -The flap's congested. -What does that mean? 32:56.349 --> 32:58.893 We moved muscle from the back of your leg 32:58.977 --> 33:01.521 -to the front to cover the bone. -The flap. 33:01.604 --> 33:02.939 Yes. Yasuda, what's happening? 33:03.022 --> 33:04.607 A hematoma, it's putting pressure 33:04.691 --> 33:06.192 on the flap and cutting off the blood supply. 33:06.275 --> 33:07.402 Why do I feel like this is bad? 33:07.485 --> 33:09.696 -It is bad, if the flap dies. -Is that gonna happen? 33:09.779 --> 33:11.906 -Not if I decompress it. -Another surgery? 33:11.990 --> 33:13.282 We can do it right here if you consent. 33:13.366 --> 33:14.534 Do it. Do it. 33:14.617 --> 33:16.661 Yasuda, push additional morphine. 33:16.744 --> 33:19.539 I'm good. I have a high pain threshold. 33:19.622 --> 33:21.499 Plus I kind of want to see this. 33:22.291 --> 33:24.669 Okay. Ready? 33:27.088 --> 33:28.798 [groans] 33:28.881 --> 33:30.675 -Okay, more gauze. -Yeah. 33:30.758 --> 33:33.344 -Thank you. -Okay. 33:33.428 --> 33:35.430 -[groans] -Just breathe. 33:35.513 --> 33:37.890 [groans] 33:41.853 --> 33:43.354 [sighs] 33:45.064 --> 33:47.984 [knock at door] 33:49.235 --> 33:51.112 The decompression went well. 33:52.780 --> 33:55.408 I know those are a regift. I'm the one who brought them. 33:55.491 --> 33:56.993 I thought you'd want to keep these for Maxine 33:57.076 --> 33:58.494 while she's in the ICU. 34:00.079 --> 34:02.623 Or I could keep them by the nurses' station. 34:02.707 --> 34:03.791 No, leave 'em there. 34:04.751 --> 34:09.922 Well, hopefully, it won't be that long, and you can both get out of here. 34:10.006 --> 34:12.884 I know what it feels like 34:12.967 --> 34:14.844 to sit by the side of someone you love 34:14.927 --> 34:17.972 and worry they're not gonna make it. 34:18.056 --> 34:21.225 I know that fear and anger and grief. 34:22.727 --> 34:25.938 It's okay. Professional distance and all. 34:26.022 --> 34:29.067 I'm just saying it's okay to have those feelings. 34:31.069 --> 34:32.820 I'm here for you. 34:32.904 --> 34:34.489 I'm fine, Kwan. 34:34.572 --> 34:39.077 I need to call Norma and Lois. 34:49.670 --> 34:52.548 [light dramatic music playing] 34:52.632 --> 34:55.551 [sobbing] 34:55.635 --> 35:01.224 [music continues to play] 35:08.773 --> 35:10.108 I've done a lot of cool things, 35:10.191 --> 35:13.903 but you just sliced into my leg like it was nothing. 35:13.986 --> 35:17.198 -It's no swimming with sharks. -Oh, you went deep. 35:17.281 --> 35:19.158 That post was from at least three years ago. 35:19.242 --> 35:21.994 Wow, I never thought I could be a third wheel 35:22.078 --> 35:23.704 -in a patient room. -What was that, Yasuda? 35:23.788 --> 35:24.956 Nothing. 35:25.623 --> 35:28.376 Dr. Wilson, OB called for you. 35:28.459 --> 35:30.419 Cathy Han is headed into L&D. 35:30.503 --> 35:31.754 -For real this time? -I don't know. 35:31.838 --> 35:34.924 -I don't work up there. -Okay. 35:35.007 --> 35:38.010 You just cut my leg open, and now you're about to deliver twins? 35:38.094 --> 35:40.263 You are my hero. Sign my cast. 35:42.140 --> 35:44.058 [sighs] 35:45.143 --> 35:48.646 -No tears when they remove it. -No promises. 35:48.729 --> 35:50.064 [laughs] 35:52.942 --> 35:55.862 See? You gotta at least ask. 35:59.198 --> 36:00.700 -Richard. -Here you go. 36:00.783 --> 36:01.993 -Marsh. -Yeah. 36:02.076 --> 36:03.995 -I care about this program. -I do too. 36:04.078 --> 36:05.037 Not like I do. 36:05.121 --> 36:07.582 It's my legacy, and I need to get it back to where it was, 36:07.665 --> 36:10.626 and a nomination for our residency director is a big deal. 36:10.710 --> 36:13.588 I was about to ask about a seat on the plane. 36:13.671 --> 36:16.090 The residents, they need me to get over myself, 36:16.174 --> 36:19.844 and apparently so do you, so yes, 36:19.927 --> 36:22.096 I can put aside my feelings about... 36:23.181 --> 36:26.225 Boston if there's still room on that plane. 36:26.309 --> 36:28.311 [tender music playing] 36:28.394 --> 36:30.563 I think that can be arranged. 36:30.646 --> 36:32.190 -Good night. -Good night. 36:32.273 --> 36:33.858 [Meredith] When a patient codes or loses their airway, 36:33.941 --> 36:36.694 a doctor's first priority is to get oxygen flowing. 36:39.447 --> 36:42.158 We have a limited time before damage sets in, 36:42.241 --> 36:43.701 so we spring into action... 36:43.784 --> 36:45.620 Cheeseburger, no mayo, extra pickles, 36:45.703 --> 36:47.455 -and a side of fries. -I didn't order. 36:47.538 --> 36:49.081 -Did you want something else? -No. 36:49.165 --> 36:51.584 I've just never been a regular anywhere before. 36:51.667 --> 36:55.922 Yeah, well, don't get used to it, because I just gave notice. 36:56.964 --> 36:58.758 You're coming back to the hospital? 36:58.841 --> 37:00.426 -Yep. -Ah. 37:00.509 --> 37:01.844 And there's something I should tell you. 37:01.928 --> 37:03.471 Okay. 37:03.554 --> 37:06.849 Uh, as you know, resident wellness 37:06.933 --> 37:09.435 -is important to me. -Same. 37:09.518 --> 37:12.855 Uh, and I told Webber that if I came back 37:12.939 --> 37:15.858 I wanted to be in a position to help with that, 37:15.942 --> 37:17.777 you know, make sure people don't burn out, 37:17.860 --> 37:21.864 that they have mentors, and so Webber agreed 37:21.948 --> 37:24.659 to make me co-chief resident with you. 37:24.742 --> 37:26.911 [upbeat bluesy rock music playing] 37:30.873 --> 37:33.042 -[laughs] -That's the best news ever. 37:33.125 --> 37:34.877 Okay. 37:34.961 --> 37:37.046 -I'm so glad you think that. -Are you kidding? 37:37.129 --> 37:39.840 It's way too much work for any one human to do, 37:39.924 --> 37:42.176 -plus it's you and me. -I know. 37:42.260 --> 37:43.970 Were you surprised when Webber agreed to it? 37:44.053 --> 37:47.265 Not nearly as much as when he agreed to give me eight weeks' vacation. 37:47.348 --> 37:49.725 -Eight weeks? -Yeah. 37:49.809 --> 37:51.102 But don't worry, though. 37:51.185 --> 37:53.813 I'll give you plenty of notice before I take it. 37:53.896 --> 37:56.107 Eight weeks. 37:56.190 --> 37:58.943 [Meredith] But in life, time limits aren't as clear. 37:59.568 --> 38:01.362 Do you want to go to a wedding? 38:01.445 --> 38:03.197 Do they need a bartender? 38:03.281 --> 38:06.075 Okay, I have to say something to you 38:06.158 --> 38:11.247 that is not very comfortable for me to say, which is that I like you, 38:11.330 --> 38:13.207 and I don't mean that as a boss or a friend. 38:13.291 --> 38:16.294 I like you like you, and if you're not interested, 38:16.377 --> 38:18.296 that's okay. I will simply walk away 38:18.379 --> 38:20.298 and possibly never step foot in this bar again 38:20.381 --> 38:21.924 due to my previously mentioned discomfort, 38:22.008 --> 38:24.635 but at least I asked... 38:25.553 --> 38:27.596 and if you are interested, 38:27.680 --> 38:29.473 my roommate Simone is getting married, 38:29.557 --> 38:31.976 and I know it's very last minute, but there will be food and drinks, 38:32.059 --> 38:34.895 and I think dancing. I still haven't fully read the invitation, 38:34.979 --> 38:35.980 -but I... -Uh, Yasuda... 38:36.063 --> 38:40.484 I thought we could go together on a date in case that wasn't clear. 38:40.568 --> 38:41.652 [Meredith] It can be hard to gauge 38:41.736 --> 38:44.780 whether it's better to hurry up or take things slow. 38:44.864 --> 38:49.910 Uh, Yasuda, I'm about to be your boss. 38:49.994 --> 38:52.913 co-chief resident with Schmitt. 38:52.997 --> 38:55.666 Oh. It's inappropriate. 38:55.750 --> 38:58.669 But... 38:58.753 --> 39:00.629 if the wedding is this weekend... 39:00.713 --> 39:01.922 It is. 39:02.006 --> 39:05.259 Then our date would predate my employment. 39:05.343 --> 39:06.761 It would. 39:06.844 --> 39:08.471 [Joy Oladokun's "Sweet Symphony" playing] 39:08.554 --> 39:10.056 -Okay. -Okay. 39:10.139 --> 39:12.099 -Do you want a drink? 39:12.767 --> 39:13.809 Yep. 39:13.893 --> 39:15.644 [Meredith] We don't always know how much time we have 39:15.728 --> 39:18.064 before the clock runs out on opportunity. 39:21.025 --> 39:24.487 ♪ I get weak ♪ 39:24.570 --> 39:26.489 ♪ Whenever you're around ♪ 39:26.572 --> 39:28.866 -Babies? -Babies. 39:28.949 --> 39:30.993 Yay. Fist bump. 39:31.077 --> 39:33.829 -No. -[chuckles] 39:33.913 --> 39:37.583 Okay, well, your signal sounds good. Is there anything else I can get for you? 39:37.666 --> 39:41.462 Another itch scratched, please. 39:41.545 --> 39:45.424 -Where? -Back of my neck, right side. 39:45.508 --> 39:47.218 [sighs] Okay. 39:49.595 --> 39:51.764 -[chuckles] -Okay. [clears throat] 39:51.847 --> 39:54.141 -Mm-hmm. -There? 39:54.225 --> 39:56.435 You know, if being an OB and a surgeon doesn't pan out, 39:56.519 --> 40:00.314 -you could switch to this. -[chuckles] 40:00.398 --> 40:02.191 Oh, I was just coming to check on you, 40:02.274 --> 40:04.318 -but I guess you're covered. -This woman is my hero. 40:04.402 --> 40:06.487 She cut my leg open like it was a piece of steak. 40:06.570 --> 40:07.780 I heard. 40:09.281 --> 40:11.575 Okay, I guess I'm gonna head out. 40:11.659 --> 40:13.411 I'm gonna grab some food on the way home. 40:13.494 --> 40:15.579 -You want anything? -Oh, no, I'm fine. 40:15.663 --> 40:17.206 Wait, you two live together? 40:17.289 --> 40:19.750 -We do. -We're roommates. 40:20.334 --> 40:22.711 Okay, I'll see you later. 40:22.795 --> 40:25.840 ♪ Dungeons and ivory towers ♪ 40:25.923 --> 40:28.384 -Let's see here. -So twins, huh? 40:28.467 --> 40:30.261 -Mm-hmm. -Identical? 40:30.344 --> 40:31.804 -Identical. -Oh. 40:31.887 --> 40:33.055 I know. 40:33.139 --> 40:36.684 ♪ But as long as we keep every promise ♪ 40:36.767 --> 40:38.310 [Meredith] Often we can't even be sure 40:38.394 --> 40:40.104 if our time has passed... 40:42.064 --> 40:45.651 ♪ I know ♪ 40:45.734 --> 40:46.944 ♪ There'll be heavy days ♪ 40:47.027 --> 40:49.029 -Is Yasuda home? -At Joe's. 40:49.113 --> 40:52.158 -To eat, not work. -Huh. 40:52.241 --> 40:55.744 -I'm so sorry about Ray. -Yeah, yeah, me too. 40:57.913 --> 40:59.248 -So... -Oh, you can... 40:59.331 --> 41:01.041 You can-- you can have one. 41:01.125 --> 41:03.043 There is plenty. 41:03.127 --> 41:05.671 ♪ Sweet symphony ♪ 41:05.754 --> 41:10.968 So there's this thing with ADHD, which I'm figuring out I probably have, 41:11.051 --> 41:14.054 but there's this thing, this symptom 41:14.138 --> 41:18.058 where you get stuck in your head, you overthink, 41:19.101 --> 41:20.686 you have a hard time saying what you mean, 41:20.769 --> 41:22.646 because you can't help but think about 41:22.730 --> 41:27.860 all the possible ramifications, and so... 41:30.154 --> 41:33.282 -Don't get married. -Lucas. 41:33.365 --> 41:38.496 Maybe-- maybe I'm too late, or maybe I lost my chance. 41:38.579 --> 41:40.748 But I wouldn't be able to live with myself 41:40.831 --> 41:44.126 if I didn't tell you while you still had time 41:44.210 --> 41:46.921 to change your mind. 41:47.004 --> 41:48.380 Trey doesn't see you, 41:48.464 --> 41:52.051 or maybe he sees an old version of you, 41:52.134 --> 41:54.303 but I see you. 41:54.386 --> 41:56.138 Simone, I see you... 41:57.181 --> 42:02.436 and I love every single thing I see. 42:02.520 --> 42:04.647 ♪ Even if the world ♪ 42:04.730 --> 42:08.234 ♪ That we built falls at our feet ♪ 42:08.317 --> 42:12.112 ♪ We're still right where We're supposed to be ♪ 42:12.196 --> 42:14.448 ♪ Together through ups And the downs ♪ 42:14.532 --> 42:16.575 [Meredith] And all we can do is seize the present. 42:16.659 --> 42:19.537 ♪ Dungeons and ivory towers ♪