WEBVTT 00:02.544 --> 00:05.880 [Meredith] For decades, if we wanted to see inside the brain, 00:05.964 --> 00:08.049 we have to inject air into a patient's spinal column. 00:08.133 --> 00:09.509 [Bartender] What can I get you? 00:10.260 --> 00:12.512 Scotch, please. Thank you. 00:13.013 --> 00:16.766 [Meredith] It was painful. It was described as torture. 00:16.850 --> 00:19.019 ♪ You don't ever have to hide ♪ 00:19.102 --> 00:22.105 ♪ Oh, you can be yourself ♪ 00:22.188 --> 00:25.025 ♪ Yeah, you can be yourself ♪ 00:25.108 --> 00:28.737 [Meredith] Then in 1971, a British engineer changed everything 00:28.820 --> 00:31.448 when he performed the first CT scan. 00:31.531 --> 00:33.575 ♪ Oh, you can be yourself ♪ 00:33.658 --> 00:34.909 ♪ Yeah, you can be yourself ♪ 00:34.993 --> 00:36.369 What's on your mind? 00:37.662 --> 00:39.956 Come on. Spill. 00:40.498 --> 00:42.292 ♪ I don't care where it goes ♪ 00:42.375 --> 00:44.252 Simone, what happened at your wedding? 00:44.961 --> 00:47.464 No, don't do that. Let's... 00:50.717 --> 00:52.218 stay here. 00:52.302 --> 00:53.511 As long as we can. 00:53.595 --> 00:55.638 ♪ Who could love you any more? ♪ 00:55.722 --> 00:58.308 ♪ You can trust me completely ♪ 00:58.391 --> 01:00.685 -♪ I'm just asking for you ♪ -[cellphone chimes] 01:00.769 --> 01:01.811 [groans] 01:01.895 --> 01:02.979 ♪ To be yourself ♪ 01:03.980 --> 01:06.649 ♪ Oh, you can be yourself ♪ 01:11.780 --> 01:13.698 Schmitt's tied up in the ICU. 01:13.782 --> 01:15.158 Wants me to cover the pit. 01:16.117 --> 01:18.536 ♪ Oh, and I don't care who wins ♪ 01:18.620 --> 01:21.122 I should probably check on Tobey anyway. 01:22.290 --> 01:25.668 ♪ Yeah, you can be yourself ♪ 01:25.752 --> 01:28.379 ♪ I'm in love with all your pages ♪ 01:28.463 --> 01:30.924 ♪ I don't want to see it end ♪ 01:31.007 --> 01:32.300 ♪ Oh, you can be yourself ♪ 01:32.383 --> 01:34.010 [Meredith] And for the first time, 01:34.094 --> 01:36.554 we could see what was happening inside the brain. 01:37.889 --> 01:42.811 It was painless, convenient and an absolute game-changer. 01:42.894 --> 01:44.479 Eight pounds, seven ounces. 01:44.562 --> 01:45.522 [laughs] 01:45.605 --> 01:47.982 -And Kelly? -Cursing me. 01:48.066 --> 01:49.651 She only let me out the house to come visit you 01:49.734 --> 01:52.028 because I promised to bring home a chai latte and nipple cream. 01:52.112 --> 01:54.948 We actually sell both those things right here at the hospital. 01:55.031 --> 01:56.741 ♪ You can trust me completely ♪ 01:56.825 --> 01:58.159 What's his name? 01:58.243 --> 01:59.202 Sam. 02:00.870 --> 02:01.996 It's Kelly's idea. 02:02.080 --> 02:03.873 [chuckles] 02:05.125 --> 02:07.127 -I'll come by tomorrow. -I'll be here. 02:07.669 --> 02:09.087 Oh... 02:09.170 --> 02:11.214 Don't let him bother you too much. 02:11.297 --> 02:13.174 The wedding was shorter than expected. 02:13.258 --> 02:14.843 Dr. Lincoln sent me to tag you out. 02:14.926 --> 02:16.136 Oh, it's okay, I got it. 02:16.219 --> 02:18.763 -But he said-- -I got it! You can go. 02:20.473 --> 02:21.683 You're in black scrubs. 02:21.766 --> 02:24.477 That means at this moment, you're an OB resident. 02:24.561 --> 02:26.146 Dr. Lincoln is an attending. 02:26.229 --> 02:28.439 Technically speaking, he outranks you, so if I'm good at my job-- 02:28.523 --> 02:29.607 Yasuda! 02:29.691 --> 02:32.485 In any color scrubs, I outrank you. 02:32.569 --> 02:34.112 Go cover the pit. 02:34.195 --> 02:36.281 ♪ Be yourself ♪ 02:36.364 --> 02:37.407 [sighs] 02:37.490 --> 02:39.117 ♪ Oh, you can be yourself ♪ 02:39.200 --> 02:40.577 [sighs] 02:40.660 --> 02:41.786 Wow. 02:41.870 --> 02:44.706 That guy really doesn't want you to be alone with me. 02:44.789 --> 02:46.249 What's the story? 02:46.332 --> 02:49.878 [Meredith] But just because we could now see inside a person's brain... 02:51.129 --> 02:53.590 ...doesn't mean we know what it's thinking. 02:54.090 --> 02:56.843 Okay, so I'm guessing you all received the same cryptic text that I did. 02:56.926 --> 02:58.678 More rude than cryptic. 02:58.761 --> 03:00.054 Didn't even open with a "hello." 03:00.138 --> 03:01.431 I'm hoping for a tour. 03:01.514 --> 03:02.515 [scoffs] 03:02.599 --> 03:04.726 [Meredith] Sample A is identical... 03:04.809 --> 03:05.935 It could be a technical error. 03:06.019 --> 03:07.604 -Meredith? -[Meredith] This doesn't make sense. 03:07.687 --> 03:09.397 It does not make sense. 03:09.480 --> 03:10.690 It's all wrong. 03:11.441 --> 03:12.400 What is? 03:15.820 --> 03:16.988 Everything. 03:17.071 --> 03:18.907 Are you okay? 03:18.990 --> 03:22.035 We have to question everything we know about Alzheimer's 03:22.118 --> 03:23.786 if we're gonna cure it. 03:23.870 --> 03:28.791 [tense music playing] 03:36.424 --> 03:39.219 [Blue] She was fine. She was better than fine. 03:39.302 --> 03:42.013 Her fractured rib must've nicked her lung and caused the pneumothorax. 03:42.096 --> 03:44.057 Okay, we intubated her, we re-inflated her lung, 03:44.140 --> 03:45.558 why isn't her pressure rising? 03:45.642 --> 03:47.644 I don't know, maybe because she's 81. 03:47.727 --> 03:49.479 They don't exactly bounce back, Kwan. 03:49.562 --> 03:51.940 She will, though. She has to. 03:52.023 --> 03:53.691 We need to report this to Dr. Altman. 03:53.775 --> 03:56.027 We need to document everything that happened 03:56.110 --> 03:57.779 because the ethics committee will need it. 03:57.862 --> 04:00.365 Okay, what if we wean her off the sedatives, can we extubate? 04:01.616 --> 04:03.618 Damn it. Her pressure's still too low. 04:03.701 --> 04:05.370 She's not responding to fluids. 04:05.453 --> 04:06.871 [Jules] Max. Oh, my God. 04:06.955 --> 04:08.665 When I left, she was fine. I don't understand. 04:08.748 --> 04:09.832 Her lung collapsed. 04:09.916 --> 04:11.584 She's DNI. Why is she intubated? 04:11.668 --> 04:13.294 Who did this? 04:14.087 --> 04:15.213 Who did it? 04:16.506 --> 04:17.715 It was me. 04:20.009 --> 04:21.636 Over there. Great. Thank you. 04:23.429 --> 04:24.597 Helm? You're back? 04:24.681 --> 04:26.557 I was in the getaway van and now I have to pee. 04:26.641 --> 04:28.601 I don't know what that means, but there's a trauma coming in. 04:28.685 --> 04:31.771 Yes, I'll change! I'll change! I mean, I'll go change. 04:31.854 --> 04:34.023 -Yeah. Hey. Grab a gown, let's go. -Got it. 04:34.524 --> 04:36.776 [siren wails] 04:37.694 --> 04:42.073 -What do we got? -Twenty-nine-year-old male, GCS 15, MVC. 04:42.156 --> 04:43.700 Vehicle spun out of control and hit a tree, 04:43.783 --> 04:46.160 -suffered facial bruising and-- -It's okay, I'm a doctor. 04:46.244 --> 04:48.413 I just think it's my arm, it feels broken. 04:48.496 --> 04:50.081 And yes, potential injury to the left arm. 04:50.164 --> 04:52.625 [Owen] Got it. Adams, page ortho. Let's get him inside. Let's go. 04:55.545 --> 04:57.088 [mumbles] 05:00.842 --> 05:02.677 Her BP isn't responding to fluids. 05:02.760 --> 05:04.971 We need to put her on pressors if we're going to keep her alive. 05:05.054 --> 05:06.514 Great. More things she didn't want. 05:06.597 --> 05:09.726 Max was very clear. She was DNI and DNR. 05:09.809 --> 05:11.811 And Dr. Kwan blatantly ignored that. 05:11.894 --> 05:13.896 You can't keep going against her wishes. 05:13.980 --> 05:15.398 Before you do anything else, 05:15.481 --> 05:17.483 you need to speak with Maxine's medical proxy. 05:17.567 --> 05:19.193 I can call her son. 05:19.277 --> 05:22.864 Her medical proxy's isn't her son. It's... you. 05:23.656 --> 05:24.699 [sighs] 05:24.782 --> 05:28.077 Then it's Dr. Millin's decision. You either put her on pressors, 05:28.161 --> 05:30.038 or you extubate her and hope for the best. 05:30.121 --> 05:32.206 Pressors would keep her alive longer, but it's more about considering-- 05:32.290 --> 05:34.417 Can you please just be quiet for a minute? I need to think. 05:37.837 --> 05:39.464 [exhales sharply] 05:39.547 --> 05:44.677 Dr. Altman, is there a chance she'll make it if we remove the tube? 05:45.762 --> 05:47.138 You know I can't answer that. 05:49.640 --> 05:51.100 Fine. We'll put her on pressors. 05:51.184 --> 05:53.019 -I'm on it-- -Don't talk to me. 05:53.102 --> 05:54.520 Okay. 05:55.480 --> 05:56.647 Um, Schmitt? 05:58.316 --> 06:00.485 Do you think that you could just look inside my mouth 06:00.568 --> 06:03.154 and see if there's like an abscess or anything? 06:03.237 --> 06:05.406 I mean, it's on the left side. 06:05.490 --> 06:06.783 On the bottom. 06:07.158 --> 06:08.993 A-- Anything? 06:09.952 --> 06:13.289 No, but respectfully, Chief, I'm not a dentist. 06:14.707 --> 06:15.875 [clears throat] 06:18.419 --> 06:22.298 So there's just too much history. We're better as friends. 06:23.049 --> 06:25.718 Well, that explains why the doctor who saved my life 06:25.802 --> 06:27.387 now looks like he wants to kill me. 06:27.470 --> 06:28.429 He's in love with you. 06:28.513 --> 06:31.265 Oh, no. He's not. He's-- 06:31.349 --> 06:33.101 He's living with you? 06:33.184 --> 06:36.020 Raising his kid with yours? Learning sign language? 06:36.104 --> 06:37.188 As a friend. 06:37.271 --> 06:40.358 No guy does all that for a woman who's just a friend. 06:40.441 --> 06:43.027 Well, you don't understand our friendship. 06:43.111 --> 06:45.029 You don't understand your friendship. 06:45.113 --> 06:46.531 It's not like that. 06:46.614 --> 06:48.491 And honestly, I'm getting a little tired 06:48.574 --> 06:50.243 of having to explain this to people. 06:50.827 --> 06:52.495 Okay. Okay. 06:54.455 --> 06:58.501 I owe my life to Dr. Lincoln so I should probably get out his way. 06:59.544 --> 07:02.422 But he's had years to figure out what I did in just minutes. 07:03.089 --> 07:05.299 You are an amazing woman, Dr. Jo Wilson. 07:05.383 --> 07:06.592 And in a few weeks, 07:06.676 --> 07:08.177 when I'm not hooked up to all these machines, 07:08.261 --> 07:10.012 and you're no longer my doctor, 07:10.763 --> 07:13.766 I am going to sweep you off your feet like you deserve. 07:18.062 --> 07:20.940 I should check on my other patients. 07:21.023 --> 07:24.277 Good. You're chattin' my ear off and I need to rest. 07:24.944 --> 07:26.821 [chuckles] 07:28.364 --> 07:31.534 [Woman over PA] Dr. Sky to the NICU. Dr. Akira Sky to the NICU. 07:31.617 --> 07:33.453 -You ready? -[chuckles] 07:33.536 --> 07:37.165 Ready, yes. Ready to kick cancer's ass and go back to work. 07:37.248 --> 07:38.708 That's right. 07:38.791 --> 07:41.794 I took a couple of days off when I decided on the mastectomy 07:41.878 --> 07:43.254 -instead of the lumpectomy. -Good. 07:43.337 --> 07:44.755 But at least this way, 07:44.839 --> 07:47.216 -I don't need radiation five days a week. -Right. 07:47.300 --> 07:49.552 How are you? You here to spill more tea? 07:49.635 --> 07:51.762 Let's hope not. A failed wedding is enough for one day. 07:51.846 --> 07:53.306 [chuckling] All right. 07:53.848 --> 07:55.558 Oh, spoke too soon. 07:57.768 --> 07:58.853 I'll check on you in recovery. 07:58.936 --> 08:00.104 -Okay. -All right. 08:00.855 --> 08:02.190 Thanks. 08:02.273 --> 08:04.150 -Hi. -Trey's here. 08:04.233 --> 08:06.736 Here, as in, this hospital, here? Now? 08:06.819 --> 08:08.279 He came in as a patient in trauma one-- 08:08.362 --> 08:09.238 Oh, my God. 08:09.322 --> 08:11.866 It's just a minor car accident with a possible arm fracture-- Crap! 08:12.658 --> 08:14.285 Simone, it's minor! 08:15.286 --> 08:17.330 [Woman over PA] Dr. Burchfield to pediatrics. 08:17.413 --> 08:19.790 Dr. Benita Burchfield to pediatrics. 08:22.001 --> 08:24.086 The pressors seem to be working. 08:24.170 --> 08:25.379 Max is stable. 08:25.463 --> 08:26.672 For now. 08:29.509 --> 08:31.135 She was sitting there talking 08:31.219 --> 08:32.887 and then all of a sudden she couldn't breathe. 08:32.970 --> 08:34.889 And I had to make a split-second decision. 08:34.972 --> 08:36.224 And I chose to save her life. 08:36.307 --> 08:37.808 Life? 08:37.892 --> 08:39.852 I mean, look at her! 08:40.686 --> 08:42.313 That's not life for her. 08:43.439 --> 08:45.775 In fact, she considers that not life 08:45.858 --> 08:48.986 to the degree that she had legal papers drawn up 08:49.070 --> 08:50.404 and then she signed them. 08:50.488 --> 08:52.657 It's in her chart, it's on a board in her room, 08:52.740 --> 08:55.660 it's on her bracelet. It is not for you to choose. 08:55.743 --> 08:58.120 Do you have any idea the position that you've put me in? 08:59.121 --> 09:00.790 If we can't extubate, 09:00.873 --> 09:03.042 I'll have to decide whether we put in trach. 09:03.125 --> 09:04.919 Or a feeding tube. 09:05.002 --> 09:06.546 And if that doesn't work, 09:06.629 --> 09:10.633 I might have to decide to unplug my favorite person in the world. 09:16.055 --> 09:17.473 Where is she? Is she here? 09:17.557 --> 09:19.058 Just let us finish assessing you. 09:19.141 --> 09:21.811 Trey, you have a left comminuted humeral fracture. 09:21.894 --> 09:23.145 It's gonna require a plate in order to-- 09:23.229 --> 09:24.564 Align and stabilize the bone. 09:24.647 --> 09:25.815 Can I still operate or not? 09:25.898 --> 09:28.150 He's a second-year surgical resident in Baltimore. 09:28.234 --> 09:29.402 Is this your dominant hand? 09:29.485 --> 09:31.320 -No. -You'll be fine. 09:31.404 --> 09:33.072 We'll know more about your recovery once we get in there. 09:33.155 --> 09:34.115 Yeah. 09:34.198 --> 09:35.533 This could be bad. 09:35.616 --> 09:36.993 Trey, I'm so sorry. 09:37.076 --> 09:39.036 -You two know each other? -Don't ask. 09:41.872 --> 09:42.873 It's because of him, isn't it? 09:44.000 --> 09:45.751 -Trey-- -Piece of crap! 09:45.835 --> 09:47.003 -Whoa! -[grunts] 09:47.086 --> 09:48.713 Hey! Hey, hey! 09:48.796 --> 09:50.214 That's my dominant hand. 09:50.298 --> 09:55.469 [intense music playing] 09:58.097 --> 10:00.975 Most people believe that Alzheimer's is related 10:01.058 --> 10:02.852 to the formation of amyloid plaque in the brain. 10:02.935 --> 10:05.771 People, as in, the top scientists in the field. 10:05.855 --> 10:07.481 You mean the people with the loudest voices. 10:07.565 --> 10:10.568 And they will shame anyone who believes any other theory 10:10.651 --> 10:11.944 other than the plaque theory. 10:12.028 --> 10:13.779 And that's where most of the funding goes. 10:13.863 --> 10:16.198 And the only meds that are approved 10:16.282 --> 10:17.617 are meds that reduce plaque. 10:17.700 --> 10:20.161 And those meds are supposedly reducing the plaque. 10:20.244 --> 10:23.873 Woop! Is that not a good thing? 10:23.956 --> 10:27.835 Well, it would be, if we could trust everything that's being published. 10:28.502 --> 10:31.047 I met a young neuroscientist out of Tennessee, 10:31.130 --> 10:33.549 and he found evidence of image-tampering 10:33.633 --> 10:35.009 in some of the leading papers. 10:35.092 --> 10:38.012 How long is she gonna do this? I need to present an award. 10:38.095 --> 10:40.890 Meredith, when's the last time you slept? 10:40.973 --> 10:42.767 Well, Jackson had to go to London to manage a crisis, 10:42.850 --> 10:44.101 so I called all of you here, 10:44.185 --> 10:46.562 because you all know me better than anyone else does. 10:46.646 --> 10:49.565 And I need to run this past you before I tell anyone else. 10:49.649 --> 10:50.816 Run what past us? 10:50.900 --> 10:52.985 My possible new theory on Alzheimer's. 10:55.154 --> 10:56.781 Let me show you more data. 10:56.864 --> 10:59.450 [whimsical music playing] 11:03.663 --> 11:06.791 Oh, thank God. Winston! Winston. Hey. Can you help me? 11:06.874 --> 11:09.210 I'm trying to fasten my dress, and Meredith keeps texting me. 11:16.342 --> 11:17.760 You look... 11:18.469 --> 11:19.470 [scoffs] 11:19.553 --> 11:21.055 That's a dress. 11:21.138 --> 11:22.390 And your hair. 11:23.140 --> 11:25.351 -Wow. -Wow yourself. 11:26.310 --> 11:28.896 [gasps] Um, here. 11:29.563 --> 11:30.606 Yeah. 11:37.863 --> 11:39.740 Congratulations. 11:40.825 --> 11:42.451 Chief of Cardio. 11:43.619 --> 11:47.498 Yeah, well, the previous chief left me a disorganized mess. 11:47.581 --> 11:50.126 -Schedule's color-coded by surgeon. -[laughs] 11:50.209 --> 11:53.087 Grand rounds topics are set until next year, 11:53.170 --> 11:56.966 possible case studies are labeled by procedure, so... 11:57.049 --> 11:58.551 -Yeah. -It's a catastrophe. 12:00.302 --> 12:01.595 [sighs] 12:01.679 --> 12:03.013 [clears throat] 12:03.889 --> 12:05.057 Thank you. 12:05.850 --> 12:07.226 You're welcome. 12:08.185 --> 12:12.565 [dramatic music playing] 12:28.706 --> 12:30.332 You know I'm Team Skywalker. 12:30.416 --> 12:32.543 Why do I sense there's a "but" coming? 12:32.626 --> 12:34.628 I just got a second chance and hit my stride, 12:34.712 --> 12:35.755 the chief respects me, 12:35.838 --> 12:38.424 and I don't need to get dragged out into a fight 12:38.507 --> 12:39.425 over you and Griffith. 12:39.508 --> 12:40.468 Well, I'm the one that got punched. 12:40.551 --> 12:43.095 And I can't live in a house where people are fighting. 12:43.763 --> 12:47.933 I'm gonna be working and living with a couple again. 12:48.017 --> 12:49.143 Just like in college. 12:49.226 --> 12:50.561 Okay. 12:50.644 --> 12:52.563 So we need some ground rules. 12:52.646 --> 12:54.482 No sex in shared spaces. 12:54.565 --> 12:56.650 No remnants of sex in shared spaces. 12:56.734 --> 12:59.361 No auditory anything because I need at least 12:59.445 --> 13:01.238 three full REM cycles per night 13:01.322 --> 13:04.325 to kick ass at work and I refuse to not kick ass at work. 13:04.408 --> 13:06.619 I need an intern for Trey's surgery. 13:06.702 --> 13:08.037 Maybe not you. 13:08.120 --> 13:10.206 Yasuda, call up and make sure that they're ready for us, okay? 13:10.289 --> 13:11.624 On it! 13:12.416 --> 13:13.626 Keep an eye on Sam Sutton for me. 13:13.709 --> 13:14.835 Sure. 13:24.512 --> 13:25.638 How long have you two been-- 13:25.721 --> 13:28.224 It wasn't like that. I never cheated on you. 13:29.141 --> 13:30.518 But you have feelings for him. 13:32.061 --> 13:34.313 I didn't leave you for another man. 13:34.396 --> 13:36.065 I didn't. I left... 13:37.316 --> 13:38.359 because I... 13:40.277 --> 13:43.322 I'm not the person I was when we got together after... 13:43.405 --> 13:44.782 everything that's happened. 13:45.658 --> 13:47.785 Blowing up my life in Baltimore, moving here, 13:47.868 --> 13:48.994 it's changed me. I'm... 13:50.538 --> 13:52.623 I'm a different person. I want different things. 13:52.706 --> 13:54.250 You mean you want Adams. 13:56.377 --> 13:58.712 What I don't understand is you said "yes." 13:58.796 --> 14:00.339 You moved up the wedding. 14:01.632 --> 14:02.883 Was any of it real? 14:03.509 --> 14:05.052 After Baltimore... 14:05.135 --> 14:06.804 -I mean, did you still love me? -Yes. 14:07.972 --> 14:10.224 -Then we can get through this. -Trey... 14:10.307 --> 14:12.601 I'll move here, we'll slow things down. 14:12.685 --> 14:15.187 -We can figure it out. -I've figured it out already. 14:15.271 --> 14:16.689 This isn't what I want. 14:17.356 --> 14:19.775 I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. 14:19.859 --> 14:21.986 You are an incredible person. 14:22.069 --> 14:25.114 And I'm sorry I let it drag on this long. 14:25.197 --> 14:28.409 I wanted to do the right thing. I was confused and... 14:31.453 --> 14:32.997 Let me clear something up. 14:33.622 --> 14:35.708 Adams isn't good enough for you. 14:35.791 --> 14:37.293 He's a screw-up... 14:37.376 --> 14:40.170 He'll never learn because he has a family name to back him up. 14:41.422 --> 14:44.633 And if you decide to be with him, your whole trajectory changes. 14:44.717 --> 14:46.510 And your life will fall apart, and I'm not gonna be there 14:46.594 --> 14:48.053 to help you pick up the pieces. 14:50.306 --> 14:55.269 [siren wailing in distance] 14:58.397 --> 15:01.650 [Levi] Max's pressure has improved and we're weaning her off pressors. 15:01.734 --> 15:04.904 Hopefully we'll be able to do a sedation pause and neuro exam soon. 15:06.864 --> 15:08.365 What if she doesn't wake up? 15:08.449 --> 15:09.533 What happens next? 15:09.617 --> 15:12.202 Just try not to think about that right now, okay? 15:13.913 --> 15:15.205 Why aren't you yelling at me right now? 15:15.664 --> 15:17.082 [chuckles] 15:20.127 --> 15:21.462 [sighs] 15:21.545 --> 15:24.757 Last year, I killed a patient because 15:24.840 --> 15:27.885 I was sure I knew how to save him... 15:28.552 --> 15:29.887 and I didn't. 15:31.305 --> 15:34.266 I learned more from that mistake than any of the wins, 15:34.350 --> 15:38.646 not because somebody yelled at me but because it ate at me. 15:38.729 --> 15:40.272 I would lie awake at night... 15:41.231 --> 15:46.195 feeling the blood all over me, how the scalpel felt in my hand, 15:47.196 --> 15:49.949 replaying it over and over in my mind. 15:50.032 --> 15:52.660 I don't have to yell at you because I've been there. 15:53.327 --> 15:55.621 And I know you're already doing it to yourself. 15:58.499 --> 15:59.833 I saved a life. 16:00.751 --> 16:02.336 I didn't end one. 16:06.131 --> 16:07.675 [sighs] 16:08.425 --> 16:11.553 He's making it really hard not to yell at him. 16:12.262 --> 16:13.514 [Winston laughs] 16:13.597 --> 16:14.723 [Maggie] What? 16:14.807 --> 16:16.266 Olympic Village. 16:17.601 --> 16:21.063 "Assemble the greatest talents in the world and put them in one building." 16:21.146 --> 16:24.358 Yeah, it feels like it was so long ago now. 16:25.359 --> 16:27.653 Still one of the best nights of my life. 16:30.280 --> 16:33.909 All right, let's do it. Lightning round, don't think, just answer. 16:33.993 --> 16:35.577 But we already know each other. 16:36.578 --> 16:37.913 Oh, okay. 16:37.997 --> 16:38.956 [laughs] 16:39.039 --> 16:40.708 All right, if you had a dog, what would you name it? 16:41.250 --> 16:42.584 Ruth. 16:42.668 --> 16:43.794 [chuckles] 16:43.877 --> 16:45.379 -For a dog? -Why not? 16:45.462 --> 16:46.588 [laughs] 16:46.672 --> 16:48.882 All right, a million dollars. What would you do with it? 16:48.966 --> 16:50.300 New boots. 16:51.051 --> 16:53.429 It's free money. You don't have to get what you need. 16:53.512 --> 16:54.972 I don't need them-- I want them. 16:55.055 --> 16:57.307 And you don't know what kind of boots I'm considering. 16:57.391 --> 16:58.851 Fair. All right. 16:58.934 --> 17:00.394 Okay, your turn. 17:00.477 --> 17:01.562 -Okay. -Dog name? 17:01.645 --> 17:04.106 -Marlin. -That's a good name for a dog. 17:04.189 --> 17:05.232 Yeah. 17:05.315 --> 17:06.608 Million dollars? 17:06.692 --> 17:10.154 I'd build a time machine. I could go back in time 17:10.237 --> 17:14.658 and tell my mom I was nominated for a Catherine Fox Award. 17:18.037 --> 17:19.705 Your answers are so much better than mine. 17:19.788 --> 17:21.165 [laughs] 17:21.248 --> 17:22.458 We should get dressed 17:22.541 --> 17:25.210 and check-in with Mer before the pre-reception for the nominees. 17:25.294 --> 17:27.421 These things never start on time. 17:32.134 --> 17:34.428 -[Nick] Wow. -What he said. 17:34.511 --> 17:35.512 [sighs] 17:35.596 --> 17:39.099 -Meredith, this is huge. -Right? 17:39.183 --> 17:41.351 And you can't tell anyone outside of this room. 17:41.435 --> 17:44.229 Well, Catherine asked me to speak to the fundraisers tonight. 17:44.313 --> 17:45.481 Update them on my work. 17:45.564 --> 17:48.609 If you tell them this, you'll be written off. 17:48.692 --> 17:52.905 Doctors who blow up pre-existing ideas, sound ideas-- 17:52.988 --> 17:55.115 They're not seen as "cutting-edge," 17:55.199 --> 17:56.617 they're seen as crazy. 17:56.700 --> 18:00.496 Not only will you jeopardize your relationship with the foundation, 18:00.579 --> 18:02.456 you could destroy your entire career. 18:02.539 --> 18:06.126 And if-- if you're right, it's gonna take you five years to prove it 18:06.210 --> 18:08.170 and another five years to be widely accepted. 18:08.253 --> 18:11.590 By then, you'll no longer be published or invited to conferences. 18:11.673 --> 18:13.258 You'll be forgotten. 18:15.260 --> 18:18.722 You see it. You see the data. 18:18.806 --> 18:20.849 You have to admit there is the possibility 18:20.933 --> 18:22.810 that the plaque is not causing Alzheimer's. 18:22.893 --> 18:24.394 I see inconsistencies. 18:24.478 --> 18:27.397 But, Mer, what you're hypothesizing... 18:27.481 --> 18:29.942 insults decades of genius work. 18:31.401 --> 18:32.778 It insults Derek's work. 18:33.695 --> 18:38.242 If this institute is important, if you want it to continue... 18:38.867 --> 18:41.120 you have to keep all of this to yourself. 18:41.203 --> 18:43.580 So should I not pursue my work? 18:43.664 --> 18:45.791 Should we just let the science catch up 18:45.874 --> 18:48.168 and let hundreds of thousands of people die? 18:48.252 --> 18:49.461 That would be lying. 18:49.545 --> 18:53.674 No, it's not lying. It's discretion. 18:53.757 --> 18:57.177 Look, I want you to pursue your work, just do it on the side! 18:57.261 --> 18:58.762 So that your lab stays open. 18:58.846 --> 19:00.806 And if you make this public, 19:00.889 --> 19:04.601 there's a possibility you could lose your funding and your reputation. 19:04.685 --> 19:08.772 Maintain the respect that you have built for yourself. 19:10.482 --> 19:15.654 [melancholy music playing] 19:23.620 --> 19:26.707 It's a protein identification system. 19:26.790 --> 19:29.543 It uses electricity to push tissue samples-- 19:29.626 --> 19:33.088 With protein through a gel which separates the molecules. 19:33.172 --> 19:34.298 Yeah, I know. 19:35.257 --> 19:38.010 As a fellow, I did a lot of bench research 19:38.093 --> 19:40.429 and spent way too many hours on one of those things. 19:42.598 --> 19:44.600 Intern seems to be doing well. 19:44.683 --> 19:46.476 Lucas says you've been very supportive. 19:46.560 --> 19:48.437 You know, we don't have to do this. 19:48.520 --> 19:50.189 -Do what? -Small talk. 19:50.272 --> 19:52.149 We don't have to do it, we just don't have to. 19:52.232 --> 19:54.318 I told you I loved you, you pretended not to hear me. 19:54.401 --> 19:57.029 It doesn't matter anymore. We've both moved on. 19:57.112 --> 20:00.324 And you're happy out here, that's good. And you're clearly breaking new ground. 20:02.201 --> 20:03.994 What would you do? Would you lie? 20:04.786 --> 20:05.871 [exhales deeply] 20:05.954 --> 20:07.289 I don't know. 20:08.457 --> 20:10.209 I guess it would depend on how badly I needed 20:10.292 --> 20:11.585 the money to keep the work going. 20:16.298 --> 20:18.300 But I don't know, did you really come all this way 20:18.383 --> 20:20.093 just to follow the rules? 20:21.053 --> 20:23.430 'Cause that would piss me off even more. 20:31.271 --> 20:32.940 [woman over the phone] Just have his doctors call. 20:33.023 --> 20:34.274 You've done enough already. 20:36.818 --> 20:37.861 Everything okay? 20:38.820 --> 20:42.449 That was Trey's mom. I just told her he's in surgery. 20:43.242 --> 20:44.243 How'd that go? 20:45.410 --> 20:47.246 They're really mad at me. 20:47.329 --> 20:48.997 Well, it's not your fault that he got into an accident. 20:49.081 --> 20:52.501 It is, Lucas. He was coming here. To see me. 20:52.584 --> 20:53.961 Because I blew up his life. 20:54.044 --> 20:56.338 And now he's a surgeon with a shattered arm. 20:56.421 --> 20:57.965 -Lincoln will do the repair-- -And you got punched-- 20:58.048 --> 20:59.049 -I'm fine. -And the money my dad gave me 20:59.132 --> 21:00.050 for the catering-- 21:00.133 --> 21:01.301 -Hey, don't think about that now. -None of this would have happened 21:01.385 --> 21:02.427 if it weren't for me. 21:02.511 --> 21:03.804 What, you're supposed to just marry someone you're not in love with? 21:03.887 --> 21:07.140 Stop... trying to let me off the hook, Lucas. 21:07.224 --> 21:08.642 I hurt people. 21:10.978 --> 21:12.312 [sighs] 21:12.396 --> 21:14.147 -Sorry. -It's fine. 21:15.190 --> 21:16.566 It's complicated. 21:16.650 --> 21:19.569 -I get that. I should go. -Wait, Lucas, I really-- 21:19.653 --> 21:21.655 No, Yasuda asked me to check on Sam Sutton, 21:21.738 --> 21:23.532 so text me if you need me. 21:28.620 --> 21:32.833 [machine beeping] 21:37.087 --> 21:39.673 I really understand what you love about Maxine. 21:40.382 --> 21:44.261 She's not just a funny and sweet old lady, 21:45.554 --> 21:46.471 she's brave. 21:46.555 --> 21:48.348 She's like no one I've ever met. 21:48.432 --> 21:51.685 And she's generous with her advice. 21:51.768 --> 21:53.562 And the way she gives it... 21:54.354 --> 21:55.897 reminds me a little of my mom. 21:56.815 --> 21:58.400 She worries about me. 22:00.485 --> 22:03.155 She doesn't always come out and say it, but... 22:04.197 --> 22:06.283 she'll leave a plate of food out. 22:06.366 --> 22:09.036 A cup of tea. Sunscreen. 22:09.119 --> 22:11.663 She'll accidentally wash my towels, 22:11.747 --> 22:14.124 bake my favorite muffins. She... 22:14.207 --> 22:17.127 [melancholy music playing] 22:17.210 --> 22:18.587 She worries. 22:20.422 --> 22:22.758 My own parents never really did that for me. 22:24.468 --> 22:28.555 -[gasps] -She's awake. Max? Max. Max. 22:28.638 --> 22:31.391 -[coughing] -No, no, no. Can you hear me? 22:31.475 --> 22:33.518 Don't touch the tube. I know, I know. 22:33.602 --> 22:35.645 -Relax, relax, I'm here. I'm here. -Relax, relax, relax. 22:35.729 --> 22:37.147 It's okay. It's okay. 22:41.610 --> 22:45.781 [woman] Please take your seats, the award show will begin shortly. 22:46.448 --> 22:49.201 Yes, this is a room filled with medical geniuses-- 22:49.284 --> 22:53.747 Hi! It's so good to see all of you! 22:54.414 --> 22:55.749 -Hi. -Hi. 22:55.832 --> 22:58.043 I thought we were gonna see you at Meredith's lab. 22:58.794 --> 23:01.546 You know, work called and I got stuck. 23:01.630 --> 23:03.298 Mm-hmm. 23:03.382 --> 23:05.592 -Can I come and see it tomorrow? -Of course. 23:05.675 --> 23:07.427 There she is! 23:07.511 --> 23:11.181 I need to borrow Meredith just for two minutes. 23:11.264 --> 23:12.516 -Darling? -Yes? 23:12.599 --> 23:14.601 The money table is over here. 23:14.684 --> 23:18.271 I want you to come and just give them an update on your work, 23:18.355 --> 23:21.191 say thank you and smile. Easy. 23:21.274 --> 23:22.526 -Easy. -[Nick] Good luck. 23:23.151 --> 23:25.904 Amelia, you're worse than my two boys. No phones at the table. 23:25.987 --> 23:27.114 [Amelia] It's Mer's research. 23:28.740 --> 23:33.620 As promised, I want to introduce all of you to Dr. Meredith Grey. 23:33.703 --> 23:34.830 Pleasure to meet all of you. 23:34.913 --> 23:37.165 Kenneth Turner. CEO of RIVCO. 23:37.249 --> 23:41.711 I have been following your work for years. I'm so appreciative of what you're doing. 23:41.795 --> 23:44.756 My mother was just diagnosed with Alzheimer's about a year ago. 23:44.840 --> 23:47.801 And it's been extraordinarily difficult, 23:47.884 --> 23:50.512 but you have been a source of hope. 23:51.430 --> 23:53.765 Any insider news into your progress? 23:53.849 --> 23:57.978 [dramatic music playing] 23:58.061 --> 24:04.067 Um, I do believe that we have been focused 24:04.151 --> 24:05.527 on the wrong thing. 24:06.445 --> 24:08.697 Which means your money is not being well spent. 24:08.780 --> 24:10.574 -Dr. Grey-- -Well, current studies 24:10.657 --> 24:14.703 and the dominant theories and the goal of the new treatments... 24:15.787 --> 24:18.248 I believe are designed on a faulty premise. 24:27.632 --> 24:29.176 Max, I know you're scared. 24:29.259 --> 24:31.011 We're going to get you more meds right now. 24:32.012 --> 24:34.848 Yeah, yeah, of course. Okay. 24:34.931 --> 24:36.016 Here. 24:42.772 --> 24:43.815 [groans] 24:43.899 --> 24:45.775 Max... Max, you are not dying. 24:46.359 --> 24:49.154 You don't have a long-term condition, you had a complication 24:49.237 --> 24:51.072 from a simple rib fracture. 24:51.156 --> 24:53.825 So I had to make a decision, and it might not have been 24:53.909 --> 24:56.453 the one that you wanted, but... I think you were wrong. 24:56.536 --> 24:58.330 And I think I was right to fight for you. 24:58.413 --> 25:00.916 Just like you taught me how to fight for Enzo and his mom. 25:00.999 --> 25:03.460 Okay, so just give us 24 hours on the vent. 25:03.543 --> 25:05.378 And we'll run some tests in the morning 25:05.462 --> 25:08.965 to make sure you can breathe on your own and then I promise we will take it out. 25:09.049 --> 25:11.259 And in the meantime, we'll give you some excellent drugs... 25:11.343 --> 25:12.969 -Yeah. -...and play some music 25:13.053 --> 25:14.054 or whatever you like. 25:14.137 --> 25:15.388 Tom Jones. 25:17.098 --> 25:18.266 We'll play Tom Jones. 25:25.273 --> 25:26.274 You're not Yasuda. 25:26.358 --> 25:29.861 No. She got called into the O.R. so I'll be taking over for a bit. 25:30.654 --> 25:33.323 Let me guess. The other guy looks worse? 25:33.406 --> 25:34.699 It's nothing. 25:35.242 --> 25:36.743 Disgruntled patient? 25:36.826 --> 25:39.287 Actually... yes. 25:39.371 --> 25:41.998 You don't have to worry about me. You could be terrible 25:42.082 --> 25:43.708 and I can't even really give you the finger. 25:43.792 --> 25:45.085 [sighs] You need to rest. 25:45.168 --> 25:47.420 Yeah. Yeah, I'll just lie here. 25:47.504 --> 25:50.131 Completely immobilized and starved for entertainment 25:50.215 --> 25:53.093 while you withhold whatever juicy story you have 25:53.176 --> 25:55.011 from a man who can't even move. 25:57.305 --> 25:58.807 -There's a girl. -Okay. 25:58.890 --> 26:00.725 You just don't need to finish. I know the rest. 26:00.809 --> 26:02.018 [chuckles] 26:02.102 --> 26:03.895 [laughs] 26:05.188 --> 26:06.690 [coughs] 26:06.773 --> 26:08.441 I feel funny. 26:08.525 --> 26:11.528 [machine beeping] 26:11.611 --> 26:12.821 Damn it. 26:12.904 --> 26:13.947 Hold on, Sam. 26:15.115 --> 26:16.700 Oh, God. 26:16.783 --> 26:18.618 -I need help in here! -[woman over PA] Code blue. 26:18.702 --> 26:21.997 -And page Chief Altman! -...ICU fourth floor. Code Blue. 26:22.080 --> 26:23.373 Rest up, okay? 26:24.207 --> 26:25.875 Let's keep an eye on the swelling. 26:27.043 --> 26:28.878 He says he doesn't want any pain meds, 26:28.962 --> 26:30.589 I have a feeling that's gonna change in a couple of hours. 26:30.672 --> 26:31.715 I'll let you know how he's doing. 26:31.798 --> 26:33.508 Nice to have you back, Helm. 26:33.592 --> 26:35.802 So how does it feel to be back? 26:35.885 --> 26:37.846 Like someone took kryptonite out of my shoe. 26:37.929 --> 26:38.930 [chuckles] 26:39.014 --> 26:42.142 But I'm still coming down from the most perfect date I've ever had, 26:42.225 --> 26:44.394 so it might be that, too. 26:44.477 --> 26:46.896 Wow. A busted wedding, driving the bride's getaway van, 26:46.980 --> 26:49.941 and starting your new job a day early was a perfect date? 26:50.025 --> 26:52.319 My sense of perfect' may be a little odd, 26:52.402 --> 26:54.863 but I got to spend the day with you. 26:54.946 --> 26:56.406 [cellphone dings and vibrates] 26:56.489 --> 26:58.658 Sam Sutton. Dr. Wilson must've left 26:58.742 --> 27:01.119 and he needs someone else to entertain. 27:01.202 --> 27:03.121 Crap. 911. 27:03.204 --> 27:05.665 -Damn it! Adams! -Go! I'll call you tonight! 27:09.085 --> 27:11.379 -What the hell happened? -Oh, my God. 27:11.463 --> 27:12.839 I was checking in on him, and then his chest tube 27:12.922 --> 27:14.549 started pouring blood, he's lost over two liters. 27:14.633 --> 27:16.259 His aorta must've transected. 27:16.343 --> 27:17.969 He's bleeding out into his chest. 27:18.053 --> 27:20.013 The chart it was only grade one this morning. 27:20.096 --> 27:21.973 All right. We need to get him up to the O.R. right now. 27:22.057 --> 27:23.433 I already asked them to get it ready. 27:23.516 --> 27:26.728 Right. Meet me up there and prep him as fast as you can. 27:33.985 --> 27:35.445 What are you doing? 27:36.196 --> 27:38.490 -[Link] Takin' a break. -Out here? 27:39.074 --> 27:40.283 It's quieter. 27:41.785 --> 27:42.744 Or it was. 27:44.913 --> 27:46.122 You want me to leave? 27:47.374 --> 27:48.792 Is that what you want? 27:49.542 --> 27:51.628 What is going on with you? 27:51.711 --> 27:55.965 Just wondering what you want, that's all. 27:56.966 --> 27:58.134 I... 28:00.762 --> 28:03.640 I-- I think that you should move out. 28:04.557 --> 28:07.227 I've been thinking about it for a while, I think that it's... 28:08.061 --> 28:10.814 confusing for the kids. 28:10.897 --> 28:12.357 So, this is about the kids? 28:13.483 --> 28:15.443 -Yes. -Not Rocky the Flying Squirrel? 28:15.527 --> 28:16.778 Sam? 28:17.612 --> 28:18.863 No. 28:18.947 --> 28:23.368 No, not necessarily, but, yeah, I want to be able to meet someone. 28:23.451 --> 28:25.078 Well, you seem to be doing just fine. 28:25.161 --> 28:27.163 I'm not comfortable bringing people home like you are. 28:27.247 --> 28:28.581 I haven't done that in months. 28:28.665 --> 28:31.710 I've been too busy packing lunches, 28:31.793 --> 28:34.754 and showing up at Luna's doctor's appointments 28:34.838 --> 28:37.257 and being your shoulder to cry on and your punching bag. 28:37.340 --> 28:39.217 Why do I feel like you're accusing me of something? 28:39.300 --> 28:43.221 I've changed my entire life to revolve around you, us. 28:43.304 --> 28:44.723 I never asked you to! 28:45.890 --> 28:48.852 [thunder rumbles] 28:48.935 --> 28:51.604 [spectators applauding] 28:51.688 --> 28:54.399 And now, the moment that we've all been waiting for... 28:54.482 --> 28:56.776 the Catherine Fox Award. 28:56.860 --> 28:59.821 This award is given to those who have achieved 28:59.904 --> 29:03.283 excellence in our field while pushing boundaries. 29:03.366 --> 29:06.119 Here to present this year's winner, 29:06.202 --> 29:10.790 is a Fox recipient herself, one of our most well-known 29:10.874 --> 29:15.211 boundary-pushers, Dr. Meredith Grey. 29:16.337 --> 29:18.715 Wait a minute. Why aren't they calling me up there? 29:18.798 --> 29:22.093 I took that plane ride from hell just to present the damn award. 29:23.011 --> 29:24.554 -[Meredith] This is a room filled... -Ben! 29:24.637 --> 29:25.930 -...with medical genius. -Sorry, I'm late. 29:26.014 --> 29:27.974 I look around and see those responsible 29:28.057 --> 29:30.935 for incredible achievements in medicine this year. 29:31.019 --> 29:34.063 Bio-artificial hearts, partial heart transplants, 29:34.147 --> 29:37.150 stem cell therapy, xenotransplantation, 29:37.233 --> 29:40.028 gene editing... but for the first time ever, 29:40.111 --> 29:42.322 Dr. Fox, in her infinite wisdom, 29:42.405 --> 29:45.366 has decided that this is the year to break the rules. 29:46.409 --> 29:48.286 For the first time ever, 29:48.369 --> 29:51.581 the award is going to go to a non-surgical project, 29:51.664 --> 29:53.750 even a non-nominee. 29:56.920 --> 30:00.465 We are in the midst of national public health crisis in this country. 30:00.548 --> 30:01.883 -Right now, in more than... -I taught them. 30:01.966 --> 30:03.426 -...half of our states... -I taught them at my clinic. 30:03.510 --> 30:06.679 ...women are being forced to carry not only unwanted pregnancies 30:06.763 --> 30:08.056 but unsafe pregnancies. 30:08.681 --> 30:11.184 They are legally prohibited from receiving care, 30:11.267 --> 30:13.812 that protects not only their reproductive rights, 30:13.895 --> 30:15.271 but their survival. 30:15.355 --> 30:19.067 And with these bans, doctors are no longer being trained 30:19.150 --> 30:21.110 in these procedures, life-saving procedures, 30:21.194 --> 30:23.530 that are used in more than just most abortions. 30:23.613 --> 30:27.033 But there is one doctor who is trying to change all of that, 30:27.116 --> 30:31.704 one procedure at a time, one trainee at a time. 30:31.788 --> 30:35.124 Whose groundbreaking work in protecting reproductive rights 30:35.208 --> 30:37.627 and training the next generation of doctors 30:37.710 --> 30:40.088 on how to perform reproductive care. 30:40.171 --> 30:44.926 Dr. Miranda Bailey, we would love to present you with the Catherine Fox Award 30:45.009 --> 30:48.888 for your significant contribution to medicine this year. 30:54.102 --> 30:55.979 Get up there. Go! 30:58.773 --> 31:01.651 [cheers and applause] 31:03.820 --> 31:05.280 Oh, my God! 31:05.363 --> 31:08.783 Congratulations. Thank you. 31:17.375 --> 31:18.585 Yeah! 31:19.377 --> 31:21.713 Okay, okay. 31:21.796 --> 31:25.675 Okay. Oh, my God. It's been such a long year. 31:25.758 --> 31:27.010 Hi! 31:27.635 --> 31:29.721 Okay. Okay. Okay. 31:30.889 --> 31:32.307 Okay. 31:32.390 --> 31:35.351 [sobbing] 31:39.188 --> 31:42.108 [Winston] You're debating the logic of a non-nominee winning an award. 31:42.191 --> 31:44.110 -[Maggie] I mean, kinda! -[Winston] Yeah. 31:45.612 --> 31:49.324 Well, at least it was Bailey who stole it-- Won. Won. 31:49.407 --> 31:50.658 At least it was Bailey who won. 31:50.742 --> 31:54.203 If I'm going to lose to somebody, it might as well be her. 31:54.287 --> 31:55.538 Oh, man. 31:56.080 --> 31:59.792 I couldn't stop thinking of Baby Arlo tonight, 31:59.876 --> 32:01.794 just wondering what he'll do with his life. 32:01.878 --> 32:04.213 It doesn't matter what he does, he has a life now. 32:04.297 --> 32:05.506 Thanks to you. 32:05.590 --> 32:07.425 Hey, thanks to us. 32:08.760 --> 32:10.470 You want to get a drink? 32:12.305 --> 32:13.806 Is this what we are now? 32:13.890 --> 32:15.767 Married, but apart, 32:15.850 --> 32:19.187 and having mind-blowing sex whenever we're in the same room? 32:19.270 --> 32:21.731 When we pull off medical miracles together? 32:22.357 --> 32:25.985 Sex and medical miracles were the two things we always got right. 32:30.448 --> 32:31.407 Maggie... 32:33.117 --> 32:34.369 should we get divorced? 32:36.996 --> 32:38.623 Is that what you want? 32:38.706 --> 32:40.875 I want to excel at my new job. 32:40.959 --> 32:43.336 Like, really tear it up. 32:43.419 --> 32:47.423 And I want to save lives and help patients like Arlo 32:47.507 --> 32:49.592 and I want to teach this next generation everything I know 32:49.676 --> 32:51.386 and I want to break new ground. 32:51.469 --> 32:55.181 And I don't want this to be my last Fox Award nomination. 32:55.264 --> 32:56.766 I want it to be the beginning. 32:57.517 --> 33:00.228 Well, let's just start with that. 33:00.311 --> 33:02.063 We'll figure out the rest later. 33:11.531 --> 33:12.448 to take their picture with you. 33:12.532 --> 33:14.826 Oh, no... I ugly-cried. 33:14.909 --> 33:17.704 I can't believe I ugly-cried 33:17.787 --> 33:20.498 in front of the most accomplished surgeons in the world. 33:20.581 --> 33:22.250 Well, if it makes you feel any better, 33:22.333 --> 33:24.293 I plan on ugly-crying in the car on the way home. 33:24.377 --> 33:25.378 Hmm? 33:25.461 --> 33:28.923 I'm going to lose all of my funding because I cannot bite my tongue. 33:29.007 --> 33:31.175 -Well, you'll get more. -How? 33:31.259 --> 33:33.845 'Cause you're you, and you won't stop until you do. 33:33.928 --> 33:35.972 Some of us find that annoying. 33:36.055 --> 33:40.435 [Indistinct conversations] 33:40.518 --> 33:42.562 I just spent the last hour in the lobby 33:42.645 --> 33:45.481 and missed Bailey winning a Catherine Fox award 33:45.565 --> 33:47.400 because I was reading all of Meredith's research. 33:47.483 --> 33:50.695 She is about to sink my brother's entire legacy. 33:50.778 --> 33:53.781 And the irony of that is a little more than I can take, so... 33:53.865 --> 33:55.950 I'm gonna head to a meeting, do you wanna come? 33:57.160 --> 33:58.578 Um... 33:58.661 --> 34:01.080 When we were on the plane and it started to go down, 34:01.164 --> 34:04.083 I tried to drink Catherine's martini. 34:06.794 --> 34:08.755 -And did you? -No, no, no. 34:08.838 --> 34:11.215 Bailey knocked it out of my hand. 34:11.299 --> 34:14.594 But ever since, that's all I can think about. 34:14.677 --> 34:16.971 I mean, alcohol is all I see. 34:18.222 --> 34:20.892 Well, of course it is. You're an alcoholic. 34:20.975 --> 34:23.061 Alcoholics love alcohol. 34:24.687 --> 34:27.732 Sobriety is unbelievably hard on a normal day. 34:27.815 --> 34:30.234 And we... we thought we were going to die. 34:30.318 --> 34:33.529 Yeah, I just wish I could take the edge off. 34:33.613 --> 34:34.864 Right. 34:34.947 --> 34:36.783 Every day I wish I could just have a glass of wine 34:36.866 --> 34:38.076 like everybody else. 34:38.159 --> 34:40.536 Yeah, well, we're not everybody else. 34:40.620 --> 34:41.829 We're not. 34:42.622 --> 34:43.956 Let's find a meeting. 34:44.040 --> 34:47.043 Um, I-- I better wait for Catherine. 34:47.126 --> 34:49.629 All right, I'm gonna find a meeting. 34:49.962 --> 34:52.215 And I'm gonna text you the address. 34:58.930 --> 35:00.515 Your vodka tonic, Sir. 35:08.731 --> 35:12.193 ♪ The mirror falls ♪ 35:13.319 --> 35:15.279 ♪ Broken shards ♪ 35:18.533 --> 35:23.621 ♪ Find your calm and carry on ♪ 35:25.665 --> 35:28.709 ♪ The house is dark ♪ 35:30.044 --> 35:33.005 ♪ The shadows long ♪ 35:34.924 --> 35:36.050 Hey. 35:37.885 --> 35:39.053 What's this? 35:39.137 --> 35:40.429 Did you read it? 35:43.516 --> 35:45.101 Ah... 35:46.811 --> 35:49.814 -I don't understand. -I did pretend not to hear you. 35:50.523 --> 35:52.108 I was tired, 35:52.191 --> 35:53.860 and scared and overwhelmed, 35:53.943 --> 35:55.820 and I know that sounds stupid, 35:55.903 --> 35:58.865 but I thought that what I should do in that moment 35:58.948 --> 36:01.450 was to focus on the children, so that's what I did. 36:01.534 --> 36:05.538 And as you can tell, I'm still tired and scared and overwhelmed, 36:05.621 --> 36:09.083 and I probably just blew up my career, but... 36:11.460 --> 36:12.962 I miss you. 36:15.840 --> 36:17.842 Listen, I met Michael. 36:17.925 --> 36:21.637 He's wonderful. So great with the kids. 36:21.721 --> 36:23.181 [laughs] Then what do you want from me? 36:24.557 --> 36:27.476 Michael is Zola's tutor. He's brilliant. 36:27.935 --> 36:29.604 So you went to my house? 36:29.687 --> 36:33.274 [chuckles] Yeah, I went to your house, I did. 36:33.357 --> 36:35.568 Why didn't you mention that in the lab? 36:35.651 --> 36:38.696 Well, because you were in mad-scientist mode and also... 36:39.447 --> 36:41.657 -like, Michael. -Michael? 36:42.325 --> 36:44.785 Michael exclusively dates men. 36:46.162 --> 36:47.747 Okay. [chuckles] 36:48.456 --> 36:49.832 Really? 36:50.791 --> 36:55.296 You know, I went to your house because I thought I was gonna die today. 36:55.379 --> 36:58.382 It's a long story and I didn't die, obviously. 36:58.466 --> 37:02.511 But it made me realize how badly I want to live. 37:02.595 --> 37:06.265 And that I've wasted years of my life trying to avoid pain. 37:06.349 --> 37:10.519 And I went to your house to say that I never should've let you walk away, 37:10.603 --> 37:12.813 and to say that I want to live a whole life 37:13.731 --> 37:17.818 with love and mess and pain and you. 37:19.987 --> 37:21.489 Well, okay, then. 37:22.114 --> 37:23.449 Okay, then. 37:24.742 --> 37:27.787 ♪ Close your eyes ♪ 37:28.537 --> 37:31.499 ♪ Frozen oceans of time ♪ 37:33.542 --> 37:39.548 ♪ Trust the silence ♪ When it gets too loud ♪ 37:45.179 --> 37:47.014 ♪ A final word ♪ 37:48.683 --> 37:50.434 I already checked. 37:50.518 --> 37:52.228 She's on the minimum settings. 37:53.312 --> 37:54.981 That's good news. 37:55.064 --> 37:56.941 You don't think I don't know that? 37:57.024 --> 38:00.152 I'm confused. You're mad that she's... doing better? 38:00.945 --> 38:02.196 I'm mad at you! 38:02.863 --> 38:07.034 No, no. I am... I am enraged by you. 38:07.118 --> 38:11.122 You are the most selfish, arrogant, impulsive, 38:11.205 --> 38:13.291 enraging person I've ever met. 38:13.374 --> 38:16.085 You never consider anyone else's feelings. 38:16.168 --> 38:19.964 You never care about how anyone else feels or what they want. 38:22.174 --> 38:26.429 You put me in an impossible situation today 38:26.512 --> 38:29.432 and I hate you for that. I hate you so much 38:29.515 --> 38:33.185 that I'm going to cry now because that's how I express anger, 38:33.269 --> 38:36.063 and then I'm going to hate you even more because you saw me cry. 38:36.147 --> 38:39.150 And the worst part is, you saved her. 38:40.526 --> 38:43.779 You saved my favorite person. 38:44.572 --> 38:49.201 So now, I don't get to just hate you, I have to love you, too. 38:49.285 --> 38:52.538 [crying softly] 39:07.386 --> 39:09.305 We'll do an emergent thoracotomy. 39:09.388 --> 39:12.725 We will get in there and cross-clamp the aorta as quickly as we can 39:12.808 --> 39:14.935 to give anesthesia time to catch up on blood volume. 39:15.019 --> 39:16.896 Then we'll do the repair. 39:16.979 --> 39:21.067 Yasuda, you're on retraction. Adams, you are on suction. 39:21.150 --> 39:23.819 I need you to work as quickly as you can, 39:23.903 --> 39:25.738 so I need you both to anticipate. 39:25.821 --> 39:27.615 -[Mika] Absolutely. -[Lucas] Got it. 39:27.698 --> 39:29.408 His lap pads are ready. 39:31.202 --> 39:33.829 -Dr. Altman! -Oh, my God. Page Hunt. 39:33.913 --> 39:36.040 -Page everyone! -[Mika] Get a crash cart! 39:38.584 --> 39:42.088 Do you have any idea how many times I've switched clinic days 39:42.171 --> 39:45.591 with a fellow or asked Amelia to change the Scout schedule 39:45.674 --> 39:47.051 so that I can be there for you and Luna? 39:47.134 --> 39:50.304 Do not put me and Luna in the middle of your constant need 39:50.388 --> 39:52.765 to save the day. We are fine! 39:52.848 --> 39:56.060 It's not that I want to save the day, it's that I care about you and Luna! 39:56.143 --> 39:59.397 Well, since it's all such a chore for you, moving out should be a great option. 39:59.480 --> 40:02.441 Right. Since we're just roommates, like you told Sam. 40:02.525 --> 40:04.193 What was I supposed to say? 40:04.276 --> 40:08.614 [scoffs] Something that sounds like more than two random people co-habitating? 40:08.697 --> 40:10.616 Well, you're really gonna get hung up on semantics? 40:10.699 --> 40:11.826 What does it matter? 40:11.909 --> 40:14.245 It's not semantics, Jo! It's love! 40:17.123 --> 40:18.791 I'm in love with you, Jo. 40:18.874 --> 40:22.044 I am so completely in love with you. How do you not see that? 40:25.923 --> 40:29.593 I've loved you since you were a freshman, and I was a senior, 40:29.677 --> 40:33.347 and we wore cheesy crab hats and served meals in buckets. 40:33.431 --> 40:35.391 And I've almost said it a hundred times. 40:35.474 --> 40:39.395 I say it to myself. I say it in the mornings when you're mean to me 40:39.478 --> 40:40.813 before you've had your coffee. 40:42.523 --> 40:45.901 I say it when I see you studying next to the fireplace. 40:45.985 --> 40:51.740 I say it when... You think I can't hear you sing to Luna, I can. 40:51.824 --> 40:54.118 I should have said it out loud. 40:54.201 --> 40:56.871 But I didn't want to freak you out and... 40:57.538 --> 40:59.039 then when we found out about Luna... 41:01.500 --> 41:02.626 I love you. 41:03.794 --> 41:06.255 And I'm gonna love you forever. 41:08.090 --> 41:10.259 You unbelievable dummy. 41:14.346 --> 41:15.639 I love you too. 41:17.516 --> 41:18.726 [scoffs] 41:18.809 --> 41:22.563 [Nina Lee's "River" playing] 41:27.860 --> 41:30.654 [Meredith] Sometimes we have to work extremely hard 41:30.738 --> 41:32.615 to achieve focus and perspective. 41:34.533 --> 41:36.160 Dr. Altman, you need to wake up! 41:36.243 --> 41:37.495 Hey! Do you hear me? 41:37.578 --> 41:40.331 You are chief and you have children who need you and... 41:40.414 --> 41:41.624 Why won't you wake up? 41:42.416 --> 41:43.626 What the hell happened? 41:43.709 --> 41:45.669 She collapsed but she's breathing. 41:46.420 --> 41:47.838 -[Lucas] He's coding. He's bleeding out. -From what? 41:47.922 --> 41:49.757 A transected aorta. 41:49.840 --> 41:51.592 -I just lost her pulse. -What? 41:51.675 --> 41:53.219 -Started compressions! -How's Sam? 41:53.302 --> 41:55.095 He's critical. I'm doing everything I can. 41:55.179 --> 41:56.305 All right, I need a new gown and gloves. 41:56.388 --> 41:58.140 We need to cross-clamp the aorta. 41:58.224 --> 41:59.934 Lucas, do not do anything until an attending gets here. 42:00.017 --> 42:01.810 We paged everyone, no one's coming in, we don't have time. 42:01.894 --> 42:03.687 And Pierce, she mentored you, yeah? 42:03.771 --> 42:06.232 I'll open, but you need to cross-clamp. You'll do it faster. 42:06.315 --> 42:07.983 No, Adams, do not do that! 42:08.067 --> 42:10.194 Adams, my name is on his chart, he's my patient! 42:10.277 --> 42:11.362 Simone, he's dying. 42:11.445 --> 42:13.489 [Meredith] But when we do... 42:13.572 --> 42:14.865 Okay, gown and glove me. 42:14.949 --> 42:17.535 The second you cut into his chest, there's no turning back. 42:17.618 --> 42:19.620 Chief Altman, you do not die on me. 42:19.703 --> 42:21.705 All right, here we go. 42:22.706 --> 42:24.667 [Meredith] ...everything suddenly becomes all clear. 42:25.751 --> 42:27.670 Dr. Hunt, you're needed in O.R. one. 42:27.753 --> 42:29.046 Yeah, I'll be there soon. 42:29.129 --> 42:32.174 No, it's Dr. Altman. You need to go now. 42:32.258 --> 42:33.217 Now! 42:33.300 --> 42:34.552 [Meredith] You can see your path. 42:34.635 --> 42:36.971 ♪ Is where I hold more regrets... ♪ 42:37.054 --> 42:38.681 You see your life. 42:39.682 --> 42:41.350 ♪ Whoa, whoa ♪ 42:41.433 --> 42:44.103 [Meredith] You see your purpose and why you are here. 42:44.186 --> 42:46.480 ♪ Whoa, whoa ♪ 42:48.274 --> 42:50.067 ♪ Whoa, whoa ♪ 42:50.150 --> 42:51.527 [Meredith] But just because you see it... 42:51.610 --> 42:54.154 ♪ That's alright with me ♪ 42:54.238 --> 42:56.240 She's in V-Fib. Clear! 42:56.323 --> 42:57.866 ♪ That I'm goin' to the river ♪ 42:57.950 --> 42:59.577 Teddy. [panting] 42:59.660 --> 43:02.246 Teddy! Here. Teddy! 43:02.329 --> 43:03.455 Clear! 43:03.539 --> 43:07.835 ♪ Goin' to the river ♪ 43:07.918 --> 43:09.461 Teddy, stay with me. 43:10.921 --> 43:12.673 [Meredith] ...it doesn't mean you'll live up to it. 43:12.756 --> 43:14.091 Clear! 43:14.174 --> 43:18.721 ♪ I'm goin' to the river to be redeemed ♪ 43:23.142 --> 43:28.147 [closing theme music playing]